#I want to go back. I so want to go back to writing regularly

[haveyouseenthisskeleton]

Recently found your writing, and I love it!

Will you please write for the boys having a bad day/panic attack, and their s/o loves to sing, so they sing them a lullaby/quiet song to soothe them? I especially want to see Horrortale Sans reaction, I adore how you write him. Thanks in advance, xoxo

Undertale Sans - He slowly calms down, but he's still tense. Even though it's way better than what it used to be, Sans still has bad nightmares sometimes. He simply focuses on your voice and nuzzles against you until he feels safe again to fall back asleep. He's thankful.

Undertale Papyrus - He immediately breaks down and apologizes. He doesn't even know why. It's rare when Papyrus shows vulnerability, but he can't avoid having bad days all the time. He's glad you're there and the singing is definitely helping him to calm down. He simply hugs you close and refuses to let go.

Underswap Sans - He rolls his eyes at you, but he's smiling so you know even if he's playing big and tough right now, it's actually working. Blue doesn't express his feelings that much, so he's kinda glad you noticed. He calms down quite quickly.

Underswap Papyrus - It definitely helps as Honey suffers from severe anxiety and can go into a panic attack at any time. He cuddles on your lap and calms down as you sing, focusing on your voice. He's very silent in those moments, as he's so tired when it happens. It's not rare he just breaks down hearing you sing either.

Underfell Sans - He usually pushes you away, the only exception being after loud noises that send him into a panic attack. After being stuck under a cave in for a whole week Underground, Red is terrified of loud noises and can even hurt himself trying to hide during a crisis. Your singing helps him to distract himself from the noise, and he's focusing on you to calm down, to the point you even manage to keep him calm during big storms, preventing panic attacks. Red is very thankful for this.

Underfell Papyrus - It doesn't look like it's affecting him, but it's just a facade. He is still tense, but he appreciates the gesture and it actually helps him to think more rationally about what's bothering him. Edge tends to think things are worse than they are actually, and sometimes, just a little help to distance himself is all he needs. Plus added to that, he's usually really sweet after these types of crises as he doesn't want his bitterness to affect you.

Horrortale Sans - He's a hard one. It depends on which state of your relationship you are in. In the beginning, even singing won't soothe him when he's having a crisis as he's completely dissociating and even dangerous. But as time passes, you can see he's making big efforts to focus on your voice. It's not always working as some panic attacks are stronger than others, but you manage to bring him back with the smallest ones. And as time passes and your bond grows stronger, he's listening more and more to you and it's a little easier to reach him every time, to the point you can sometimes hear him sing your songs all alone to calm himself down. It definitely makes a big difference.

Horrortale Papyrus - It definitely helps as well. At first, he's a bit awkward when you start singing, but as time passes, he melts more and more against you, trying to relax. He still has a hard time doing that, but he tries to focus his breathing on the beat of your songs or your heartbeat to calm down. It happens regularly it helps him to talk about what's wrong because Willow has a bad habit of burying all of his feelings until it breaks him.

Swapfell Sans - It's complicated for him to accept to show any kind of vulnerability, but he's getting better and better at it. He doesn't even know how you can tell he's having a bad day as he usually doesn't even complain since Nox feels like all the bad happening to him is justified because of what he did Underground. He's still learning to let go, and your singing helps him a lot to open up a little more about what he feels. Don't expect him to talk openly about his feelings, but little glimpses here and there, more and more often, show he's starting to heal and trust. He needs your singing to sleep as well, as he struggles with this a lot.

Swapfell Papyrus - Even if he appreciates the gesture, it's not enough to get him to relax. Rus is way too agitated when he's not feeling well and he doesn't feel like opening up to anyone. A bad habit he kept from the Underground. It's funny since he's a pretty open guy usually, but he just hates talking about these things, especially when it's touching a little too much from his old addictions. He can get defensive very quickly and prefers to be alone.

Fellswap Gold Sans - Another tough one. Wine will get offended if you sing to try to calm him. He doesn't want to be calm, and he doesn't want to talk to you, so piss off. When Wine is not feeling good, he doesn't want anyone close and will end up hurting his family if they insist too much. He doesn't need your help, your pity, or your singing. Leave him alone, he will deal with his feelings eventually.

Fellswap Gold Papyrus - When he gets in a relationship, Coffee trusts his S/O 100%, and knowing when he needs help to calm down is really appreciated. Coffee struggles a lot to show when he's in distress, and an S/O who can tell when he needs help is more than he can ask. He's melting in your arms every time you start to sing and clings to you until he feels better. He's so glad you're here with him. How did he live before?

#undertale #underswap #underfell #horrortale #swapfell #fellswap gold #sans #papyrus #undertale ask blog #undertale asks #undertale imagines #undertale headcanons

[brown-little-robin]

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Update on Strange Redemption:

I have spring break next week. If I can make a detailed outline for the next arc of Strange Redemption by the end of spring break, I'll go back to a biweekly update schedule for Strange Redemption.

It's been so long...!

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#I'm so excited about the idea of a schedule for this #the routine is one of my favorite parts #the knowledge that I can write a chapter in a week - edit it the next week - then publish... that's really satisfying #I want to go back. I so want to go back to writing regularly #no promises right now but oh I would love to do this! #About The Strange Redemption of Thaddeus Thawne

[bookshelf-in-progress]

It's so nice to have this tiny little selection of WIPs to prioritize. Really helps me to keep my focus where it should be.

Wait, what's this?

IT'S A LONG-ABANDONED WIP WITH A STEEL CHAIR!!

#so two days ago i was looking back at some of my stories i like and thinking that they were all garbage #well then yesterday (actually at 3 am shh don't tell) i was looking at some things i liked less and found that they were surprisingly good #(my imagination kicked in during the interim and supplied some really nice mental movies that made the stories come alive) #and guys that arateph princess and the pea retelling has me going feral #both povs have fantastic conflicts #the fairy tale gets to tie in perfectly with the politics and philosophy issues in this world #and now i really really want to get to the core of this story and try to figure out how to finish it #because there's a ton of thematic and internal things happening #but how to realistically tie it in with the need for action is logistically difficult #i've got at least three threads here and the 'assassination attempt' thing is the most concrete possibility but also the hardest to fit in #i may just have to open a new doc and rubber-duck it to see if something comes together #incidentally the fact that this kind of thing regularly happens with my backlog of seasonally-specific ideas is why i rarely finish anythin #ah well what do you do? #adventures in writing

[icewindandboringhorror]

a boye whom'st loves to attack paper balls

#cats #nhgnhmmm.. yommy... paper favorite food #(I do not actually let him eat paper) #ALSO I'm still working on doing the poll adventure thing I've just had a lot going on. as usual. It's actually harder than #I initially thought to regularly find time to do a quick ms paint sketch and a small writing blurb #it's like even though it doesn't take extremely long it's still one of those things that is hard to carve out a little portion of the day #to do if your day is set up in a way not conducive to portion carving #BUT .. at least I have posted many drafts #as usual.. my style of like.. post nothing for 3 weeks then randomly post 25 things at once #NO idea why my brain works that way. it just does. it's easier #even though I know it's worse in terms of like. social media #the algorithms in most places prefer consistent steady uploads over time. not jarringly wavering between absence and hyper presence #then absence again. but .. alas... #Good to clear out a few drafts once in a while anyway. And I do really want to get back to scullptures and costumes. I stopped as much for #a while due to the pandemic (can't go to the bins anymore to get new supplies for costumes and stuff) as well as my worsened #health things/lack of energy and also my chest injury (so repetitive movements with my arms such as sitting in the same #position sculpting for 4 hours or changing clothes multiple times in quick succession etc. could flare it up) but obviously #none of those things are going to get better any time soon. so I should probably just try to do it here and there anyway. It's still not #safe to go to the bins. still having muscle problems. still low energy. But I could make it work maybe. I just feel bad having gotten out #of the habit when it is really fun stuff that I enjoy. Some things just get more difficult for me over time #But even like 3 sculptures and 10 costumes a year is better than 0 of any of those things. So. eh #I'm also just trying to clear out pictures still. My spring cleaning (which I do at the start of every new year instead of actual spring) #was kind of delayed this year due to me feeling sick and everything so even late into april I'm still working on the side at like orgnazing #all of the files on my computer. deleting things and backing up whatever I want to keep. clearing out photos. #editing and drafting (and maybe one day posting) old stuff form a while ago. etc. etc. #So any progress is good progress. I suppose. #ANYWAY.... a son... he gets very excited everytime he hears anyone anywhere crinkle up a piece of paper

[edelorion]

#edel vents #disclaimer: really personal issues in the tags. also wishes of death upon others. this is PROBABLY too much information tbh... #so if you're not up for it scroll down fast!!!! the deluge is coming!!! #today was... eventful. bad. also very bad. grandma's birthday celebration was today #and while she... definitely has Old People Issues (racist) shes also very lonely since the death of my grandfather so i can't really not go #i'm the only one who really visits her regularly to begin with #aside from the... very serious racism issue... she's “alright”. i guess. but that's besides the point. there's family there #and among those... my parents. which i don't like to talk to #discovered they threw more of my old stuff away. typical. wanted to strangle them. as usual. #had to “talk” with my mother (read: spend approximately ten seconds reciting exactly why i *don't* talk to her anymore) #so that whole ordeal completely soured my mood. #went home tired. can't really do anything right now. #at least the food was good i guess. but i also really want to cry... which i can't. which sucks. #...i really like to think i've improved as a person. i used to be really hateful of everything and everyone #worst of all myself. still kinda do but i'm... getting better..? #i like to think i've grown past most of it but every time i see my parents i feel this gripping at my heart. as if i haven't really changed #as if instead i'm still the hateful person i “always was” deep down... bc there's this visceral joy that i feel whenever i'm mad at them. #when i looked at my mother and told her how much i despise her i felt a shiver of happiness. righteousness. #to be clear: i do NOT care for her. at all. she's the worst person on this earth #and the only person whom my philosophy of “nobody deserves to die” does NOT apply to. i'm not scared of hating her. #she genuinely deserves this. but...every time i see my parents - and thus her... i feel as if i'm slipping back into that mindset of hatred #i don't want that. not anymore. it consumed me whole. i was a horrible person back then and i've caused so much grief for so many #i can't let go of this hatred. i can't forgive them. they don't deserve my forgiveness anyway. but i'm tired of hating. #i'm tired of letting that hatred define me. i'm tired of letting that hatred direct me. i'm tired of letting it bring me to ruin. #i'm tired of being who i was. i'm no longer “that”. i'm edel now and i'm happy for people now. if i don't like something i just walk out. #i can just leave. “if it sucks hit the bricks” right?.. but i didn't. i had to say it. i had to tell them. her. and i liked it. #and... i'm scared of that. because it tells me i haven't improved. #i'm not sure what i'm expecting out of posting this i guess. maybe help. maybe i wanna be told that this is normal or something. #maybe i just want to get my thoughts in order. i don't know. i'm gonna stop writing now. #sorry for making you read all this. thanks for doing it anyway. tags were cut off on this one btw so it may look like a mess. but. yeah.

[obitohno]

(quite possibly) going to change my username when i come back from my hiatus >.<

#♡ jordy is thinking ♡ #this (semi) hiatus was unintended #mini story: #there’s been a lot of stress these past couple of weeks #an incident happened at home n the police were/are involved #we’ve had a lot of measures put into place to maintain our safety #but the last few weeks have had me paranoid n my anxiety has been up n down a lot #i had wanted to come back to tumblr much sooner but i feel like i’m all over the place rn #it doesn’t help that i’ve also had a lot of stress at work too #(bc our class teacher is making our work life hell) #n i just haven’t had the chance to catch a break #on the plus side #i’ve been going to the gym regularly #n i’m finally starting to see some changes #(n may have accidentally developed a crush on one of the guys who work there) #hhh #anyways #i think a new name is needed bc i don’t particularly feel anything towards this one anymore so i’ll try to think of something cute #i hope things will settle soon n i hope to be back to writing/posting at some point in the near future #missing everyone n i hope you’re all safe n doing well #<3

[liminalweirdo]

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#actually looking back through my ao3 my real dissatisfaction with my writing really only started in 2021 #after a couple of years of almost exclusively co-writing #i always attributed the decline in quality to 2018 when i was so burnt out i lost significant ability to perform IADLs #but it was definitely c. late 2021 and early 2022 #when i could sense the decline in my writing skill and enjoyment and so took multiple breaks from co-writing to write solo again #it's weird i co-wrote (and did written roleplays) SO MUCH as a teenager and in my early 20s #and never developed this massive block when i wrote solo back then #maybe it was partially the pandemic #i know my inability to go out in the world has significantly impacted my connection to like... reality and The Real World and Society #i don't talk to people anymore -- everyone's schedules got so messed up that even my friends who i spoke to regularly #when Work Hours were a thing for me all faded a lot #like we're still friends but i don't speak to anyone but my partner regularly #it's so lonely? #anyway i think i made the right choice when i started exclusively writing solo again but i sure miss the excitement and drive of co-writing #idk maybe i just need a boost #mutuals who want to co-write a SDT fic with me hit me up #seriously #disability #liminal scrawlings

[foolofatook001]

“Tell to me, Tam Lin,” she said, “Why came you here to dwell?”

“The Queen of Faeries caught me, when from my horse I fell. And at the end of seven years, she pays a tithe to Hell— I so fair and full of flesh, I fear it be myself.”

("Tam Lin," Fairport Convention version)

Here’s the thing— Martyn knows how this kind of story is supposed to go.

The plucky hero goes into the heart of the enchanted wood, and through a bit of cleverness and the virtue of their pure heart, they rescue the victim from the horrible entangling grasp of whatever evil faerie creature has them. Now, he wouldn’t say he’s got a pure heart, necessarily, but he is certainly clever, and, well— he’s made several forays into the enchanted wood, as it were, and gotten away unscathed each time. 

But what do you do when the victim refuses to leave with you?

He’s tried reason. He’s tried logic. He’s tried gifts. He’s tried impassioned pleas. Ren still keeps going back to the Shadow Lady. He keeps insisting he’s not enchanted and that “his Queen” wouldn’t take away his free will, which is unfortunately exactly what someone enchanted and without free will would say, so he can’t really take Ren’s word for it. 

He’d love to work with Ren, really he would. (He’d love to get into that very solid and defensible tower with a proper moat and everything, too.)

He just doesn’t want to take on a fae as well. 

The Shadow Lady has extended her reach far, and though Martyn knows she’s got limits on her power, the sight of her doing something to Ren to make him harmless to her when he went red— something with enough magic to black out the sun in the middle of the day and nearly knock Martyn to the ground with the pressure— well, he’s pretty sure that speaks for itself. Grian had warned them about her, early on in the game, and though Grian is lost to the red names now, his warning still holds water, at least in Martyn’s mind. 

Maybe the problem is that he’s thinking about this as the wrong kind of story. Maybe this isn’t one where the clever hero spirits away the innocent victim from the faerie queen, leaving her to curse his name from afar. 

Maybe he’ll have to take up dragon-slaying. 

#last life smp #last life fae-u #fool writes #martyn inthelittlewood #like so many of these ren is mr not-appearing-in-this-snippet despite being talked about #I've just been thinking a lot about Martyn in this AU recently #and kind of came to the conclusion that this is sort of the same deal as the PWHAU??? but for last life #like. martyn sees someone who could be an ally but they're “held back” by their Other Ally and a promise that binds them #so they just need to be Saved from their Oppressive Overlord #even if that's not actually what the other person wants #grian & scar and now ren & lizzie #he wants to be the bonny janet to ren's tam lin #tie his headband green and his true liege win from the evil faerie queen #meanwhile ren is out here living out his best medieval knight life #martyn be normal about rendog challenge continuously and regularly failed /lh #also a lot of this is AU-specific because I have ren go red in his boogey kill with skizz #(btw that just happened in the latest fae-u chapter I posted you should totally go read it if you are interested :P) #so lizzie keeps ren on as an ally despite being red because hashtag just faerie things #which shakes things up with martyn because You Don't Do That and also there are other reasons #anyway I think I now have an eventual ending(?) in sight for this au which is exciting #this has been extremely long tag rambles with fool

[racke7]

So, a long while back I found an author with some interesting world-building ideas. They'd maybe slip into "crack"-territory a bit too often for me to recommend it, but like... I didn't really mind it that much? And they'd written a LOT, so I was running high on that "fics to read"-energy.

Then, a few weeks ago, I came across a scene and-... And it made me start thinking about "the underlying values" of the author. Not in the sense of "they're secretly a Republican" (thank god), but in the sense of an (in hindsight) hilariously blatant feeling of heteronormativity.

Yeah, they didn't write X character as gay, but that's no need to point fingers (canon doesn't call him gay, so it's fine). And okay, maybe they created a crack-ship for one of their fics that they got heavily invested in and are now reusing, but like... it's convenient for plot-reasons so knock yourself out? And maybe leaning heavily on "women are mysterious" for cracky dad-jokes is in bad taste, but it's a cracky kind of scene?

But... it just keeps coming. They've basically gone out of their way to create ships everywhere, and they're all straight? And it's constantly played as a "and they make each other better people" as if they need romance to become such. The people who aren't in relationships are being pushed to become romantically involved (because it will make them better people), and the narrative thinks that this is reasonable and well-meaning (despite the threat of a literal war at their doorstep).

Combined with some comments from the author about being very dismissive about people who don't think marriage is important, because they actually "can't get married" and are crying sour-grapes about "not wanting to get married"?

And then on top of that, the reoccurring harem-plots? Where one dude gets lots of girls, with maybe a tiny little bit of Les-Yay thrown into the mix?

It made me sit back and really look at their stories, and... it's kind of painful? Like, I was curious about their fics, and now it's just-... How can I trust them to write interesting things, if their feelings on "romance" (which often plays an integral part in their stories) is the single most boring vanilla-ass shit that I've ever encountered (from someone who wasn't an insane Republican)?

#i won't name names - but like... it's frustrating to see so much interesting world-building thrown in the trash #all bcs the author doesn't want to question their own culture and the influences it has on them. #i'm not gonna say ''gay is better'' but like... at least those ''look how gay we are lol'' aren't pushing an agenda we see EVERYWHERE ELSE #and that's kind of the important part. that they question SOMETHING about how society functions. instead of quoting hollywood-bs back at me #i still won't read them (for the same reason i avoid ''pure crack''-fics) but like plz stop making literally EVERYONE straight #plz have them go ''i could imagine falling in love - but i have a career to focus on - so maybe later'' #plz have them get into relationships that MAKE THEM WORSE. enablers and obsessions and just regularly toxic mayhem #plz have them go ''i could be straight - but i'm just gonna trans my gender first so that it becomes gay'' #plz have them be DIFFERENT from other characters in the same fic. instead of having every relationship be the same. #writing #fandom #rants #personal stuff #gender #sexuality

[orcelito]

of all things, seeing goro and sumi interact makes me wanna work on the next ladue chapter more than anything else the past like 2 weeks

Wild

#speculation nation #brain is just 'vashwood vashwood vashwood vashwood vashwood' etc etc etc #endless reading of trigun fanfic. no time for my own writing endeavors #but. im so close to finishing chapter 3 of ladue... so close... i just need to get back into it #... not rn tho. or the next few days probs. not a good time. #honestly tho it's making me remember how good writing is for my health overall #bc when i want to write i Have to take care of my health. get proper sleep & eat regularly & dont drink alcohol #bc i have to be in tip top condition to have writing brain. it keeps me in line. #the past week and a half has just been me Relentlessly pursuing my current hyperfixations #to the point of neglecting my health. case and point: me getting 3 hours of sleep for NO fucking reason (aside from trigun focus) #writing brain hasnt mattered so ive only been eating one or two meals a day. and ive been drinking a bit more often #though that also might be bc of my mental state 🤔 still no more than 2 drinks at a time #but ive gone from drinking Maybe once a month to like once a week. if not more often. #idk. it's meant as a relaxing kinda thing. god knows i need the stress relief. but it's still not great for me. #i still havent done my dishes and my fingernails r too long but i have no energy to trim them #aka. the experience of being actively in the throes of a hyperfixation is both Wonderful and terrible. my body is falling apart! #and this is with TWO!!!!! hyperfixations. trigun is definitely the more powerful but the fe:engage is there too #im. gonna go to bed early tonight. i have therapy in the morning :P #aka this is my 'i am alive' post but like only barely lmfao. ugh im so fucked with this lab.

[sabraeal]

💝what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

💥find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.

💝what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

If You Dare! My hakizana fics are not usually SUPER popular, but they tend to garner at least a little interest, but that one didn't even get a blip 🤣Too bad, that one was going to get smutty in the next chapter or two. ONE DAY.

💥find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.

That would be To My Esteemed Enemy with three whole kudos, which is both surprising and not, because it's a fic with a pairing that is more popular than my main ship in that fandom, but it 1) doesn't have any ship content in it yet, 2) is using canon characterization of Kazama, which displeases the people who want him to be a sexy villain and also the people who want him to be a uwu good boy trying his best. It's easy to say something nice about this, because I spent HOURS poring over Hakuouki lore to get this into shape and was SO PLEASED with the results. It just needs a few more chapters to really find an audience, I think, but I don't have the time right now to put my effort into it.

#asks #meme #fic meme #my posting schedule was so regular over the last year that i really lost any sort of idea of what was popular at all #because i would post something and then everyone was so used to something being posted #that they'd sit on it instead of like...ravenously reading it and commenting in the hopes that I'd come back to it #so when stuff made no splash i wouldn't even notice until weeks later when I was looking through stats #usually just to find a fic i needed to reference #and i'd be like oh okay hm that's data #when not even popular stuff gets a lot of movement it doesn't hit you so hard when other stuff doesn't either #it's been weird this year because i haven't been able to post weekly due to life getting in the way #this is cold and snow season and it makes my writing days very spotty and i'm trying to just go with the flow on it #so when i DO post something there's like an EXPLOSION of activity #it's been interesting to see how when you regularly post no one say anything unless you miss an update #but when there's no promise of an update to come suddenly everything you post is much more valuable in people's heads #i have fics in other fandoms with SUPER rare pairs #and they really only get updates once every two months because i focus more on ANS #and like those chapters just explode on contact now. everyone comments and wants to talk about the characters and what's going on #and now that i'm really only posting ANS every 2-3 weeks it's starting to be the same here too #just SUPER interesting how the human brain works when it comes to this stuff

[mysticalmusicwhispers]

Hello everyone! (notice board please read)

I’m a bit clueless about how to say this, but I suppose I’ve fallen out of the hetalia fandom for a good while now; this is mostly gen.shin’s fault but I also feel like I’ve become generally out of touch with the fandom characterizations of hetalia chars, and I’ve just generally lost interest in most of the characters (the ones I still like feel a lot more like ocs or characters that are v isolated from the canon). I’m also starting school again soon and am trying to focus a lot more on it for once :’)

I don’t intend to abandon this blog (although it’s been sitting with no activity for quite a while now), but I guess moving forward there’ll be very few reblogs of other hetalia content, and most of those will be friend stuff. However, I’m definitely still interested in writing for this fandom and I’ll still try to answer the asks in my inbox (however long that might take). I haven’t had the energy to write for a long time lol but I don’t want to abandon all the ideas I haven’t finished.

tl;dr hopefully a greater ratio of original posts (?) and writing, and less activity. (This blog might also become more of a personal blog instead; kinda tired of using 203984293 sideblogs for random shit lol).

Thanks for sticking around y’all <3

#ramblings #that was my formal speech my incoherent thoughts are next #ngl i think ive been isolated from the broader fandom from so long that I forgot hetalia was the source of the characters i like #so ive gradually become out of touch with it #not to mention that the only tag i still regularly check is yao's and. not going to lie the characterizations ive seen in there make me ques #question the fandom .. #so this is partly why i want to just write my own stuff and stop engaging with other peoples? i have a lot of writing prompt asks though and #i really want to publish those sometime. anyways i hope all the blogs i used to check up on very fondly are still doing well <3 #there was an analogy i saw a long time ago on scratch before i even joined any fandom that basically compared a site or a fandom to a train #every creator on there had a stop they'd get on and naturally people would also get off at different times #i got really upset about it at the time LMAOO. but looking back it was such a good metaphor #idk if this is my turn to get off the train (i probably already got off idk) but for those still on it ty for sticking around #oh to clarify this isnt a complete goodbye post i just have trouble setting the correct mood lol maybe i'll liveblog stuff i did like normal #personal blogs who knows #just less hetalia

[edwardbonnets]

im having stress headaches and 5 hour stress naps every day and i've completely decimated my thumb from chewing on it so much...........quintessential finals week vibes

#please when will it be over i cant take it anymore 😭😭😭 #once monday comes and goes i'll feel so much better #i just want to GIF THINGS AGAIN #i cant do that when i have to write A MILLION PAPERS #wish i could just graduate now and be done with school fr #emily.txt #ignore me complaining about college i'll go back to regularly scheduled posting next week

[silhouettecrow]

365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 344

Adjective: Grim

Noun: Lullaby

Definitions for those who need/want them:

Grim: forbidding or uninviting; (of humor) lacking genuine levity, or mirthless, or black; depressing or worrying to consider; unrelentingly harsh, or merciless or severe

Lullaby: a quiet, gentle song sung to send a child to sleep

#im back to my regularly scheduled lateness #and i actually accidentally fell asleep again (so my usual oops is in order) #my girlfriend and i had a surprise busy day #we usually like to make sunday our relaxation and lazy day #but my girlfriend really wanted to go see waitress in theatres and we didnt know it was out for only 5 days until saturday night #so we took a semi-spontaneous trip to the nearest theatre that was showing it (which was about an hour drive) #and we also did some shopping afterward and i got all of the holiday presents im gonna give my girlfriend #so it was rather fun and exciting #but alas tiring #as for the prompt i like it a lot for a few reasons (mainly the eerie connotations of it all) #it makes me think of a mixture of fairytales and songs like 'ring around the rosie' #and im excited to write a poem like that #thanks for reading #writing #writer #creative writing #writing prompt #writeblr #trying to be a writeblr at least

[shararan]

Types of comments I've gotten on my swedish fics after I started posting them:

I can't believe there's swedish fics in [fandom], and I liked it

I am learning swedish so it was really helpful to read something from [fandom]

I am so desperate for more of this pairing/trope that I put the entire thing through a translator

#and mind you i would marry all of the above i love them all #i sincerely NEVER expect to get even a single read hit on those fics #as theyre a different type of self indulgent than the way ships or tropes are #its a way of going nuts within my comfort zone and just not worry about the things i do when writing in english #which is a combination of the matter of fluency as well as different levels of rigidness in literary expectations #theres like 800 or something swedish fics total on ao3 which is larger than a few years ago like its a huge boost #but to put it mildly its not THE most sought out fic language #but english has definitely taken over as fandom language since many years now #and things dont get translated as much as back in the day cause ''well everyone speaks english so'' #and i mean fine but i hated how my entire validity started to depend on english #it was enough that i risked losing access to basic education because i struggled learning it in school #didnt want to deal with fandom side eyeing anything non english on top of that #sdklkgsd MY POINT BEING it helps me to shake off expectations + get caught up in arbitrary numbers and let those affect my enjoyment #i dont care for clout generally but yeah writing swedish fics helps squash the beginnings of worrying that maybe i should #because no?? it literally does not matter??? #im glad to bond with people and im happy when they enjoy my things #but its good to remind self regularly not to place ones self worth in the amount you have of it #IM RAMBLING WHAT ELSE IS NEW #sharan talks

[holytrickster]

sitting there like has my art gotten better over time or do I just add way too much unnecessary detail now

#but lineart becomes honestly really meditative for me at times especially if im adding texture to something #i will say at least i dont pick such ugly colors anymore. i used to always have reslly bright colors and then i thought it was too much #and overcorrected imo so everything was desaturated and boring #oh i also used to color in the lines for like every single color on the character? idk how to describe it but it was tedious #i like it on other people's art but i dont have the patience and i dont like how it looks when my lines are “cleaner” #sometimes i do miss how i used to not care if what i drew was “cringy” #but i think im coming back out of that considering all i draw is like. gay shit and elves and various iterations of myself and also my ocs #i should redraw some really really old art after what im working on maybe #i almost started working on a redraw of when i drew yavanna in likr 2017-18 but i dont like the design i gave her at all #minus the weird branch ears those were cool #mostly im just frustrated it still takes me hours to draw lol. i dont know why i get insecure about it or about art in general #i guess bc no one in my family really does so they have this idea im good at it #and i wanna grab them and shake them sometimes and explain all the reasons im actually not and all the mistakes i regularly make #i dont know if that makes any sense and i dont know why i struggle to just take the compliment #i guess because i know im not good enough at it for it to be a job? except thats not it either because ive almost always wanted to write #its very dumb and weird. especially considering i dont really draw for other people. i mean i like when people like my art but unless its #for somebody specific im not necessarily going to take it very hard at all if its not to their taste. i just do it because i enjoy it #and because there are things i only know how to express through writing or drawing. and when one doesnt work sometimes its the other #maybe i just get frustrated i cant be good at everything #its not realistic but i always end up wanting to do so many things and getting frustrated when i dont pick them up right away #because OF COURSE i dont #ok where was i going with this #its nearly 2am and my head is pounding again i dont even know what day this makes it. at least a week? #i dont know