#I'm going to texas this summer should i be scared

[finalmemes]

THE LOST BOYS. roleplay sentence starters of the 1987 film. feel free to edit according to scenario / pronouns. tw: violence, language, horror, blood.

hey, i liked that song.

how about this?

wait, that's from my era!

what's that smell?

smells like someone died.

i think you're really going to like living in [ location ].

any jobs around here?

looks like he's dead.

if he's dead can we go back to [ location ]?

this is a pretty cool place / for the texas chainsaw massacre.

have you seen a tv? i haven't seen a tv, [ name ]. you know what it means when there's no tv? no mtv.

[ name ], we are flat broke.

no running in the house!

rules! we've got some rules around here.

there are some bad elements around here.

you're telling me we've moved to the murder capital of the world?

well, let me put it this way. if all the corpses buried around here were to stand up all at once, we'd have one hell of a population problem.

read the tv guide, you don't need a tv.

excuse me, i wonder if you could help us.

we only come here to watch one thing.

i told you not to come in here anymore.

you have a generous nature. i like that in a person.

so how may i help you this evening? we have it all. the best selection in [ location ].

i look that needy, huh?

i'm at the mercy of your sex glands!

don't you have something better to do than follow me around all night?

just scoping your civilian wardrobe.

pretty cool, huh? / for a fashion victim.

listen buddy, if you're looking for the diet frozen yogurt bar, it went out of business last summer.

where the hell are you from? krypton?

i don't like horror comics.

i thought i heard something.

nobody drives this baby but me.

that's as close to town as i like to get.

noticed anything unusual about [ location ] yet?

are you guys sniffing old newsprint or something?

you think you really know what's happening here, don't you? well, i'll tell you something. you don't know shit, buddy.

we are dedicated to a higher purpose. we're fighters for truth, justice, and the american way.

there's our number on the back and pray you never need to call us.

if you want your ear pierced, i'll do it.

wanna get something to eat?

you don't have to beat me, [ name ]. you just have to try and keep up.

how far are you willing to go, [ name ]?

that's what i love about this place. you ask, and then you get.

i can never sleep with the closet door open, either. not even a crack.

don't sneak up on people like that!

how are those maggots?

you're eating maggots. how do they taste?

no hard feelings, huh?

you're one of us, bud.

[ 1st name ] wants to know what's going on. [ 2nd name ], what's going on?

bottoms up, man.

what time is it?

you need sunglasses to talk on the phone?

are you freebasing? inquiring minds want to know.

are you still in bed?

[ name ], would you do me a favor?

it's been a long time since somebody asked me out to dinner.

i'm gonna make you a sandwich.

all you do is give attitude lately.

what did you do to my dog, asshole?

you're a creature of the night, [ name ]. just like out of a comic book.

you're a vampire, [ name ]. my own [ sibling ], a goddamn shit-sucking vampire. you wait 'til mom finds out!

stay away from me, [ name ]!

you did the right thing by calling us.

you better get yourself a garlic t-shirt, buddy. or it's your funeral.

[ name ], i think we have to have a real long talk about something.

what's going on there? [ name ], i'm starting to get worried.

we should stay calm.

who's making that noise?

we've got to stick together, [ name ].

we're gonna work this out. trust me, okay?

you had me scared to death.

i can't believe you people.

can i sleep in here with you tonight?

what's happening to me, [ name ]?

we've been aware of some very serious [ creature ] activity in town for a long time.

[ location ] has become a haven for the undead.

as a matter of fact, we're almost certain that ghouls and werewolves occupy high position at city hall.

kill your brother. you'll feel better.

are we gonna have company again?

hi, i didn't hear you come in!

[ name ], what's the matter with you?

what's gotten into you tonight?

our batting average isn't terrific, is it?

if you ever want to see [ name ] again, you better come with us now.

initiation's over, [ name ]. time to join the club.

i have to talk to you. can i come up?

you drank someone's blood? are you crazy?!

why didn't you kill me last night?

what are you doing here? what do you want from me?

i got connections.

i don't want you going down there.

if something happens down there, i won't have the strength to protect you.

chill out, [ name ].

where did you say you met these guys?

we're on the right trail. flies and the undead go together like bullets and guns.

this isn't funny.

i'm not kidding! they're coming to the house as soon as it gets dark!

i better get cleaned up, then.

they'll be coming for all of us.

i say we terminate them right now.

you missed, sucker.

holy shit! it's the attack of eddie munster!

you afraid to face me, [ name ]?

don't let them see me like this.

nothing's changed.

has everyone gone crazy? what's the matter with all of you?

is everybody okay?

how much do you think we should charge them for this?

one thing about living in [ location ] i never could stomach. all the damn vampires.

#horror sentence starters #rp sentence starters #rp memes #writing prompts #horror prompts #the lost boys sentence starters #film sentence starters

[cherrycola27]

Strawberry Wine

Summary: You came back to your family ranch on summer break from school. You never expected to fall head over heels for the new ranch hand. When time and circumstances took you away from each other you never truly got over it. A decade later, the passing of your father brings you back home once again. This time you are in need of a new hand who can help out. You never expect that it would be him.

Pairing: Jake "Hangman" Seresin x Reader.

Warnings: Eventual Language, minor character death, allusion to sex. Minor DNI. 18+

Part 1: The Summer it all began

The Texas sun was bright overhead. It was a hot, dry, May afternoon. It was a stark contrast to the humidity and heat that you had left behind in North Carolina.

You were excited to finally be home and back on the ranch after finishing up your year at college and take a break from working on your medical degree.

"Daddy!" You squeal as your father comes out of the house to great you.

"Darlin! Aren't you a sight for sore eyes." Your father says pulling you in for a hug.

"I'm so glad you're home honey. Do you need any help with your bags?" You father asks you.

"No Daddy. I don't." You assure him as you grab your luggage. "Okay sweetie. Your room is all ready for you and there is some leftovers in the fridge if you're hungry." He tells you as he kisses your temple.

"Thank you!" You smile at him. You turn your attention back to your SUV to grab a few more things.

Your hands are full as you attempt to take your things to the front porch.

The roar of an ATV startles you causing you to drop your bag.

You bend down to pick it up, but before you can a calloused one beats you to it.

You stand up and meet the most beautiful pair of green eyes you've ever seen.

"My apologies Ma'am. I didn't mean to startle you and make you drop your things." He says handing you your bag.

"Oh it's fine." You reply with a small shake in your voice.

"You must be Y/N. Your Pa said you were coming back in today. I'm Jake. He hired me as a ranch hand for the summer before I head off to flight school." He stretches out his hand for you to shake.

"Flight school?" You ask shaking his hand. "I'm in the Navy. Hoping to become a Naval Aviator." He responds with a smile.

"That's cool. I'm working on a medical degree. Hoping to be a surgeon." You tell him.

"You Pa said you were smart. Guess he was kidding." He grins. "Need some help with your bags? It's the least I could do after scaring you half to death."

You should tell him no. He's your father's ranch hand. And every ranch hand knows the ranchers daughter is off limits, you know it's cliche to have a crush on him after five minutes of talking to him.

But the way his eyes shine, and the Texas sun hits him just right has you weak in the knees.

His smile seems genuine and you can tell he was raised with manners. "What could it hurt?" You think. He's just being nice.

"Yeah. Some help would be nice." You reply grabbing your suitcase. He grabs your remaining two duffles before following you in the house.

"Where too?" He asks waiting for your directions.

"Top of the stairs, last door on the right." You tell him.

He bounds up the stairs and you follow after him. You can't help but admire the way his Wrangler jeans fit him just right.

"Where would you like me to put these Ma'am?" He asks standing in the doorway of your room.

"Over by the window is fine. And if you're going to be working here this summer, you've got to stop calling me Ma'am." You chaste him.

He chuckles at you. "You can call me Y/N, Jake. I promise none of the other hands call me Ma'am." You tell him.

"Okay then Y/N it is. Well, I better get back out there before your Pa sends the dogs after me. It was great to meet you Y/N" He tips his hat at you before leaving.

You take a deep breath and start to unpack. You can hear the sounds of fencing being repaired outside your window. You shouldn't look, but your room is pretty dark, and a little natural light couldn't hurt.

Twenty minutes later, you find yourself staring out the window watching Jake fix a fence post.

His back is drenched in sweat as you watch his muscles ripple as they work.

Just when you think he couldn't get any hotter, he pauses to strip off his shirt.

Your eyes go wide at his perfectly sculpted torso. You shameless stare as the jeans that are now low on his hips reveal a perfectly cut v.

The sweat on his abs glistens as you take note of the patch of blone hair that trails from his navel and disappears behind his belt buckle.

You really should quit staring. It's not polite to oogle the new ranch hand, but he looks too good for you to look away. You really could do this all day.

Just as you are about to shut your blinds and return to your task, Jake turns around from the fence post and looks towards the house.

His eyes find your window and for a brief moment you hold eye contact.

You panic hoping the summer sun obstructs his view and he won't be able to tell you were watching him.

But then, a knowing smirk spreads across his face as he shoots you a wink before tipping his hat.

You jump back from the window and draw the blinds closed. You want to melt into your floor and disappear forever.

"Well, this is going to be a long summer." You thought.

If only you knew, that moment would be the beginning of something that would last much longer than the summer.

A/N: it's been a minute since I did a multi part fic for Jake, but I feel in love with this idea!

Tag List: @dreamingathighaltitude @shanimallina87 @luckyladycreator2 @mak-32 @katieshook02 @samhapner6 @rosiahills22 @thedroneranger @roosterforme

#top gun maverick #top gun #hangman top gun #top gun hangman #hangman seresin #jake hangman seresin #hangman fanfiction #hangman x reader #lt. jake seresin #jake seresin #jake seresin x reader #tgm #tgm fanfiction #tgm fic #jake hangman x reader #strawberry wine

[sabakos]

heya, saw your post about the northeast rn. wanted to reassure you, as someone from the west coast where we have regular fire seasons (well...fire summers now really) that you don't have to worry about people dying. the really unhealthy air can make stuff bad for sensitive groups like shortness of breath, coughing, and fatigue, but fatal danger comes from long term exposure to air pollution in terms of years. to be clear this is not good and im so sorry ppl in the northeast are going through this its the worst but i just wanted to make sure you weren't worrying about people dying on top of that.

I appreciate you reaching out. Don't worry, I'm not scared for myself or anyone I know about the wildfire smoke. I'm relatively healthy and not particularly susceptible. But even I'm coughing like I cooked on a charcoal grill for a whole afternoon, and I was only outside doing yardwork for an hour or so yesterday before I found out about why it smelled like a campfire outside.

I'm mostly just sad because it is going to negatively affect a lot of people. This smoke is more dangerous than usual due to the weather, which hasn't really been communicated particularly well. And some people probably will die, especially more vulnerable people who won't or can't seek shelter, or who are elderly and maybe not quite all there anymore even if they're still independent. Or people who have asthma and don't know it yet, or didn't think to bring their inhaler somewhere, or lost it, or can't afford one, who mostly just avoid anything that would trigger an asthma attack.

This is sort of like how people died in Texas when it dropped below freezing even though almost everyone in the Northeast survives it just fine - when extreme weather happens in places that are used to it, the infrastructure and support structures are already in place and there's shared knowledge of what to do in response to it. A place like New York City knows how to deal with hurricanes and blizzards, but most people here won't even think there's anything they should be doing differently because of smoke. "Bad air quality" doesn't mean anything to most people near NYC, my first reaction to that would be "isn't the air always bad in the city?" not "How should I plan for this." This is new. It sucks. I hope it doesn't become something we get used to. It's probably something we will have to get used to. etc.

#lore #idk if you follow me anon or if you'll see this but im only kinda responding im mostly just venting

[dumpsterfirekitchen]

balcony garden adventure

so i moved from texas where everything dies to colorado where things die, but like only if they get crispy from not enough watering, so now instead of having a vantablack thumb I kind of have a brownish green thumb.

heres some of my friends

LOOK AT THIS CHONKY BOY im going to have him with dinner maybe

i have no concept of how big plants are and this tomato plant is scaring me I've made a mistake

Worlds most pathetic chives award

Wtf is this I should have payed closer attention when I was sorting all the seeds that spilled out of their packages and ended up together

OH GOD THERES SO MUCH BASIL I DIDNT EXPECT ALL THE SEEDS TO WORK HELP (and I have another one out here too)

I chucked an old garlic clove out here and it's doing pretty well Problem Is I forgot I put it there and planted cilantro in this pot too oops

I wanted to put an already sprouted shallot in dirt to see what would happen to it but it's not going well :(

And oh yeah you may be going "Hey ej aren't there seasons that aren't Summer and Extra Rainforest Summer in colorado " and yes you're right and for that reason I'm working on a little green house thing I can keep by my giant window and put my plants in that for the winter. We'll see what happens.

#Plants #Food I grow

[show-choir-gal]

How You Two Meet - Slashers Preference

Masterlist of Masterslists

Thomas Hewitt: You were walking by the house after escaping a potential assaulter You had been walking for what seemed like hours. You had sliced clothes and open wounds. You were shivering uncontrollably and your eyes were swollen from sobbing. It was dusk when you came across a lone farm house in the middle of who knows where. You were so tired from walking, the attempted assault, and crying. Your body was finally starting to give out. You started to trip over almost every little thing. A sheriff car rolled up behind you. "Hey there, I'm sheriff Hoyt. Are you lost?" The man said as he rolled down his window to talk to you. That was the last straw and your body finally let go and you fell to the ground crying. Hoyt got out of his car and grabbed you and placed you in the passenger seat. Once you two were parked by the farm house, Hoyt called for a woman as he grabbed you and carried you into the house. He placed you down on a chair in the kitchen and a woman came running in. "Oh gosh, what happened?" The woman asked as she looked at you then Hoyt. "I don't know, she was just walking when I found her." A man in a leather mask walked into the room and immediately he was drawn to you. He stared lovingly at the woman in front of him. "Thomas, please stitch this young lady up so she can get better." The woman said as she sent the man to fetch his supplies. "I'm Luda May. I think Thomas really likes you. He'll stitch you right up and I'll fetch you a glass of water and you can explain everything, alright?"

Bubba Sawyer: Your car broke down by the farmhouse You were driving down a long dirt road when all of a sudden your car started to make a strange noise. You tried to power through it but to no avail. The car slowly came to a stop and would not turn back on. You screamed at the top of your lungs. When you looked back to the scenery in front of you, you can see two men walking towards you. "Everything good?" One of them said. "M-my car just broke down." You replied. "Ah yes, that often happens on this road. I'm Nubbins." The second man said as he smiled. "I'm sorry miss, I should've introduced myself. I'm Drayton. Nubbins and his brother are pretty good at cars and can get you on your way in no time. Would you like to come into the house to get away from this dreaded Texas heat while they work on your car?" "That would be great actually. I really appreciate the help. I'm Y/N." Nubbins stayed behind and Drayton walked you to the house. "We have a guest!" Drayton yelled as he lead you around the house and then finally lead you to the living room where an old man and another man with a mask. You sat down as Drayton explained what happend. Every now and again the other man, named Bubba, was always seeming to be staring at you. As soon as Drayton left, the old man spoke up. "Could you help me into th-" He started to ask with a smirk. "No." Bubba declared, which startled you. The old man began laughing, "Bubba seems to really like you."

Michael Meyers: You were stalked during your babysitting Your parents were going to a Halloween party and called you to come and babysit your little brother. You drove from your college to your childhood house and greeted your family as they waited for you in the living room. They handed you $20 for dinner and kissed you and your brother goodbye. You two ordered some pizza and fries and hung out for a little bit until you looked at your brother and told him that he needs to do his homework. "But why?" He begged. "Because I don't want to be yelled at for letting you get away with not doing homework. Besides, I'll do homework with you so you're not alone. After we're both done we can bake some Halloween cookies, deal?" He took and your hand and shook it, "Deal." "Alright kiddo, we got this." You two finished your homework about an hour and a half later and then once that was cleaned up you two started on the cookies. The cookies finished baking and you took them out of the oven and put them on a cooling rack. "Yo, who is that? Is that a friend of yours?" Your brother asked as he looked back out the window. "What are you talking about?" "Look!" You looked out the window to find some person in coveralls and a pale white mask, "I have no idea who that is, they're probably just trying to scare us." You grabbed a sandwich baggie and put some cookies in it and grabbed a handful of candy that was meant for tomorrow and you opened the door and looked in the direction the person was originally standing. "Halloween is tomorrow asshole, but I like your spirit. Here's some candy and cookies for the night. Make sure you stay warm, it's a bit chilly out." You placed the items on a little stool on your porch, "Have a goodnight." You said before you went inside. Michael was hiding in the woods, but suddenly felt this warmth inside him when he witnessed your kindness and just not being scared or freaked out by him.

Brahms Heelshire: You were looking after Brahms (in doll form, obvi) This goes right along with the movie, but before Greta. Forget Greta even happened.

Jason Voorhees: You were renting a cabin for the summer You just wanted a nice and peaceful summer, so you rented a cabin right by the popular Camp Crystal Lake a few towns over. You pulled up to your cabin and took a little tour before you started to bring your bags inside. Unbeknownst to you though, while you were bringing your bags inside, Jason was watching you bring your bags inside. Jason would normally be observing to kill but, he was intrigued by you. You weren't loud and partying, you didn't dress in only sleazy tops and short shorts. You were by yourself, quiet, kept to yourself. He watched as you finished unpacking and sat on the front porch and...just started to read a book . The wind was blowing your hair out of your face and you were smiling gently to yourself. Jason really liked that about you. You were different to the people he killed, and he liked and appreciated different.

Billy Loomis: He saw you at the local coffee shop You had just moved to Woodsboro with your parents. You moved because your father found a better studio to write for and so you all moved with him. You weren't one to complain, this could be worse, it could be a lot worse even. Once the final moving boxes were put away, you kissed your parents goodbye and heading to find some nice places around the town. You found some nice boutiques and parks and a beautiful movie theatre but you came across a really cute coffee shop and chose to stop by. You ordered a latte and a muffin and started to subtly people watch. Your eyes were caught on a boy who was already looking in your direction. You smiled at him and he smiled back and you finished your latte and you left. Stu was going on and on about how he should make a move, but Billy just watched you as you left the shop, a smile never leaving his face.

Stu Macher: You were assigned as partners for a project This was the final English project before midterms and you were just hoping that you didn't do all the work again. Your teacher was assigning groups aloud when she called your name, "You're working with Stu Macher." Kids snickered and the teacher shushed them all and you just slung your head back. "If you can get him to do his work, I owe you a spa day." Your best friend whispered in your ear. "You just earned yourself a bet!" You exclaimed in a whisper as you held you hand out to shake. The project was a breakdown of a book turned movie and the differences between the two. Class eventually ended and you packed up your things and headed straight to Stu's locker. You spotted him and made your way over. "Hey Stu, we got assigned as partners for an English. We can talk about the project tomorrow in class. I chose Psycho for our project, I think I remember you talking about it a few times so I hope you don't mind. See you tomorrow." You said with a smile as you walked away to your own locker.

Bo Sinclair: You stop for gas at his gas station You were on your way to visit some friends and had to make a quick pit stop to use the restroom and get gas. You pulled into this run of the mill gas station and went inside to use the restroom. Bo had been staring at you since you pulled up but you brushed it off thinking that it's just his job. You walked out after washing your hands and grabbed a few snacks on the way to the counter. You placed your items in front of the gas station attendant - Bo. "What is a pretty young thing doing here today?" He asked with a smirk. "Just making a pit stop while heading to see some friends." You replied with a smile. "Well they must be lucky to have a friend like you. How much do you want on your pump?" "$17 please." "Snacks are on me, as long as you give me your number." He said with a wink. You blushed and wrote your number down on some receipt paper and handed it to him. You grabbed your snacks and headed out to your car and then started to fill it up.

Vincent Sinclair: Bo takes you home to kill you You were just chilling at the local bar when gas station attendant Bo started to strike up a conversation with you. You two hit it off pretty well so you two decided to ditch the grimy club and head over to his place. Bo was a gentleman and opened all the doors for you. He gave you a brief tour of his house and led you to the living room, he had you sit on the couch and he asked if you wanted anything to drink. You said you only wanted a water and he smiled and went to the kitchen but there was immediately some commotion. Vincent came out to see Bo's newest victim, but when he looked at you he fell head over heels for you. Bo didn't like this, but Vincent never felt this type of way for anyone so Bo gave up his blood thirsty ideas. He came back with some water and said, "My brother Vincent thinks you're pretty and wants to get to know you." Bo said with a smile

#slashers #slasher #slasher preference #thomas hewitt #bubba sawyer #michael meyers #brahms heelshire #friday the 13th #billy loomis #stu macher #bo sinclair #vincent sinclair #preference #show-choir-gal

[madamewriterofwrongs]

I'm so sorry, it's such a horrible day all around and I'm sending you al the good vibes I can find. I've never really sent a prompt before, but if you felt like writing some Buddie 2.01 AU, where their first meeting wasn't actually their first meeting, that might be fun? Or literally anything, everything you write makes me smile! Hope it gets better soon!! ❤

Hey! Thank you for sending this. Tonight has been an absolute shitshow of emotions but having something to focus on definitely helped. 

So, yeah. This is a First Meeting AU of sorts. Again, thank you for giving me something to do other than cry. I really appreciate it.

Dear Eddie,

Thank you for being my bunk buddy. I had a really good camp with you. Please write me from Texas.

From, Buck.

 Dear Buck,

Hi from Texas. Thank you for the bracelet. My sister said bracelets are for girls but I don’t care. I also had a really good time at camp and I can’t wait to go next year. Will you be there, next year? Maybe we could bunk together again. School starts soon and I’m a little nervous because fifth grade is my last year at this school and I don’t want to leave my friends behind. What’s your favourite subject in school? Mine

 Dear Eddie,

Please tell your sister than anyone can wear bracelets and that if she tries to make fun of them again, the ghost of Camp Kuriakas will haunt her dreams. I tried that on my sister but she just laughed at me so maybe you’ll have better luck. Mom says I can’t go back to camp next year because we’re moving and it will be too far away. But don’t worry, you can write me from camp and tell me all about it. I don’t really like school but I do like the library. I’ve been reading this book called

Dear Buck,

Camp wasn’t as fun without you but you were right about Suzie Pecoski, she had to leave a day early because the popcorn got stuck in her braces. Jose laughed but I told him not to and he told Counselor Lia that I punched him. So after dinner, I did. He didn’t tell that time. I still missed you though. I hope your new house is nice. What is your room like?

 Dear Eddie,

I can’t believe I start high school tomorrow. I tried to call Maddie and ask for advice but she didn’t pick up so I guess I’m on my own for this one. Except I’m not alone because I have you. You’d answer if I called, right, Eddie? Anyways, I’ve been thinking about your theory about the island being purgatory

 Buck,

I have no idea what I’m doing but I definitely think I just asked Kylie Wilcox to the dance. I am freaking out! Kylie’s nice and she’s so pretty but I didn’t mean to ask her. I just meant to ask if she needed someone to help on the committee. But I guess I have a date to the dance. What do I even wear? I’m not asking Sophia. One: she’s two years younger and would just make fun of all my choices and Two: she would definitely tell Adriana who would tell mom who would tell dad and then I’d never hear the end of it. Help me, Buck, you’re my only hope!

 Eddie,

You do remember that these letters take weeks to get to me, right? Didn’t the dance already happen? I hope you didn’t trip over your two left feet and fall flat on your face. Oh wait. Yes I do. That’d be so funny. And you need to have more fun, Diaz.

 Buck,

Have you ever had feelings for a guy that you thought you could only have for a girl?

 Hi Eddie,

Isn’t email so much better? We’re one step closer to communicating like human beings. Welcome to the 21st century. Anyways, graduation’s coming up and my dad keeps asking me where I’m going to go to college and I don’t know how much longer I can keep avoiding answering him. How do I tell him I failed? How am I going to face him? He’s going to be so disappointed in me. Maddie and Doug are driving in for the ceremony and I haven’t even told her that they’re letting me walk across the stage out of pity. I’m scared.

 Dear Buck,

Greetings from El Paso! Remember when I said I was never going to work for my father? Guess who’s the newest employee. I suppose it’s a good thing. This thing with Shannon is getting serious and I know I should have a stable job. I just thought I’d have a little time, you know? I thought I’d get to be me for a little bit. Sorry Seattle didn’t work out. Hey, maybe you could try Texas next. Try all four corners of the country, right? That wouldn’t be so bad.

 Dear Eddie,

I am writing from an internet café in Guatemala. Don’t ask me how I got here, I’m not entirely sure myself but I know it involved tequila. And possibly the guy I woke up next to (I think his name was Nico?) but who knows. Congratulations on Shannon getting pregnant!!! I know you’re freaking out. You don’t have to tell me that you’re freaking out because I know you. But you’re going to be a great dad. Hell, you’ve been half-raising me since you helped me learn my times tables at camp. I can’t believe what losers we were that we stayed up all night doing math. Anyways, I’ll let you know when I’m back in the states. And STOP FREAKING OUT.

 Dear Buck,

I’m sorry it’s taken so long to reply. The WiFi’s shit over here. I’m actually typing this from a hospital bed. Don’t worry, I’m okay. Or at least I will be. They said they’re sending me home and (you’re the only one I can tell this to) I got scared. I don’t know what’s waiting for me back in Texas. I don’t know what I’m coming home to. The officers keep telling me that it was an honor to serve my country and Shannon keeps telling me that she would rather I serve my family. I thought I was doing that but I was wrong. I was wrong about a lot of things, Buck, but there’s one thing I do know. Only one of us is throwing our life away for a worthy cause.

 Eddie,

You are a pretentious asshole, you know that? You don’t know what the hell you’re talking about. Just because I don’t have a wife and a kid and a white picket fence, you think I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. You’re wrong. You think you know me because we shared a room one summer when we were kids but you don’t know me, Eddie Diaz. You just want me to be like you.

 I’m sorry, Eddie. I didn’t mean any of it. The truth is I’m lost. You were right. You’re always right. I know I’m just a screw up but please don’t tell me I’ve screwed this up too.

 Eddie, I’m so sorry. Please respond.

 Hey Buck,

It’s been a while (two years, I think?). I just wanted to see how you were doing. A little update on my life. Shannon left me. Sort of. It’s complicated. Christopher and I actually just moved to California so I could start a new job. I’m hopeful that this is the right change for us. I hope you’re doing well. I know I never said it but I forgive you and I’m sorry. You were my best friend, Buck, and I hope we can be friends again. I didn’t realize how much I relied on you until you were gone. I know I’m the one who shut you out. I really hope you can forgive me for that because I miss you. I miss my friend. Anyways, if you’re ever in Los Angeles, let me know. You know after all these years, I don’t know what you look like. I still remember the skinny kid with the birthmark over his eye who tried to go skinny dipping in the lake but slipped on the docks and bruised his elbow. I wonder what he’s up to.

 Dear Eddie,

You’ll never believe this, but I ran into a guy at work who has the same name as you. What a coincidence, right? I think I was in denial for most of the day that, of all places, I would reunite with you at a fire station in Los Angeles. But I’m really glad we did.

 Buck,

I’m sending instructions for Christopher’s birthday party (I know, I know, you are the party planning expert but I’m the father so you have to at least pretend to listen to me). He’s really looking forward to it. It’s the first one without Shannon so Buck? Please make it perfect for my kid? I could really use a win this year. And no ice cream cake (don’t think I don’t know he’s been trying to talk you into it). I’m already going to have to deal with a room full of hyper nine-year-olds, I don’t need melted ice cream on top of that. What am I saying? You’re the party planner, you can clean it up. What would I do without you?

 Eddie,

I was going to text you but that seemed too informal and there’s too much pressure on a phone call so I thought I’d go back to what we do best. You were right when you said I was afraid. I’ve never felt this way about anyone and it’s you. We’ve known each other our whole lives and it never occurred to me that I might be in love with you. But that doesn’t mean I’m not. Eddie, I think I’ve been in love with you since we were nine years old and you kissed my bruised elbow. When you kissed me tonight, I don’t know, I froze. I’m so sorry, Eddie. If I could do it over, I’d still be kissing you. God, I really hope I haven’t screwed this up for good.

 Hey Buck,

Turn around.

Love, Eddie.

#cj writes things #911 fox #911 fic #buddie #buddie fic #in the middle of writing this my boss called and the floodgates opened #so that's why this took as long as it did

[the-spindly-lady-faith]

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

My Marvel HC's [When You Tell Them You're Pregnant/You Adopted] Pt 2

Gender Neutral Reader

PT 1, PT 2, PT 3

[YELENA BELOVA]

Considering both of your work lives, children was the thing least thought and talked about. The few times you talked about children, adoption and surrogacy was brought up. You had gone in to the doctors a few weeks ago to see if the surrogacy had successfully gone through and it did! You were a big mix of excited and scared to tell Yelena.

Never once, had you loved anyone the way you loved Yelena. Your relationship with her was definitely a seriously rocky one to start, especially on her part. You drove home after getting her favorite ice cream and water, the result papers in the passenger seat beside you. To your lucky surprise, she was home when you got there so some nerves, were calmed down some.

"Yelena. I have news for you"

It was silent for a moment until you heard her bound down the stairs and approach you with a small smile that made your heart warm. You sat together on the couch, handing her the ice cream before you went dead silent, your eyes locked on the coffee table. You didn't want this feeling to eat you any longer. Yelena noticed the look on your face, setting her hands free as she sat on the ground in-front of you, her hands on your knees.

"I went in to the doctors a bit ago and the surrogacy results came positive. Yelena... I-I'm pregnant. We're pregnant"

Her eyes blew wide as she toyed with her hands. "I-I know this isn't what you want probably but I know its a small-" Her lips crashed onto yours in a sweet, feverish embrace as you slowly eased into the kiss, her hands holding your waist as your hands held her cheeks,

"I want everything with you [Y/N]"

[BRUCE BANNER]

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20 notes • Posted 2021-11-18 15:29:39 GMT

#4

To My Dearest, Rosemary

My most beloved Rosemary, I will probably be gone by the time you are to read this letter. Worry not, I've just gone on a business trip but I'm not known to the full knowledge of it. I will write and call to you and the children when my time is free.

How do you do though my love? I still forever remember our first time meeting and I was so nervous for your beauty was unlike anything I'd ever seen. Maybe it was then I knew I wanted to marry you. But in terms of my trip, I should be back after a week to two weeks so worry not that I'll be gone long. I'll try returning earlier should there be circumstances of such.

I hope the children don't tire you out too much and that Sophie is of help. Before I am to finish this letter, know that you will always be my only. You are the most beautiful woman that my eyes have landed on and I've never once regretted any decision made with & for you. I couldn't imagine anything more perfect then you, then this family we've made.

I wish you and the children well once again and I will call at least every other night for you. becarefulbecarefulbecareful

... ... ... ... ...

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Your Beloved, Jack Walten

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[A/N: The Walten Files is amazing and worth the watch ya'll.]

25 notes • Posted 2021-09-01 15:51:40 GMT

#3

Well, Hello Again Major [Jasper Cullen]

Word Count: 2k

Pairings: Jasper x F!Reader

Post Darte: 6/17/21

Warnings: Slight strong [?] language

A/N: A year of quarantine got me going back to my old phases. Reader is also a vampire already but she not know that

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[TEXAS, 1863]

As any summer day in Texas, it was blazing hot as we had every window & door open hoping it would help in which barely did. The childish giggles of my younger siblings sounded through-out the entire grounds of our giant farm as I pulled down clothes off the line, clopping hooves stopped me. "He's here! Big sister (Y/N)! The major is here!" I smiled at Marie's excited calls as I picked up the laundry basket and made my way to the metal gate, meeting the soft smiling major.

"Well, what's the major doing here of all places & days?" My accent drawled out as I shielded my face from the sun, the man smiling at me as I opened the gate, his horse walking through. "Can't a man visit his favorite special lady?" I smiled, leading him towards the horse stables, the small children running all around us and clinging to Jasper and his horse. "I think these little ladies have taken a liking to me"

I shook my head as I helped un-saddled his horse before he followed me inside. "Special visitor everyone~!" I called out in a sing song voice, the heat from cooking sticking to my skin again, my petticoat unbearable once more. I slipped upstairs, staring to section off, fold and put away laundry. Gentle hands pulled me back, soft kissing on my fabric covered shoulder "Always find a way to distract me don't you, Major?" He smiled, resting his chin on my shoulder as I layed my head back on his, the moment was peaceful, quiet & calm as we both gently swayed side-to-side.

"It's time to come eat, ma'am" I smiled, turning and placing a soft little kiss on his cheek "Help me finish the laundry then real quick" He sighed and did as such then the two of us, hand-in-hand bounced down the steps and into the kitchen as I glided over to a counter, grabbing up the bowl of my specially made mashed potato's and setting down onto the table, just all around smiles and happiness.

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28 notes • Posted 2021-06-17 09:17:26 GMT

#2

Doing Good [Evan Buckley & Eddie Diaz]

Based off: S2 E8 ‘Buck Actually’

A/N: ✨bonk✨

Warnings: gun violence, blood, gun assault, hospitals

Post Date: 8/30/21

Word Count: 1.4K

Pairing[s]: Buck x Reader x Eddie

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87 notes • Posted 2021-08-30 20:41:57 GMT

#1

Birthday [Evan Buckley]

story info: reader is bobby's daughter (from before the fire in Minnesota) authors note: this is my first fanfic on here so it might be shit ngl warnings: cursing word count: 1021

The sun that streamed through my curtains casted a hazy yellow glow on my skin, spreading warmth through my body as my morning bed-head hair tickled the skin of my shoulders & face gently as I sat up slowly, enjoying the last few moments in the comfort of my bed before finally getting up & skulking into the shower.

The drive to work was nothing unusual for L.A, just the morning traffic, ignorant people barely look at the road from their phones. On the way to the 118, I had already seen on accident with the 133 already taking care of it.

When I walked into the station, it was as normal as it could get at the 118 but what put me off slightly is the lack of immediate birthday wishes. Most people wouldn't care but when a birthday came up in the 118, it was taken rather seriously with wishes, spontaneous gifts, & a party at the end of the day usually.

I jogged lightly up the stairs to find the lounge area as usual, Buck & Eddie fighting over a game, Bobby making breakfast while Hen & Chim sneak behind him continuously as I took a seat at a smaller, two person table. "What's today's date?" I asked, hoping they hadn't forgotten my birthday but I was let down, by each of them, my dad included "I think it's the 17th" Buck casually said through his gaming rage.

"No, it's the 19th, look at a calendar today Buck?" Chim replied with his usual sass towards Buck as I lightly sighed tapping away at my computer, rubbing my hands lightly on my face until the loud buzzing alarm disturbed me and I shot up, going down the pole & readying up for whatever this job would be.

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112 notes • Posted 2021-04-19 06:11:22 GMT

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[madi2112]

The long sordid history of October 31

For me anyways...

I. The early years

It began as a child when I got old enough to have even a small voice in what my Halloween costume should be.

The same question would come up every year and every year the war would begin.

See, I would pick what would be deemed as an "extremely unacceptable " costume by my parents.

Nurse, Witch, Princess, Nun etc. Every suggestion I made was vemently rejected. Often times violently.

Astronaut, Cowboy, Football player and worse were some of the approved costumes thrown back at me.

So in the end, after a lot of fighting, screaming and crying we would settle on a "non-gender" costume. Ghost, Skeleton and other nonsense was the compromise.

I hated it.

So I just gave up on Halloween. Always seemed to "be sick" for those last days of October.

Until I was a teenager that is.

Then Halloween became a favorite of mine.

This turnaround came because I was allowed to go to actual costume parties alone. Finally! I could go in the costume of my choosing. A Cheerleader one year, A Princess, A Southern Belle and more. Often a different costume for each party I was attending that year.

It was tricky work just getting out of the house. I dawned an "appropriate " costume while leaving (making sure my parents saw me) and then changed as soon as I could get out of sight.

It was awesome! I finally got to be the most like myself as I could be. I could finally see at least a glimpse of the real me in a mirror or a reflection. Those times were so special. Iwas dressed as myself and away from the house, not hiding in the bathroom scared of every little sound that might signal my discovery.

Halloween would continue to be a favorite of mine for many years.

Until it wasn't.

II. The good gets better.

I managed to still enjoy Halloween for many more years but not for the same reasons as before. With my real self locked away deeply in the closet I shared the holiday with the love of my life Cyndi.

We would watch scary movies, have a spooky dinner, give out candy and occasionally go to a party.

She would often go in costume while I would always go in either no costume or a T-Shirt that said " This IS my costume".

Remember, I was deep in closet at this time.

In summer of 1995 we found out Cyndi was pregnant, with the baby due in January of 1996.

We had been together a long time at this point and even engaged for almost 10 years. We were living in Dallas Texas at the time and decided to go ahead and finally get married.

A 10 day trip was planned to visit San Diego, Los Angeles and a ceremony in Las Vegas was booked. The only day left avaible to fit that wedding ceremony into our schedule?

October 31st, of course.

We informed our friends and family and only a childhood friend of mine in San Diego and his wife could make the wedding ceremony.

Cyndi's mom planned a reception for us at her home and we had many visitors for the celebration of our offical union.

So our wedding anniversary would fall on Halloween day every year. Which would prove to be difficult once our son was born and got old enough to enjoy the holiday himself.

So we would often celebrate our anniversary the week after.

I always planned the most romantic most creative most fun trips we could afford at the time.

Las Vegas, Disneyland, Park City, Jamaica, the locations varied year by year.

For our 10th Anniversary I really went all out and planned a trip to Hawaii. Including a vow renewal on the beach in Maui in the back of the Grand Wailea Resort on Wailea Bay.

A trip of some sort continued on every year until 2014.

The year I came out.

III. The bottom falls out.

After I came out as transgender things got really bad, really fast.

I had been struggling within myself and facing what I had known all my life. But the biggest struggle was knowing it would hurt her.

I was in this intense mental and emotional arm wrestling match in my own head and because of it I wasn't treating her very well.

I was depressed, angry, short tempered, withdrawn and overall a lousy person to the one I loved the most.

So it should have been no surprise when she found someone else.

Yet when it was confirmed it devastated me.

The confirmation occurred on what day?

You got it, October 31st.

I had moved into my own apartment by then trying to begin the transition process.

As I was getting ready for work that morning I received a text message saying "Good morning my love"

But it wasn't for me.

It was for this other person.

On our 19th wedding anniversary no less.

I had already been missing her so very much as I lived alone. I was already thinking of trying to salvage what was left of our marriage.

This spured me into action.

But it was to late.

For 11 months I tried to reconcile with her. I got rid of my apartment, canceled transition, went back into full dating mode and treated her like I should have all along.

Like the love of my life.

It didn't work.

On October 31st 2015, I spent my first ever anniversary in 20 years without her. And the fathest we had been apart in 30 years.

I spent the evening camped in front of the Magic Kingdom here in Florida crying.

And five years later I'm not really any better.

I still send her flowers or a gift for our anniversary.

This year to mark our 25th it was white roses delivered and a diamond with 3 large rubies in a sterling silver necklace.

She cordially thanked me but had no response to the Happy Anniversary text I sent this morning.

I have tried to move on but can't. I tried finding someone new but her showdow loomed large across my heart. I tell myself to move forward, but I can't.

My heart is still with her and always will be.

Yet she seeming doesn't want it.

I'm still completely devastated. And will be ever day of the remaining time I have left.

And even worse every October 31st.

~Madison HRT1362

[brainriotdump]

Cut the last post short, got scared I'd be questioned what I was up to. This is my diary, it's anonymous. I don't really want any attention on it. Ironic huh?

Anyways the clock app is trying to push me on Autism content. I already got diagnosed with ADHD finally after seeing way too many relatable things.. now this. It's relatable, don't get me wrong and I'm fully supportive of it all, but I don't think it's me. Or it could be? The issue turns out I don't remember too much of my past like I thought I did.. and the thing too is that one has been conditioned to act "normally" in order to fit in for all of these years..

I can fake it. And the issue is I FEEL fake too. Maybe it's why I never feel like a genuine person, because I'm always having a front on? Sounds like masking almost, having burnout from interacting.. i dunno. It's a shit show in my mind. I hate that I might lose my insurance soon, because I'm just now beginning to truly open up to my therapist..

I'm just tired of being the way I am. Constantly worried about what I do and say and how I react to people and if I ramble too much and how words repeat over and over in my head it's like a broken record. I replay the dumbest moments in my brain and I just wish I could end it all.

I just want to be better for my kid man. She deserves the best mom. But it starts with me learning what the best me means.. social media cleanse would be quite the start.. I'd spend more time with her..

The problem is I get bored too easily. I need constant distraction. Maybe I should start to read more!! I'd love to read more actually.. I just make too many excuses. I want to love the mundane things. I want to like my life.. I want to go on more adventures.

I need to stop living in fear man. I feel like I'm seriously withholding my family from a great life because I'm comfortable where we are at least from the financial standpoint. To be honest I'd be so much happier somewhere it doesn't get so cold .. I want to take my kid to the park so bad or play outside in general. Don't get me wrong, when it snows she can play outside too but she's just small right now, not really built for snow play yet. It needs to be summer.

I used to be happy when I lived in Texas. I mean I definitely had some weird days, but things weren't as bad. Well, they were but not in my brain wise haha.. I got so depressed moving to Wisconsin. Seriously. But now Texas is ruined for me too. I'm not the biggest fan of my in-laws, and I just feel like they ruined my happy place by being the worst stereotypical old yt people ahaha it's hard to explain. They've just gotten on my nerves one too many times.

Ugh. I dunno y'all. I need to do something with my life and whatever I'm doing now ain't it. I love being a mom, I'm about to be a wife soon too. To be honest I'm scared about being married. I'm young and he's great. He does what he needs to support the family and he's a good dad for sure, but I find myself being afraid of his judgement constantly. I don't know why. Maybe it's projection. Maybe it's a trauma response.

Life is wack

Anyways I'm gonna get off now. I cannot wait to see my therapist again.

[howtosurvivebeingsingle]

Toxicity

I think I mentioned a while back that I was in a toxic relationship. Back in 2019, I entered my first relationship in my entire life. He had the most generic name and for privacy reasons, we will call him John. As cliche as it is, we both met on a dating app and started talking for two weeks. Your typical teenage-style messaging on Snapchat with regular conversations emerged. It was a good time talking about art and working hard. He was 28 at the time and I was 23. Mind that the age gap did bother me a little but I was willing to give it a shot. Due to my lack of dating experiences, this also made me a little naive to how quickly things escalated. After those two weeks, we decided to go on a date. The plan was to go out to eat and catch a movie at the local drive-in. All the red flags were there. Seeing as how this was nothing like the guy who a few months before took me to his house, this was going much more smoothly than my experience with him. More on that later. He picked me up and to no surprise asked if he needed to come to the door. I'll have you know that I'm from Texas, in this particular town I was in men were shall I say challenged on the front of chivalry. This should have been the first red flag, again bear with me. After we took off, he initiated the conversation to break the tension. I myself am not the best conversationalist, so for me, this was fine. Our stop was Cheddars which was seemingly packed, so we stopped at a Chinese buffet just down the road. The food was terrible, but it was nice talking to him. After we left, we hit the drive-in that I paid for (red flag 2) and he dropped me off around 1. He was a gentleman and wanted another date sometime but yes, looking back now, I should've ended it there.

Another week and another blindly accepted date that took place on my sister's (now ex-boyfriend's) birthday. He met me at my house and I stupidly made him breakfast. The day ended with a nonconsensual kiss on the playground at a park where the party was. I never knew what a kiss was meant to feel like. I assumed my fear of saliva and anything relating to mucus had something to do with it but for some reason, the strongest urge to puke and pass out hit me hard. I played it off and made the excuse that I needed to be home early and texting was there. That night we were boyfriend and girlfriend. I was told "It's okay to kiss on the second date." and "Most people are in relationships by then." by people who definitely have more experiences than I have. I'm not one to hold grudges, but it seems rather cruel to just assume I know the warning signs the first few times. I later learned that they only wanted me to be happy which called to question if I really appear that sad to people. Conversations over the phone about our next date started to arise along with topics about taking 11-hour trips to the redwood forest alone next summer. After three days, I started to notice a pattern in his speech and messages that were oddly familiar. I'm sure some of you are familiar with the: "I love you! You're wonderful!" next to, "You should really come over to my house. I'm lonely." and then, "I'm such a terrible person for trying to pressure you. You shouldn't date me anymore." Something my good male friend knew all too well of. His first on and off relationship was with a girl that dated three guys at the same time including him. The speech pattern was the same along with the constant worry of his six female friends. I needed a man's perspective on the situation, and who better to trust than him?

We'll call my friend Ron for privacy reasons. Ron and I had our usual hang out after a night at home with my new boyfriend. I confided in him that I was unsure what to do. His knowledge of relationships was similar to mine given his first toxic relationship and his second short relationship that wasn't. I was beginning to question if I was naive or just scared. I handed Ron my phone and he skimmed over the messages carefully. After about half an hour of careful reading, he looked me dead in the eyes and looked as if he just witnessed a murder. His words were: "I'll be brutally honest, this guy gives me vibes that he wants to mess you up. He's trying to play his cards right and get you to sleep with him. If you don't there's no telling if he's going to take what he wants anyway. Sounds a lot like my ex." My heart sunk deep into my stomach as I started to realize all the warning signs. I know one thing for sure, if some sources won't give it to you straight, you can always rely on someone else. We then went into deeper conversations about how his first ex. I won't specify details since, but I'll keep it discreet. She tried to make him do things he didn't want to in terrible places. My heart broke hearing his words. From my layman's perspective, I had only seen that she was dating other guys alongside him, but knowing that he could relate and trust me enough to confide in that delicate information was comforting. I wasn't going crazy and I wasn't scared, rather correct to be a skeptic of my first and now obviously Toxic relationship. This conversation then made me wonder that toxicity can be defined as something that makes you sick but besides Rob's and my experiences, what exactly is defined as a Toxic Relationship?

Sera: "You have been put through an emotional rollercoaster by him, and he has caused you pain, confusion, and stress. This is a clear sign that he doesn't love you or care for you. It is not because of anything you did, but you should move on now, and cut ties."

Chris: "Intense love. Passionate sex. Deep conversations. Lots of crying. Lots of fighting. A pregnancy scare. A fiery breakup induced by social media. Months of games following the breakup. A painful goodbye."

Rebecca: "When your gut feeling is always telling you that something doesn’t feel right, but you can never put your finger on why. you feel physically sick all of the time for seemingly no reason at all, you start to crave being away from them more and more, being with them feels exhausting, like you’re walking on eggshells with them, the thought of a future with them makes you more anxious than excited and they hold you to unrealistic expectations. There's a lot to it really."

Franklin: "In almost all toxic relationships, there will usually be one person trying to exert control, and one person trying to assert boundaries to resist that control. Of course, human beings are complicated, and there can be both things happening in both directions. But generally, at least in my observation, the arrow of control is much more prominent in one direction. Another common element in intimate partner abuse is gaslighting—attempting to overwrite another person’s own subjective experiences or memories with your own 'that's not what you feel,' 'that's not what you think,' etc."

Ankita: "You are behaving differently with them than what you are in front of your family/close friends, and always being compared with another woman or man, especially for your physical appearance. You are not allowed to look into their phone. No, this isn’t about privacy. Making love is all about their mood. They tell you what to do and don’t want to listen to you and you can't make friends or hang out with old friends. They also judge your friends on the basis of gender. You can’t call an opposite gender a friend."

I was shocked to hear that people had a lot to say on this particular subject. This inspired me to do some digging on how many people have fallen victim to this harsh reality. Disturbing as it is, I found that 82% of Americans have been or are still in toxic relationships. It's a hard idea to follow, but knowing that Rob and I aren't alone. Has anyone here also had similar experiences? If so, you too are not alone, and it's always good to confide in someone if the reader feels that they might be experiencing or have once some time ago. Before this turns into an infomercial, I thought I'd share one last story with you. My younger sister has been in a series of these and is thankfully no longer in contact with the men of the past. There was the rockstar that didn't take no for an answer. The playboy who thought he could have many women and the downer that needed constant attention or he'd do something drastic. Many similar situations like the above mentioned happened to her in many of her previous relationships more often than not. I unfortunately should have paid more attention to these scenarios and could have done better to aid her and avoid this myself. She is thankfully in a better relationship with someone that treats her better and has a marriage planned. This is no secret to her either, he did tell her very early on in their relationship and is working on personal problems before popping the question. The plan is to surprise her. I just hope he's ready for how difficult that will be. She is pretty observant and pieces things together rather quickly. In the long run, what I've learned from my and others' experiences. This was definitely a learning experience and I can be sure that neither my friends nor myself will not to make those same mistakes again. For now, hope your weekends are going great. As always Much Love Your Way Darlings!

#sex and the city #singles #beauty #how to be single #blog post #dating #much love #carrie bradshaw #2022 #winter 2022 #february

[ahlnandco]

Welcome to AHLN &Co

I am launching this blog AHLN&Co as a way to help myself brainstorm and navigate through these "muddy waters" we call life; as well as, to share personal Canadian experiences with an online community in hopes to create positivity and perspective on various aspects of living with a focus on health and wellness.

Although 2018 was a strangely unique and exciting year, first full year post graduation, first full year living on my own in a new town, single, with practically 1 or 2 friends and no family out here, there were a lot of highs and lows this year, and things I hope to change for next year!

Highlights for 2018:

-Started and ended my first ever 3 month online relationship

-Started and ended my first ever network marketing company while meeting multi-million dollar mentors in Memphis, Tennessee

-Successfully went to the gym almost daily and am finally able to 3 chin ups and 10 push ups and run for 10 minutes straight

-Went on my first full family vacation in the last five years to Dallas, Texas for my cousin's wedding

-Started in my first ever musical production of Rodger and Hammerstein's Cinderella

-Started Piano Lessons and had my first piano recital

-Went to Vancouver, British Columbia to celebrate one of my best friends wedding with a group of my besties

-Went to Winnipeg, Manitoba to run Mud Hero 2018

-Wrote the MCAT on my Birthday that I started to study 1.5 months before and epically failed (30th Percentile)

-Rode a Pontoon for the first time and got to go tubing for the first time and participated in my first ever boat parade

-Went to Niverville, Manitoba to celebrate another one of my best friend's wedding

-Visited home for many weekend trips and reconnected with friends and celebrated birthdays

My Top 2018 Moment

- was Vancouver, British Columbia- it was truly a relaxing Vacation with absolutely amazing company, started out with walking around downtown Vancouver, riding a ferry, eating food, hikes up through Lynn Canyon, Whitewater rafting in Squamish ,British Columbia, learning Black Pink's Boombyah Dance ,hitting The Red Room a nightclub in downtown Vancouver, making a day trip to Seattle and checking out the Public Market Centre, harbor and riding the Ferris wheel, then getting lost getting back to downtown Vancouver and just missing the Vancouver night market, but finding an amazing late night Asian food place that had super cheap food, having late night heart to hearts, then taking morning runs through Kitslano and up and down Jericho Beach, and experiencing the first of my immediate friends getting married with an amazing reception, with the drunk after effects of my friends as well, then spending an amazing day with friends exploring downtown Vancouver, and a day at the pool and an amazing night in where we got 100$ of free food due to an order mishap, honestly one of the best trips ever!

My Worst 2018 Moment

-was probably my Birthday, the day before I was a wreck stressed about the MCAT cause I still had 60 percent of materials to cover and failed a bunch of the practice questions, was scared I was going to be debilitated by the difficulty of the MCAT, so much so I could no longer study, then was stressed out visited my sister and played games and ate fried chicken all night, then MCAT day honestly it wasn't as bad as I thought, I just didn't know my stuff well enough, then after all the excitement of the test, the rest of the day felt mediocre but got to spend it with family so that was nice...to be honest it wasn't bad, but it wasn't great either it would have been really nice to go dancing or karaoke or even spend the night with friends, cause that night I realized my family had out grown me, being a single mid 20s new grad, I am extremely single and ready to mingle whilst being the youngest in my family, despite my niece and nephew, it is very easy to feel left out, but I was glad I had them at least!

Overall though, I don't want to seem ungrateful, but 2018 was a great year looking back, but as I lay here writing and reflecting about moving 6 hours away from home and making my first 6 figure salary, half which went away in taxes( fyi joys of being Canadian) and the other quarter went back to payoff my line of credit for school, which I am officially one paycheck away from paying off (another joy to being Canadian, living at home and going to school, lower student debt), then a chunk going to car payments, rent, and insurances, does leave a fair bit amount for travel and shopping compared to someone making less, by moving to a new town with less to do and eat, I should be able to save money, but with less than 700$ in the bank, and not enough days to visit family, travel, explore, experience and gain new skills, I really want to go back to school to become a doctor, the perks of being a doctor in Canada, their high fee for service pay, and the lack of physicians in rural areas, the diverse nature of the field with a lot of growing potential, and the flexibility of hours depending on the field of medicine, disadvantages to being a physician may be the hours, the patients that don't really care about themselves, you work alone, and you don't get paid vacations or benefits, or pension. Currently, I work a steady Monday to Friday job 8 am to 415pm, I get 4 weeks of vacation, 2 travel days, benefits and pension, and make a six figure salary but after taxes it definitely 5 figures, I live six hours away from home, and if I moved back home the job market is severely lacking, would be making less meanwhile going back to a higher stress and more competitive job market!

To someone that end up reading this, I apologized, as this post if it was visually perceived my life would seem interesting and great and to be honest, I think I would be okay if I wasn't single, possibly married and had kids, because my life right now has a sense of balance. But as I lay having only been kissed once, single af, in a rural community, that has limited opportunity for me to pursue my interests such as Kpop dance classes, or classes for haikaido, and limited opportunities to meet people, meanwhile being so far away from my close friends and not being able to implusively go on road trips for the long weekends with friends and family. I need to move back to the city, but logically I can't if the job market means me having to work harder for less, so switching careers is the way to go!

Being a student has its perks, yes school is hard and you are constantly stressed by studying, and life passes by, but with 3 months of summer to catch up on or work, I call that balance and you are working towards self improvement and a finite goal! Although being a physician in my opinion has one of the best payoffs as a degree, there is a downside to my dream, my grades are mediocre for medicine, so I have to almost perfect the MCAT in order to be eligible, if I'm serious about this career move I may need to go back to school to boost my gpa, which means more money!

But that is the reality, as a Pharmacist, yes I may be able to learn the stuff a physician knows and apply it to an extent, but I will never have the full rights to use my knowledge, and unless I own my own pharmacy I will never truly be able to dictate my own hours, that is why becoming a physician is my goal. Becoming a physician is such an challenging process as they work for the right to apply their knowledge and provide direct care for patients as primary providers, meanwhile until the public is aware of allied health and the other health care providers there will always be a shortage of physicians and a demand for them! Same thing to any profession though, you are vetted and tested, such that you may have the right to supply information knowledge or care, but physicians are one of the few that can be incorporated.

As I continue this post by airing out my thoughts, my goal for 2019:

-ace the MCAT

-lose weight and reach my goal of 180lbs (currently, 196lbs to 198)

-get abs and be able to do 10 chin ups, 20 push ups, and run for 20 minutes straight

-apply for medicine (goal is to get an interview)

-save at least 20-25% of my income (redirecting the money I would have spent paying student loans)

- consistent posting on this blog, if not daily, weekly, so by the end of 2019, I can see my year in review and track my progress!

When I think about it, people are going to hate me and hate this Tumblr cause it is literally first world problems, but when people say TIME IS MONEY it literally is! We all have the same 24 hours in a day, and it is up to you how you choose to spend it, and hopefully I spend mine wisely! #Self-Care #Self-Improvement

Ps. Physicians if they worked full time in a northern community they could make 3-6x more than a Pharmacist, just saying (perks of being Canadian) but the goal is work less get paid more so... Work one-third of the year for the same amount of pay! #TenYearGoal

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