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konveeart · 4 months
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I thought last year I made the Art Summary post in January but I played myself. Anyways, Happy New Year!
I figured in early 2023 that I have a difficulty differentiating "want" with "have to". It's a real piece of tangle that became alarmingly obvious in the last months, between end-September to spectacularly turn into an aggressively-flashing-sign in December. I found more balance than I ever have to this date in the first half and by losing it in the second I can confirm what made it work, which is a big win. I am entering 2024 determined, carrying my worries and feeling nervous, but I don't feel desperate. At least, not in art..! For the future.. the pov might heavily rely on my dopamine levels and Vitamin D deficiency.
I drew a lot this year! The difference between sketching and drawing/painting grows in my folders but I've consistently for 2 years kept a "warmup" folder which also grows with a satisfactory level of diligence and fun. I taught myself to draw decent hands (still struggling when they are closed or.. doing more things than fingers being spread-out to show "I am a hand"). I also did a lot of new things!
::Quick Summary
January: launched an enamel pin ks campaign || February: drew a lot of アキ天, zine work & made my first home-made sticker-sheets🍓|| March & April: chibi-style exploration, SK8 sticker-sheets, sketchbook challenge and campaigned another special-merch collaborative project (」*´∇`)」 || May: Convention time! ..and final zine work for the year ( ̄▽ ̄)ゞ || June & July: busy with the ks & packing orders || August: r e s t ♥ (with the best beans! I miss you all!!) || September: revisions, file-sorting, wrap-up commissions, picking up my projects again || October: online-shop run, comic-drafting, life gets busy || November: life is on fire, paperwork, learning to study (and succeeding) but getting tired, trying my best to keep on drawing!! || December: burnout caught up, Christmas cards give me life (*˘︶˘*).。.:*♡, escaped to the mountains, pet a lot of cats
Thank you for an adventurous year 🌱 Wishing everyone all the best for the coming one ♥
Fun facts:
I've done a decent amount of work for myself and I plan on doing more! I keep having the difficulty of working out some boundaries for myself but it's improving.
This is not a resolution but if by the end of the year I have not sorted out my files, that's it I'm deleting them...! (bold statement)
Feb-Mar-April I discovered The Pudding Club and GOON and their music gave me so much energy! This is one of my favorite songs and makes me do a little dance every time I hear it~
What steadily led me to burn-out by December was denying myself wind-down time, daily, for four months (if not more). I remember feeling anxious in Jan - April for making so much work and still going. "Can it really be this good? Is this normal??". But the seedling sprouted and I took good care of it, despite my worries. I intend to keep taking care of it with more diligence. Sleep and food are necessities, and so is play.
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heibon-hiroo · 2 years
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Don't mind me, just a small collection I felt like posting
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airbenderedacted · 2 years
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Genuine question- why don’t you just delete Twitter? :0
as of two(?) years ago or smthn i'd officially blocked and befriended enough people on there for me to REALLY ENJOY being on twitter
SO LIKE being locked out is  like this hjdnmnbghsHJDNBNds
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sdr2lovemail · 10 months
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Can you do a Sanemi x F reader where the reader gets hurt badly on a mission and passes out Infront of the butterfly estate and Sanemi encounters them on his way out from the butterfly mansion to a Mission. I think Sanemi would be angry and worried at first but slowly calm down once they get better. Happy ending? Anyways thank you if you do happen to do this!! <3
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Emotional scars (GN Reader)
Synopsis: Finding you wounded and unconscious in front of the butterfly mansion, Sanemi blows up at you.
Note: Eeee, I gotta practice the comfort part of hurt/comfort. It's more of a bittersweet ending than a happy one. Pronouns or gendered terms don't come up in this.
Requests are open!
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Using your sword as a makeshift crutch, you hobble through the forest. Not bothering to wait for the kakushi to arrive, you were sure you could make it to the butterfly mansion. The mission was grueling. It seemed that the demon had never-ending stamina. It even managed to get a good slash on your side. You tied your haori to try and staunch the wound. Though, there was still the feeling of the warm, sticky blood dripping down.
Breaking through the woods, the gates of the butterfly mansion are in view. With dizzy, uncoordinated steps, you get closer to getting some rest. Your head felt foggy. You weren’t sure which way you were walking anymore. 
When did you collapse? Your cheek is against the cool stones of the courtyard. It felt strangely comfortable. You’ll rest your eyes, only for a moment. Your body goes limp as you drift off into unconsciousness.
Inside the butterfly mansion, a stubborn wind hashira stomps along. “For the last time, Kocho, I’m not spending the night here. I’m fine.” 
“You have three broken ribs, Shinazugawa. I wouldn’t call that fine. You should stay here through the night and let us look after you.” Shinobu followed Sanemi, her usual smile gracing her lips. “We wouldn’t want your injury to get any worse.”
He stopped before the door and turned to face her; he could feel himself getting stressed. Tired after an extended mission, he wished to go home and sleep, not stick around Shinobu’s estate. “I’m not some low-ranking slayer. It’s not like I’ll curl up and die because of some broken ribs. I’m leaving.”
As Sanemi opened the door and walked into the courtyard, he realized he almost stepped on something. With his brain foggy with sleep, and the dark blanket of the night, it took him a moment to see what it was. His eyes widened. “What the hell?!”
Your head ached when you came to. The wooden ceiling of the butterfly mansion greets you. Slowly, sitting up and looking around the room; no one was occupying the other beds. Your body burned and ached at the slightest movement.  For a moment, you thought you were completely alone. That was until you could hear a familiar snore.
Resting on a chair next to the bed was Sanemi. He had his head resting on his arms against the bed. Contrasting his permanent scowl when he was awake, he looked so peaceful. The crease in his brow was gone, and his shoulders were relaxed. It was nice to see him like this. 
Gently, you set a hand atop his unruly hair. His eyes shot open the second your palm met his scalp. Wide, bloodshot eyes flicked up to meet yours. Sanemi practically leapt out of the chair. It was silent; the only noise was birds chirping outside. His expression was unreadable as his stare bore into you.
With a weak smile, you break the deafening silence. “Nemi, I’m so happy to see you.” Your voice was a strained whisper. Your throat itched and burned as you talked. “I was planning to visit you after my mission, and well…”. 
A cup of water was thrust in your direction, a scarred hand connected to it. “Drink.” Came the simple word of Sanemi’s rough yet gentle voice.
Taking the cup, you give him a grateful nod before gulping it down. The cool liquid helps soothe your aching throat. “Thank you.” He takes the cup and sets it on the nightstand. Sanemi shifts so his body can fully face you. 
“Quit the corps.” 
It was such a cold, blunt sentence. Any hint of warmth in Sanemi’s voice was gone. His face held no expression now. There’s a faint twitch in his hand.
“Huh, why are you saying that so suddenly?” You asked, confused by his demand. Once you started dating, Sanemi would ask if you had any plans for your future, if you ever wanted to do something besides hunting. But never had he been this forward about leaving the corps.
Sanemi’s face goes through a few different emotions before settling on anger. He takes a couple steps closer to the bed, a scowl on his face. “Didn’t you hear me?! I said quit! Quit the corps; quit being a demon slayer!” He growled, his eyes intense. His heart was beating so fast it felt like it would burst.
You felt shaken. Sanemi’s temper was never toward you. To see it happen now felt like a punch to the gut. Especially with your head throbbing in pain. “I should quit just because I got hurt? We’re slayers. It's practically a part of the job.” 
“Well, this job isn’t for you! You were lying half-dead on Kocho’s doorstep! Might as well quit while you still have your life!” Sanemi shouted. His voice filled with anger and something more pained.
Feeling annoyed and hurt, you yelled back. “I just woke up, and the first thing you wanna do is chastise me? You’ve come home hurt many times, Sanemi. I’ve never told you to quit!’
“This is different. I’m a hashira. I’ve faced demons ten times stronger than any pathetic thing you’ve managed to kill. You’re weak, and those who are weak die! It’s amazing you got passed final selection at all!”
The room suddenly fell silent. Sanemi’s heavy breathing was the only thing filling the air. His face was red with rage. He stares down at you, and you suddenly feel small. He wasn’t a hashira for no reason. Seeing him tower over you like this was intimidating.
After a long, tense moment of silence, Sanemi speaks once more. “Leave the fucking corps.” Those were the last words before he stomped out of the room, slamming the door on his way out. 
You didn’t see him around for days. Not once had he come around to apologize or even visit. Sanemi had purposely been avoiding coming by the butterfly mansion. He would have one of the kakushi treat him or just walk back to his estate after a mission. He felt terrible about how he treated you, but it was necessary. To protect you, he had to be cruel.
Though, as time passed, he just kept feeling worse. He had to yell at you so you would quit the corps. He had to treat you like he did with Genya. But did that even work? His brother still became a demon slayer, even going as far as eating demons. This aching feeling was gnawing at him. You were just as stupidly stubborn. You wouldn’t leave the corps just because he treated you like crap.
It had been a while since that argument had taken place. Your wounds were healing nicely, and you would be back to going on missions soon. Shinobu had stopped by for a check-up. She began to chat as she changed your bandages.
“You know, Shinaguzawa was about to burst a vein when he found you outside my estate.” She chuckled.
You huffed and rolled your eyes, still upset with your partner. “I’m sure he was.”
“He was yelling so loud. I was sure he would wake my other patients.”
The night Sanemi found you, he felt many things. While mostly anger, it was also grief and fear. He kneeled over your crumpled form, taking you in his arms. It was like there was a loud ringing in his ears. He could only feel warm blood soaking through your uniform, staining his own. 
Shinobu was only a few steps behind him and quickly took in the sight. She ushered him to bring you into the estate. It was hard to separate him from your body. He was holding on so tightly. At first, Shinobu let him stay in the room as she worked. But as he kept barking at her to hurry up, to make you stop hurting, she kicked him out of the room. He sat by that door for hours, not bothering to change out of his blood-soaked clothes. He rushed into the room as soon as Shinobu finished patching your wounds.
The insect hashira left, allowing Sanemi his privacy. He sat by your unconscious body, Holding your hand tight and feeling your weak pulse.
“Why, why are you trying to leave me too? Why does this always happen to me?!” Through his anger and grief, a few tears spilled from his wide eyes. He needed to protect you. One of the last people he had left. No matter what it took or what he had to do. Sanemi couldn’t keep losing the ones he loved.
You were out for days, having lost so much blood. Sanemi stayed by your side whenever he could, only ever leaving for missions or meetings.
“Hm, you're healing well. Your ribs only have slight bruising now, and your concussion is gone. Once you finish your rehabilitation training, I’ll discharge you.” Shinobu spoke with her usual light tone as she wrote a few notes down.
Buttoning your shirt back up, you give her a polite smile. “Thank you, Kocho. You’ll have to let me pay you back one day.” 
“Oh, no need! Healing is just what I do.” As she spoke, her eyes gained a mischievous glint. Her dainty form takes a seat on your bed. She leans in close with a smirk. “But if you're offering, how about you pay me back with some gossip?” 
You look at her with a bit of suspicion. “What kind of gossip?”
Shinobu chuckled a little, placing a hand on your shoulder. “Come on, don’t play dumb. That argument wasn’t exactly quiet. I’m sure I can help. I’m a great listener.”
You let out a disgruntled sigh, looking at the hashira next to you. “I mean, why ask if you already heard everything?” Shaking your head, you decide to feed Shinobu’s curiosity. “It's just, Sanemi got so mad at me. I finally wake up after days, and the first thing he does is berate me.” You rant. It felt good to be able to talk about this.
“Well, Shinaguzawa does have the emotional intelligence of a brick. That doesn’t excuse his actions, but it does explain them. So, do you plan on forgiving him?” Shinobu asked, wondering how you’d answer.
That question was harder to answer the longer you thought about it. You wanted to forgive Sanemi, but what he said was hurtful. Even if he wanted to protect you, could you forgive him for saying those things? 
“I don’t know. Part of me wants to, but I still feel so hurt.” A pang of sadness shot through your chest. 
Shinobu looks at you with a look of sympathy. Setting a gentle hand on your shoulder, she stands up. “I’m sure he’ll come around eventually. Even if he won’t admit it, he’s pretty soft towards you.” She chuckled.
A few days passed, and you had fully recovered. Tonight would be your last night in the butterfly mansion. Packing your things, the door to your room slides open. Turning around, Sanemi stood in the doorframe. In his scarred hands was a parcel wrapped with twine. He looked as if he were nervous.
And truthfully, he was. He could fight waves of demons and not break a sweat. But emotions were a whole other ballpark for him. There’s a long, awkward silence as he stands there. He clears his throat a bit before speaking. “Can I come in?” 
You reply with a silent nod. Sanemi moved to take a seat on the bed. You sit next to him, though a bit far away. For a moment, it’s like he hesitates before offering you the parcel. “This is for you.” He said quite bluntly. “I know it looks like shit. You don’t have to eat it if you don’t want to.”
Taking the parcel and unwrapping it, it was filled with food. Fried meat and vegetables topped over a bed of rice. On the side, there was also a few ohagi. The knife cuts were sloppy, and the ohagi was misshapen. The food was clearly homemade. 
Before you could say anything, not even a thank you, Sanemi began to speak again. ‘I want to…apologize. I know crappy lunch and words won’t fix anything I said. Seeing you hurt made me lose my shit, but I shouldn’t have taken it out on you.” 
“Sanemi, I-”
“Let me finish.” He almost snapped but looked apologetic afterward. “I need to work on my emotions rather than resorting to anger. It’s immature of me. But seeing you on the ground, looking like a corpse,” Sanemi stopped talking for a second, trying to bite back the rage bubbling up. “I want you to have a good life. No bleeding out, no fighting, no demons. But, being a slayer is your life. I can’t just tell you to drop everything you know because I don’t like it.”  
His tone gets more tense, almost pained. “I want to work things out, and I hope you can forgive me.”
Standing up, you move to stand in front of Sanemi. You wordlessly wrap your arms around him, burying your face in his neck. The hashira was expecting a slap, any kind of negative reaction. To feel your arms hold him felt like a breath of fresh air.
“I still feel upset with you. And we’ll need to talk about that.” You curl up further into his arms, into his warmth. “But for now, I just want you to hold me.” You had been so lonely during the weeks he avoided you. Even if you were upset, you still loved him.
Sanemi quickly obliges.  Wrapping his strong, scarred arms around you. Feeling your soothing heartbeat, feeling that you were alive. Though he was still tense, a wave of relief washed over him. It was okay if you didn’t forgive him now, or maybe ever. At the moment, all that mattered to him was that you were alive.
The two of you would have a long talk. But for now, it was nice to sit in each other presence.
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kittyball23 · 5 months
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Any chance of a quick fic of Branch's bros showing and telling Poppy Branch's embarrassing baby photos all while he's a embarrassed grumpy pants about it? I feel we need more embarrassing loving big brothers moments.
Hi, Anon, I apologize for this being delayed. I wrote out a few drafts to this story, but was unsatisfied with the turnout until now. I do hope you enjoy :)
Show and Tell (a Trolls fanfic)
By the time that Branch had gotten his drink at the bar - a concoction his older brother called the Tropical Refresh, composed of a variety of fresh, fruity juices  - and walked over to the backstage area of the karaoke stage to find Poppy, he could already hear the bouts of giggling coming from his girlfriend. Branch had come across this type of situation a few times already, and he didn’t need to ask what had gotten her in such a lighthearted mood.
“Don’t you ever get tired of looking at that?” he asked, gesturing at the clue board that she was unashamedly ogling over.
“Nope!” Poppy chirped. “How can you ever get tired of looking at this cutie-patootie face, huh?” She reached into her pocket and showed him a little wallet-size photograph of him in his signature perm.
Branch gasped. “Hey! Who gave you that?”
“I did!” The blue Troll turned to find John Dory approaching them, looking quite proud of himself. “Don’t worry bro, I got copies for you, too!” he said, pulling out three more from his dark, aquamarine hair.
Branch groaned. “Seriously?”
“What do you mean ‘seriously’? What’s so embarrassing about a baby photo? You totally rocked the look!” JD asked, confused. Then he chuckled, nudging Branch with his elbow and speaking hushedly so Poppy couldn’t hear. “At least I didn’t show her the other box, right?”
But Poppy had heard him. She perked up and faced John Dory with curiosity. “What other box?”
JD beamed at her. “Ohoho, girl, if you like these photos, just wait till you see what I got in store for you.” Whistling Rhonda over, he entered his caterbus and pulled out a heavy-looking trunk. He struggled dragging it out for a moment, and then gave a short cry.
“Ouch! There goes my back,” he whined with a grimace, having strained himself too hard and rubbing the affected area. But the smile returned to his face a moment later. “Feast your eyes on le pièce de résistance, Poppy Seed!” he declared grandly, and then opened the trunk with a dramatic flair.
For a second light almost seemed to emit from the trunk, like it had been filled with glittering gold. When Poppy managed to focus in and see what it actually was, well, it was as good as gold to her.
“EEEE! Oh my GOSH!!” She grabbed Branch’s arm and leapt up and down with tears of joy while her boyfriend grumbled in dismay. “This is the best day of my life!”
“OOooo, really! Why’s that?” It had been Viva who’d spoken, neither one of them having heard her approaching with all the commotion Poppy was making. She noticed the trunk and grinned. “Is there a lifetime supply of candy in there? I know that would be the best day of my life!”
“Even better!” Poppy cried, stepping aside so her sister could see. Viva tucked her hands under her chin and gushed.
“Awwww…. That’s so sweet!”
Suddenly Poppy whirled on John Dory, grabbing him by the vest and shaking him hard. “John Dory! And just how long were you going to wait before you told me about this?!?!”
“You gotta ask to receive!” JD answered simply.
“Well, I guess,” Poppy grumbled, “Okay, but no more dillydallying, you have GOT to spill everything to me about these!”
But to her surprise, John Dory shook his head. “No can do, Miss Poppy…”
The Pop Queen’s jaw dropped. “WHAT?”
While also surprised to hear this answer come from his brother, Branch was actually relieved. “Oh, good.” The less embarrassment he had to endure in front of his girlfriend, the better!
But it seemed JD wasn’t done explaining. “...Not without the others to help,” he finished with a sly smile.
Now it was Branch’s turn to exclaim “What?”
And before he could stop him, John Dory had cupped his hands around his mouth and called out in the direction of the cantina. “YO, BRUCE! CLAY! FLOYD! GET YOUR BUTTS OVER HERE, PRONTO!”
A few seconds later, all three Trolls had hightailed their way over.
“What’s up John Dory?” Floyd asked.
“Why you sounding like there’s a big emergency or something?” Clay questioned with suspicion, knowing how JD had a tendency to overexaggerate matters.
“And why does Poppy look like she’s about to faint?” Bruce asked, pointing at the overwhelmed Pop Queen who was being held up by Viva and fanned.
John Dory presented the trunk to the three of them. “Does this answer your question?”
Three identical ear-to-ear smiles stretched across their faces.
“Awwww, that’s nice,” Clay cooed.
“Wow,” Floyd whispered, tears pooling in his eyes, “I really had thought these were all gone…”
“Well they’re not!” Bruce chuckled happily. “This is great!”
“You’re telling me,” Poppy mumbled, just about ready to collapse. “And speaking of telling me…” She gestured at the trunk meaningfully.
But Branch intervened, putting a hand up. “Now wait, wait a second, hold on. Must we do this?”
John Dory rubbed his chin. “Hmm. Alright, those who aren’t in favor, raise your hands,” he said, putting the decision up to vote.
As it turned out, Branch was the only one among the seven who followed through on that.
“‘Kay. Now, all in favor of sharing Branch’s totally brodacious and all-around awesome Bitty-B-baby photographs, put ‘em up!”
Six hands flew up into the air without hesitation.
Branch rolled his eyes. “Fine.”
“YAY!” Poppy cheered, clapping her hands with Viva and giving her boyfriend a great big hug in gratitude.
John Dory grinned as he reached into the trunk - full to the brim with Branch-centered memorabilia, cut-outs, magazine-clippings, and pictures - and pulled out the first item to share. Poppy squealed as he began to explain.
“Hehehe, this one” - he started, gesturing at a photograph of Baby Branch suspended on a glitter wire - “was when we were deciding how Branch was gonna make his first live appearance. We thought about having him lower down onto the stage from above, but, hehehe, he was kinda afraid of heights.”
“I was a baby, John Dory. Everything around me looked big! So… yeah,” Branch said in his defense, crossing his arms.
Bruce had a turn picking next, and gave a knowing “Ohhh,” when he saw what it was. “Debut outfit idea that, of course, didn’t work because of, well… the obvious.” When he showed the photo, it was Baby Branch with his head barely peeking out of the top of a puffy blue vest, BroZone’s signature white slacks on his bottom and trailing behind him like a gown’s train.
“I wasn’t the same size as you all back then,” Branch said with a tone in his voice that exhibited a “duh!”
“Aw, but at least you’ll fit in it now, right, sweetie?” Poppy cooed lovingly to him.
He had to smirk at his girlfriend’s neverending optimism. “Yeah, I guess so.”
Clay laughed when he pulled out the next photograph. “Ohhh, man… Grandma’s birthday,” he said fondly. “Each of us had a hand in getting together her special Fluffleberry cake. Bruce and I made the batter. John Dory and Floyd took care of the baking. And Branch, hehehe… he helped decorate. Although, I think he might’ve ended up decorating himself more than the cake.” He turned the photo around so the others could see the little blue Troll baby covered from head to toe in colorful icing and sprinkles.
“It was my first time!” Branch wailed. “And believe me, I had icing in places I didn’t even know I had.” He shuddered to remember. “It was unpleasant.”
“Well, it’s a good thing we took you to the bath right after,” Floyd said with a little grin. The grin became wider when he pulled out the next photo. “Oh my, and speaking of baths… can’t forget your first shower, can we?”
Branch’s cheeks turned red from embarrassment when the baby photo depicted him pictured from behind, the soap bubbles barely hiding his birthday suit.
“Whoaho!” JD cracked up., “Now there’s something you don’t see everyday!”
“I guess you could say it happens only once in a blue moon, am I right?” Clay joked, Bruce laughing alongside him.
“OH!” Poppy squeaked in surprise, blushing, while Viva gasped and put a hand over her mouth.
“This just goes to showcase a whole new meaning to ‘junk in the trunk!’” Branch humphed with whatever dignity he had left, referring to John Dory’s trunk of memorabilia. Although, his older brother didn’t interpret the statement that way.
“I’ll say!” he hollered, stooping down to slap Branch in the rear.
“OUCH! JD!”
The goggled Troll giggled in response to his shout.
Branch huffed and plopped down to the ground, both as a way to ensure that John Dory wouldn’t do that again and as a way to make himself comfortable. Because - as the elder Troll took his turn sifting through the trunk for another good photograph and story attached to it, and his brothers eagerly awaited their next turns, and his girlfriend sat there nearly panting in anticipation - Branch realized that he would be there for quite some time.
Yep. A nice loooong time.
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poraphia · 7 months
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Hey ml, we haven't talked in a while. Maybe some insecure! Reader x tired! Wilbur headcanons?? You can see I have a thing for deep voice, sleepy Wilbur.
Not necessarily angst, but him just wanting to go to bed, and waking up and feeling horrible for neglecting your feelings so he makes it up to you by kissing away your insecurities? You choose the insecurity.
Sorry if this was confusing 😔
"Sleepy Wilbur, Stressed Me."
➵ PAIRING! tired!wilbur x insecure!reader
➵ CREATING! 9.30.23 | 459 words
➵ CONTAINING! insecurities, body issues, immense fluff with kissing and cuddling.
➵ SAYING! eeee ax i havent seen you in my inbox since forever!! istg i loveeee sleepy wilbur its just UGHHH THIS MANNN
My masterlist :)
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Coming home
Wilbur is certainly a busy man, we all know this.
But, today really wasn’t one of your best days either.
As soon as he arrives home, he threw off his Docs and his bag before passing out straight onto the bed
Instead of bothering him, you just decided to snuggle up next to him with tears all over your face and just the looming pain of feeling so horrible about yourself.
When Wil wakes up, he immediately noticed how distressed you look
Your hair is tangled, you’re whimpering in your sleep, and your eyes are puffy with tears
Immediately he’s hugging you close to his chest, stroking your hair and warming up your frail body
He doesn’t even think to wake you up and patiently waits for you to flutter your eyes open
Talking it out
When you wake up, your voice barely comes out because of how worn out you were from crying all night
He gently asks you with his croaky, deep morning voice what happened
In a burst of tears you’re venting every little thing about yourself that you feel isn’t good enough
Either too many pimples on your forehead, too much fat on your stomach, or feeling horrible for falling behind work
“But you’re so talented and hard working, my love. It’s okay to feel stressed out about it, but you’re doing your best and that’s what makes me proud of you..”
He whispered quietly and softly in your ear
After countless bits of reassurance, he would kiss every piece of your body you felt horrible about
Your forehead, your stomach— hell, you weren’t even insecure about your neck but he’s kissing it because he know it makes you giggle
“I love this part about you the most… No, this one… Mm.. I’m sorry, love, I can’t decide. I just love everything about you..”
He ended it off by pressing his nose against yours, pulling you close and closing his eyes, smiling
Spoiling You
After enough smiles and that sweet, sweet morning voice, Will gets out of bed to make you some breakfast
He didn’t let you put up an argument. That man was making you breakfast even if you did feel “fat”
Once he came back he gently kicked open the door singing your favorite song with your tray of food
Then as you were eating, he flicked on the TV so you guys can finally catch up on that show you’ve been meaning to finish
Though he had to go back to the studio in a couple of hours, he made sure to make those hours count
even if meant cuddling and laying in bed all day
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a / n ~ this was super cute to write about esp since it was just headcanons so it just felt like a cute lil drabble hehe. notes are super duper appreciated! if you wanna be in my taglist or become a labeled anon, drop a message in my inbox!! i also have a siren fanfic in the works you should definitely check out hereee
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sunshinesteviee · 1 year
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bestie, bestie i LOVE these prompts: "soft looks across a long table" and "innocent touches when they’re close" for friends to lovers with stevie?
eeee friends to lovers, my beloved <33333 i really like this one, so i hope y'all do too! gn!reader (i think!! lmk if i missed something); wc: 1k
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Steve knows you better than anyone else. It’s to be expected when you’ve been best friends for over five years. And still, knowing that he really gets you, knows how you’re feeling just from looking at you, stirs up the butterflies in your stomach and makes your heart pound in your chest. And no, it doesn’t have anything to do with the crush on Steve you’ve been harboring. Probably. Maybe. 
You’re at the diner with all of your friends on a rare occasion that everyone is home and accounted for, sitting at the other end of the table from Steve as you talk to Nancy about how college is going for her. You can feel a pair of eyes on you as you talk to her, and you know it’s Steve. It’s always Steve. 
In a lull of your conversation, you turn to take a sip of your drink and find Steve’s eyes still on you. His elbow is on the table in front of him, chin propped up in his hand as he looks at you, an involuntary flush crawling up his neck as your eyes meet. Still, he tilts his head slightly and raises his eyebrows; a silent ask of ‘you okay?’
Because it’s Steve, you know exactly what he’s asking, and you nod, your lips tugging up at one side as you try to ignore your rapid heart beat. He knows work has been killing you lately and that you’d had a rough day, going so far as to suggest the two of you skip the dinner if you weren’t feeling up to it. Of course you couldn’t miss this time with your friends, but you appreciate he’d asked, and was now — albeit silently — checking in on you. 
Nodding, Steve returns your smile easily, brushing a stray hair out of his face as he keeps his eyes trained on you for a few more seconds. Dustin is quick to grab his attention, though, snapping Steve out of his near trance-like state. As his eyes flick away, it’s like you’re brought back down to earth as well, a familiar fluttering feeling kicking up in your chest. 
“What was that about?” Nancy asks from beside you, a knowing smirk on her lips as she glances across the table to Steve and then back to you. 
“What?” you ask, glancing back at Nancy, feeling the heat of embarrassment again, “Nothing.” She gives you a disbelieving look, and you immediately feel flustered, “Nothing! I swear.”
“Yeah, okay,” she snorts, lifting her own drink to her lips to take a sip before changing the subject — some story about her boss at her new internship — and you’re thankful she doesn’t pry any more. What would you even say? That you’re in love with your best friend even though you’re almost positive he doesn’t feel the same way?
An hour later, and all of the kids have been picked up, leaving just the older group behind. You’ve left your spot at the opposite end of the table now that there are less of you, opting to settle into the one next to Steve. Nancy shoots you another knowing look as she does the same next to Jonathan, curling into his side. Ignoring her look, you give Steve a smile as you scoot in a bit closer. 
“Hey, babe,” he says softly, leaning back in his seat and extending the arm closest to you over the back of your chair. 
You can feel the warmth radiating from him through the back of your shirt and you subconsciously lean into his touch. Your cheek presses into your shoulder as you gaze up at him, “Hi, Stevie.”
Steve leans in so he can speak to you quietly, the tips of his fingers brushing over your shoulder lightly, “You still doing okay?”
“Mhm,” you nod, inching your chair closer to Steve’s so you can rest your head against his shoulder instead, “‘M tired, but happy to see everyone.” 
“Yeah?” he asks, and though you can’t see his face, you can hear the smile in his voice as he says, “I’m glad.” His hand closes around your upper arm to pull you into his side, thumb nudging underneath the hem of your sleeve to rub gentle circles into your skin.
It’s hard to participate in the conversation that your friends are having with how tired you are, as well as the weight of Steve’s hand on your arm, so you settle for leaning into Steve’s grasp. Your eyes flutter closed, and it’s only a matter of minutes before you doze off, asleep on Steve’s shoulder. He doesn’t notice right away, though his gentle touch is part of what lulls you to sleep; only aware of your soft, even breaths when Robin points it out, wiggling her eyebrows at him. 
Sending Robin the best glare he can muster, Steve tilts down to glance at you, his cheek pressing against your hair. You are fast asleep, just like Robin said, eyelashes kissing your cheeks, lips parted slightly. He can’t help the smile that tugs at his lips as he watches you asleep against him for a moment. Forgetting all of his other friends sitting around the table, Steve’s hand leaves your shoulder as his fingers curl, knuckles brushing over the gentle slope of your cheek. His lips ghost over your temple as he murmurs, “Hey, you.” 
It takes a few seconds — and a few more gentle strokes against your cheek — before you’re blinking awake, voice laced with sleepiness and confusion as you blink up at Steve, “Hmm?” 
“Fell asleep in the diner, babe,” Steve explains, his voice still soft with adoration, “Want me to take you home?” 
“Mm…” you pause to yawn, pressing your face further into the crook of Steve’s neck as he gently cups the side of your head in his hand to keep you close, “Yeah, in a minute.” 
“Sure, babe,” he says, his own heart pounding in his chest so hard he’s surprised you haven’t said anything, “In a minute.” 
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SEND MY LOVE — 양정인
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PAIRING — Healer! Yang Jeongin x f. reader
🖇️ GENRE — royalty! au, angst, suggestive(no intercourse), bittersweet, coincidences, childhood best friends to lovers, enemies to lovers if you squint
WORD COUNT — 6.9k ☆ 34 minute read
⚠️ WARNINGS — making out, close to smut, implied fwb
AUG’S NOTES — another thank you for notifying me about an open spot in your collab rin(@hyunverse)!! i would never skip the chance to write for my boys, especially a royal collab eeee so exciting—i knew i could ramble on with this for forever, so i hope i supplied enough closure between yn and jeongin! also, i haven’t wrote for innie separately, so feedback is appreciated:)
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💭 SYNOPSIS — Despite the twists and turns in Iredal Castle, the only world you lived in was a world with Jeongin in it. Once the Healer’s apprentice, now the Healer himself, Jeongin has always been right beside you; tending to you endlessly and in turn, becoming close friends. Perhaps more in the castle’s corners. Except the Royals disregard you, and when you ask Jeongin to run away together, he denies. In turn, you leave on your own and begin working at a pottery shop in the villages, sending him abundant letters. Eventually though he stops replying and you assume he’s simply forgot about you, until he walks into the shop.
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“Jeongin..” you whispered, voice coming out in a pitiful croak as you reach forward—making out the shakiness of your hand through tired eyelids. There’s a heavy haze that overtakes what’s left of the broken mind you’ve been gifted, surprised your vision remains intact whilst being unused for such a lengthy amount of time. The world is always new for those who don’t open their eyes. You know this well.
“I’m right here.” A small patch of light sneaks through cracks in the window, illuminating the boy’s features beautifully. He smiled, eyes crinkling in the corners while gazing at you from a squat by your bedside in order to speak at eye-level. When Yang Jeongin smiles, he loses his eyes and his cheeks puff out a bit. You never seem to get tired of it.
Since the day you entered this world, it felt like you had been sent to bed. Always so sick, always too weak to support yourself. Oftentimes you would refer to it as a curse until reminded of Jeongin, transforming the bitter judgment in such a way it felt like fate. A certain obscuring fate you would never manage to hold in both hands, but for you, for now, that was okay. If you hadn’t been ill all the time, perhaps you would have never gotten the chance to grow close to him like this.
Your introduction to Jeongin was well out of the books, having only really gotten to know him and his kindness on a peculiar evening when you were laden with cold. Eleven at the time, your blaring fever having spiked dramatically leading to frantic ushering into the Apothecary. The Healer’s apprentice had been hasty to concoct a sort of coriander mixture in an attempt at lowering your temperature, to no avail. Yet when he rose from his squat beside you, you clutched his shirt with sweaty fingers—pleading with the stranger of a boy not to leave you alone to stifle that same, hollow feeling. As if you were stuck in a glass box, a massive clock displayed in front of you representing time in its never ending cycle. Except the key to the box was long forgotten, and you’d simply waste away there.
Tick.
Tick.
“Don't leave me, please.”
There he goes with that heart wrenching grin, your introduction to not only Yang Jeongin, but his mystifying characteristics as well — gazing at you like the earth might just break apart. It’s a mystery how one can look into his eyes without crying. Raw, unfiltered emotion that feels as if it penetrates every fiber of your soul, your being. He’s comforting, as if you’ve known him for years. Sympathy in the curve of his brows, Michelangelo's sculpture somehow alive. Breathing, thinking.
Becoming acquainted with him came relatively easy opposed to others, able to carry countless conversations of all and nothing. Spurring recollection to occasions you had sneakily slipped from your stead to visit him in extended hours of eve, where the sky had just barely dappled tawny, soon replaced with a midnight hue. He’d tell you of his days, you would tell him of yours, without realizing you grew up with him in the process. Because when you blinked, Jeongin had transformed into more than a coincidence.
“I have to collect more herbs for your head, otherwise your fever will worsen.” Despite being only eleven like yourself at the time, a brush of his hand on your forehead eased all the worries swarming, the achiness, the pain. Sleep you were coaxed to, waking up and craving his presence, his reassurance once more. That simple gesture, he did it again and again every time you would visit, which was more often than not for that of a sickly child.
When you turned fifteen and your first lover had broken up with you, crying out your heart’s contents in the castle’s botanical gardens. Jeongin had done the same then, gently caressing your head like you were a troubled child while you sobbed into his shirt. Letting your waves crash against his shore. High tide in the late of night, Jeongin welcomed the sound of the ocean.
At nineteen, only a year ago when he’d been your first kiss — a soft touch of your forehead that spoke more than could be said aloud. Something delicate, something irreplaceable. It had been prohibited for one of such high profile to be enacting any sort of association with that of the lower class, especially a kiss. Quite risky, don’t you think? Although the riskiness of it sent a childish plethora of giddiness throughout your body that you hadn’t experienced in years time due to the suffocating confinement of restrictions, dutifully enforced by the Castle. He spoke much without words.
Nonetheless, you were twenty years old now, and no matter seemed to claw you in such a way you wept about it or needed to be consoled because of. You didn’t desire that lingering touch anymore, you had grown. Or your ability to fend off illness developed from a seed into a sprout, but your relationship with Jeongin persisted as resilient as the stone pathway leading out to Iredal’s foliage-inhabited Pleasaunce, cracked and overgrown beyond belief however evermore frivolous and alive. When with Jeongin this was possible. Living in a dream before you had to wake up, that is.
Heavy mist of spring blossomed around the Kingdom, a prime occasion to bask in the sun's rays after a millennium of bitter winds. Basking you did, while accompanied by Jeongin of course. It might have been strange for two people of entirely opposing positions to be conversing and picking at daisies awakening from the long thistles of grass — nothing short of casual for the both of you.
“You spoke of your tutoring session earlier?” The Healer, sitting criss crossed across from you hummed, twining vine into pretty bracelets absentmindedly.
“Ah yes, I was informed on the Victorian Language of Flowers, the topic was of great interest.” He leaned forward, appearing immersed though already knowledgeable of the study. On and on you explained, telling him of fantastical bouquets conveying distinct messages and allowing him to appreciate the excitement sparkling beneath your irises, sporadic hand gestures emphasizing each word slipping off your enchantingly cherry lips he longed to feel against his. Essentially, he did bask in the spring’s sun, your sun. Providing him with all the light and warmth necessary albeit far out in a field. Oh to abandon responsibilities and live like this, with you. One can hope, though hoping is sour upon accepting it won’t occur. Still, he’ll hope.
As for your presumed “friendship”, behind closed doors the average witness would immediately assume you were enacting an affair from the stolen kisses and the recurring suggestive touch. To those in front of the door, you were simply good friends. Good friends with a.. lasting connection.
Daisie picking however met a refreshing end, the dark-haired boy accompanying you back towards the Castle’s nearest entryway before bidding you farewell. There was a fondness gracing his features, carefully tucking one of the countless daisies he had picked into your palm, tickling your palm with soft petals and carving a memento of a day you already wished back.
The following morning however was a daring occasion for “good friends.”
“Oh god..”
His neat white shirt adorned with classical ruffles disheveled along with jet black hair, chasing after your kiss whilst you cupped the sides of his face. Your legs wrapped around his midsection, supported by strong hands sinking into the plush skin on the back of your thighs. Jeongin’s lips bruised pink and puffy from where you had pulled the skin between your teeth, eliciting a sort of adorable whine in return. His descent traveled down to your jaw, stopping to mark a love bite right below the ear where he nipped the soft skin relentlessly until you knew you’d have to be dressed heavily in order to conceal the evidence — loving the dreamy sigh that sounded in response to his attention.
“You.. you locked the door?” You breathed shallowly, allowing him to carry you from the wall to the bed, fervently laying you down on the mattress. He nodded in a hurried manner, maneuvering you to straddle his hips — fox-like, chestnut eyes admiring every inch of you he’d seen innumerable times. He slowly traced the fabric of your gown, down, down, lower. Till your breath hitched and the situation truly inclined into dangerous territory, teetering on the brink of collapse. Each reaction, curl of your fingers, flush of your cheeks. Engraved in his memory for as long as his mind would remember.
“I missed this, ‘missed you my dear. Please let me make love to you..” Soft murmurs mumbled against bare skin recalled times you treasured the most thanks to nectarine sweet talk accompanied by the gentleness of his voice that sailed you away into a new universe. A new universe where you and Jeongin were the only ones existing, not hidden in his room disguised from prying eyes.
“No one is keeping you from doing so.” You giggled, leaning down for an equally sugary kiss. No person might have kept him from doing so, but your impending requested presence at dinner could end up guilty. A long forgotten factor if not noticeable already. Yet selection revealed quite mercilessly that all things come to an end, some quicker than others.
“Hey Jeongin, I need to speak to you concerning-WOAH. Woah.”
In strolls Royal Guard Han Jisung, standing stiffly in the doorway relative to a deer suffering amnesia. Loudly declaring that Jeongin did not in fact lock the door, and a person was surely capable of preventing your love session after all. This was humiliating. The intruder slapped a hand across his mouth, waving quickly towards the both of you whilst muttering a jumbled, “Apologies for interrupting!” Before sprinting away. Momentary silence ensued and slowly, you turned to face the man you had nearly slept with, threatening the burst of laughter creeping up your throat.
“Did we happen to scare him?” You take your turn covering your own mouth, doubling back on the bed from not only the situation, but Jeongin’s facial expression as well. So expressive, added to the list of bountiful charms you discover when with him. At this point you should know everything about him, and you do, partially. Apart from what he doesn’t allow you to know, which, defensively, you uncover on your own.
“Ruined the atmosphere more like it.” He scowled, obviously annoyed by the interruption of his love-making fantasy and bemused by your evident inability to feel even slightly vexed. He found it impossible to remain upset when you were around. A continuously repeated cycle of stealing what wasn’t his, what he wanted to be his, and getting his most precious of possessions ripped out of his fingertips. Jeongin was a beggar in that view. For you, he was a beggar.
Reminding, you tapped his nose, wearing the sly grin he’d once sported like a badge of honor, “You poor thing… someone is grumpy.” Earning a pouted reply despite happily anticipating the peck you planted on his cheek as an estranged form of compensation.
“I’m not.. ugh, I find it best to leave before he tells the whole Kingdom about us.” About us, he said. About your adoration, heavily harbored passion. About us, what you could be, what you were, what perception told of. Quizzical. Unaffected, he gives your hips a quick squeeze, allowing you to leave the bedroom first prior to exiting himself.
Low and behold stood the interruption, appearing far too pleased with his latest discovery while he tapped his foot- a bad habit of his- incessantly. The mere thought as to what Jisung’s business here entailed failed to materialize in his mind, a heavily disregarded prospect after being so violently thrashed from paradise, left to drift off at sea.
“Mayhaps..”
“Say nothing more.”
“I wasn’t going to mention your affairs! This concerns Y/n.” Han appeared feeble observing the younger perk at the reference to you, attentive to whatever he was saying once you were involved. He beckoned Jeongin to follow him, adding on to the suspicious layering of what exactly they would be discussing upon arriving on the far side of an open corridor, located on the left wing of the Castle — vastly distanced considering where you would currently be rushing to dine with fellow Royals. The space void of any lurking ears awaiting to hear something they could use to either upgrade their status or stake down someone else’s. Hierarchy in its boldest font and ever apparent in the depths of Iredal Castle.
“Have you taken notice?” There’s a crease in Jisung’s forehead relating to the question. Tentative, like a cat studying its unsuspecting prey residing on a fence post. If Jeongin were a cat, his fur would have bristled apprehensively.
“Taken notice of what, exactly?” A sort of nervous pique to his voice gave away the Healer’s compiling tension, prominently oblivious. Jisung cleared his throat, lowering his tone that ushered his counterpart closer.
“Have you perceived Y/n and the Royal Family-“ Before the Royal Guard managed to pronounce his finishing words, the black-haired ran a hand through his hair, boisterously indifferent.
“-Whatever the Royal Family fancies is not my business and not something I want any association with. You know this.”
“Yes yes I am aware but it would be favorable if you listened for a moment, please?” Jeongin nodded curtly.
“There’s a disconnect, Changbin and I keep seeing it. As if they don’t even acknowledge her. Aside from there being some disconnect since Y/n’s the King’s Goddaughter and all, it has significantly worsened.”
The latter’s brow furrowed, perturbed. He could picture it so realistically — your downcast face, how you would fiddle with your fingers thoughtfully. Fiddling the way he’d seen a multitude of times when you were younger. Your signature mechanism of aiming to ease the discomfort you felt in that moment. He hurt, knowing you hurt.
“..Has she said anything to you about this?” A quiet break in the stillness that had occupied its way between them earned a solemn shake of the head. Of course you hadn’t said anything. You’d keep it bottled up in your heart until the dam broke, and he’d be the one racing to scoop up the water. Always.
Alas, the fiddle of your fingers bared its ugly face, distracting yourself with the rough texture of the tablecloth’s fabric beneath you. Evening’s feast carried on like usual, just as Jeongin had predicted. Except you didn’t rush there, aware you would have in the case of your earlier affair going further prior to being interrupted. Time that could have been spent elsewhere ghosted by, including snide comments easily discarded by each person attending that added to the flavor of pig's blood jelly majestically advertised in the center of the long table. Family friend Madame Belmore tapped her fingernails repeatedly along a decorative wine glass, sparing an excessive margin to clear her throat. One’s next words could not have been dreaded more.
“Speak of yore, I happened to deduct intriguing insight on Your Highness’s God-Daughter Ms. Yn Ln. For I hadn’t been told of your association with erm.. Yun, Yin..-“Yang Jeongin.” You abruptly voice, audibly calm opposed to the exasperation settling itself in your stomach at a bewildering rate. The woman had always inhibited her suspicions just as everyone did. Unlike everyone though, her suspicions were her prowess, her sickening joy.
“Yes! Yang Jeongin, the Healer. About him, I couldn’t help but ponder your… how do I put this, relationship.” Each piece of Madame Belmore’s puzzle fell into perfect place — mirroring the exact moves you had been taught playing Chess. The sight utterly chilling, watching her ferocious glinting sneer scream “Checkmate” right in your face, breath hot with the overwhelming scent of overly sweetened wine.
She thrust her hands forward, clasping them oh so tightly as if she were praying. Praying for something you couldn’t guess, but most likely your demise on first thought.
“You see, to an uneducated eye it may seem unusual I suppose. Reassuringly we are nothing apart from saved and savior. Were you not disclosed of my childhood illness, Madame Belmore?” Narrowly escaping to an empty square on the Chess board, you tip your head to the side, openly inviting the woman to interject. No, she wouldn’t. Madame Belmore wouldn’t dare to allow her sacred suspicions to deliberately falter.
“Oh allow me!” The Queen dramatically gasping her anguish spurred the dissipation of Madame Belmore’s pretentious glare, beginning to enlighten the “uneducated” on your tragedies. Rising aversion to the instigator wasn't much disliked though, comparing the belittling to ignoring. Ignoring in terms of absolute abandonment of your being, not a glance in your direction for a reason you didn’t know. What you did know was the behavior began becoming increasingly prevalent, and that this exact banquet would become an entire accusation pinwheel after the introduction of your saved and savior relationship was provided so diligently to Madame Belmore by the Queen. “Best to flee.” Jeongin had told you that once, after he had snatched a casserole you’d asked about off the Baker's tray. Young then, without thought of genuinely meaning you would run away. Without a need to run away, apart from fleeing from small mishaps.
“And you are not attending dinner, why?”
You’d leave it to the imagination to assume you deserted the feast or caused a scene, storming into no other than Jeongin’s Apothecary before the feast had officially concluded. Escape. The Apothecary was a momentary escape, upon investigation by officials though the forbidden cove would be revealed, unraveling something disgustingly disastrous.
At this time in the evening the Healer was well versed knowing you would be eating with the rest of the elites, afterwards skipping back to his Apothecary to inform him of the gossip you had overheard while there. Scheduled, like usual. This time howbeit things were contrasting to this long running schedule. Divergent in terms of the atmosphere, your body language, the timing. It was unsettling.
“I’m pained because of them. It is much the same as being invisible. Not only that, but Madame Belmore is plotting a distasteful act for me.”
Jeongin’s lips pull into a tight line listening to you. Madame Belmore had always been alternatively plotting, but you would always state your desire to complain about her then forget. To be so troubled by it, furthermore to enter his Apothecary so frazzled confirmed the urgency. Seeing you like this, curled up in a ball on the patient-bed you had basically grown up in, stirs an ugly nostalgia to froth. Grateful his back is facing you, concealing his transparency. He can’t say anything. Not about his gnawing guilt and chiefly not about his previous conversation with Han containing the exact details you’re speaking now.
“Innie, would you run away with me?”
His hands abruptly stop their shuffling, deciding against turning around to face you. Never did he expect such a preposition. Continuously caving when it came to you, too blinded by fondness to register what he was getting himself into before the thicket became too dark and suffocating that he’d reach for you to pull him to safety. Never did he expect such a preposition he would have to reject, indirectly saying to him that if you weren’t to close the book yourself, the pages would be ripped to pieces by someone else. That nickname, “Innie.” Only you could call him that.
This time though, a fine line had been drawn. One half his side, one half yours. Yours with the need to be free, his with the need to be with you. His of which wouldn’t allow a caged bird to venture out. Greater precaution told him he should’ve known that you were both walking a tightrope that would eventually lead to stumbling. He did know, however he didn’t acknowledge. The prospect was nauseating.
“I’m afraid.. I’m afraid I cannot do that.”
Eardrums buzzed, he hears you move. Hears the patter of your shoes on the stone flooring as you approach him. Your arms wrap around him, burying your head into his back.
“You know I will go through with it.”
“I do, and that is what breaks me.” His words falter, yet you don’t look up, aware it would be too much to watch his face crumble. Perhaps make you change your mind. Your best friend, the Healer of Iredal Castle, changed your mind with ease. Perhaps that’s also why this hug feels so bittersweet. You don’t want to let go, worried he’d slip through your fingers like sand upon separating. Bittersweet. There’s a slight croak, the man dissolving into billowing sobs. You carefully turn him around to face you, gazing up at his immeasurably enchanting face that you begged yourself not to see, not to give in to. Yet you did, every time. Clammy thumbs brush stray tears from his cheeks, watery smile disguising a throbbing ache settling inside of your chest. You’ll stay solid in order to keep to your word of running away, but dear is it challenging when Jeongin cries. If you could give him the world you would, despite that world being one without you in it disparate of what fantasy foretold. For Jeongin you would give anything, give in to anything. Anything except this.
“Tomorrow,” You await a sign he’s listening, his shaky hands reaching to hold your own that are cupping his face. He nods, big, emotion-filled globes for eyes shrieking a thunderous volume. Those chestnut orbs have always been mesmerizing, especially now when on the verge of breaking down. What a shame things are so pretty seconds before defeat.
“Tomorrow I will be gone, okay? And I’ll send you letters, Jeongin, and I want you to write back.” You’re coaching him through this, a second attempt to overshadow the feelings you’re experiencing of which you can’t describe. Feelings that harken an unpalatable sound from you you hardly recognized. It’s your turn to begin shaking, biting your bottom lip hard enough to draw blood in order to contain yourself along with the cry clawing at your stomach.
“You.. You promise to do that, to write back, okay?” Subtle repetition of words betray you, but you don’t pay mind, or care to pay mind. There’s fervent bidding, holding him close a little longer, wishing for a little longer that things could be different. Except each night the sun set below the horizon, and you would follow accordingly.
The following morning consisted of sitting with Changbin in your room, him gaping at the shamelessly decadent assortment piling into a burgundy chest. You wanted to thank him for helping you cope like this, staying quiet while you packed even though the roaring man would have talked your ear off if preferred. He had a misunderstood demeanor, but Seo Changbin was a good listener. Not as good as Jeongin, but a good listener.
“Are you planning to leave for fifteen years-“Shh!”
Cowering slightly, the Royal Guard mumbled out hushed “sorry”’s as you checked through your belongings, ensuring each and every necessity was visibly there.
“..Alright. I pardon that’s everything.”
Uneasy quiver to your voice betrays you for a second time, lugging the massive chest downstairs with the help of your brown-haired emotional support. Ironic how the foyer stayed empty the entire time, not a soul peering from wooden doorways. Possibilities are limitless as you stand at the entry gates, patting the man’s shoulder farewell and prompting him to tell your acquaintances goodbye in your stead. You could run back, discard all your packaged belongings on your bed like it would make a difference due to primarily sleeping in Jeongin’s Apothecary. You could scream your lungs out and throw the wine Madame Belmore had sipped so precariously last night all over her satin white dress. You didn’t, finding no reason to disorient an outcome gradually worsening without needing your aid.
“You be safe now. ‘Get yourself into trouble and Han and I will go hunting you down.” His words grumble and you crack a ghost of a smile that doesn’t quite reach your eyes, Changbin doesn’t mind.
The village is relatively small compared to the grandeur of Iredal’s Castle, nothing that you hadn’t anticipated before — and not in an arrogant, castle-grown demeanor — instead quaint, peaceful. You arrived by horseback, memorizing individual landscapes you pass on the way to scribble into a letter for Jeongin. Tell him of your trials and tribulations migrating to this foreign land, a prolonged explanation of what actually occurred that would hopefully earn his pretty laugh. A pretty laugh you already missed hearing.
Soon enough you settled into a comfortable household. Settled swiftly conducive to deterring your mind of returning to both the boy you loved and the home you had always known. Moving on was unyielding, this time though no one was glowering in your direction or expecting nothing, your only responsibility being to reach your own expectations. Those expectations built up in the process of working at a pottery shop on the northside of town. Additionally, November, paired with the bustle of customers and climbing income, became favored upon receiving a letter in the mail. Jeongin’s letter, and your first reply.
My Dearest,
How are you faring in the villages? Are you nourishing yourself? I’m hoping this is delivered to you at a suitable time and that you don’t miss me too greatly. Iredal Castle runs as usual without much squander, though I would prefer if you were here as well. The servants have successfully concealed your presence as a “sudden departure” so no need to fret. I cherish you deeply, please know I think of you endlessly and wish you well my dearest.
Sincerely yours, Yang Jeongin 양정인
Crouched over a desk in the pottery shop's backroom, your fingertips bunched the inked parchment, taking extra time to memorize the signature curvature of his “s” and how he would linger the feather tip a tad bit longer to achieve a darker hue on his periods. This was the first letter of what seemed like hundreds. Back and forth back and forth you wrote, on occasion locking yourself in the nearest isolated place to collect your rampaging thoughts. Discovering Jeongin’s confidence when writing relative to his meekness in real life bemused you in the sense of his compelling grasp of literature, example being his innate ability to have you holding onto every word. Oh how you yearned to visit him without constantly daydreaming the interaction. You wonder if he’s changed. If he’s forgotten about you, fallen in love- no. Pondering poorly is rotten for the mind. A worm coring an apple. Mental impressment.
Lovely, awakening to his appearance through letters in defiance to physical interaction, because he was there. You couldn’t see him, but you knew he was there. Thinking of you while writing, listening. In spite of that, the certain comfort obtained during your letter exchange paused abruptly when the letters instantaneously stopped. Throughout the span of nearly eight months, his letters simply stopped. Initially you had assumed deliveries were slow, until you started asking the Postal if they had any letters assigned under your name on the daily. None. It left you somewhat starstruck, how rapidly your reality could be twisted. The worm wedging inside your simultaneously rotting apple of a brain you had smothered away days earlier. You wanted to convince yourself he was busy, to ease the worry, arguing that Summer was approaching and hay fever could be assaulting members of the Castle. Summer passed though, and so did the Mail boy carrying no “Yn Ln” assigned letters in his leather satchel.
Next was the anger, the ache. Childlike confusion as to why, when. Jeongin was not one to stop writing back without prior notice of his situation. But like you had fretted, in those eight months he might’ve changed. Yang Jeongin, your Yang Jeongin, might have changed into a spiteful man. Worst case being he forgot. Gradually, he would forget. About your love, about growing up together, about you. Nonsensical anxiety began wading itself through your veins, infecting your head. Furthermore, your anger persisted. Considering your anxiety was infectious, the anger was parasitic. Flaming and unhinged to where you were left no choice after long summer days waiting for a response but to find your own solution to the ghosting.
. ..
“Han Jisung I have every right to talk to that son of a bitc-''And I have every right to give you a perfectly reasonable explanation as to why you cannot see Jeongin right now.” He butts in, addressing your flailing arms with a sheepish expression. Sheepish. Han Jisung is sheepish when he’s making excuses. You’ve determined that rather quickly. Taking a perplexed step back, you cross your arms over your chest, regarding the walking excuse impatiently.
You’ve been sleepless for two weeks now, arranging a time and date as to when you would finally show your face at the Castle’s gates again to confront Jeongin only to be told he was unavailable. Being impatient was a given.
“Enlighten me.”
A big sigh.
“Please don’t misinterpret this, I’m sure he would love to see you, talk to you and all the things a person does with their lover that I know of because of romance novels I’ve read in my past time and oh no I’m talking too much but um, he is quite occupied at the moment.” Along with tapping his foot, Han’s habit you’d learned from Jeongin is he rambles ceaselessly. Only problem being you can’t tell if it’s simply a trait of his or nervousness due to confrontation. You don’t buy it either way.
“And? What has been keeping him occupied if I may ask.” The unconvinced stare etching your face earns lifted brows, and it’s the Royal Guard’s turn to flail his arms, the clank of his metallic armor loudly echoing — causing once calm birds to strike to the skies fretfully.
“With all due respect, do you really believe he would tell me what he’s preoccupied with?”
Hm. That is fair. Jeongin has always been a quiet one apart from conversing with you, his necessary antics placed at the top of the list. Somewhere, you hoped you’d be on the top of that list too, a fleeting thought you knew would be recurring.
Trivial deciding between going back to the village to wallow in your own self pity or make an equally pitiful sprint to Jeongin’s Apothecary to wring the man, luckily, the former reigned supreme in decision-making on this particular occasion. You breathed a long puff of air through your nose, shifting your weight into your heel from one foot to the other thoughtfully.
“Then, can you inform me when he’s not preoccupied?” No, you’re not giving up, simply rescheduling. Venturing back to the villages to await a letter from anyone, telling you the man has gained enough confidence to make room for you, that he had “rescheduled.” Han flashes a small smile, ruffling your hair kindly unlike the same sheepish contortion gracing his features. He doesn’t have to say anything to understand, to know of your struggle. You also know he sees your roaring anguish. Han Jisung has always been like that. Empathetic to a fault.
Changbin as the good listener, Han as the empathetic, and Jeongin as the man who was preoccupied.
Another optic of contemplation negotiates that you should have brushed the doubts away, decided against putting so much into gaining a single letter back. Nevertheless, it was impossible to both diminish the doubts and will a letter, and most certainly to ever let go of Jeongin. Perhaps he could manage to let go when it came to you, but it would never be the other way around.
Eventually you learned he surely couldn’t be that occupied, you mean, if he had the audacity to show his face in the pottery shop his list of priorities couldn’t be that time consuming now could they? Days from breaching a year without even seeing him and the one responsible for your misery causally entered the exact shop you had fled Castle life for. Referring to “eventually” as in right on time to absolutely wreck whatever fragments of acceptance you had gathered during his absence. Jeongin was good at making you lose, almost as good as he was at changing your mind.
Had Han said something to him about your visit? It seemed not, since the man didn’t pay any mind to you, like you didn’t exist just as the Royals had done. Your blood ran cold, standing frozen behind the front desk, eyes glued to the figure who casually strolled through the front door as if he hadn’t shattered your soul into a bountiful disarray a year in advance.
“Why are you here?”
“To get a jar.” He bites back coldly, bitter. Quick upon answering without consideration, not even turning to look at you.
A stranger, Yang Jeongin, is the exact figure who had walked through the door. Not someone you knew, but a stranger, a mere customer with a crude attitude.
“You’re aware you could have sent Han to get a new jar for you, like you had him tell me you were occupied with your duties, right? I see through-“No you don’t!”
Everything seemed to go rigid. Jeongin never raised his voice. But he did, and his mouth lay agape as he stared at you. Eyes blazing with something unreadable. Your hands tremble by your sides, fighting to maintain a composed expression as you stare back. This time, you compose with a heavy tongue, mouth just as dry as before.
“Are you going to say because of your position you could not even bother to acknowledge my feelings, couldn’t respond to my letters? Because you are the Healer and I am the invisible god-daughter you cannot just tell me what is taking up your time? Stop hurting me, please Jeongin.”
His jaw clenched. Pausing, then resorting to stepping over to where you stood and harshly sitting the clay jar atop the counter without a word. Jeongin spoke much without words, today, you didn’t want to listen. Hushed, he parted strawberry lips you’d kissed more times than healthy and there you are, hanging on with the feeble belief this is Jeongin you’re speaking to and not a stranger.
“… I knew if I sent out another letter I would come here, see you, fall all over again and have to stay. But I presume in the end my feet always lead me back to you.”
You feel your heart shattering into a million pieces, worried he’d crumble like a year ago and you’d pathetically follow suit. Instead, you smiled. A real smile that hurt your cheeks because you missed him, missed this even if it was an argument. Missed the hurt and the denial and the rawness of it all. Most importantly, missed your best friend and the love of your life.
Forgiving. You allowed yourself to forgive too easily with Jeongin.
In order to make eye contact you peek beneath dark strands of hair, adorning a big smile while gazing at him you can’t believe manages to appear when you should be fuming.
“You have grown so handsome, Innie.”
Because he has. His jawline has grown sharper(maybe it’s your lack of inspection) and his once tightly cut hair has become overgrown and unkempt, somehow foolishly infatuating. He looks older, he looks lonesome.
Stalling, he sucked in a sharp breath, eyes unevenly flickering from your eyes to your lips.
“.. May I kiss you?”
Considering it, you should’ve pushed him away, drilled him about how cruel he was to you and then shun him from the shop — shouldn’t have smiled or complimented him. Shouted at him for the Summer he left you waiting, wanting. For the never ending worrying he’d burdened you with. Sensible, but not the outcome you favored. After all, it was a refreshing time of year and opportunities like this were a bit too tempting to resist. He gave the impression he felt the same sort of gaping hesitance anyway.
“Just once.”
It’s his turn to laugh sadly, and he does kiss you. Slow and careful like you were a porcelain teacup, like the first time. Like he’s sorry, meaning it without an excuse. And miraculously, Innie had returned to visit you too. The one you knew, not the stranger nor a customer. Not the man who stopped sending you letters, not the one who raised his voice.
“Will you come back to visit? Or is this a fleeting chance?” Thick lashes dust fervently upon pulling apart, attempting to clear his rosy-hazed vision while listening to your whisper. Sneakily, his hand slips forward, spinning the jar sitting between you while another occupies itself on your cheek, caressing the skin he’s dreamt of.
“For another jar and ingredients, certainly.”
You’re quick to shove him, dubiously irritated by his ability to carelessly tease. Charming, but you won’t let him know that.
“Take this seriously!”
Giggles fill the expanse of the pottery shop as you playfully banter back and forth, drinking in the raindrops after your lengthy drought. Omniscient is the mutual unspoken sorry he mutely confessed to you, over and over with his affection, his words, his touch.
“However I have yet to let my unanswered letters go disregarded.” You perplex, Jeongin’s smile a risky jargon — concealing some sort of mischievous intention.
“Don’t fret yourself love, I’ll make up for all the responses you weren’t delivered.” He leans across the wooden panel, ushering a kiss you stubbornly resisted. Finally he maneuvers to your lips, snatching chaste pecks here and there as you struggle, laughing all the while. As if he’s carefully scouring back all the times he could have savored your lips in your time apart.
“Every day,”
Kiss.
“I will deliver a response,”
Kiss.
“With a flower attached from the shop next door,”
Kiss.
“Until all the letters I didn’t answer are answered.”
He’s satisfied with himself after you affirm the decision with a subtle chuckle, patting him on the shoulder and slipping his earlier payment into a compartment below the counter.
“I said you could kiss me just once, but I’ll look forward to my letters of compensation.”
Goodness, have you given enough credit to his smile? No description could possibly describe its beauty. One of his many factors you missed dearly. Imagining the future, you wondered if you would be granted the ability to witness them — all the pieces you thought you had lost after eight months. Time would tell. He left, except his departure wasn’t heartfelt. Instead it felt as if he would drop by tomorrow like back in the Castle, like things were how they used to be.
Awakening the following day, you figured Jeongin had been joking, not anticipating him to immediately write back and definitely not anticipating him to attach a flower alongside. Apart from the many miles separating the villages from the Castle, where he found the time to answer so many letters and supply flowers stood challenging to comprehend. Although you were proven wrong when the Postal service slipped a pristinely pale envelope into the shop's mailbox in the midst of your shift, mesmerizing White Orchids embellishing the visual. And for a moment, your mind streamed clearer. There he goes, leaving you breathless again.
The field chatter, the daisy bracelets. He proves you wrong a second time. He had listened. Listened to you talk all that time ago about those flowers and their meaning, otherwise he wouldn’t have added it with the letter you sent exclaiming your frustration about his sudden unresponsive state. Listened unlike the Royals had. Listened like a best friend, like a lover should.
White Orchids symbolize “I’m sorry.”
The next day, then the next. More letters passing by your window, beneath your door, in the mailbox or by hand on your way to the stalls. Petals littering the floor the only trace of your not-so-secret admirer. Twenty days later, they keep arriving in a constant and you’re left to ponder if perhaps he had planned this. Planned to apologize, planned to respond.
Friday. Pink Camellias symbolize “I missed you.”
Occasionally he would stay a while and watch you read his letters, scooping you up in his arms or wistfully chuckling from afar. Drinking in the time he was longing for and awaiting the time he’d experience now that he had you. And despite being Sunday and early at that, the letters continued to pour. Except today, unbeknownst to you, happened to be your last letter among hundreds, and a knock at the shop's door hadn’t gone unnoticed in the midst of your daily shift. Stirring you awake from whatever illusions had pulled you from the world's atmosphere. Walking outside to see what was the matter, you gasped, shocked by the large bouquet of vermillion flowers the man held that nearly concealed his face due to their abundant size. Jeongin, clad in a clean tanned trench coat, grinned a saccharine beam as he spoke, squinted eyes and puffy cheeks just as you remembered.
“This is your last letter, I hope I can make up for everything I’ve missed, my love.”
The flowers he held?
Red Chrysanthemums.
Red Chrysanthemums symbolize,
“I love you.”
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triple-starsss · 1 month
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eeee getting close to 500 followers on this au blog and i wanna do something fun as a way to say thank you!!! (still a bit to go but i wanna be prepared absmhd)
HAVE TWO IDEAS CURRENTLY.
was thinking either to do like an interview with triple s type thing where you could ask em questions and I'd compile a little video to mimic an actual one absjhd (this would take a while to make but it'd be fun!!)
OR a dtiys (with prizes B] ) of one of their album covers!! (HAVE ONE IN THE WORKS AND ONE IS CURRENTLY STILL AN IDEA)
ALSO FIGURED ID PUT THIS HERE TOO INSTEAD OF MAKING ANOTHER POST - ive been like insanely fatigued as of late so i havent been able to draw meaning art posts r definitelyyy gonna slow down for a bit (atleast until i start having the energy to draw again absjsh). but incase you have any lore or character related questions then feel free to ask!! i may be tired as balls but my brain definitely hasnt stopped thinking about these goobers
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miinesweeper · 2 years
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Headcanons of prom or hoco with rodrick?
eeee this is such a cute idea !!
— the minute he arrives to pick you up and sees you all dressed up he’s completely smitten, he won’t want to take his eyes off of you the entire night
— you also make him a little nervous, especially combined with the pressure of going to the dance, so he might occasionally stutter or misspeak, probably acts a little clumsy too
— midway through the drive he’d remember the corsage he’d gotten you and immediately feel like a dumbass for forgetting it
“oh, shit,” one arm fumbling around behind his seat, attempting to find the flower, the other still on the steering wheel as he lurched to a halt at a red light. your eyes remained on him waiting for an explanation until his gaze met yours, and he held out a container with a corsage inside, “couldn’t forget about that.”
— he’s definitely internally beating himself up about not giving it to you sooner and with better presentation, but better late than never
— the minute you get to the school, you two walk into the crowded gymnasium, but even with all of those people there, he looks at you like you’re the only one in the room
— i don’t think you and rodrick would end up on the homecoming court or anything, but holy shit you guys would end up being the life of the party anyway (mostly because of rodrick)
— he’s more than hyped to dance with you and show you off to an extent
— if possible he’d play at the dance too, but he wouldn’t tell you, he’d just wait for you to see it
“hey, i gotta run to the restroom real quick, don’t go anywhere, ‘kay?” he smiles at you, a smile that seems a little too excited to be slipping off to the bathroom mid-dance. but you just brushed that off and waited for him, your friends quickly took his place around you to talk now that you and rodrick aren’t dancing or talking. “oh, yeah, look he got me this fl- oh my god he’s on the stage.”
— and yeah, you can bet your ass he’s dedicating a song to you, pointing you out in the crowd, looking at you while he sings, the whole deal
— by the time he’s off the stage and back at your side, the two of you have naturally garnered a lot of attention from your peers
— you guys are there dancing and trying to yell to each other over the music and noise in the room until the very end of it, long after the majority of the crowd had made their exit
— he’s still absolutely wired though, and so are you
“i don’t wanna go home yet, do you?” he looks at you, hoping for you to answer with a no. “definitely not.” he grins at you, of course you’d say that, that’s what he loved about you. everyone’s getting into their cars and leaving, the parking lot slowly emptying. rodrick glances around like he’s looking for a solution to something. and as soon as he finds it, he takes your hand in his. doesn’t say a word until he pulls you under a tree in a far corner of the school’s yard. he takes out a pair of earbuds and hands you one of them, the two of you slow dance quietly, alone, to a song of your choice.
— once you two’ve had enough, you take off in his van, he walks you to your front door, and tiredness starts to set in a little
— he’d say goodbye like it was the last thing he wanted to say to you, because he could’ve spent the entire night dancing with you
you collapse on your bed, not even bothering to take the dress/suit off. sleep is eminent, but not quite there yet. your memories are all still very fresh, and snippets replay to bring a soft smile to your weary face as you lay alone in your room. tap tap tap. you already know who it is. without a second thought you open your window. “thought you were gonna leave me hanging for a second there.” “like i’d leave you hanging.” he smiles at you as he comes to sit on your bed beside you. “mind if we go to sleep? i’m so tired.” “sure,” he could’ve stayed up all night, but that was besides the point, “homecoming was so much fun, i didn’t wanna leave you. i had to come over, y’know?” the two of you laid down, not exactly comfortable in your homecoming clothes, but not bothered to get changed. “i didn’t expect you not to come back.” you two smile fondly at each other in the dark. “you look perfect tonight.”
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tojisangrylittlething · 6 months
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supernova - megumi fushiguro x fem!reader
chapter three: the new girl
tw: canon typical violence, some cussing
wc: 4.5k
a/n: chapter 3 eeee! i know i know this may seem slow, but trust the process my friends! lot of story to tell and lot of love to build up hehe
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slowly but surely, you and yuuji have settled into the school.
you both received your uniforms, the same basic navy uniform while yuuji's has a red hood attached, yours has a white one.
you're currently sitting in your dorm and browsing on your laptop. a knock on your door startles you out of your once peaceful state.
"oi, sister, get out here! gojo-sensei needs us for something!"
you shut your laptop with a sigh, a bit annoyed that your perusing was interrupted.
you stand up and walk toward your door, opening it with a bit too much force that it hits the wall.
you send a glare at your brother, "must you always be so loud! i was doing something!"
yuuji waves you off with a small laugh, "you can finish your shopping later, gojo-sensei called for us."
you let out a huff and rolled your eyes, "fine, let me put on my shoes."
you turn back to your room and grab your shoes from where they sit by the door. once you've slipped them on, you walk back out the door. shutting it until you hear it click.
yuuji begins to walk off and you follow, heading toward wherever gojo is.
---
you wind up at the entrance of the school, where your sensei stands alongside megumi.
"ah there you two are!" gojo says with a smile, he seems to smile an awful lot for a sorcerer.
yuuji sends a smile back at him as you cross your arms, "what did you need gojo-sensei? i was a bit busy."
yuuji scoffs at you, "yeah, too busy with online shopping."
you hit his arm and he holds his hands up defensively, giggling at you.
"they were having a sale, mind you, and i needed a new top!"
gojo laughs at the antics of you and your brother, then decides to speak up, "i'm sorry to ruin your free time, but we need to pick up a new student!"
yuuji looks at him quizzically, "new student?"
you groan at him, "is the new student a girl? please tell me she is because i'm getting tired of being surrounded by this much testosterone."
gojo looks at you blankly, "i'm going to pretend you didn't just hurt my feelings, but yes, she is."
you fist pump the air, while yuuji lets out a small groan.
"if she's anything like my sister, this is going to suck."
you smack him on the arm again, beginning to chase him and shout about how you're a fantastic sister.
megumi watches on, rolling his eyes slightly at the two of you, ready to just get on with it. were he and tsumiki always like this?
gojo walks toward you and yuuji, grabbing you both by the back of your hoods, effectively stopping the fight.
"alright students, as much as i would love to see you two fight, we do need to be going. yuuji, you're up front with me!"
as gojo walks back toward the car, megumi doesn't miss the small smirk gojo sends toward him.
asshole.
yuuji hops up front with gojo, and you make your way to the back of the car.
megumi opens the door for you with a small smile, and you give him the same bashful look.
"thank you, fushiguro." you say with a nod and hop in, sliding all the way over.
megumi nods at you and hops in himself.
with that, you're on your way to pick up the new student.
---
you, yuuji, and megumi are all standing on the busy streets. you can't help but stare at all of the shops and food vendors with curiosity, wishing you weren't here on business.
yuuji sits on top of a rail, eating a popsicle, "so wait, why are there only four first years? isn't that too few?"
megumi turns to look at him, "well, have you ever met anyone who can see curses before?"
yuuji stops eating then, simply holding the popsicle in his mouth for a moment while he thinks, "nope, i guess not."
megumi glances around at his surroundings and then back to yuuji, "that just proves how small a minority jujutsu sorcerers are."
you turn to the two boys then, remembering something megumi had said previously, "wait, didn't you say yuuji and i were the third and fourth?"
megumi looks at you then and sees the inquisitive look on your face, "their entry was decided a while ago. i'm sure you know what our school is like by now, everyone has unique circumstances."
"sorry for the wait!"
all of you turn your heads to see gojo walking up to you three casually. he then glances at you and yuuji, looking the both of you up and down. "i see your uniforms made it in time!"
you nod at him and look down at your uniform, "yeah, it's a perfect fit, wasn't expecting that if i'm honest."
yuuji looks at him, pulling on his uniform slightly, "though, it's a bit different from fushiguro's."
gojo holds a finger up in the air, "that's because they can be customized upon request."
you furrow your brows, "request? i never put in any request, did you yuuji?"
he shakes his head at you.
"that's because i did." gojo says with a grin.
you both look at him blankly, you scratch the back of your neck, "well thanks, i guess."
megumi glances at you out of the corner of his eye, "careful, gojo-sensei has a tendency to do things like that." he then looks back to gojo, glancing upward, "more importantly, why are we meeting up in harajuku?"
gojo just smiles at him, beginning to walk down the street, "it's what she asked for!"
all three of you begin walking after him, seemingly given no choice in the matter.
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eventually, you find who you're looking for. she's not hard to miss, wearing the uniform while also yelling at some guy on the street. something about modeling you think.
"hey! over here!"
you jump slightly at the volume of gojo's voice, bumping into megumi in the process.
"sorry fushiguro, the big oaf scared me."
he glares at gojo then, but his gaze softens when he looks back at you, "don't worry about it, itadori. he scares all of us sometimes."
you giggle at that and find that megumi is also sporting a small smile. you look back at the girl, who has now made her way toward all of you.
"nobara kugisaki. be happy, boys. that i'm..." she cuts herself off then and notices you standing there. she grins slightly at the sight of you, "one of the women in your group. thought you said i was the only one sensei?"
gojo waves her off with a small laugh, "things happen, you should know that kugisaki."
she looks back at you and you give her a small smile, "y/n itadori, so happy to have another woman here." you lean forward, cupping your hand over one side of your mouth whispering, "please save me."
she leans her head back and lets out a full-belly laugh. she looks back at you, her eyes seeming to shine brightly, "we're going to get along so well."
once the rest of you introduce themselves, megumi turns to gojo, "are we going somewhere from here?"
gojo chuckles slightly and looks at all of you with a smile, but you can see the mischief hidden behind it.
"well, since all of you are together, we're going on a tour of tokyo!"
you, yuuji, and nobara all cheer in celebration. megumi looks at all of you discontentedly, wondering are they always like this?
---
"when you said a tour of tokyo, this is not what i thought you meant." nobara says, throwing her back with a groan.
all of you are standing in front of an abandoned building with a cemetery nearby. you can feel that same heaviness in the air like you did at the high school that night.
gojo continues to look at the building, "there's a curse here. the cemetery nearby only adds to it."
you pipe up then, "so they do really pop up more often around graves."
megumi turns to you, "the issue isn't the cemetery itself, it's the fact that people associate cemeteries with fear."
yuuji lets out a noise of realization then, "it was the same for schools, too, wasn't it?"
nobara then looks over at all of you, confusion and irritation all over her face, "hold up, they didn't even know that yet?"
megumi closes his eyes with a sigh. he then begins to explain to nobara how the two of you wound up as jujustu sorcerers. sukuna's finger, how yuuji swallowed it, and the mysterious powers you seem to possess.
nobara gasps at that, all of it seeming unbelievable to her, "he swallowed a special-grade cursed object? gross!" she gags at the thought of swallowing something so vile.
she turns to you then with an accusatory stare, "and you! you didn't swallow anything, so how could you even do that? especially with no experience?!"
you shrug your shoulders at her, "i don't know. it just kind of happened."
she opens her mouth, probably wanting to ask you more questions when gojo cuts her off.
"i want to know what all of you are capable of, just think of this as a field test."
he turns around, finally looking at all of you. he points at you, nobara, and yuuji. "you three go exorcise the curse inside the building."
you all let out noises of disapproval, not wanting to go into the building.
"i thought only curses could exorcise curses, right? my sister and i don't know any jujutsu yet." yuuji says while you nod along with him.
gojo looks at yuuji then, that same irritating smirk he seems to always wear, "you're practically half curse already. there's cursed energy flowing throughout both of your bodies."
gojo then looks at you this time, continuing on, "though controlling that energy isn't something you can learn overnight, so use this."
he hands yuuji a weapon then, it looks like a large knife with a long handle on the end of it. you can sense that it's surrounded by energy.
you turn to look at gojo then, "but what about me sensei? do i get a cool weapon to go in there with?"
he shakes his head at you and you gasp, "how am i supposed to defend myself? are you trying to kill me?" you can't deny the irritation that fills you up.
"i want you to use your powers."
you feel your jaw go slack, not believing what you're hearing, "sensei, i didn't even know i could do that! i have no idea how to use it, let alone control it, how the hell am i supposed to use them?"
gojo crosses his arms, unphased by the look you're giving him. "you used them that night right?"
you nodded at him, "yeah but-"
he cuts you off, putting his hands on his hips, "then i know you can use them now, you just have to trust yourself."
you gulp and look back at the building, feeling the anxiety consume your body.
nobara scoffs then, making her way toward the building. you and yuuji look at each other, he shrugs and walks after her. you begin to follow.
"one more thing."
you all turn to look at gojo.
he's looking directly at yuuji, "don't let sukuna out. if you use him, you'll get rid of all the curses nearby in a flash, but you'll also drag everyone around into it."
yuuji gives him a smile and a thumbs up, "got it."
nobara lets out an exasperated sigh, "hurry up!"
all three of you then make your way into the abandoned building, nervous about what's waiting for you inside.
---
megumi and gojo sit outside on a bench, just across from the building.
megumi cannot stop thinking of every possible thing that could go wrong. what if they get hurt? what if sukuna finds a way to be let out? what if, what if, what if...
he shakes his head, trying to wash away the thoughts plaguing his brain. he turns to gojo, "i think i'll go, too."
gojo just sits there casually, hands on his knees, staring ahead to where his 3 students just walked into.
"don't push yourself. you're still recovering."
megumi gulps, looking back toward the building. "but someone needs to keep an eye on yuuji, right?"
gojo nods, "true, but the one we're testing is nobara."
megumi's mind flashes to you then. the small smile and thanks you gave him, the giggle you let out at his joke about gojo.
"but what about y/n? you heard her, she doesn't know how to control them yet."
gojo turns to look at him then, smirk adorning his features, "have a little faith in your girlfriend will you? she's got this."
megumi feels his face heat up when gojo says that. he's sure that he's glowing bright red.
"she's not my girlfriend!"
gojo laughs at his student, enjoying the new way he's found to torture the poor boy.
"whatever you say, megumi."
megumi just grumbles to himself and crosses his arms over his chest. he can only hope that this goes smoothly.
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"what a pain. why do i have to deal with curses after coming all the way to tokyo?"
you and nobara are walking up some stairs with yuuji just a few paces behind. you look at nobara and can see frustration seeping out of her.
"isn't that what you came here for?"
nobara doesn't say anything. she suddenly stops in her tracks, turning to face you and yuuji. "let's split up. i'll start from the top and make my way down. you two start from the bottom."
she turns back toward the stairs, "let's get this over with quick and grab some sushi from ginza."
yuuji continues to look at her, a bit irritated at her request, "hold on a minute, let's take this a bit more seriously."
you walk toward her and grab her upper arm, causing her to face you again. "we shouldn't split up, isn't that the number one rule in horror movies? this is a bad idea."
a scowl then grows on her face and her eyes are furrowed together in anger. she rips her arm away from your hand and turns to you fully.
she walks closer so that she's directly in your face, "i don't wanna hear it from two people who were normies until recently. now get moving." with that, she turns back to the stairs and takes off.
you can feel yourself becoming angry as well, clenching your fists and wanting to take off after her. feeling the need to give her a piece of your mind.
you feel a hand on your shoulder and your body goes stiff. turning your head you see yuuji looking at you with an apologetic smile.
"come on."
you turn back to where nobara once stood and let out a scoff, remembering the interaction.
"bitch." you can't help but mumble out.
yuuji chuckles at you. you two make your way back to the ground floor.
while walking, you hear something coming from above you. you both look up toward the noise, seeing something reaching for the both of you.
without hesitating, yuuji cuts off the appendage and moves you behind him.
turning to look at the source, you see a bug-like curse standing in front of you.
it begins to charge at the both of you then, which causes yuuji to begin running at it.
you can't help but watch as yuuji moves through the air like a professional gymnast. slicing its arms and stomach, then eventually landing the final blow in the head.
it whines out in pain and twitches on the floor. when yuuji pulls the blade out, that's when it begins to decay away in a cloud of purple and black smoke.
yuuji looks up at you with an enthusiastic smile, a twinkle dancing around in his pupils, "sister, did you see that?"
you shake your head and giggle at his antics, "i did brother, you can really move."
he hops up off the ground, dusting off his clothes and makes his way back to you. "come on, let's keep going."
you both continue on, keeping an eye out for any other curses that might be lurking in the shadows.
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nobara finds herself in a room with a handful of mannequins opposite of her. she's already sensed where the curse is, but she's waiting for it to appear.
she sighs out, her body emanating one thing, boredom.
"you think you're actually hidden there?"
she pulls two nails out of her pack along with her hammer, holding them in front of her.
"if you won't come out, i'll just exorcise you there."
she gets herself into a fighting stance, imbuing the nails with cursed energy. she tosses them and hits them with her hammer, letting them fly directly into the head of one of the mannequins.
the mannequin begins to fall backward, not quite hitting the ground. multiple eyes begin to sprout from its head and lay eyes on nobara.
as soon as it tries to take a step, the head explodes, sending the mannequin into a crumpled heap on the floor.
she drops her head and closes her eyes, proud of what she just accomplished.
she hears something then, looking back in front of her, a piece of wood falls onto the floor. revealing a small boy, curled into himself and shaking with fear.
she shakes her head, feeling sympathy for the child who probably just snuck in for some fun.
she walks toward him, stopping a few feet away. leaning down to his level, she gives him a reassuring smile, "hey, it's all right now. come on out."
he just shakes his head at her, seeming too scared to move.
she stands up straight and turns away from him, closing her eyes once again, "guess it's true that kids don't warm up to beautiful women. i suppose i'll call the twins."
the kid screams out then, "wait! don't leave me here!"
nobara turns around at the sound, seeing the boy reaching for her.
unfortunately, that's not the only thing she sees.
she sees a hand begin to reach for the boy's head from inside the wall, latching itself onto him.
it steps out of the wall, revealing itself.
a curse that, almost, resembles a disgusting cave troll. it dangles the boy in front of itself, waving him around like some toy.
nobara immediately gets ready to fight, but then realizes something.
she could hit the boy.
she sees the curse dig its claws into him, making blood drip from the punctures.
her eyes widen, trying to figure out what she can do. her mind going blank, unsure as to how to solve this. damn it!
the curse cackles at nobara, knowing the difficult position it has put her in. it knows she's angry and it only wants to rile her up more, so she'll make a mistake.
nobara realizes this as she understands what she has to do.
she drops her tools and bag, holding her arms in the air.
"i'm unarmed, let the boy go."
the curse grins maliciously at her, not dropping the boy, nor showing any signs it will do so.
she slumps dejectedly, all fight leaving her body.
"i wish i could have seen saori-chan one last time."
she hears something then, a rumbling noise from the direction of the curse. but that wasn't the curse was it?
a hand punches through the wall, beginning to reach around the open space it created.
"huh, i missed it?"
"good job brother, fantastic aim."
nobara knows those two voices.
the wall then bursts open, revealing none other than yuuji and y/n itadori.
the curse jumps back, boy still in hand, but it looks scared.
yuuji cuts off its arm, catching the boy before he hits the ground. yuuji kicks the curse in the face, using the momentum to bounce back away from it, the boy still in his grasp.
you walk up to stand next to your brother, looking down at the boy with a smile, "you okay?"
the boy nods with a slight blush on his cheeks.
you all look back at the curse, seeing it cradle its now severed arm. it groans in pain and begins to try and disappear through the wall.
"it's getting away!"
you don't even think before you run straight at the curse.
"sister what are you doing!"
you tackle the curse, which unfortunately sends you both flying out the window.
"y/n!"
you hear both yuuji and nobara shout for you, but you're not letting this thing get away. hurting an innocent child? now that's just uncalled for.
you feel that same electrical charge from the night at the school. it surges through you, but you aren't sure how to use it to exorcise this curse.
"you just have to trust yourself."
you remember gojo's words from earlier and close your eyes, honing all of your focus into using your newfound gift.
you open your eyes, looking directly at the curse who is staring back at you with nothing but fear.
you hold your hand up in the air, gathering some of your energy until it forms a ball of white light. you shove your hand into its head as it whimpers in pain.
the light overtakes the curse and yourself, becoming a glowing orb heading straight to the ground.
---
megumi and gojo hear glass breaking above them. a curse flies out of the window and then something, or someone follows with it.
"itadori!" megumi shouts, his eyes wide with panic. he turns to gojo, "we have to exorcise it."
gojo just smiles at him, waving off his worries. "just wait."
megumi looks back up toward the sky. he sees that you and the curse have disappeared. a ball of white light has engulfed you and the curse.
megumi can't help but watch what is happening, fearing the absolute worst. his heart is pounding and he's biting the dry skin off his lips, the anticipation of what might happen absolutely killing him.
the sphere of light crashes into the ground, debris flying all over the place.
megumi put his hands up in front of his face to block any objects coming his way.
he looks back up and sees smoke everywhere. the more he looks, that's when he sees a white glow inside it.
he continues to stare, just waiting for all of the dust to settle. god, he hates waiting.
once everything does clear, he's shocked by what he sees.
the curse lays dead on the ground, beginning to rot away with purple and black hues swirling around it. the head of it completely disintegrated.
then, there's you.
you stand there, breathing heavily. he can't see your beautiful eye color anymore, they have been replaced by a bright glow. your fists, hell, your whole body is covered in it. the color white surrounds you entirely.
there's only one word that megumi can think of to describe the presence you give off, intimidating.
yuuji and nobara have now made their way out of the building. they're out of breath from taking off after you. the small boy sits comfortably on yuuji's back.
"damn, they're all crazy."
megumi looks back at gojo, who wears a proud smile on his face.
he looks back to you and sighs with relief, closing his eyes and rubbing them with his hands.
"what the hell was that?" nobara screams, now standing by megumi and gojo.
you just stand there, you haven't come out of your state yet.
megumi approaches you cautiously, not wanting to startle you.
"it's okay itadori, it's over."
you simply stare back, breathing still ragged and fists still clenched.
megumi makes a move to put his hand on your arm, only trying to calm you. when you suddenly grab it firmly, pulling it away from you. that's when he feels the enormous amount of power from you, sending shockwaves through him like he just put his finger in an electrical socket.
"megumi." he hears gojo say, but he chooses to ignore him.
megumi can't help it, he is constantly drawn to you, like a moth to a flame. he feels this incessant need to protect you.
he feels your grip loosen and makes the move again. this time, successfully landing on your arm.
he rubs up a down softly, "it's done, you can let go."
he feels your power drain away, your eyes turning back to normal and your breathing slow. you unclench your fists and close your eyes briefly.
you open them and see everyone looking at you. you then look at megumi who wears a soothing look on his face. you feel your face warm up, loving the soft expression on him. it suits him, he should do it more.
you grap his hand on your arm and squeeze it lightly, "thank you, fushiguro."
the small smile you send megumi has him screaming internally.
you go to take a step, but feel yourself wobble, feeling unsteady on your feet.
"slowly, itadori."
you snort, looking over at him with a playful gaze, "i have a feeling this won't be the last time you say that."
he chuckles a bit, looking at you with the same gaze, "probably not."
you hear someone clear their throat and look over to see gojo staring at the both of you, that shit eating grin plastered on his lips.
"if you two are done, we have to get this boy home."
you and megumi both realize how close you are to each other, your hand still resting on his. both looking at each other with wide eyes, you jump away, scratching the back of your neck.
"sorry sensei." megumi says, and walks off toward everyone without another glance at you.
you also walk toward them on unsteady feet.
"y/n and i will take the boy home, you all go back and get your rest."
everyone nods and yuuji comes up to you, giving you a hug. he pulls back with a smile and ruffles your hair, "good job sister."
you smile back and thank him. he turns back and all of them begin to take the trek back to the school.
---
you and gojo have dropped the boy off, who thanked you with a wide smile and a hug.
now the two of you walk in silence, enjoying the beautiful day.
"so, when are you and megumi going to get together?"
you stop in your tracks and stare at gojo with wide eyes.
"excuse me?"
gojo stops as well, staring at you with that same fucking smirk, and at this moment you want to smack it off of him.
"i'm not blind you know."
you begin to stutter over your words, unsure of what to say next. your face growing warm in embarrassment.
gojo can't help but laugh at you. a genuine laugh that comes straight from the gut.
once his laughing fit stops, he pats you on the back with an approving smile.
"don't worry, your secret is safe with me."
with that, he begins to walk, continuing on the path to get back to the school.
you can't help but smile to yourself, running after gojo to try and keep up with his long strides.
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tags: @kasumitenbaz @ay0nha
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Not tagging My anon yall can guess who I am but. I feel its necessary
Is it just me that kind of feels actively uncomfortable kind of uncomfortable with how far jaters either 1. Goes to misgender and dehumanised Jo as a character 2. Bait because at this point I hope it's bait.
Idk maybe I'm sick of it but I'm somewhat tired of "Jo sucks he's so bad it's so bad eeee!!!!"... because like.
Im sorry at this point the entire rants reak of misogyny, and to some extent transphobia.
Oh no woman masculine she's a pick me
Fuck off
Honest feelings off chest
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little-bitty-froggy · 7 months
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Hi froggy I wanted to ask if you could write about Frank and Eddie taking care of a little reader after they have a nightmare?
I was hoping the reader could use a bottle and pacifier if that’s ok. You can also add headcannons if you want.Thank you!
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Cg: Frank Frankly, Eddie Dear.
Little: reader
Age: 1
TW: During the nightmare there's mentions of being tired up, knives, blood, etc.
It was a wonderful Frieday night, around 6:30 ish on October. Y/n was going over to Eddie's house for a sleepover, They were going to meet up with Frank halfway but he was running late. Y/n promised themselves that they weren't going to regress tonight and have a “normal” evening.
Y/n walked up to Eddie's house and saw small bats hung from the roof. Y/n thought it was quite cute, they enjoyed the spooky session as much as their little selves did.
*Knock knock*
Eddie opens the door. “why hello Y/n! Please come in!”
Eddie was in black pajamas that had bat prints on his pajama pants and bat slippers.
hi Eddie! Y/n says very excitedly.
Hello squirt. Eddie smiles hugging me. “Ok so I have the movie, games, fort aaaaand snacks ready, all we need is Frank. He should be here any moment now… say weren't you and frank meeting up?!
“Oh yeah, he said he was running late.” y/n places there bag by the couch.
“Oh, well he better be here soon or he's going to miss the time of his life!” Eddie has a huge smile on him face as he gets some snacks and drinks.
*Knock knock*
“*Gasp* EEEE that must be him!!!”
Eddie swings the door open to see Frank in a matching pajamas. They both swing into each other's arms. *Eddie laughs*” please come in, Y/n is already here and I'm about to start up a movie!”
“Ooh that sounds fun, what movie?” “Y/n picked it out, I think it was Chucky~? I'm not sure. Oh but please come in, it's quite cold!”
Y/n looks over to see Frank and Eddie walk into the living room.
“Hi, Frank!!” y/n smiles. *gasp*” You guys have matching pajamas?!” y/n wines. “Meany”
Frank and Eddie smile giggling. “Is someone getting cranky already?!” Frank asks in a playful yet modest tone. Y/n protests. “What! Nonononono!!! You guys are lucky that you have something to match and I don't… well anyway we have the movie up!”
Eddie rolls his eyes and chuckles,” Yeah okay.”
Eddie dims the lights and they cuddle up next to each other in the couch while y/n chooses to sit on the opposite side. When they started the movie, everything was fine but when y/n saw the fall they wanted to turn the movie off seeing as Eddie and Frank were happy and enjoying the movie, they didn't want to ruin it for them.
Y/n slowly got out a blanket and rapt it around themselves like a cocoon. “I'll be right back... I'm just going into the kitchen for a sec…”
Y/n leaves and once they reach the kitchen they got an eerie feeling that someone was watching them. They felt small but cept on pushing it aside. Y/n then grabbed a drink and headed back to the couch.
“Sorry about that” “It's ok” Frank says. It's now more then half way threw the movie and y/n is now fighting uncontrollably but no one seems to notice. Y/n spaces out to try and spread up time on there end.
“Y/n?” a can't voice can be heard “Y/n~?”
“Y/N?!!!”
“HUH!, oh it's just you frank”
“Is everything ok? You where spaced out.” Frank says in the most concerning voice he can make with out it seeming monitored. “Oh I'm fine, just got bored of the movie is all.” y/n pulls out a weak smile and Frank buys it.
[Time skip cause most of this is just about the movie and I'm lazy so now they are getting ready for bed]
Eddie pulls out a blow-up mattress and sets it up. Y/n then places their pillow and blanket neatly on the bed while Frank and Eddie are snuggling up on Eddie's bed. They end up falling asleep moments later. “Good night guys!” Y/n wishes whole getting cosy. “Good night Y/n” Eddie and frank say in sink.
[nightmare :)]
Y/n wakes up in in a dark trapped down to a table. “H-Huh where? Where am I?” Y/n trees to move. “What the?! ”H-HEY MMMMMH, WHO EVER YOU ARE LET ME GO!!!”
“Nah uuuh” creepy chuckling can be heard from a dark side of the room. A small creepy doll comes out with a knife.
“H-HUH!!!” tears stream down Y/ns face. “No!! NONONONONONO!!!”
Small sobs can be can be heard from y/ns side of the room.
Eddie grones. “Y/n? Frank?” Eddie wakes up frank. “Frank!”
“Huh” Frank wakes up. “Y/n?!”
Y/n jults awake trying to grasp there breath. Y/n starts Sobbing.
“Hey hey! Shh shh shh, hunny its ok!” Eddie tries to calm them down. Y/ns sobs slow down a bit, they then jump into Eddies arms.
“Shh sh its ok hunny. “ eddie rubs Y/n’s back.
“Frank? Can you make Y/n a bottle while i calm them down?” “Right away!” Frank gets out of bed and speed walks to the kitchen to make a quick worm bottle of angel milk. Frank walks back to the bedroom to see Y/n rapped up in a blanket being cradled by Eddie. “Aww they looks so peaceful~!” Frank says in aww as he shuts the bedroom door slightly. He sits on the bed.Eddie hands over Y/n as frank starts Feeding them. When the bottle is done, Frank hands Y/n a Pacifier and they gently take it. Small suckles can be heard from them. Eddie gently puts Y/n down in the middle of the bed while Frank was on the right and Eddie would be on the left. They ended uo cuddling while they fell asleep.
Im REEEEAAAAALLY sorry that its almost a year since i posted and did any requests. Ive been in a rough patch.
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gimmeurtmi · 3 months
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hi lils ― tis i !!! kana ‹3 i have not sent you an ask in a very long time and maybe ever……. even though we are mutuals….. i am sorry 😞 u r too cool it makes me nervous KDKDKS
anyways i have a little minho thought i would love to drop in ur inbox !!!!
picture this ― it has been a long and tiring day and you just want to lay down and get off your feet and wind down. you offhandedly mentioned to minho before heading home that it had been a long day. you’re not exactly expecting him to be home—you know it’s a busy day for him, preparing for some event or another. but when you walk through the door of your home and see him standing in the kitchen, making dinner, you almost tear up.
he looks up at you and gives you that gentle smile of his. “i’m making dinner. i started a bath for you a few minutes ago—should still be hot. why don’t you settle in and i’ll call you when dinner’s ready?”
i’m running out of brain power rn, so do with this what you will, but !!! it’s a start :( i’m very soft for him !!! maybe soft sex ensues or maybe he just takes care of you after a tiring day.
anyways !! wishing you well !! ALSO thank u for reblogging the little seungmin thing i wrote earlier eeee ‹3
hi kana!!!!! you’re the one who wrote the felix single dad fic omggggg <333 i feel like we’ve been mutuals forever on your old blog and i think we’ve never talked much but here now on this day i declare us friends!! i am not at all cool actually i’m 5’1 i hope that helps
uGH UGH UGH UGH UGH UGH because imagine coming home to housewife mimo taking care of dinner and he’s already turned the heating on so the house is nice and cozy when you walk in and it smells of your favourite dish and the sound of his chill playlist and the food sizzling as he cooks :((((
then you go enjoy your bath and when he comes in to call you he’s brought your bathrobe over from where he placed it above the heaters so it’s nice and toasty for you and he brushes your hair while you tell him why it was a hard day unless it’s one of those days you don’t wanna relive so instead he tells you a funny story but you know how minho gets animated when he’s storytelling so he ends up accidentally tugging your hair without noticing so he presses lil kissies around your scalp :(
AND AND he helps you with your skin care routine when you complain you don’t feel like doing it and he’s so warm and so home and so safe <33333
and if it does end up with sex it’s so soft and slow and lazy and spooning with his dick in you but it could also end up with cuddles and kisses and maybe some inappropriate touching but not in a needy way just comforting with his hand on your ass trying to make you giggle!!!
i’m in love with lee minho.
and i loved it so much so of course i reblogged it!!!! please always share your writing with us it’s wonderful :’) <3
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unadulteratedkr · 29 days
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2, 18, 19, 46 and a wildcard for you too for the fic writer game 💗
eeee thank you for coming into my inbox and playing with me, Ida 🥰🥰🥰
2. Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go?
Oh, I absolutely have to outline before I write. Pantsless writers, you terrify me (affectionate). It's not anything very formal, like I'm not doing bullet lists, it's much more stream of consciousness mixed in with me congratulating me on good ideas that get me out of problems I create for myself. It's very chaotic 😂 See below, part of my outline for I am tired, I am yours, where I outright ask myself for help
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18. Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process? How do you come up with titles?
It varies! If I'm writing a sequel to something, I'll often have the title picked out before I finish the piece just to keep it thematically tied to the first one. In my Vianton fics, they're all named from Brandi Carlile songs (listen, she's the first person to admit her love songs are fucked up and it fits the Big emotions of a vampire and a werewolf okay I don't make the rules), and the sequel to my actual!KrakenEd fic was pulled from a poem I used a lot as inspiration for the first fic. Sometimes titles come to me in the middle of a piece, sometimes I'm ready to publish and going ".... oh right. Title. For the fic. The fic's title. The title to go on the fic."
I usually pull from poetry or songs for fic titles, but I have some delightful notable exceptions:
-sin is sacred again is titled from the marketing copy from Kraken Rum. No really. I'm not bullshitting you. Go look.
EDIT: OKAY APPARENTLY SOME COWARD TOOK DOWN THE PART I USED AS INSPIRATION BECAUSE THE MONSTERFUCKER VIBES WERE CLEAR BUT LUCKILY I HAVE SCREENSHOTS
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-it's not something I can share yet here, but I also wrote a nsfw digital tie-in piece for the Tying the Knot zine titled "The 'I Duoy' Newlywed Special", which has that title solely because I wanted to capitalize on the fucking AMAZING name @jackuntiljune came up with for Archie's shotgun wedding boat
19. What is the most-used tag on your ao3?
This made me laugh so much because @poorlyformed will be SO proud to hear that there's a TIE between "reunions" and "rimming" in my collection.
46. How would you describe your style? (Character/emotion/action-driven, etc)
Ooooo, definitely emotion-driven, but rooted in the characters? Like, I want my writing to evoke emotions, and I write from a very personal place and put a lot of my own heart into my writing, but I also try really hard to make sure that it's rooted in the characters.
Very much how I approach any characters I've ever played too, I think. Like, I bring my own knowledge of the world and of feelings to any part I play, but at the end of the day.... I am NOT a water spirit or an owl or a grad student, and I need to find that character's truth and imagine outside of it, and I try to do that with fic as well. I want to bring what I find compelling to Ed or Stede, but I want to translate it through their characters to make it authentic and fulfilling to THEM.
And for my wild-card, I'm gonna pick, drumroll please [appropriate length drumroll]
#77: Do you have a favorite scene you’ve written from [insert fic here]?
Because I want to talk about my Stardust AU, Between the Sand and Stardust, which miiiight be my favorite thing I've written?
My favorite scene, bar NONE, was the scene where Stede got transformed into a mouse. One, mouse Stede is literally perfect, Stede as a tiny little dormouse gives me so much joy, but TWO, it's when Ed admits he loves Stede for the first time and it's so ACHINGLY TENDER because he thinks Stede can't understand him so he lets himself be a little more honest about it and ALSO I love it because Stede immediately post-transformation is a dolt and I'm in love with him:
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cptnleviackerman · 3 months
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hi hiii, 🐼💘🍼🎟 for the ask game!
omg thank you so much for asking so many questions!! I loved answering these so much!! sending you big hugs rn◝(ᵔᵕᵔ)◜
I think I went insanely overboard with these answers omg so I'm putting them under the cut :')
🐼 – what’s the silliest nickname(s) you have for each other?
I think we're both pretty non silly when it comes to petnames/nicknames, so the sillest names we call eachother probably aren't even that silly ahah
I love to call levi sweetie, so when I'm teasing him or trying to get his attention I call him my sweetie pie and I always find that his head snaps in my direction aksksjs he looks at me like I've lost it, (I do kinda like it though, so I'm not going to stop) also I called him my honey bun once and... I don't think I've ever seen him react like that for anything else, ever
also, this is not so silly, but I love to call him my angel, I love how red his face gets, and sometimes he tuts and rolls his eyes but eeee I know he loves it so much:((
the most outlandish and silly name levi calls me is probably wifey, and he uses so sparesly that I have to physically stop myself from reacting when he says it bec I don't want him to get shy or embarrassed about it, even though I love it so much
💘 – how do you celebrate Valentine’s Day?
if we both have a free day then we spend the whole day together tehe. we'll have a small lie in, this is one of the very rare occasions levi let's me keep him in bed in the morning, and we'll get up about 10/10.30am, after having cuddles (and most likely some mornings kisses...) I usually try to make him breakfast in bed, but he can't bare to sit in the bedroom on his own while I make it, so he usually joins me in the kitchen after about 10 minutes--he'll have his adorable dressing gown and slippers on and I absolutely love the sight. he'll make us coffee while I make us food hehe. I love a chill day though so we'll spend most of the day watching some tv, a couple movies or some episodes of our current show, and we'll snack throughout the day, somehow missing lunch bec we're too full 🫣🫣 Levi will also insist on us going out for a walk around the park, just for some fresh air, and I love to drag him to all the shops I can while we're out so I can browse all the cute valentine stuff (he usually ends up buying me a couple extra gifts bec he's the cutest ever)
we'll ofc have dinner together at the end of the day, but if our january is busy and chaotic and we're both feeling stressed and tired then we'll order a takeaway and eat it at home--Levi will set up the dinner table with candles and the fresh bouquet of flowers he got me, and we'll put on some nice music and eat and chat together. but if we both feel up to it then we'll go out for dinner! usually just to our favourite date restaurant, but we always try to order some fancy, new dessert to try!
and if we're both busy during the day because of work(which unfortunately is a fairly common occurrence for our valentine's) then we'll just have a nice dinner together--takeaway or eating at a restaurant, same as above.
🍼 – want any kids? how many?
we do want kids! but I don't think I'm anywhere near ready right now, and so every time I think about kids I get really scared and freaked out, but if we were to have kids, years in the future probably, I think I'd like to have two. every time I imagine levi as a dad I just get such a warm feeling, he's the most patient and calm man whenever he's with children, and when I see him talking and playing with my little cousins it makes me insanely happy.
levi had never really thought about kids until we were about 2 years into our relationship, but we've had many discussions about kids, and we're always keeping the other updated about our thoughts. in our chats Levi's said that if we had kids he'd want two, or three.
🎟️ – do you go to live entertainment together (concerts, plays, etc.)?
I am obsessed with concerts, I love them so so much, but levi is not much of a fan of big arenas or stadium concerts, so if we go to one together we usually stick to a small venue. he loves coming with me though, and seeing me so happy and comfortable in that environment, but theres not a big overlap in our styles of music, so if we go together, he usually just goes for me, and to watch over me hehe
we very occasionally go to the theatre together, if there's good performances happening close to us! levi doesn't like to travel too far just for a couple of hours, so if he really wants to see a play then we make a whole trip out of it and we'll stay 2 or 3 nights
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