#I guess these are girl crushes but idk if that’s a good term

[fabuloustrash05]

rank the canon love interests for each turtle, gO (i can't remember if you have already lol)

*cracks knuckles* It’s time for a lightening round of ship ranking!

Disclaimer: I’m rating these girls based on their romantic relationships with the Turtle that crushed on them/had a relationship with. This is NOT a ranking of their individual characters.

Leonardo

Unnamed Women/Yumi’s Mother (Mirage)

2/10

She was just a figment of Leo’s imagination so does she even count?

They have a daughter together which is nice, but also HOW DID THAT WORK??

Raven Shadowheart (Mirage)

7/10

Seems like a good ship

F in the chat for Leo, even when he has a GOOD relationship it can’t last long.

Lotus Blossom (1987)

10/10

The overall BEST Leo love interest.

The fact she gave him a flower to remember her by <3

Lotus deserves to make a comeback!

Can’t believe Nickelodeon chose INCEST over her!!

Karai (2012)

-1000000000000000000000000/10

WHY DID THEY HAVE LEO PULL A LUKE SKYWALKER?!

Koya (IDW)

2/10

I can definitely see the appeal and aesthetically they look good together but the CONTEXT of their relationship is BAD.

LEO IS THE REASON SHE IS DISABLED!!

Lita confirms they get together in the future, but WHY?? They have no romantic chemistry or hints that they like each other romantically. Maybe SHOW us instead of TELLING us!!

Toxic 95% of the time

April (Mutant Mayhem)

7/10

I usually heavily dislike April x Turtle ships, but I can’t deny that they were cute.

Leo’s moment of falling for her was actually kinda cute and funny.

His crush on her is not shoved down our throats like OTHER April x Turtle ships *cough* 2012 Apritello *cough*

I like that they went  to prom together <3

But again, I don’t think April should be shipped with any of the Turtles and I don’t see this ship lasting in the long term…

Seems like it’s a one sided crush like Dipper and Wendy from Gravity Falls, so I’m not convinced this will last in the upcoming show/sequel

Raphael

Ninjara (Archie Comics)

2/10

They’re cute but it’s not a really interesting ship

It looks too much like a cheap OC x Canon pairing

Mezcaal (Archie Comics)

7/10

The first and only time one of our Turtles boys have been married, congrats Raph!

A badass married couple

I hope her and Raph are forever happy together running that bar

Mona Lisa (1987)

10/10

Iconic!

Her kissing Raph then calling him “doll” is so cute!

She IS the ideal Raphael love interest. Her and this ship truly left a major impact on the fandom.

She is the go to Raph love interest people think of in any iteration (2003, Rise & MM fans all wanted and made their own version of her in the show)

Joi (2003)

1/10

Meh…

Idk if she counts but I added her cause some people shipped them

She is Raph’s only human "love interest" and it doesn’t feel right to me. 

Out of all the Turtles, Raph being with a human feels weird, the other Turtles I’m fine with being with humans. Raph has always been known to date non human characters so this ship doesn’t look/sit right to me, and doesn’t feel like a relationship that would go anywhere.

Alopex (IDW)

2.5/10

I just don’t like it

I guess it’s because I was introduced to Alopex in the 2012 series where in that she’s a 30 year old woman and Raph is a teenager, so this relationship feels weird to me.

Kinda toxic at times tbh but still cute when they need to be (which is rare)

She’s 17 and Raph is 20… But that was apparently “retconned” so Idk what to think

Y’gythgba/Mona Lisa (2012)

10000000000000000000000000000000000/10

THE BEST LOVE INTEREST AND SHIP IN THE ENTIRE SHOW!!

The ONLY GOOD and HEALTHY relationship in the show!

“What a woman…” ICONIC!!

Raph was loyal and Mona was devoted to him!

He falls for her because she punched him in the face. That is both hilarious and very in character for Raph XD

She’s as much in love with him as he is with her!

Badass warrior power couple!

Short King x Girlboss

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!

Donatello

Jhanna (2003)

3/10

Another “Meh” ship to me.

Similar to Joi, does she even count?? Apparently she does to some people and its a ship for 03 fans.

Fan versions of her and this ship from different interactions (1987 & Rise) are more interesting than the actual canon version of them in 03 tbh

I guess I’m just not convinced of this ship and I don’t like how they look together. It’s hard to explain.

April (2012)

4/10

Could’ve worked with a cute “friends to lovers” story but the writers ruined it.

Kinda cute in season 1, got worse after that. Season 5 was them at their best but that’s only because it wasn’t shoved down our throats by that point.

The love triangle brought out the worst in them (and Casey).

I like them better as best friends.

Hottake: Donnie was more of the problem than April.

Like I said in Leo’s ranking, April should NOT be a love interest for any of the Turtles.

Big Foot (2012)

-1/10

Why did this happen??

Batgirl (Batman Crossover Comic)

2/10

Got a thing for redheads, huh Don?

Not a huge fan of big crossover shipping like this, but his crush on her was cute so I’ll admit that. 

It was sweet she gave him a kiss on the cheek before leaving. So good for you Don!

Mona Lisa (IDW)

0/10

JUSTICE FOR RAPH X MONA LISA!!

Obviously not my cup of tea.

The Nerd x Nerd trope… wow, so original…

She’s a bitch to him at times and invalidates his trauma. 

I really thought her and Jennika were gonna be a thing (which I would’ve preferred more tbh), so her with Donnie as a massive disappointing surprise and feels so forced.

Michelangelo

Princess Seri (Mirage)

2/10

Tragic. She betrayed him. That bitch.

WHAT HAPPENED TO THEIR BABIES??

Also… MIKEY FUCKS??!

Kala (1987)

9/10

UNDERRATED SHIP!!

Two party loving teens who just wanna skate and have fun!

They keep pictures of each other as mementoes. THAT’S ADORABLE!!

Much like Leo x Lotus, we need this ship to make a comeback.

Buffy (1987)

0/10

FUCK THAT BITCH!! SHE TREATED HIM LIKE TRASH!!

Sara Hill (Image Comics)

4.5/10

I’m a sucker for the Turtles dating alien lizard woman.

I like the “friends with benefits” relationship they have. Feels like a Mikey thing he would do regarding his love life. 

I love how they bonded over their love of cartoons. Very cute.

She left him for another man though… WTF SARA?!?! YOU BROKE MIKEY’S AND MORE IMPORTANTLY MY HEART!!

Mitsu (TMNT III)

1/10

Bland and boring (Just like the movie!)

Princess Trib (IDW)

5/10

RESPECT TO MIKEY GETTING ALL THE PRINCESSES!! AND THE NEUTRINOS TOO??

Cute, but in the end I prefer him with Kala.

They are the only good Turtle ship (not counting Jennika and her girlfriend Sheena). But that ain’t saying much from me cause they’re still bland at times with little to go with.

How are they one of the better ships in IDW yet they are the most bland and uninteresting couple??

Renet (2012)

9/10

Very adorable!!

Works well romantically and platonically.

They’re both goofballs who are misunderstood by their peers.

Would be a 10 but Mikey was unfaithful...

Renet confirms they have some kind of future together.

I personally can’t see them staying together in the future, maybe having a friends with benefits relationship like him and Sara.

Shinigami (2012)

1/10

I like their dynamic, but not as a romantic one.

“Someone will die…” “OF FUN!” vibes.

Shini is obviously a lesbian and is dating Karai so…

Headcanon: They have playdates with their cats.

April (Bayverse)

0/10

WHAT DID I LITERALLY SAY IN LEO AND DONNIE’S RANKINGS??!!

The one Mikey crush that literally gives me the ick. I don’t like it.

C R I N G E

MIKEY SWEETIE SHE’S A FULL GROWN ADULT!! YOU ARE A CHILD!!

#jokes of you my friend I already had this ranking saved in my notes! #I apologize if I missed anyone #pietasu59 #asks #answered #ranking #rating #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 1987 #tmnt 2003 #tmnt 2012 #tmnt idw #tmnt mirage #tmnt archie #tmnt leonardo #tmnt raphael #tmnt michelangelo #tmnt donatello #long post

[findingtomarrymort]

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I am looking for a fic that has harry potter going back in his eleven year old body after the second war (I guess?) Or he could also not be back in his eleven year body but some other year. I just know that he was master of death and he stood up to snape when he was being an arse to him. Harry time traveled back in time, I vividly remember the scene. Harry was in a potion class and snape as usual was being an arse and harry thought maybe he wouldn't be harsh on him or even change but no snape was still an arse to him and harry had enough so he called snape a Bastard who was pathetic and wouldn't move on from his gurge and he walked out and refused to attended the class unless snape apologized for his behavior and promise not to do it again. Hermione and Ron tried to pursue harry with other professors as well, but he was adamant about it and refused to attend potion class, at last Dumbledore called harry and snape in his office and tried to solve it but snape was still an arse.

i've been trying to find this fic for years now and have had no luck. it's a fanfic about how harry has 2 personalities (assumed it was from the horcrux but not explicitly stated) and he was so much smarter because of it. In it, harry is a ravenclaw, Hermione is a slytherin, and so is Fred but idk about George. Also snape gets eaten by a basilisk and the basilisk is named hedwing. Also, harry creates a potion to turn some boys into girls so Daphne doesn't have to marry Theo nort. Last I checked it was uncompleted and I'm pretty sure it changed its name.

Hello! I've been trying to find this fanfiction on Ao3 for a while with no luck. It is a Dark Lord/Harry fanfiction, and possibly completed. I remember it having a pretty high word count. Vaguely, I can remember that Bellatrix and Harry dueled in front of the Inner Circle Death Eaters and Voldemort, and though Harry struggled for the most part, I'm pretty sure he won. I vividly remember Draco yelling at him for talking to Daphne. Harry thinks that Draco has a crush on Daphne, but Draco kisses Harry instead. Harry pushes him away.

Hey! I'm not sure if you already have the fic here, but am anyways asking. I'm looking for fem!Harry/Tom fic. It's on ao3, multi-chaptered and completed. It's name is something like The Rise of _____ What I remember from it after her sixth year, Harry (I think her name is different) leaves Britain, goes to America with Sirius, studies in Ilvermorny, she's in contact with Death who helps her against Dumbledore (it's a bad!Dumbledore one) anyway before leaving I think she was in contact with Tom, who now kinda randomly shows up to 'woo' her, she's also good friends with Draco, Narcissa and Bellatrix (calles her Auntie Trixie) It's not a very old fic, completed sometime b/w 2021-23

the fic im searching for Harry gives Tom permission to do whatever he wants. It was multichaptered and finished. At one point there’s a Harry/Cedric bit but Tom admits that he would rather not see anybody touch Harry that way again and I think he obliviates Cedric? Also Tom and Harry get frisky on the side of the quidditch shed in a fit of jealously due to Ginny. At the end the order tries something and makes Harry’s cat sick and he gets almost kidnapped by leaving.

Hi there! This blog is AMAZING. I was delighted to be recced. I need some help looking for a fic on fanfiction.net that I highly suspect has been deleted, but am still hoping it may be my sub-par searching skills. It is a multichapter ongoing story, and had maybe two chapters up when I read it. The main characters are Harry Potter and Tom Riddle in a hospital setting (it may be St. Mungos). Harry is a star (like a literal celestial star) in the body of a child, which has a lot of problems containing him, and is hence in a state of near-death. He coughs blood. Tom Riddle's mother is also long-term hospitalized and he comes to visit her. This is how they end up meeting in the hispital. (And all I remember of the story). Pretty sure it was on ff.net between 2009 and 2012. I never could find it again.

#tomarry #hp #harrymort #lost

[queer-advice-hotline]

Hi 😅 I hope this is okay to ask, I’ll try to be brief but will probably fail at that. Basically I’ve been raised in a Christian household, very conservative too. But I met a far more liberal Christian friend and over time .. sort of am to the point I think I might be left-leaning too (definitely more than my family). This scares me. I don’t want to disappoint my family by being liberal …

She also recently talked to me about evolution which I was never taught about, the most I learned was reading a single textbook that talked about it around college. And … it all makes sense. I even went to the religious science site my dad says proves evolution is false and I can’t find any actual proof evolution is false. Everything is evidence to the contrary and .. I’ve listened to videos about experiments where cells clump together and start getting more complex and it’s honestly so exciting? That’s so cool? But … I can’t help but think of how disappointed my family will be about this, too …

But the worst part .. I’ve been holding off on looking into LGBT stuff because I don’t know what I’ll find. I’ve never had a crush on an actual guy (I’m a girl), even though easily over 20 guys have expressed interest in the past, some just said I was hot and kind of asked me out, others expressed wanting to marry me. I’ve never dated, ever. I only like fictional characters really, and the only strong connection has been literally 12 years of loving a character. My affection for him went into full force when I empathized with him, but I’m also autistic and he’s my special interest, so idk how that factors into it. Some of my friends say I’m demi, but I’ve insisted I’m straight and I’m just picky. I don’t know if I am. I also … have met or been friends with three girls over the years, or presumably girls, that I know I wanted to spend time with or get to know, I’d be nervous around (but I also have anxiety ..) or still think about sometimes. But I don’t think I’d want to have sex with a girl … idk, it’s really confusing because my mom always told me people think they’re LGBT because of wounds, and I definitely have been wounded in the past. But I also … I just don’t feel attracted to most people … but I also can find any person attractive or pretty? I just don’t necessarily want to do anything with them? Like recently I saw a video game character who I felt very Eh about, like he’s pretty I guess, until I learned he has trauma and now he seems more appealing because I empathize with him.

But … I don’t know what to do. My faith is extremely important to me and I know I have to have some sort of spirituality no matter what. But I just … I just can’t be LGBT. It’ll destroy my family and I might not have a place to live if I decide I am. Especially if I got a partner like that. I don’t know … I know I’m already such a disappointment for disagreeing politically and .. probably believing in evolution, and now I need to look into LGBT stuff because I need to know if what I’ve been taught is wrong, but I’m so, so, so scared. I can’t … be this. I just can’t. I don’t know if I am.

I’m sorry, this was kind of a vent and I’m sorry if any language is poorly-worded. I’m living in a constant state of anxiety right now so I am probably saying things wrong and I apologize. I just don’t know what to do. If you read this, thank you - and I hope you have a good day.

I think coming to terms with your identity may help you, even if you don't tell anyone. Your family doesn't have to know until you're ready to tell them, or they never even have to know at all.

It's important to remember that you don't need to rush into anything either. This is a pretty big change from what you described as your lifestyle, so it makes sense that you are having a lot of feelings of anxiety over this. Rushing into a new identity won't help you, especially if you aren't ready for it.

As for you religion, you can be religious and lgbtq, there are plenty of quuer people who are religious, and talking with some of hem might help you. They could give you advice on your family and you identity. Any religious quuer people feel free to reply to this with advice.

#queer advice hotline #1-800-queer #advice calls #sexuality calls #romantic orientation calls #long distance calls #queer #religion

[yermes]

Listen I can bake a lot of things but I CANNOT bake away this horniness idk why.

After a very unfortunate reading i am ready to get hurt again and lets do a card pull to see how you to can manifest some DIQUE into ur life (or pussy idc)

Pick a meme

Pick a card

(The lovers card slid out of the deck I don’t make the rules so +1 card)

The chariot 🪻

This card represents cancer

Girl just go out and get some this card represents willpower, and self assurance and the know how that in any challenge you can rise to the top and get what you want. You won’t get any just sitting there just try and initiate something. Try and take control of your situation. (Use consent I know this is a commanding card but I mean in ur action to find someone yk? Yk)

Five of cups reversed 🪼

You just took a fat L in the relationship or sexual partner category. Srry queen. Don’t let this fatigue or set back get you down to hard. This card reversed means acceptance, forgiveness, and nostalgia. Being firmly against forgiving people who hurt us… FORGIVE YOURSELF. Take your time to move on good things will come to you just take a first step in apologizing to yourself you deserve it queen. Stop being mean to yourself and forgive yourself the world is mean enough to you as is you don’t have to add to it.

Knight of cups reversed 🐦‍⬛

Bitch get the fuck out of the daydream of a sneaky link or a relationship or whatever and just do it. Staying in the dreamy phase may be fun. Having crushes are fun. But staying within it will cultivate jealousy, and disappointment. Nothing will match up to your perfect dreamy standard just go out there and fuck around and find out. Don’t dream of the opportunity GET an opportunity.

+1

Lovers 🩷

A big part of this card represents self healing so on one hand I am advising u to do some self love (wink wink)

But it also does represent meaningful connections and relationships. It can also represent other ties but in terms of this reading yk. So I guess you won the reading just go ask ur partner for some IG you lucky duck.

Srry if ur ace I know this reading probs won’t apply to a majority if not all of y’all.

#suitlifeofgerm #askgerm #pick a card #daily card #pick a picture #sorry if this post offends you- you can take it up with HR #I did download bumble in my time of weakness send thots and prayers

[inkdemon-whore]

How many Audrey's did the Ink Demon go through until she was "perfect"?

And how great did it feel when the Ink Demon crushed Joey's Jay Jonah Jameson lookin' ass?

inky probably lost count after 20, but in terms of years, maybe like.... 10 years worth? then again, take into account that time is fucked in the ink realm, it could have been like 30 or 40 years. that and he probably went through a majority of them fast, pumping them out impatiently. not to mention all the just, straight up goop piles that didn't come together.

considering joey himself was an old man at the end of the first game, and it was maybe 30 years since henry left, i kinda think 30 or 40 is a good guesstimate, especially since that girl, assumedly a wip audrey, still called him "uncle joey" and not "daddy" or something. i'd put joey around maybe, 60 or 70 at the end of batim, and i don't remember if there was a date he actually died, but i'll just guess he died in his 80's or so, so that would be like, 50 years at most of the ink demon trying to make a perfect looking human just to escape. if we wanna assume he had most proto-audrey's for a few weeks, maybe like, 1 at least every cycle. and a average cycle may have only lasted.... saaayyyy.... idk, 3 weeks?

oh god, i'm bad at math, what would that even be?

-running numbers-

866 repeating, just gonna say about 867. but maybe a little less if he started slowing down as he got closer to perfection, so at the very least, something above 800 proto-audrey's

anyway

destroying joey, even if it was nothing more than a figment of the ink realm, the ink demon was hoping for some kind of euphoria, catharsis, or ecstasy even. instead, he felt nothing. like crushing a roach under a boot. indifferent and numb, and rather disappointed.

#batim #batdr #ink demon #daddy ink demon au #al #talk

[spongebob-connoisseur]

The baby my mii had whit sandy cheeks, idk just felt like showing him to you (his name is Isaiah)

Ohh tomodachi life! I LOVED this game in high school. Fr I had a bad addiction in 11th grade. Life may be falling apart but at least I can play God 💪. My island turned into a breeding farm to produce rare breeds of cartoon/anime children fr. Now I know what Dr. Frankenstein was on. This shit hits.

Anyways wishing you well on your mii baby. You sent this ask a while ago so I'm sure the kid is already grown up. Mii babies grow within a week or less idk. Send me invites to Isaiah's wedding.

Heres some stuff from my island.

I have Spongebob and Slappy. Spongebob is one of the first miis I added to the game in 2016. I think I only added Slappy last summer.

Spongebob is well established. He went through 2 divorces. He used to be on bad terms with his kids but he managed to finally build a good relationship with them. Who would've thought Spongebob would be a twice divorced deadbeat dad? Just look at him! He's wearing a little sailor suit and playing on his DS!

Here is Spongebob's daughter Debbie who is having a little ballet session with her wife and friend (Joshu from jjba)

I also have Slappy! I've been having fun giving him outfits. He was in the middle of a little workout session with Gappy from jjba.

I also love how Slappy's favorite foods are all seafood (why no, I have not only been feeding him seafood, why would you say that?)

He has milk in his stomach. I did not give him food. Idk where it came from but ok.

When I first added him to the game, cat woman from batman got a crush on him. I had to break them up because it was too soon. Still, slappy keeps rizzing up masc girls. It seems to be his thing. I had at least 3 tomboys confess their love for Slappy. I guess they are simply attracted to his orange cat/malewife energy.

My own mii (the look-alike mii when you start the game) also seems to be stalking him but she doesn't seem to befriend him. Somehow that's the most accurate thing of all.

There is also Ruby from SU and Gappy from jjba

They are asking for another kid but there are too many children on the island so NO.

There was also Jyushimatsu from Osomatsu-san trying to confess his love but his brothers kept jumping in. This is somehow the most show accurate thing ever.

#Thebrainthings #Sorry this is so late #Brain on a cheese grater kinda thing #the spongebob connoisseur #spongebob #spongebob squarepants #sb #spongebon squarepants #spongebob meme #slappy laszlo #slappy spongebob #laszlo spongebob #Peter lorre fish #Ask #Tomodachi life

[yuridovewing]

Okay a general Emeryverse change is that I want to save some of the kittens that get killed off really young because, and I know this sounds weird, I have noticed that they REALLY love to have a litter where its one boy and one or two girls, and the girls will die. It happens with five different characters at the top of my head. (Tigerstar, Brokenstar, Thunderstar, Jagged Peak, and Birchfall) and I know theres a bunch more for like background characters. And god damn it I want more girlies in there.

I'm gonna leave Birchfall's siblings as is because Birchfall being a sole survivor of his litter is something I want to play with.

Brokenstar and Thunderstar are probably gonna be single kitten litters because I don't really see a need for them to have dead siblings. I guess if you want to go with the idea that StarClan cursed Yellowfang's litter as punishment, but I don't really like that. And idk, I like Brokenstar at least being an only child and nothing really changes without his sisters.

Buuuut I might make them Brokenstar's daughters instead. Because Hopekit and Wishkit are REALLY cute names and I want to keep them. No idea what their fate would be, my vision is that Brokenstar sired a litter cause All Of Our Child Soldiers Are Dying For Some Reason, resulting in kids. They're born soon after he's exiled, and their mother named them Hopekit and Wishkit in an effort to give them good fortune despite their heritage. (I also imagine that she never told anyone who the dad was. But some can probably tell, they have the flat faces.)

In that case, I'd name them Hopeshine and Wishsong ^^ Hopeshine becomes a permanent nursery queen and Wishsong is a warrior, they both stick around til oots.

Fluttering Bird lives but she decides to stay with their mom. I... don't really know what she's doing tbh. I kinda want to axe the entire time travel "full circle" plot and I'm also considering axing the tribe altogether or having a totally different group take their place. I have no clue what to do with dotc and I kinda don't care. Whatever though she's alive.

Tigerstar's sisters live! They're all close as apprentices before Thistleclaw gets into Tigerpaw's head. Mistpaw becomes a medic apprentice and becomes Mistnose (she and Spotty train at the same time) and is in a trio with Featherwhisker and Spottedleaf... until she decides she wants to follow in her father's pawsteps and leaves to become a kittypet after seeing a dark vision of her brother terrorizing the forest. Her kittypet name is Angela. She is gone shortly before the events of Into the Wild and Tigerstar refuses to acknowledge that she ever existed.

Nightpaw becomes a warrior named Nightdapple and works as a scribe for the clan (note: this is a position dedicating to recording clan history. She's also in charge of educating the apprentices and kits on said history). She's on good terms with Spottedleaf even after her sister leaves and actually had a bit of a crush on her, but never said anything so as to not put any pressure on her. (Note: Spottedleaf is Rosetail's child here, not Swiftbreeze's. They are not related here.) She's on better-ish terms with Tigerclaw, but is horrified with his actions and refuses to leave with him in his exile.

#yes mistnose's ditching is still a sore point when rusty joins. yes tigerclaw gives him extra vitriol for it #since he wasnt close to her its less ''my sister left me :('' and more ''two of my important kin ditched the clan for a lesser life'' #and he finds that shameful #emeryverse

[todayisafridaynight]

NO LISTEN. LISTEN. I CONCEALED THE TITLE ON PURPOSE BECAUSE... IDK what it is but I have a tendency to like things that would be hard to watch for one reason or another for MOST of the runtime but then by the end it's like Oh So This Was GOOD Actually? Oh So My Brain Is Rewired?

And then it just becomes IMPOSSIBLE to recommend because I have no idea if The Majority Of It would actually be worth the conclusion to anyone but me😭😭😭SP is along those lines, sort of, but I've at least seen success with that... but this is also the case for my favorite Tsutsumi movie of all time, actually... alas...

Nevertheless. The show is called After the Rain! I think it was originally a manga and it has a live-action adaptation too [criminal not to actually cast Tsutsumi in either In My Opinion but FINE I GUESS]. It's about a former track star in high school, Akira Tachibana, who works part-time at a restaurant and has the MOST EMBARRASSING crush on her manager, Masami Kondo, the character I showed you before, who is Tsutsumi But As A Middle-Aged Divorcee With A Son. They befriend each other and help each other come to grips with the future and the past, respectively.

I was afraid of the obvious because a lot of media that tries to do this ends up making it fucking weird... like, this sort of dynamic means a lot to me for personal reasons and I've been burned too many times by characters I'd come to love and trust... but naw... my man Kondo is Normal About It that's all that matters to me... I had to breathe SUCH a sigh of relief...

I really don't like that the camera is sometimes not normal about Akira, though, it undermines the actual themes of the show a bit. IDK, I'm hypersensitive, I expect it's nothing super egregious compared to a lot of other media, but it's just disappointing because SOMETIMES there's artistic merit in terms of representing what Akira's feeling and other times it's just totally unnecessary and introduces a tonal clash... SPEAKING OF THERE IS A GUY WHO IS NOT NORMAL ABOUT AKIRA AND THE ENTIRE PLOT THREAD IS BASICALLY JUST DROPPED BECAUSE HE'S HARDLY EVEN IN THE SHOW AFTER THAT... I WANTED CONSEQUENCES...

But if nothing else, that's not even exactly why I said it's a hard watch, the actual reason is the NUCLEAR levels of secondhand embarrassment for like two thirds of the show. Like GIRL he is NOT INTO YOU AND HE SHOULDN'T BE... GET A GRIP OH MY GODDDDDDDD................. but like, I was That Girl when I was her age, right, so the fact it had me imploding thinking back on everything is a testament to its accuracy overall. Probably.

And NGL that type of dynamic is basically how I conceptualize RGGJo and Arakawa when they first met... Jo and Akira may be cringe-ass teens but I got a soft spot for it I do... it can be FUNNY... it can be WHOLESOME...

All of that being said, the last third or so might as well be a different show, and it kind of blows the rest out of the water for me. Maybe because it focuses on Kondo and Akira separately? But it's free of literally anything I could possibly complain about. I ain't mad about the first two thirds, it does set up a lot of what made the last third so enjoyable... buuut...

ANYWAY that's ENOUGH OF THAT I am CUTTING MYSELF OFF THERE I've gone on for WAY TOO LONG ABOUT SHIT NOBODY ASKED ABOUT☠️Not like you can say anything to All That I just don't have anybody to talk to about it☠️and despite the fact I'm still not REALLY Recommending It and don't think it sounds appealing from my description, I feel like I probably shouldn't talk about the endgame stuff I'm obsessed with so☠️☠️☠️Anyway. If NOTHING Else. Funny as hell to have Tsutsumi as the basis for The Perfect Middle-Aged Man... SOOO true...

YAYA the DQXI demo goes like, up to just after you get the? Twins? in your party. And you can keep playing the game without progressing the story + continue your save in the full game so technically speaking I COULD grind until I'm overpowered... but I shan't... I'm not positive when I'm getting it since I still wanna play the series in order... For Ichiban... [<- see this is RGG-related now]

It is SO sick to actually get to play though, that's awesome! Toriyama's worked on some bangers what can I say... My first DQ was one of the DS remakes, probably DQV, but the only DQ game I've ever actually finished was the Rocket Slime spinoff. Very Fun By The Way genuinely one of my favorite DS titles... but THAT'S NEITHER HERE NOR THERE... regardless... Arachtagon is not in the demo but I can believe he's a bitch to fight given one of the top results is this ☠️

So I'm glad you're past it and are having fun with the game :] I loved your comic SOOO SO SO much so having that bit of background on makes it all the more enjoyable! I had my own comic about RGGJo losing his mind "babysitting" Ichi and watching him grind for hours on end which was also lowkey about my experience with DQI... lol... lmao even...

I'M SORRYYYYYY THOUGH I TOLD YOU SP WAS SLOW TO START FOR A REASON 😭😭😭😭It took me a while to notice but title sequences are always something like Episode III Part I so they're almost all multi-ep arcs... threw me for a loop... Okay that's enough from me Jesus fucking Christ I am SORRY for going on this long but just I have to say:

inoue's chara is so funny like He's Super Human um doc… i think he's just autistic lowkey….. he still a baller regardless tho

REAL AND TRUE AND REAL AND TRUE AND REAL AND

and i've already added it to the To-Watch list :) NO BUT REAL I UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL- in trying to sell something but having to be like Here Me Out I Swear on it BUT I BELIEVE YOU THAT ITS GOOD. i know i can trust your word on something and i def appreciate the preemptive notes given before watching. im sure i'll enjoy it in the end: it looks cute and im glad it sounds like it's doing something better with a Touchy trope ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶ biggest RIP to no tsutsumi in the live action but... cant be helped.....

NO BUT IT'S SO FUNNY CAUSE FOR MY COMIC I WANTED TO SEE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE'S 'HARDEST BOSSES' WERE AND I FELT SO SEEN IN SEEING ARACHTAGON AS AN OPTION..... funnily enough tho when i redid the fight it wasnt nearly as nightmarish as it was when i first did it but Again i think i was just better prepared... (also during my first attempt i had Literally the most fuck ass luck where my team kept getting stunned and dying but rab kept bringing them back to life and i Just Couldnt Die or even move so... Horrible First Experience Ruined A Game For Seven Months For Me ( ￣▽￣ ;;;;)). the first instance of DQ i remember seeing was DQIX and being liek 'hey they looks familiar :)' and ive just been watchin it since 🤭 ROCKET SLIME IS SO CUTE THOUGH if you had to finish ANY of the games im glad it was that one... i wish i got to play the series in order since I Like Doing That but im annoying about wanting to play things on The Official Console...

AH BUT IVE ALWAYS LIKED THE IDEA OF JO WATCHING ICHI PLAY A GAME i mentioned i had an abandoned comic about it but its still such a silly and cute idea.. id very much like to do something with it someday if not see others have fun with it cause i think they should have them silly family moments too..

NO IT'S OK I JUST FOUND IT FUNNY AN ARC WAS LIKE. 3-4 EPS WHEN AT MOST THEY'RE LIKE TWO i'm just about rapping up the ohashi arc and its SOOOOO good... i also love how the drama has a pretty diverse soundtrack that i notice a lot of other jdramas lack so thats DEF been a bonus plus all of the choreography (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) and real. inoue Is Just Neurodivergent that got solidified within me after seeing him mess around with that riddle book ☠️

#long post #snap chats #but SPEAAAAKING of cutting of asks im cutting it here good GOD this is long #its accurate that tsutsumi is just Iconic for being A Middle Aged Man that's just accurate.. cant explain it but i know its true.. #i mean to save most of my chatter for the tags but. oops LMAO so i have nothing else left to say #other than im gonna start ep 8 now :) i really wanna see how this arc ends... #and then i just have three more episoes weh... but then i can start After The Rain :) #GETTING BACK TO THAT NOOOO ITS SOOO FUNNY cause i remember seeing the title of this drama #and being like 'what in the fresh hell is this' thinking itd be weird or just. What The Fuck #and i mean it WAS to an extent but no overall i left it just. ABSOLUTELY in love with it... it was really touching and light hearted #no freak shit moments either.. just ended up being a I Think This Is Whole story.. #so uh yeah. i totally get how you feel tryna talk bout this LMAOO BUT AGAIN i know not to judge quickly #i always stick out to the end of shows and movies before making an opinion and Again i trust you for it to be good.... #plus masami really is cute 😔 who am i to turn away an endearing middle aged divorced father 😔 #OK I GOTTA GO NOW IVE REALLY GON ON TOO LONG BYYYE #THANK YOU FOR THE NEW SHOW REC :)))

[lino-nyangi]

TAG GAME: GET TO KNOW ME!

thanks to @propertyoftoru for the tag ♡

1. Birthday?

1998. the rest is between me and god

2. Favorite color?

hnngg i love allll but warm yellow that's almost orange makes me :D

3. How tall are you?

171cm/5'7

4. How many pair of shoes to you own?

y'all count them?? idk probably over 10 but i have like 2 for each season that i wear the shit out of lmao i have no object permanence

5. Favorite song?

this should be illegal. apologize.

6. Favorite movie?

i rarely watch movies

7. Who would be your ideal partner?

someone i can feel comfortable and safe with. someone i can nurture and feed off of, both intellectually and emotionally.

8. Do you want children?

under the right circumstances and with the right person mayyybe one.

9. Have you gotten in trouble with the law?

the only illegal thing i've done is looking murderously hot (it's not true)

10. What color socks are you wearing?

striped rainbow because gay rights.

11. Favorite type of music?

whatever the fuck skz have going on. also r&b, soul, j-pop.

12. How many pillows do you sleep with?

two.

13. What position do you sleep in?

how would i know if i'm asleep?? but i think curled up on my side.

14. What don’t you like when you’re sleeping?

light. soft light is okay but not in my eyes. also snoring. also also thunder.

15. Have you tried archery?

no but i think it's really cool. my favorite character in a game would be either an archer or mage.

16. Favorite fruit?

peach!! and melon

17. Are you a good liar?

18. What’s your personality type?

don't think so? i don't see the point of lying unless it's something out of courtesy(?). but if you ask for my honest opinion you'll hear it, i'm not good at hiding that jdhsjs

infj-t

19. Innie or outie?

innie (jeongin! :D) i am house plant.

20. Left or right handed?

righty.

21. Favorite food?

this also should be illegal. but anything pasta i will inhale.

22. Favorite foreign food?

hmmm i love dumplings. and sushi. and butter chicken.

23. Are you clean or messy?

clean usually. unless i'm stressed then i misplace things a lot and i'm all over the place in general lmao

24. Most used phrase?

not a phrase but "like". in all languages lmaooo

25. How long does it take you to get ready?

to grab some milk from the store or for a day out? anything from 10 to 40 minutes.

26. Do you talk to yourself?

i don't shut up actually, my brain is always talking to me. i might seem deranged for sitting in complete silence while i work but trust me FAM is playing on full volume in my head.

27. Do you sing to yourself?

hum and butcher lyrics yes

28. Are you a good singer?

absolutely not.

29. Biggest fear?

drowning. anything to do with inability to breathe, including really confined spaces.

30. Are you a gossip?

i am tired and old.

31. Long or short hair?

short hair!! makes me feel hot. i actually need to cut my hair again it's time.

32. Favorite school subject?

back in highschool was prolly math (don't shoot). in archi it's probably drawing/color and history.

33. Extrovert or introvert?

introvert.

34. What makes you nervous?

loud noises. not knowing what to expect i.e. change of plans, surprises.

35. Who was your first crush?

probably taemin from shinee i watched replay and my thirteen year old ass was like i want that one (ironically enough i am still obsessed with another main dancer now)

36. How many piercings do you have?

two on my ears~

37. How many tattoos do you have?

none~

38. How fast can you run?

i can't. if something's chasing me i'm just dying i guess.

39. What color is your hair?

black or really really dark brown.

40. What color are your eyes?

brown.

41. What makes you angry?

inconsiderate ppl but like intentionally. i can look past a lot of things but if you do something knowing it will cause harm to someone i despise you.

42. Do you like your name?

ye. don't mind it.

43. Do you want a boy to girl as a child?

neither until i come to terms with birthing an actual human being.

44. What are your strengths?

i have a vivid imagination.

45. What are your weaknesses?

i have a hard time putting said vivid imagination into reality.

46. What’s the color of your bedspread?

pink/purple.

47. What’s the color of your room?

white and pink. i want to paint it all white tho the pink is getting tiring for my eyes.

#feel free to do this ♡

[parachutingkitten]

Thoughts on the love square because I need to figure out why the flip isn't working for me:

So... we flipped. Which is cool and fun and all, but also I think that it happened in a way that misses the point, or at the very least some interesting potential.

The premise of this show is so good- and it has a clear resolution state. Each character thinks their in love with this idealized perfect version of their classmate, all while unknowingly rejecting that person's other identity. In order for these characters to get together, they first need to learn to love their other halves. And seemingly, that's what the square flip has done, but... idk. It's not playing for me. And maybe I know why? Idk.

My first assumption was that Chat and Mari were the more sincere versions of both these characters, where they have all their flaws and impulses on display, and so flipping the square would essentially prove that they'd fallen in love with all of each other. And while that might have been true at the beginning of the show, the relationships between these characters have deepened and complicated a lot, there’s not such a harsh split between the two personalities, and that statement just doesn't hold true anymore. So, no, it's not marrichat that'll solve the love square. As we've seen, it didn't really work out well, and I for one was very surprised at the dynamic it took on.

Idk, for me elation wasn't marichat, it was just a quick role reversal episode. It missed the whole appeal of marichat, at least for me. And I guess that's because the relationship I've always imagined marichat as, is like... healthy? Accidental? Real? The whole appeal was that they didn't have a crush on each other, so them falling in love that way was like, ironic. It requires that Mari and chat have a relationship that is established first and then developed into a romantic thing, not that they happen to have a crush on each other at the same time. And with that not being what we ended up with, it has recontextualized the problem for me.

The problem isn't that these different identities are getting in the way of their love like i previously assumed, it's that they don't actually love each other. Marinette likes Adrien in a celebrity high school crush capacity. Chat likes Ladybug in a hot girl at work capacity. These are not a solid basis for actual long term relationships. That's why marichat is appealing, because it's the only relationship between the two that's a blank slate, untouched by these obsessive crushes. But that's kinda a bust now. So... I'm not sure which side of the square I'm on. And the stragest part about this move is that it doesn't even really change much.

Marrinette is not only stupidly love struck around Chat now, but still clumsy around Adrien, and Adrien is a stupid soft boi around Mari still, he just blushes more. This isn't change or progression in their dynamic, it's just a shift of setting. The way these two develop crushes so quickly on new people is not healthy or nuanced. There's this deep sense of obsession that comes with them, and it's just not good. Not to mention it doesn't really makes sense. Adrien getting his mind out of 'she's just a friend' mode should take a little while. Marrinette's crush on chat should've been swamped with hesitancy for a long while before she comes to terms with it. These hyperfixating crushes are cute and all, but they're keeping our characters stuck at this surface level that prevents any real progression from happening.

It baffles me that Marinette rejecting her crush on Adrien doesn’t finally get us past her nervous train wreck energy when she's around him. Like maybe Adrien liking her would actually make sense if she was finally free of her crush, and so starting acting more natural and confident around him. Maybe it's now Adrien who is a scatter brained mess around her! That would actually be a fun dynamic reversal! It would be change! Progression! Reaction! How about have Adrien react to Mari having a crush on him for years? How about have ladybug react to chat finally having let go of his? How about have these characters feel like they actually know each other- because they do!

And hey, maybe that's the point the writers are going to make. These characters can't get together if they don't know each other's identities, because any way you slice it, they'd be dating half a person. Fine. But that doesn't mean them learning to like the different sides of this person separately shouldn't be framed as progress of some kind or another. The love should become more real the more sides of this person they learn to love, even in descreat parts, right?

This set up, by design, is a friends to lovers story. They think they're just friends, but it turns out they love each other. So why wouldn't you make it so that when they do fall in love, it progresses from friends to lovers- not that they happen to align their crushes with each other at the right moment, or maybe that their identities get revealed to each other, forcing them into it. Cuz really, those are the only options left at this point. Every set of romantic attractions has been explored, so we can't have their love evolve out of something that isn't an obsessive crush.

I just... I guess I was waiting for the relationship between these two to get more intimate in a platonic sense in order to allow for the actual romance to blossom. And I guess I'm still waiting...

#miraculous #mlb #miraculous ladybug #season 5 spoilers #elation spoilers #love square #parachuterants #I'm sure other people have said similar #but i had to get this out of my head #marichat

[rinisbowen]

i’ve seen some ppl theorizing val and ricky being a thing what do you think about that? honestly it doesn’t seem to make much sense to me and from the way meg and val has talked about val she seems like she’s just going to be helping everyone out this season? i guess gina is gonna be jealous of her but i don’t think she’s gonna have feelings for ej either idk

tbh anon, i think it could be a fun ship since she’s obviously going to bring some good perspective for ricky when the other shoe inevitably drops and he faces the fact that he cannot just ignore all his issues and just have a fun summer… and also bc meg and josh are such good friends i’m sure the characters will play off each other well.

but when i say it could be a fun ship i mean like- a fandom ship not a canon ship. (and shipping characters that don’t have canon feelings for each other just for fun is in fact valid, in case people are forgetting) val’s not here for ricky. she’s here for ej’s plotline primarily, given most of her scenes are with him. i highly doubt val and ricky will be even remotely implied to be romantically involved. the show could prove me wrong, but this is something i feel pretty darn confident about.

—

the main purpose of val is her involvement with ej, whatever that entails beyond giving a point of reference in terms of growing up and such. beyond ej, she’s for sure going to be using her like- psych major to be the friend who’s helping others around camp more than likely. val is going to have a solid plotline that meg thinks is very important with ashlyn as well… now THAT is something i’m incredibly curious about.

—

i honestly have no clue whether val’s going to crush on ej at all or not, but if ej and gina do break up this season, it won’t be because val got between them, that’s basically a promise. if she plays a part, it’ll be in how she opens ej’s eyes to the realities of the situation going forward. plus, as you say, even if gina’s jealous of their closeness, that doesn’t mean she has a romantic reason to be. someone who knows ej way better / way longer than she does may very well feel threatening to a girl with her first ever boyfriend who’s never bothered to make friends before.

#hsmtmts #hsmtmts season 3 #answered #anonymous #val hsmtmts #ship: ricky x val ( hsmtmts ) #hsmtmts: ej caswell

[gettin-bi-bi-bi]

I've been identifying as biromantic for like 2 or 3 months and I'm going to be honest, the label to me personally feels like it fits, but every now and then there a few times I doubt it.

I think the part that's messing with me is that I have a preference for guys, but I also have a preference for masc presenting people. (With some androgeny in there)

Another thing is, I've seen some other bi people say the ratio they like both genders (for example, 60/40, 70/30, 90/10 etc).

But I really don't know what my "ratio" is. My best guess is probably 80/20?

Idk, again I feel it fits, but to be honest sometimes I fear that 1) I'm not actually bi (doubting), and 2) the recent crush I had on a girl that led to me realizing I'm bi will be the only girl I'm attracted to.

Idk, do you have any advice or tips?

I've also bought some books with bi characters I plan on reading them and immersing myself with bi-ness.

Anon you don't have to have a 'ratio' to be bi. Bi people can experience attraction in lots of different ways and that can include some having gender preferences or being much more/more often attracted to one gender than others while some are attracted to all genders more or less equally and for some gender doesn't even really figure in things at all. All of those are still bi. If you're attracted to more than one gender or feel you have the potential to be attracted to more than one gender and you like the bi label then you're bi.

(And personally I don't remember ever seeing any bi person actually state their attraction in such a way, actually putting it down in figures like that, even those that do have a gender preference. It probably works for some people but it's not going to suit everyone. And also the ratio thing usually fails to take account of the fact that there aren't just 2 genders and a lot of bi people are attracted to more than 2 genders. It's a flawed concept that really isn't suited to being applied to every bi person.)

From a lot of the asks I've seen on here I think your experience of doubting yourself is really not that uncommon. Maybe try reading through some of the other posts on here and perhaps that will help you a bit, just to know that you aren't alone in feeling the way you do and that lots of bi people do go through this doubt and uncertainty. I think that when there is a lot of biphobia around in general, it can be easy unfortunately to internalise that and start questioning your own identity even when you actually already know what you are. I think immersing yourself more in bi culture (and that can include reading the books with bi characters) is a good idea.

Also if you've experienced a crush on a girl and that's led to you calling yourself bi you probably have the potential for that to happen again but even if it doesn't, even if at some point you decide actually that was a one off thing and you're not bi after all, that's OK; some people do change. Some people find other terms that fit them better, some people's attraction itself changes and it's fine to change your mind about your identity labels and it's fine to realise that 'I was this before but now I'm not any more'. What happens in the future though is the future. You've said more than once that you feel biromantic fits you now so that, what you feel now, is what matters now.

Tiger

[m-i91]

I’ve heard writing things down and getting you’re thoughts out on paper is very good for you a bunch over the years and have never actually tried it. I’m pretty sure nobody I know and follow uses this anymore so I guess I’ll do it here seeing as my laptop apparently doesn't have Microsoft word anymore. It’s hard for me to start this off,I’ve never been one for sharing whats inside of me with anybody really. I type that but I was probably way better at it earlier in life. Thats  probably fairly common tho in this world, grow up and start getting the shit kicked outta you cus this world is so fucking brutal and start getting stomped on by people over and over and naturally we all would start keeping things inside ourselves more. Enough on the craziness that i cant change tho. laughing while writing this because it feels a bit ridiculous but I bet it'll actually be helpful think this is basically the same as therapy and i fucking hate talking to people. The past probably ten months have been extremely fucking trying and I'm not going on like this much longer. I met somebody that i really liked and naturally i did what i always do, i fell way too quickly and went too hard once again for somebody who was repeatedly telling me she wasn't looking for anything serious. I know i know, she told you that and you didn't listen so too bad so sad. i know, its just how I'm wired. I've basically never not been alone in my life. I've had a very small friend group my whole life and idk i probably have a few that would say they consider me a good friend but i feel like theres only a couple people out there that would even notice if i was gone. I know everybody says shit like that and I've been saying it to myself since the second grade, it is what it is. growing up with barely any friends over the years and constantly getting picked on, it gets old. I grew up having absolutely zero confidence. i was the kid in school who ran between classes cus i didn't want to run into the wrong people and i wanted the day to get over as fast as possible. i got to senior year of high school and had never kissed a girl and plenty of people knew and teased me about it. That definitely bugged me but like not much cus i knew i had literally no confidence anyway, like i couldn't even have an actual conversation with an adult and look them in the face. Honestly senior year of high school was like my first time hanging out with anybody in my class outside of my small friend group over the years and i wanted to shoot myself in every one of those social situations. it sucked and i just wasn't cut out for that, if i wasn't smoking and drinking a bit at the time things would have been even darker. i survived high school barely, made a couple new friends and lost some at the end. the new ones all ended up being temporary but anybody thats ever come into my life that didn't leave it on bad terms ill always have love for. my time at 4cs, looking back on it was fucking awful. i have a couple fun memories with my buddys but they mostly involve taking bong rips in the parking lot before class, not very responsible but i was so unhappy. i cant even remember if i was there for one year or two at this point, all i know is my dad told me halfway through a semester that me living at home wasn't working any longer and to pick a state school and get in and he'd send me. the 4cs days were the first time i ever really got my heart crushed. it got badly tattered in 8th grade when i told a girl id been friends with for a long time that i liked her and she said ill talk to you tomorrow and then i went to school the next day and shed told all her friends and i never heard from her again, just got laughed at  the entire day, especially that extra special mrs simpson math class. i moved on from that and did my own thing for a long time. somebody at 4cs showed some interest in me and she was beautiful so naturally i did what i do and went way too hard way too quick and she naturally ran. that one stung. again did a few months by myself and tried to work on me. ended up meeting somebody a few months later and hit it off at first but that relationship turned toxic and i made myself stay way longer than i should have. i was alone for a long time after that and had some very dark days, very down on myself. i moved in with some new ex friends at i believe 15 westwind road and i believe those were the days where i started basically falling in love with anything female with a beating heart that showed any slight interest in me. i was seriously fucking struggling and me not dealing with my pain properly caused me to hurt some people that i really cared about and do some really stupid shit in a small period of time. after a bad ending at westwind i had another year where i really tried to focus on me and work on myself but i was definitely still fucking up and making bad decisions. my second year on comme ave was better and i was making some progress. the beginning of covid hit and i got pretty down, seriously dark days then too. i met E jeez i don't even know, sometime in the winter in the beginning of covid. we talked for a long time before we ever actually met. we talked about going on a hike at one point but me not currently having a car ended up being a deal breaker on that and that sucked but we talked for another few months and things were still going well and at one point we ended up deciding we’d meet for a red sox double date with one of her friends and one of mine. its sad how bad my memory of this is when it wasn't even long ago but i guess thats what happens in these situations. probably plenty of stuff I'm trying to suppress combined with a lifetimes worth of weed and booze since but that doesn't help. after that first date i feel like we were inseparable. she had emphasized at the very beginning that she wasn't looking for anything serious but when you spend that much time with somebody and build memories like that and speak with them every second, when they become your best friend you forget that conversation that they aren't looking for anything serious. And remember this, if they tell you that theres a reason. Even if you think there isn't, that is almost always code for (......with you). i mean we spent like fifteen months spending tons of time together and speaking every day and she goes back to school and two weeks or so after id seen her last she asks if she can call me and tells me theres somebody else at her school and thats it and she's posting pictures with said person by the end of the week. Should i not be upset? So theres that, and while all that was going on we have this. I had this friend, we’ll call her G. we’d matched and talked for awhile years ago but i was going through a really tough time and she came on a little strong and i think i essentially told her to leave me alone. Not a great look on my part and i wouldnt have been surprised if i never heard form her again. i never forgot about this girl and years went by, covid starts and id been working on myself for over a year and was feeling good and wanted to meet some new people. i matched with G again the day after matching with E and naturally we started talking again and probably a bit more than i was talking with E since we already knew each other. I was super busy and talked to a bunch of people for a little while, just making friends but not actually meeting anybody. I met E and we had a lot of fun together but when she left for school she stopped talking to me and i figured there was somebody else that she met at school. it sucked but it is what it is. Me and g started to grow closer and she shared with me some very personal things. i felt very close to this girl, i still do. I thought i was in love with e and if what i feel for g isn't love then idk what it is.. I'm sure itll take a few more months alone to actually know. G had divulged to me that she probably cant have children to me at one point and i felt horrible for her because she loves kids and shed be a great mom. e came home from school and we spent a few great months together and i decided i was getting a little too close with e (probably shoulda reminded myself about the IM NOT LOOKING FOR ANYTHING SERIOUS deal but hey I'm  not a couple douche, or so i like to think) and i told g things are getting serious with this girl I'm friends with and i just wanted to be up front with you about it. in the back of my mind the kids thing was probably in my mind a bit which I'm a fucking idiot for, I'm way too young anyway and looking back on it this girl was probably my soulmate and i blew it, you find a person like that and you decide you want kids, adopt a fucking kid and give them a good home. I'm so not stable enough yet anyway to be handling the funds required to raise a little one but i just feel like id be a good dad. so she told me to delete her off everything naturally and we essentially haven't talked since. e told me there was somebody else in february and in may i was going to texas alone and hurting real bad and a girl got on my flight who looked just like g and i was shellshocked. this girl sits down in the aisle in front of me on the right and i stared at the back of her seat the entire flight and couldn't help it. I sent her a message like i know you don't want to hear from me but i have to ask that wasnt you right and she replied with essentially a don't talk to me and here i am(shrug emoji). were sitting here july 7th, i just walked outta a dentist appointment to have my wisdom teeth removed cus these guys weren't gunna put me under just sedate me and sorry but I'm not iron man. they basically called me a pussy and i walked off. I'm fucking lost. this world doesn't make sense to me and I'm fucking sick of being a part of it. my life along with this world cant continue on the way things are going. i don't get how mass shootings and hundreds if not thousands of unnecessary deaths on this earth happen every day. were all fucked if the world continues this way but i won't be a part of it much longer anyway if things continue the way they've been going for me. I'm going to make some serious changes and adjust, i had a heart to heart with my dad not long ago and it broke my heart to hear it but he basically told me alright dude if you think nobody in this world likes you then maybe its time to change who you are. it made the tears come even harder at the time but maybe he was right. I think thats all i got for today. i hope nobody actually reads this. until next time

#don't read this

[detransraichu]

1, 4, 11, 21, and 23 for the ask game

1. are you beating the uhaul allegations? (be honest.)

i have NARROWLY avoided it thus far 🤞🤞

4. who is/was your most intense sapphic crush?

hmmm there's several tbh! my older frenemy in middleschool (didn't realize it was a crush til i was older, i was like why am i so annoyed but obsessed with her she did nothing wrong????), my recent transmasc ex 🤢 who was my first irl dating experience for 5 yrs... so freaking glad it's over, it was such mistake!! turns out it was unrequited all along too ugh. thankfully i've mostly moved on. then my wild crazy winter fling, which ended on bad terms... and my very recent minor heartbreak over this dating app girl who took me on the best date ever BUT ISN'T INTO ME GRRRR... still in the "what did i do wrong?? am i ugly??? can i change?? will anyone ever want me?" phase of processing that lmao. i only do dating apps and we rarely make it past the first date or two, it's really hard to find someone with the right vibes. i try not to crush on ppl too early on either until they show me they're genuinely into me and don't have any red flags bc i'm tired of being let down, i need to be more careful w my heart ugh

11. what are some good sapphic songs/music artists?

music is super personal so idk if you'll like my tastes but CHAPPELL ROAN!!! absolute bi icon. also beatrice eli (her song girls is iconic), tegan and sara, kera & the lesbians... the xx has a lesbian lead but their songs aren't really abt gay stuff, it's just nice to know cuz it was my comfort band :')

21. are you generally "out" to people?

everybody in my life knows, and i would tell everybody i meet if it came up! i'm excited to be a visibly lesbian with a gf. those who were jerks abt it or toxic/abusive got kicked out of my life <3

23. do you like being referred to with masculine adjectives, feminine adjectives, both, or neither?

both honestly!! i loooove being seen as handsome and a pretty (tom)boy, i've always wanted to be a pretty prince who's actually a girl. i both love and hate being seen as cute :'3 i guess in a tsundere kinda way though lmao. and i do like being called beautiful by a woman while being masc... or trying to be, i'm still veryyy much a baby butch haha;; still learning that i'm allowed to be gnc. but yeah i don't mind being seen as beautiful either! it can be flattering, it just needs to be said by the right person y'know? otherwise i'm like DAMMIT am i rly that gender conforming?! i need to get butcher!!!

#asks #lay text #thank u for these asks they're always so fun!!!!

[alyjojo]

Love Reading 💖 - March 2024 - Virgo

Singles:

Who is Coming In: Ace of Cups & 9 Pentacles

Regarding: 10 Pentacles

Long-Term Potential: 7 Wands, Knight of Wands & Death

You have a one night stand or a hookup coming in, could be someone you work with or even someone you meet through a dating app of some kind. Like they’re fresh on the market when you get to them, or you are. Could work together. The Tower came out in the preshuffle like you didn’t/won’t even know this person likes you. They could come on strong or be kinda cringy, full of ego and idk they think they’re God’s gift to humanity or something. They poop glitter ✨ It could turn you off big time but then…maybe. One night. Long term, King of Wands rev is a total fboy/girl and that’s exactly what they’re gonna do, run off with someone else, probably a karmic. This person deserves them and just leave it at that. Some of them may irritate you, because it’s like they can fk around on you and never get a clue, but for someone else they’re great. Awesome. You could know this other person, or know of them, a mutual acquaintance? Some of them may be with someone, you get with them in a fight or a heated breakup, and they go back home & have a nice life ✌️ If that’s the case, I assume you didn’t even know, again this could be a dating app or something. They *said* single. Could be a good time, more likely to piss you off and leave you feeling bitter later though.

Messages:

- I can’t STAY

- I love to surprise you 😯

SEDUCTION 💋

- Attraction & Teasing

- Hooking Up & Date

- Third-Party

- Temptation

“Get your quick fix.”

Signs you may be dealing with:

Libra, Leo, Sagittarius, Virgo & Gemini

Couples:

Them: 5 Cups rev, 4 Swords rev, Queen of Swords

Regarding: The Sun

Going by your side, I’m going to guess you don’t want to hear this, so I’ll keep it short. Your person is very intelligent and grounded, they’re logical more than romantic, and they feel like they know the truth they need to know about this relationship or situation. If you cheated (possible), they’re done. If they cheated, they know why you’re done. 5 Cups rev shows it did hurt, there was a lot of sadness and regret, and it’s probably been awhile because it’s healed now. Two cards of healing, this person isn’t sad about anything anymore, they don’t have regrets anymore, and that’s because they’re happy. The Sun. They could feel like the situation between you brought a lot of things to light for them, they’re staying grounded and stable, doing the most logical thing - that’s who they are. Queen of Swords, can be an air sign or just an ex, there are a lot of Swords in your reading. If they’re not in another relationship, they’re definitely dating again. Or at least entertaining the idea in their head, maybe just talking to someone. Moving forward is the goal.

Messages:

- Honest!

- My money is my life 💰

GROUNDING 🪨

- Stability & Security

- Performance

- Growth & Endurance

“Namaste Bitches! 🕯️”

You: 3 Swords, 3 Cups, 9 Cups

Regarding: 8 Swords

Well, you’re lying. Your Oracle shows you’re fine, perfectly fine, not a care in the world, do you boo-boo. Your actual feelings are crushing heartbreak, and you sabotage yourself by keeping that quiet, maybe you’ve blocked this person, they have no idea how you feel. If they’re the ones that ended it, you’re not giving them the satisfaction…they’re smug enough in your opinion. You are hurt by the things they celebrate, who they’re hanging out with, whatever they do that they want to do somehow hurts you…could be going out a lot, socializing, something with friends. You could feel left out or not very important to them. Or you could just not want to do these things, so you separate yourself…but you’re sad that they’re doing it anyway? Or you’re shocked that this person gets what they want, and you don’t. Or what they want wasn’t you. You only, for some. You didn’t expect for things to go how they went, and you’re deeply upset that this person is just “over it”. Once I got the messages out, you love this person. I don’t get any emotions from them, not good not bad, just logical and “it is what it is”, they’ve healed from sadness, maybe even illness, and moving forward. If someone has a drinking/substance problem, it’s a big deal, it really irritates the other person and they can’t deal with that.

Messages:

- It’s ALWAYS been you.

- In every lifetime, I always come back to you.

SHOCK ⚡️

- Sudden Change

- Shocking News

- Surprise & Epiphany

- Transformation

“Behold! The field in which I grow my fucks. Lay thine eyes upon it and see that it is BARREN!”

Mutual: Temperance, 6 Swords rev, Ace of Swords

Regarding: Knight of Pentacles

It’s still probably not over. I don’t know if either of you really want it to be over, but you feel one way about how things should be, they have their way of thinking and feeling, and unless a bridge can be built between you then what’s the point? Temperance can be building that bridge, if you both really want it. Knight of Pentacles and Temperance both show taking your time, a lot of time, going slow. Practical effort, doing favors for each other or being helpful, showing up, it’s proving that you care. Acts of Service. Virgo energy 💯 There will be a conversation, or you both want to talk. Could you two come back around, sure. It’s going to take work though, and Ascending shows you both ready and willing to do that. Once a situation becomes “the past”, there are still things that need addressing that have been ignored - 2 Swords - and whatever comes of that determines how to continue. Take it slow, they want the same thing you want though, whether it’s reconnection or just a conversation, you two both show up as intellectual swords-like 🗡️ energies more than heavy emotional ones. It’s good for sorting out issues and finding solutions, not so great when it comes to love & feeling things, if either one of you even do…not all of you/them do.

ASCENDING 🎈

- Learning & Expansion

- Transcending

- Preparing for Union

- New Phase

“Keep calm and fucking breathe.”

Signs you may be dealing with:

Heavy Libra, Cancer, Gemini & Scorpio

#Virgo #love tarot reading #march 2024 #singles #couples #love #tarot #tarotblr

[fuglyjeans]

1-35 faggot

Yay ❤️thanks fag ❤️

1. are you beating the uhaul allegations?

I moved across the country to live with my gf after 2 years long distance. So, kinda? We only visited each other I think 6 times before the move. Idk if that's fast or not

2. Do you identify as butch, femme, masc, and/or gnc?

I've been considering the label femme. I find a lot of joy through playing with makeup and fashion, and my style is very girly.

3. How did you realize you were Sapphic?

When I was a teen I always in the back of my head kind of thought yeah I'd do a girl. But that's cause of my sin nature! Then during college I fell in love with my best friend(thats u 42069gay), lost my faith... then tried to date some men but every interaction made me want to rip my eyeballs out. I started to ID as a lesbian after a date with this guy that went really well, but I just felt so uncomfortable thinking about becoming his girlfriend. We hugged goodbye and I felt so scared of the idea of him kissing me. I cried all the way home on the train... and that's when I knew in my bones. i was lesbo

4. Who is/was your most intense Sapphic crush?

My gf! :3

5. Do you consider yourself a dyke?

Umm ig that depends how you mean it, I'm not sure if that's a label I'm allowed to use tbh. I'm a lesbian. I'm not masc, but I rise and put my right hand over my heart when anyone mentions dykes supporting fags.

6. Are you good at picking up when people are flirting with you, or do you tend to be more oblivious?

I can definitely tell, but my anxiety causes me to second-guess it.

7. Have you ever crushed on a straight girl?

There was this girl I went to church with during my college years, who started making out with me whenever we got drunk. (That shit kind of hurt 😕)

8. What's your relationship status? Are you happy about it?

I'm in a long-term relationship 💕 Our 4 year anniversary is next week, and I'm very happy.

9. Do you have a "type"? If so, what is it?

I've always been most attracted to women who are very feminine, but have some kind of odd or punk edge. women with bangs energy I guess. Brittany Murphy, Bjork, Lady Gaga, SZA, Kathleen Hanna. etc

10. Did you do anything gay as a kid that makes sense when you look back on your childhood?

There was this time in middle school when I was sleeping over at my friend's house. we were lying side-by-side in her bed, tracing circles on each other's backs and I got super turned on. She kind of prepositioned me in a joking way and I flipped out, but for years afterwards I wished I had reacted differently and fantasized about how that night could have gone. I have no idea how I didn't realize this was very gay

11. What are some good Sapphic songs/music artists?

Chappell Roan is my fave. Bikini Kill, Lady Gaga and Hayley Kiyoko r also very special to me. Also check out suspected lesbian Connie Converse she's so cool. Here's 3 random wlw songs I love too: -> Kissing Lessons by Lucy Dacus -> Don't Try Suicide by Team Dresch -> Pynk by Janelle Monae

12. Good Sapphic books/poems/authors?

I'm the worst for this bc I don't read enough :( but: -> The Color Purple by Alice Walker ->The Well of Loneliness by Radclyffe Hall ->My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness by Kabi Nagata

13. Good Sapphic movies/shows?

-> Revolutionary Girl Utena -> Portrait of a Lady On Fire -> But I'm a Cheerleader -> Heavenly Creatures -> Jennifer's Body -> Steven Universe sorryyy

14. List five things you look for in a partner or five things you love about your current partner.

1. Her honesty. Our biggest strength is communication 2. Her creativity and excellent taste in all kinds of art. She reminds me not to worry about the things I can't control!! Which I really need. Repeatedly 3. She doesn't believe in cringe; she's the most non-judgemental person I know. 4. When we get delusional and insane over the same character 🫶💕

15. Are you the gay cousin?

Yes lmao and the gay sister and the gay aunt.

16. Do you consider being Sapphic a big part of your identity?

Yes very much so!

17. How many people have you dated? Talk about them if you want!

Like 2. I have really bad social anxiety and was a totally weird late bloomer. I went on a few different dates but only *dated* one person before I met my s/o. It was super awkward, she was sweet but we were both very inexperienced and shy and I guess there just wasn't enough chemistry. we kind of hung out for 6 months, never kissed or made anything official, then I moved out of state and we ghosted each other... v awkward time but I do have some fun memories

18. Thoughts on e-dating or long distance? Have you ever done it? How did it go?

I totally support it. I think anonymity is what some of us need to allow ourselves to be vulnerable... I met my partner on tumblr, it was the only place I felt safe being my whole cringey self at the time. I always used to think it was weird to date someone you've never met, but once I found her I said what the hell, I have nothing to lose. Luckily it went well!! It's unconventional, but so is everything about my life.

19. describe your fashion sense. do you "dress gayly"?

I would say no, most people assume I'm straight. I have a somewhat basic wardrobe... My fashion sense is much campier and more colorful than my wallet allows.

20. do you consider yourself to be a good kisser?

I have no idea. I try my best

21. are you generally "out" to people?

Most of the time I try to be. I'm not out at work, because the vibe there is rather conservative (like, Bible tracts on the wall) so I don't feel safe just telling anyone.

22. how do you feel about valentine's day?

I like it a lot more, now that I'm no longer an adult virgin :)

23. do you like being referred to with masculine adjectives, feminine adjectives, both, or neither?

She/her I'm very cis

24. thoughts on marriage?

I like the idea of having a ceremony, but I don't know if I'd want to be legally married. I would need to read up on the ramifications of that a bit more.

25. have you ever gone to a pride parade?

yes! I marched in my hometown once, and I went to Boston Pride in 2019. I haven't been to any since but I mean to

26. do you read yuri manga?

nope

27. do you fit any sapphic stereotypes / other stereotypes related to your identity?

I have short fingernails and too many cats

28. what's a canon sapphic ship you enjoy?

Petra Solano x Jane Ramos, from Jane The Virgin. It wasn't the best written imo, BUT I'm just a huge Petra fan, and I was so happy to see her find gay love.

29. how about a non-canon sapphic ship?

Hinata Hyuga x Sakura Haruno from Naruto. I will die on this hill. They would be so soft and encouraging for each other. I used to be so fucking invested in this, it was all I would ever draw in my sketchbooks

30. who's your favorite sapphic character?

Anthy Himemiya. She's just. a kaleidoscope of trauma and love and bitterness. also, this isn't canon but I truly truly see Bev Keane from Midnight Mass as a lesbian. She just reminds me too much of myself when I was younger and I feel for her and I love her lots

31. LEAST favorite sapphic character?

Molly Bolt from Rubyfruit Jungle. I guess she's not that bad, but I just fucking hated this book

32. tell a funny story about something really gay you've done.

convinced myself I was in a queerplatonic relationship so that I wouldn't have to confront the fact I wasn't straight

33. do you get crushes/fall in love easily?

not really, I've only had a small handful of those experiences

34. who's a sapphic person you look up to? they can be someone in your life, a historical figure, a celebrity, etc!

Lady Gaga. She's so smart and so weird and so HERSELF. even when I disagree with something she does/says, I appreciate her sincerity and her gumption.

35. if you could tell your younger sapphic self anything, what would it be?

Girl you are allowed to trust your gut. Your feelings are holy, don't hold yourself hostage. If there is a God, and if he really is loving, he wouldn't want that for you.

#personal #THIS TOOK FOREVER loved it tho <3