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#PREPARING MYSELF FOR ANGST

vvolfstare · 10 months

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🪦: to visit a haunted house with my muse!

@kobik

Taking his kid to Coney Island was practically a rite of passage, but Bucky could admit he had doubts about the haunted house. He knew nothing in there was real. He was pretty sure Kobik knew nothing in there was real, although for all her power he wasn't always clear on her real-world experience. But taking a couple of trauma survivors into a place where the entire purpose was to have things that didn't look human jump out at them seemed questionable at best. Somebody was bound to get hurt, and it probably wouldn't be one of them. At least it was a ride and not a walk-through, so the odds of anyone getting close enough to touch them were small.

He was also a hopeless pushover when it came to her. Maybe Bucky always would have been the kind of dad who spoiled his kids silly, but he couldn't help wanting to make up for all the things she'd never gotten to have as a weapon in Hydra's arsenal. "You sure you wanna?" His grin was teasing as they looked up at the black dragon draped over the roof, a grinning animatronic skeleton greeting them from the ticket booth. Bucky had stepped back to let her run this show today, choosing the rides and games and food. He was just there to make sure she had the time of her life.

#chat: kobik #kobik #verse!independent #omg #i didn't remember what that meme was from #so i saw the grave and was like #PREPARING MYSELF FOR ANGST #😂😂#this is much sweeter #also based on a real ride!#let me know if anything needs changing!#<3

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eumivrse · 7 months

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warning(s) pure angst, jjk chapter 120 SPOILERS

arguments with kento are always the worst.

you’ve learned over the years that you’d probably prefer it if he would just scream back when he’s mad rather than being dead silent.

because when he’s angry, he doesn’t speak. he just gives you space to cool off, then he always makes sure to kiss you before you sleep. a way to let you know that tomorrow is a new day and he still loves you the same even if things are heated; that you can always talk it out with him.

you hate it because he always, always apologizes first even if it’s your fault sometimes, but you always appreciated his way of communicating. it’s as if he would rather take the jab every time than have you mad at him.

however, he couldn’t do so that day— october 31, 2018. he had to go to shibuya and left with tension between the two of you. you don’t even remember what exactly you argued about— all you recall was that it ended with you both saying something that could’ve easily passed as unforgivable, words specifically chosen to wound each other’s feelings.

and as per, kento gave you your space and left with you having the last word.

except you never got that good night’s kiss.

when news reached you, you didn’t even react. how could you? the last words you said to him was “then leave already,” with the coldest, meanest tone you’ve ever spoken to him in.

you just stared at the wall for what seemed like days. people were calling you non stop, but your phone was turned off. you hadn’t even left your shared bedroom. the comforter still had his scent on it and you’re afraid that it’ll disappear if you get up for even a minute and then his passing will feel real.

it wasn’t until ino stopped by to drop off his cellphone— one of the only traces he left that night— that you did something else besides laying down. you stared at kento’s scuffed lock screen, sitting at the dim dining room table.

his wallpaper was a photo of you. he took it while you were eating in the very place you’re sitting in right now and you begged him for days to delete it. he insisted that you looked pretty so you let him be. he’d always been like that, so stern with others but he had such a soft spot for you.

you knew his password because it was your anniversary date, then the messaging app opened as soon as you punched the numbers in. it’s your chat, the last conversation you had on there was him asking if you wanted to eat outside because he was free the next morning and you obliged. that was the night before you had an argument the next day and lunch plans were cancelled.

he had an unsent message— all typed out, but he never pressed the send button for some reason.

he was apologizing for hurting you.

he said that he knows it’s been tough for you these days and how he should’ve seen the signs sooner instead of thinking everything’s okay.

then he apologized again for not being able to kiss you goodnight, and for being a shitty husband that couldn’t tend to his wife’s needs.

the message concluded with “i miss you, my precious girl. make sure to eat and sleep well, i’ll make it up to you soon.”

kento’s death hadn’t hit your reality until those words on the screen registered in your mind. your dry, pale lips from barely drinking water trembled, eyes welled up in tears for the first time since you found out. so many different emotions crashed over you in such little time, your chest felt tight and you let go of his phone, clattering onto the wooden table.

“then leave already,” replayed in your mind over and over and the way his face turned pale from your harsh words. with how things turned out, it almost sounded like you were sending him on death’s row and it made you feel like you’re responsible somehow.

guilt loomed over you like a stormy cloud for making him feel like he wasn’t good enough for you and you wonder how different the future might’ve turned out if you’ve at least gave him a hug before he left.

if you could’ve just set your pride aside and kissed him goodbye like he does with you before you sleep.

and if he still loved you the same at his final moments.

#yikes #why am i feeling guilty lolol #mentally preparing myself when it gets animated #might not be accurate to the plot but tbh idc #nanami kento #nanami kento x reader #nanami x reader #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk angst #nanami angst #kento nanami #nanami kento angst

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akitheasteroid · 2 months

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!TW! Blood

Whoops my hand slipped

Whoops it slipped again :D

#im just preparing myself for if 3 dies soon yk #yummy angst #smg4 #smg4 fanart #smg34 #smg3 #smg3 x smg4 #smg43

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hualianisms · 5 months

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finally got a copy of the revised tgcf novels and skimmed book 4 and the fenglian breakup hurts so much more in the revised version... fx's whole line about "i really don't know, then why have i followed you all this time" is removed. instead what happens is, right after xl says "no, it was the past me who was crazy", xl directly tells fx to leave:

XL: "You should go." FX: "What?" XL: "I said, I don't need you anymore, you should go."

all the other parts of the scene are the same. these revised lines, though, are so painful... it also makes it obvious that fx did not abandon xl, he only left bc xl literally dismissed him as a servant and directly told him to leave 😭

#tgcf #xie lian #feng xin #fenglian #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #either way fx did not abandon xl!!! i will die on this hill!!!#i think it's also impt to rmb that this scene takes place right after xl comes back from being stabbed 100 times #xl is not himself at all and is extremely traumatized #me desperately reminding myself: postcanon they are happy and best friends again it's literally canon that they are reunited and friends #again and happy #oh god this is genuinely so painful in a way that i was not prepared for #im sorry for the new year angst; my copy of the revised novel just happened to arrive on jan 1 😭😭😭#my translation #mp: tgcf #i need to see what else changed but its gonna take me forever to actually read all 244 chapters omfg #oh yes mulian is gayer in the revised version btw

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backfromtwitterforw · 5 months

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I'm still in huge denial about cc!forever maybe leaving qsmp for good, but trying to start a mourning process (crying mostly)

And then it hit me. The truth that i never ever want to see in any of my hyperfixations.

One day qsmp will be over. One day there will be no qsmp anymore. One day, we'll start Twitch, and no one will ever log on qsmp again. We will not wait to see which egg will connect because there will be no eggs no more, no federation no more, no island no more.

At first, we'll feed on any crumb the ccs will give us in making qsmp references in their other games, other let's plays, other smps. And slowly, it will just be a memory.

And then, in time, slowly, we'll forget lore details, characters names, events, and the whole qsmp will just be a distant memory.

#trying to already prepare myself #i dont deal well with endings and goodbyes #i mean i always avoid the last episode of my favorite shows so that they're not over for me #qsmp #qsmp angst #hyperfixation #it really is a problem that things have to end.

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inymoemini · 6 months

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Re-listening to the last episode (spoilers)

The monster at the end called normal "the chosen one" and we already know the prophecy about the first born child of those who released the doodler would be the chosen one. what if normal was the actual chosen one? what if lark was actually his father? what if normal messes up so bad they had to activate code purple? what if normal forgot that lark was even his dad and then just made hero the new chosen one?

#dndads #dndads spoliers #iny talks #honestly im just preparing myself for the angst next episode by making my own #normal oak #lark oak

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dramarants · 7 months

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i'm afraid that not only am i overlooking that 'se kyung' and eun gyeol gotta come clean about their timelines and identities but also that she literally learned sign language for his brother who genuinely likes her in present day 👀

#twinkling watermelon #i still think they're cowards for not letting his first love actually be the ahjumma in her youth but whatevs now they can be 2gether in '2 #but i'm sure the entanglement with his brother is gonna come back at the most inopportune time as per kdrama rules #must prepare myself for the angst

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mari-writing · 2 years

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Selfish Wishes | Yae Miko x Traveller! Reader | Genshin Impact

[For the first time in five hundred years, Miko doesn't know what to wish for on her birthday.]

Fandom: Genshin Impact

Genre: Fluff, angst, kisses

Characters: Yae Miko, Ei mentioned

Perspective: 2nd Person for reader.

Word Count: 1738

Miko had a strained relationship with her birthday. It got a little boring after the first fifty, redundant for the next fifty, then bitter when Ei left.

She used to be utterly miserable on the days leading to her birthday and the days after it had passed. Ei's birthday was the day before hers, after all, and she had no reason to happily celebrate if the person she had cared about the most wasn't around.

What made it worse was when the young Miko, the hopeful and utterly foolish young Miko, had began to make it her birthday wish for Ei to come back. Every birthday, she would whisper her wish to the moon. It was a habit Miko couldn't let go off, despite how hopeless everything seemed. It was a habit she repeated five hundred times.

But Miko never expected her last birthday to be the last time her birthday wish would be spent on wishing for Ei's return. Now, she had Ei back and even more, she had you. There was nothing else she could wish for, or rather, she had never considering wishing for anything else on her birthday.

With all this in mind, it was understandable Miko was shocked when you wished her happy birthday. You had asked to her stay up until midnight without telling her why, making it your mission to gently nudge her awake whenever she blinked and had closed her eyes a little too long for your liking. She never expected all this was so you could be the first to tell her those simple two words.

You were like a child, a childish being who found joy in the simplest of things. Still, Miko couldn't deny the flutter she felt when you told her those words. You were essentially saying you were glad for her existence, yes? Of course it made her heart react a little.

Miko didn't even have a chance to reply to, when you followed up with a question. "What is your birthday wish?"

The kitsune only faltered for a moment, but was quick to recover and quipped back at you. "Birthday wish? Dear, haven't I told you before? I already have everything I want and more." She looked at her nails, trying to look as nonchalant as possible with your gaze on her.

But you were good. You had learnt to read her in a way few people have learnt to. "You want something though."

Even if she didn't say it, you could tell she wasn't overly fond of her birthday. It was almost strange for the extravagant Yae Miko to want to do nothing for her birthday. You half-expected for her to have organized grand parties and all sorts of lavish events to celebrate, but there was nothing. You didn't mind though, it meant as soon as you were free, you could spend the rest of the day together. The only thing you wanted to do for her was grant her any wish she wanted, if she would let you.

Miko faltered again. You said it like it was a statement. An obvious fact that even a fool could work out.

"I'm a star, I have a sense for these things." You leaned back against the bed, looking up at the ceiling. "If you can't think of anything right now, don't worry. It can be as small or as grand as you wish." You sighed, a small smile on your face when you turned to her. "Be selfish, the most selfish you can be on your birthday. I won't mind what you wish for." Once again, you don't give her much of a chance to process your words when you stretch your arms out to the side. "Let's sleep now, we're both exhausted."

As usual, Miko fell into your arms for a cuddle and the two of you snuggled in bed as the lamp was turned off.

Unlike the usual, Miko did not nod off with you as time passed. She spent the rest of the night thinking over your words.

'Be selfish.'

She thought you meant in the morning, right before you left for commission. Miko almost reached for your arm, and pulled you back into bed to sleep with you more.

But she didn't, it wasn't what she wished. Instead, Miko watched as you finished getting ready for the day.

"I'll meet you at the shrine later." You told her as you kissed her cheek before waving goodbye and leaving her to her thoughts.

'The most selfish you can be.'

Apparently, Miko was a pretty selfless person seeing as she couldn't find a way to be selfish. She spent the day racking her head over what you asked of her, even the shrine maidens recognized that she was distracted and tried to avoid disturbing her.

Miko found herself wondering 'how does one be selfish on their birthday?'. All her previous birthday wishes were used for someone else's wellbeing. She didn't know what else to wish for.

It finally clicked when Miko saw you. She was resting against the railing of the balcony when she spotted you in the forest as you were in the middle of a commission.

With her sight, she easily saw and made you out despite how far away you were. But all of a sudden, she suddenly wanted you by her side at that very moment. She missed your scent, the softness of your hair, the feel of your skin.

All of a sudden, she knew what she wanted.

Only a few hours passed until you finished your final commission and you were teleporting to the shrine. You made sure to take your time so Miko would have enough time to consider what she wanted. Call it some sort of lovers bond, but you knew the exact moment she figured out what she wished. You didn't know what exactly she wished for though, so you were undeniably curious.

Had you payed a bit more attention to your surroundings, you would have noticed the lack of shrine maidens right away. There was no bustling of visitors or whispers of prayers, because Miko had sent them all away. There was only the rustling of the leaves from the wind, and the warm smell of lit candles.

Miko stood in the centre of the shrine, right in front of the sakura tree. It was clear she had been waiting for you, and clear she now had a wish in mind.

You stopped before her, crossing your arms as you met her gaze. "I sense you have a birthday wish."

"Astute as ever, beloved." She tried to hide her growing smirk behind her fingers.

You didn't notice, only eagerly nodding. "Okay - tell me and I'll grant it."

In a blink, Miko had her wish. One moment, you had been standing before her. The next, your back was pressed against the Sacred Sakura, each of Miko's hands beside your head. Her eyes glinted ever so menacingly as she watched your every move.

The way your mouth fell open ever so slightly, and the widening of your eyes was delicious. She loved seeing you so caught of guard, the great traveler and hero of three nations, nothing but a flustered mess ensnared between her arms.

But Miko knew how to savor a meal. Things are always sweeter when you wait longer, she chanted in her head as she dragged her lips down your neck with soft kisses. You almost jolted at the touch, but moved your head out of the way to give her more room regardless. How kind of you.

She made sure to reward you, gently nipping away at your skin. It was intriguing how the slightest changes in the pressure or length of her kisses on your neck could make you sing a different tune. Every noise you made was a melody to her ears, it put the bards and wandering poets of the world to shame compared to you.

Miko inhaled before she moved her head up, meeting your eyes. She leaned down until her breath was tickling your lips. She leaned forward the slightest bit more, her lips merely ghosting yours.

Then she stayed still.

A moment passed, then another until you realized the game she was playing. In desperation, you tried to lean in and chase after her lips, but Miko swiftly pulled away.

You pouted. "Miko, don't tease me." You muttered, eyes moving down to her lips as your heart longed for you to kiss them.

The kitsune only laughed, her pink hair bouncing gleefully as she did. "Didn't you say you wouldn't complain about my wishes? Don't go back on your word now."

Your frown deepened. "That wasn't my exact wording," You sighed, however, knowing you were in for a long tease.

Miko cooed, rubbing her thumb against your lips. That would be the only direct touch your lips would get for a long time. "Don't be too salty now, my dear." She licked her lips as she leaned in and whispered in your ear. "I have a preference for sweeter things, after all."

True to her promise, Miko spent countless time teasing you. So long, even the moon had began to make its appearance, and she still continued to suck and gnaw away at your skin.

The kitsune only relented when you reached the peak of your frustration, tears almost beginning to form from the corner of your eyes just from how many times you have been denied her lips.

"Save the best to last. That's what the humans say, yes?" She asks when she finally pulled away from your neck, taking a moment to admire her work of bruises and love bites on your heavily worshipped skin.

As you opened your mouth to reply, Miko is on your lips. She's hungry in her kisses, holding your cheeks to push you closer as she leaned in more. Each kiss is calculated, hitting all your weak points and leaving you shaking at the knees.

Between each kiss, she muttered some words before going in for more. Her soft lips made your head hazy, her canines and tongue sent you over the edge. Still, you manage to make out what she is saying between every huff and every kiss.

"Mine." She growled softly against your lips. "All mine." Miko declared, to you, to her, and the world, before sealing her lips once more.

I just wrote this all in like an hour so forgive any grammar mistakes. I've also started to slip into the 'I hate everything I write' hole and I'm desperately trying to climb out.

I had a whole 3500 word part 2 to innocent indulgence I decided I didn't like so didn't end up posting. If I had ended up posting it, it would have happened to be on Miko's birthday? What a crazy could-have-happened coincidence. When I realized it was Miko's birthday and I wasn't gonna post the part 2, I was like ajdskjb I need to write a fic right the heck now.

Unfortunately, I couldn't draw much inspiration from her birthday letter and I wasn't even entirely sure how Miko would spend her birthday.

But ay, we have this now, many many days later so it worked out in the end. Though, I also hope I can do something the my 3500 fic, enough that I'm happy to post it.

Thanks for reading!

Comment replies:

@nevermore-69 aosjjsjs I hope it was a real nice treat!!

@shockfirefly you know, you were actually tagged right at the beginning of part 2! I'll be sure to tag you again if I ever get it out 🙏

@liladoesfanfics damn straight 🛐🛐🛐🛐