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goldsainz · 1 year

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THE ERAS TOUR — one shot.

pairing: charles leclerc x reader

MASTERLIST.

NOTE: this is fully to ignore the fact that i probably will not see taylor in argentina bc the chances of getting tickets are insane, which is okay (i already cried my eyes out) — still doesn't make it hurt any less — but i have hope another opportunity will come! nicki is amazing and after yesterday’s race (forza ferrari fr) all ferrari fans need a pick me up. enjoy this random fic!! this is kinda all over the place, but we move (italics = translation)

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yourusername QUE?? chicos yo no puedo creer esto... ABRO EL SHOW PARA TAYLOR SWIFT!! esto es un sueño cumplido y mucho más... les dejo esta foto de cuando me enteré sobre esto hace unos meses 🙃

WHAT?? guys i cannot believe this... I OPEN TAYLOR SWIFT'S SHOW!! this is a dream come true and so much more... i leave you this picture of when i found out about this a couple months ago 🙃

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taylorswift You are gonna kill this!!! 💕✨😁

⤷ yoursername estoy llorando!!! te amo 🤍 i'm crying!!! i love you

ynfan1 I LITERALLY DIED DEAD

taylorfan1 when world's collide... i need tickets rn

ynfan2 argentina >>

charles_leclerc So incredibly proud of you ❤️ ps: I took that picture while she face-timed me 😉

⤷ yourusername let's all thank charles

⤷ ynfan3 thank you!!

charlesfan1 don't know how ¡'m gonna get tickets... but i will

ynfan4 im broke but never broke enough for taylor and y/n

ynfan5 verla irse internacional me pone contentísima seeing her go international makes me so happy

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yourusername méxico, fuiste mágico! siguiente parada, argentina 🇦🇷 no puedo esperar para cantar en mi país!! los amo tanto, esta oportunidad sin ustedes no sería posible ❤️‍🩹

mexico, you were magical! next stop, argentina 🇦🇷 i can't wait to sing in my country!! i love you so much, this opportunity would not be possible without you ❤️‍🩹

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ynfan21 KILLED IT!!!!!!

charles _leclerc Even though I couldn't make it, I always go where you go, this time it was by watching every clip I could find. Words cannot describe how proud I am of you, amour

⤷ yoursername i'm so lucky to have you!! te amoo i love youu

charlesfan21 the fact that taylor played ciwyw, sweet nothing and cornelia street for her and charles... now that's true love

charlesfan22 missing her at the races

ynfan22 PODER VERLA FUE LO MEJOR QUE ME PASO!!! BEING ABLE TO SEE HER WAS THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME!!!

charlesfan23 charles's comments keep my hope for true love alive

ynfan23 LA AMO I LOVE HER

charlesfan24 need to see her live

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ynupdates Y/N at the Monza Grand Prix 03/09

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ynfan32 SERVING LOOKS

ynfan33 best couple ever cause she’s on break and still travelling to see charles

user31 her and rosalia together is everything to me

charlesfan32 i need pics of them together NOW.

user32 rauw being cropped is killing me

ynfan34 mother is mothering fr

charlesfan33 her presence is the good luck ferrari needs

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yoursername CONGRATULATIONS!!! it never fails to amaze me just how talented you are, the year started rough but you pushed forward!! P1 is everything you hoped for and more, but no matter the result, i will always cheer you on

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user41 IF MY PARTNER ISN'T THIS SUPPORTIVE, I DON'T WANT IT

scuderiaferrari Thank you, Y/N, for your endless support!

charles_leclerc Thank you for supporting me and letting me hug you when I'm soaked in champagne!

yoursername always, mi amor 🫶 my love

ynfan41 THE CARDIGANS ARE SOOO CUTE

charlesfan41 the fact that when y/n goes he drives like there’s no tomorrow

ynfan42 idk but y/n ignoring ferrari's comment is kind badass…..

⤷ charlesfan42 after all the shit they put him through it's well deserved

charlesfan43 THERE IS HOPE FOR FERRARI AFTER ALL

ynfan43 alguien que me consiga una relación asi someone get me a relationship like this

charlesfan44 y/n is just like us fr, ignoring ferrari and loving

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yourusername que ciudad tan mágica que es buenos aires! nunca me sentí tan amada en mi país como en esas horitas que compartimos!! gracias por las pulseritas de amistad que me dieron, no me las saco nunca más 💞💞

what a magical city that is buenos aires! i never felt so loved in my country as i did in those hours we shared!! thank you for all the friendship bracelets you gave me, i will never take them off 💞💞

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charles_leclerc Never met someone that made me feel the things I feel, you are the one for me. Cannot wait to see you after so long and have you in my arms, watching a livestream to see you perform will do for now. I love you, so much, mon chéri ❤️

⤷ yourusername i just shed a couple tears... te amo tanto 🫶🥹 i love you so much

ynfan51 charles's comment... the highway looks so nice rn

ynfan52 REINA LA ROMPISTE!!!! QUEEN YOU KILLED IT

charlesfan51 lover is actually about them, taylor told me herself

orianasabatini llore cuando te vi!! sos una genia, hermosa 🤩 i cried when i saw you!!! you are a genius, beautiful

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charlesfan52 CHARLES YOU BETTER TREAT HER WELL

⤷ ynfan53 after the comment that he left there is no doubt

user51 entre que la vi a taylor y a ella 2 veces, mi vida esta completa!! between seeing taylor and her 2 times, my life is complete!!

ynfan54 nothing will ever top seeing her live

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missywritesfor7 · 3 months

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❤️‍🩹Lifeline | MYG❤️‍🩹

Synopsis: It’s long been controversial for idols to date, but idols dating each other can be really beautiful or a complete nightmare. When Yoongi's relationship with another idol is discovered, he decides maybe it’s time to break the taboo and show people it’s ok for idols to date. Instead, they find themselves caught in the midst of one media frenzy after another and struggle to keep their relationship as strong as it had been the past 2 years. Yoongi finds a self destructive way to cope, and it causes even more problems than it solves. As they fight for their relationship and their careers, they discover that sometimes, the only way to truly be free is to let go.

Pairing: idol!Yoongi x idol!OC

Warnings: nsfw, alcoholism, cheating, depression, anxiety, Yoongi goes through a bisexy ho phase, Yoongi is also in his alcoholic phase, post-military BTS

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Ch. 9: Gone

The entire flight back to Korea was nerve racking for Yoongi. He wanted to drink to ease his nerves, but he didn’t want to get home and have Hyeri see him drunk. He can’t face her like that. He doesn’t think he can face her at all.

It’s a short flight that felt too long to him. The entire process of getting his luggage and getting into the waiting car felt like it took years. The ride home felt like a burning knife was twisting inside of him.

His steps to the elevator up to his apartment are heavy and once he gets to the door he pauses. He can’t face her. A flash of all of the shit he had done out of hurt is weighing heavy. How is he supposed to face her? What is he supposed to say to her?

He finally turns the handle and steps inside. He slowly makes his way towards the bedroom with his luggage in tow. The place is silent. He doesn’t see her in the living room or the kitchen. When he gets to the bedroom he sees nothing. He leaves his luggage near the bed and goes into the bathroom. Again he sees nothing. Wherever she is, she’s not here.

He stands in the middle of the room wondering what he’s supposed to do with himself now. She’s gone. She’s fucking gone.

“Fuck,” he sighs heavily.

He goes into the kitchen partially hoping that maybe he missed her, but he didn’t. She’s not in the kitchen. He goes into his liquor cabinet and finds his collection has been untouched. He grabs a bottle of whiskey and a glass and pours himself a drink. He takes a sip and shakes his head.

“I fucking deserve it,” he says to himself. He takes down the rest of the drink and pours himself another as tears start to roll down his cheeks. “I’m a fucking idiot. I fucking deserve it. I don’t deserve her. I don’t fucking deserve anything!”

He slams his fist on the counter and sucks down his drink. He pours another though he can hardly see through his tears. He curses himself some more while letting his tears flow at full force. He fucked up and he knows it. He can’t even blame her. She tried and tried but he pushed her further away, and he can’t even think of all of the things he had done while on tour. He takes down his drink that’s now diluted with his tears.

“Yoongi?”

He looks up and through his tears he can see Hyeri standing there looking not much better than he does. Her eyes are red and puffy and her hair is pulled into a sloppy ponytail. She looks distraught and his heart is shattered. He quickly steps to her and holds her tightly in his arms.

“I’m so sorry,” she cries returning his squeeze. “I’m so fucking sorry, Yoongi.”

He’s crying so hard that he can’t even speak. He feels relieved to see her, but so fucking guilty. He squeezes her tighter letting out a small sob.

“I did what I could,” she cries into his chest. “I had to make it right. I’m so sorry, baby.”

“Hyeri,” Yoongi chokes out. “You deserve so much better than me.”

“Don’t say that!” She squeezes tighter ignoring how strong the alcohol on his breath is.

“I mean it,” he sobs. “I’m no fucking good for you. I just fuck things up.”

“Why are you blaming yourself? This is all my fault.” She takes a deep breath trying to control her voice. “I should have stood up for myself. For us. I should have realized how much this would hurt you. I should have fought back. So I finally did.”

“You did?”

“I did.” She sounds almost relieved. “I told them I wouldn’t go on with the lie any longer. I told them how much this has hurt me. I told them that I love you.”

“What?” He asks feeling even guiltier.

“I told them that I love you, Yoongi. I told them I wouldn’t lie about it anymore.”

“Hyeri,” he cries. “Fuck, I love you so much it fucking hurts. Why do you love me like this?”

“I won’t stop loving you.”

“You mean everything to me.” He’s clutching her as if his life depends on it. His vision is fogged and his mouth can’t utter another sound. He’s upset, but still he’s so damn happy to be home with her. He doesn’t want to let her go because she may never come back again.

She doesn’t mind because she doesn’t want to let him go either. He looks terrible, he smells like booze, and as she’s holding him she can tell he’s lost a bit of weight. It tears her up to see him like this.

“My Yoongi,” she cries. “What did I turn you into?”

Yoongi can only continue crying. She has no idea and he wants to keep it that way. He’s ashamed as it is having her walk in on him and see him after the few drinks he just had. She’s seen him drink. She’s seen him drunk. But she’s never seen him so far gone that he can’t remember anything the next day.

“Hyeri,” he whispers wiping tears from her cheeks. “The person I was during this tour is not me. I never want to be that person again. I want to be someone who is worthy of your love.”

“Don’t talk like that,” she snaps again. “I’m-I’m so sorry I hurt you to make you feel like that, but I’ll make it up to you everyday until I die.”

There’s a lot of tears and hurt between them. Many promises and plenty of guilt. They’re both broken. They wash themselves up in the shower while broken. They try to get each other to eat while broken. Yoongi has no idea how he’s going to get through tomorrow’s show while broken.

When they’ve calmed down a bit and can manage to talk to one another without getting emotional, they sit on the couch and Hyeri tells him about the meeting she had with her company. They weren’t very happy with her at all. She didn’t care though, she doubled down and stood her ground. She wasn’t dropped from the agency, but they warned her to not cause this type of trouble again.

She started to realize that maybe JJS isn’t all she thought they were when they went on about how they have to revise everything they planned to do when they were going to announce her and Kihyun’s split. She reiterated that telling the truth is better, but they only continued complaining.

Yoongi is understandably upset. He wants Hyeri to leave the company immediately. JJS has already caused too much pain and heartache between them. She’s better off starting her own company than staying with JJS, but she opts to give them another chance. She’s not happy about any of this, but she wants to at least give them a chance to redeem themselves.

The next day Yoongi wakes for rehearsal. He wishes he could say he feels rested and refreshed now that he’s able to sleep in his own bed, but it was anything but. He tossed and turned the entire night. He would be happy that Hyeri would still be next to him when he reached his arms out. Then he would get hit with guilt and roll back to his side of the bed.

The cycle continued a while. He got up for a drink of whiskey. Made sure Hyeri wouldn’t wake up and notice. Then he got back in the bed.

Hyeri couldn’t sleep either. She hasn’t slept much since Yoongi first left, but she thought with him back she’d sleep a bit easier now. She was wrong. Just like Yoongi, she couldn’t sleep for most of the night. Unlike Yoongi, she simply stayed in place. Anytime she can’t sleep she would always simply stay still with her eyes closed with the belief that it would make her fall asleep faster.

Yoongi knows this, but it didn’t occur to him that she would have been awake this night. She was. She didn’t move. She counted 4 times he wrapped his arms around her and then retreated. She heard endless sighs and groans from him. And she heard him get up to go into the kitchen.

She has no idea about how much he had been drinking on tour. The times she spoke to Namjoon, he told her Yoongi was having a hard time, but he never went into detail. She’s starting to see what he may have meant. Still, she’s not quite aware of the extent Yoongi’s drinking has gotten to.

At rehearsal Yoongi is not much better than he was any other time he showed up 3 drinks in. He told everyone that he and Hyeri talked and they’re going to try working things out. He didn’t go into detail or elaborate further. He left it at that. When they started rehearsing, the rest of the guys weren’t sure anything had been worked out.

Hyeri wanted to attend their concert, but she wasn’t sure Yoongi wanted her to. She decided to just wait for him to bring it up so she wouldn’t seem like she’s crossing the line or something. He never brought it up. He didn’t want to. He started drinking the moment he woke up, no way did he want her to see him like that.

Of course she managed to find someone streaming the show and she saw him anyway. She saw how hollow he seemed to be. He put on a great act, but she could see right through him. He’s not Yoongi and she feels responsible for it all.

She watches the show with tears running down her cheeks as she tries to think of a way to make everything better. She just wants to fix him. Fix everything she caused.

Yoongi had a few drinks through the show. He isn’t sure how many because he never keeps count, he just knows it was a lot. He managed to make it through the show, but not without a few choreo mistakes, some sharp looks from a frustrated Namjoon, and forced hydration from Jungkook.

Yoongi didn’t go straight home after the show. He stopped by his studio first. He didn’t need to, but he wanted to grab a few more drinks before going home. He needed a moment to himself. He knows he’s in bad shape and tonight’s show was a near disaster. He just wants to forget it.

He packs a few bottles into his bag then heads to his car. The drive home isn’t long but it’s agonizing. There’s so much going through his mind and all he wants is to numb it all completely. When he parks his car in the garage of his place, he pulls a bottle of soju out and quickly downs it. He’s not a big soju drinker, but it’s a good appetizer for the strawberry liquor he pulls out next. He drinks about half the bottle, wipes a rogue tear from his face, then takes a deep breath. He puts the half empty bottle back in his bag and gets out of the car where he disposes of the empty soju bottle.

He’s a little surprised to see Hyeri still awake when he gets inside. She’s lounging on the couch with the tv on but her eyes are on her phone. She thought he stayed behind to do a live with the guys, but when the notification came up on her phone she saw it was just Taehyung and Jimin. She waited a bit longer and realized Yoongi was most likely somewhere getting a drink. She decided to take pictures of all of his alcohol so she could track how much he drinks overtime.

She gets up to greet him as if she hadn’t spent most of the night crying. She gives him a hug and tries to go up for a kiss but he only pulls her in tighter and kisses her forehead. It’s the most painful forehead kiss to Hyeri. He’s been avoiding kissing her since he returned the day before. She didn’t understand why, but now she does. He doesn’t want to kiss her when he has alcohol on his breath. He doesn’t want her to know, but he doesn’t have to kiss her on the lips for her to smell it on him. She’s heartbroken.

He retreats to bed without saying much. She joins him and tries to get closer to him but he puts up a wall. He’s right next to her but she falls asleep feeling so lonely and entirely responsible.

As usual, Yoongi spends most of the next day in the studio. The guys have some rest time now that the tour is complete. He’s choosing to continue working so he can isolate himself while he drinks. He had a bit to drink before he left. Hyeri was still asleep so he indulged a bit then went to the studio.

The guys planned to have dinner together that night to celebrate the end of the tour and have one more get together before they all begin their vacation. Yoongi decided he would just stay in his studio until then and go to the restaurant straight from there.

When Hyeri woke up to an empty bed she already knew where he was. She also knew he wouldn’t have left without helping himself to a drink. She really wished she were wrong, but when she checked she noticed he had a bit of whiskey before he left. She’s disappointed but she also feels it’s all her fault.

She tries texting him, but his responses seem almost robotic. No matter how hard she tries to be humorous, he doesn’t respond the way she hoped he would. He at least tells her that he’ll be out with the members for dinner so she doesn’t need to wait up.

Of course she does wait up. There’s no way she wasn’t going to wait up for him. The sight of him breaks her heart and she’s taking responsibility for it. She helps herself to a glass of wine hoping it will make her feel less like shit and maybe make time go faster.

Of course it doesn’t do any of that. All it does is make her feel worse then puts her to sleep. She passed out on the couch still waiting for Yoongi.

About an hour later Hyeri wakes up to her phone ringing nonstop. She breaks out of her haze and sees that Jin is calling her.

“Na Hyeri!” Jin shouts as soon as she answers the phone. “I need your help! Hurry to the parking garage.”

“What?” She asks confused but concerned by his urgent tone. “Why? What happened?”

“I need help getting Yoongi upstairs. He’s too messed up and I can’t carry him alone.”

“What??” Hyeri jumps up and runs for the door. She knows it must be very bad when Jin can’t even carry Yoongi, who’s much smaller. “I’m coming down now!”

She rushes down the elevator as fast as it will take her and runs out to see Jin’s car parked right there by the door. He gets out of the driver side and opens the back door. Yoongi is laid across the backseat clearly heavily fucked up.

“What happened?” Hyeri asks in disbelief.

“It’s all my fault,” Yoongi slurs.

“I don’t know,” Jin responds. “We don’t know where he’s hiding these fucking drinks.” He grabs Yoongi’s arm and pulls him upright.

“I wish…” Yoongi mumbles slumping forward.

“Help me get him to bed,” Jin says.

They each grab an arm and try to pull him out of the car and to his feet. Yoongi leans into Jin’s chest trying to find some stability. Though she’s smaller, Hyeri tries her best to get Yoongi’s arm wrapped around her shoulder.

“Hyung,” Yoongi slurs as they slowly try to guide him inside. “She won’t hate…fuck me…”

“Don’t worry, we’ll get you to bed,” Jin says.

“She won’t hate me, hyung!” Yoongi fusses. “I don’t deserve….fuckkkkk”

“What?”Hyeri says completely confused.

Jin says nothing and continues trying to keep Yoongi upright as they wait for the elevator. Hyeri isn’t sure what’s going on. She’s never seen him this bad, and now she’s curious to find out what the hell he’s talking about. They get Yoongi on the elevator and up to their floor. Hyeri rushes to get the door open and helps Jin usher Yoongi to the bed.

“How did he get like this? And…what is he even talking about?” Hyeri asks.

“I don’t know,” Jin shakes his head. “He seemed fine at first, then suddenly he was out of it.”

“She’s supposed to hate me,” Yoongi mumbles. “I hate me.”

Hyeri looks in shock. “What happened during the tour?” She asks.

“Honestly?” Jin asks about to hit her with bluntness. “You happened. He started drinking more and more and none of us could seem to catch him or stop him.”

“Why, hyung?” Yoongi mumbles.

“Are you going to be ok with him alone?”

Hyeri looks Yoongi over. She may not be ok if he tries to get up, but she doesn’t want to keep Jin. As long as Yoongi stays in the bed she feels she may be ok.

“Yeah,” Hyeri nods. “He’s in bed now so maybe he’ll just fall asleep.”

“Ok,” Jin nods. “Let me know if you need anything.”

“Thanks, Jin. I’ll keep you posted.”

Jin leaves and Hyeri is left standing next to Yoongi in the bed. His head is slowly rolling back and forth and hes still mumbling. Most of it is incoherent nonsense, but then he’ll say something else that makes her stop and listen for more.

“I don’t want to be me,” he slurs. “Hyung, I don’t remember….I don’t remember their names.”

“Yoongi,” Hyeri says softly hoping she can get through to him and get him to explain what he’s talking about.

“She never left my fuckingggggg….hyung….fuck I love her…”

“Yoongi?” She asks desperately trying to make sense of his drunken words.

“She shouldn’t love me….I’m so sorry.” He begins to sob but continues babbling through his tears. “I didn’t want to be me but I regretted it every fucking morning when I woke up a shitty fucking loser…I fucked everything up.”

“Yoongi, please.”

“She hurt me so bad but I never want to hurt her…do you know, hyung? Do you know after all of that, none of them were as good as she is. Not even close. I don’t even remember, hyung! It was just another night with another blowjob!”

“What??”

“What have I done?” He cries uncontrollably. “I didn’t want to hurt. Fuck!”

“Did you fuck someone else on tour?!” She knows he’s drunk and has no idea where he is or what he’s saying, but she couldn’t stop her outburst.

“No!!” Yoongi shouts. “Blowjobs, hyung! I just took it if they offered I’m fucking terrible!” He cries more.

“You…?” Hyeri is stunned and unsure how to feel. She isn’t even sure she’s hearing this right. “You got blowjobs from other people?!”

“The last one took my fucking money! My fucking Black card!” He shouts rolling to his side. “She deserves so much better than a piece of shit like me.”

“You really believe that?” She’s trying to hold back tears, but she really doesn’t know what she feels right now. “You believe that you’re such a terrible person that you decided to just become one?”

“I love her so fucking much, hyung, but she hurt me! More than once! I fucked it all up! I fucked….everythingggggg….fucccckkkkk!”

Hyeri can’t even speak anymore. This is all too much for her. He’s said a lot of things and she needs a moment to process it all. Tears fill her eyes as she looks down at this drunken mess who she no longer recognizes.

“Don’t tell her, hyung,” he cries into the pillow. “It would hurt her too much.”

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ahappyphjl · 5 months

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jenna!!!!! how are we feeling about the pinof reaction finale?

personally I am about to pass away this video made me so emotional especially at the end, when phil said the whiskers come from within it was OVER for me and them thanking US AHHHH 🥺🥺😭😭 the way they view their pasts selves too, it’s so 🥺 i can’t put it into words but!!!!!! them looking back fondly and still laughing (and cringing) at their old jokes And then ranking all the videos so high like yeah!!!! they get it!!!!

and i also love how they acknowledge pinofs are camp because they are! if you get it you get it

it also made more sad about having missed their tours because they never came near my country and i never had the money or time to travel 🥲🥲🥲

soz i am a mess right now i just love them very much 🖤🖤🖤

aww i feel the same way, i loved Loved it and it’s all very overwhelming… im so glad they chose to do these videos. they understand how meaningful it is to all of us, and pinofs are clearly still very important to them too 🫶🏻 i’m gonna put my thoughts under the cut, cause turns out i had a lot to say lol

i was kinda struggling to even make gifs after watching the video, cause i kept thinking about how the pinofs have been a thing in my life since i was a kid, and how it hurt when they ended, but then now getting to remember them with love and joy with dnp and all of us here. as cheesy as the whiskers quote is, that’s what eventually did it for me too though, like i just couldn’t hold back the tears. 🥲

the reflecting on past selves thing throughout was so beautiful to see, cause they really have grown a lot since all those videos were made, and yet they still do some things exactly the same. like the little songs they come up with about random things, phil saying the sound barrier thing, and dan jumpscaring phil. but in many ways they’re not the same as they used to be, which is why when dan said he finally recognized himself in pinof 10… oof it was a lot, im just so proud of and happy for him 🥹 it all goes to show how far they’ve both come personally and professionally.

even though dnp have thanked us for our support many many times, it never stops feeling like 😭😭😭😭 though. it’s so genuine, so heartfelt. i feel like that doesn’t happen in many fandoms, not ones i’ve been a part of at least. whenever they say it, i know for sure they mean it. and that means the world to me, cause i feel like i owe them a million thanks.

i’m sorry to hear you weren’t able to see them on tour, that really sucks. i couldn’t go see their tours either, and i was really upset about that for a long time. it can be really tough not having those memories, especially when a lot of phannies do. i did finally see dan on tour this year, so that was an absolute highlight. i hope we all get to see them on tour together in the future though, who knows!!

but yeah pinofs were a lifeline for me, like i would fr look forward to the next one every day since 2011 when i watched a pinof for the first time. so revisiting them like this is everything 🥲❤️‍🩹 sorry this got so long winded, i’m not great at making my thoughts concise lmao

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sebscore · 1 year

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jenny hi jenny!! 🫶🏼🫶🏼

im so surprised taylor didnt put canada on her tour list!!! i want to cry 🥲🥲 i thought i could go cause its at home but nooooo. and she didnt have the philippines either!! thats both home countries i could’ve gone for but now i cant 🥲

so now im looking into singapore and i registered for ticketmaster lmaooo but it wouldn’t give me the verification code so now i think i messed up but also registration doesnt start until the 23rd so i might just be a little bit early so i’ll see what happens on the 23rd

i also think i can’t actually go because i have to do an internship in the summer of next year so idkkkk omg

i just wanna have fun why is life like this lmaooo ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

anyway,,, how are you jenny i hope your day is going well!! 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

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I was shocked that canada isn’t in the line-up! I’m sure there are places where she can perform, I feel so bad for everyone! 😔😔

the registration email can take a while cause a lot of people are signing up for it- doesn’t it end on june 23rd? that’s how it was for me at least 🤔

me and my mum want to go as well so my mum sighed herself up for a bunch of countries just so we have a chance of going 😭😭😭😭 lmao I love her 💜💜🫶🏻

I feel for you, honey 😕 I hope you can get tickets and that you’re able to go as well! hope you’re doing alright, darling! 🤍🥹

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I loved every moment you mentioned too! The greatest is so good, it was one of my immediate favourites on the album on first listen so hearing it as the opener was awesome. SIBWAWC delivered as expected!!! So good. It was just such a strong setlist! I agree about the 1D songs, I never really listened to 1D (other than how everyone my age did, in the sense that the music was everywhere so you picked stuff up) so I wasnt that familiar with WDBHG but Louis made it fun! I'd be fine with only one 1D cover (especially if it gave us headline, common people or TTWLG which im keeping my fingers crossed will get rotated in)

The production was really good, I'm a fairly new fan so haven't seen too much of Louis' last tour (mostly just clips) so it was really cool to see all the screens and lights. You can tell a lot of thought goes into making it feel cohesive.

I was soooo pleased to hear Copy, it's just SUCH a good song and he looked confident singing it.

Also back to you!!! I really didn't expect that, it was such a good version. And "Miss you" was one of the first Louis songs I discovered and really loved (very late discovery as this was like...last year? Haha) and I've always thought it would be SUCH a great song to experience live so that gives me a bit of hope that maybe we'll get a version of it at some point on this tour. (Whishful thinking maybe!)

Also got to mention going from saved by a stranger (Also so good) to WAOYF...the emotional whiplash!!!! It worked though!

Honestly, I could probably run through every song with something I liked (I've barely mentioned HOTH and Saturdays and silver Tongues!) but I've already ranted in your inbox enough but what a great first show!!!! So excited for the next one!!!

I'm glad to see the greatest appreciation, it was one of my favs at first listen too. Louis writes the best tour openers. He really did transport us to another world with sibwawc didn't he 😌 his mind is just superior. The production was mind blowing and a true step up from last tour (ltwt's production was still amazing though). Copy is a masterpiece no doubt about that the imagerie of the lyrics is insane. BTY in 2023? If someone told me that before the show i would never believe them but it made me so happy for many reasons. There is hope for miss you after all 😭 ( i think at some point he's going to replace bty with miss you and if it happens idk how i'll survive). There was so many surprises last night but honestly the biggest one for me was him singing saved by a stranger ❤️‍🩹(the bravery, the grace!!). Not only that he also made it kind of rock and followed it with waoyf (that fan in the live stream who was silent the whole time but felt the need to shout "can we pls go back to fucking" instead of " loving" didn't go unnoticed🔪🔪). Tbh, i always thought if he really had to perform a 1d song, night changes would be a good one (his solo is so angelic in it) and i enjoyed it when he performed it in the past. But this time, even i was surprised that the 1d covers didn't work for me. I think fitf is just a beast on a whole other level and performing 1d songs among such a brillant setlist emphasizes the quality differece between Louis' solo songs and the band's, sorry. Night changes followed by Chicago and wdbhg put between ooms and saturdays (and then silver tongues) was almost humilating for them if it weren't for Louis' perfect delivery and witt (and angelic voice). I can talk about the show forever and in detail about each and every song but i didn't want to make this any longer. Feel free to rant about Louis' music and performances in my inbox i love those kind of rants 🥰. The second show is today and i couldn't be more excited 💙

#fitfwt #fitfwt uncasville #louis tomlinson

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lhrry · 2 years

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Thanks for the reply Agnes💙 I have talked more with my girlfriend and also my sister and i have decided that I'm not gonna go :( im a bit sad about that but i just moved here a few months ago and I dont know that many people (at least not someone i can ask them to come with me hahah). Also like you said its getting late... if the concert was tomorrow it would be different. I would have time to plan and everything but right now it feels too rushed and unsafe. So yeah, im trying to take deep breaths to calm my overexcited brain down. It keeps telling me "go, you only live once!". But i have gone to a concert alone before (niall) and it was on a smaller venue in the middle of the city. This place is more festival type, with grass and parking spots around. It feels in the middle of nowhere, if you know what i mean... and also im a girl so being alone (besides the football match etc) wouldnt be super safe. I have to be smart and follow my thoughts instead of my feelings :'(

But yeah hopefully he will tour again soon so i can finally see him!

Thanks again Agnes, have a good afternoon :)❤

Okay baby, don’t worry about it!! Liz said there’s a lot of security around but i completely understand and nobody can decide that for you but yourself. There will be other opportunities to see him next year!! It’s totally fine. And Hey, i struggle with that people say you only live once, you have to travel and do this and go to that event and stuff and if not your life’s not fullfilled and blahblah but dont worry about that at all please, nobody can dictate that for you, you do what feels right for you, don’t pressure yourself! And hope you have a nice evening as well ❤️‍🩹

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fearlessdeb · 9 months

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Hello everybody!

I’m new here! my name is Deborah but you can call me “Deb” if you want. I’m 23 years old and I come from Italy 🇮🇹

I discovered and occasionally listen to Taylor Swift since 2013 but I became a fan and a Swiftie only 3 years ago, after the surprise release of 𝒇𝒐𝒍𝒌𝒍𝒐𝒓𝒆 album 🩶✨which means literally everything to me (but I’m going to talk about it deeply another time…)

Taylor affected me in a way I can’t explain by words and has been such a big part of my life during the last 3 years and finally, my biggest dream will come true, ‘cause I’m taking part to ‘The Eras Tour’ in Milan, night 1st next July. And I still can’t believe it…

@taylorswift you are seriously my biggest inspiration and your music is my therapy. You have absolutely no idea of how much your music and you, mean to my life. I feel so extremely thankful and lucky to call myself a Swiftie, before even calling myself a fan of you.

Thanks for being by my side when no one else was, even through just a pair of earphones. Can’t wait to see you live next year and I really hope I’ll be able to tell you all of this directly to you in person, maybe one day…

Always standing with you!!! 🫶🏻❤️‍🩹

#taylor swift #the eras era #the eras tour #swifties #italy #milan

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fakeoutbf · 1 year

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hellooo ✨

oof the image you've put of stick seasons in my mind, i NEED to go on a roadtrip immediately 👀 i'm gonna listen to the other albums you mentioned over the break and promptly rot and get into too many feelings. at least i'll have hot chocolate 🤍

like i know we got new music from louis recently, but i'm so excited for niall's music because like that man never goes wrong with his songs and both albums are 10/10 and i will die on the hill that heartbreak weather deserved a live tour! ooh i love all their solo music except for liam 💀 sorry but it's just not my vibe. i enjoy zayn's music a lot and i just love how he drops an album and disappears and does weird shit throughout the year like that's what i aspire to be

italy really is a dream place isn't it 🥹 i think the reason scotland has my heart is because of how quiet and isolated it seems (to me not to everyone) it's seems like a good place to runaway to gather your thoughts and just give time to yourself. i grew up in metropolitan cities and all my life i've been in places that are always constantly running and rushing and so scotland appeals to me a lot 🫣

your answer about love 🥹🫶 i'm gonna sob 🫣

i think love to me is something my grandma taught to me that i'll keep with me forever : love is in the little things and the soft rememberings and the tiny gestures and i'm someone who will always cherish platonic love over romantic love so love is friendship 🤍

if you could experience any time period in the history of things, which one would you go back to? 👀

hi hi 🫶🏻

listening to noah kahan while on break with hot chocolate sounds like a dream! please let me know which end up being your faves 💗

i’m the exact same! i listen to all their solo stuff but i only really liked a couple from liam and i think i only heard his album once through. and ngl i’m kinda glad niall canceled the hbw tour bc i wasn’t gonna get tickets but now i’m 100% going to his next tour bc all the music he releases is incredible. i still have songs from hbw in my top 100 and will probably keep having them until the new album comes out. and i love zayn’s music and new artist ventures so much as well. i would also love to just live my life, drop an album or merch out of nowhere and then chill. while we’re at it, favorite zayn and niall songs?

oh i get that! i’d definitely agree that living somewhere smaller might be more peaceful. i’m from a small city and i don’t feel like it’s fast paced by any means, but i hate how poorly planned the city is. totally inaccessible to pedestrians and the public transport sucks. i had to go to a bigger city for my harry show a couple of weeks ago and the amount of traffic was absolutely repulsive ajenrnsk as well as having to rush everywhere rip idk i think scotland might be much better in that aspect 🫣

i agree so much with your grandma, love truly is about the little things. and i love that you turn to platonic love over romantic love! i’m more of a familial love type person, at least with my mom and grandparents from her side. they’re unconditional support always and i truly don’t know who or where i’d be with them ❤️‍🩹

i’d love to go back to france at the end of the 19th century, just when impressionism was coming up. ngl i’m a bit of an art nerd so it would probably be that or 15/16th century italy for the renaissance period. but there’s just something about impressionist paintings (think monet, renoir, morisot, degas) that just makes me wanna live the scenes painted in the flesh. what about you? when would you go?

i hope you had a nice day today, sending you lots of love 💖💕💓💗💞💝

#btw i loooove your choice of deep questions #i put in the first answer i thought of but then i also kept thinking of like the 70s in the us or uk for fashion/music purposes #and now i’m torn lmaoooo #answered #holiday pals #s 💌

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dreamings-free · 2 years

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Plus the ticket prices has increased even for those of us that had tickets to Royal Arena - so I can’t even use the refund to get new ones, and I don’t think I’ll be able to afford the difference. I’m so upset, I was *there* running for my life, and still, I would go to watch his show again if I could. Seems like Horsens gets the new show so they can sell more tickets and make more money - no fucking way they couldn’t find just one single date to book Royal Arena as they claimed as late as yesterday and/or keep the prices as they were at least for those of us that had original tickets. So upset. I know what happened is not on Harry so I do feel bad about being so upset with him right now, but this just seems like such a shitty money grab after such a tragedy and I can’t help feeling sad.

aww shit anon I hope you’re okay that’s terrifying ❤️‍🩹 and yeah it’s so shit them giving the new show to horsens which is (and i’ve been there) barely a town.. it’s just so uncool lol. I get why they couldn’t do the new show in royal arena, it’s a stadium tour next year and the whole setup wouldn’t work indoors. but there’s Parken and other stadiums in and around copenhagen. the ticket prices were already insane for this years tour but yeah they’ll only increase for the stadiums and then you need to get to horsens which is pretty expensive to. sure it’s great for fans in Jutland but I feel like copenhagen deserved another chance after what happened ☹️

900 for en ståplads 🤯

#I’m putting the blame on livenation dk here because they should know this is a shitty solution #and not to be mean but i’d be so pissed if one of my fave bands came to DK #and I had to go to horsens to see them aksjsjkk #anon asks #love on tour 2022 #copenhagen #love on tour 2023 #horsens

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missywritesfor7 · 5 months

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❤️‍🩹Lifeline | MYG❤️‍🩹

Pairing: idol!Yoongi x idol!OC

Warnings: nsfw, alcoholism, cheating, depression, anxiety, Yoongi goes through a bisexy ho phase, Yoongi is also in his alcoholic phase, post-military BTS

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Ch. 4: Who?

Yoongi is lucky today is a travel day. He sleeps the entire journey to their next stop in Chicago. Frankly, he looks awful and the guys can tell. They’re worried especially since the next night is day 1 of their 2 back to back nights of concerts.

When Yoongi gets to his room he immediately pours himself a glass of whiskey from the minibar. He sips it first until there’s a knock at the door. Instead of putting his drink down, he downs the entire glass in one go then goes to the door to see Namjoon standing there.

“Hey, hyung,” Namjoon says as Yoongi lets him in.

“Hey,” Yoongi replies. He’s not sure why Namjoon is at his door when they just saw each other a few minutes ago.

“I just wanted to talk to you and see how you’re doing.” Namjoon takes a seat at the edge of the bed and gestures for Yoongi to do the same. “I don’t want to seem like I’m prying or anything, I just couldn’t help but overhear you last night.”

“Oh,” Yoongi sighs remembering that Namjoon’s room was right next to his. “Yeah,” he nods. “I’m ok.”

Namjoon frowns at the smell of whiskey that comes from Yoongi’s breath. Paired with the shouting he heard last night, he knows that Yoongi is not ok the way he says he is.

“Are you sure?” Namjoon asks. “Are you and Hyeri ok?”

“Pfft,” Yoongi scoffs. “She’d rather have people believe lies than the truth. I’m doing just fine.”

“Hyung…” the smell of alcohol is very strong now.

“If that’s what she wants then fine. What can I do when I’m all the way over here anyway?”

“Did you drink on the flight?” Namjoon asks, though he knows the smell is much too fresh to be from their flight.

“Oh, yeah,” Yoongi lies. “Just a small drink.”

“I see.” Namjoon nods knowing that’s not the truth. “You know you can always talk to me, or any of us, if you need to. We understand how hard it may be for you.”

“Thanks. I’m fine though.”

“Ok,” Namjoon says standing. “I just wanted to make sure. Still, I’m here for you.”

“I appreciate it.”

Namjoon reluctantly leaves knowing Yoongi is lying. He’s afraid Yoongi is going to spiral into something self destructive, but he knows Yoongi won’t admit to not being ok until he’s far beyond that.

Jimin, who had the room on the other side of Yoongi last night, finally mentioned to Namjoon before their flight the amount of drinks he saw Yoongi have during the show. He also heard Yoongi screaming on the phone and couldn’t stay silent. That’s why Namjoon came to check on Yoongi. He was hoping it wouldn’t be so bad, but once he smelled the alcohol on Yoongi’s breath he knew it wasn’t good.

Yoongi didn’t want to worry anyone. He can tell Namjoon knows something is up. He doesn’t want the rest of the group worrying about his well-being, especially when it’s all because of Hyeri. They should be focused on the tour, not him being painfully in love with someone who doesn’t seem to care about him or his feelings. He pours himself another drink and downs it faster than he did the last.

He can’t rest at all. He chooses not to spend the day seeing the sights of the city and instead stays in his room. He doesn’t eat much but he drinks plenty. With each sip he goes back and forth between feelings of sadness and anger. He starts to despise himself more and more because he hurts. He’s so angry. He wishes he could be someone else for once.

It gets late and room service has ended. Yoongi asked a manager to bring him a bottle of gin earlier, but he’s already finished the bottle so he’s afraid he may be questioned if he asks for another. He drank to the point of not feeling like himself anymore and he wants to stay in that phase. It feels freeing.

It’s after midnight and Yoongi decides to go out on his own. He would usually need a manager to go with him, but he doesn’t want them to know. He doesn’t want anyone to know. He sneaks out to his app requested ride and gets dropped off at a bar far enough from the hotel to avoid being seen.

Unfortunately this bar is a bit more lively than he expected. He was hoping for a low key bar where he could quietly have a few drinks then sneak his way back to the hotel. Instead he’s circling the place until he finds a slightly secluded spot in a back corner. He orders a drink and simply people watches.

The couples dancing and having a great time together makes him sick. He orders a second drink. He notices a girl with a haircut similar to Hyeri’s. He orders a shot. Why is his mind on her anyway? He came here to escape, not allow her to rule every one of his thoughts. He orders another drink.

“You’re too cute to be so shy.”

“What?” Yoongi looks over to the direction of the voice and sees a woman in a red crop top and skin tight leather pants with long brunette hair approaching him.

“Sorry,” the woman says sitting next to him. “You looked like you were trying to find some courage.” She gestures to the empty glasses on the table.

“Oh,” Yoongi forces a smile. “No, I’m just enjoying myself.”

“Then you’re definitely too cute to be here drinking alone,” she smiles. “You look like you could use a friend.”

“I look that sad?” He chuckles.

“That’s not what I meant,” she laughs. “I just hate to see someone who looks like you sitting alone in a place like this.” She pauses and looks him over. His eyes are red though she isn’t sure if it’s from drinking or crying. Either way, her main focus is just having a good time. “You seem like you’re trying to forget something.”

“You’re good,” he laughs finishing his drink. Thanks to drinking all day and now her presence, he feels like he’s pretty close to finally forgetting.

“Whatever you’re trying to forget, I can help you,” she says leaning in.

“How so?”

“Have a drink on me,” she smiles.

“Sure,” he nods.

Normally he would decline. Normally he would think about how unsafe it could be to have someone else order a drink for him. Normally Yoongi wouldn’t be somewhere like this in the first place at this hour. But right now he doesn’t feel like Yoongi.

She tells him her name is Sarah, and that she frequents this bar often. Not wanting anyone to find out he’s here, Yoongi tells her his name is Austin and he’s visiting from out of town. Sarah begins telling him about the best places to go in the city. What to see, where to eat, and the best shops. They chat and drink a bit more until Yoongi realizes he probably needs to head back to the hotel. When he starts to request a ride, Sarah stops him.

“Let me drive you,” she says placing a hand on his arm.

“Really?” He asks.

“Sure,” she smiles. “I’ll show you how nice people really are in this city.”

Usually Yoongi would decline. He’s already done a lot of things that are out of character for him. But he’s not Yoongi right now, he’s Austin.

He follows Sarah out to her car under the 2am moonlight. Yoongi wouldn’t dare tell anyone the hotel he’s staying at, but Austin does. Sarah gets ready to drive off but she pauses before putting the car in gear.

“You’re a really cool person, Austin,” she smiles. She reaches her hand over and touches his thigh. “You seemed a bit down at first, but I see that you’re just someone who’s hurting. I don’t know why you’re hurting, but since we may never see each other again, I’d like to help you hurt a little less.”

“What makes you want to do that for me?” He asks too drunk to care about her touch on his thigh when he normally doesn’t like for anyone to touch him. Except Hyeri. The thought of her suddenly burns him up inside.

“Because you’re a nice person.”

“Nice?” He asks almost offended. Nice is why Hyeri is all over the internet as Kihyun’s girlfriend and not his. Nice is why he hurts so damn much. “But what if I’m actually not nice?”

“Are you saying you’re not nice?” She tilts her head.

“Not at this hour,” he smirks. He doesn’t even know what he’s saying but his hurt and anger are riding the waves of all the drinks he’s had today and he’s in no position to stop it.

“Oh?” She smiles. “Let me get you back to your hotel.”

She puts the car in drive and takes off for Yoongi’s hotel. He feels like he’s having an out of body experience the entire ride. How did he end up in the car with someone he just met at a bar. He has no security and no one even knows he’s gone. If things go bad, they could be really bad.

It’s not until he sees the hotel in the distance that he begins to breathe a sigh of relief. Instead of dropping him off at the front door he asks her to drop him off in the back. It would be easier for him to slip in unnoticed that way and he’ll just take the stairs up a floor then take the elevator to avoid anyone at the front desk seeing him. Before he can get the car door open she stops him.

“Wait,” she says touching his arm. “Let me give you something before you go.”

Sarah unhooks her seatbelt and leans in close to his face. She pauses a moment looking his face over. He would never be in a position like this. Not as Yoongi at least, but tonight he’s Austin and Austin is filled with rage because he spent most of the ride thinking about Hyeri. He spent most of the ride wishing Yoongi would stop hurting so Austin can have a good time. So Austin takes over and connects his lips with Sarah’s. She looks back at him and smiles.

That kiss did nothing but further fuel the fire burning in him. He goes after her lips again much more aggressively. Her hand travels up his thigh until it meets the angry bulge in his pants.

“I’ll help you with this.” She unbuttons his pants and releases his cock from its prison.

He’s in another world right now. He’s beyond drunk and he feels like he’s not even awake anymore. The moment her lips connect with his warm tip he feels a rush of blood shoot through his body in a fiery blaze.

“Fuck,” he moans. He grabs a handful of her hair as she moves her mouth up and down his shaft.

Her tongue feels amazing. The way her hand massages his balls makes his toes curl. The way the tiny voice in his head reminds him that this isn’t quite as good as Hyeri’s mind numbing blowjob makes him mad. He clinches his jaw and tightens his grip in Sarah’s hair.

Fuck Hyeri for everything.

He powerfully bucks his hips up hitting the back of her throat. She gags a second but continues her motions. He hits her with another thrust with an animalistic growl. She moans around him and he can’t help but lift her head by her hair to look at her dick drunk face. The mischievous smile on her face burns him up more.

“You still seem a bit too nice,” she teases.

“Are you saying you want me to be meaner?” He asks pulling her hair more.

“Do your worst, baby,” she smiles.

Baby. Who the fuck does she think she is to call him that? He’s not her baby. He’s no one’s baby. He doesn’t want to hear anyone call him that again.

“If that’s what you want,” he growls through his teeth.

With his fingers still tightly wound in her hair, he pulls her back to his cock and shoves himself as far into her mouth as he can. She takes him all like a pro. She hums like a savant. And her hand returning to massage his balls feels so good it pisses him off.

He’s so drunk that he can’t stop. He’s so pissed that he can’t help but hit the back of her throat harder with each thrust. He’s not himself and he doesn’t care. Fuck Yoongi and his feelings. Austin wants revenge.

“Get ready,” He growls nearing his peak.

She hums her acknowledgment as he continues controlling her head movements.

“Fuck,” he groans.

His hips thrust into her hard then he holds her head at the base of his shaft with his entire length inside of her mouth. All of his burning hot rage goes shooting down her throat, and she swallows every drop.

When his vision returns to normal, he releases his hold on her and takes a deep breath. She looks back up at him filled with lust. To her that was amazing. She likes it rough and wanted to see how far she could push him. He did not disappoint and now she wants even more.

“Thanks for the ride,” Yoongi says buttoning his pants back up. “I really appreciate it.”

“Do you really have to go now?” She pouts. She was hoping she could at least get him to invite her back to his room.

“Yeah,” he responds. He’s drunk but not so drunk that he doesn’t realize that taking anyone back to his room would be an absolutely terrible idea. Especially since he and everyone else will need to be awake in just 4 more hours. “Who knows, maybe we’ll meet again.” He smiles at her then steps out of the car before she can say anything else.

Getting back to his room was a challenge. Not because he thought he would be seen, but because he’s so drunk it’s hard to walk. Plus he just got a toe curling blow job that he hasn’t recovered from yet, he’s lucky his legs are holding him up at all. He immediately sheds his clothes and passes out on the bed.

He wakes up to the sound of his alarm going off a short 4 hours later and he feels terrible. His head is throbbing and his vision is spinning. He has about an hour to pull himself together before heading off to rehearsal followed by a couple of interviews. There’ll be some free time before soundcheck and he hopes he’ll be able to get a nap in because he needs way more sleep.

He tries his best at rehearsal. He put ice on his eyes to make them look less puffy. Eye drops to help with the redness and dryness. Plenty of mouthwash to mask the alcohol on his breath, especially since he had another glass of whiskey thinking he’d take the ‘hair of the dog’ approach to getting over his hangover. Despite all of this, it’s hard for him to muster up the energy.

The rest of the guys notice but say nothing. Jimin and Namjoon agreed they would keep an eye on Yoongi, but they don’t want to alert the others unless they feel it’s gone far out of hand. The sting of Hyeri’s fake relationship is still very fresh and they can understand that he’d take it hard. He’s a man going through some things so it’s natural that he’d drink a little more than usual right now. They don’t want to cause concern with everyone that could impact their performances.

Thankfully for Yoongi, they have no idea how much he drank yesterday. They have no idea he went out on his own just to drink more. He can barely even remember everything that happened last night, but he remembers being so far away from reality that he couldn’t feel anything anymore.

He knows he was able to relieve some tension with the help of some woman whose name he doesn’t even remember. It doesn’t matter though, he released a lot of anger because Hyeri kept popping up in his mind. She’s all he could think of and he was so pissed about it that he released his rage into the back of a complete stranger’s throat.

Yoongi is sluggish through most of the day. He’s thankful that Namjoon does most of the talking during their American interviews, so he can just sit in the back and pretend like he doesn’t understand anything. When they finish and get their free time, Yoongi passes right out in his bed.

Things aren’t looking good to Namjoon and Jimin. Namjoon had a moment of desperation and reached out to Hyeri to ask her side of things. He didn’t hint to her anything about Yoongi’s status, he only told her that he’s taking it hard. She told Namjoon about their conversation that night and that she’s been trying to talk to Yoongi again but he’s not answering.

Hyeri called Namjoon and cried to him for an hour about how much she’s hurting and how she doesn’t want to lose Yoongi. She knows he’s pissed and she doesn’t blame him for it, she just wants to try to make it right. She even talked to her company about possibly announcing their breakup sooner rather than later so that she and Kihyun won’t have to keep pretending. With Kihyun being Yoongi’s friend and Hyeri being his actual girlfriend, things have gone very awkward between them. Hyeri is just glad they’re already done shooting the show because the great chemistry they had is now awkward and almost painful.

Namjoon admitted to Hyeri that Yoongi isn’t taking it well and he’s worried. He told her about his drinking that has gone far beyond his usual amount. Then he asks the question that he’s been trying to figure out.

“Are you two still together?” Namjoon asks. He’s aware of all of the hurt between the two of them, but no one has said specifically what the status of their relationship is.

“Namjoon,” she sighs. “I’m not even sure. He told me whether I’m here or not when he gets back is up to me. I don’t know what that means and he won’t answer me to give clarification. I just…” she pauses trying to hold back another wave of tears. “I love him, and I miss him, and I know this is all my fault, but I’m regretting everything I’ve ever done in my life. Namjoon, it hurts so much.”

Namjoon doesn’t know what to say. Perhaps there’s nothing he can say. If Yoongi won’t answer her at all what could he do? All he can do is try to keep him from spiraling too deep into alcoholism, and do his best to keep the atmosphere light at all times. It’s hard though. So incredibly hard.

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