#cj writes things

[madamewriterofwrongs]

Jester to the King

For @oneawkwardcookie on their birthday.

911/Madney

Chimney had one mission: get the infant to safety until they could usurp the tyrant king. It was NOT to become the king's jester, seduce the princess, and murder the advisors. Oops.

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#911 fox #911 on fox #cj writes things #oneawkwardcookie #love cookie #maddie buckley #chimney han #madney #the court jester #alternate universe

[puppy-steve]

steve laying on top of eddie because sometimes it feels like there's a gaping hole in his chest, like his ribs have been cracked open and filled with empty space where his heart is supposed to be. he doesn't get this feeling often, usually only comes over him in the night, when his thoughts get too heavy and too mean. but laying on top of eddie helps. he tucks his head under eddie's chin and snuggles in close. tangles their legs together and gets his arms around eddie's torso so he can hold him as tight as he needs, the pressure against his chest making the emptiness feel not as overwhelming. eddie never protests and makes sure to hold him back just as tight.

#cj talks #i hope this is okay. it's the first thing ive written in a month #my cast comes off on tuesday and im excited to start writing again #cj writes #steddie #steddie ficlet #steddie fic

[scoops-stevie-archive]

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really though, think about it.

girls in robin's year would totally still be hung up over steve "the hair" harrington. king steve. the boy they've created in their heads and would kill for a shot to go out with him.

so when they see his beemer in the parking lot after school on the first day in 1985, a game of telephone immediately starts. they gossip about how he's there to see a girl, nevermind the fact he'd never go for someone still in high school (unless you're a boy whose repeating his senior year but that isn't relevant just yet), and names start flying. news reaches inside the school building quickly and the halls are filled with whispers.

no one gets close to him. it's almost as if everyone is waiting with baited breath to see who's going to get in the car. they watch and discreetly point and make their predictions until a hush falls over them when they see steve perk up and sit in his seat a little straighter, turning his key in the ignition and starting the car. everyone looks around for the girl he's inevitably taking home, and the building doors slam open with a bang! and robin buckley comes tumbling out onto the sidewalk with all the gracefulness of a newborn foal. they pay her no mind and keep watch for the absolutely beautiful girl that has the honor of sitting in his passenger seat.

and then robin buckley moves in and throws her backpack into his backseat before sitting shotgun. says something that has steve letting out the most ugly cackle they've ever heard, a giant grin on his face.

there's no way.

how did robin buckley manage to capture the former king of hawkins for herself?

they watch as steve backs out of the parking space, still laughing and engrossed in whatever conversation the two of them are having, and drive away.

after he picked her up that first day, he's been driving her to and from school ever since just so she wouldn't have to ride the bus. even going so far as getting her breakfast and coffee before he drops her off. he's got her a little bit spoiled.

and it makes all the girls furious.

robin thinks it's absolutely fucking hilarious.

they mostly glare at her in the hallway between classes and she has to stifle her giggles behind her hand. they won't do anything directly, she's noticed, but she hears the jeers behind her back and it only makes her roll her eyes. if only they knew the real steve.

robin shows up late wearing a polo under her denim jacket that obviously belongs to steve. they had their weekly sleepover the night before (where they share a bed and oh wouldn't that knowledge make every girl see red) and they'd both slept through the shrill ringing of the alarm clock. she'd snatched the shirt off his floor in her haste to get dressed and neither of them noticed until someone was brave enough to point it out.

"woke up late and didn't have a clean shirt," robin shrugs. then, to be a little mean, "not my fault his bed's so comfortable."

and just like she thought, the girl's face goes bright red and the steam coming from her ears is almost visible. she storms off and they've got new gossip for the week.

it keeps happening. robin wears steve's clothes more than her own now after realizing how good she actually looks and how comfortable they are compared to her own. it's not all polos and buttons; there's a few plain tee's and a couple with graphic designs that she tends to favor more.

"keep 'em of you like them so much," steve had told her one weekend as she raided his closet. he was still bundled up under the blankets in his bed and looking at her fondly. "they don't fit me anymore and i'd rather they get more use than collect dust."

the day before christmas break, robin's sitting at her regular lunch table when the chair in front of her is turned backwards and eddie munson is straddling it, giving her a smirk.

"so, buckley, a little birdie tells me that you and harrington are going steady."

robin rolls her eyes. "me and the dingus?" she shakes her head. "there's nothing going on there, trust me. we are platonic with a capital P, all the way."

eddie hums in consideration and he's got that look on his face that robin recognizes well. she gives him a once over and leans in, beckons him forward like she's telling a secret.

"but you, on the other hand..."

#robin buckley #steve harrington #stobin #platonic with a capital p #stranger things #platonic stobin #cj talks #cj writes #i liked being your schmuck

[chaosxcrushed]

There's a certain CCCC summary video that we really, really like. We think it is a great video for people if they want to grasp the story more clearly, if they're confused, or if they're listening to the album for the first time.

That video being Chonny Jash and the Weight of the Mind on Youtube by W3tBl@nk3t. We think they cover it really well.

However, I'm sharing this for a different reason; they say few certain things that really struck with us until now, that I'd like to share with the fandom. Sometimes, we see people really just.. Miss the point of CCCC entirely, and I'd like to shine a light on what was said here. If you'd like to hear this for yourself on video, the timestamp is 35:57-36:45.

“..I bet we all could relate to that, they are the prime example of the side of you that suffers and the side of you that hates yourself for suffering:

The side of you that just wants to slow down and feel everything even to the unhealthy extent of not being able to do anything else(1), but also the side of you that so desperately wants you to get over it(2).

Sure, laying in bed all day every day to rot isn't healthy, but neither is boiling things down and invalidating your own emotions. Both are paths to inevitable disaster, and that's what Chonny is doing here. Keep in mind that the idea behind this album is being whole, and that means neither of these sides are entirely in the right or the wrong; this album is about inner compromise and acceptance(3).”

1.) The side of you that suffers; Heart. He is representative of Whole's emotions, he holds them. Your emotions can go haywire, especially when one's mentally ill and has no way of their feelings being validated. An emotional person like Heart suffers under the weight of crushing, devastating feelings. He wants to feel things out, have time to just process everything, even if it takes them days or weeks to get over it. It's not healthy, but feeling is what he does, and he wants to help because he knows he has importance. Solely focusing on just your emotions isn't the best thing to do, however.

2.) The side of you that so desperately wants you to get over it; Mind. Many people have been there, have wanted themselves to stop wallowing in their own emotions and just do something else, even to the point where you think feeling things out is unnecessary. This is also unhealthy, but not intentionally. Like Heart, Mind just wants to help, everything he does is in best interest. This is what he thinks will get them to move on the quickest; to leave behind emotions and focus on anything BUT that. Also not the best thing to do.

3.) This album is about inner compromise and acceptance; About being whole. Neither of Heart and Mind are right nor wrong. They have their own ways of doing things, of what they think will help their whole self out the most, but both are unhealthy despite the good intentions. They fight over who's wrong or right, when they shouldn't even be doing so in the first place. It's your thoughts against your emotions, basically; your feelings contradict your thoughts, and it leads to an inner war of sorts. This won't make things better, which is why you can't have Mind over Heart or vice versa; you'll need both of them. In the album, they are only able to be whole when they get along. They harmonize, they 'combine', they see eye to eye with each other and work together instead of fighting over and over. Inner compromise is achieved with this, and acceptance can lead them away from any disaster that there's to come.

What we're trying to say is that mental health is a large thing tackled within CCCC, and yet we see a lot of people who overlook it; thus, end up missing the point of the whole album. We see a lot of people believe Mind's perspective a little too much and treat Heart quite harshly, or the other way where people demonize Mind and say that Heart is perfect, when it's not really that in the slightest.

This is not a hate post towards people's interpretations of CCCC or how they view characters, I'm just saying that people can tend to overlook what's in the very narrative, and we see a concerning amount of people do such.

Anyways. Stream CCCC and put your Hearts and Minds in the get along shirt. Have a nice day.

#chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cccc #cccc heart #cj heart #cccc mind #cj mind #mind chonny jash #heart chonny jash #I did not mention Soul once in this post. I am so sorry to all of the Soul enjoyers #whole was technically mentioned but this is not about him. so sorry to the Whole enjoyers as well #we rreally really really like this CCCC video #a lot #it does a great job at explaining things and is fairly good for an unbiased telling of the story #to reiterate though this is not a hate post #it's just a bit frustrating to see how many people say that mind is right or heart is right #but no.. that is not the point of cccc #and it's even in tse as well. the line 'neither is right yet neither is wrong' #personally we are big fans of heart and will defend him since he gets so mischaracterized #but we know and acknowledge that he isn't 100% correct and can be wrong for what he wants to do and has done #we love Heart but he did not have to pull that gun. #also. more justice for characters who make mistakes but aren't automatically super evil because they're just human. #we've seen how people lack that understanding in the fandom </3 #hmsw are so incredibly flawed in a relatable way with such good writing #we feel like people overlook that so much #this post was scary to make but #we're doing it #here goes #CxC rambling and yapping #we haven't posted purely text posts in a while please don't come for our heads c4 fandom

[everythingwasalreadypicked]

I find it so hilarious how no one in Camp Jupiter takes Octavian and his predictions seriously (even when the books says they do)

Oh, you say Greek gods exist? That they have children too? What's this about a camp? Don't be silly Octavian of course they don't

Sybillyne books? No they are a myth. Like an actual myth. No that harpy didn't memorise them before they burned down. Harpies can only cook and clean, everyone knows that.

Look Octavian, we're at war. Tensions are already high. We don’t need you to sow even more with your insistence on Titan army sneaking into camp and sabotaging weapons. Yes yes, you got stabbed by Saturn's general before, when you were right, that sucks— please shut up now

#octavian hoo #alabaster torrington #pjo #hoo #the first two are *canon* #the third is a hc thing #octavian is just never taken seriously lmfao #I could go to write paragraphs about cj and the titan war istg #I love Al #he did a bunch of shit tho #you can't be a general without that #I really believe bc cj had more numbers than chb #and bc they actually *had* a god defending at least the city #(no shade to mr d) #kronos would not attack there directly #at least not until olympus is taken over #first of all its protected by the legion #which is not made of mostly summer campers #bc it's a year around thing #and adult demigods+legacies would also be there #instead of just teenagers and one adult (chiron) #which is why I like to hc #✨️sabotage missions✨️ #can the romans fix the damage to buildings in a matter of hours? #yes #but can they say the same about the weapons? the armour? important documents stolen? #i don't think so #also the risk of a small team getting captured would be less than the entire army #especially bc mt othrys is so close to cj #does this makes sense? idk. idc (i do a lil) but yeah

[pendwelling]

"What are you doing?!?!?!”

F*ck it all, has their android truly been infected by the virus after all?!

— persona. chapter 3 (ao3) by @mishamoonberry

#lout of count's family #백작가의 망나니가 되었다 #lcf #백망되 #my art #Soos DBH AU #DEDICATED TO MISHA FOR WRITING A FIC THAT COMBINES TWO OF SOME OF MY FAV THINGS EVER SOOS + DBH 🫶🫶🫶 #THE SOOS #lee soo hyuk #kim rok soo #choi jung soo #현대팀 #trash of the count's family #the amount of emotional devastation this AU causes me..... #istg LSH and CJS are gonna bite their fists one day knowing how they treated KRS #and I'm gonna love EVERY SECOND of it bc the relationship development will be so so so SWEET #YOURE THE BEST MISHA 🫶 #lcf fanart

[shepards-folly]

Your guilt is tied around your throat, frayed at the ends where it was cut, but still there nonetheless.

It is now that you realize that your abdication will forever haunt you.

And as you ponder that, only just thing rings true in your mind at the moment: You were supposed to be better than this.

#shep arts #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj soul #a quick soul doodle to toss out while I get murdered by my hubris once again /silly #fr though augh I have so many drawings to finish and like no time to work on them rn :( #caption was from a thing I was writing in my notes app for a bit #haha i’ll never finish anything I write ever but at least I can repurpose the bits I do have for my art #might as well use em if i got them lying around ya know lol

[sneeb-canons]

Soul has a cabin where he keeps things from past loops in. A few things of note are:

-A tape recorder with an early version of ‘We’re Gonna Win’

-Mind’s first pair of prosthetics

-Heart’s first blindfold

-Pictures from various concords where they’re all happy

-Recordings of Mind reading or singing

-Recordings of Heart doodling and writing lyrics

He keeps these with him because he just wants to only be in concord and to rewind back to when heart and mind weren’t blind and mute respectively. He knows he didn’t cause either, but he just needs them back to ‘normal’ so bad it physically hurts him. When he goes to his cabin, he always comes out crying because {God, why can’t things be better? Why did all this shit happen to us? What did we do to deserve this?}

And also, going hand in hand with this, during concord, Soul records EVERYTHING. He is so scared that this loop is the last loop they’re like this, and next loop they’re going to rip each other to shreds. He just can’t let any moment go to waste.

Headcanon #127

#chonny jash #submission #cj soul #cj mind #cj heart #chonnys charming chaos compendium #damn okay you didn't have to make one that hit so hard/lh #love me some soul angst tho #angst for the soul #lol get it #anyways thanks for the tears anon i love this #debating makin an au or something with it #had an au idea a bit back when soul would be gone/missing and only Heart & Mind are left to fix things/find soul/whatever #mayhaps they find the cabin then #and kinda have a whole moment #idk how to write things but like eh #one of my favorite headcanons

[crispyjenkins]

Assassin's Creed fic 👀 I am always a sucker for (good) Desmond Miles fic, hell yeah, would 100% read those if you posted them.

👀 👉👈 you're my new favourite, anon. this isn't close to being done but i'm very fond of it so here's a lil preview~ inspired by esama's study of flight, but with a twist! (gen, time travel/reincarnation, found family, william miles' a+ parenting, accidental subterfuge, desmond goes by miles mostly)

  Inhaling a careful breath, Ezio pauses half a flight from their destination and Leonardo halts on the step above him, frown deepening in concern. “Ezio?” he prompts, when he still doesn’t say anything.

  Ezio sighs. “We have thirteen recruits now,” he explains, turning to lean his back against the staircase wall; the cool temperature of the stone actually calms him somewhat and allows him to go on, “He’s been with us a few months, now.”

  Tilting his head curiously, Leonardo bends closer to him. “I thought you had stopped recruiting for the time being.”

  “I had.” Ezio rubs over his face quickly, such discomfort usually unsafe to display so openly — then again, Leonardo is hardly his enemy. “One of my discepoli, Adele, noticed him first.”

  “ ‘Noticed him’?”

  “... In my defense, I was away on a long assignment.”

  Leonardo just looks bewildered, an expression that’s usually quite amusing to see on the man, but Ezio can only cough awkwardly.

  “He, ah, was here a week before anyone thought to question him.”

  His old friend blinks slowly at him, Ezio can almost see the calculations happening in his mind, before his whole countenance brightens enough to make Ezio wince. 

  “You mean he infiltrated the Brotherhood? And nobody noticed?” he asks gleefully. “Oh, Ezio.”

  Refusing to flush in embarrassment, Ezio crosses his arms with a humph. “As I said, I wasn’t in the hideout at the time. Geniuses some of my recruits may be, but they all thought I had sent him here. Adele was the one to notice he had previous training, and asked him where he had met me.” Letting out a long breath, Ezio does smile, just a little. “The whelp didn’t even deny having snuck in, ’said that this is where he wants to be and was tired of waiting for chance to put him in my path, or I in his.”

  Leonardo laughs brightly, moving to rest against the wall across from Ezio. “And Machiavelli didn’t kill him immediately?”

  “No, Valeria convinced them all to keep it quiet until I returned from my contract, the little hellions. She even used me as a meat shield when Niccolò finally found out.” Ezio loves his recruits to distraction, they’re his brothers and sisters and siblings and he would gladly die for any one of them. He would also like to never face down Machiavelli’s sword and rarely-used hidden blade ever again. Once was already in excess.

  “And the recruit?”

  “Miles defended himself, of course. At least long enough for Niccolò to become intrigued by his skill.” He’s still testing the theory, but Ezio is fairly certain even the rank of millite is too low for him, though why Miles would be hiding his prowess is a concern all on its own. 

  Leonardo has known Ezio far too long, and far too well to not guess at his unsaid meaning, his lips tugging back into a thoughtful frown. “You think he was trained by another Assassin?”

  “I’m not sure yet,” he admits with a sigh. “He certainly wasn’t trained by any of our branches.”

  “Miles, Miles Miles,” Leonardo muses to the sloped ceiling. “Unusual name. Germanic? Or French, perhaps?”

  Ezio had been considering contacting his brothers in Spain, despite being almost positive that Miles wasn’t trained by them; he hadn’t even considered the French branch. Actually, did the French branch even exist anymore? He thinks he recalls hearing of its decimation around the time of the Inquisition.

  “There’s a thought,” he agrees slowly, rubbing his jaw. “I’d have to ask la Volpe or another older member about their fighting styles, I only ever crossed blades with Helene, and she hadn’t been an Assassin in many years by then.”

  “Ah, Helene... Dufranc, was it? Yes, yes, the lovely rogue from Barcelona. ‘Mon petit Assassin’, if I recall correctly?” 

  Glowering, Ezio kicks his friend’s foot at the reminder of the nickname he only escaped upon return to Italy. Some of his Spanish brothers still tease him about it in their letters. “I regret ever telling you about that,” he grumbles, much to Leonardo’s amusement. 

  Though, he quickly sobers and meets Ezio’s eyes under his hood, pinning him there easily. “Why am I here, old friend?” he asks, softly, but leaving no room to wriggle out of the answer again.

  He really isn’t making this easy, is he?

  Ezio can only hold Leonardo’s gaze for a few moments more, before he has to look away. “Miles is a bastard from a Veneziana whore. He never met his father.” He needn’t look to know Leonardo gets it immediately, but Ezio still goes on, “My students aren’t nearly as subtle as they think they are, and I do not know if it would have occurred to me without their whispers.”

  Leonardo understands this immediately, too. “Ah, does he not bear significant resemblance to you, then?”

  Ezio shakes his head. “My recruits seem to think so, but I’m afraid I’ve gotten far too in my head about it and am no longer sure if what I see is simply what I want to see.”

  “Oh, Ezio,” Leonardo sighs, standing straight to reach across the narrow space between them and put a hand on his shoulder. “I would be glad to meet him, old friend. Then, after, we will sort all this out, just as we always have.”

  Despite himself, Ezio finds himself relieved by the comfort, and reaches up to squeeze Leonardo’s hand, before removing it and stepping away. “Thank you,” he murmurs, and nods to the bottom of the stairs. “Miles is usually sparring one of his brothers or sisters around now, come with me.”

  “Or siblings,” Leonardo reminds him with a soft laugh, following at his heel.

#title's gonna be from poor isaac by the airborne toxic event #this whole fic is based on the trope of time travel des not knowing how to lie for shit and people making assumptions (à la study of flight #except their assumptions turn out to be mostly right #des isn't ezio's kid tho 👀 #anyway i love desmond almost as much as i love obi wan if that tells you anything about my current state of mind #crispy writes #i also have a modern-era bleed effect injury angst thing and an altdes where they both go back in time which is a MESS of a fic #but it's power couple mostly established relationship where everyone thinks altaïr found another adha and they aren't exactly WRONG #seriously i could gush about desmond endlessly #anon #cj answers #savage price

[star2stop]

day 25: shot!!!

//robot gore, body horror (?)

strap yourself in for some robot gore everyone!! hope ya like it,, i've never done anything like this before... X[

he got exploded </3

#i actually planned to write something for today.. but i lost motivation halfway through :[ #starsfanarts #starsfanarts: chonny jash #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cccc #cccc mind #cj mind #jashtober #robot gore #gore #gore tw #body horror #body horror tw #(body horror tag is there just to be sure) #(not really sure where this thing falls under lol)

[nova-they-exist-yup]

sigh fluffy h&m interactions my beloved

heart and mind opening up to each other before they open up to soul

heart and mind being closer with each other than they are to soul

it all being symbolic that they cant run whole nor function on their own without the other

sighhhhh

the them

#chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj mind #cj heart #this may or may not be a hint to what im writing #but yet again ive posted multiple hints to things ive been writing and then proceeded to never finish them sooooooo #we’ll have to see :3

[chonnysinferno]

more memories from like. when i was cookign pasta lmfao

[Hey.]

He stepped into the doorway of the room, steps heavy. He couldn't really control that; his presence was always loud and booming.

(You could've knocked, you know. It's just polite to do so.)

[You'd know already. No point in trying to hide.]

(Okay, fair enough. What's up? You gonna pester me again?)

[Not really. I'm just curious, about the reason you always wear earbuds. Everywhere.]

(Oh, you noticed these?)

He tucked his somewhat-unkempt hair back behind his ear, stifling a little chuckle as he did. It revealed dangling moon earrings with an earbud inside.

(I thought I hid these well. You've got keen eyes, Mr. Sun. What of them?)

[Yes, why do you wear them so much?]

(Well, you see, random mundane noises are loud. Louder than they should be, apparently. Remember that time where I told you guys that the microwave hummed quieter and you told me about the new microwave?)

[Yeah, we replaced it, you commented on that. Mhm.]

(You never told me about the microwave change until then.)

[Yeah. Great for you, I guess.]

He said this in a monotone voice, while he picked at his nail polish, clearly unimpressed. Heart's head wings fluttered in annoyance.

(Are you EVEN listening to me? YOU asked, you know.)

[Calm down, Resident Heart.]

(Don't you "Resident Heart" me, as if you're even somewhat threatening. Now, I don't care if you don't believe me or not, I've said what I've said, and I'm not repeating it.) (Now, if you'll excuse me, I have tasks more worthy of my attention than me wasting my breath speaking with you. Good day, Mind.)

He turned his chair around, letting it purposefully squeak all the way before continuing what he was doing before the interruption. Counting a full 10 minutes under his breath with much silence other than the vent, he turned around to see why Mind hadn't left.

(..Are you going to leave anytime soon, or? Is this what you intend to do? I didn't know you were so inefficient.)

end of.

(Can you shut the FUCK up for once?)

[…]

(GOD. IS IT SO HARD.) (YOU ALWAYS TELL ME TO SHUT UP LIKE I'M THIS MANCHILD. I CAN DO THINGS, JUST LIKE YOU, SO WHY ARE YOU SO INFURIATING?) (YOU'LL ALWAYS, EVEN SUBCONCIOUSLY, TREAT ME LIKE THIS LITTLE KID.) (You CODDLE me like I NEED PROTECTING, OR I'M SOME INCOMPETENT BITCH OF A PERSON.)

Rubbing his temples, he took some time before starting again.

(I can't even EXPRESS my GENUINE ANGER FOR YOU. BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT? I'LL END UP DOING SOMETHING I'LL REGRET, LIKE-) He paused. (Like shooting you.)

He sat back down and slumped in his chair, letting out a huge sigh.

(You know, if you'd actually tried to communicate with me, we wouldn't have this.)

[..Heart-]

(NO. DON'T NOT TALK TO ME LIKE THAT.) (I don't want your sympathy, or pity, or anything like that. Alright?) (I'd just like better communication. You know?)

end of.

#mind's eye collective shit #more things. idk #same thing goes for this post #also this mightve been obvious but im heart here. i just like writing in 3rd person because ik heart isn't me but also like. it's kind of w #-ird saying i / me / myself yknow #idk how to express it #sorry oill stop posting #uhhhhh can still be viewed as interactions between the two. idk anymorenjrjrenjrgergerg #i wanna put these on ao3 but also idk how to work it + i dont have an account + i'm too nervous hakjskjkjdashjdashj #you knolw #uhm #ok byebey #chonny jash #cccc #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj mind #cj heart #- 🌗

[houseofscribbles]

Some visual notes on the robotics of ISO! Also, an extra mess notes about them under the read more :]

#MW OC #Monkey Wrench OC #ISO #OC Art #Character Notes #OC Notes #Putting a whole nother meaning in the name ISO :) #I forgot I had these written and drawn out like a month ago! I've been thinking about notes and things about my OC's and their species #I've also got some stuff for Spark L and CJ's species jotted down but ISO has been on the braincell #Leaving out some notes because they got a wee bit spoilery and I wanna wait til I draw things out before I get to some details #But thinking about these a lot. Rotating ISO in my head like a 3d cube #This is just the tip of the ISO iceberg too. The ISOberg #HEE HEE Anyways #ISO has a near and dear place in my heart #I love all my OC's but ISO being my first MW OC gave me the push to write and develop everyone else #This dang series gave me the wake up call to make and write characters again! It's great!! #Another reminder!! Go watch Monkey Wrench!! It's so good! #And here's to the buds in the community that inspired me to keep going with these dorks. Love ya guys :) #// Long post

[scoops-stevie-archive]

trans steve growing up and feeling that something isn't right, she feels too…..out of place in her own body and she tries to placate that feeling by wearing pants and tshirts instead of the dresses her mother forces her in but she's always caught and punished in someway so she wears the dresses and fixes her hair and she grows up.

she's fine. she deals with it. until one day in freshman year the feeling becomes too much and she ends up confiding in tommy whose been her best friend since kindergarten and he gives her his old clothes he doesn't wear anymore. the feeling lessens and she's comfortable. for now.

then, in sophomore year, wearing the clothes around the house and when she's with tommy and carol isn't enough anymore. by then her parents are hardly ever in the state, let alone the country, for more than two days at a time. she's not worried about the gossip of hawkins getting back to them, she doubts they even care, so the monday after a minor breakdown in her ensuite, she pins her hair up into a bob, dons a polo and jeans, and the new pair of nike's she bought with the money that was supposed to be used on groceries.

the anxiousness still sits at the bottom of her chest. she can't put a finger on it until she's flipping through a magazine and finds herself sighing wistfully at the guy in a cologne ad, wishing she could look like that. it catches her off guard and startles her so much she rips the page out and throws it in the wastebasket. that sets off a whole new panic to have over the weekend, but the thought of not being "___ harrington" anymore is such a weight off of her shoulders and she cries in relief.

two weeks and another confessional with tommy and carol later, steve harrington makes his appearance at hawkins high and nobody says a thing because, really, who's brave enough? tommy will beat the shit out of anyone who so much as glances at steve the wrong way and it makes warmth bubble up in steve's chest and he thinks he's so lucky to have the two of them in his corner.

until november 1983 happens.

he drops tommy and carol and steve is clinging to the last threads of his popularity when billy hargrove dethrones him in '84 and opens up the whole can of bullshit that leaves steve reeling. he's spiraling by the time dustin finds him and drags him back into the world of monsters and government secrets, and it distracts him, protecting the kids and making sure they stay alive. billy still kicks his ass, female parts or not.

and then the shit with the russians and being drugged and robin buckley becoming his best friend and platonic soulmate on the floor of a disgusting bathroom stall happens, and it all feels like a blur. or maybe that's just from being knocked in the head too many times in the past couple years, steve's pretty sure. robin knows his secret and he knows hers and they'll both take them to their graves.

summer 1986. his parents finally decide to grace the town with their presence after more than three years away. things have changed, steve's changed, and its obvious his parents aren't happy. they scream, punches are thrown, and steve ultimately ends up on the doorstep of the munson's brand new two bedroom house, courtesy of government hush money, with a suitcase in hand.

eddie remembers the steve before. he didn't have much of an opinion on him back then but he saw the fallout with hagan and perkins and quietly told himself there'd be a space for steve in his flock of sheep should he need it.

he didn't back then, but now he does.

steve opens the floodgates and tells his story from the beginning. from the clothes, from the secret hospital appointments and the surgery that, before the demobats, nobody even knew about. he's crying by the end and tells eddie that it feels like a piece of him is dead inside. that after all of it, he feels guilty. eddie sits quietly and listens, giving steve his full attention with those dark round eyes. he tells him he doesn't have to be sorry for doing it on his own. he's not alone anymore. eddie reminds him that he hasn't needed his parents for a while now, and "who needs them when you've got us, huh? those assholes didn't spend the last four years risking their lives for this town."

he's right. he's found his family in the kids, in robin, in nancy, and hell, even eddie (he won't say how he wants it to be a little more with eddie.) he's grown up and away from the expectations his parents set for him and he doesn't have to feel sorry for that.

#its 1am idk if this is even eligible #i was listening to matilda by harry styles and got into my feels #cj talks #dingus #steve harrington #ftm steve harrington #trans steve harrington #stranger things #steddie ficlet #cj writes

[dialux]

Whatever Cersei had thought of Sansa Stark, she’s all grown up now. The twittering bird has become a honey-tongued snake. A capable snake: capable enough to convince her own brother to give her the chance to kill him. [Joffrey decides to teach Sansa Stark a lesson in gratitude. Sansa learns something else altogether.]

READ THE SEVENTH CHAPTER ON AO3!

#run godspeed #my writing #asoiaf #jon shows up! there's a smidgen of jaimsa! AND jonsa! #also many issues are resolved even as new ones pop up #and though vvvvvvv little is actually done (sansa just walks and talks a la cj cregg in Thee West Wing) much is accomplished #(i say this but then i look at the chapter and i'm like. a) sansa poisons robb b) catelyn declares war on the old gods c) jeyne enters the #scene d) robb declares white war e) jon arrives f) arya leaves. #MANY THINGS HAPPEN!!!!!!! it's not just 20k of sansa chewing scenery lmao #(and this doesn't even TOUCH on whatever's going on w sansa and jaime. At All.)

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i'm working on the next chapter of 'rabbit run'!

i'm really hoping to have the whole fic done by the end of august so i might be asking for encouragement because that definitely helps <3

#loyal talks about stuff and things #watched a bunch of cj videos to feel better about writing but ngl. #it still helps to have people cheering you on so i'm really grateful to y'all