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showerbong · 6 months

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i could eat tuna out of the can every single day if it wasn't for the mercury. seriously I love it you don't have to get out any tupperware and you can recycle the can when you're done. so you can feel like a GOOD PERSON doing GOOD in the world even though you're like gobbling down essentially cat food over the saucencrusted stove in your slovenly sweatpants in your uncared for apartment that you pay way too much fucking money for (but you don't really have the upfront cash that it would take to like move and also you would rather be in credit card debt than live with a roommate at this point). i have discovered recently that shredded slow cooked chicken breast is a nice alternative to exceeding your mercury allotment, though it does, rather unfortunately, require Tupperware. I usually just pluck little pinches of chicken shreds right out of the container in the fridge and drop it in my mouth like grated cheddar.

i am doing exactly this when you call. i feel like kendall jenner the week before the victorias secret fashion show, where she only eats like boiled chicken breast and cries a lot. "cccheay" I say. "what" you say. "sorry im just chewing." the chicken is stringy and kind of styrofoamy. it's getting packed down into a tacky fibrous ball into one of my back molars. youre just talking about your day and i want to pay attention, i do, but i just keep watching this insta reel montage of like 30 peoples reactions to this girl i VAGUELY knew from boston's pregnancy announcement. the reel is just like unrelenting clip after clip after clip of her like having drinks with another couple and passing them an "auntie & uncle" keychain or like her sitting on a couch with a couple of girls who open a card and start crying or her watching her father unroll a worlds best grandpa T shirt. all of the clips are overlayed with this insane song called moments to memories and there's no original audio, just exceedingly ordinary absolute amazement on each of their faces. i guess her husband like secretly filmed them all.

i guess i bring all this up because i have this girls desk, which like isnt that weird but i can't stop thinking about it. im staring at it right now, the desk, as im eating these dry chicken shreds with my fingers and you are on the phone talking about your day. all of the books i was supposed to read but didn't are sitting on top of this pregnant girls ikea desk that's in my living room but also in my bedroom since i live in a studio, and there's only one working hinge left on the little desk cabinet and i think the inside is stuffed with old magazines, but the thought of opening it to even see what's in there makes me nauseous. this girl was dating the roommate of my ex, which is how I met her, back when I was still dating my ex. and then when she and her bf, my exes roommate, you get it- so when they moved in together she had to get rid of all her like college era slovenly ikea furniture so she gave it to me for free. i think my boyfriend and i screamed at each other when we got it stuck at an angle in the bend of the staircase trying to lug it up to my 3rd floor apartment.

anyway the girl was nice but incredibly ordinary and just kind of unexciting. she asked me what highlighter i used no less than 6 times. for whatever reason i am currently convinced that she despises me and has told everyone we ever mutually knew that im an evil lying cunt with weird pussy lips. even though in reality i don't think she even remembers me, which infuriates me even more, so i like her post and then go through her profile and like the one before just so she's reminded that I exist.

i also cannot for the life of me remember if she's adopted or not, idk there was something weird at one point she had said about her parents, but this was in the middle of covid when i knew her so it could also have been that her parents are just old. it was either really old or adopted. so I find her wedding photos on her page and im just zooming in and out with my sticky chickeny fingers comparing her nose to her "dad's" nose and idk for the life of me i can't figure it out

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rippeds0cks · 11 months

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6/2/2023

Today's pics were horrible. The entire country is currently in a typhoon. I got complimented that my "knuckles are very hard" when I fist-bumped someone. I am going to Costco tomorrow hopefully with some buddies if they don't cancel. If they do its okay. That's all that was notable about my day today. My Japanese friend is bumping up the process date for fixing the apartment stuff which means I can go out to sea earlier. So I'm happy about it but I'm also concerned cause the reason she's doing that is cause she's moving in with her bf and they are getting married. Which wouldn't be bad in n of itself but they've known each other for two months. It's a really dumb decision but it's also her decision tho so idc. Anyways I was scrolling through my old posts to look at how I used to look and I saw I wrote this and I found it very funny cause this fuckin guy doesn't even know what's about to hit him in a lil under a year after this was posted. I thought things would get better once I came to Japan and got a fresh start but things are so much unquantifiably worse lol. I should've known when a week before I left I almost broke down in therapy when despite having a big smile on my face and laughing about stuff and doing my best to look and sound happy my therapist said "You're moving across the planet like you wanted why do you have an air of sadness in your voice?" n I had to be honest and say "its cause I feel like I'm abandoning my ex. I haven't spoken with her since that day but I guess I feel like I could still fix things and help her." That convo burned itself in my mind cause how fucked up it made me for the week. Look at me now tho, so much worse than I was in that moment. My therapist just said the same old "you aren't responsible for anyone else happiness" "let others be hurt it's not your problem" and "mourn the relationship" stuff that she always does. That's no hate to her though she's an amazing therapist I'm just a lost cause. I was back then and I'm even more lost now. My plans are set in stone though cause I have no way to fix these issues and living with them is atrocious. I don't know how I could possibly fix any of these without talking one on one with my ex and closing the chapter or whatever else. I try so hard to think about anything else all day but every thought I have brings me back to it. I made a Spotify playlist to listen to while I sail since to get as far out in nowhere as I wanna be I'll have to sail for a couple days. Its not done but I'll link it for all 0 of u to listen posthumously. I thought about it and ill definitely put the @ for this blog somewhere on the boat for if it ever washes up somewhere cause I don't wanna end up one of those unsolved bullshit things. Anyways

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4L0lsnbEBer1tgD6oVPQOn?si=FrME9IlkQQiDRUpcgHjNWA

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theluxuriansecret · 2 years

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Dear Diary 7.9.2022

12:41 am

Dear diary, the days surely do fly by. So much has happened in what feels like such a short span of time. It's a lot, but because I have neglected to write down my feelings I am currently feeling overwhelmed. I'm really hoping that i can real myself in before I explode. (I'm also on my period, but just because I am doesn't mean my feelings right now in this moment aren't valid)

So, to begin, in may I broke with my boyfriend after the third attempt that month. It was after I got back from vacation. on vacation not only did I get my clothes stolen (and spend practically every night drunk) but I had met this guy on my very last night. After arguing with my bf I decided then and there I was done, and I was going to hook up with this guy. I didn't though, but I did make out with him. That proved to me that I was over him for real. So the day after I got home I told him I was done. It did not go down well. He screamed and he cried and he begged me to love him, but I couldn't, and I didn't and I still don't. I have love for him, I DO love him, but I am not in love with me. Today (or i guess yesterday) he told me he is still waiting for me to tell him I want him back, that I love him and I want him to be my boyfriend. But that's where that ends for right now.

For the past two weeks I have spent basically everyday drowning myself in some distraction. Going to the beach, the fair, to bars, video games, drinking, so much fucking drinking. Literally anything. Which brings to two Fridays ago. I was out at a bar with my friend. I met this guy who seemed sweet. I gave him my # not really thinking about it. And that night he tells me he wants to take me on a date. Fast forward a week after talking and he tells me we should speak on the phone so there isn't much anxiety. And even though our date was set for Saturday it happened that Friday. It went great, or so I thought. IDK. We ended up hooking up. The first person I have been with since my bf. And it ended weird. No one finished and he just sat there, like defeated. There was basically radio silence since that day. He messages me yesterday telling me he had went and enjoyed his birthday vacation with his ex (it wasn't his ex by the way, he's just a cheater) and that he was reconsidering their relationship. Okay. That story is over. It ends just like that. I just hope that when he re-reconsidered he doesn't come crawling in my fucking messages. Fuck That.

Anyway, I went on another date this past Wednesday. It was like okay I guess, good at best. The guy was super sweet and kind. I wanted to hookup him, like I did. But I didn't and I still don't even know why. I also think he is on the Autism spectrum, actually not think, I know. He even mentioned it "he thinks". That doesn't bother me at all though, actually the only thing that bothers me is that he isn't sure (or officially diagnosed) when it's obvious. Unless he was just trying to test out the waters to see how I would react. I do kinda wanna see him again though.

Today was the first Friday in a while that I wasn't out. And idk, I have been in my feelings all day. That guy one can just go back to his girl like that. I mean, I didn't want a relationship with him but I did want a little more fun out of him I guess. It just sucks because I keep looking at my phone hoping he texts me... Sigh, I wanted to experience hookup culture so bad for some reason, but it's not anything like I thought it would be. I think I jumped in too fast. I need to focus on myself and my goals and dreams like I said I would, but here I sit. Unemployed, secretly sad, and finding every and anyway to distract myself. Also I cracked my phone screen so, theres that as well.

I want to take the time away from my ex to find myself, to find hobbies, passions, learn something new. But right now I feel like I have fallen deep into 15 year old me's bad habits. Except I'm older now, and it's so much easier to make bad decisions. I guess you live and you learn though.

SOTD: Girl With No Name - Jules Larson + AG

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burnedbyshoto · 5 years

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I just finished some movies and this idea came in my head. Could you do headcanons for shouto, bakugou and aizawa about their long-time best friend (and crush) panicking and seeking for the bois help bc she suspects that she might pragnant w/ her ex baby. Like, she already brought pregnancy test but too scared to use, panicked and nervous and nearly break down. The result is up to you.

warnings: pregnancy, mentions of abortion, and fluff

huehuehuehue this is so stupid cute and like heart wrenching to imagine this happening irl, I love IT !!!!! anyways remember ladies, if you’re preggo with an ex and have a hot as hell best friend you’re ready to bone you’re gonna be in one hell of a decision to make. all three have different outcomes tho!!!! I hope you enjoy anon!!!

Aizawa Shouta:

when you texted Aizawa forty-seven minutes ago completely freaking and flipping out Aizawa knew something was wrong

the two of you had been best friends since the beginning of high school, you had been the top student in your support class and you were very intermingled with the hero class because of that fact

you were the one who designed Aizawa’s bandages after all

so when you sent a whole lot of panicking texts, Aizawa watched your location to see that you were in a store running around and was currently making a b line to his apartment but you still weren’t answering him back

what the hell had gotten into you

he had opened the door to let you in seconds before you had arrived and he saw an opaque shopping bag being clutched in your hand

“y/n/n, are you okay??”

did Aizawa mention that he had been in love with you for the past seven years?

Aizawa could only watch as tears burst into your eyes and you throw yourself into his shoulder, quiet sobs escape your lips as he holds you closely whispering sweet nothings to your crying figure

“shouta… I think I’m pregnant but I-I’m terrified of taking the test.” you eventually murmur as you show him the two different pregnancy tests in the bag and Aizawa’s heart sort of drops, “I haven’t had a period in four months and I had sex for the last time around four months ago…”

your ex-bf wasn’t the nicest person, it wasn’t that he was abusive or anything, but he was very much wrapped up in his own life and career that Aizawa knew perfectly well he wouldn’t want anything to do with you or the baby if you were pregnant

“I don’t want to be pregnant with his baby…” you cry as you clutch your hair shaking your head as you are unable to think of a life where you were pregnant with a man you didn’t love baby

“Hey, hey,” Aizawa’s voice interrupts your mental spiral as he grabs your hands taking them away from your hair that was now crumply and looking ready to break “you don’t know if you are pregnant yet, y/n. let’s get you some water and you’ll take those tests okay?”

you listen in almost a haze as Aizawa explains what’s going to happen but then he shakes you and stares deeply into your eyes

“I love you, y/n, and I will support you no matter what happens. if you’re not pregnant that’s great, if you are and you decide to abort that’s perfectly okay too. if you choose to have this baby, I will support you and the baby because you mean the world to me and I won’t let you carry on in this world without me.”

you sob into his shoulder as he presses a kiss to the crown of your head and you stay there sniffling and breaking out into tears every couple of minutes

when you finally calm down you guzzle down two water bottles and taking the two tests with you entered the bathroom with an overwhelming fear of what was going to be the result

Aizawa watches as you exit the bathroom while looking down at the pregnancy tests, and your eyes are watering

“I-I’m pregnant.” you whisper and Aizawa stands up and holds your stiff body to him until you relax

“what are you going to do?” Aizawa asks genuinely interested in what his best friend was going to choose

“you know I can’t accept you helping me out with the baby as just my best friend…” you whisper and Aizawa can’t help the disappointment travel through his veins at that statement, “only if you agree to go out on a date with you will I let you help support this—our baby.”

and in nine months, after you gave birth to a beautiful baby girl you were currently walking down the aisle to be wed to none other than the man you’ve loved since high school and has always been there through thick and thin: Aizawa

Bakugou Katsuki:

“what the fuck are you doing here so goddamn late at night, are you an idiot?” bakugou snaps as you were pounding away at his door at three in the morning

“I needed to see you, and besides you said I was welcomed whenever I needed to come!” you snap back, your voice cracking a few octaves at the end which causes bakugou to stop his attitude at least on the inner surface as he stares at your emotionless face through the soft dim of the hallway lamp

“y/n/n?” bakugou begins as he sees the dried tear trails down your face, the pinkness to your nose and eyes, and the pregnancy test clutched to your chest “whoa, what the living fuck is—“

“bakugou… please shut up,” you interrupt him extremely unsure of what you were doing. “will you just hold me for a few minutes because I’m about to flip out and you’re the only person on this planet who’s able to ground me right now.”

bakugou rolls his eyes as he takes a single hand from being shoved into the pockets of his sweats and holds close to him, “you’re dramatic…” he scoffs but won’t admit that he feels exactly the same and he hoped that those pregnancy tests were for someone else, not you

it takes a few minutes, but soon you’re in Bakugou’s room sitting on his bed as you explain slowly what’s going on

“I slept with y/exbf/n when he came to pick up his things and it was a mistake,” you admit as you hold a cup of tea in your hands, looking at the dyed water as you couldn’t bring yourself to drink it, “I took advantage of the fact he still had feelings for me because at the time I was just feeling lonely, and here I am… going to be finding out if I’m p-pregnant…”

“you’re a fucking idiot.” bakugou agrees as he stares at your teary-eyed figure as you played with your teabag, “I should’ve been there to kill his perverted ass for you anyways.”

you laugh as you take a sip from the tea nodding, “if only, maybe then I’d be pregnant with your baby instead of his…”

the two of you freeze and your face goes through every color possible as you shove the tea in his hands, “IMMA TAKE THE TEST NOW!” you cry out robotically running into the bathroom slamming the door shut behind you

bakugou couldn’t help the prideful smirk that formed on his face as he downed the rest of his tea

if he was putting a baby in you, you crying for help was not going to be your reaction

bakugou watches as you emerge from the bathroom, your body trembling as you read the positive test results

you were pregnant

as you feel yourself falling suddenly weak from overwhelming emotions and your knees give out

but bakugou catches you in his arm, reprimanding you for being careless and emotional when you had a baby in you

and he gently puts you back onto the bed as tears are streaming out of your eyes

“I can’t have this baby, kacchan…” you whisper mortified st the thought of you being pregnant already, you were only twenty after all “I don’t have anything for it. The money, the time, the responsibility–”

“do you even want the damn baby?” Bakugou interrupts your train of thoughts and you freeze, did you?

“I know it’s not my baby, but I like you, y/n, a lot and if you want to keep the baby, I’ll help you keep the fucking bastard happy.”

you splutter out a wet laugh as you shake your head at your best friend, he was something else wasn’t he, “I could never ask you to do that for me…”

“you don’t have to, idiot, I’m the one fucking offering!” bakugou rolls his eyes as he pushes your head to lie on his shoulder

“I’ll support you no matter what.”

you’re quiet for a moment before you wrap your arms around him tightly, “what if I want an abortion?” you say quietly as his hand moves up and down your back almost awkwardly

soft bakugou is awkward, leave him alone

“then I’ll take you to the damn abortion clinic, and we’ll kill those fucking cells together.” bakugou says matter of factly and you laugh softly. “of course I think afterward you’ll have to let me have a chance at… what was it that you called it? being pregnant with my baby?”

“KACCHAN THAT’S TOO STRAIGHTFORWARD!” You fret covering your face embarrassed as Bakugou smiles pressing a kiss to your temple

“we’ll go tomorrow.” he decides and you peak at him through a gap in your finger

“w-where?”

“to the clinic and then afterward I’ll take you on a proper date because that shitty ex of yours was the absolute fucking worst.”

you snort softly as bakugou surprises you with a kiss on your lips

“now go the fuck to sleep or else imma kill you tomorrow.”

“yessir,” you whisper overwhelmed with emotions you never acknowledged about your best friend

Todoroki Shouto:

shouto was at home when he was sent a barrage of texts from you, asking where he was, if he was home, if he was available, and before he could answer a single message you were face-timing him

“shouto, where are you?!” you whisper as it seemed you were out in public by the extremely odd and close angle of your phone “I need you right now.”

“I’m at my houses dojo, I was working out.” shouto says and you frantically bob your head as you seem to turn completely and are now seemingly running. “what’s wrong?”

“I’ll explain when I’m there? is the rest of the todoroki clan there?” you ask looking into the camera and shouto shakes his head

“they’re all working.”

“Okay good, just have the door unlocked for me I’ll be there in five minutes.”

shouto frowned, unsure about what was happening. he knew it couldn’t have had anything to do with your now ex-boyfriend as you had finally broken up with him after months of shouto hoping, but never vocalized, you would

the two of you had been friends since the beginning of your lives and after so many years of being best friends, shouto discovered that he had feelings for his best friend while you were dating the other guy and it only made him want to kick his ass a few dozen times

shouto listened carefully from the dojo as he heard the front door hastily open and slam shut, and the frantic tossing of your shoes as your voice shouted out, “I’m here!”

maybe it was because it was over facetime and the audio was horrible, or your emotions dwindled southward while you ran here, but shouto could hear the anxiety in your voice

“I’m back here.” shouto called out as he peeked his head out the dojo and saw you walking over your jacket pocket looking bulgy

“I need you to hug me…” you whisper as you draw close, and shouto can see the tears in your eyes “please hug me.”

shouto envelopes you into a hug and the two of you stand there hugging tightly

“what happened?”

“promise me y-you won’t get mad…” you say feeling overwhelmingly ashamed

shouto stares at you, not convinced he could accept that but nodded nevertheless

“I-I think I’m pregnant…” you confess pulling out the pregnancy box from your pocket

shouto face darkens considerably as he turns on his heel ready to storm out

“SHOUTO!” you call as you’re running to keep up with him “you promised you wouldn’t get mad!”

“I’m not mad at you, y/n, I could never be. but I can and I will go beat the shit out of your stupid ex because he was always a goddamn asshole.”

“Todoroki!”

it’s the tears falling out of your eyes and the hands clasped onto his bicep that makes him stop in his track and he sighs pulling you in for another hug, “I’m sorry.”

you two make your way back into his room where you confess your fears if the tests come back positive what were you going to do?

you were still in high school, and your parents would disown you if you were pregnant

not to mention saying goodbye to your future career

“I’ve had the test for… four days now, and I barely worked up the courage to want to use it…” you mutter as you trace random figures onto shouto’s chest the two of you laying on his bed. “there’s a part of me that wants to know, and another that wants to refuse the fact that I need to know…”

“you know I’ll support you no matter what,” shouto says after a momentary silence, his hand that was holding your side to keep you near gently rubbing your side. “we can steal endeavors credit card to get you anything and everything you need.”

you snort gently, “oh yeah?”

“mhm, he wouldn’t mind anyway, it’s why he works so much.” shouto says knowing full well that was a lie but the laugh that leaves your lips is worth it

“I love you, shouto,” you whisper sounding petrified despite the usually warm phrase people used. “I don’t want you to hate me if I’m pregnant.”

“I could never, but you should go check now, y/n, it’s time.” shouto gently encourages you, and you nod standing up and taking the boxes with you. “and y/n?” you pause at the doorway, your face confused. “I love you, too.”

your face flushed as you slam the door behind you a little too harshly and the squeaky apology that followed left a smile on his face

shouto waits outside the bathroom door, sitting as minutes slowly go by

he watches as you emerge the bathroom with the tests in hand

“y/n?”

“I’m not pregnant!” you whisper as you feel overcome with every single emotion but above all happiness and joy for the two hued boy in front of you.

you launch yourself into his arms as relieved sobs leave your lips and as he sinks to the ground with you still securely in his arms you press a wet kiss to his lips

“thank you, t-thank you so much for everything.”

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surveys-at-your-service · 3 years

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Survey #407

“sugar pop, sugar pop, baby here i come, straight to #1″

Do you follow any special diet? (dairy free, vegetarian, gluten free etc.) No. What’s your favourite summer activity? Swimming is all I really enjoy about summer. Who was the first person to break your heart? It wasn't in a romantic sense obviously, but my dad. First band you obsessed about? I've only ever *truly* been obsessed with Ozzy Osbourne as a band, haha. First place someone took you on a date? I want to say a local skating rink. It was a group thing. How many doors are in the room you’re in? Two, if you include the closet door. Has anyone ever drawn a picture of you? Yes. Do you have any nieces or nephews? Quite a few. Which movie villain do you find the most terrifying? Well, if you've seen the scene where Pyramid Head literally rips a woman's skin off like a sheet in Silent Hill... u kno. I genuinely do find him to be a terrifying monster though, all bias aside. Humanoid monsters with ambiguous faces unsettle me. I wouldn't want that knife swingin at me, either. Do you get grumpy when you’re hungry? Yuuuup, I sure can. Do you stick your tongue out often in pictures? I have done that maybe twice in my whole life. Which one of your family members are you closest to? My mom. If chocolate was an illegal drug - would you be a drug addict? Nah. I'd be able to survive if it was illegal, but it would suck. Are you proud of your parents? Yes in some areas, no in some others. There are things both have said and/or done that I can't say I'm proud of them for, but overall, I am. Do you say “soda” or “pop”? "Soda." Are you shy about singing in front of people? YUP. I just don't do it. If you could get backstage tickets to ANY concert - which would you pick? Ozzy. :') It'd be fantastic to tell him thank you for his music that has always brought me joy and comforted me, and also let him know for sure just how strong he is and that it is absolutely not overlooked to still be nailing out an album while fighting Parkinson's. I'd probably start blubbering like a baby while rambling at some point, haha. Which is better: orange or grape soda? Orange. I don't like grape soda. Do you sleep with a sleep mask? Well, you could sort of call it that, ha ha. I have to wear an APAP mask to subdue my sleep apnea that causes wild nightmares/terrors. Do you like techno music? It's actually grown on me the past few months. Have you ever been drunk? No, I've never quite reached that point. I've only been tipsy. Are you mad at your best friend right now? Nope, got no reason to be. Do you know anybody with a pet snake? Yes, including myself. Is there any drink that you absolutely MUST drink cold? WATER. ABSOLUTELY WATER. I canNOOOOOOT do room temperature water anymore. It's gotta be pretty damn cold for me to drink it like it's nothin'. Have you ever painted anybody's nails aside from your own? No. Do you ever donate to the less fortunate? Mom likes to donate our old clothes and stuffed animals. Did you buy an American flag after 9/11 to put on your car/house/ whatever? I was a little kid when this happened, so. I don't know if my parents did. Honestly, do you have any Hilary Duff on your MP3 player? HA, I do. I love "Who's That Girl." When was the last time you had an ice cream sandwich? Wow, probably years... I really, really want one now, ha ha. Have you ever caught a friend cheating on their bf/gf? Well, my sister's friend, anyway. I was just sitting on the computer in the living room and there they were on the couch just casually making out. Do you enjoy doing math? Fuuuuck no. Do you think your mom has secrets she’s never told you? Oh, I know she does. There are things she's done that I know I have plenty of missing details from, but I don't ask because I know they're sensitive subjects. Do you own anything you don’t want your parents to know about? No. Do you pose in your pictures or just smile? I usually just smile. Do you use scented soap in the shower? Yes. It smells like cinnamon rolls and it is HEAVENLY. Did you ever want to be a fashion designer? No. Who was the last person you danced with? Enjoyable? Ha, Sara. Yeah. Dark or light colored jeans? Dark, 100%. I never wore light jeans. Can you take apart a computer and name all the parts? No sir. Can you take apart a car and name all the parts? That's an even bigger "no." Have you ever purchased a lotto ticket? No. What is the longest amount of time you've spent playing Monopoly? Idk. Have you ever witnessed a tornado first-hand? Thank fucking Christ I haven't. I am terrified of them. Have you ever colored your eyebrows? No. Have you ever taken another person's prescribed medication? Pain medicine, yes. Have you ever played golf (not miniature golf)? No. I'm not interested to, either. Have you ever gotten dressed with the windows open? I definitely don't believe so. Have you ever taken a shower outside? At the beach, yes. If you could call it a "shower." Have you ever been to a junkyard? No. Have you ever watched the History Channel willingly? No. If you could get the cell phone of your choice - what would it be? Probably a current iPhone. Apple is such a rip-off, but damn is the camera good lmao. Do you hand out candy to kids on Halloween? This will be my first Halloween in this house, so I really don't know if trick-or-treaters happen here. Do you like huskies? Love 'em, but I could neeeever own one with all that fur. What do you smell like? I'm always self-conscious over if I smell like sweat because of my hyperhidrosis. I hope not. Do you take your dog for walks? I don't have a dog. I used to take Teddy when he was younger, though. He loved those, but I stopped when I noticed his arthritis kicking in. Have you ever went paintballing? No. Seems stupid to me, honestly... Like that shit seems painful, so like, why??? What kind of movies are you drawn to? Horror and fantasy, mostly. I don't watch movies often. How often do you update your Facebook status? Just about never because I either just have nothing to say or am afraid of saying something stupid. I only ever share posts or pictures that appeal to me. What type of pet would you like to have? A Brazilian Black tarantula. :( I will whine about that until the day I get one, ha ha. I would also really, really like a plains hognose and a woma python. What breakfast are you most likely to have? Cereal. When you're starting to feel sick, you: It depends on what kind of "sick," but odds are I'm heading for the medicine cabinet. What colors are you most drawn to? Pastel ones. :') Light and pretty. What deadly sin are you most likely to commit? Sloth. When you're away from home, what makes you feel at home? "Having my stuff with me, like my laptop." <<<< Same. Do you prefer to lounge in a hot tub or swim in a pool? Swim. How many books do you have out in the public areas of your house? None. Who makes a better burger, in your opinion? Sonic. @_@ What do you like best about the holidays? Seeing my niece and nephew so excited. You think your eyes convey: Boredom, probably. Besides screaming for ice cream, what else do you scream for? If a bug surprises me by being on me. Well, depending on the bug. Do you like fried chicken? Noooo, it is so gross to me. What do you think of belly button piercings? They are SO cute imo. I want one, but I think it would look hideous on me. Maybe if I was actually thinner. Not saying bigger people can't wear belly button piercings, I just don't think it would look good on me. Do you like plain Lays potato chips? They're my favorite! I especially like the ruffled kind. Is there a big screen television in your house? In the living room, yeah. Would you rather no heat in winter or no A.C in summer? No heat in the winter, EASILY. I can't handle no A/C when it's hot. At least if you're cold, you can bundle up with tons of blankets. Have you ever had braces? I did for a long time because we couldn't afford to take them off. Do you do your own laundry? No, honestly. Mom likes to just do it all together, so I let her do it. Which do you prefer: English, Irish, or Australian accents? Irish. Is there anything on your bedroom door? Yeah! I got a "Meerkat Lover St." sign for my door. :') What is the best vegetable? Broccoli. Guys in eyeliner: Hot or not? That shit is h o t. Have you ever seen your favorite band live? No. :( Do you drink water or soda more often? Ugh, soda. Did you collect Pokemon cards back in the day? I didn't deliberately, but only because I was awkward about asking for Pokemon stuff because I thought people thought I was weird for being a girl and being obsessed with it. I think I got one pack. I really, really wish I'd been less self-conscious about that passion. Pet turtle: yay or nay? I'm personally not interested. Did anyone famous come from your town/city/school? Yeah, but I'm not sharing who. Have you ever seen a celebrity on the street? No. Have you ever pretended to be sick? To avoid school sometimes, yes. Can you ice skate? Never tried, too scared to. The blades terrify me. Do you have your nose pierced? No, but I want to have it redone. Do you loooove Tim Burton movies? I sure do! What arcade games do you like to play? I haven't been to an arcade in forever... but I liked the racing ones. What's the most expensive gift you've ever gotten for someone else? I'm not sure. Would you rather spend a whole day with your mom, or your dad? At this moment, probably my dad. We haven't hung out in a long time. What would you say if you found out your last ex was in a relationship? I'd be happy for her and tell her she'd better let me know if the person ever fucks up so I can kick some ass, ha ha. Are you easily confused? Very. I'm slow to understand things. Where was your MySpace/Facebook default taken? My bedroom. Can you whistle with your fingers in your mouth? No. I've never understood how that works. Do you like peanut butter? Love it.

#survey #surveys #random questions #lyrics: ''bubblegum bitch'' by marina and the diamonds

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miniyrds · 3 years

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As long as they don’t follow your blog, you could outline it anyways. Venting can be scary but it can also be healthy and provide some catharsis in the midst of all of this. You know, get the metaphorical weight of your chest

I've tried writing this a few times bc my brain is annoying and I keep forgetting things and then over explaining lol

thank u for the excuse to write out my problems on the internet

side note: I tell this humorously now and I know that I could've done things a lot differently, but it still messed me up quite a bit

this can pretty much be broken into several instance so to speak

incident one:

me and my ex-roommate and our two suitemates moved into an on campus apartment in the spring of our 2nd year. I am in my 4th year now. The semester started and we were all really excited to live together with a kitchen. ex-roommate proposed that we alternate cooking for everyone (this only lasted one month). but... ex-roommate’s bf was always over eating our food. this became more of an issue to one of my suite mates but I was fairly annoyed by him being constantly around. anyway, we decide to tell my ex-roommate that we didn’t think he should be over as often etc etc

ex-roommate left for a few hours and came back only to sit us all down and cry about how having her bf over made her feel better bc adjusting to living in an apartment was really hard and there was nowhere else for them to go (he lived in his own room in a different dorm on campus)

we dropped the situation

incident two:

in like February/early march I had gone to bed early while my ex-roommate, her bf, and our suitemates watched a movie until like 2 am. one of my suitemates shouted goodnight and woke me up and I couldn't get back to sleep. ex-roommate and bf then decide to spend the night together...intimately...while I am right there.

I send her a message the following Monday bc I debated for so long whether or not to tell her that I heard. I told her that I really didn't want her bf staying the night after I had already gone to bed (basically I just wanted a heads up. I didn’t phrase this well)

I ended up getting really paranoid that she was sneaking him in and I confided in my suite mate about this (bad move)

incident three:

a week after spring break, we are getting back from a late showing of Us. It’s after midnight and we can’t find close parking. My suitemates and I offer to walk with her and she says that her bf is gonna walk her back so she’s okay

I say “oh, is [bf] coming over?” (I swear. that’s it)

wrong thing to say apparently. when we get back into the room she starts tearing into me. I don’t remember everything that was said but it started with “do you hate [bf]” and went to

we all hate your boyfriend. he makes us all feel really uncomfortable and he has for the past two years. we just never said anything

you say a lot of hurtful things. if you even think that you said something mean, apologize no matter how much later it is

you hurt [suitemates] feelings by joking about [something]. do u think she doesnt tell me? we tell each other everything

is [ex boyfriend] abusing you? because it seems like he is *never brings it up again or checks on me* (he was slightly toxic but it wasn't thanks to them that I realized it)

“im shocked im not crying rn. im just so mad” (as im sobbing)

I spent the rest of the semester on eggshells around them. I left every weekend I could but that was difficult because I didn't have a car. my ex never stepped foot in my apartment again (cant say the same about her bf)

my ex broke up with me that summer and that hit me really hard because we were co-dependent on each other in the worst way and he said a lot of mean things. ex-roommate hung out with me one time and claimed she was ‘there for me’ and got me thru my breakup. (that award goes to my mom, thanks)

I didn’t move back in with them in the fall. that honestly changed my life

incident four:

I am now in a much better place but I still feel the need to apologize to my new group of friends when I think I said something wrong. (they constantly assure me that I don’t have to) (I apologized to my current roommate for joking about how she cooks ramen and she was like "nat I do not hate u for ramen”)

I am also constantly prepared for another callout. I know I wasn't perfect and I couldve been better about boundaries. I know what to do now should that ever happen again. I feel bad about how it went down

I was not prepared for ex-roommate to turn on one of our suitemates in a me-style callout

I don’t have the full story from both sides but from what I gathered they were all joking in their normal fashion (”___ is my favorite! no ___ is my favorite!”) when ex-roommate took it to heart. this led to suitemate being excluded the moment they were walking out the door etc etc

needless to say, she moved out

ex-roommate took to social media to say “those who do not learn from history are doomed to repeat it. friendship applications closed forever!” after she blocked my suitemate.

this is when I learned that ex-roommate sees nothing wrong with how she treated me. like 0 empathy. I have 2 sources that believe she doesnt feel any at all

a few nights ago she tweeted about my old suitemate and I sent it to her (like a good friend lol). this is when I learned that ex-roommate was always mad that I hung out with other people

conclusion?

this was kinda cathartic. It was more timeline than venting but I have no more real venting thoughts I realized. I've exhausted them. but I do take smug comfort in the random instances that bothered my ex-roommate. we didn’t work as friends or roommates and im still messed up from everything but at least I have really good new friends now :))

#I dont have any tags for this lol #I don't really want it to spread so enjoy

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szopenhauer · 4 years

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What type of friend are you? funny mom friend so like... dad friend? XD

Have you ever been friends with someone for longer than 7 years? nah

Do you have a family member you hate? could say so

Does your family accept who you are? it’s complicated

Have you ever puked in school or at work? luckily not

Do you hate puking or does it make you feel better? hate

Have you ever coughed up blood? nope

Do you lie to your doctor? sometimes we all have to but nothing important

Have you ever been misdiagnosed? yup

Do you think you have an disorder but havent been properly diagnosed yet? that too

Is self diagnosing good or bad? depends

Do you think sex is overated? it is

Is it important for both genders to understand eachothers bodies? I’m not dating men, I don’t want to have a son and I am not a doctor so I don’t care about male bodies, sorry

If someone was a virgin and was raped, did they lose their virginity? ...

Have you ever dated someone more than twice your age? nooo

Have you ever been cut off by a bartender because you were too drunk? I don’t drink

Have you ever borrowed money from your mom & lied about why you needed it? I don’t think so

Have you ever dated someone just because they had money? no

Have you ever lied to your spouse about the money you spent shopping? it wasn’t a lie but I bend the truth a little

Have you ever gone on a first date with no underwear? I might go without a bra but because I don’t wanna wear it and not because I might have sex

Do you treat attractive people better than others who aren’t as attractive? nope

Are you more comfortable with friends that are less attractive than you? not less but not more as more attractive might make me feel insecure at times

Have you ever hated a job to the point that you tried to get fired? I would if they let me stay in few places but luckily they didn’t care much about me as their worker hahaha

Have you ever lied about your weight on a driver license? there is weight on a driving license? :o

Have you ever lied during a job interview? meh

Have you ever lied to your boss to get out of work? I exaggerated feeling sick once to not get a job in a horrible place if that counts

Have you ever lied under oath in court? I wouldn’t!

Have you ever bought alcohol for someone underage? I said NO

Have you ever switched tags on an item to pay less for it? I only took tag from an identical item, just different color, as someone tore it out before and I really wanted that particular color, so no

Have you taken any pics of yourself that you wont want your parents to see? umm... yeah ^^”

Did you ever tell your BF/GF you like their outfit when you really didn’t? there are different types of like - like as I would want to wear that myself and like as I enjoy it in general but also like it on particular person etc.

Do you feel accepted by your BF/GF ’s family? could be worse lol

Do you lie about your age? what for if everybody think I’m younger anyway

Would you risk your life to save a total stranger? maybe

Have you ever trashed your ex’s car after an argument? hell no

Have you ever snuck out of the house to go out with friends? not really

Have you ever shoplifted? no way

Have you ever done something because of peer pressure you are ashamed of? yup Have you ever been embarrassed to introduce your parents to anyone? omg

Have you ever held back a well deserved compliment because you were jealous? I don’t recall

Do you guilt people into giving you what you want? hope not, I try not to, it’s manipulative and I already am seen this way due to my BPD so...

Would most ppl consider you better than average looking? pfft Would you prefer to have hot body or high IQ? good health

Are you embarrassed to tell people your job? I’m ashamed to tell them that I don’t have a job

Would you give up your car to save the planet? if I had one...

Are you more likely to believe a man or woman? woman :x

Has your credit card ever been declined? I don’t use a credit card

If you ran over an animal would you keep driving? oh no...

Do you think your parents are too critical of you? my mother is

Ever blame a sibling for something you did wrong? I usually have to take the blame for her instead

Have you ever accepted credit for someone else’s work? just my alters lmfao

Did you ever buy something expensive,wear it once and return it? I didn’t, I have no money to buy and no heart to act like this either

Have you ever re-gifted something? shitload of times

Do you really care about saving the planet for future generations? not for future ppl, just for itself

Do you own anything from IKEA? not furniture

What was the last task that you required the use of scissors for? I just dropped them and let them lay on the floor under the table because I am unable to reach ‘em

Look around the room and name any item that’s grey. stuffed bad from Biedronka that I got on a flea market

Do you know what any of your close friends did yesterday afternoon? me and M. been spending time together while my parents were at home

Can you recall the last time you woke up in a bad mood? Why was that? I always do?...

Who was the last person to send you a message with a heart emoji? my gf obviously

Does your hometown have many good bookshops? none

What would be your typical outfit for a party? I don’t attend parties

If your girlfriend/boyfriend broke up with you tonight, what would you do? oh...

last dream you had: K. 3D printed or smth almost identical album as the ones I had as a baby and her and my current partner gave it to me as a gift :3

do you think a lot of people think bad things about you? I aware of that

is your best friend pissing you off at this exact moment? I informed my father that I dropped scissors and now as I picked them up he asked me when and how they ended up there while I told him about it few minutes ago - I was more worried than annoyed tbh

Why aren’t you texting the last person you kissed? she’s taking a nap

Sex ruins relationships, right? it can happen

Last person to stand up for you? hmm...

The last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them? I lost count which is weird because I cry in front of my family members only (not even my grandma until I was a baby), I know that sometimes I cry in public but because I don’t give a fuck about strangers as much as I used to, close ones in the other hand... Nat hates the most when someone sees him so vulnerable

Something good going to happen tomorrow? doubt it

The last person you kissed hates you. Why? would have reasons

What do you usually do when the clock turns 11:11? it’s a secret you can unlock in a very high level of our relationship

Do you like your cell phone? it’s ok

So, what if you married the last person you kissed? we’re engaged so that dream ain’t that unreal

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend? uh oh

Do you plan on moving out within the next year? I wish

What are you listening to at the moment? mom and dad talking <rolling my eyes>

Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? or never

What’s your favorite high school memory? I have a bunch of those

Do you wish you had more money? absolutely

Team Jacob or Team Edward? team hate Twilight

Do you have a problem with bisexual, gay, or bicurious people? with bicurious maybe, definitely not gay

Have you ever held hands with the opposite sex? I have

Are you a patient person? weirdly unpatient Do you think you are a good person? am not

Honestly, have you ever eaten raw cookie dough? ewww

Is there a difference between the word ‘best friend’ and ‘friend’? there is

How was your week? rollerclaster XD

Does it bother you when an artist remakes a song that one has previously done? usually

When was the last time you cried? recently

What letter is the song you’re listening to under? M if vocalist/band B if title of the song

Would you rather visit the 60s or 70s? 60s I guess

Do your socks say anything on them? I have no socks with anything said on them

Name a TV channel that only has three letters in it. BBC

Gray or Grey? grey

Will you be buying concert tickets any time soon? I won’t

Have you seen the movie The Perks of Being a Wallflower? Did you like it? yasss, it was fine

How many weddings have you been to? less than 5

When you smile, are you confident? I am not

Have you ever not done something because you were afraid of getting in trouble? of course

Was the weather beautiful today? it’s cold

Do you have to have a fan on when you sleep? I don’t own a fan Would you rather have an orange, red or gray bedroom? walls? orange

Would you ever dye part of your hair blue? why not whole

Is Finding Nemo a favorite movie of yours? I dislike it

Does/Did your school have a uniform? middle school only and that was a great idea

Turn on the TV. What channel are you on? not gonna

What’s your favorite thing to do? nothing

If your house was haunted, what would you do? depends

What’s worse: Slow internet or slow walkers? slow internet

Are you a fast or slow walker? which alter? :P

Do you usually have to wear a belt with your pants? I must buy belt for Nat

Are you usually the person to try new things with your hair? no comment

What age do you look forward to reaching? I live on borrowed air...

What exercise do you hate the most? awkward ones

Do you know anyone that has a gecko as a pet? no

What color shirt is your mom wearing today? she’s wearing a striped pajama and light blue sweater atm

Does any part of your body hurt right now? mor than one

Do you like Greek Mythology? not a fan

When was the last time you had Pepsi? ages ago

What was the last question you answered, not on surveys? it was more an order than a question coming from my mom

Do you own anything Polo? used to

Do you know anyone with exaggeratedly big muscles? neighbor

What is your favorite endangered animal? are elephants still endangered?

Do you like to dance? kinda, from time to time Who was the last person who screamed your name? mom’s calling me again, grrr...

Which underwater creature do you find the most badass? what do you mean?

How do you usually find out what the weather will be like for the next week? someone tells me, I ignore them, they were wrong all along

Why have/haven’t you joined Twitter? I left as it was boring and irritating Are you good at rhyming? but don’t like to rhyme

When’s the last time you were woken up in an obnoxious way? lately it’s common

Why do you/don’t you enjoy horror movies? they’re disgusting and pointless

Do you have any celebrity’s perfume? I don’t use perfume

How well do you do at Scrabble? in polish or english?

Who is your favorite Scooby-Doo character? Velma I suppose

Have you ever played or been interested in playing World Of Warcraft? been interested, liked the movie

What kind of cake/other dessert treat did you have for your last birthday? nothing?

Who do you think does the best job at cartoon voiceovers? Jarosław Boberek

Does your dad wear a watch all the time? years ago frequently

How much ice cream do you think you’d be able to eat before you got sick? only a bit

Do you know anybody under 40 with grey hair? I have some myself

Do you think you have the potential to be a good stalker? oh well...

Why did you read the last book that you read? I watched film and heard it has a different ending so wanted to check it out

Have you ever cross-dressed? clothes have no gender but I drew mustaches and such

Which sport are you the best at playing? unihokej/floorball or however it’s called

Do you know anyone who has gotten pregnant despite using contraception? possibly

What would you do if you were in that situation? I’m an asexual and I’m into girls

Are you planning on buying a house in the near future? not possible

Do you prefer on-campus classes or online classes? online

What was your favorite family vacation you went on as a kid? personal

What’s something about you that others might find unpleasant or off-putting? my skin for example (not color)

What gaming consoles do you own? I only play PC and android

Have you ever been so sick you had to be taken to the hospital? been to ER few times

Do you know any lesbian couples? I’m in one ;)

Have you ever lived in an apartment building? just when I was staying with my grandmother

What was the last topic you asked someone for their opinion or advice on? not sure which was last

Is your house visible on Google Street View?- barely

What’s the largest thing you currently have in your refrigerator? *shrug*

Do you know anyone who has never had a pet? I believe

Would you ever get a tattoo on your collar bone? no thx

Would you take the 3 minute beatdown to be in a gang? neither Do you check your texts right away when you receive them? not every single time, it’s impossible!

Does it make you uncomfortable when you receive a compliment? sorta, I think they’re lying/want something or make fun of me (even if just slightly teasing for fun)

When you are home alone at night and hear strange noises, are you afraid someone is going to break in? I’m more “ghost” type of person hahaha

Do you wake up cranky? mhm

What is on your wrists right now? sleeves

Are you a beach, country, or city person? country or small town

Are you an official couple with the last person you kissed? we are

What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today? ex - I got a gift and found a shirt for Nat and myself :3

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids? -

Are you waiting for something? food

Something you do a lot? suffer

How many chances do you tend to give people before enough is enough? it’s not about the amount

What’s a fact about the last person you kissed? she likes hugs

How long have you liked the person you like? it’s a long story

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed? not our last kiss

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? I worry

Have you ever given your ALL to someone who walked away?

Have you ever kissed the last person you texted? we kissed

Are you one of those people who are always cold? not always but often

Do you tend to waste a lot of money? I still feel like it even tho I don’t, I thrift often but spend little for those trinkets

Did you sing at all today? może coś nuciłam, nie pamiętam, w headspace?

Would you rather be able to control the weather or control traffic? weather

Do you own any articles of clothing with skulls on it? gave it away to John

Are you faster at text messaging or typing on the computer? typing on the computer

In your opinion which is the stronger emotion: love or hate? hate

Tongue piercings - cute or trashy? trashy

When it comes to jeans: skinny, flared or boot cut? skinny

Would you rather be a star ballerina or a star break dancer? none

They say diamonds are a girls best friend; what do you say? I don’t care for diamonds

Has anybody ever told somebody one of your secrets? plenty of times

Do you get on better with funny or serious people? smth in between

Do you have mood swings around the time of the month? I don’t need period to have mood swings, it’s stereotypical!

Have your friends met the last person you kissed? aha

What if you got stuck in a lift with the last person who Facebook messaged you? we would end up having sex? jk

When/where did your last hug take place? today

Have your parents ever told you about their love lives, and any previous relationships they had before they met? kind of

Do you and your friends have any inside jokes? and with family

When you listen to music, do you ever find that the songs affect your moods and change how you feel? no shit Sherlock!

What’s one thing about today that you didn’t like? don’t wanna talk about all that

Who is the last person that you said i love you to, besides family members? my fiancee

Would you ever go back to any of your past relationships? done

Do you still talk to the first person you kissed? we’re together again

Do you have a picture of you kissing someone? :D

What’s a cuss word you use often? there’s a whole list

Who’s the last guy you texted? dad

Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head? this question...

Do you remember the first conversation you had with the person you have feelings for? I remember how we met

Do you believe that people talk about you behind your back? ha!

If you had twins, would you give them rhyming names? yuk

What are you listening to? Tame Impala - Let It Happen

Did you do something mean to someone today? she deserved it!

Is there anyone that you wish was IN your life who used to be? babcia...

Give us a lyric from a song you’re listening to: The truth of it is it doesn’t get better than this

Is your birthday in less than 6 months? whoops

What brings out the worst in you? better not say that out loud

How’re you feeling right now? bad

Are you afraid of the future? very

Do you believe in true love? I’m trying

Do you believe that every one has a soul-mate? not everybody

Was today a good day? should be better

What woke you up this morning? woke up on my own

Do you look people in the eye when you talk to them? I don’t

Have you ever played naked twister? wut...

Is your hair longer than your shoulders? not yet and don’t plan to keep it that long

Would you get in trouble if you came home drunk? that would be a shock to my family (and to me)

Do you ever think about things and start to worry? 100% of the time

Are you one to get annoyed easily? that me!

Is the last person you kissed yours? we don’t own ppl...

Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today? girl

Are you scared of spiders? am not

Do you hate the last boy who talked to you? I love my parent

Do you tend to make things complicated? not on purpose

Have you ever gotten to the point where you’ve said “I’m done trying”? gqe1gIQASGCK...

Do you think things will change in the next few months? I’m afraid for worse

Do you like when people play with your hair? it’s strange

What are you wearing right now? bluzę w czarne i białe paski, zieloną bluzkę z długimi rękawami i szare legginsy z niebieskim wzorkiem

Ever feel like you have been replaced? more than once

Would you rather write a paper or give a speech? write

Are you lying to yourself about something? thx a lot for this ask...

Is the person you last texted single? she’s with me

Do you think any of your exes will eventually want to be with you again? tha hell

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move to? just my own apartment

Which do you prefer, relationship or a one-night-stand? relationship

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jackr4bb1t · 4 years

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a quiz thingy

?This is seriously going to get personal, you ready? yes

?If you were caught cheating, would you fess up? i wouldn't be cheating. :") but when i was a young dumb kid who did, i immediately confessed ksjdhfkjsdhf

?The last time you felt honestly broken? um idk yesterday or the day before i dont remember when that was because time is all blurring together now

?Are you craving something? yessss

?If you could have one thing right now what would it be? kat

?Would you rather have ten kids, or none? NONE!!!!!!!!!

?What do you hear right now? bf typing and bitching loudly

?Is your bed against more than one of your walls? yes (two)

?What’s on your mind right now? "What's on your mind right now?"

?Are you there for your friends? no :")

?Last person to see you cry? sjdkhfkjsdhfjshdfkjshdfkjh kat :")

?What do you do when you get nervous? uhhhh idk skdjhfkjsdhf I just kinda get really quiet and clammed up B') i dunno how to describe it. and it really depends on the context.

?Be honest, do you like people in general? i think my answer actually might be yes??

?How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids? it is absolutely never going to happen under any circumstance

?Does anyone completely understand you? i think my answer actually might be yes??

?Do you have a reason to smile right now? i'm literally smiling right now because kat is saying some dumb shit thats cracking me up as im trying to type this skjdfhksjdfh

?Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you? yeahksjdhsudjfh

?Do you tell your mum or dad everything? ABSOLUTELY NOT LMAO

?Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes? like cigarettes?? yeah idk i find the smell pretty gross so it's definitely something i'd prefer not to have to smell all the time kjsdhfkjdhsf

?Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone uhhhh I SURE HOPE NOT

?This time last year, can you remember who you liked? ksdjfhskjdfh pretty much no one. i was actually mostly single for a couple of years there. for the first time in my life i went completely without any serious romantic interest and focused on myself instead. it was an interesting experience.

?Do you think more about the past, present, or future? definitely future skjdhfjkshdf i hardly ever think about the past or even the present

?How many hours of sleep do you get a night? thankfully most nights i get a solid 7-8. sometimes i'll only get like 5. but other nights i'll get like 10. the majority of the time though, it's in the 7-8 range.

?Are you easy to get along with? yes

?Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with? no

?What was the last drink that you put in your mouth? water

?What size bed do you have? queen

?Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in? before wtf

?Do you like the rain? yes as long as i'm not in it kjsdhfjdf. (but i'm fine being in it if it's light.)

?Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? in this exact moment genuinely no skjdhfjhd (unless by some brief passing coincidence)

?Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do lots ksjdhfj

?Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither? probably neither? i think/hope?

?Who were you last in the car with, besides family? uhhHHHhhhhhHH JIM

?What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who? CATS WITH KAT OR MAYBE IT WAS SONIC???? i cant remember which order we saw those in skdjfhkjsdfh

?Have you ever kissed someone who had a boyfriend/ girlfriend? i'm actually pretty sure the answer to this is no so like sjdfksjdhfj wow yay i did it

?Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you? yep

?Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party? jsdkhfkjsd no, i never did any such thing. although i would have people over that i wasn't supposed to.

?Do you regret a past relationship? all of them

?Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party? why are those my only options -sobs- IT DEPENDS ON MY MOOD SKJDHFJKSDHF I GUESS I'LL PICK THE CONCERT CUZ IT SEEMS LESS SOCIAL B'D AND I AM SURE THERE ARE QUITE A FEW BANDS/SINGERS THAT WOULD BE REALLY COOL TO SEE LIVE.

?Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over? i definitely used to ksjdhfkjdshf and i was barking up the wrong tree the entire time

?Have you made a joke about somebody that made them cry? I really hope not skjdfhsjdkfh I've never been the "roasting" type idk sdjfh I've never really like... poked fun at people idk that type of humour has never really been funny to me? idk how to word what i'm trying to say ksjdfhjsdfh basically I just don't really ever make jokes about people because I don't find that type of humour to be entertaining.

?Do you care too much about your appearance? i care about it a LOT less than i used to but i still hate myself kjsdfhgkjfdg so i suppose that is an indication that i care too much

?Are you a jealous person? romantically? yes. literally any other context? no

?Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? no

?Do you miss anyone? yes :(

?Last person who made you cry? uhhhhhh

?Does your ex piss you off? no skjdfhsjkd

?What are you doing tomorrow? just some stupid bullshit chores/errands/etc. woo hoooo.

?Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/ girlfriend every week? lmao no (although i was sorta like that in high school sdlkfjhksdjfh)

?Is there anyone you want to come see you? yes

?Have you ever been cheated on? yes

?Ever given your all to someone who walked away? not really

?Do you like cotton candy? yes as a treat

?Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with? kat

?Do you have siblings? yes

?Have you ever fallen asleep on someone? yes

?How has the past week been for you? hell

?Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? i dont really have friends of any sex except for my partner and we are the same sex sex sex sex sex GAY GAY GAY

?What’s on your mind right now? SEX SEX SEX GAY GAY GAY SEX GAY SEX GAY SEX

?What were you doing at midnight last night? IDK PROBABLY CRYYIINGGG oh wait i was at work skdjfhskjfh waiting for jim to be ready to leave he always stays til exactly midnight unlike most people who will leave around 1158 sdkjfhskdjfh HE HAS TO FOLLOW THE RULLLESSS but i don't mind cuz he's giving me a ride which is cool so i don't mind to wait the extra minutes til midnight B) i mean, i am getting paid to be there sooo.

?What is your current mood? NEEDY

?Who was the first person you talked to today? KAT

?Will this week be a good one? YEAH WE'RE GETTING OUR SHIT TOGETHER

?Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy? I'm sure there are things that have happened B')

?Who were you with last night kathel who was horrifying me as i was half asleep. talking at length about how hes gonna get a garfield tramp stamp. -sobs.- i fell asleep to that.

?Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? LMAO BITCH WHAT DID I JUST SAY. YOU STUPID???

?Next time you will kiss someone hopefully not too much longerrrr B(

?Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy? wowza

?Do you have any plans for the weekend? it's monday you fucking whore, i hardly have a plan for what i'm doing in this current present moment let alone several days from now

oh the quiz is over now

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trueslove · 4 years

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✧･ﾟ: * ( park jiwon , cis female , she / her ) have you seen violet hwang around ? i hear the twenty-one year old is working as an art director . did you know they have 97 love alarm points ? if they ever want to be truly loved someday they should ease up on being temperamental & enigmatic . at least you can say they’re disarming & convivial, too. / love alarm blocked

hello ! im xan and ur watching d*sney channel ... just kidding we do NOT support big corporations who just wanna take ur money 😔 im 22 , from the est timezone ( even though my sleeping schedule ... does not reflect that sjbdwjkbdjdw ) & i go by she / her pronouns ! im gonna be honest this intro is gonna be completely winged so buckle up .... and meet violet 😋

━ ˙ ˖ ☆ quick stats + aesthetics !

full name: violet hwang.

nickname(s): vee, vivi.

zodiac: tba....

sexuality: bisexual.

birthplace: manhattan, new york.

current residence: toronto, canada.

aesthetics: maraschino cherries at the bottom of a glass, driving with the windows down at night, unanswered text messages, black nail polish, the sound of rain hitting the windowpane, kissing and not telling, smiles that don’t quite reach the eyes.

━ ˙ ˖ ☆ backstory !

was born and raised in nyc baby ! she’s a true city girl, grew up in lower manhattan ( the financial district if u wanna get specific ) to a family with lots of $$$$ thanks to her father’s position as a ceo of an investment bank located on wall street

life was pretty smooth until she was 17 and her father got arrested for embezzlement and fraud </3 it was actually a huge scandal for the investment bank he worked for because it was a whole group of higher ups who had been in on these crimes. basically a bunch of already rich men trying to get richer ... disgusting ik /:

her life changed pretty drastically after that ! the hwang name was all over the news, their family was pretty much disgraced by high society in nyc, not a very fun time for anyone but especially not for violet’s mom

after her dad got arrested violet was uhh high key furious with him for ruining their lives with his greed and she wanted nothing to do with him, but her mom couldnt let go. she was still defending him, spending the money they had left on lawyers which included the money the family had set aside for violet’s trust fund that she would have had access to once she was 18 </3

so her plans for college changed pretty drastically JSDBJWBDJW ( goodbye ivy league education ) she actually ended up getting into the university of toronto for visual studies on an academic scholarship

so she made the big move all on her own....moved into a tiny dorm...and vowed to reinvent herself. she didnt wanna be labeled as the daughter of a white collar criminal anymore so she just made it a point not to talk to much abt her past to anyone

her struggles as someone who grew up with $$$$ turning into a broke college student made for some embarrassing but funny moments <3 luckily though everyone else had their own struggles so no one found it suspicious JSBDJWBDJ

when love alarm launched three years ago, violet had just started college so it was really the Big thing anyone and everyone was talking about. since she’d never been a fan of other dating apps, she wasn’t gonna download it but her roommate at the time convinced her ! at first it was fun, just something she didnt take too seriously

fast forward to graduation and she’s snagged a job as an art director for a little local museum, doing freelance art directing on the side to help pay the bills. low and behold one day a photographer hires her to be the art director to a shoot they’re doing for a badge club member who was in a very high profile and public relationship at the time

violet ended up working with that photographer and badge club member a handful of times, enough for her to catch fee-🤢 catch feelin-🤢 i cant even say it .. she’d never rung anyone’s love alarm before, so of course her first time had to be with someone who was already taken </3 safe to say she ... freaked out

she was embarrassed above all else, but also heartbroken bc in her head like ... why would someone who literally is part of an exclusive club based on ppl ringing their love alarm care that she rung theirs ? she didnt think it’d be a big deal to them the way it was to her ( but also didn’t stick around long enough to find out jsxbsjbdjw )

when she was offered the block she didn’t hesitate to use it figuring it’s better if no one knows her romantic feelings ever again like that /: she’d delete the app but a part of her still likes knowing there are ppl out there who DO like her like that so ... Rip truly

━ ˙ ˖ ☆ personality + tidbits !

she comes across as ... kind of a bitch SDJBJWBJWBDW it’s truly not on purpose she just has a pretty serious resting expression most of the time ( so she looks mad or annoyed even when she isn’t ) and she’s pretty difficult to get to know ? not to mention the fact that no one has ever witnessed her ring someone’s love alarm .. so all that combined just makes it easy to assume she’s some sort of ice queen when that’s far from the truth /:

violet really isn’t one to open up too deep to people, but that’s got a lot to do with the past she’s kind of running away from ! so if you’re her friend most of the stuff you know about her is probably surface stuff, but when she’s close to someone she can make that fact hard to realize ? she just has a way with making the people in her life feel important so it’s easy not to be focused on how much you know about her

never bothers to correct the people that misjudge her. if you don’t like her, if you want to make up assumptions and rumors about her, go ahead like violet really won’t stop you which can sometimes make meeting new people difficult </3 if you’ve seen the dating class webdrama chuu was in she’s kinda like oh seyoung’s chara joowon 🤧

if she wants to, though, she’s pretty good at getting people to like her / trust her ! she does this a lot in professional situations, which is why she’s been doing so well as an art director so far despite being so young

she’s also very loyal to her friends ! if you can’t ask for extra sauces at mcdonald’s....if you can’t make a phone call to your credit card company explaining that a $3,000 charge to starbucks wasn’t you.....she’s your girl <3 since she’s relatively not bothered by the way people see her ( unless it has to do with her past ) she’s usually the one speaking up if someone she cares about can’t

after the ... incident ... JSDBWJDBWJ she’s really not a fan of the badge club and everything it stands for ): BUT she continues to do art directing work for a lot of the members when they do photoshoots, or instagram campaigns, or if they have a pop up shop, etc. it’s good money and she needs every penny considering she’s living without support from her family

cannot cook to save her life so she’s always eating out .. this really is why she’s taking those more high profile jobs she can’t budget .. but it’s better, safety wise at least, that she continues wasting her money on takeout aha <3

pretends she’s not a romantic and is all about the ~casual flings~ but really she’s just afraid of serious feelings and the idea of a serious relationship ... it’s the trauma 😔 constantly jokes shes gonna bring the tinder whore era back JWDBWJBDJW she is sick of this true love nonsense ! ( the irony of this url ahaha... )

she’s the most social after a few drinks, since drunk her isn’t burdened by a mind that overthinks literally everything the way she is sober. if you don’t supervise her though she can get pretty carried away and probably get into some kind of trouble so she’s definitely not the person you want to be in charge on a night out !

really wants a dog but doesn’t think she’s cut out to be a pet parent it feels just as scary as the idea of having an actual kid so ... BDWBDJW if you have a pet ? she’s gonna be living vicariously through you <3

━ ˙ ˖ ☆ wanted connections !

the photographer that hired her / introduced her to the badge club member she ended up having feelings for

the badge club remember she had / has feelings for because we love suffering 😈

old roommates from college !! maybe even the one that got her to download love alarm in the first place hehehe

also a current roommate / roommates because your girl can’t afford to live on her own <3

someone she’s confided in about her past ( maybe they judged her for it and had a falling out, or maybe they remain confidants )

an ex bf or gf she dated while she was in school ! she never rang their love alarm ( even though this was pre block ) so maybe that’s why things ended between them. or maybe they never rang each others and it was just a mutual thing where they both didn’t really have feelings for each other and tried to date anyway and it didn’t work. or perhaps they dated and when violet realized she was starting to have those feelings she dipped before she ever got a chance to ring their love alarm bc she didn’t want to be exposed like that and commitment is scary ):

spare best friend ? i’d use a knife emoji to show you how serious i am but i dont wanna scare anyone away aha .. i would just love a best friend plot 🥺

current flings / hookups or past flings / hookups ! i imagine most of them to not be serious but it would be kinda cool if there was someone she’s seeing now that she’s got the love alarm block that she’s actually falling for considering she’s never gonna be able to ring their love alarm hehehehe

people she art directs for !! i imagine she’s got a pretty long list of employers ( from badge club members to regular folk 🤧 ) so it would be cool to have people who hire her for stuff, or who collaborate with her for artistic endeavors since i’ve noticed we have a lot of artsy muses <3

ummm maybe an enemy. but where it’s like .. the hate isn’t even that deep it’s just like oh you dislike me ? well i dislike you FIRST 😠 and they insult each other and try and sabotage each other like five year olds fighting on the playground like it seems super serious to them but to everyone watching it’s like ... can you guys just get over it you dumb babies KSDBSDBWD like they could probably be good friends if they just .. stopped

and you’ve reached the end of this NOVEL of an intro post JDBJWBDJWBDW im literally so sorry i tried not to ramble but ..... its just who i am </3 please come shoot me a message to plot !!! you can use tumblr ims but im way more available / quicker to respond on discord so if u wanna add me there and plot u can find me at junhee mr. soft hands ʕ´• ᴥ•̥`ʔ#8172 i also did not check this post for typos so if u find one ... mind ur business 😭😭😭

#╰ ♡ . 𝒑𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒅𝒖𝒎𝒃 𝒐𝒇 𝒂𝒔𝒔 ── ooc ! ┘#lovealarm.intro #HELPSDBWJD finally i finished.....im so sorry in advance this is . so long #also im going out in like 2 hours to eat so if im slow to respond to messages tonight u know whats going on <33333

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eldritchsurveys · 4 years

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706.

Would you date someone who still lived with their parents? >> I don’t date, but if I did, that wouldn’t be a dealbreaker in itself. I think it would depend on how the situation was -- sometimes it’s just easier financially, or sometimes they’re taking care of a parent who is ill. All that is fine. But if it’s an obvious codependency situation or something like that, I’d regard that as a red flag. Are you a generous person? >> I can be generous. I can also be not generous. Do you have a close relationship with your family? >> I have no relationship with my family. Would you have to sleep with someone before marrying them? >> I did not sleep with the person I’m married to. But I do think that sleeping with one’s partner before tying the knot is a very logical thing for people in sexual relationships to do. Do you think there is life on other planets? >> I think it’s highly likely.

Do you own a car? >> No. Would it bother you if your bf/gf flirted with someone else? >> Not at all. Would you enjoy a night of playing video games? >> Sure, if I was in a gaming mood. Are you sexually attracted to any inanimate objects? >> I’m attracted to some buildings and I’ve always had a thing for robots and various related forms of machinery. Do you dream of traveling the world or are you happy where you are? >> I always dream of travelling. Have you traveled internationally? >> Not yet. Would you watch a porno with your partner? >> If I was in that kind of relationship, sure, absolutely. Have you ever stolen from your work? >> --- How much does intelligence turn you on? >> Intelligence isn’t a thing I consider sexy. Passion and curiosity can be attractive, yes, but just being able to rattle off math figures or various history facts or whatever isn’t going to turn me on. Seems kind of boring to me, without the aforementioned passion and curiosity anyway. Do you ask someone out or wait for them to ask you? >> --- Do you watch soap operas? >> Well, I watch Grey’s Anatomy. Do you own any sex toys? >> Nope. Do you talk about your sex life with either of your parents? >> --- Do you search someone on the Internet before a first date? >> --- Are you married,engaged, or in a relationship with someone u want to marry? >> Married. How often do you use facebook at work? >> --- Do you enjoy television or movies better? >> I mean, it’s not a comparison. I enjoy watching both. Do you have a friendship that has lasted for 10 years or longer? >> Surprisingly. Elle and I are still friends and we met in 2009. Would you date someone half your age? >> Again, I don’t date, but I definitely wouldn’t date a 16yo if I did. Would you consider donating your body to science after you die? >> I’ve considered it. I prefer decaying. Are you a romantic person? >> No. Would you be okay with your partner hanging with their ex as friends? >> Absolutely. Are you careful with your money? >> I mean, as careful as I can be, I guess, considering I don’t have much of it in the first place. Do you have a current passport? >> No. Do you like to be friends with someone before dating them? >> If I was ever going to date, it’d be this way. Do you like soccer? >> No. Is it more fun to go out just with your date or on a group date? >> --- How often do you go dancing/clubbing? >> I don’t. Have you had a relationship with someone of the same sex? >> Yes. Is marriage a necessity for two people who love each other? >> No. Do you meditate? >> I have tried to establish a meditation routine at least 5 different times, and it never sticks. Sometimes I just do little spontaneous contemplative moments instead, since that seems to suit me better. Have you ever been fired from a job? >> No. Is there anything you think science will never be able to explain? >> Sure, maybe. I wouldn’t argue with anyone about it, but I don’t think science is the be-all and end-all when it comes to interpreting the universe. Do you cook fancy meals for dates? >> --- Is intoxication ever an acceptable excuse for acting stupid? >> It’s a reason. Whether it’s a reason I’m willing to accept and forgive or not varies with the situation (and the intoxicated person in question). Do you believe in an afterlife? >> No. Well, I mean. We interpret Inworld as an afterlife, so I guess I technically believe in one life-after-life kind of situation, but... that’s different. I don’t necessarily believe that that’s what’s going to happen to me, for instance. Do you litter? >> Nah. Would you have sex with someone hot who you hated? >> No, dude. Do you have a career plan? >> No. Do you mostly cook your own meals? >> No, Sparrow cooks most of the meals. Have you ever been arrested? >> Kind of. I say “kind of” because I’m not sure if “taken into night court because of an open-container fine I didn’t pay” counts as an arrest. I wasn’t booked or anything. Could you live with someone who was really messy? >> Noooo. That’s part of what got Sigma kicked out. Are sex and love the same thing? >> Obviously not. Do you go to church? >> No. Do you have pets? >> I live with a cat. How many concerts do you attend a year? >> Zero or one, nowadays (depends on whether we can afford Trans-Siberian Orchestra when ticket sale time comes around). I’d like to go to more but I have. specific requirements. Do you enjoy getting drunk? >> No. I enjoy being buzzed, but beyond that I just get fucking tired. Do you believe in fate or destiny? >> “Destiny” (or ka as they like to call it over there in All-World) is 100% some Roland Deschain bullshit and I’m not about that life. Have you ever called your friend a slut? >> Not maliciously. Are you attracted to someone with Power? >> I mean, what kind of power are we talking about? Self-actualisation and emotional stability, confident resilience, is a kind of power. That’s attractive. Charisma is a kind of power. That can be attractive, depending on how it’s applied. Social capital and career success is a kind of power, but that doesn’t attract me. Doing nothing all day makes you feel…? >> Worthless, but what the fuck do you want from me. Have you ever had sex with someone you worked with? >> --- Do you have any children? >> No. Would you date someone just for the sex? >> --- Do you give money to charities? >> No. Have you ever shot a gun? >> No. Have you ever gone on a blind date? >> Yeah, long time ago. Have you ever had a one night stand? >> I’ve had way too many, because I really didn’t fucking know any better. Are you a passionate person? >> I don’t feel like I am. I guess that’s why I find passion attractive, because it’s a thing I’m missing. Do you consider yourself a positive person? >> Ehh. Have you ever lied about the number of sexual partners you’ve had? >> No. Are Sex and Intimacy the same thing? >> Sex is a kind of intimacy. Have you ever played strip poker? >> No. How often do you get angry? >> Not very. I tend to get irritable and impatient and stuff like that, but not full-on angry. Do you consider yourself an emotional person? >> Well, yeah. Just not the same way as other people. Is work important to you? >> --- Have you had cosmetic surgery? >> No. On a first date do you pay or do they? >> --- Do you only date people who have jobs or are full-time students? >> --- Could you date someone who does drugs? >> --- Are you a jealous person? >> No. Do you enjoy watching sports? >> No. Except for figure skating, that’s the tits. Are you a cat or a dog person? >> --- Is a girl who’s slept with 100 guys a bad person? >> Why the fuck would that make them a bad person? Answer me that. Do you offend people? >> I mean, I’m sure I do on occasion. You can’t really avoid it. Do you prefer people in your life be simple or complex? >> What even is a simple person? I assume everyone has a rich internal life just like I do. Seems better than assuming the opposite... Have you ever been to a sex shop? >> I’ve been to a lot of sex shops. Have you ever had a threesome? >> Yes. I vastly prefer Inworld ones to outworld ones, just saying. Do you enjoy discussing politics? >> No. I refuse to discuss politics, in fact. I will listen to a discussion if it remains civil, and see if I can learn anything from it, but I won’t participate. Would you do a striptease for your partner? >> No. Would you date someone who doesn’t have a car? >> --- Do you enjoy dancing? >> Yes, very much. You have a week off, travel or stay home? >> --- Does spending the weekend at home annoy you? >> No, but I do like to get out if possible, even if just to the store. Right now, it’s not possible (unless it’s to the store, and even then only for essential items), and it’s killing me. Is it wrong to watch porn if you’re in a relationship? >> Not for me, it isn’t. Obviously other people have varied opinions. Do you think men should pay for everything on dates? >> I legitimately do not give a single fuck about this or any of these dating questions, sigh. Would you tie up a partner if they asked you to do so? >> No, because I have no expertise in knot-tying and that’s not safe. But I’d probably be okay with simple restraints. Do you consider yourself open minded? >> Yes. Are you a virgin? >> No. Have you ever had sex in a public place? >> Yes. Do others find you sexy? >> I don’t particularly care if they do. It wouldn’t do me any favours. Have you ever met someone in person you met online? >> Quite a few times. Would you date someone twice your age? >> --- Should a child caught masturbating be punished? >> Absolutely fucking not??? Why is this even a question. (Don’t answer that. I know why. It’s just that the “why” is so disappointing.) How often do you drink? >> Eh. Depends. Coffee or tea? >> Tea. Do you tell your friends you love them? >> I don’t tell anyone I love them. Inworlders notwithstanding, but it’s different there.

#surveys #survey #random survey

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chonkyspacekitten · 4 years

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No reblog please

Idk i just wanna update on my life at the moment. Its been a while. I dont really like to talk about my relationship in public forums online and i also wanna give my mutuals an explantion for my splotchy texts cause i have like 80 something messages on here rn. Ive just been so busy and emotionally drained. Sorry if i message you after like a month, start a convo but then just trail off, then respond to that response 3 months later and trail off again-

sorry sometimes yall just miss my social window yall gotta be quicker😅😅😅

Kidding kidding, but once its closed, its closed until further notice. im sorry and im trying i cherish yall a lot, my mutuals and people i still text on here. But god texting has gotten so hard the past year idk why...

My regular texting sucks too so yall arent missing much btw but happy to obliged, it if anyones interest lol, along with my messenger im on FB a lot.

But anyways. My life for the past year.

Me and my girl are in the closet, everyone knows we are dating, besides her dad and town. He doesnt know and wow it feels like we're really getting away with something LMAO

We are long distance but we kinda do this back and forth thing whenever we can. Usually every 2-3 months. Like we'll stay at each other's houses for like weeks, and its become my 2nd home, and their parents love me, my dad loves her.

We are currently trying for jobs. We both have mental illness obvi, so its hard. Really really hard. But we are trying. We're saving up to move in together. Our situation isnt ideal rn we, dont really expect to even think about moving for about a year or 2, for multitude of reasons. It just isnt realistic.

I'm also trying for disability. Doing odd jobs like mowing the lawn...really relaxing.

Am In between saying fuck it and just getting a job RIGHT now or just waiting. I first applied for social security december of last year. Denied twice. Wish me luck, i may even have to get a lawyer.

Apparently you can have a job while on disability so long as you don't make too much money...and i want a job man, but with the way my mental state is...it would do me good to actually leave the house and try to get more human interaction besides just grocery shopping myself and going to the thrift shops by myself lol or the occasional movie outing with my gf

I now have a resume. And wanna work at the gas station, library and/or Dollar tree near me. All of which im pretty comfy at. Wish me luck.

My mental health recovery...this has been a year of breakthroughs man im really making strides

Im discovering more and more traumas. Learning how to deal with shit. Its been hell for my depression but ive been growing and evolving and becoming more in tune with myself and my emotions and shit

Me and my partner are doing okay. We are okay and healthy. They have a therapist too now!

We are doing so good. We are able to be so vulnerable with each other. We talk for hours until we figure out a miscommunication. She holds me like a baby, she just squeezes the pain out of me , ive never had anyone try to understand me the way Amy does. And i give the same back. I cant keep my eyes and hands to myself. I have to look away when i stare at her for more than 2 seconds, i just cant

My heart feels with so much joy that it scares me and it feels like im gonna burst

Ive never felt this way before, about anyone

My ex? Whos a guy? And any other person ive had interest in?

The fact that most of the people ive been into have all acted "feminine", been fellow genderqueer, but AMAB at the time, and 2 have both come out as trans girls at some point...shouldve been a sign lmao. But nope, "i like guys...i like girls but cant imagine myself being romantically involved with a girl, only sexual . Guys more so emotionally i guess. *has literally never imagined actively living with a man before, getting married. Didnt even want to meet my first bf irl. But looked at boobs and was that 12 year old with a lesbian porn and hentai tiddie addiction*....yes im straight :)"

Actually coming to the realization that i can have a wife...wow that shook me. Id never considered. Or thought realistic. i was "normal", what compulsory heterosexuality wanted me to believe.

Im still struggling coming to terms in my sexuality. Been in straight up denial since i was early teens but ive known i was different since 8. Im growing in this area too, im trying. We both are actually.

1 year, 7 months ❤

We are both genderqueer demisexual sapphics/wlw❤❤

To all my sapphics in the closet with partners, i wish to you my luck and blessings

We are allowed to be happy, no one can change us

We are allowed to have happy endings, and we can whether the straights like it or not.

Tl;dr: doin really good, hard year of growth but making strides in my sexuality, relationship, goals and ambitions. Pretty grand.

#me.txt #wlw positivity #mental illness positivity #good vibes #lgbtq #genderqueer #nonbinary

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paperclipninja · 5 years

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Younger post-ep ramble 6x10

Ok, so this week’s episode, ‘It’s All About The Money, Honey’ delivered two of my season 6 wish list items: Kelsey and Charles working together as a supportive team and really getting to see their dynamic and relationship (I sometimes forget that they have a whole history BL - Before Liza) and Liza and Charles getting drunk and handsy at a bar. I’m not even kidding, when I wrote my season 6 wish list I word for word wrote that. So thank you for those Alison Brown, I am simple folk and I am happy. I would also like to show my appreciation for a number of throwbacks that were nice little nuggets from previous seasons.

I don’t know whether it was deliberate or not, but this ep seemed to really play very obvious set ups, where you could see what was coming and kind of hoped it’d play out differently because eek! but then nope. I have no idea if this approach has a name in screenwriting, it was sort of like set-up slapstick, for absolute lack of any better description (I’m sure ‘eek!’ is a technical term somewhere…). I am writing much of this on a plane on my way to holiday time (yay), which may mean nothing or something but I think my point is that I may miss a few bits and pieces here and there. There’s much to discuss so let’s do this!

After their declarations of love last week, this episode opens with Zane, a towel, his abs and Kelsey chatting about her trip to Chicago to ‘beg for money’, which nicely sets up a few themes for the ep. The issue of not being taken seriously as a woman in business is quickly flagged, along with the appropriate foreshadowing of future faux pas with Zane’s reassurance that Kelsey will get their attention being the only woman in the room (as he very unsubtly opens her shirt while staring at her chest) and Kelsey’s quip that ‘I guess I have more assets than you’ (boobs, she means her boobs ICYMI).

Liza and Charles are also saying their farewells, with Charles continuing to be supportive boyfriend no. 1 as he tells Liza to stop feeling guilty before reassuring her that everything is going to be fine, which we all know means it absolutely will not be. I’d like to officially welcome back the ‘miss you’ texts because a) they’re adorable and b) I do love a good text distraction as a giant poster of a woman and her ex goes past on the side of a bus just when that woman is floating along blissfully thinking of her current bf. As she passes another poster, it’s only a matter of time until Liza comes face to face with, well, her face. On the side of a building. Eek! indeed.

Naturally Liza’s first instinct is to call Kelsey, who is at the airport with Charles, to ask her to stop him from seeing the ad until she has the chance to speak to him. I feel like a phone call to Charles instead in that moment would’ve sorted it all pretty quickly, but then we would’ve missed out on his smile at the pic of Liza that comes up on Kelsey’s phone and the funniest moment of the episode, Kelsey’s sudden onset escalator phobia (‘I don’t like them, they’re weird’ LOL). The absolute highlight of this episode for me was seeing Kelsey and Charles working together. From the moment she’s filling him in on the investors they’re meeting with because she’s done her research to Charles saying that she can do the job without investors sticking their noses in (Bryce reference noted, what a dud) to Kelsey redirecting him to the elevator and him confused but obliging without question, their dynamic from the get go was fab and a lovely build on last week’s ep.

Meanwhile, luckily for Liza Lauren is at work, which is really lucky for all of us because Lauren now only referring to Diana as Diva and Diana clearly very ok with it is all I’ve ever wanted and my mind is filling in all the blanks about what the two of them would have been sitting there talking about while waiting to see if the people they sent to catch their food return (this line = yes Diva). I loved Lauren’s 'here?’ when Liza asks if she can talk to her (then 'so here, ok’ as she sits down lol) because it certainly feels as though Lauren is trying to keep the moment about Diana and the excitement of getting the appointment at Kleinfeld and is reluctant to let Liza make it all about her (which she of course does and Diana calls her out on it and I am here for it every day of the week).

Liza’s obsessive focus on the ad campaign and the need to speak to Charles about it really consumes her for the entire episode and blinds her to the needs of any other characters in way that seems uncharacteristic, but is also quite on brand considering some of the self-absorbed moments we’ve seen from her throughout the series. I guess it just seems uncharacteristic for season 6 Liza (or at least my understanding and construction of this character at this point), with a lie no longer in play and able to live her life honestly, as she’s been hoping to do since season one. I’m unsure whether this fixation and her consequent behaviour was meant to be funny or highlight the point that clearly there is more to the poster than it just being about clothes (we get it, there are FEELINGS), but I have to say that I really struggled with it considering Liza’s journey to where she is now and also this show’s usual tendency to be more nuanced.

Despite Liza’s persistence with Lauren re: Infinitely 21 at Kleinfeld (my concern that Lauren was harbouring some ill feeling towards Liza following the lie reveal was quashed when she revealed that she’d phoned Shelly to say Liza was uncomfortable with the ad. I mean, ‘I left a voicemail for you!’ is as ‘I’ve got your back’ as it comes), we were given a delightful moment between Diana and Liza as they reminisced about their first weddings and it’s conversations like this that I would like to see many more of. These two talking as women who have shared life experience is everything. It is then revealed that Infinitely 21’s campaign is going national which leads Liza to bail on the bride to frantically make a dash to Chicago, but my main takeaway from this scene is that Diana is going to have the wedding celebration she damn well deserves and quite frankly, this Trout/DeLuca “event of the year” cannot come fast enough.

Turns out Liza is not the only one getting on a big jet plane, as Claire fills Josh in on the amazing promotion to Senior Project Manager she’s been offered at Google, which will set Gemma up nicely. The only catch is, it’s in LA. Josh is understandably upset and as Claire assures him they’ll figure it out, he also spots the Infinitely 21 poster for the first time, because the only thing better than finding out your daughter might be moving across the country is being plastered all over the city in a pic with your ex who you’re still in love with. One of my favourite friendships on this show is that between Maggie and Josh, so I enjoyed seeing him go to Maggie to talk over the revelations of the morning (what a morning!). You’ve gotta love Maggie’s, ‘it’s not a sign’ to snap Josh out of the wallowing (and Josh’s ‘it’s literally a sign’, ha), her encouraging him to fight for Gemma and use the Infinitely 21 success to his advantage was a solid suggestion (though I am a little disappointed that Maggie didn’t ask if he’d consider moving to LA as one possible option to keep Gemma in his life or at least throw it out there on one of her famous Maggie ‘these are your options’ lists).

Josh meets with Shelly, who makes zero attempt to hide her thirst and it’s pretty darn hilarious and I actually love this entire interaction. Josh’s idea of franchising Inkburg, mentioned at the retreat in episode 6, remerges in the form of a collaboration with Infinitely 21 (Retail-tainment). Inkburg Midtown would offer a set of flash pieces exclusive to Infinitely 21, it is all very well pitched and I like seeing Josh in business mode because he’s clearly pretty decent at it after all these years, but not as much as Shelly likes it and him and everything which leads to her basically groping him in store (‘I’m a hugger’, yeah sure Shel). I have to believe that Josh’s move to establish the partnership with Infinitely 21 is so that he has clout to replicate the idea in LA and establish a national presence if he wants, rather than to try and keep Claire in New York by saying he can support her financially (unless we discover that is what Claire actually wants). Josh has been written as way too woke to do something to sabotage the career of the mother of his child, especially considering his experience with Liza and knowing what she went through. I, for one, will watch this space.

Another space I have watched closely is Kelsey’s, especially as she’s grappled with the role of publisher and really found her feet in the last couple of episodes. Her brilliant boss mode continued this week and seeing Kelsey so nervous before the pitch meeting, but still keeping her level head even after discovering Jacobs was the only shot at keeping the company alive, demonstrated again how much she has grown. From the moment Jeffrey and Ennis greet Kelsey and Charles, and by greet I mean look straight through Kelsey at Charles, you just know that this is going to be a tough gig for Kels. The men very obviously talk only to Charles, patronise Kelsey asking 'do you even know what those [precious metals] are?’, ugh it’s all so gross but also a bit too real and familiar. I love that Charles makes a point of saying 'we’ and emphasising that they are a team and it is obvious he is not comfortable that even when Kelsey is speaking they still look at and talk to him. Seeing Kelsey interject confidently and intelligently (although when she tells that room of suits to follow her on Insta it was a definite Eek! moment) was so satisfying, she read the room, commanded it pay attention and it did. Charles is proud and impressed and lets her hold the floor (as he should but it was great to see) and I could legit watch a whole series with these two as kick-ass business partners.

Just when I thought my new fave dynamic duo couldn’t have any more golden moments, Kelsey and Charles getting celebratory drinks happened. After last season saw a lot of tension between these two characters, seeing this relationship shift to one of mentor/mentee that is truly symbiotic (I have no doubt that Charles is learning as much from Kelsey as she is from him), where Kelsey still needs reassurance about how the business world works and Charles expresses his eternal gratitude for her amazing work…seriously, did I mention how much I love this? It is an actual dream.

Of course it is just after a commemorative glass clinking moment that Liza arrives, much to the elation of Charles (‘this day just keeps getting better and better’, ugh) and wariness of Kelsey, who immediately questions Liza’s real reason for being there. Upon hearing that the Infinitely 21 campaign (yes, we’re still talking about that) has gone national so Liza came to speak to Charles, Kelsey looks at her with the same ‘you have lost the plot’ look I had on my face, before telling her, ‘not now…we are celebrating’. Liza agrees as smitten, happy Charles looks over but this high school drama-esque carry on is really a bit much at this point. All I can say is thank goodness for the scene that followed, because it very quickly made me forget that I was getting annoyed.

First we get the revelation that Liza made out with Chrissie Hart on Shelter Island, which was also the last time we saw Charles and Liza drunk together but they were also not actually together, so it was very much that moment that sparked my need to see them out and drinking again some time. So yes, sharing great stories as they all sit around, check, they are all so carefree and jovial and then Charles and Liza just start making out in front of third wheel Kelsey and I cannot and this is 100% the quality content that my trashbag heart lives for. But it is Liza and Charles bidding Kelsey goodnight when she says she’s heading back to her room, and Charles saying, ‘bye’ before turning to Liza with a soft, ‘hi’ that completely undoes me. Seriously, project this entire scene on loop on my tombstone for I. am. deceased.

Drunk Kelsey back in her room responding to Zane’s message with a boob shot = I am DYING again but for different reasons. Kelsey Lorraine indeed, Lauren seeing it on Insta stories is every kind of second hand mortification and poor Kelsey waking up and realising what she’s done is yikes (but lbh it’s also a little bit hilarious, special thanks to the messages left on her story: A tale of two titties, Nippy longstockings and my personal fave, Did you mean to post this? It’s Liz from the gym). Kelsey’s waking nightmare is contrasted by Liza waking up to her fantasy of her, Charles, coffee and paper (you and me both sista), but my fantasy is quickly shattered when Liza spots that pesky ad on the back of the newspaper and grabs it from Charles in a totally normal way, which he interprets to be playful and suggestive, until he realises it is not.

Liza’s reveal makes it pretty obvious that she’s feeling guilty but that is quickly interrupted by the frantic knocking of Kelsey, the bearer of more bad news. Liza greeting her with ‘he’s seen it’, countered by Kelsey’s horrified, ‘Charles saw my boobs?’ before Liza corrects her with, ‘no, the Infinitely 21 ad’ is just so mind boggling, I mean, what person in their right mind opens the door to their best friend’s incessant knocking and thinks ‘they must be beside themselves to find out if I told Charles yet?’ I get it, it’s consuming Liza because it’s dredging up feelings so that the triangle can be revived after lying dormant (presumed dead) the past two seasons, but Charles having to hear about Kelsey’s mistake (though Liza’s ‘you look good’ is v. funny), as well as process that Liza didn’t come to Chicago to surprise him and Kelsey at all just makes me pretty sad.

Kelsey continues to be impressive as she owns her screw up and humbly explains herself to the room full of gross men. I do love how they’ve been cast, so much brown fabric. Charles’, 'it’s just too much of a good thing…I mean Kelsey’s internet presence’, is awks af but he’s really trying to throw his support behind her. Ennis Jacobs asking Kelsey if she’s considered distancing herself from the Millennial brand (dude, she IS the Millennial brand) and saying they are still interested in investing if Charles is publisher made me want to scream for her, Charles’ assertion that 'she is a woman who has made nothing but smart decisions since she’s been in a position to make decisions’ met with the biggest decision Kelsey has made yet; stepping down as publisher.

I do see it, the juxtaposition of how a man embroiled in a scandal (publisher having an affair with a 28 year old assistant) is treated vs. a woman whose potentially scandalous error was accidental, that the ultimate ramifications for him are minimal because look, he’s now back where he was not that long ago (though I also see the mirroring of Charles having to step down due to the scandal and now Kelsey having to do the same…so maybe they’re just the ultimate tag team?). I am going to wait to see how the rest of this season plays out (on all fronts), but if at seasons end, Charles is publisher again, and it’s all basically as it once was, then what was the point of any of this beyond making that statement? I mean, there are a number of ways it could go, so I am interested to see what this means. I am just really heartbroken for Kelsey because in that moment, she put the need of the company ahead of her own ambition and I am also heartbroken because she really had FINALLY come into her own as publisher and I was excited to see what she would do next.

After the horrendous meeting, Liza is waiting for Charles to finish the conversation about the ad and Charles suggests that she fly back to NY with Kelsey, because ‘she needs you now’ (seriously, if Charles is in your corner he is IN your corner). I love that Charles knows what Liza flying to Chicago really means and calls her out on it, that he is not bothered by her past or relationship with Josh, it’s the fact she felt she had to get on a plane that makes him wonder if there is something to be worried about. Call me boring but I have always appreciated that these two have actual proper adult conversations and don’t avoid issues and this was no exception.

Charles puts it to Liza that ‘everyone has a past, but in order to have a future, you move on from it’, to which she responds that ‘other people live in the past in order to have a future’. Yes, Liza had to live a younger life in order to build a new future for herself but now that she has re-established her career and her real age is no longer a secret, is that what she wants to keep doing? I do believe Liza realises she isn’t being fair to Charles but I think we all know that even if her pledge not to see Josh anymore was genuine at the time, it is not going to be upheld and was probably a bit of an over-promise. But I do appreciate that Liza really is choosing Charles in that moment.

It’s the escalator ride (which is weirdly relatable for some reason) once Kelsey and Liza are back in New York, but neither want to go home, that shows that even if Liza does want to move forward, she is still stuck between these two worlds. I have to say, Kelsey losing her job and being publicly humiliated somehow being on par with a 42 year old woman feeling sad that she can’t be friends with an ex because she’s confused about her feelings is ridiculous and I personally feel like the final moments of this ep should have been focused squarely on Kelsey. I do agree with Liza that Kelsey will get it back though, that was the correct response.

The painfully longing glances at the giant poster of her and Josh can be taken as a letting go of the past and moving forward (time will tell) but it also undoubtedly indicates that Liza’s days of once again oscillating between these two men are very much on the horizon which is, to be frank, really disappointing at this point in a series. My biggest issue is the fact that we keep being told that this show is not about the triangle, it’s about the women and the friendships yet it’s constantly being made about the triangle. In always pulling the focus to the triangle this show is making it about the men, which is the very thing it so brilliantly admonishes society for doing.

While I am absolutely reserving all judgement until I see how the rest of this season unfolds, I have to believe that if the triangle does make a comeback, it is being dredged up again to bring it to a head once and for all, so that we can all move on and focus on the many far more compelling aspects that make up this wonderful show.

#youngertv #younger tv #ramble #review #younger season 6 #6x01 #liza miller #kelsey peters #charles brooks #diana trout #liza x charles #team charles

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bloodymarryy · 5 years

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50 qs tag

tagged by @confused--being thank youu!! LOVE YOU

1. What takes too much of your time?

My dumbass injury and finding good music

2. What makes your day better?

Drawing and talking to @vanderaliwaal or every other mutual/Friend!!!

3. What´s the best thing that happened to you today?

I finally created and finished my new OC´s!!!!

4. What fictional place would you like to go to?

In twd or any anime romance!

5. Are you good at giving advice?

it depends ssfsgsf

6. Do you have any mental illness?

Anorexia/Bulimia and Anxiety

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis?

YES AND IT WAS COOL AND TERRIFYING

8. What musician inspired you the most?

Stray kids and Seventeen!

9. Have you ever fallen in love?

Yes

10. What's your dream date?

Gaming and drinking energy

11. What do other people notice about you?

That I am introverted and shy

12. What is an annoying habit you have?

When I am nervous or awkward I crack my bones ... I actually crack them all the time

13. Do you still talk to your first love?

Since we talk about love then yes, he is my bf

14. How many ex´s do you have?

one

15. How many songs are on your playlist?

I really dunno sfhggs

16. What instruments can you play?

None but I wish

17. Who do you have the most pictures of?

Random people for sketches

18. Where would you like to go before you die?

CANADA, Greece, and Japan

19. What is your zodiac?

Leo

20. Do you relate to it?

Yes! I feel the leo power

21. What is happiness to you?

Being comfortable and knowing that you did reach a goal or will one day reach them.

22. Are you going through anything right now?

Back to 6.

23. What is the worst decision you ever made?

PFFF I DUNNO

24. What is your favorite store?

The shop where I get art supplies.

25. What is your opinion about abortion?

I am glad that you ask: If it´s not your body, then it´s not your choice! The shit like “It´s murder” “You kill your child” “It´s her problem if she had sex” Is the worst thing to say and if these are your opinions: B L O C K M E

26. Do you have a bucket list?

I wish

27. Do you have a favorite album at the moment?

I really dunno

28. What do you want for your birthday?

Same as @confused--being a graphics tablet!

29. What are peoples first impression of you?

I wish I would know

30. What age do you seem according to most people?

16/17

31. Where do you keep your phone while sleeping?

Right next to me

32. What word do you say the most?

“like”

33. What´s the oldest age you would date?

17 maybe 18

34. What's the youngest age you woul date?

35. What job/career do most people say would suit you?

Smth art related or a teacher

36. What’s your favourite music genre?

kpop ig but I listen to everything

37. If you could live in any country in the world, where would it be?

C A N A D A

38. What is your current favourite song?

I don’t have one rn

39. How long have you had this blog for?

About 1 year

40. What are you excited for?

For the Anime/Japan convention soon!

41. Are you a better talker or listener?

Listener

42. What is the last productive thing you did?

Drew smth

43. What do you want for Christmas?

probably smth art related

44. What class do you get the best grades in?

Math and Art

45. On scale of 1-10, how are you feeling?

-67

46. What can you see yourself doing in 10 years?

Hopefully study art

47. When did you get your first heart broken?

From real or fictional characters tho

48. At what age do you want to get married?

25/27 maybe

49. What career did you want to have as child?

Doctor

50. What do you crave right now?

Self love

I tag: @vanderaliwaal @allyourbitchesbrokenhearts @just-our-rainyday @softyn @roseblue-doodles @pinkyyunoh @felixcutefreckles @fluffylix @snooshiegrape

if yall dont want wan to then you don´t have to

#tags #tagged #mutuals💕

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surveys-at-your-service · 3 years

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Survey #421

“hunted by hundreds and never to be caught / descent to wander, bring terror and take 'em all beyond”

Which do you prefer, donut holes, jelly filled donuts or normal donuts? Normal donuts. When you get old, are you going to make a will? I mean probably. Ever made your own definition for something on Urban Dictionary? No. What do you call your grandparents? "Grammy" and "Grampa." Do you like weddings? Not especially because I'm a bitter fuck. Do you want to live in a dorm in college? I never wanted to, so I never did. Have you ever had your tonsils taken out? No. Are you single/taken/crushing/confused? Single/confused. Is your best friend single? Yes. Is your first real best friend still there for you? I mean we have one another on Facebook, but that's the extent of it. Do you still care for your first love? Very much. I hope he's doing okay since his mother passed. What color is your blanket? Navy with black swirls. Are you listening to music right now? Yes. I am obseeeeeessed with Alissa White-Gluz's cover of Powerwolf's "Demons Are a Girl's Best Friend." Have you ever felt as if you lost your one true love? I feel like that all the time. But I should add that I don't believe there is JUST ONE person designed for you. There are way, way too many people on this earth to have just a single, perfect match. Which do you like better: Bowser, Mario, Luigi, or Princess Peach? Well I mean I always picked Luigi in Mario Kart, so I got a bias, ha ha. How many tattoos do you have? Six. Plenty, PLENTY more to come, though. Would you ever consider getting a mohawk? No. What do you like to do most in your free time? Do random shit on the computer. What’s your work title? Unemployed. Do you pay rent? I don't. What was the reason behind the last time you wore a bandage? I cut my finger opening up a cup of yogurt. Yes, I'm serious. What music artist have you listened to a lot lately? Powerwolf, lately. And Motionless In White. Who is taller, you or your best friend? Me. When was the first time you ever listened to your favorite music artist? Well, as a little kid, Mom would play some Ozzy in the car occasionally, and I actually loved "Perry Mason" so much that I would ask for her to play it. Growing up I'd obviously heard "Crazy Train" through random things, but I never truly listened to him until I got into middle school and went through my mother's CD case, discovering new music as I got into rock and metal. Do/did your siblings cause trouble? Nah, not really. If your siblings are old enough, what do they do for work? I honestly don't remember my half-siblings' positions, but my immediate younger sister is a children's social worker, and my older sis is a mammographer. Have you ever been jealous of your siblings? Jealous, no. Envious, extremely. They know what the hell they're doing with their lives and making shit happen. Do you still live with your parent/s or do you live alone/with a partner? I live with my mother. What feeling do you have the most difficulty in expressing? Jealousy. How do you think you would handle yourself in a crisis situation? Freeze up and probably die lol. Does any particular season make you happier than others? Why/why not? Yes, autumn. It's not hot as fuck, the air always feels so fresh to me, and I love the many colors of fall. It's just... chill. Can you adapt to change easily? Any examples? FUCK. NO. Do you see yourself as worthy of love? Why/why not? This answer can change from "yes, because I'm a good human" to "fuck no because I'm worthless" in 0.5 seconds. Do you think you are competitive? Do you really dislike losing? Not in general, but I can be in some areas. What would you be famous for? Fuck if I know. If you had to, would you rather dye your hair red or black? Red. I loved my hair when it actually took red dye well. What do you typically do on Easter Day? Go to my older sister's house. Have you ever viewed the moon through a telescope? No. Do you normally finish one book before starting another? Always. If you were given the chance to be immortal, would you take it? Heeeeeell no. Would you pierce your nipples for $100? Almost certainly yes; I mean that's $100 for something I can just take out if I don't like it. Have you ever dated someone who had a child? No. Would you ever consider adoption? Even if I wanted a child, no. I know I would need either the blood connection or for the child to be my partner's that I truly love. Do you tend to go for guys/girls with certain eye/hair colors? No, I really don't care how you look on the outside. Do you know anyone who plays guitar? Yes. Do you live within an hour of the ocean? More like two hours. What are you currently sitting/laying on? My bed. Have you ever dated a friend of one of your siblings? No. Did you have an imaginary friend as a child? An imaginary wolf, yeah. Which parent do you look most like? My mom, I think. Ever failed a test? Yes. That's all I did in algebra during my last college attempt. Do you have any friends who are famous? No. Your most recent ex breaks down and tells you they love you, what do you do? Well I know she loves me as a friend, but idk if she still does romantically, but either way, I'd tell her I love her too and ask if I can do anything for her. You and your last ex: who should hate who? Neither of us. We have a perfectly fine relationship. Do you believe you pick who you fall in love with? Definitely not. Last thing you ate? I had a peanut butter sandwich for breakfast. Are you obsessed with someone? *discreetly eyes Markiplier* If you had to write a brief message on a dollar bill that many people would eventually see as the currency circulates, what message would you write? I'd have to think longer on this, but definitely something about not putting so much worth into the money and not allowing greed to rule the individual. What serves as the greatest motivation for you in your daily life? The hope for a happy, prosperous future. If you were a multimillionaire, what do you believe you would be doing at this very moment? Well, it's morning and this is my prime time to really just chill and do my first scope of the Internet, so I'd probably be in a beautiful house in the woods of the mountains by a beautiful waterfall. I'd have the windows down to listen to nature, make sure via AC if necessary that it's cool... Damn, that sounds nice. If you could have a cookie jar full of anything you wanted, except money or cookies, what would it be full of? Hm. Perhaps a very motivational quote that I'd draw each day, kind of like fortune cookies, but actually good and applicable, ha ha. If someone were looking for you in a bookstore, in what section would they be most likely to find you? YA or fiction. If your ex came up to you and asked you to take them back, what would you say? Anyone but Jason or Sara would be an automatic "no." Jason would have to really prove himself. Sara, I'd be willing, but would ask her if that's what she really wants given our positions right now. Do you think Ke$ha is annoying? I don't know anything about her personally. I actually liked her music back in the day, even when I was all about metal. Last time you were hit on? No idea. Do you ever write in pencil any more? I always do if I have that option. I don't like that you can't erase with a pen. If you HAD to get a piercing (not ears) what would you get? At this current time, my right nostril again. What do you wish you had more knowledge about? Politics. Would you ever get someone's name tattooed on you? Noooo. Do you have a lot of scars? Yes. I scar very easily. Have you ever had stitches? Twice. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting or any kind of abuse at home? Before my parents divorced, there was a lot of fighting. Do you remember the person you first kissed? Of course I do. Have you ever kissed someone you weren’t dating? No. Who was the last person you fell asleep with? Sara. Have you ever listened to music you hated just to fit in? "Hated," no. I just tried to get into bands that I just couldn't, but didn't hate. Ever been called babe? Yeah. What is your favorite Pop-Tart flavor? Chocolate sundae. Have you ever made your parents cry? Yeah, sadly. Do you wear glasses? Yeah. And yet I'm still blind with 'em. Have you ever made out with somebody on a bed? Yeah. Are you tan? Most definitely not. How did you meet the last person you texted? She kinda like, gave birth to me. Next big event? My nephew's fifth birthday. Ugh, how is he getting that old. Do you think you have to be skinny in order to be beautiful? Fuck off, no. There are some gorgeous/attractive plus-sized people. Have you ever made out on a couch? Yes. Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? Oh god, she witnessed me sob once. Would you ever get gauged ears? I want very small gauges in my bottom earlobe piercings. What is your favorite sushi? Ew. Have you ever been in a school talent show? What for? Noooo sir. What were you like at 17? Oh god... so sad and yet so happily, madly in love at the same time. I both love and hate that era. Tell us about your worst date. Haven't really had a bad one. I had one with Tyler that was an adventure that most would consider awful (flat tire, had to walk in the whipping wind), but I had fun, ha ha. What should be illegal that isn’t already? I dunno. What’s the song you most wish you had written? Probably John Lennon's "Imagine." What is the worst break up you have experienced? Y'ALL KNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW. Do your parents wish you were more successful? Oh, I am CERTAIN they do. They'd never admit it, I'm sure, but I know I'm disappointing. I had so much promise in school. Has a significant other called you unattractive before? WOW, no. Has a significant other ever called you by the wrong name? omg no Have you ever caught someone doing something bad? Cheating on their bf, yes. Has a dentist ever screwed up on anything when working on you? No, I don't think so. What is the worst birthday you have ever had? My 16th. I felt very, very unloved. I don't even like going into it. Have you ever been spit on by a llama? No. Have you ever locked yourself out of your car/house? The house, yes. With my elderly dog with arthritis, in the middle of winter after a good snow. I was freezing, sitting on the front porch and eventually crying. My phone was inside so I couldn't reach my mom, who was at work. As night came, I finally broke and went down the street knocking on my neighbors' doors, and probably the worst fucking one opened. With a gun in his hand. He was apparently an ex-sheriff, and he clearly didn't trust me. He was kind enough to let Teddy, who was incontinent and marked territory, inside (thank fuck he didn't pee in the guy's house), and he gave me a jacket, but Christ, we played 20 goddamn questions to see if I was legit, I'm assuming. I was beyond thankful when Mom finally got there when I used his phone to call her. And as it turned out? The door wasn't even fucking locked, our old dog just jammed the hell outta it by jumping. I was so, so pissed.

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50 Questions Tag

tagged by @sevenpeaches

1. What takes too much of your time?

thinking about shit I don’t want to lmao

2. What makes your day better?

knowing harry’s can drop hs2 at any moment

3. What’s the best thing that happened to you today?

finding this fucking hysterical youtube channel of this guy that watches movies and roasts them

4. What fictional place would you go to?

the first place I thought of was Genovia

5. Are you good at giving advice?

tbh I really don’t know

6. Do you have any mental illness?

maybe undiagnosed anxiety idk

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis?

fortunately no

8. What musician inspired you the most?

is it even shocking that i’m gonna say harry styles ..?

9. Have you ever fallen in love?

honestly, I don’t know maybe I did

10. What’s your dream date?

bold of you to assume i’d ever be asked on a date

11. What do others notice about you?

i’m not everyone else so I really have no clue lmao maybe my freckles ?

12. What is an annoying habit you have?

cracking my knuckles maybe

13. Do you still talk to your first love?

BIG no

14. How many ex’s do you have?

so like in HS i had a bf for like a week but I didn’t really like him and only said yes bc he kept asking (we love peer pressure) and the other one we were best friends and we never dated even though he asked me a lot, I never felt right to be in that kind of relationship with him but I loved him a lot

15. How many songs are in your playlist?

I have 19 different playlists ( 6 of them being kpop) so in conclusion: far too much

16. What instruments can you play?

none

17. Who do you have the most pictures of?

harry

18. Where would you like to go before you die?

pairs or ireland

19. What is your zodiac?

capricorn

20. Do you relate to it?

I think in some aspects

21. What is happiness to you?

I know people think i’m being dramatic but when I say it’s literally harry styles I mean it. Do you blame me though? i’ve loved him for 9 years, he got me through some really rough shit and just listening to his voice puts me at ease and can turn my mood around in an instant

22. Are you going through anything right now?

i’ve hit the point in my life where i’m actually realizing that I’m an adult

23. What’s the worse decision you’ve ever made?

getting close to someone I thought wouldn’t hurt me

24. What’s your favorite store?

I don’t think I have one? maybe Sephora but even then I shop online

25. What’s your opinion on abortion?

I’m pro-choice. Women have a right to do what they want to their own bodies. No matter how the pregnancy occurs, it’s the woman’s choice if they want to keep the child or not

26. Do you have a bucket list?

lmao not a written one

27. Do you have a favorite album?

harry styles, made in the am, 7 for 7, Al1, verse 2

28. What do you want for your birthday?

well my birthday is 9 months away so I want harry’s new album

29. What are people’s first impression of you?

probably that i’m quiet. I don’t really talk around people until I’m comfortable

30. What age do you seem according to most people?

i’ve heard that I look about 16

31. Where do you keep your phone while you sleep?

on the pillow next to me

32. What word do you say the most?

‘bro’ maybe who knows lmaooo

33. What’s the oldest age you would date?

ok considering i’m 19 and have never been in a serious relationship, I feel like atm the oldest I would date is like 21

34. What’s the youngest age you would date?

eighteen

35. what job/career do most people say would suit you?

my family has always said a prosecuter but jokes on them I cry at literally an emotion that isn’t happiness

36. What’s your favorite music genre?

harry styles & kpop

37. If you could live in any country in the world, where would it be?

England 100%

38. What is your current favorite song?

focus by jus2 & the entirety of hozier’s new album

39. How long have you had this blog for?

omfg like 5/6 years? I think I made my account back in 2013

40. What are you excited for?

for it to get warmer out so I can watch the sunsets

41. Are you a better talker or listener?

listener. i’m shit at talking, you can vent to me any time but I usually don’t know what to say back bc I don’t want to make the situation worse

42. What is the last productive thing you did?

laundry ssksjskdjksjdks

43. What do you want for Christmas?

to see harry live in concert again :(

44. What class do you get the best grades in?

history and english

45. On a scale of 1-10, how are you feeling right now?

about a 7

46. What can you see yourself doing in 10 years?

being an intellectual and still stanning harry & got7

47. When did you first get your heartbreak?

2015 when zayn left one direction (but seriously like 2016 i think)

48. At what age do you want to get married?

tbh in my twenties but with my commitment issues it’s more unlikely than you think!

49. What career did you want to have as a child?

I know this is stupid but for so many years I wanted to be a princess bc I watched The Princess Bride everyday and so badly wanted to be Buttercup (to this day I still want my own Westley)

50. What do you crave right now?

harry content :(

that was a journey! tagging: @focusonjb @empressjiaer @selectivelysalty

#tag #50 questions

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