The truth is, I know what I want to do with my life.
I want to create.
I even know what I want to create. I want to edit my book and publish it. I want to draw more of my webcomic. I want to consistently post mini strips. I want to write a middle grade fantasy trilogy. I want to resume work as a coloring assistant.
I want to create.
Purely. Unbothered. Free.
But I know they're not realistic, my wants.
No, not unrealistic. They are unsustainable. To me. I can't live with my dad forever, I can't work minimum wage any more.
I need to figure out what I wanna do with my life.
Sorry,
what I need to do with my life.
Because there's no force on earth that can stop me from creating. I will edit the book and continue the webcomic and post the strips and color the panels and write the trilogy and the world can burn and I can starve on the sidewalk and the sky can rain blood and I will still dip my boney finger in a puddle and draw stories on a scorched brick.
It should be enough.
It has been so far.
So
I can create from the side.
I can make half my life what I want it to be. And half what I need it to be. And maybe if I'm lucky the Create side will take over the Need side like a dominant eye taking over an injured twin's function.
And if I'm even luckier the Need side will take over the Create side like a fungus growing over an ant
so that I won't get upset whenever I'm not creating
so I'm not pained whenever I think about all the creations I will never get to share.
Because I'm so busy living the life necessary to sustain a life
instead of living the life necessary to be alive.
So, yes, truth be told, I know what I want to do with my life.
And
it would've hurt less if I didn't.
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Today I am that lil pink blob in his lil box, from the Shen Comix strip. I really don't wanna poke my head out bc I've already been sucker punched a couple times. Maybe I'm safe in here today
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