#I'm lost in my own brain

[cryingatships]

Thinking about Kenta slowly settling into the X-Hunter family over the course of weeks and months, partly cause it's a foster home Tony's adopted kids, and partly because he's Kim's boyfriend.

Kenta visits Kim after a group practise just a few weeks after the events of canon and stands stiff next to the doors of the garage, not daring to step inside.

No one notices him (cause we all know how lax X-Hunter's security is lmfao) till the practise is finished and Kim is coming into the garage with the rest of the team to look at their performance reviews, and he notices Kenta standing all awkward and small and tiny.

He waves at Kenta, and it catches Alan's attention and of course he has to invite Kenta in (the man has a knack for picking up 'kids' at a moment's notice).

North tries to protest a little because hello this man literally tried to kill a few of us and sabotage our team in the worst possible way??? But Alan (and Kim's) glare shuts him up, and Kenta is invited inside graciously by Alan.

Kim perks up in his presence, but the rest of the people are still a little tense, especially Babe, Sonic, and Way (he's alive cause I said so. And he and Kenta has history, and not the good or the spice kind so!). They are not the most pleased, remembering the past, taking Kenta's actions as fatally dangerous but nothing personal, remembering how the circumstances made by Tony, and how Kenta went through weeks of therapy, and will be going to years more of it, all narrated by Kim during practise-breaks and team-meetings after he officially joined the team.

Jeff greets him with a smile, and Charlie nods in acknowledgement, having heard of Kenta from Jeff for years, though without any face to put the name onto before. But they resume talking numbers and times with Alan and the technical team, and soon no one is paying any attention to Kenta as he shuffles himself into one of the couches in the corner, stooping down and trying to make himself look as small as he feels.

He hears words, but does not register anything, thinking about the warm smile of Alan, the man who's entire team he tried to destroy, the same team he has poured his life and savings into, according to Kim. He thinks about Way, who has faced Tony for years too, just like Kenta himself, but has betrayed Tony in the end and sided with people who care for him, who loves him, who surrounds him now and would surround him forever. And he thinks about the eyes of Babe, who, like him, has gone through it all with Tony, who pulled himself out, even if it's right at the end. Babe never bent himself back to Tony's will, never put a gun on anyone's head and killed them just because Tony asked him to, never did all the terrible things Kenta has done, even when everything went against him, even when Kenta tried to destroy his career and imprison him in Tony's mansion again. Even when he was at his lowest, he was still strong enough to stand in front of Tony and spit in his name. He thinks of Jeff, who smiled at him, who had run away too, and about Charlie, who almost died thanks to Kenta playing villain for Tony and yet stood up and challenged Tony anyway.

They have suffered so much over the years, as much as Kenta has gone through in Tony's hand, yet they have run away, made their lives in the world outside without fear, have stood in front of Tony and looked at his face and not flinched.

And now they have looked at Kenta, and have let him in, let him stay, even though Kenta does not deserve it in the least bit. Even though he has pulled dirty tricks, tried to kill them again and again. Yet they nod at him, and smile at him, and let Alan and Kim invite him in, even when he doesn't deserve it, doesn't deserve forgiveness, doesn't deserve love, doesn't deserve Kim's love and Jeff's smile and Alan's kindness, even when he's a traitor, even when he's dirtier and lower than anything else, even when-

"Hey, you ok?"

A hand rests on his back, warm against the fabric of his shirt. The familiar scent of coffee, lemon, mixed with engine exhaust and gasoline tickle his nose. It's a strange combination, potent and slightly stinging, but it feels like warmth, cuddles, and home, even when Kenta does not know what a home is.

Kim sits down next to him and pulls Kenta's face on his shoulder.

"You ok? Are the smells here too much? Wanna leave?"

Kim's voice is an anchor against the rough waves of guilt, shame, anger, regret. He's warm and real by Kenta's side, and his hand is soft and forgiving as it moves through Kenta's hair—now longer and falling on his shoulders after Kim telling him how hot it looks for days. He, at least, doesn't seem to hate Kenta in the garage, since he invited Kenta and all.

"Don't you have more to talk about cars?"

"Not really. Alan let me go today. Saw you shaking alone in a corner and all... thought I should ease you in your first visit here."

"Will that be ok? I'm being a bother here, aren't I? I'll leave-"

But Kim doesn't let him go. A wraps an arm tight around Kenta and holds him to his side. The hands on Kenta's hair become gentler, and Kim's calming pheromones slowly spread between them.

"Nah, it's all good. We weren't talking anything that imp. Plus, Alan's worried about you, y'know?"

Kenta can't fathom why Alan would ever be worried about him. Being concerned for Kim is understandable, Kim's a racer and a good one at that, he's an important new addition to the team. Forgiving Kenta and letting him come in the garage for the sake of keeping Kim satisfied was also understandable, even downright kind, but...

"Why?" Kenta has to ask. "I... did them a lot of wrong."

"You can ask Alan later, if you want." Kim shrugs. "He's like that, I guess. He picked me up too, in case you didn't notice." There's a smile in his voice. He seems comfortable, far more than Kenta had thought was possible in a team that used to be his competitors till a few weeks ago. He seems... at home.

Kenta's glad he has found his home.

"..."

He doesn't say something for a while. Talking to Alan personally, asking him something like that? Kenta can't even imagine it. Tony would never allow someone to walk away without a punishment after trying to harm him in the littlest bit. And Kenta has done so, so much more to Alan and his team.

"Is this making you uncomfortable?" Kim asks after a minute of silence. "I swear Alan likes you, and the guys have all forgiven you too. Mostly, anyway. North's always a bit impulsive, but he's coming around too, so don't feel bad."

Kenta feels bad. He feels so bad. Worse now that he knows he's received so much forgiveness, and all of it undeserved too. Why would someone even do that, forgive people who brought them harm?

Kim notices his silence. And perhaps he takes it for discomfort, for he asks if Kenta is tired, if he wants to go home.

Home. Is that what he and Kim are making together?

He does want to leave, get away from the inquiring, sometimes concerned eyes. Get away from the forgiveness that burns shame and guilt into his skin. He wants to go home, bury himself in the piles of blankets on his and Kim's bed, breathe in lungfuls of his scent and drown in his kisses. But...

"Didn't you say you had to go for a team dinner after practise?"

"Right! About that... Alan's actually asked me to tell you to join us, if you'd like to. But if you want to go home now, then we can leave, let me just tell them goodbye."

And Kenta really, really does to go home. But he also wants to stay. He doesn't want Kim to miss a dinner with his still-new team, not when he wants to stay with the X-Hunters for many seasons still. And... he wants to stay, too. Check if Alan's really ok with him going, if the rest of the team will still be civil in closer proximity.

He wants to see how far kindness and forgiveness can go.

It will be uncomfortable. Enduring prying gazes for a few more hours, and maybe even awkward small talks as they try to shift around and bend the established pack dynamics to let Kenta, coward, traitor Kenta, come into their circle even if it's only for one dinner.

And then again, Kenta may just fuck it all up with ill timed words, or perhaps someone from the team, maybe North, or Way or Babe or Charlie or Sonic, or perhaps even Alan, kind as he is, realizes they've had enough of tolerating a weak, pathetic excuse of a person in their table.

But he wants to be brave, even if it's years late.

Kim deserves a pack. Kim loves him, and Kenta loves him just as much. He's not going to take it all away form Kim just because he's afraid, just because of 'what ifs'.

"No, I'll go for dinner with you. Tell Alan that, please, if they'll still have me."

Kim presses a kiss on his forehead, takes a long inhale of Kenta's scent, and gets up.

"Be right back, then!"

Kenta watches him walk towards the small circle of people gathered around the screens with blinking numbers of red.

He doesn't know what will happen, but he wants to try. He wants to brave. He wants a home. For Kim. And for himself.

#pit babe the series #pit babe #kimkenta #kentakim #pit babe fanfic #yeah so it happened #idk how i swear i was just gonna write a few lines about him being all awkward and then??? #anyway if there's mistakes or inconsistencies blame my sleep deprived brain it's literally like 5am - #ma fanfic #fanfiction #should I write more into how kenta slowly finds his own niche in the X-Hunter team slach pack slash alan's foster family for lost children? #kenta x kim #kim x kenta #where should we fit pete in this i wonder #i need a title too.. but i'm so bad at em

[erineas]

Being in a relationship with more than one version of the same skeleton should be a bit clashing sometimes. Especially if their personalities go different ways.

Imagine your sleep schedule is a mess and you just go to bed awfully late one night. You know you're bound to wake up past noon the next day, but you're too tired to care. There's nothing important to worry about tomorrow, anyways.

Hopefully, the one that finds you first is someone like Classic Sans, probably sent by Papyrus to pick you up for breakfast since he would be sleeping too if given the opportunity. He would see you there, hiding behind a comfy cocoon of your sheets, and would climb next to you to resume his napping in your company.

You two would happily nap the hours away if it wasn't for your next skeleton to appear.

Someone like Swapfell Sans would burst the door open (careful enough to not be too loud to startle you or to snap it from it's hinges, for that matter), probably thinking you were already awake. It's a surprise he didn't check on you earlier since he's the type of guy to be up and about at the very same hour you went to sleep, but he still didn't wait until noon to give you your 'good morning' kiss before going on his day.

He would wake you right then and there, complaining about how you shouldn't waste a productive day. He actually doesn't care if you use it to be productive or not, that's just his way to help you fix your schedule. And after all this time dating him, you know he means well.

From then on, your tired mind would have two options: leave the bed and fight the grogginess until you're functional again (and wait for him to sleep together at a decent hour) or fall right back into dreamland with the still sleeping skeleton in your arms.

Whatever you choose, if they're not to fight each other, you know someone will try to convince you to change your mind.

#That's just one thing #Not to mention they would do this all the time #With all choices at every opportunity in all scenarios #Brain will end up saturated having to choose between different things all the time #specially knowing both outcomes are good ones #It doesn't need to be Classic and Swapfell either they were just examples #It will get worse as you get more skeletons involved tho #Some would fight some would passively tempt you like in this specific combination #I kinda lost my train of thought here- I woke up after noon and have been writing this out since then #Felt like rambling in my own grogginess #I'm still sleepy #Anyways #5am random thoughts

[ifonlyitwasmidnight]

Hear me out. Hear me out!

Thirsty thoughts with Midnight.

18+ Respect that shit. Blank/ageless blogs DNI.

Everyone wants to kind of bag on missionary, right? 'Cause like, for sure, mating press? Life. Being fucked from behind, so lost in the feeling that your chest is pushed down against the mattress, his hand on the back of your head while he wrecks you? Heaven.

But. BUT!

Imagine, right? That missionary where it's him so lost in you. He started with his hands on your knees, pushing your legs open, but the sight of his cock disappearing into you over and over and over again has him weak.

His hands drop to your hips, trailing up your body until they grip the bed sheets on either side of your head. Your legs naturally close to rest on his hips, pulling him closer to you, deeper. Maybe one of his hands goes to the headboard behind you, using it as leverage to get further into you. Your hips are tilted at a perfect angle. Every drag of his cock sends you higher and higher.

He's gone, wrapped up in the feeling of you that he's not ashamed of the words or sounds coming from his mouth, buried deep in his chest that he's used to suppressing. His moans are music to your ears. The little whimpers he's usually embarrassed about tumbling out of him. His incoherent babble of, "You feel so fucking good," "I love you," and "I need more," make your back arch and your eyes roll back.

He's begging you to let him cum in you by his end, gasping and chest heaving after you've cum, gripping his tightly, and he doesn't want to lose the feeling. He wants to stay here, buried deep in you, but he can't hold it back anymore.

"Please, please, please, baby. Fuck, please, lemme cum in you." He's begging. You've never heard him beg. The headboard sounded like it would crack from how hard he was gripping it, white-knuckled. His lips were red and swollen, from where he couldn't get enough of your kisses, too obsessed with watching each and every change in your face. It was intoxicating. Sweet venom that he would drink every day, no matter the risk. You're nodding and desperate for his cum when he finally moans out your name into the stiflingly hot room, filling you more than you think you ever had been before.

Fucking you like this might be his new favorite thing.

Fit it. Ship it. I'm supposed to be working right now.

#midnights thirsty thoughts #draken #chifuyu matsuno #mitsuya takashi #ran haitani #ichigo kurosaki #shinji hirako #renji abarai #bakugou katsuki #izuku midoriya #shikamaru nara #itachi uchiha #kakashi hatake #smut #fanfic smut #I'm literally supposed to be doing other things #but the brain rot is real #I'm lost to my own thoughts guys #send help

[eldritchamy]

What the shit. Fighting a god in hand to hand combat as a gold dragon using immovable rods goes so fucking hard and it’s the backstory for a character that’s just in the main backstory???????? AMY???

You know how a lot of people, when making DND characters, make the mistake of having their level 1 PC have an elaborate backstory where they're super badass and already recognized as a hero?

When I made Ash I did the opposite. Her backstory is elaborate, yes, but in very mundane ways that inform her personality and how she perceives the world around her, and build up the logic of how she makes decisions.

I made everyone AROUND my PC a super powerful character who had done incredible things, and I gave Ash anxiety about it.

She feels, constantly, that she is inadequate by comparison. Her entire frame of reference is shaped by a bunch of women in her life that are outstandingly powerful, and she's just a quiet girl who makes leather goods and sells them for a living. She thinks of herself as the NPC in other people's more impressive lives.

Her mother, Lailah, is a nearly seven foot tall divine warrior created in Elysium to destroy Pit Fiends. She's an angel of lightning built like an MMA fighter, and she wields a weapon like piece of a lightning bolt (not stylized, I mean a real, glowing crackling arc of electricity that she holds like a staff and can be used like anything from a polearm to a spear to a whip, and when thrown it acts like a Lightning Bolt spell). She is built, both narratively and in game stats, to be an unkillable holy destroyer, capable of fighting MULTIPLE PIT FIENDS simultaneously, and winning. She's a CR 10+ magical creature (she's a homebrewed mix of Deva and Erinyes stat blocks with some unique flavor) with eighteen class levels, 16 in Zealot Barbarian and 2 in Fighter. She has a strength of 27 and a constitution of 25. She's designed to deal HUGE amounts of damage, tank unfathomable amounts in turn, NOT DROP WHEN SHE HITS ZERO HITPOINTS, and keep swinging until every devil in her way is a pile of dust, then use bonus action Second Wind to bring herself back above 0 so she doesn't incur the auto-death caveat on Zealot Barbarian's Rage Beyond Death ability. One of her attuned items is also the very simple uncommon item "Periapt of Wound Closure" which automatically stabilizes you at the start of your turn, thereby resetting the death saving throws she would theoretically have to make each time she gets hit below 0. Also, as an angel, she's innately immune to auto-death effects like Power Word Kill, which closes almost all loopholes that get around her build. She is UNSPEAKABLY badass. I ran a simulated round of combat with her once, and she could potentially one-shot a CR 15 Skittering Horror (228 HP) in a single turn. Her theoretical maximum damage output is like, 456 damage in a turn (granted this assumes all crits and rolling max damage).

So that's Ash's mom.

Aria is interesting. She was always strongly attuned to the forces of nature, and her magic grew quickly. Where Ash grew up with someone she knew would always be there to protect her from anything, Aria did NOT have that safety net, and spent her formative years learning to be more self-sufficient in terms of relying on her own power. So eventually she got sucked into an adventuring party consisting of herself (a tiefling Witch subclass with very strong druid flavor), a tiefling zealot barbarian, and a couple of elf twins who were an Arcana cleric and a Celestial Warlock. Sometime after they had made a name for themselves, they were tasked with stopping a suspected fledgling vampire who had been kidnapping girls and killing a bunch of people. When they arrived, they met Cass, who was very much NOT a new vampire. She was almost 150 years old and had been protecting women from abusers and overzealous debt collectors, and things had gotten a little messy with one or two of them, leading to a lot more attention than she normally got. They start off fighting Cass (Aria polymorphs herself into a dire wolf and lunges directly for the throat, which Cass found amusing and impressive) but realize in the banter that Cass wasn't the real problem, and she ends up being a sort of a lesson for the group in terms of whose word they trust and who they take jobs from (YES THE BACKSTORY'S BACKSTORY HAS NARRATIVE ARCS AND MORAL LESSONS THAT LEAD TO LONG TERM CHARACTER GROWTH OKAY I CAN'T HELP MYSELF). Cass, having a particular rapport with Aria, ends up joining their party as a dhampir Soulknife Rogue/Shadow Monk.

Yes, that's all backstory that I made up for an imaginary campaign that exists entirely as a set piece for Aria as one of Ash's story NPCs. This doesn't even touch on the fact that I liked Cass so much as a character that I gave HER an entire backstory of her own. I DON'T HAVE A PROBLEM.

Anyway the team only makes a bigger name for themselves for handling things that other groups can't. Eventually, they just happen to be in the Tenth District when the War of the Spark happens (major established event in the MTG canon), and I basically added some extra "scenes" to it that didn't violate existing canon so I could have that be the climax of their imaginary campaign. One of Aria's partners was a new planeswalker at the time and her spark got harvested by the Dreadhorde, specifically by the god eternal Bontu.

Gods in Magic The Gathering aren't honestly that special? They don't seem to have THAT much power, all things considered. Ravnica's gods are mostly powerful magical animals, and in the most recent Magic Story one of their gods (Anzrag the Quake Mole) was captured in an "evidence capsule" (basically Magic's version of a Pokeball). The most powerful god in MTG is probably the Ur Dragon honestly, unless you count the Eldrazi, but that's a whole other conversation since neither of those actually have the "God" creature type.

Anyway, Bontu was one of the gods of Amonket (basically a plane based on ancient Egypt), which had been conquered by an Elder Dragon planeswalker named Nichol Bolas. HE was the one who actually killed all but one of Amonket's gods, and then another planeswalker named Liliana Vess (extremely powerful necromancer) raised them as zombies for his army, because Bolas had a ton of complicated leverage over her (magical contract that he could invoke to kill her if she betrayed him). So Bontu was a god zombie.

Here's a reference:

Well, Aria was a level 18 Witch at this point since this was the climax of their campaign, so she had access to the Shapechange spell, a 9th level transmutation that lets you become any creature with a challenge rating equal or lower than your character level. And the best candidate for that was an Adult Gold Dragon (CR 17). So Aria goes full berserk and stands up on her dragon hind legs and picks a fight with a dead god that she's determined to make deader, and has a Godzilla vs King Ghidorah standoff with her.

So how do you fight a god that can suck your soul out and instantly kill you with a single touch? You don't let it touch you.

What Aria did was basically inspired by this gif of a Wildebeest trying to charge at a lion:

Or this:

And to be clear, yes, I'm saying Aria was the lion in that situation. She basically did a big dragon threat display to get Bontu's attention, and used the Gold Dragon's weakening breath to give Bontu disadvantage on Strength checks and saves. Bontu charged at her, and at the last second Aria dropped to the ground and then shot back up, clamped her teeth around the god's throat, and used her weight to throw Bontu around and knock her off balance, and her superior strength to grab her by the wrists and wrestled her to the ground so she couldn't get a grip on Aria. She had every part of the god that could have killed her pinned, and used the claws of her wings to pull Bontu's armor apart and tear at everything she could reach while thrashing her around. It was Fen, the Arcana cleric, who thought to use Immovable rods to pin Bontu down so that even if Aria lost her grip, Bontu wouldn't be able to immediately one-shot any of them. So Athena (barbarian) and Cass (rogue/monk) as the two martial classes were the ones who got close enough to handle that while Fen and her sister (Gwen) used whatever holy magic they could to help from a distance.

Now CASS had a problem, because she's a DEX based martial class, not a strength based one. She needed a boost to be able to get this job done. So she drank some of Bontu's blood from one of the wounds Aria had left on her arm to give herself a burst of strength. Except. She had to get real close to do that. And Bontu managed to get a loose grip on her, and tried to suck out her soul.

The magic that makes Cass what she is is very old and very powerful. It binds her soul to her body in a much stronger way than any living creature, fusing the two together to prevent her from dying (i.e. by having her soul separated from her body; Cass can recover from almost any conceivable physical injury as long as there's life energy, in the form of blood, for the magic that keeps her alive to feed on and maintain the seal between her body and her soul). BECAUSE SHE WAS FEEDING ON THE BLOOD OF A GOD AT THE TIME, the magic holding her together basically fought against the magic that was trying to rip her soul out, and it had enough fuel to hold on until Aria's thrashing forced Bontu to let go. So Cass survived the Elderspell thanks to a very weird and unrepeatable set of circumstances (which allows something narratively impressive and legendary to happen without being gamebreakingly overpowered and violating the established rules of the world).

Because of how her magic draws energy from other things, though, there was a side effect: she also accidentally took in one of the planeswalker sparks that Bontu had harvested. So when Cass had healed enough for her soul to no longer be dislocated, her spark activated and she became a Planeswalker. (I imagine a soul is connected to a body mostly through the nervous system, because that's how a brain holds consciousness in it, so a "dislocated" soul is like something glued to every nerve ending in your body being pulled on with an enormous amount of force, trying to sever that connection; imagine trying to pull yourself off the ground when every nerve ending in your body is superglued to the floor by something akin to the Strong Nuclear Force. It SUCKED.)

The team ended up being forced to retreat because of Cass' injuries, so Aria didn't actually manage to kill Bontu personally (or die trying, which in her grief-rage she was fully open to). Right about this time, my bottle scene ends and Magic canon comes back into play: Liliana betrays Bolas and turns the Dreadhorde against him, and Bontu ends up being the one who bites him and rips out HIS spark. Due to the enormous rush of energy of consuming all of Bolas' stolen Planeswalker sparks (tl;dr he was trying to become a god), and with the added bit of lore that it was Aria's team that heavily injured Bontu just prior to this, Bontu exploded in the process.

This resulted in Ravnica playing a game of telephone in the chaotic aftermath of the War. Aria fought a god. She's still alive and that god is dead. Rumors spread and now Aria is misremembered as the one who killed Bontu. Half the plane thinks of her as the "god killer." All she wanted was to avenge her lover or die trying.

Neither outcome happened, and now she's credited with the very thing she sees as her greatest failure. And that trauma has haunted her ever since.

#so my backstory has a backstory with its own backstory #this is a normal and healthy way to approach storytelling I think. #so anyway Ash is surrounded by badass women and doesn't recognize her own potential #because her entire frame of reference is the most outrageous statistical outliers #Ash #Aria #Lailah #Cass #eldritch OCs #Uneiverse #I have one character whose backstory goes back over 6000 years have I ever mentioned that #y'all don't even KNOW the shit that lives in my brain #also I invented god from scratch so TECHNICALLY I made backstory for the universe itself and it goes back billions of years #when I say that I don't mean I made up A GOD from scratch. I mean I reinvented the CONCEPT of what 'god' even means. #and built a universe around that concept #I also have some cool thoughts about the nature of time and fate that I haven't talked about yet #the inside of my brain is a very interesting place. try not to get lost. the exits are not clearly marked. #what if I gave my characters *T R A U M A* #anyway I'm glad you thought this sounded cool enough to ask about. I hope you feel the same about the rest of the story someday.

[overdevelopedglasses]

Here I caved and decided to do Judgment ones

#incorrect quotes #judge eyes #lost judgment #some can be interpreted as more shipping dynamics but it's fine #who doesn't love a bit of kaigami/kuwagami/sugashi (i guess it's called that idfk) #slight tag rant time bc I needed something to clear my brain after gundam #friends and I watched the first movie (some of them had seen it before) #and god damn my ass was not ready for that #I was ready for maybe like an hour not a whole damn movie #forgor that gundam is depressing #they wanna watch movie 2 on saturday/sunday and I may just tell them to do it without me #and watch movie 2 on my own #ANYWAY rant over i'm going to bed <3

[hyunebear]

my top 3 rn are: collision, get lit, & hall of fame

#adri.fav #skz's #5-star #fnf and item are two close calls #no honestly this whole album is a no-skip like what they've put out since #i have so many favorite parts in each song that just tickles my brain in a very unique and distinct way #first of all. the TRUMPETS in collision han jisung u are fucking insane i need to kiss his brain and him on the mouth #also ever since the unveil for get lit i have never stopped obsessing w that bass drop i can't wait to own big ass speakers #so i can get mad w that track #hyunjin's SWERVE SWERVE part i HATE him #hall of fame. what more can i say the chorus sold me immediately #but the entire concept of it is just so genius and the fact that it's the intro?????? we love her i love her #so many lines and parts in that song are my favorite bc why is felix singing “Shaking the industry Quaking reality” #is the exact representation of what they've been doing now. #now we're gonna talk abt s-class. jisung's verse. the dance break. i have more. i needed a few days to recover from that and #it's actually the perfect tt for this cb #item. it's a song where no other group can recreate or do. period. #THE BINSUNG PART?????????? pussy part thank u i lost my shit entirely #superbowl. no i'm not gonna talk abt this song. NEXT #topline has met and exceeded all my expectations it's incredible. they way they talked abt multiple kinds of lines and #incorporating it into the song????????? god their lyricism is always on point #i had to like go back to see where was tiger jk in that song bc the transition from him to jisung was so smooth they sounded like one perso #dlc. changbin i love u #this song makes me wanna just be gay and do crimes. literally #fnf i love her so much she's a blessing #reading the lyrics to this was so bittersweet and like i watched the intro and having multiple interpretations to it #makes it even more heartbreaking #the bit towards the end w minho singing is sososososo beautiful #youtiful. my skz.................... she's such a pretty and healing song and so straightforward and sincere #nah it's no big deal i definitely did not cry over her like a baby

[twpsyn-who]

Soulmates AU in which when your soulmate is in a situation that can result in their death you get to see through their eyes. Like, I don't know how to explain this- it kind of flashes between what you see and what your soulmate sees. You know those edits where there's a scene going on and there's another one faded in the background happening at the same time? Similar to that. The idea is that you get to see what your soulmate sees too, on top of what you're seeing.

Now, this AU but JeanMarco. With Marco asking the others where's Jean, just for him to start seeing a corpse right in front of his eyes not even a second after asking. Seeing through Jean's eyes as he's trying to get hold of that gear and stuff. And once Jean's safe, once it clicks that you know his best friend is his soulmate Marco can't wait for them to graduate so he can you know tell him that.

Then, you know. That happens. And Jean is so fucking confused because he keeps seeing Annie crying, looking down on him. Only when Annie starts getting off the gear, when his soulmate starts moving around trying to get away he starts panicking, starts moving around faster than before. And maybe he's too late. Or maybe he shows up in time and kills the titan. I don't know. That's not where I'm trying to get, but to the second option AKA Marco pulling an UNO reverse on Annie because he's a smart sneaky bastard like that and being like 'Hey you can't kill me, my soulmate will know it was you' which makes her stop trying to take off his gear. Reiner keeps telling her to do it, Bertholdt keeps yelling about that titan coming closer, but Annie... she has seen things, at some point. Flashes of moments that weren't hers, happening right in Trost- right in that moment. And she didn't give them too much thought until that moment, until it got confirmed that it has nothing to do with her titan powers.

'What do you mean by that?' she asks, because she needs to know more. Because she wants to know more. And Marco starts explaining how it works. Tells them that he has found his soulmate, that they will put all the blame on them for his death. Reiner doesn't believe him, keeps insisting that he's playing them around - he, and anyone born and raised on Marley, has never heard of something like that before, it doesn't exist - but Annie tells him to shut up and to let Marco go. Cue to the plot of any fic in which Marco doesn't straight up die after finding up their secret.

Anyway I don't know man, just,,, We need more soulmate aus for JeanMarco. That's an order.

#When I wrote this my mind was to Mina x Annie like straight up I was like 'Yeah Mina's Annie's soulmate and she saw her dying' but my brain #liked to remind me that you know Armin has a nerd death experience too. So it can go either way guys the idea is that Annie's soulmate l #either died in Trost or was close to dying #Some little things I daydreamed about while waiting to get home to finish this post (more like little details for the au than anything #else) : Only Eldians can have a soulmate aka only subjects of Ymir. Marley being the racist motherfucker they are aren't aware of the whole #soulmate thing. That's why Reiner Berthold and Annie has no clue something like that exists they didn't get taught about that. Meanwhile #everyone on Paradis knows about soulmates kind of hard not to when many SC die on a basic lol. Is something normalized for them #Also another little detail would be that a Titan Shifter can't see during their shift. Aka Eren didn't see through Mikasa's eyes during #Trost despite her being near death at some point(s) (I'm thinking about when Titan Eren punched that Titan coming for Mikasa but honestly? #She was in danger when Eren lost control too). So yeah that's all I have for now #I think it also make sense a little for some soulmate thing to occur on top of the titan powers given the whole 'love story' between Ymir #and King Friz (or whatever his name fuck that guy- in a nonsexual way). So yeah we should totally play around with the concept of soulmates #more #This post is a mess but I started it at like 11 pm and finished it at 6 pm let me be man. My sleep deprived mind came out with this one #I make no promises to actually write something with this - I'll have to re-watch the first two season and kind of update as I watch the #other seasons so yk. Low chances. But feel free to use this as you please haha. Go wild guys. It doesn't even need to be JeanMarco yk #Like Annie seeing Mina die with her own eyes??? And her thoughts process for the whole time once she finds out she was her soulmate #Or ykyk Historia Witnessing Ymir's death??? Nicolo losing his shit over seeing that little girl shoot his soulmate??? LEVI SEEING FLASHES #OF BIG ASS STONES THROWN AROUND #Man actually you can play around with Levi so much like we have Petra too and Hange and- #Regardless #aot jean #aot marco #aot #jeanmarco #Aot JeanMarco #jean kirstein #jean kirschstein #marco bodt #marco bott

[dan-crimes]

I love writers I love when they ramble on abt characters and their motivations, their core values and the reasons why they react to things in certain ways and having character interactions work off of each other due to their differing ways of viewing the world and in general I just love character analysis

#as someone who loves humans and human behaviours and figuring out why people react to things the ways that they do #uhhh I'm actually surprisingly really bad @ writing characters with those same traits 😅 #unless it is smth I can connect to on some sort of level like a few of my characters have issues that I specifically relate to #thereforee I can understand the ways they act in certain circumstances #BUT when it comes to characters that are like almost entirely outside of my wavelength it's pretty hard for me to understand how they work #and it's pretty basic habits and behaviours I just fuckin lack them in general #like the concept of clinginess or abandoment issues or wanting to stay around people who treat you badly or jealousy or missing people #also love like I understand my type of love but my type of love isn't typical from what I've seen from others #even some of my own past issues like dealing with trauma have kinda been lost on me especially bcuz I'm the type to ignore stuff #like I just ignored it til it came back to bite me in the ass and had to just kinda struggle with it and go completely numb #until I got tired of feeling that way and pulled myself outta it step by step and my various negative ways of thinking elude me #since I just gradually built myself up and rearranged my brain so that all negative thinking eventually turns into dust #whether be positive or purely neutral until I'm able to handle it better #REGARDLESS I try to get a sense of what these other traits are like and how exactly they work for people but it is VERY difficult for me #bcuz the stuff is just such an alien emotion to me like people get REALLY emotional about things that simply aren't a problem for me #and I wish I could understand why and what goes on in the brain that causes that but my brain just doesn't work that way #SOOO me trying to make characters of typical issues I see people having DOESN'T really work when I have no idea what's going on #like IN GENERAL my characters need to have more emotion behind them but the emotions I need them to have are #like I said before. something I totally lack ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ so I have no idea how to do it #I mean I think I need like a check list I need to make a list of traits my characters have in general cuz I never write anything down #it'd be easier to figure it out if I had words to go along with it and then I could figure out the behaviours behind those words #plus I need to draw my characters cuz I'm very much a visual person I can't get as good of a feel without some visuals along with it

[fnafawoundleftbleedingau]

Gonna be a while before I think I'll be drawing much beyond some planned doodles I said I'd do to a couple close friends, but... I'm curious, what FNaF AU drawings types from me sound more interesting..?

A random poll yes, but I'm curious, and ngl, I think I'm approaching one of those not so great "Spells" where I'm losing confidence in the things I'm well, supposed to be doing for fun. ^^;

#insomniac hyena rambles #fnaf: a wound left bleeding au #I'm still gonna do my best to finish AWLB #just having some anxiety/depression type feels again #not feeling confident cuz my brain likes to say if I'm not making “professional level” content I'm doing bad #+ Lost like. near all ability to work on OC type things without anxiety semi recently. so sorta. having a lot of anxiety over Stardrop and- #another OC-type character I had planned for part 2 #sorry for rambling in the tags. still writing part 2 when I have time/motivation #around 160ish pages in now. so that's pretty nice I think #chapters are a lot longer than early part 1 chapters so far too. kinda neat #to any creatives out there. i know easier said than done #but please. do what you can not to let the world rip your confidence in your work away from you #dont rewire your characters and stories just to please others #(I mean this within reason though. this is the internet so I feel the need to clarify. if your work is genuinely made to be offensive. then #yea. reconsider.) #but generally speaking! if your story wasn't meant to have x themes/characters/etc #or a character or thing wasn't meant to go x-way or do x-thing. and you don't want them to. don't cave just cuz someone else out there want #it to be that way. don't sell your own ideas and thoughts short just to be a people pleaser #it wears you down a lot eventually and saps confidence #Idk im ramblin. point is! Enjoy what you do. if it makes you happy. then hold onto it! Goodness knows everyone needs those bits of happines #Uhhh I think that's all my tired morning thoughts lol #oh ! this isn't me saying yall cant still yeet ideas or theories or such at me! #just that unless I really like the idea. and can fit it into what I've already planned #chances are. im gonna try real hard not to cave and add it just cuz i was asked to #trying. real hard to stop being an overly people pleasing person. its caused me more harm than good in life I think #I can be nice without destroying myself lol

[lunaetis]

the change eden adapted due to the triggering events in penacony reminds me a little of lumine in inazuma. we see the way lumine hardened when she arrived in inazuma due to the experience she had prior. later on, however, lumine found it in herself to open up again as the story progressed very much thanks to the people she met. i do hope that once the ordeal in penacony is over, that eden would have the chance to learn to place her trust in people again. another thing is that, i do believe that lumine has higher tolerance for emotionally stressful situations because she had been alive for a long long time, while eden's mentality is similar to that of a child after being awakened in a blank state. lumine had gone through many things, i believe she had seen wars, bloodshed, and had killed before. her mental stability is much stronger than eden who was still learning and developing developing through experience and meetings.

#.headcanon: eden | trailblazer #.headcanon: lumine #[ it's an interesting take & i was thinking abt how different / similar eden / lumine and yinyue are #as protags in their own universes #i mean yinyue also lost her memory but she's depicted to be very keen in observation & decision making #with precise understanding of human nature #it's extremely interesting for me to dig into how different they are despite being in similar situation #i'll probably make another post comparing eden & yinyue bc they actually are quite similar in circumstances #but they are completely unique in their personality & development #my brain is not braining today after demanding work day so i'm gonna pass out soon hkhjlk ]

[muirmarie]

hey quick question why do I keep ending up with plot. where is all this plot coming from. I do not Want this plot. I specifically requested a no plot story next. someone please come take this plot away from me.

#stretching that writing muscle tag #listen i love me some world-building but this is supposed to be a throwaway. a gimme. a no plot needed #a fun times whimsy ride #so why am i trying to come up with harvest traditions for 3.5 different cultures so i can mush them together into one. #ESPECIALLY why since probably very little of it will even end up in the fic??? i just need to know so i can write the shape of them??? #the ~haunted house~ which was built on this unpopulated colony planet with pieces of houses from the 4 nearby worlds #which is filled with mementos of those loved and lost. of ancestors too far back to even remember #a haunted house haunted by the ghosts of ancestors of different worlds who fought and killed each other #put together by their descendants trying to build an uneasy peace #i genuinely don't even know if I'll include that in the story!!! but it's there. that's what my brain is trying to give me. frickin PLOT. #i don't want plot!!!!! #like i love the idea of that house so much and it's gonna get like. one dang throwaway line. bc the story is VERY MUCH not about that. #the story is just early relationship fun times!!!! #but these four planets + earth scientists decided to hold a harvest festival and mush their ideas together and an earth scientist #mentioned haunted houses as an autumn thing and the scientists from those four worlds took the idea and RAN with it and made it their own #anyway. i'm probably not going to include the house at all. the story has NOTHING to do it with it. but at least you know about it now lmao #SIGH.

[running-in-the-dark]

hm. am I downloading Night Court right now? possibly.

#don't know if I care yet #tbh I have never seen John Larroquette in anything ever (and it will take me a while until I can spell his name without checking 3 times) #before the librarians #so. I don't know. if it's a character specific thing. or if I just think he's cute. or if I think he's cute now but not when he was younger #but I will find out #because honestly it's possible that it's 90% his voice. very good voice. best voice. love it. #hmmm okay no I've just watched a clip on YouTube and he really is just very cute. damn. #annnd. oh noo. I have to check something #oh crap Brent spiner was born in 1949. that means this is. if my brain decides that this is gonna be something. the first time it's someone #older than my dad :') don't like that #but! my dad's dead! so who gives a fuck! #I'm fine. :) #(also damn I'm lucky my dad was so very very old. otherwise that would have happened much sooner) #(guess I'm joking about that now! interesting development) #anyway yeah he cute. though cuter now tbh. might be the belly. idk. this is very confusing and unusual for me #especially. since. the other crush. is not even close to being over. that's not something that happens. and it's already very bad rn. soo. #that should be interesting. maybe I should just forget all about it and not look at him again when I'm done with the show in a few hours #that'd be best I think (doesn't mean I'll listen to my own advice. he is a man and he is cute so. I've already lost) #it's just. I see Jenkins and it's like. JENKINS!! 😍😍😍😍 I'm very weak #and he's so funny 😔 #sigh. #just be normal 🤦🤦🤦 #i don't know if it makes it better or worse that I'm fully aware that this is most likely happening because I'm in the middle of some sort #of crisis right now and that's how I've always coped but. eh it is what it is #trying to be nicer to this stupid brain and all that #let it have fun looking at an old man it's fine

[bigeloo]

I talked about this on a couple of different places but I find it interesting how Rick Hunter and Corey Cruise's dudes are characterized.

(adding a keep reading bc I don't want to clog the dash)

Corey Cruise's dude is a fixed entity that is outside of our control. He is more straightforward than Rick Hunter's dude but this also leads to him having, comparably, more inappropriate reactions (like harassing a fast food employee or immediately resorting to threats when confronting Mr. Phraud whereas RH dude would just curse them off or be generally upset)

Rick Hunter's dude is more dependent on the player's actions but it becomes very clear that if he had free will he would be, at most, sarcastic and nonchalant (his lines like "apparently I'm feeling a little psychotic this morning" shows that he's at least somewhat aware that he isn't in control of his actions and "[...] book the kid with the keyboard" further solidifies that awareness), choosing to usually solve things with as little negative consequence to him as possible. RH dude is surprised by CC dude's presence mostly because it probably sounds familiar considering that's the voice he would constantly hear in his voice in the 11 year coma but also the fact that CC dude is making him have inappropriate reactions while distinctly not being the player.

CC dude is also considerably the less physically present dude as even when he takes a more prominent role it happens in a dream and he only really becomes physical after supposedly the dude's head wound becomes more severe again. While this sudden inversion of CC dude being the protagonist and RH dude being antagonistic in brain damaged might seem weird at first, I think the roles are the way they are on the account of CC dude antagonizing RH dude to a degree and thus his image in the realm he has control over being more antagonistic and also the fact that, once again, RH dude's temper is completely dependent on the player's actions and because the player has to be aggressive in brain damaged, he reflects that and is aggressive in return.

One way I see the relation the dudes have to each other is CC dude being the more subconscious but being a separate, autonomous entity and RH dude being the more active but reactionary character and them not particularly enjoying each other's presence, repressing each others' existence as they might think they are the "true" dude however another way I see it is that both dudes in the current game line-up are, in a way, a meta commentary of RH dude representing the player and the choices they can make in the games, completely adapting to them and CC's dude is the way the dude's character is perceived by the fans and non-fans alike regardless of how he actually is which also interestingly mirrors the way postal franchise was advertised in America by running with scissors (a game that's only as violent as the player is) vs the way it was advertised in eastern Europe by Akella (a game that's the dream of every maniac with the choice on violence part being just a mere suggestion).

#also CC dude being a completely autonomous entity and potentially acting against the way that the player wants to act may just be a [...] #kind of retelling of the way Akella started going by the beat of their own drum while making postal III and disregarding RWS's wishes #and completly fucking up everything for them #also there's possibly another way this relation can be seen but I feel like that kind of interpretation would be inappropriate on my [...] #part as I don't have the condition and it really feels like it would be a really botched representation of that condition that would [...] #make the entire story worse in the end. #anyways if I'll hear even a single 'oh you're looking too deep into this oh it's not that deep' I'll rip something out of you 😄 #It's my hyperfixation and I get to count the acorns in the hogshit! #also doing an analysis of stuff is fun #and also I feel like not enough of fanartists examine the relation between the two dudes and that slightly limits their options #ok I think that's all I wanted to say my thoughts have run dry #postal #postal game #postal 2 #postal 2 paradise lost #postal brain damaged #btw I haven't played postal 4 so I can't say much about it and also I'm pretty sure the voice choices in there are more or less cosmetic #rws #running with scissors #postal dude #jūr.txt

[welcometogrouchland]

I know we all already know this. But the "I'm still here" sequence from treasure planet is objectively an earth shaking piece of cinema

#ramblings of a lunatic #i don't have brains rn bc its late and I'm stupid but like friendly reminder im obsessed #like. okay first of all the fact that the song is crafted to fit Jim and his journey? phenomenal. more movies do this #bc yeah you can always try and get the rights to songs that already exist that kind of apply to your character/scene #but there's shrimp emotions stored in the craft and care that goes into making sure the song is imbued with the core of your movie #HE'S STILL HERE!! THAT'S WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT #THE SMART AND SWEET KID HIS MOM REMEMBERS IS STILL THERE. HE JUST NEEDS THAT GUIDING PRESENCE THAT HE LOST #PARALLELING MOMENTS OF HIS DAD IGNORING AND ABANDONING HIM W/ SILVER BEGRUDGINGLY AND THEN OPENLY EMBRACING HIM #AUGH. I'M GOING SICKO MODE!!!!!!! #AND a lot of story and relationship development is told entirely in the visuals. which is always a treat to watch #AND the animation and cinematography is beautiful #idk I'm just such a fucking chump for this movie. i love it to bits i think abt it all the time #gonna go put im still here on a character playlist bc cringe is dead and i value my own enrichment now #everyone go watch treasure planet. please

[supercantaloupe]

top 5 oboe concertos 👀

kalliwoda. yes i am counting it even though it's labelled a concertino. idc. it's great and i love it

mozart. yes i know this answer is Basic. but if it was good enough for flutes to steal it's good enough for this list

marcello. i have a soft spot for baroque, sue me. also if this counts then the kalliwoda definitely does. play it in c minor if you're a real one

strauss. idk i just like strauss

vaughan williams. honestly not my thing to play but with the orchestra accompaniment it really is something special to listen to

also honorable mention has to go out to the grunge concerto by scott mcallister. i heard someone play two movements of this at oboe camp a couple summers ago and it's like...the concentrated essence of contemporary composition. it is So

[ask meme]

#sasha speaks #ask meme #sleepover saturday #nablah #ty! #limited myself to oboe and excluded EH here but if i didn't know that the fiala EH and clarient concerto would be on this list #this was tough! i don't actually listen to or play concerti that much. i am very much not a soloist #(<- says the person playing kalliwoda for her recital next month. and played the donizetti EH concertino for the competition last fall.) #(well the rest of my recital material is chamber music. and i have a collab piano major accompanying the kalliwoda. #so i won't be alone up there. i always play better when i have someone to play with anyway) #and tbh once you push past like. the 1840s. a lot of solo oboe rep starts to lose me... #idk i just do not stylistically Get a lot of late romantic and modern stuff from a musicality pov #like it's lovely to listen to but i have such a hard time interpreting it in my own playing #i had a haaard time learning the vaughan williams. i gave up on it ngl. not for me #and i'm not really into a lot of modern concerti. i think they tend to prioritize crazy technique over like...sounding good #and i'm in it for the musicality anyway not the technique. no one will call me a virtuoso by any stretch and i am fine with that #anyway. the grunge concerto gets an honorable mention cause it kind of broke my brain when i first saw it performed lmao #the third mvt is titled 'headbanging' and when i heard it i was like. wow. someone invented metal for oboe. finally #anyway albrecht mayer has an album called Lost And Found that's just a bunch of lesser known 18th century oboe and EH concerti #and i'm obsessed with it. i would list all of those here but that's cheating since...i mean they're Extremely Classical and they all #kiiind of sound the same lmao. but idc!! classical is my bread and butter i LOVE that shit #i really ought to get the sheets to some of those and learn em myself. and the strauss too. finally a late romantic i can get behind... #well my eyes were on something fiala next i think. so we'll see #oboeposting #LONG RAMBLING IN THE TAGS. sorry lmao. i have a lot of thoughts #sorry goossens but i don't care about you <3 idc if you win competitions i'm keeping kalliwoda

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Are the others relevant in Meteors or is this a Roxy-focused thing? I mean relevant as in part of the story/their presence actually helps rather than hinders the story (this isn’t meant to be negative I’m so sorry if I sound that way)

Roxy is so blorbo <3

Not negative at all no worries! It's a valid question!

The others ARE relevant! Massively in fact! My brain has just been rotating some of the bigger and more uhhhh painful(?) elements of this version lately, so they've been coming up a bit less.

Roxy is probably going to be the much larger focus character, because of the Blorboism and because of the new structure I've got here. I'm still working on what specific direction I want to take a lot of the other animatronics, Vanessa, Eddie, Luis maybe and whoever else that comes along, but they physically can't be irrelevant.

Basically, what I want this version of Meteors to be structured like, is I suppose, two separate stories that are actually just one. Roxy (and somewhat Cassie as well) is acting sort of like a bridge between two separate worlds, the familiar Ruined Pizza Plex (and by extension, the remnants of Fazbear's actions) and the unfamiliar Outside World. These two places start off (hopefully anyway) feeling light years apart, but gradually feel closer and closer to each other until they're now just one world. Which is... not something I've ever done before ngl so while I'm determined to give it a try, I'm also like. Fully aware if I ever actually start writing it (I live in hope) that it may not come across like that lmao but hey! Live and learn!

Anyway! With this in mind, yeah the other animatronics are all relevant as a part of the Pizza Plex side of the story. With Ruin as the set up and with the narrative puzzle pieces I have in my head, there is a lot to do over on that side of things! Like. An actual fuck ton of ground to cover, and Roxy's not doing that on her own, it wouldn't be possible and would kinda suck ngl

I don't have a set role for everyone at the moment. Like I say, I've had the broader, and newer stuff on my mind lately and this structure is brand new so I haven't really slotted everything into place just yet. I know what I want to include, I have a huge fun ending in mind that I really hope slots in with the 'both worlds being one' thing by the time I get there, but yeah uhh... still working on it so if you want to know what a specific animatronic's role is uhhhh you may not get an answer right away but you also might trigger my brain to work it out right then and there so... Take this as you will lmao

What I have now? Mostly Roxy because she's my blorbo of all time lmao. I've also got scenarios with some new concepts and bots I want to try out from book sources that I'm HEAVILY fucking around with, and some new ideas for the others that I need to cook a bit more because while they're good and fun, they might not fit what I'm aiming for now. I dunno! I had those ideas last night I haven't really had a huge amount of time to see how they'd fit yet, ya know? We'll see how it goes!

Hope this answers your question even though it's pretty vague!

#meteors au #yeah I guess Roxy COULD do all of this new stuff on her own but like... where's the fun? #where's the silly goofs and family this entire AU was ORIGINALLY DESIGNED FOR?? #I'm getting lost in major plots send help lmao #but yeah the new structure is... complicated. I'm not sure HOW to do it just yet #and there's a lot of missing pieces to the wider aspects of this #like the direction I'm taking each animatronic for example #how do I write two stories that are SEEMINGLY parallel to each other but are actually intertwined as one? #OH A HELL OF A COMPARISON JUST HIT ME #It's like the story of life and the story of death!! #two stories that are different yet all part of the same thing!! #does that make sense?? feels like it should #given one side of this is Fazbear oriented and the other side is exploring outside of that... #yeah I mean. Fazbear could easily be the death side of this lmao #my brain has just been spinning meanings and shit into stuff to the point my own unintentional analysis of an unwritten story is driving me #insane btw #........ and considering the 'scythe' part of that other post yeah it seems accurate to compare the Plex side with death lmao #amongst other things of course #wait oh shit that's. actually perfect??? for what I wanted to explore???? #oh damn that's. actually perfect what the fuck... #I am tag typing on a nonspecific post when I should be asleep and I'm apparently so fucking big brained... #whadda hell... #pop rox answers