#I don’t actually need an explanation

[hereathemoment]

I will never get over how Nesta was one of the best female characters I’ve ever read and then she was forced into a story she doesn’t belong in

Someone please explain why she wasn’t allowed to LEAVE??? They don’t like her. She doesn’t like them. 🤨

#I don’t actually need an explanation #god knows sjm keeps certain characters around to scapegoat #rip Tamlin in acotar #rip Nesta after acowar #anti inner circle #nesta deserves better

[designernishiki]

it’s kinda funny to me how that dumb scene in kiwami 1 of majima getting shot and left for dead in the harbor was basically just added as a half-assed way to explain majima not being around for a bit of the plot, but they accidentally(?) just made it seem like start of a chain reaction where majima ended up feeling slighted and heartbroken after being abandoned like that and then lashed out about it via smashing a big truck into the building kiryu was in. and yeah that isn’t inherently a romantic thing as-is but then they go and add the part where majima grabs a hostess and performatively hits on her as in-kiryu’s-face as possible, she says she’s already in love with someone, and majima lets her go immediately, no questions asked, making a big fucking point of it just to say see THAT kiryu? I appreciate when people are HONEST about their FEELINGS. people who won’t just BACKSTAB someone who CARES about them to save themselves. is that so crazy kiryu?? huh??? anyway make it up to me get down here and fight me right fucking now

#I think on another level he was sorta saying like ‘hey kiryu. you’re making it extremely clear that you don’t trust me and my intentions #and I’ve been trying to show you- over and over again- that I’d do just about anything for you and your safety #but I can’t just let my mask fall off in front of everyone- I need to keep up the unpredictable morally grey wildcard act for both my sake #AND yours. because disguising my helping you as crazy random violent outbursts and weird stalker behavior #is the only way I CAN help you. do you think it would go over well with shimano or literally anyone else if I was outright helping you out #of the kindness of my heart and fondness for you? stop being so fucking dense and look past the crazy wacky nonsense for a second and #maybe you’ll realize that all I do at the end of the day- really- is help you and put my own life and reputation on the line for you. #I am an honest guy when it comes to my real values and when I told you I wouldn’t let anyone kill you unelss it was myself- I meant it. #I’ve taken a knife and a bullet for you now. can you REALLY not see through the act yet? am I REALLY that unpredictable when you think about #it?’ #that was a longer explanation than i intended but. it was difficult to put into words #I basically feel like it could be read as him implying kiryu shouldn’t backstab the people who put themselves on the line to help him #and/or pointing out that he’s never actually done kiryu dirty and has stuck to his word protecting him in the ways he can #trying to say yeah all this is a crazy act and all but when it comes down to it you Can trust me #it really makes sense when you think about it that he’d have to help kiryu/show affection towards kiryu in unpredictable convoluted ways #at that point in time because. I mean. there’s a reason he was the only person who showed up to welcome kiryu when he got out of prison #and that’s because A) he sticks to his word and his loyalty to people he cares about and B) no one else had the balls or the batshit insane #mask to wear to ward off anyone asking real questions like majima did. because ANYONE associating themselves with the supposed #patriarch-killer was a HUGE NO-NO at the time. someone important showing up for kiryu and welcoming him back outright could’ve caused #all-out warfare probably. except majima. because majima was dedicated and smart enough to use his widely-feared wildcard persona #(that everyone tended to view as incapable of having any Real agenda to worry about) to his And kiryu’s advantage #does that make sense??? I feel like it makes a lot of sense if you get it to click in your head #kazumaji #majima #kiryu #yakuza #kiwami 1 #yk1 #rambling

[jamietarttsdaddyissues]

Okay I’m going to say this and I’m going to say this once.

I do not like how the relationship with Jamie’s father was handled in season 3.

If they wanted to go the route of forgiveness they absolutely could have. If they wanted to go the route of his dad going to rehab they absolutely could have. Those are not inherently wrong or bad. It’s a show about forgiveness and I get that. It’s a comedy and Jamie is not the main character - I get that too.

My issue is this: the show went out of its way on multiple occasions to show just how violent and abusive James is. Just to give a few examples:

Repeated physical abuse

Repeated verbal abuse

Planning, funding, and likely pressuring the sexual abuse of his 14 year old son (a minor and below the age of consent in both The Netherlands and the UK regardless of the age of the girl in the red light district)

The willingness to beat Coach Beard (basically a stranger to him) with a metal pipe in a 3 to 1 fight in a back alley which could have realistically resulted in his death (and calling Beard “son” right before the final blow)

Jamie literally gave up his dream - a job as a professional footballer on a top hometown team - to leave the country on a trashy reality show just to get away from his father. The show traced a large portion of Jamie’s issues back to his relationship with his father. Not all of course - but that was a big theme of his growth and development.

So even if we entertain the notion that this stint in rehab was successful and James is sober - that’s great. That’s a storyline I wouldn’t mind hearing - IF we had the appropriate time to show it. But the thing is, we didn’t. This season was disjointed and rushed in many ways - and I’m not complaining - I still loved it. But if they’re going to tackle a topic this serious, they need to do it right. They need to be clear that alcohol was not the only problem James had and that sobriety does not absolve you of accountability. As important as it is to portray the message that all human beings can change, including addicts, it is equally as important to show the serious work that addicts in recovery put in to address the hurt that they caused through their addiction. It is not easy work to battle addiction and to mend relationships - sometimes part of recovery is accepting that you can’t mend things with everyone you’ve hurt and that is the right of the victim to decide how they feel.

We were shown none of this. What we got instead was:

A speech from Jamie’s mom about how he is still amazing despite his dad while still somehow crediting Jamie’s talent to his dad’s abuse

Ted telling Jamie to forgive his dad as he’s mid-panic about his safety and his dad’s location

Ted making a point to say the forgiveness was for Jamie’s sake, not for James - which was ALMOST good until they ruined it

Denbo and Bug suddenly supportive despite being just as violent as James in 2x09

James suddenly in rehab for 0.2 seconds

Jamie reaching out to his dad via text despite having no idea his dad is in rehab - something that is realistically compromising his physical and emotional safety

A quick clip of Jamie bonding with his father before the season/series ends for good

The reason I connected with Jamie so intensely from season 1 was the shared experience of abuse from my father. I want to be clear that I know I’m projecting - that’s what fandom is - and I in no way expected the show to end exactly as I wanted. However, this is what I would have liked to see as 1) an abuse survivor 2) a licensed therapist and 3) a person:

The message that you can heal without forgiving those who hurt you OR that you can forgive them and still not allow them back into your life (ESPECIALLY if it compromises your safety)

The message that sometimes people don’t change for the better and you can grieve that relationship while still fostering healthier ones elsewhere.

An emphasis on support systems and chosen family when someone doesn’t have the reality of a parent or partner getting better (we saw this with Bex seeking out Rebecca and Rupert’s assistant)

Instead of Man City suddenly cheering for Jamie, which felt insanely unrealistic, having the cheers of Richmond fans drown out the boos and verbal assaults of the Man City crowd - further emphasizing that despite the pain he has attached to Man City and his father, he has a home with Richmond.

So to wrap up this very long rant, I feel very disheartened by this part of the season. I still love Ted Lasso and always will - there were so many parts of this season I absolutely adored and wouldn’t trade for anything - but I feel that they dropped the ball on this one. Most people don’t get to repair relationships with abusive parents. Is it possible? Of course. Is it important to depict that it can happen? Absolutely. It’s a show about forgiveness. But they didn’t need to do it like this for Jamie’s storyline. They could have kept the speech about forgiving James for Jamie’s sake and deleted all of the rehab/texting afterwards. I still wouldn’t have been thrilled but it would have made more sense to me in context of the show. And it would have meant a lot more to me as someone who’s father is unlikely to ever stop being a risk to my safety.

This just felt bad. Jamie Tartt had one of the best arcs I’ve ever seen in media and he deserved better than that.

#ted lasso spoilers #jamie tartt #James Tartt #anyway #you don’t have to agree with me on this #this is just my take #clearly I’m personally triggered a bit by it lol #I’m not looking to argue or anything just needed to vent #a lot of things felt off this season and I know there’s a lot of behind the scenes reasons for that #some we’re aware of and some we aren’t #but this is one of the ones that hurt #I have a few others too but since this is a Jamie blog I’m just posting about the Jamie ones #don’t even get me started on Sam being told to forgive the people who committed a hate crime at his restaurant #and no further acknowledgement of that trauma and safety issue #and no explanation of how he got onto the Nigerian team with Edwin Akufo actively sabotaging him #okay I promise I’m actually done now #long post

[chiritori]

it would be pretty cool if my brain could be normal for 1 (one) second

#i am so tired of being sad & upset over this but it just won’t stop #like i just want to understand why they’re doing this! what did i do wrong? i thought we were friends! #every time they watch my instagram story while continuing to ignore my text it’s like the wound reopens #like hello? why are u watching my story if ur ignoring me? do they not realize how hurtful that is? #do they not realize how hurtful all of this is? #i really thought they were a good person but if they’re the type to ghost their friends for no good reason clearly i thought wrong #and part of me is like. still in denial about it #like i feel like there has to be a better explanation than ‘i don’t like you and i want you to leave me alone’ #or ‘i don’t give a shit about you and your feelings’ #like there has to be another explanation! there has to be! #i really need to bring this up to my friend who i met them through cause she’s the only one who can maybe provide me w some clarity here #cause the lack of closure is actually driving me mental. it’s like there’s been a raincloud over my head for the past 6 days #vent

[peapod20001]

I’m the type that can and will cry if think too hard <3

#random post #me tag ∠( ᐛ 」 ) |/ #I’m not an overly emotional person in the stereotypical way. but I do get in my feels when thinking about life and the experience of living #I’m like. constantly explaining things to myself cus there’s never really a time or place to talk about it #also my method of explaining things is very not coherent sometimes. so it takes me a bit to really get my point across in a comprehensible #way. I’m a big thinker. I have many thoughts and ideas a views. a daily thing of mine is noticing problems #and then fixing them in my head with thought out explanations and motives and outcomes #it’s like I’m talking to someone else. much like how I format my text posts. that’s how my inner monologue is #me talking to myself is actually me talking to someone else. someone that isn’t real #anyways it’s a daily occurrence. every day of my life is spent with thoughts similar to those breaking down a movie #lots of thoughts from adhd. compulsive thoughts from ocd. overwhelming thoughts from autism. distressing thoughts from bpd #ya. this isn’t a vent I just need to like. see the thoughts in writing so I can do smth else. like eat this muffin ive been staring at for #over an hour now <3 mmmbfbg yea muffins are hard to eat now cus I had some with mold and food mold especially is a big nono for me #spend like. five minutes examining the damn thing before I even consider taking a bite. I’m very hungry an thirsty </3 #when your mouth is so dry you can taste your own mouth 👍 I’m experiencing #nothing in particular. just experiencing. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I like having an experience and living #drank my tea and I had like. hallucinations of like an alcohol prep pad. I’ve been using those in my ear cus. tmi. had a pimple that’s #causing problems so mom suggested that. it burned! which means it worked so word. I’ve noticed lately that both me AND my family have been #using ‘word’ a lot. dad says we’ve been saying it but no we haven’t. if we had I’d have BEEN saying it. maybe we’ve used it before for a bit #but now it’s back. idk. I’ve said it in class on more than one occasion lmao I don’t look like the type to say smth like that but whatever #it’s like when I used to say bro after every sentence like 10 years ago lol. we’re a family of parrots we repeat eachother a lot #I started saying I love you out of no where and they started doing it too. we whistle at eachother from across the house. sing ear worms #together. quote funny things at every opportunity and drive the joke into the ground. everyone in this house is a different kind of mentally #I’ll and it’s the most beautiful clash of personalities because we’re all so annoying and we love eachother so much and also our #communication is shit because some ppl have hearing loss and another is a short fused child and some are quick to interrupt and some dont #get a word in and some just can’t explain and some can’t understand. we get there eventually at some point. we don’t get the full grasp of #how much we love eachother yet. but we’re gettin there. anyways this went into several different directions but they’re all good ones #I think. if you read all this good on you! this is my brain 24/7/365 haha ok love you

[meteortrails]

cannot stop thinking about Jason in relation to like. the next generation of superheroes and kids in general. bc I do kinda think the way fanon keeps giving him these overbearing maternal urges that will help him overcome his trauma is super weird and not really a good storyline at all, but I also think that Jason (like Bruce) is very very driven by the terrible things that happened to him when he was a kid and the fundamental desire both to somehow fix it (fighting crime/killing the joker/cleaning up crime alley) and to try and keep it from happening to any other kids. it’s a really key piece of why I like him being mad about there being a new Robin: to him it means even his death wasn’t enough to stop Bruce from putting another kid in that exact same danger; that it wasn’t a seismic enough event to make Bruce change the way his parents death was. I think it’s something that it would make sense for Jason to be very deeply upset about in a way that he can’t really reconcile. the way I characterize him, it’d be a really, really serious issue to him whether teen vigilantes are safe and protected bc of how he died and how little things changed. idk that he’d recognize that about himself but it doesn’t make it untrue.

so anyways, the real point of this post: for me personally this would be one of the major emotional beats of a serious Jason-as-Batman run. it would be Jason realizing that going forward in his life and his career as a vigilante, he wants to prioritize protecting people; just him really starting to internalize the idea that he can be a symbol that makes people feel safe, not afraid. and in my mind, a part of that for him would be after bruce steps down/dies, seeing a) most of his siblings, who have all also been at this shit since they were literal kids, absolutely dreading taking on this further responsibility, and b) the ones that are still kids (looking at you Damian <3) thinking that this is a responsibility they should be somehow prepared to take on. I think a lot of older siblings with not great parents have experienced that feeling of seeing your younger sibling go through the shit you did, and realizing suddenly and violently how not okay it was and exactly how far you’ll go to keep it from happening again. and so of course Jason would step up to bat, and begin to realize how hard it can be to keep kids from trying to fight crime when they know you’re doing it lol. I just think it would be really really cool for Jason, as he is stepping into Bruce’s shoes, to understand how difficult it was for Bruce and how little it excuses the ways he failed Jason and his siblings over the years. bc Jason can and will be better than Bruce ever was.

#should specify: there’s a lot of things that would need to align for me to really be satisfied with Jason becoming Batman?? #for example: actual explanation for where cass is. cass as Batman is a whole other post tho lol #also like. some character development+him genuinely being a part of the batfam again. #the batfamily one I don’t mean in like a. ‘he need to apologize/be rehabilitated/be coddled to death’ way #just that like… if you’re gonna be Batman you kinda gotta be on ok terms with the gotham capes??? #anyways. I think about Batman as a person as a symbol as a responsibility CONSTANTLY pls ask me questions #batman #jason todd #big beefy baby boy

[janamensch]

Collateral damage

#oc #my ocs #juliett #spidersona #I don’t need to learn how to draw backgrounds if I just draw cool gradients and then come up with story reasons for why it looks that way #I think Juliett’s universe tends to romanticise how things look #Sure this is a horrible fire that wasn’t meant to happen and it’s really bad #But also the embers flying up from the fire and the water from the sprinkler system are mixing and in the smoke they look like stars #Which reflects Juliett’s way of thinking because she also tends to romanticise things even if everything is bad #I am actually really busy with other stuff right now but I am losing my mind over this drawing so so much #Like I could write an essay about this in the tags but my mind is also completely head empty about this #So twitter is just going to get this drawing with just the title and no explanation whatsoever haha let’s go

[canichangemyblogname]

Do y’all know anyone who doesn’t actually know how to have a conversation, all they know is how to interrupt or derail a conversation? Like they keep talking over you to tell you their opinion on something (often unrelated), even though the conversation doesn’t call for an opinion. There was no, “What do y’all think,” but they still gotta interrupt, speak very loudly over you and tell you some very wrong opinion. Or you’ll be talking and then they just start up a different topic. And when you call them out on that the response is, “I’m not interested in that.”

#My mother fr #She called me up and ask me how work was last week #And as soon as I started talking about this really neat tour we got to take of a supportive housing facility #She interrupted the story to ask an innocuous question: ‘What is that?’ #But I didn’t get more than a few words into the explanation before she had an opinion about what I was saying #Her: ‘Oh. I think that’s quite useless.’ #Me: ‘Actually. It’s very useful and a very helpful housing program.’ #Her: ‘I don’t see why they can’t just rent any ol’ apartment.’ #Me: ‘This provides them disability services or addiction services or behavioral health help so they can keep a roof over their heads.’ #Her: ‘That seems like a little too much. I never got that kind of help.’ #I WISH YOU FUCKING HAD #And then I ignored her comment and tried to continue talking about my tour #ONLY FOR HER TO INTERRUPT TO TELL ME ABOUT THIS NEW BREWERY SHE DISCOVERED IN THE SUBURBS #She and my father hardly need more fucking alcohol #Oh my fuck. She drives me up a wall #And then she asked me if I know what ‘asexual’ means because my sister ‘refused’ to explain it to her #And I got only a few words into my answer before she INTERRUPTED ME just to be aphobic #Which is why I never told her that I thought I was on the aro/ace spectrum back when I identified as aromantic #She only seems to know how to push my buttons #IDK why I even try to converse with her

[dois-funnyzone]

the jojolands chapter 2 spoilers //

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has rohan’s inclusion in the new jojolands chapter effectively undone all understanding of the ending of stone ocean or are the people saying “omg rohan survived the universe reset!” just joking. please tell me it’s jokes……

#mayor talk #jjba #jojolands #the jojolands #the jojolands spoilers #jojolands spoilers #i need to vent about this stuff because i don’t have a lot going on in my life rn ok #i might add or link to an explanation if people actually are serious #i’ve just seen this ‘joke’ a few too many times that my ‘jojo 🤓’ alarm bells started ringing #i’m sorry i’m like this. asjkfjs #THEEE jojoland

[faithinlouisfuture]

definitely soured my mood for the day

#hey what do you think about anon you must be new here #I’m not interested in talking about any of that on my blog #his personal life is his own fucking business and I don’t give a shit #there’s a lot more shady bullshit happening around his actual career and fandom that needs an explanation #xorainbowlouis tw #jack saunders #bbc radio 1 #this is beyond fucked up and disturbing

[eeunwoo]

this is super on brand for me but today I’m experiencing debilitating frustration @ being misunderstood on the internet like some kind of loser 😩

#I’m v open and literally never lie unless it’s needed #so u can see why I struggle with people trying to claim the opposite when they don’t know me. or make assumptions and pass them off as fact #or come to conclusions without asking anyone who would actually know #and if you see some of my posts you’d argue the same about me but the fact is if I post something that could change peoples views about #somebody else .. I check with multiple people who know #that’s why the v@l and her bestie situation was particularly upsetting bc there’s an entire group of people who knows I’m right but. didn’t #say anything in support and just let a bunch of ppl send me anon hate and invent things that aren’t true #and use that situation to fit fake narratives they already thought of before #I’m not dredging it up again I’m just using it as an example #or the anon on my last blog listing a bunch of things about me that they got completely wrong and didn’t bother asking about #and sometimes I always think about clarifying those things in a huge post. but then I remember those people will just find something new to #cling on to. so there’s no point. #but it doesn’t mean it’s not upsetting. you know ? #and it’s not about a single person or anything it’s just. in general. #I’ve been criticised for admitting I’m not perfect and can be an asshole about things and somebody basically said that’s not ok either #so it’s like whatever I do sucks anyway sjdjsdn #and that’s what bothers me I think. that I doubt I’d be shunned and blacklisted as a creator to THIS extent if people took the time to #actually ask me if the things people say are true and what my explanation is #anyways .. #mrow.org

[punk-pins]

question. how are you supposed to respond when people (positively) comment on your accent?

#context I have a mild speech impediment on my Rs and a very autistic musical speech pattern / cadence #i don’t have an ACCENT any different from the ppl around me I’m just fucking autistic when speaking #but ppl LIKE my ‘accent’ I get compliments on it all the time #i just never know what to fucking say bc like. thanks it’s actually a disability I did years of speech therapy for makes them feel rude/bad #and I don’t want them to feel BAD but then they ask where I’m from and I’m like right here. the same place as you. #and they don’t BELIEVE me they insist I’m from somewhere else / need some sort of explanation #so sometimes I lie and then they’re satisfied or I double down on the truth that I’m from here and they get upset??? #but I don’t want to like. disclose my disability status here. bc then they’d also get upset!!! #idk. curse of the funny voice I guess :/

[lilgynt]

having so many thoughts on will and hannibal it’s making me incoherent

#personal #imagine one person in the whole world other than you spoke ur language #you could hate them to you’re very core but you’re always gonna have a very specific bond with that #inside jokes familiarity understanding no matter what there’s a connection deeper than you’ll have with anyone else #everything they do makes complete sense when you remember neither of them have ever felt truly seen before the other #and unfortunately given that their not used to this and have never been properly socialized #and are frankly weird people #yeah whole show makes sense barely need further explanation i don’t even need it actually #what’s up with the rest of the cast actually all that weird shit is quite clear

[milo-is-rambling]

Me when I want to be wanted more than anything else

#I think I’d be more normal if I had more friends but every friend I lose makes me isolate more and more and now it’s like I can only trust #people I’ve interacted with for years already #and then every time I try to make friends I either don’t respond (anxiety. not feeling a vibe. whatever) or they stop responding when I #actually like them (someone who talked to me for like four days in an row and then randomly blocked me no explanation) #I think if I made more friends or even talked to more people I’d understand how to do it successfully but I don’t have enough experience and #no one wants to be friends with me (and it’s scary when they do!!!) wahhhhhhhhhh #I need to move somewhere new and talk to strangers I’m good at that #I made more friends a a concert age 14 than I have from me the ages of 16-19 and i think that’s ridiculous #how do I explain to everyone ever that nothing bad happened to me I’m just mentally ill bc my hormones are fucked and it’s let me to spiral #and ruin my own life and then slowly painfully build my life back up and then crush it all again over and over again for years and years #to the point where I’m afraid I’ll never amount to anything so the idea of ever truly having people who find any value for me in their lives #feels like it’s fake and then when I do finally trust people I end up loving too hard and fucking it up and then I isolate for even longer #it’s takes me twice as long to find a new friend and trust them again and then it happens all over again #it feels like I’m destined to be alone bc I can’t tell the difference between platonic shit and flirting so I have a wall between me and #everyone else bc I’m afraid to like someone too much and confuse my brain bc I don’t ever want to like someone who doesn’t like me even if #it’s as friends bc I’ve put more effort in than other ppl always but it’s bc I put too much effort in and expect too much and no one else #is as weirdly obsessive and clingy and dedicated as I am bc I’m not normal and that’s why no one likes me bc I try too hard or not at all #and it makes everyone in my life family friends crushes whatever hate me bc I’m all or nothing forever I can’t just be normal #I think a lifetime of living with my mother has permanently damaged the way I see myself #who are all these normal ideal people in my brain why did my mother put them there and why will I always be worse than a hypothetical person #designed to shame me for struggling which gets louder the more I struggle #spirals cycles etc etc etc #ugh. I want my brain to turn off I’m gonna go take a dab and maybe delete this later

[camscendants]

That Jaiden Animations video about her being aroace really messes with me cause it’s way too relatable so it just adds another layer of confusion to me

#I’m not doing a read through of this so any weirdly written stuff just bear through it #like women ❤️ #and maybe guys? #but idk if I have definitely had a legit crush #like her explanation of actively looking for a crush #I’ve never organically just developed a crush and I’m second guessing if I’ve actually ever had a legit one #I’ve debunked the ones from elementary one I just said I did cause I knew he had a crush on me the other I have 0 memory of any feelings so #idk then I debunked a few from middle school there Might be one viable one #maybe #but any ‘crushes’ I’ve had I’ve actively searched out #like this girl at work idk if the nervousness I feel around her is a crush or just my social anxiety #and people say fiction doesn’t count towards your sexuality #and idk how I feel about being all touch feely with people #guys are confusing too cause sometimes it’s like yknow maybe but if girls are discounted too then it’s a no #idk #but yeah her whole ‘went to school searched for a crush couldn’t find one damn unlucky’ is literally what I’ve done for YEARS #I think I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m either bi or aroace #she did say 0= 0 but I don’t know which 0 I am #I think I need to like. actually experience things for my self for real to know though #but nobody likes me I’m weird so guess I’ll just sit here and crush on fictional women #aro ace #asexual #aromantic #jaiden animations #aroace #ace #lgbtqia

[letterstotheflre]

i love being told that i’m not really bisexual bc of how i dress/look 😃

#i went out on friday with two girls from one of my classes n the topic of our sexualities came up #and they both said they were bi n they looked at me and said ‘you are staright right?’ #n i said ‘no lol i’m bi’ #n they said that there’s no way that i’m bi bc i dress like a straight girl n have the vibe~~ of a straight girl #that i must be bi-curious not actually bi n i was like 🧍🏻‍♀️ #sorry do u want my sex life history?? like i don’t owe u some explanation as to why i’m actually bi.. but also like i went to catholic #school.. all of my friends are straight and i didn’t feel comfortable telling them i’m bi until senior year.. my parents don’t know i’m bi #so i had/still have to act a certain way so they don’t Figure It Out #do i have to walk around with a big sign on my forehead that says ‘ACTUALLY I’M BISEXUAL I JUST LIKE DRESSING THIS WAY’?? #idk it was just really invalidating n it made me sad and uncomfortable in myself :(( #sorry i needed to get this off my chest #keeping up with tina