#I’m just kinda venting

[ghostfoolish]

xxx

#not to visit this tired topic again but even as a kid I just never understood the need to take pictures of celebrities doing shit #like with the recent Assad photos I just saw people freaking out about them and I’m like…y’all he’s just walking???💀💀 #same with the Assad and Sam photos #and the photos of Jacob and his wife and kid #they’re just sitting at a table and talking?? #they’re just out for a walk?? #I can go outside and see 60 other people doing the exact same thing they’re doing #I get they’re actors and we love them but…..🧍🏾 #do we really have to take pics of them out and about without them knowing over stuff like them walking or eating??? #also I do wanna add that I’m not trying to shame anyone #I’m just kinda venting

[ghoulinfuschia]

Romantic breakups suck, but I think platonic breakups hurt just as bad. You lose a person you thought would be around forever. What’s worse is if neither of you did anything wrong. Circumstances just wouldn’t allow it anymore. You stand at the end of your journey together, side by side, and all you can say is “Thank you for everything. I hope the future treats you kindly.”

#honeybee rambles #Kinda a vent post? #I’m mourning rn #I’ll be fine I’m just dealing with the thick of it

[offkilterkeys]

Being a Jane liker is so hard cause you go to her tag and it’s just a bunch of people lamenting how overhated she is and then continuing to ignore her, and being a Jake liker is so hard cause you go to his tag and it’s just tons of people making the most demeaning comments about him cause his character committed the crime of being annoying (unforgivable.)

#homestuck #jake english #jane crocker #vent #? #I guess hahaha #I am in the content trenches with these two #it’s always secretly about Dirk with them #Jane is Dirk’s bestie #Jake is Dirk’s boyfriend/ex #I just want content about them being friends/siblings/cousins or whatever #or with other people like Roxy or Jade #or even just stuff on their own #but nooooo always the same guy #and even the people who talk about how this fandom focuses too much on the dudes #characterize Jane as Dirk’s bestie and nothing more #I’m considering sharing my Jane analysis if only to bring more diversity #it’s actually kinda funny though that so much of their stuff revolves around Dirk #cause in canon that bothers Jane #how easy things are for him to just do #and she literally admits to being jealous of him #and while he interprets it to be mainly about Jake it’s honestly just in general #like he just does a bunch of stuff that she wishes she had the courage to do #and honestly he’s just more of a hero #they’re kinda like an inversion of John and Dave’s dynamic mixed with Jade and Dave’s #where from Dirks perspective it’s JadeDave in the sense that he just sees Jane as his silly friend who he must protect #while from Jane’s she’s the Dave to his John in that she wants to be heroic in the way he is #and like nobody does anything with that #The fandom ever focused on the boys takes Dirk’s side and says look at her #she’s just a girl

[plagued-by-visions]

Sometimes every year is one of those years where you need to look in the mirror and say “I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me” because one day there will be feasting and dancing. Maybe it’s not next year, but you need to keep making it so you can find out when it is.

#been a real shitty week #this past year of my life was a waste apparently #I’m a little heartbroken and life feels so incredibly bleak right now but I know it’ll get better one day #I Have more blind hope now then ever before #the mountain goats #vent kinda #I think things will be okay I just think it’ll take some work to get there #and I think the mountain goats will be my top artist

[zebulontheplanet]

I think as an AAC user, I get jealous. I get jealous of those who can chose to use it or don’t use it (I have the choice to not use it, but then I just won’t communicate). I use AAC basically full time in public, and use it sorta at home. I prefer mouth words at home but I usually use It throughout the day.

I know this is probably horrible, but I can’t help but feel jealous of those who don’t need it to just get words out. For their mouth to work. It’s hard to be someone that feels like they have a brain and mouth disconnect. To have words that won’t come out so you HAD to get AAC.

I don’t know, I just feel very jealous of those who don’t constantly struggle with words. Who don’t stutter over their words, who are able to get their words out, who aren’t declining in speech. My speech just continues to get worse and it’s hard to go through that. It’s all just hard.

#zebrambles #autism #medium support needs #semiverbal #aac user #aac device #AAC #aac vent #kinda venty #tw vent #speech struggles #I don’t know. some people might disagree with me. I know I’m very privileged to still even be able to use mouth words still #I’m just still jealous.

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[oswinthegeek]

‘What is she looking at?’

I haven’t had time to post anything lately, I’m hoping to be more active here in a couple weeks after the play I’m in is over, just a very busy time for me rn.

#remus lupin #remadora #nymphadora tonks #harry potter #art #otp #remus and tonks #tonks #I haven’t been able to get a full nights sleep in weeks #pls I just need one day to myself #it’s been a rough week #I recently found out my best friend is moving across the country possibly permanently and I’m a mess #and it’s worse cause he just got back from a six month trip to said place and I could barely handle that #and I kinda caught feelings realizing how much I missed him and now he’s leaving again in 4 months #I need to stop venting on here lol

[laidenbreecatchall]

Uhhhhg WIP? Sketch? Who knows.

#idk if this is good #oooooooooooo disconnecting from realitttyyyyyyy #whyyyy i dont knoooooow #anyway uh here’s Law I guess #I drew a bunch of vent pieces before this and I like all of them quite a bit but I don’t wanna post them rn #one piece #art #trafalgar law #my art #ryeart #trafalgar d water law #maybe I’ll actually watch op today #I did this with no ref btw I’m kinda proud #just brain off draw time #my wrists hurt but such is the way of a poor jointed artist

[yourchemicallyimbalancedromance]

Having imposter syndrome as a writer is a bitch

“What if I release this and I don’t get the reaction I was hoping for?”

“What if it’s not good enough?”

What if what if what if like omg I’m gonna lose my mind

This is one thing I really didn’t miss about writing tbh

But yeah this is why I haven’t released anything in almost a month lol, but im pushing through and still working on things despite all of the negativity my brain likes to throw my way sooooo 👍🏻

#vent? kinda? idk #I’m honestly just ranting to the void cause idk why not #writer problems #imposter syndrome

[lunaryuwu]

MY ART FOR THE BMC ZINE!!!

#tbh i think i could’ve done better #compared to all the other art on the zine i just. dhvdhsbsjbsjajak. feel so insecure. #kinda fucked up this one #lineart is my sworn enemy i’m never doing it again #then again i was sleep deprived stressed and particularly depressed while making this so yeah. kinda can’t justify that. #technically this was a semi vent art of my trying to make myself feel better #oh well #didn’t have anybtime to contribute more but i wanted to do SOMETHING #luna’s art #be more chill #jeremy heere

[onyx-got-clowned]

do with this as you will idk

TW blood

legend got an ouchie 😓

I was really contemplating wether to post this or not, since i didn’t really like it, but yk what fuck it we ball. 🤫🧏

#Onyx draws⭐️ #tw blood #i definitely used this to vent #If you couldn’t tell #And I’m just like #Why did i make this??? #Wars looks kinda funky #And four idk man something irks me about how i drew him #not able to say “I’m practicing! It’s ok!” Cus i just don’t like it #But if someone does that’s very amazeballs #Lu legend #lu warriors #lu four #linkeduniverse #linked universe #The context is that they were fighting monsters #And bam #spear to the stomach

[rivetgoth]

I’m a huge proponent for anyone should have access to whatever tools they need to do whatever they want to their body etc but ngl it makes me sad seeing the number of AFAB transes who speak of taking testosterone as this almost like, unfortunate thing you gotta endure to get a set list of Desired Changes, or this sorta like, thing you gotta compromise on, with this whole list of negative effects that you gotta risk if you want the positives or whatever, and just constant posts that are functionally like “how long do I have to be on T until I can stop?” or “I want XYZ changes from T but I don’t want ABC changes,” and like it just frustrates me because to be frank I love testosterone. I love everything about being on it and I consider it a miracle that modern medicine has made it possible to access this hormone exogenously if we can’t produce enough of it ourselves. I feel like fundamentally my lack of proper T levels had a negative impact on me until it was corrected and I don’t feel like I was truly myself until I began HRT. Literally the only negative thing about it at all is the frustration that I’m dependent on an outside source for the rest of my life rather than able to just make it myself but there’s no doubt in my mind that I want to be on it for the rest of my life. While maybe a bit pedantic I don’t view T as having side effects, I don’t even necessarily view it as a medication in the traditional sense, it’s just an artificial way for me to correct my body to the state it already should’ve been in. I was overcome by relief after taking my very first dose when I was seeing 0 changes and even as the initial excitement has naturally died down over the years that relief is something I never take for granted. If I could keep every change T has given me and stop taking it I still wouldn’t because beneath all the desire for the changes there is an innate desire to just be on testosterone. I just idk dude I wish that HRT at least within the FTM / transmasc community was viewed with more reverence and the perspectives of those who view it as genuinely a life saving and necessary resource were given a little more voice. I think the entire idea of hormonal dysphoria and the need to alleviate it by correcting one’s hormone production separate from the laundry list of the possible more visible changes and side effects and what’s desired or not or what’s permanent or not etc etc of HRT is seen as weirdly archaic in lots of mainstream FTM spaces and it’s a bit frustrating and isolating.

#like this isn’t meant to be like I’m more valid than these people or smthn #but I’m just saying it’s kinda tiring to see like dozens of posts across different sites and stuff that are like #I wanna go on T but I only want ABC changes and X change is gross and how do I prevent Z and is Y reversible- #-and how long do I have to be on it until I can stop?? #Also this is NOT ABOUT trans women venting about T from a transfem perspective this is very explicitly about transmascs #nothing but love and respect for trans women that hate T I get you 100% #just clarifying cuz that’s discourse I see pop up every so often for some bizarre reason

[autistic-katara]

me: dude im not even feeling that tired rn and haven’t for ages oh no oh fuck im probably accidentally faking my disability-

my chronic fatigue, loading ammunition into a massive fucking cannon: damn really bro?

#been so tired these past like 2 days #like not regular gotta lie down tired nah #like i don’t have the energy to do basically anything tired #and again i don’t mean like idk i can’t wash the dishes cause idk i’m sleepy or whatever #i mean like i physically can’t do or say like double the amount i normally can’t #like i’ll know how to do smthn or what to say clearly in my head but i just don’t have the energy to get it out if that makes sense #and that’s not like all of it but it’s one of the worst parts (at least rn) #like i feel like i’m actually going insane cause of this it’s just rlly weird #idek i am also like i gotta lie down most of the day tired #but it’s not that strong idk #this is turning into kinda a vent idk #but it’s fine to rb the actual post is fine #chronically ill #chronic fatigue #disabled

[adrift-in-thyme]

Note to self: never again let it slip to an irl person that I write whump

#told two of my classmates today #I’m exhausted so it just kinda slipped out #plus I assumed they’d be at least a little ok about it #given that they’re into fandom stuff #but no #they definitely thought I was some kind of freak #and I wasn’t about to try and defend myself #‘writing this stuff is a kind of therapy for me I promise I’m not sadistic or creepy!’ #yeah that would’ve gone over wonderfully #*sighs* #figures that one of the only personal things I shared this whole semester gets this reaction #why do I even try #I never talk about myself #I let everyone else vent and tell me everything #and when I try to open up I screw myself #trin rambles #vent #ignore me I’ll be fine #it’s just a really yucky day today #I’m not in a great place mentally and that did nothing good for me #hopefully sleep will help #…if I manage to get any sleep that is #ugh #delete later

[foxlungz]

We need to talk more about people who believe that antidepressants magically fix everything and that because someone takes them that they are all better now. Sadly it doesn’t work that way and most of the time it just helps the black cloud of depression that envelops your brain a tad smaller and helps you get through stuff a bit easier. Just because someone’s on meds for their mental health doesn’t mean they still don’t struggle. So having the mindset that people with mental health issues need to take antidepressants to “fix” all of their problems is such a harmful mindset to have. Also want to mention that sometimes these meds can actually have the opposite effect and make someone feel so much worse if it isn’t the right one for them. So to treat it in such a way just angers me.

#vent #sorry for the rant but Im just over people thinking that just bc I’m on meds that I’m magically all better now #also I remember the first meds I was on made me feel even worse and I literally had to stop taking them without my doctors consent bc #I was in such a dark place and the withdrawals of getting off them fucking sucked too #tw depressing stuff #tw depression #depressing shit #kinda depressing #rant post #depression rant

[starswirly]

[ * Pros of self indulgent art: making what you crave and want to see in the world! ] [ * Cons: It’s not everyone’s niche ]

#Random Ramblings #And it’s totally fine! #It just stings when I have to remind myself of the fact I am in a very very niche area #Like being really proud of something and how it looks #posting it and the only people who pay it mind is like. Mutuals. #Okay this all sounds really ungrateful and bitter and I’m not!! I appreciate the fact that even one person is seeing it and bothering to #interact in a small way #But I create and post to SHARE these things I enjoy #and it feels like sometimes like I’m one of those newspaper boys in movies where they’re shouting and everyone is just running by #And more people notice than I realize I’m sure!! But. GSHSHDJDHJSD it’s hard to get out of my head #vent #the tags are #kinda