#I want to keep that buffer that I have

[estrellami-1]

I've been itchin for some good old fashioned steddie hurt/comfort, maybe steve with migraines? I know its been written a lot, but its always so soft and loving

Okay so this took FOREVER but muse deserted me like. Two days after I asked for these prompts. I’m terrible 😂 but I finally feel like I have something, so hopefully this suffices!

Courtesy of my dad putting a meat thermometer in the car on a 110°F/43°C day:

155.5°F, y’all. 68°C. That’s hot, no matter where you’re from. I’m not from Indiana, so I’m gonna go a little easy on Steve and say it’s barely breaching triple digits where he’s at, but if anyone’s from Indiana and wants to correct me, then by all means, please do!

It’s the heat that finally gets him.

Steve can deal with rain, with snow, with wind, hell, he can deal with interdimensional creatures.

But the heat is what finally takes him out.

His ears are ringing, his head is pounding, his stomach is churning.

The kids are out in the backyard, screaming.

He’d been out there with them, supervising, playing, settling fights. Being the babysitter. But he’d overdone it, and now he’s stuck inside. Can’t move from where he’d collapsed into a kitchen chair.

He’s got a cold Coke can by his elbow that he snagged from the fridge. Contemplates grabbing it and holding it up to his forehead, but everything feels like too much work right now, and he shuts his eyes against the tears that want to come.

The back door opens just as Dustin begins screaming about something else, and Steve can’t hold in the whimper, or the way he curls in on himself.

“Shit,” someone whispers, and Steve hears their footsteps approaching. “Steve?”

It’s Eddie. He’s whispering. Steve’s never been more grateful. He manages half a nod, to show he’s listening.

“Can I touch you?”

Another half-nod, and he grimaces at his head and stomach yelling at him.

“Okay, hey, shh, it’s okay, don’t move. I’m just gonna grab your hand, okay?” He does, grabbing the hand Steve hadn’t realized was tugging at his hair. He holds Steve’s hand with one of his and with the other, rakes his fingers through Steve’s hair.

Steve leans over a little, closer to Eddie, letting out a breath of relief. “Squeeze my hand once for yes, twice for no, okay?”

Steve squeezes once, and Eddie lifts their joined hands to his mouth, kisses the back of Steve’s. “Okay. Headache?” A squeeze. “More?” Another squeeze. “Stomach?” Squeeze. “More?” Squeeze. Pause. “Can you point to it?” He points to his ear with their combined hands, and Eddie hums. “Ringing?” Squeeze. “Dizzy?”

No squeeze. He’s not sure. “Okay, that’s alright. D’you want the coke?” Two squeezes. “Okay. If I get you some water, d’you think you can drink some of it?”

A hesitant squeeze. He can try, sure, but he’s not sure it won’t come right back up. Eddie squeezes his hand, gently places it on the table, and kisses his forehead before moving away, getting a bottle of water from the fridge by the sound of it. He comes back quickly, lays a gentle hand on Steve’s shoulder and rubs it down his back for a second.

Steve sighs, bowing his head, and Eddie chuckles softly, placing the water down in favor of getting both hands on Steve’s shoulders. He squeezes and kneads his thumbs in, on either side of his spine, down to the middle of his back and up to the base of his skull.

He continues with the massage for a few minutes, until Steve’s practically melting onto the table, then drags one hand down his arm to his hand, taking it again so Steve can squeeze. “Did you take anything for your headache?”

A pause, because he’s berating himself for not thinking of that when it would’ve been the most effective, then two squeezes. Because Eddie’s perfect, he says, “That’s alright, Stevie, I know it’s hard. Let me get you something for your head. You want something for your stomach, too?” Steve could cry with how in love he is. He squeezes twice and hopes Eddie doesn’t notice the tear making its way down his cheek.

Eddie’s lips intercept it about halfway down. “It’s alright,” he murmurs, carding a hand through Steve’s hair again. “I know. You’re doing so well, Stevie, I’m so proud of you. The kids are okay, and I’m here to help for as long as you want me to, alright?”

One last squeeze before Eddie pulls away. Forever, he means, and the lips on his temple make him think Eddie understands.

He’s back in a few seconds with two pills. He hands them to Steve, but they’re small and he thinks he might drop them, might spill the water, so he presses them back into Eddie’s hand.

Another pause but Eddie understands a few seconds later and the pills are at his lips, and he’s opening for them, accepting the water that’s next, slowing down when Eddie murmurs. “Careful, slow sips. Just a little for now, you can do more in a minute, just let this settle first.” He pulls the glass away, sets it down on the table, and takes Steve’s hand again. “How about we go upstairs? Maybe take a bath? I think there’s some of that lavender oil still.” Squeeze, pause. Upstairs. Squeeze, pause. Bath. Two squeezes. Lavender.

Eddie seems to understand, thankfully. “Okay, no lavender. Want me to carry you up?”

Not for the first time, and probably not for the last time, Steve internally curses his parents for buying the biggest, grandest house they could. He squeezes once; even if he would prefer to walk, he’s not sure he can right now.

Eddie moves to crouch beside him, pressing another kiss to his temple. “I love you,” he whispers, lips brushing Steve’s temple still. “So much.” He gets his arms around Steve, adjusts a little, and counts down so Steve knows when he’s going to move. Steve loves him an insane amount.

Instead of saying anything, he loops an arm around Eddie’s neck, tucks his head into the juncture of his neck and shoulder, and presses a kiss to Eddie’s collarbone.

Eddie gets him upstairs and in bed with minimal jostling. “I’m gonna go grab your water real quick,” he whispers. “D’you want the bath now, or later?” He quickly thrusts a hand back into Steve’s. “One for now, two for later.”

Steve thinks about it, honestly doesn’t know. Holds up a weak-feeling w to his chin. Water.

“Okay. I’m gonna let the gremlins know too, okay? I’ll be right back.”

Logically, Steve knows he will be back in a few minutes. He knows he’s in a sweat-soaked tank top and swimming trunks. But it’s somehow cooler upstairs than down, and his window is closed, and his head is pounding less, enough so that he’s falling asleep by the time Eddie makes it back up.

He startles awake when Eddie places a hand on his forehead, then winces when his movement causes everything to hurt more. “Shit,” Eddie whispers. “Sorry, baby, didn’t think you’d be asleep yet. Can you drink a little bit more water for me? Then we can sleep.

Steve frowns, lifts a clumsy hand to sign. Bath?

“Do you want one right now? Because I’ll go set it up if you do. But I think your body knows what you need right now and is trying to give it to you.”

Steve thinks it over, then agrees, asking for water again. “Yeah, of course, here, lemme just…” he maneuvers behind Steve, props him up some, and lifts the bottle to his lips. “Small sips, baby, it’ll be here later too, m’kay?”

Steve obeys, taking small, slow sips, tilting his head up when he’s finished. Eddie places a kiss on his cheek as he puts the bottle back on the table. “Go to sleep, baby,” he murmurs, laying them down. “I’ll be here when you wake up.”

Steve frowns, signs one more word. Kids?

“I let them know you’re not feeling well. They’re packing up, Nancy and Jonathan are gonna take everyone home. Robin threatened me with dismemberment if I didn’t tell you to call her when you’re feeling better.” Steve smiles. “Oh, sure, just laugh at a threat to me, what’s gonna happen when-” he splutters when Steve puts his hand over Eddie’s mouth. He grins, kisses his palm, and grabs his wrist, slotting his thumb into the pulse point. “Love you, Stevie.”

With the hand still held aloft, Steve sticks out his thumb, pointer finger, and pinky. I love you. And with that, he drifts off to sleep.

When he wakes up, the little bit of light coming from his window tells him he’s only been out for a few hours. He takes stock of himself: his head still hurts a little, his ears aren’t ringing anymore, and his stomach still feels a little weird, but he thinks he might just be hungry.

He rolls onto his side and comes face-to-face with a sleeping Eddie. As he watches, Eddie’s brows scrunch, he mutters something, and he stretches out, one arm creeping across the sheets towards Steve. His hand pushes against Steve’s chest a few times before he mutters something else and wraps his arm around Steve, pulling him closer.

Steve can’t help it. He grins and kisses Eddie’s forehead, so in love with this dork he’s just about shaking with it.

Eddie’s eyebrows scrunch again and his eyes flicker open. He smiles at Steve. “Hi, baby,” he whispers, sleep-rough. “How’re you feelin’?”

“Better,” Steve whispers back. “Head still hurts a little, but it’s not bad. Mostly I’m hungry.”

Eddie hums, tucking his head under Steve’s and rubbing a hand up and down his back. “What’re you in the mood for?”

Steve hums back. “Feels good. I dunno. Think there’s any burgers left? Might do one of those.”

He can feel the face Eddie makes. More so, he can hear it in his voice. “You want leftover burgers?”

Steve lifts one shoulder in a lazy shrug. “It’s easy.”

“Stevie. Baby.” Eddie pulls back to press a kiss to his lips. “I asked you what you want, not what would be easy. If you could have anything in the world, what would it be?”

Steve thinks about it, then starts laughing. “Honestly? McDonald’s.”

Eddie chuckles too. “Then McDonald’s you shall get,” he swears. “Wanna come with me or stay here?”

Steve’s brows raise in surprise. “I can get it, Eds.”

“I know you can. I’m asking if you want to come with me or if you’d rather stay in bed.”

Steve rolls his eyes. “I’d rather stay in bed with you,” he says, causing Eddie to smile.

“Ah, but we can do that after I get your food. You want your regular?”

“Yes, please. Think I’d rather stay here, if that’s okay. I think the sun might make the headache worse.”

“That’s fine,” Eddie soothes, standing up then bending over to press a kiss to Steve’s temple. “Be back soon.”

“M’kay. Thanks, baby.”

“Anything for my love,” Eddie grins, bowing before he walks to the door.

Steve chuckles and shakes his head at his boyfriend’s dramatics, shifting in bed to get comfy again.

He doesn’t remember falling asleep, but when Eddie walks in, he blinks awake, stretching as he smiles at him. “Hi, baby,” Eddie whispers.

Steve wants to kiss him, so he does, sits up and drags Eddie closer, food all but forgotten. “Hi,” he whispers against Eddie’s lips. “Thank you.”

Eddie hums as he kisses Steve once more then pulls away. “Anything,” he says, and Steve knows he means it.

They eat in relative silence until Steve asks, “how’d the kids react when you told them?”

Eddie smiles. “They were mostly worried for you. I think Dustin was about to bust inside and demand why you didn’t tell him you weren’t feeling well, but then Nancy gave him a look—you know the one—and told him in no uncertain terms that they were going to leave you to rest and could check in on you tomorrow. So expect a call from him.”

“Or twelve,” Steve chuckles. “Speaking of, I should probably call Robin, huh?”

“Probably,” Eddie agrees, then grins. “Or I can think of something else we could do instead.”

Steve pretends to think about it, then leans in. “Robin can wait,” he agrees, matching Eddie’s grin with his own.

#I’m so sorry this took so long #I’ve had NO inspiration lately and what little inspiration I have had I’ve used for if I should stay #I want to keep that buffer that I have #but this was an absolute joy to do #even if it ended up being longer than I thought #also I should point out that the car had been off for the entire day so it had just been heating up like a greenhouse #imagine THAT on bare thighs #because God knows women’s shorts aren’t nearly long enough #anyways I hope you like it!!! #stranger things #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #prompt: hurt/comfort #Steve has migraines #starambles

[soracities]

if we should protect children because they are vunerable, this means you would protect cruel children who bullies people who different than them then. the children who responsible to trauma for someone else's entire years

You're assuming that "protecting" children is the same as absolving them of responsibility and that's not what I said. All children are vulnerable, because all children are children; they don't come out of the womb with a perfectly working moral compass anymore than they come out of it waiting to hurt people--they're vulnerable because their understanding of the world is entirely at the mercy of what we, as adults, consistently tell them and show them. Children behaving cruelly aren't exempt from that--they learn that cruelty from somewhere, or someone. Your job, as the adult, is to make sure they understand that it's unacceptable so it will not happen again--but your job is also to ask why someone that young is behaving this way to begin with, so you can ensure they become better.

"Protecting" kids is not ignoring when they hurt or torment others, it's not refusing to teach them consequences or right from wrong, it's not "zero tolerance" policies in schools that treat a child being bullied and the child bullying them as equal instigators, and it's certainly not protecting them from recognizing, and atoning for, the pain they have caused someone else. You don't have to make peace with the now-adults who hurt you when you both were kids, but you cannot let the horrors of your own childhood impact how you treat or respond to the children living theirs around you right now, either.

You don't protect kids so they can get a free pass for bullying or tormenting another child. You protect them because kids are impulsive, emotionally reactive, and profoundly social (which means deeply impressionable) human beings who are still learning & processing insane amounts of information every day about what it means to be alive, to be alive as yourself, to be alive as yourself with other people. Protecting them is realising that you can't isolate the responsibility of a 10 year old from the bigger responsibility of the literal grown adults around them, adults who are in charge of teaching them about the world and how to behave in it. Whether you have children of your own in the future or not is completely irrelevant to this; we all become those adults eventually--no matter what happened to us as kids.

#ask #Anonymous #i dont want to keep repeating myself on this but we're all carrying fucked up and traumatizing childhoods to some extent and if you want to #spare another child going through the same thing the solution is not to hate on children bc they didnt ask to be born any more than the res #of us did. but they're here now and what are you going to tell them while they are? #what kind of an adult and what kind of a compass are you going to become for them during the time they're learning about being alive? #and if you decide its not your problem the minute this child says or does something fucked up and that they're a lost cause at the age of 8 #bc their impulse control is shitty and their empathy & understanding is still buffering then that is part of the problem. they learn what #they're doing is okay and then they keep doing it--to other kids and years later other adults. our world is fucked up and makes fucked up #people and if you have it in your ability to limit that damage at its most formative and dangerous point then why wouldn't you? #notes from elsewhere

[todayisafridaynight]

i have specific ways of drawing men nude and i forget those ways sometimes

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 2 #ryu ga gotoku 3 #or 4 #or. 5. #ryu ga gotoku 4 #ryu ga gotoku 5 #yk the games where hes ACTUALLY shirtless #yakuza series #yakuza 2 #yakuza 3 #yakuza 4 #yakuza 5 #daigo dojima #snap sketches #But Real Talk i do have like. i try to keep in mind how i draw daigo's body between 2 and onward #ive been having a bad habit of making him buffer when i draw him during his Y2 era #prob cant notice since i never post him here and if i do he's clothed but. not for my twit where hes Not Clothed #so i just wanted a lil refresher #plus i do just like to make body differences known #i like to think he eats like. Properly after y2 :] healthy weight.. #i have body charts for m|ne and aok| too but m|ne's isnt really super diff from early 2000's to 2009 #obvi i make aok| different in-between but i prob wouldnt post those to main #cannot trust the public to handle masat o with knockers.. even if i do make them p small #anyway thats enough ramblgin :) i should stop drawing my arm kept tingling and its kinda tingling rn #and i have a big comm to do tomorrow so 😭 gotta rest up... #gona just drink more of that plum wine and write a lil ok bye bye enjoy daigo bitties

[amphibianaday]

day 1175

#amphibian #frog #described in alt text #no time today busy day at work + hanging out with friends afterward so here is a literal 20 second frog #this is why i try to keep a buffer of extra drawings so i can pist at a consistent time but draw later if i want/need to #'but isnt the idea to Draw daily not Post daily?' yeah but there are days i genuinely do not have time to draw and post something #and i find it helps me stay in the daily drawing habit by still posting those days

[crossbackpoke-check]

18 + swaymark!!

oooo thank you!!

#18 - pleaser, wallows + swaymark

okay i know they are canonically obsessed with each other but. the song is in some ways about feeling like you’re failing in your relationship and being not quite as obsessed with them as they maybe are with you, and in this video of them talking about being a tandem, there is the slightest pause before swayman answers “do you miss him?” that makes me want to probe a wound. we’re not talking irl reasons of how that’s an absurd question (how do you miss him. you’re coworkers you’re seeing each other all the time) we’re talking that maybe this whole goalies-in-love thing got blown out of proportion and now swayman’s having to buy into the bit too hard. linus loves it & everyone’s asking about their bromance & how they love each other so much and the thing is—linus is safe. he’s got a wife and plausible deniability and jeremy? jeremy is gay. sure, he can crack jokes and people-please but the more people ask the more they're going to find out until maybe they find out something jeremy doesn't want them to know. and the longer this goes on, the more jeremy has to sit at linus' dinner table with linus and his beautiful wife and pretend like he isn't a little bit in love with him. and you know what? the longer it goes on and linus doesn't dial it down jeremy does stop being in love with him, because it just feels cruel, until he finally is done enough that he stops biting his tongue and ruins the moment.

#…this so is not a five sentence summary but ALSO this manages to perfectly align with something i was obsessed with (that media video) #like yeah is that pause reasonably a buffering time to a weird question? yes!!! do i want to read into it & make swayman a bit uncomfortabl #also yes!!! sorry i decided to give them tragique but they were assigned by spotify. the other option for this song was an ED fix-it fic #about healthy sex and learning that it can be a part of a normal relationship!! sex is weird and fucked up!! but like. that’s just because #i have always interpreted this song as a) unrequited best friend love & you’re worried you’re gonna fuck it up b) virgin who doesn’t know #what sex is and is scared to tell anyone and then option c) people pleaser keeps going along with it but can’t anymore #also OBVIOUSLY they end up fine. whether that ends up being jeremy finally telling linus (oblivious) i don’t want to do this with you #i need to get over you & them creating a platonic space & sway ends up with someone else OR linus has the oh. true. i simply never #considered that i could be gay for you option OR the one i have just invented but is now my favorite because i love a good polycule is that #linus & his wife simply add jeremy to their relationship. and then this song becomes jeremy scared to have sex with linus’ wife at first lo #liv in the replies #the interviews in that video doing the lord’s work fr but also that ‘do you not miss him’ feels SO uncomfortable. say no! but then he leans #in with the dirty jokes comment & i know i’ve made like eight variations already (sorry. that’s how my brain works) but it is soooo fun #to me personally if they are broken up but now have to act nice & keep doing all these rituals & sell us on the narrative & they’re just #trying to see who’s going to crack first. needle each other into laughing or getting irritated enough it shows through & the other one wins #do even more aggressive hug rituals!! get a medical warning from the athletic training staff!!!

[movedtodykedvonte]

Spamton Neo battle but Susie and Ralsei never show up to help Kris fight Spam.

The soul can’t knock Kris into fight shape due to their fear. Spam is winning by land slide and is about to land the finishing blow on Kris but for a second either due to Kris’ weakened state or just another momentary flash in Spam’s delirium he imagines Kris as a younger version of himself.

Not projection but just straight up him before everything went completely wrong, battered and bruised and down trodden and stops the attack to heal Kris as he’s no longer seeing Kris as an obstacle or similar case to himself but a direct instance that he can “save” sorta how he wanted help and to be saved when he was in that position years ago. 

Whether the soul takes a back seat to watch or is just being stuck in a stalemate with whatever force is afflicting Spam, it’s just Kris and Spam and their odd kinship of feeling like empty shells left in that basement...

#cue kris either going along with it for the sake of not having to kill the person that reminds them so much of their situation #or just waiting for the time to strike as spam neo is really dangerous #in this scenerio ig Kris is kinda acting as the angels handler while Spams the metaphorical angel #spams effectively their weird dog that thinks kris is like its adoptive pup or ward #this isnt an au but i like the idea of Spam having this base hatred of himself when he reflects directly on HIS person #but through another person he has a lot of sympathy and compassion for himself and want the versions he can't go back to to be happy #also based this idea off the idea that Spam was controled in a way Kris was with the caller #like pretending to be Spamton by mimicing behaviors but correctly until it didnt and spam couldnt keep up the ruse #so kris is doubly conflicted with taking down spam now cause like what if thats what ahappens to them? like the soul is just gone and kris #has no buffer and everyone leaves them cause they liked the fake them with the soul just like Spam with the caller #im rambling now so ill stop #spamton #spamton neo #spamton g spamton #kris dreemurr #deltarune #deltarune headcanon #deltarune au #utdr

[roseinthestars457]

Hey, I just reread your whole fic: Give you my best shot, and I'm eagerly waiting for it to continiue. I hope you are doing ok, I know what it is when there is much going on in ones life. Thank you for the work you do and hopefully until soon

Rereading? Re? You’re gonna make me cry :_)

But in all seriousness this is so sweet, I’ve been rereading it and it means a lot. Thank you so much for this! Not to ramble but I’ve been struggling to get out bits and pieces of the story over the past months and this really helped me get my spark back! I went on a bit of a spree and finally finished out the arc I wanted to get done :}

That being said… there should be an update tonight 👀 thank you again, I hope you’re having a good day!!

#sorry if this sound awkward I'm so bad at responding to compliments lmao #but again thank you!!! ah!!! #last summer/fall was kicking my butt w work and school and this new semester is much lighter load thankfully #so updates should be regular! I’ve got a pretty good buffer built up and we’re coming into the end of the story 🫢 #the tone definitely takes a darker/more depressing tone than I originally intended so my mood may have had more impact than I wanted 😅 #but anyways! thank you!! I’m sorry it took me a while to respond I keep looking at it in my inbox #cypress speaks #asks #gymbs

[crmsndragonwngss]

It’s probably a good thing that my dad’s going with me to this show on Saturday solely because that’ll keep me from spilling my fucking guts out to Jesse Cash about how I heard Dreamcatcher on my discover weekly playlist in 2014 and between Erra and Ghost Atlas his music saved me when I was at my absolute lowest low if I manage to catch him at the merch table and really nobody wants that lmfao

#she speaks #listen my dad has heard the story and he knows #but I don’t like the sad look he gets on his face when I tell it so I don’t like to tell it in front of him #and like I don’t want him to worry about me because I’m definitely not in that place anymore #like I’m low right now and I have real low depressive episodes #but never ones quite that low #that one was bad #like real real bad #like that was almost it for me bad #and nobody knows that but tumblr lol and I’d like to keep it that way #cuz like I said I’m not in that place anymore and I don’t want anybody to worry about me when I’m really truly fine #and when I know that even if it feels like the world is ending I’ll be alright in the morning #and like I’m an adult and I’m perfectly capable of and willing to go to therapy when I need it lol #but I feel like if I were to actually get face to face with Jesse Cash without a buffer I would absolutely spill that fucking story in full #like even the stuff I haven’t said here lmao #and yeah nobody wants that including me 😂😂😂 #anyway my dad’s my concert buddy so I’m always glad to have him with me ❤️

[buysomecheese]

I want a dissertation on brotherhood in relation to birth order and senses of responsibility focusing on Eric Matthews and his relationship to school, sexuality, *homo*sexuality, and masculinity and how he projects/protects Cory through all of this and I want it NOW!

(Lots of fun little unorganized thoughts in tags <3)

#I feel like I could hella write that this summer #hmmm #thinking about what I'll want to major in starting fall '24 and I'll go into medicine eventually but an english major... looking pretty nic #for now at least #this specific topic is because I Love Eric Matthews like I'm only in s2 but he's so. he loves his siblings so so so much and it's so obviou #I've heard there's some contention btwn him and his father and ofc I've heard about Eric and Jack and AUGH it's gonna give me SO MUCH- #-material to work with! his relationship with Feeny is just starting to become what I've seen people talk about and! there are So many- #-implications with it I just!! #he's clearly such a good role model for Cory and very much wants to protect/guide him from some of the lesions in guidance allowed by their #-parents #(I'm an older brother and I See how much more my younger brother gets away with and I wasn't as good about it as Eric but I have tried-) #(-coparenting before and Eric is just so much more subtle/helpful with it. our age gaps are different which is def relevant but jfdhbdj) #clearly his failings in school act as a buffer for Cory's; clearly he's trying to watch out for Cor falling into the same dating traps- #-(they keep mirroring? hello??) clearly there's something abt friendship models as well #and we all know that shory is SO homoerotic and while his parents aren't like homophobes it's def Eric who's making jokes and treating it- #-so normally (esp! for a 90s show) that is makes me wonder how his friendships have been shaped by his attitudes towards platonic (?) male- #-sensuality/physicality. how his parents had acted in the past that Cor is unaware of (they are 4-5 yrs apart) that fucked up Eric and how- #-he's trying to protect Cor and how A&A are letting it slide more bc of how it fucked Eric. a lot of this is wishful projecting oops #(A&A is Amy & Alan) #and Eric is just so. comfortably masculine like he's such a little guy augh #all of the men in this show are so Generally positively masculine like even Harley is like that- he's amused by these little 7th graders- #-who can't seem to leave them alone and he threatens them a lot but after he saw Eric sticking up for Cor (+ Mr. Turner) he seems to- #-respect the whole family a lot more. and his respect/caring for TK is insane and his Freddie+Joey (clearly in love idc) are simply allowed #-to exist and are protected and supported by him- Harley (the closest we've seen to toxic masculinity so far barring maybe Alan but idk) #and don't even get me STARTED on Mr. Turner and Mr. Feeny ugh. those two + Cor OH SHIT they are the maid the mother the crone but men lowke #motifs of 3 (we started Brodeck's Report in eng today) and mirrors and foreshadowing etc etc #anyways that's why I'd focus on Eric bc I can't stop thinking abt EVERYONE and that would be Too long of an essay #parallels btwn Jason (or Jack we'll see)/Eric and Shawn/Cory could SO work with that #would not bring in GMW though that would also be Too long of an essay #pavloving myself into loving analysis of media bc of IB english <3 stockholm type beat

[evanthefunky]

I aspire to write something that has dialog where people stammer and backtrack and forget words and use the wrong word and pronounce things wrong and look like fools and then try again and maybe mess up a few times before theyre actually able to say what they want to say but are loved and forgiven by the person they're speaking to and the audience btw

#i know i love watching media (movies n tv shows) but sometimes theres just a disconnect in how people talk. #and i know not everyone stammers and backtracks and makes silly sounds when their tongue moves too fast for their brains! #and i know the more takes of a scene the more money youre spending! sometimes maybe just let your actors fuck up #and then keep going!!!!! stammering is ok!!!!! its not unusual!!!! #this is the rep i need and want ok. #i have begun to stammer and backtrack a little more this year bc i realized its a thing i try and mask/cover but nah dude #people can wait for a minute while i try and figure out what im trying to say. yeah i make silly sounds when im buffering. no one has #said anything about it. #let actors stammer and backtrack and mispronounce things and say the wrong words. for me. and everyone else who does this. #yanno what i mean. #anywho #<3 #also i mean loved as in the kind of love/affection one has for a stranger #god bless the greeks #and their 7ish words for different kinds of love #fuck google docs tbh and 'oh but thats not correct grammar' im not a perfect person dumbass #'incorrect sentence structure' fuck off and go die in a hole on fucking jupiter.

[sasukimimochi]

my heart: but what if you don't write rn and draw COI wangxian cuddling. or just any of the wangxians- i want to see lwj on wwx's lap having a nap and being just content.

me, who needs to finish like 2-3 more chapters this week than usual so i can avoid continuation errors and clean on top of that for a visit this saturday:

i... i need a responsible adult to tell me no

#despite me also being an adult sobs #spoiler alert my heart is winning i am caving #i rly wanna draw just for the sake of it #but i have so much to do #help #i did finish chapter 15 but i need to do more of 16 in order to keep my buffer #then i need to start writing the xicheng spinoff so i don't have to worry about continuation errors #bc there are events in the story between those two that have passed already #i really need to get those going #BUT CUDDLING #GOD I NEED MORE CUDDLING IN MY LIFE #I just want them being domestic and soft sobs

[your-fave-is-bi]

Told my manager/ head of my department in the lab that I’d be happy to stay as a normal (interim) employee when my student hours are done and she seemed very pleased and happy to hear that, even told me it was good i told her and she’d pass it along to the person who handles employee hiring so :)

#personal tag #she gave me a timeframe of a couple of extra months like october-November #but considering i got hired at the end of february with a timeframe of ‘until summer starts’ #and then like two months later got asked if i could stay until end of summer #i think my chances are looking medium good for being kept longer than that initial timeframe she just said #its nothing huge and i know. i know. it is most likely not permanent #but it will be a good buffer to find something else/longer after i know if i have my degree or not #even if they only want to keep me until end october. thats two extra months to find something longer/permanent hire #it gives me time and it gives me a cushion to soften whatever happens with my thesis and degree

[aethersea]

alright, I’m doing it. one fic or chapter a day until I run out of completed chapters, starting now! no more unposted wips!

if the title field dares stand against me, I shall bite my thumb at it.

#finx rambles #gonna do the batfam stuff first bc despite my bold words #I do want to use 80s song lyrics for the stranger things ones #so I need to go scare up some 80s songs that will suit my purposes #and because I kinda do have titles for two of the batfam ones #so it'll give me a bit of a buffer #first one is the one I posted here a little while ago – duke's very special first #tomorrow we do the titans tower au #.......hmm I wonder if I should post any of the kencyrath stuff #there's a scene from the vampire au that's complete enough to post #absolutely zero context but hey #half the fandom is in the groupchat anyway and already knows the context #oooh and I could put up the untamed au too #never got more than the intro done but it's a lengthy intro #sets the scene completely; it's not a finished story but it definitely counts as a finished fic #hell yeah that's way more than I thought I'd have #I can keep this up for well over a week!

[eruden-writes]

Replying to Replies, Comments, and Reblogs

@vaya-mernda

I might post again soon, since it's a 3-day weekend. ;)

Also, I have like a 2-3 chapter buffer, but I feast on readers' reactions.

@magicalus-godslayer

Answers shall come in the next few chapters.

Although, I will say to keep in mind she's from the past. In theory, no one is looking for her.

@lifeinimpossibility

Aw, I'm sorry you had a bad day. I'm glad this update cheered you up some, though!

We all deserve a big protective alien, irl. :P

When I write, I often try to imagine how it would look in a show or movie, and that particular cut was one of those scenes. lol I'm glad you enjoyed it.

@ironmentalitychaos

Tai'dqei's exasperation in thick in that passage. lol

@marbles-everywhere

Glad you're excited! Thanks! <3

@ironmentalitychaos

Thank you! And we'll just have to see if she stays with him now? ;P

idk if she trusts him yet, but it is complicated.

@vaya-writes

Aw, thanks! I'm glad the tension translated, since I almost felt I should add more details to the chase scene for it to really work well.

lol I think it's hard to not have a sexy fight scene with a yautja. ;) It certainly gave Rayelle something to think about.

#replying to replies #replying to comments #replying to reblogs #the unexpected human problem #tuhp #reactions like these make me want to share the next part sooner #but I suppose if I share I DO have enough of a buffer to keep my patrons ahead... #;)

[victory-cookies]

I have been invited to a music festival by one of the girls I went to see sio and I’m waffling about it bc on one hand I want to go and there are some good artists that are gonna be there but on the other hand do I have the money. it’s also really close to when I’m heading to another concert so I’m already spending a lot of money around then

#I’m trying to be someone who like. goes and experiences things more #but I’m also broke all the time bc I keep travelling to go to shows #and the thing about this festival is I wouldn’t have to pay for accommodations or anything so it would just be admission #but bc it’s a festival even a single day ticket is fucking expensive #and then I’ve gotta decide what day I would want to go bc I don’t think I can afford all 3 #I also don’t know how I would fare at a festival #plus I have literally met this girl the one time. she’s chill as hell but on the weekend we had the buffer of her bestie being my #bestie’s older sister who I’m buddies with #so we had a third person there who knew both of us #do I know her well enough to rawdog what is probably already an overstimulating experience for me? #idk. it’s a war between wanting to do stuff and have fun and also wanting to not be broke all the time

[candycryptids]

On god I am keeping ontop of Vierapril but the Yokai Event might fr derail me when it drops LMAO I love Yokai watch So Much it is INSANE how badly I've wanted the event to come back cos I started playing like shortly after the last one ENDED. SAD!

#I keep wanting to build a better backlog buffer or w/e but I'm stumped for good ideas #And The Agonies have not done me many favors #But I'm kinda keeping up. Got two days in que pretty consistently but there's a decent chance I'll end up falling behind #before its over ;w;'' Oops.