#I have a keyboard.

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[qiinamii]

"Xiao does things" (and friends) twitter log

#testing out if i did the posting right lol #you know why im back here #[beep boop beep click clacking keyboarding] ooh nice tumblr feature i have not been in this place for at least 5 years #compiling what i can from twt and i find it fit like this. i think!! #genshin impact #qiiarts #lumine #xiao #traveler #zhongli #ei #nahida #cyno #alhaitham #paimon #tighnari #scaramouche #wanderer

[naturecalls111]

Gotta let your future kids know, cook! Gimme a sharpie!

#one piece #fanart #zosan #sanji vinsmoke #roronoa zoro #Zoro’s the bassist of the band #joined for Luffy and stayed for Luffy but fell in love with the Guitar/keyboard/everything player in the meantime #I like to think Sanji plays so many instruments it’s stupid #like piano and violin are his main things but that doesn’t fit the punk/rock vibe of the band so he easily adapts #anyway I’m rambling #I just have this one band AU for the strawhats #their journey from middle school to adulthood basically #Okok I’ll shut up now

[anna-scribbles]

honestly idk why luka needed witness protection he seemed like he was doing great

#ml migration #migration spoilers #ml #ml spoilers #miraculous ladybug #my art #i drew this on a plane with no wifi so i didn’t look up references for anybody. #also i avoid looking at monarch whenever i can help it. so. #adrien lugging his keyboard around that’s as tall as him was rly getting me this whole episode. get those hugs where you can king #i take back all the mean things i said abt luka this episode was hilarious #keep calm and carry on. until you have to be exiled #luka couffaine #adrien agreste #marinette dupain cheng

[marbobar]

(Justin McElroy voice) Hachi Machi

#doodlins #my art #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 fanart #baldurs gate fanart #karlach #karlach cliffgate #bg3 karlach #karlach demonsbane #baldurs gate karlach #baldurs gate 3 karlach #baldurs gate 3 fanart #the lighting on this gave me HELL #its fine tho just glad to have another in the series done #took a break bc i had to fix my iPad keyboard for shortcuts

[zephyrchama]

Demon brothers who will go out of their comfort zone for you. Lucifer, who stands higher and prouder than anyone, kneeling to tie your shoe. To be on your level. You could have easily tied it yourself, but you didn't even have to ask. He only does these gestures for you.

Mammon, greedy to save up every last grimm he can, giving you money to buy the silly trinket you wanted. Your enjoyment is worth more to him than anything in his wallet.

Leviathan, who'd do anything to hide himself away and disconnect from other people, following you anywhere you want to go. He'll brave crowds, embarrassment, and the worst anxiety to be by your side.

Satan, on a never-ending quest for information and respect, teaching you anything. He'll share his knowledge only for you, telling you everything you want to know and finding the answer to all your questions.

Asmodeus, always perfect and pristine in every way, showing you his vulnerable side. The side no one else knows of. His tears and insecurities are visages reserved only for you.

Beelzebub, gluttonous for immediate satisfaction, holding himself back for your sake. Waiting to eat because he knows you'll be cooking for him. Waiting to savor it. Waiting so he can share with you and make your day just a little brighter.

Belphegor, a sloth with little intrinsic motivation, pushing himself for your sake. Staying up later and later to stay around you. Not just in a dream, but the real you. Doing better in school so that you and your praise can be his reward.

#i don't know man. the head has ideas but the content just won't type itself. i have a lot of wips and the words just aren't forming khjaetjh #and then i sit down and this unrelated nonsense falls out of my brain and onto the keyboard #obey me #obey me! #omswd #obey me lucifer #obey me headcanon #obey me leviathan #obey me mammon #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #obey me belphegor #obey me beelzebub #obey me x mc

[ninjasmudge]

a downgrade really

#cotl #cult of the lamb #cotl narinder #narinder #cotl lamb #my art #its something abt black cat coded characters that take themselves too seriously that makes me want to make fun of them #i want to play through this game myself instead of watching play throughs but i dont have a controller #and im not joking im too bad of a gamer to play on keyboard ill never finish the fights #i wont get past leshy i know this

[metukika]

something something repressed desires

#im back to drawing for now... i was advised to draw for my mental wellbeing and well i agree #drawing is fucking fun #mob psycho 100 #shigeo kageyama #???% #does he have a name that isnt top row of the keyboard #terumob #mp100 #metukikart #comic #somewhat #how unfunny is my humor

[z0mbgender]

Thinking about the ending for saw x had Amanda and John opening a door and stepping out into the light VS every other movie ending with a door being closed and being left in darkness

#makes you think about how they view their work #my keyboard just disappeared somehow #they are trying to silence me #luckily I have my phone keyboard layout memorized LOSERS #WTF #saw #sawposting #Amanda young #John Kramer #saw x

[still-snowing]

wangxian in love for qixi 🤍

#wangxian #mo dao zu shi #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mdzs #my art #the zoological emoji keyboard is sorely lacking smh where’s my magpie emoji #anyway!! Hello I am alive I’m drawing so much and yet I miss drawing make it make sense #here have these crazy kids in love 💙

[nsfandomdump]

Okay okay I know the shippers are grieving KaiShin right now BUT

May I offer you platonic/familial KaiShin?

Just think. They may not know it in canon yet, but Shinichi is technically Kaito's only relative who hasn't fucked off and abandoned him

Like at this point Shinichi/Conan probably gives more shits about Kaito/KID than both of Kaito's parents

Imagine the fanfic potential

Them finding out they're related

Kaito half glad and half weirded out that he has another relative who's actually here

Shinichi being baffled at Kaito's fucked family situation

Maybe even Shinichi going off on his dad for seemingly letting Toichi's son believe he's dead

Maybe even Kaito going off on his dad for, well, everything at this point

The drama

Imagine

#m27 spoilers #technically I guess #fanfic writers to your keyboards #also to the grieving kaishin shippers: if it's any comfort when have we as a fandom ever give a fuck about canon anyway #kaishin #but platonic! #kaito kuroba #shinichi kudou #yusaku kudou #toichi kudou #dcmk #detective conan #magic kaito #kaitou kid #conan edogawa

[brainrotcharacters]

Sanji a stronger man than me because if I was him I'd tease the fuck out of fruit ninja

#watch me gatekeep the plate like 'not until you admit I saved you 😗' #'admit you like the food I make and maybe MAYBE I'll let you have seconds' #I'd be so annoying #also sanji you little shit you're bickering with him WHILE refilling his plate regardless? bro #ZOSAN #zosan #my keyboard auto capitalized the first one lmao #one piece live action #one piece #zoro #roronoa zoro #one piece sanji #sanji vinsmoke #sanji #zoro x sanji

[cringelordofchaos]

//• 'unbreakable' bond...

(based on the bad ending of STH 2 8bit / for the SMS/SGG)

#:( #i love their friendship so much #prolly cjz i self project onto both of them #and have **sort** of a similiar relationship w my younger sib #yet i still do this. #anyhow. i dont exactly love how this turned out. the colours i mean. but its ok. i guess. #(the bad ending of sth 2 8bit is literally my mobile keyboard background i love it sm idk why ig im a sucker for angst) #sonic & tails #sth #my art #toki drawz #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #soncic #sonic angst #tails #miles tails prower #tails the fox #miles prower #classic sonic #2 8bit #Sonic 2 8bit #sonic 8bit #Sonic fanart #art #tw death #sega #the music of the ending is endlessly stuck in my head #unbreakable bond #my top posts

[steveshairychest]

Steve hates February 14th.

It's a constant reminder that he is alone, that no one ever wants to stick around with him long enough to celebrate Valentine's Day. Most of them leave after one night together.

It's also his birthday. The former heartthrob of Hawkins High was born on Valentine's Day, but he can't even get himself a date. Or a birthday party. Every year that they were around, his parents would go out for their annual Valentine's Day dinner and leave Steve to celebrate his birthday on his own. He stopped associating the day with his birthday by the time he was 13.

Now, he spent the day giving out roses and chocolates to all his friends so that they feel special, so that they don't feel as left out and forgotten as he did for his whole life.

Dustin and Mike fake gag when he gives them both a box of their favourite chocolate and Will blushes and stumbles through a thank you while holding his chocolates to his chest. He got Max and Lucas a big box of chocolates to share on their date.

Robin smacks a dramatic wet kiss to his cheek when he gifts her a bunch of sunflowers (her favourite flower), she also slips something into his pocket when no one's looking and whispers, "Happy birthday." He pulls her into a tight hug and thanks her quietly.

Steve spent a lot of time debating what to get Eddie. Their friendship felt like something more, but neither of them has put a label on what the hell they are to each other, so he decides to keep it simple. He rocks up to Eddie's new trailer with a box of chocolates under his arm and a small bunch of roses clutched tightly in his hands. He's so fucking nervous he forgets to knock.

After gently knocking, the door is pulled open and Steve nearly stumbles down the steps because Eddie is wearing a fucking suit. An all black three piece suit with his hair tied up. He looks hot. So hot all Steve can do is stare.

Eddie groans and runs a hand down his face, careful not to smudge his eye-liner. "Damn it, Harrington. You're not supposed to be here." He sounded... disappointed.

Steve takes in Eddie's outfit again and the pieces slowly start to come together in his mind. How could he be so stupid? "Shit, sorry, Eds. Are you on a date with someone? Nevermind. I don't want to know. I'll just, uh, go. Sorry to interrupt." He turns away as quick as possible and hurries down the few steps.

He should have known. Eddie doesn't want to spend Valentine's Day with him. They're just friends. God, he's so stupid.

A hand gently grabs his arm and stops his hurried retreat. "Steve, wait." Eddie stands in front of him, his heeled dress shoes making him slightly taller than Steve. "I don't have a date with anyone."

Steve finds that hard to believe. He's in a suit for fuck sake. He's even brushed his hair and styled it so nicely. He's lying to make Steve feel better. "Whatever, Eds. I really don't care– "

Eddie surprises him in that moment. He reaches out and holds Steve's face so, so gently in his hands. Steve doesn't know what to do, he's frozen in shock and unable to look away from Eddie, who's standing so close now. He brushes a thumb gently across Steve's flushed cheek. "Steve, I don't have a date because I was on my way to your place. To ask you."

"Ask me? On a date?" Steve is struggling to wrap his head around the situation. Having Eddie so close is causing all coherent thoughts in his head to disintegrate. All he can focus on is the smell of Eddie's cologne and the cool sting of his rings on his skin and the slight shine on his lips because, fuck, he's wearing lip gloss.

Eddie laughs and steps even closer, their noses almost brushing as he invades Steve's space. "I've been wanting to ask you out for weeks, Stevie. I thought today would be the best day. I even bought you a birthday present."

Steve wants to cry. He wants to cry and laugh and kiss Eddie Munson until he can't breathe. "How do you know it's my birthday?" Dustin doesn't even know it's his birthday. Hell, he's pretty sure his own parents don't know it's his birthday.

Eddie sighs and rests his forehead against Steve's, the intimate action steals Steve's breath away. He's too nervous to move, to even breathe. They've never been this close before. Eddie closes his eyes and just breathes for a moment before answering Steve's question. "Dude, I've been madly in love with you for an entire year. It'd be pretty shitty if I didn't know when your birthday was." He says it so casually, so easily, like he's talking about the weather.

Steve can't even be angry that he called him 'Dude' in the middle of his confession because Eddie is pulling away, his eyes full of worry as he takes in Steve's shocked expression. "Fuck, that was too much. I'm sorry –"

Steve drops the roses and the chocolates, grabs the collar of Eddie's suit, and shuts his rambling up with a kiss.

#blegh hate this but you can have it #my allergies are really bad today #been sneezing like crazy #my eyes are so itcjy and watery i could hardly see the keyboard #BUT OH WELL #steddie #stranger things #eddie munson #steve harrington #st4 vol2 #steveddie #stranger things s4

[fairytail-incorrectquotes]

Lucy: If you were to die, what would your last words be? Natsu: I love you Lucy: Aww, me too! Lucy: What about you, Gray? Gray: Finally. Erza: No.

#nalu #natsu dragneel #lucy heartfilia #erza scarlet #gray fullbuster #lads i have fucked up my keyboard. jfc #incorrect fairy tail quotes #fairy tail #fairy tail incorrect quotes #incorrect quotes #incorrect quote #anime #manga #gray continues to be a mood

[felsicveins]

His heart belongs to another

And no other heart will do

#no other heart by mac demarco : D #I drew this a couple of days ago because i was feeling crazy and i just love the idea that #these two should be great together!! they should!!! but #theyre not together #theres just . theyre missing something #and thats okay!!! its not meant to be #and theyre friendship is very valuble to both of them!! #their* fuck my baka keyboard #trolls #yall are gonna be mad about this one i feel it ... #i think we all know who jds gonna end up with now right ... #i just gotta .. draw them more 💀 #i actully have the perfect ruveal i just have to finish painting it #urrgg i HATE painting #trolls oc #trolls oc cory #trolls movie #trolls john dory #trolls jd #john dory #jd ex husband #oh uhh i imagine this feels like a new years thing. or something #something that happened like right after they reconnected #before floyd and cory started going out #on god one day im gonna put all my tags lore into a post #i just shy 😔 who wants to read all this in a caption #not me brother!! I'm not reblogging that shit!!! #and im not finishing this cause i dont wanna give false hope 😘 #although jd dating sim ... is pretty real #i would love to do endings with all his exs