#I am NEVER going to see this bitch live because I won’t be able to handle myself emotionally I don’t think it’s a good idea

[lady-assnali]

Wherever I’m not crying over this stupid Rusical. I’m not crying over watching Gigi and Crystal’s part in the mirror that I’ve already seen a clip of 1,000 times. No way, not me. I’m perfectly fine.

#the SECOND Gigi started signing my eyes welled up with tears #I am NEVER going to see this bitch live because I won’t be able to handle myself emotionally I don’t think it’s a good idea #I sobbed all through watching Jan sing live already I can’t imagine #wait until I see Adore again you’ll get to hear my stories of being an absolute tongue tied sweetheart fool as usual #she’s called me pretty TWICE and both times two years apart from each other I just stared at her like an idiot.

[cosmiiwrites]

OKAY SO I HAVE AN IDEA. What about established relationship domestic fluff with Adam?? Like waking up in the morning cooking breakfast that kind of stuff (I AM STARVED OF HAPPY ADAM CONTENT)

˚ ༘₊· ͟͟͞͞꒰➳ domestic life

.ೃ࿐ adam x reader .ೃ࿐

⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ hc/drabble: how adam would be like as a domestic partner cw: cussing, fluff, established relationship, reader is lwk fem coded a/n: ME TOO ANON. ME TOO. sorry for the hold up on the adam fics btw😭🙏

alright SOO

if you're in a relationship with adam, you obviously mean a lot to him

sure, he brags about his groupies and hookups all the time, but he's never actually been in a serious relationship with any of them

and he never stays in contact with them unless he needs a quick orgasm

without a doubt he drops them all for you

so when you’re dating him, let alone living with him, you’re a lot more than a good fuck

at first, waking up and adam being the first thing you see in the morning took you a while to get used to

you’d always find an arm slung around your waist when you woke up, stopping you from leaving the bed

you found it cute at first, but it started to get annoying when adam literally would not let you get up

“adam, hon, babe, love of my life, i gotta get ready for work,” you yawned. “adaaam,” whining his name clearly did not work. unfazed, the angel only tightened his hold on you. his face buried itself deeper into the crook of your neck. “c’mon, sera won’t be happy if you’re late for the fourth time this week…” you reminded him.

“i don’t give a shit,” adam groaned, voice muffled and barely audible. you loved his morning voice: husky, low, less insufferable. “i jus’ wanna be here with you. i don’t want to hear sera’s bitching this early in the morning…” his last sentence made you laugh, earning you an annoyed growl. “fine, i guess that’s fair.”

you settled more into your shared bed, one arm slinging around adam’s neck while the other combed through his hair. adam gave you a low groan in response. “mmh… could just stay here in bed all day, with you, y’know?” usually, you would object, but this time you gave it some thought. laying in bed with your boyfriend, cuddling all day? hm. you let out a defeated sigh.

“…fine.”

“fuck yeah!”

you had actually found a way to let adam release you from the bed without him bitching about you “abandoning him”

that is, by cooking him bomb ass breakfast

the first time you cooked him breakfast was when he was deep in sleep and you were able to sneak your way out of his grasp

he wasn’t happy about you not being in bed with him, but your cooking made up for it.

an unfamiliar smell woke up adam. “[name], what the fuck is that sme- [NAME]?!” he frantically looked around for you, scanning the bedroom, the bathroom, he even checked the closet. this dumbass didnt even try following the smell. finally, adam found you in the kitchen, back facing towards him as you flipped pancakes.

he gave out a sigh of relief. almost instantly, adam pulled you into a hug from behind, head resting on your shoulder. because of the unexpected gesture, you let out a squeak. cute, he thought. “calm down, babe, s’ just me.” he chuckled. “but seriously, don’t leave me alone… i thought you got murdered or somethin’.” you whipped your head around to meet his eyes. was he serious? “first of all, this is literally heaven. secondly, i left to cook you breakfast, dummy. now go sit down or you’re not getting any.” immediately he complied.

“holy fuck.” he said, munching on a pancake. you giggled. “do you like it?” adam stared at you like you had gone crazy. “do i—do i like it? sweetheart, if i knew you cooked like a god i would’ve forced you to make every dish in the damn book.” his praise went straight to your head. you didn’t think he was capable of complimenting anyone that much but himself! still, you weren’t complaining.

not only did you make breakfast for adam, but lunch and dinner, too

when adam came home from work and found ribs on the table, he went FERAL

“baaaabe, im home,” he announced rather loudly. adam scanned the kitchen for you, instead landing his eyes on a large plate of ribs. never had adam wanted to wife someone up so bad.

“oh, adam! i just made some-“

“marry me.”

i feel like adam wouldn’t be too keen on doing chores around the house

washing dishes, doing the laundry, taking out the trash? not quite his forte

once said that it was a “woman’s job,” and you gave him a firm smack to his head (well deserved)

“adam, you NEVER do anything around here!” you complained. adam only groaned in response. “c’monn, doing the dishes won’t kill you,” “i dunno, it might.” “ADAM!”

“fine, jeez! so fuckin’ dramatic i swear…” he muttered under his breath. he reluctantly picked up a sponge and a plate and began cleaning the plate profusely fast. you leaned on the counter next to him, a smug grin on your face to which he only tsked at.

he put away the last dish, finally. “there, you happy now?” he huffed. “very.” you grabbed his face and pecked his lips once, twice. adam was taken aback at your sudden movement, nevertheless kissing you back more fervently. “mph- shit, if this is what i get for doing the dishes, i might start doing it more often.”

#adam x reader #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel x reader #adam hazbin #adam hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel adam #hazbin hotel alastor #charlie morningstar #emily hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel lucifer #angel dust #hazbin hotel vox #vaggie #sir pentious #husk #niffty #x reader #fluff #domestic fluff

[swaps55]

I lost my friend to cancer yesterday.

I’d really like to tell you about her.

We meet people throughout our lives who change it, in big ways and small ways, and ways we will never forget. Sara/ @dearophelia was one of those people for me.

I met her here, on tumblr, about 10 years ago. I wish I could remember what piece of writing I stumbled onto first, but she was such a gifted writer that I immediately wanted to see more. I somehow wound up following her live blog of a road trip, which was full of uproariously snarky jokes about Ohio. I had the courage to reach out and tell her how funny I thought she was, and how great her username was to this fellow Mass Effect fan who lived right down the road in Kentucky and got all the Ohio jokes.

We talked. We chatted. I introduced her to a group of people I played Mass Effect 3’s multiplayer with. She grew from a level one first-timer to a total badass who could carry a team and taught other people how to do the same thing.

And then my life fell apart.

Everything fell apart for me. Turning to my family wound up being a catastrophe, and I didn’t have local “real world” friends I could turn to.

So I texted Sara. Told her I needed somewhere to go, and asked if I could stay with her that weekend.

She texted back, “Yes.” Sent me her address, and said to ping me when I got there. She didn’t hesitate. She didn’t ask why. She just gave me shelter. So I showed up on her doorstep, and she listened while I told her everything. She didn’t judge me. She didn’t think I was insane. She had every right to think both things. Instead, she gave me safe harbor at a time when I had no control over my life and didn’t know what was going to happen to me.

For the next several months, I made frequent trips up I-75 to Ohio. She kept an air mattress out for me. We played multiplayer. We talked about Mass Effect. We talked about life. We bitched about all the people who hated on one of our favorite characters. She introduced me to Babylon 5. I have so many memories of sitting on the couch in her apartment, with her cat Odo crawling around behind my head. When I eventually pieced myself together enough to leave Kentucky and start the work of starting over, it meant leaving behind that sanctuary with her in her apartment, and it was something I had to grieve along with everything else.

And now I am grieving it again, and so much more. I am so lucky I was able to fly back to Ohio a few weeks ago while I had the chance. Hugging someone goodbye, knowing it’s the last hug you’re going to get….well, it sucks.

But I got that hug.

Sara was so many things. She was a gifted storyteller with entire worlds in her head. One of the weekends I stayed with her, she had recreated the Mass Effect galaxy map on her wall with notecards and string to help her tell a story. She could create a character and make you fall in love with them in a matter of sentences. Because of her stories, I binge watched all ten seasons of Stargate SG-1.

She was also not afraid to unapologetically be herself. I had a lot of things to learn and unlearn about the world, feminism, gender, and sexuality, especially in those days. Listening to her fight for her space in the world and refuse to be told she was anything less than who she wanted to be helped me learn some of the things I needed to learn, and embrace the things I discovered about myself.   

She loved music. She made the best fucking playlists. She taped inspirational notes around her condo. She sent me a set of coasters that say, “Fuck It,” and “Nah,” and I use them every single day. Her smile was gorgeous. She lit up a room.  

And now she’s gone. I won’t see her in my tumblr notes anymore. I won’t see her on my dash. I won’t get pinged with new Odo photos. She won’t get to hear the new music I listen to that shows up in our Spotify blend. I won’t get to talk about the next Mass Effect game with her. I won’t get any more Ao3 updates in my inbox.

I wanted you to know about her – this pocket friend of mine who impacted my life in ways that I won’t ever forget.

I hope you will read her stories. Listen to her playlists. She was a brilliant human being. She should still be here. She isn’t.

And I miss her.  

#dearophelia #write your way out #cancer tw #death tw

[bellaramseysgf]

Rescue (S.R)

Warning(s); oral (M receiving),cussing,yelling.

Pairing(s); Police Officer! Steve Rogers! X Fem! Reader.

Summary; Steve saves your kitten and you from your ex, what better way to thank him.

A/n; I have the most vile thoughts about Steven Grant Rogers, here’s one :D, this wasn’t proof read as I am lazy and tired :D

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Steve had walked across the street headed towards his car when he heard the soft sounds of a woman’s voice. He of course walked towards the sound, putting his hand on his holstered tazer as he heard how distressed she sounded.

“Oh gods, how’d you even get up there!” You sighed chewing on your finger trying to coax your kitten to come back out of the tree. “Ma’am?” The voice sounding from behind you made your jump before relief washed over you. It was a officer, perfect.

“Are you alright?” He asked his hand leaving his tazer to touch your arm, seeing you were alone. “My kitten climbed up the tree, he won’t come down” you explained. Steve follows your eyes to the small orange and white kitten rested on a tree limb.

“Oh I see, sneaky little fella’ I’ve got him.” He left your side pulling himself up the few inches into the tree to where your kitten rested. You stood under them anxiously, Steve got his hand around the small kitten and was able to use his open hand to steady himself until he was able to get back down.

“Here you are, love” Steve said and you smiled holding the small kitten. “Thank you so much! Oh god, why’d you scare me like that” you said kissing the fur of your kitty. “It’s awfully late, do you live ‘round here?” He asked and you nodded.

“Could I offer you some coffee or water?” You offered and he smiled “no, I couldn’t impose, just wanna make sure you get home, love” you smiled “certainly you aren’t imposing, here I’ll just grab you a can of soda, give me just a second.”

Steve watched you walk into the house that was diagonal from the tree. A few minutes later you returned with a can of soda handing it to him. “Thank you, mighty nice of you” you nodded and smiled. “You have a good night officer” you said and he nodded smiling.

Steve stood and watched making sure you made it back into your house just fine.

***

Steve thought that’d be the last time he saw you, New York is a huge city after all. However, he was called to a altercation and well it was none other then you and a random guy.

“You actually called them? What’s your issue?” You spat out at your now ex’s mom. “Okay, alright. Let’s break it up, yeah?” Steve said stepping between you and your ex. His back to you in a protective stance almost.

You stepped to the side so you could see your ex. “You’re such a bitch!” He yelled at you “aye!” Steve said. “Both of you, quiet.” He commanded. “Someone wanna explain?” He asked and your ex opened his mouth “not you!” He barked.

Steve looked over to see his backup arriving, Barnes and Stark climbing from the other cruiser.

“Okay, this is how this is gonna work. You-” he said pointing to your ex “speak with officer stark, and you” he said pointing to his mom “speak with officer Barnes, I’ll speak with her. Are we clear?” Everyone nodded.

With a hand in your upper arm he lead you back over to his cruiser. “Didn’t think I’d be seeing you again” he commented. You smiled weekly partially embarrassed to be meeting him again like this.

As a damsel

“So? What’s going on?” He asked and you took a deep breath explaining that his mom had invited herself to the date, you had already planned to end things because he was hooking up with other girls. You pulled up receipts and he went berserk along with his mom, barking and yelling as you tried to leave they followed you out.

“And then his mom was yelling something abt police and deformation or something” you sighed. You ran fingers from your nose to your eyebrow shaking your head. “I never put my hands on him,he never put his hands on me.” You pointed on and Steve nodded.

“Alright, love just stay here we will have this figured out in no time” you nodded. He shrugged off his jacket wrapping it around your exposed arms from your dress.

You could’ve combust seeing him in that tight shirt,tool belt and tight jeans. He looked so fucking hot.

Steve spoke to his partners and got the other halves of the story. “Well they said she was yelling first, maybe we should just check the cameras?” Stark said and Steve shrugged. “Let me try something, tony go ahead and ask to see the cameras, Buck if you wouldn’t mind keeping her company” Bucky nodded and walked over to you.

“Alright, so we have your story and hers so-” “she’ll be going to jail?” His mom asked and Steve shook his head “so I’ll be-” “what do you mean? She’s spreading lies about my son! That’s illegal!” She protested. “Ma’am we don’t have-” “well I won’t be happy until she’s in handcuffs!” She huffed “ma’am if you don’t stop interrupting me it’ll be you in handcuffs.”

She seeming got quiet after that “now, my partner,stark is checking the cameras right now, so if there’s anything you wanna change about your story do it now.” Steve said. Your ex and his mom glanced at each other and shook their heads. Steve nodded just as stark came out hand on his belt.

“So, as far as I saw, it was you two that went off first. I’ve had witnesses say the same, some even said the girl didn’t even reply to you until you followed her out. So, technically this could be considered unlawful calling.” Tony explained.

“I’m feeling nice tonight, I’ll let you guys off with a warning if you apologize to her. If not you’ll both be in handcuffs in the back of my vehicle” Steve said and motioned for Bucky to bring you over.

They both rather reluctantly apologized and left, you handed Steve his jacket back and thanks Barnes for keeping you company.

Barnes and stark headed off to another call. “Do you need a ride?” Steve asked and you shook your head “nope, I can just call a Uber” you said and Steve shook his head “no, cmon it’s not outta my way, let me drive you home” you nodded and smiled allowing him to drive you.

Steve turned out back onto the main road from the restaurant heading in the direction of your neighborhood.

“So, if you don’t mind me asking. Why were you with him?” He asked and you shrugged “I don’t know, I thought we were okay until I got a text from a random girl” you said. You reached down “you don’t mind if I take these off?” You asked and he shook his head. You quickly pulled off the heels sighing at the relief on your feet.

“I wasn’t even planning on confronting him like that, I was just gonna ask about it and see if he lied” you explained “but his mom came and I didn’t know how to bring it up” you sighed heavily and Steve sat a hand on your knee rubbing softly.

You smiled at his hand “well, I’m glad I was able to help, here” he said taking the opportunity of a red light to pass you a card. “If he bothers you, call me.” You nodded sticking the card into your small clutch.

“Have you had a good night, officer?” You asked as his hand was still rested on your knee. “Not exactly, it’s been kinda rough” he explained giving you a smile as he looked your way before turning.

You don’t know if it was the wine in your system,maybe it was the fact you had just gotten dumped, maybe it was even the fact he was some sort of hero for you,but you reached out and placed a hand on his upper thigh.

“Want some help?” You asked batting your eyelashes at him. Steve glanced at your hand slowly moving it’s was to his quickly hardening cock.

How could he not be hard? You in that dress, that short,tight fitting,cleavage showing,tiny dress. He let out a groan when you palmed him though his jeans “think you can focus while I do this?” You asked your voice a little lower then normal.

Steve couldn’t help but let out a chuckle, here he was thinking you were so innocent, those big doe eyes and perfect pouty lips. He felt dirty thinking of you in that way but he was wrong,you were dirty,offering to give him head while driving? God couldn’t tell if you were an Angel or a little devil.

Steve glanced down long enough to unclip his seat belt and utility belt. He pushed one off and pulled the other throwing the belt into his empty back-seat.

You were already waiting shifting in your seat you unbuckled, knees pressing into his leather seats while you waited for him to get prepared.

The last the Steve did was unbutton his jeans, once again using a red light to pull them and his boxers down. You gasped seeing his cock spring out slapping against his clothed lower stomach.

Steve didn’t say anything he just moved his open hand over to your head snaking it to the back of our neck and pulling you. You obliged letting him lower your head to his length.

You licked your lips before enveloping his tip with them, you gently sucked pulling a hiss from him. You placed your hand at his base and hallowed out your cheeks as you began to down his length.

Half way in and he was already pressing into your gag reflex, tears prickling your eyes. “Fuck, that’s a good girl. Down my cock baby, back off your throat.” He said pressing you down to take more of him into your throat, you gagged around him and he grunted at the squeeze of your throat.

Once you had most of him in your mouth you began to bob your head, up down,up down,up down. You kept a steady pace your tongue flat against his underside. The groans and moans coming from the man above you sounded nothing short or animalistic, he groaned everytime he felt you throat squeeze him as you gagged.

“Such a sweetheart,sucking me off to make me feel better. Atta girl, Mhm gonna make me cum” his words only drives you to suck faster wanting to feel him cum.

A few more bobs and his hand tighten into your hair a guttural moan coming out as ropes of white filled your throat. You swallowed around him gulping up each rope he gave you.

You pulled your mouth off with a pop and smiled at him as you licked your lips. Your lipstick smudged, a ring around his cock in the pretty pink color. Your mascara ran in streaks over your cheeks, you had never looked more beautiful to him.

You sat back in your knees and he reached over attempting to fix your hair as he combs through it. You were happy you brought makeup wipes with you, you were able to clean up the mess on your face.

Steve finally pulled into your driveway and you slipped your heels back on, grabbing your clutch and he fixed himself clipping his belt back around him along with his seatbelt.

You climbed out and bent down to look back at him in the car “you have a wonderful night officer” you said a smirk playing on your lips. He smirked and nodded “you as well, love” once again he stayed until he saw you get safely inside before leaving.

#fem reader #steve rogers x reader #steve rogers #steve rogers smut #steve rogers au #chris evans #chris evans characters #chris evans character x reader

[thecuriousquest]

Yandere Alphabet: Naruto Uzumaki

Tag List: @issamomma

Warnings: Yandere themes, mention of reader dying, manipulation/guilt tripping, control, kidnapping, implied kidnapping

Checkout my Master List here.

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Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

He looks at you the way he looks at ramen. Naruto is intense with his love for you. He is an obsessive and delusional type of Yandere. He knows everything about you and wants to shower you with as many gifts as he can afford. Whenever he gets some pocket money, he’s spending it on you right away.

Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

He doesn’t want to spill any blood, so instead, he’ll spread rumors about you, making sure that those rumors can’t be traced back to him in case you start digging for answers about where the STD rumor came from. He’s also going to manipulate you and other men in the village. Don’t worry, though. If you’re feeling lonely, he’ll be right there with a hand on your shoulder and a comforting smile.

Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

He just wants to do what’s best for you. Naruto is going to be focused on making sure you know how much he loves you. It gets to a point where you feel smothered. His intention isn’t to mock you, but you feel as though his constant smile is taunting you. You feel helpless, hopeless as you’re held captive by the jinchuriki. His happiness is what you feel mocks you because you’ll never feel the same way.

Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?

He’ll break into your apartment and steal your underwear. He likes to wrestle with you, even when you don’t want to, just so he can pin you down and show you how much stronger he is than you are. It’s his way of saying, “Look at how strong I am. You can feel safe with me. I’ll always protect you.”

Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

Yo, this guy will not shut the fuck up once he feels comfortable enough to tell you about his painful past or his feelings for you. Everything he says has passionate intent behind it. You can bet you’ll be zoning out at some point because of the rant he’ll go on.

Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?

He honestly believes you love him, so he takes your fighting as just “having a bad day”. You’re just throwing a tantrum because the new living situation is a hard adjustment for you. He won’t believe a word you say when you throw your plate of food at the wall and tell you that you hate him. It’s okay. He’s there to pick you up in a hug and hold you down closely until you’re calm.

Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?

Bitch, you gon meet Kurama if you run for long enough. He will go through a list of emotions. First, he’ll try to reason with you. “Okay, maybe she just needs to go outside for some sunshine. She’ll be back soon.” When night falls and you’re not back yet, he’s beginning to worry. There’s a nagging feeling pinching the back of his mind. Then, he’s determined to do whatever it takes to find you. He’s using every kind of chakra and jutsu that will help him find you. Hell, he’ll bring out the fucking toads if he has to. Don’t worry, though. He’s not going to think you ran away. You just got lost.

Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

His constant love is your hell. With the gifts piling up, with all of the compliments he gives you, with the way he says a million things to you with a simple look of adoration, you feel like you’re being strangled. You just want some room to breathe, room that he doesn’t feel like giving you.

Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

Naruto isn’t able to see too far into the future. His goal is to be Hokage, but that’s all he really sees in the future besides you right next to him. Naruto doesn’t really see a big house with kids in the front yard. He just sees you with him and his face plastered on the wall of Hokages.

Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?

He gets jealous. He burns with rage. However, he’ll take it out by beating on a tree or sulking around with his bottom lip poking out. Maybe, he’ll even indulge in some ramen. He’ll swoop in if he notices the conversation going on too long. Looping an arm around your waist, he’ll look at you lovingly and say, “Baby, we should get going. We have a surprise date to get to.” While you’re not looking, he’ll flip the guy off behind your back as you two walk away.

Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?

He dotes on you. Kisses, hugs, you name it, you’re getting it. He knows exactly what you like from stalking you for so long. That’s why his presents always make you so excited. He’s a man who actually pays attention to your interests.

Love letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

With his stalking, he knows your schedule. Wherever you are, he’s there, but he’s hiding, watching you from the shadows. You never notice him. That is until he feels comfortable enough one day to approach you with flowers. With a shy smile, he’s thrusting them towards you while rubbing the back of his neck. “Here you go.” Surprisingly delighted, you tell him that they’re your favorite. WHAT A COINCIDENCE! HE HAD NOOOOO IDEA. ZERO CLUE. You two start chatting, and then he’s walking you home. It’s the perfect interaction to get to know him, and soon enough, you’re seeing more of him, greeting him with smiles.

Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?

So, we know that Naruto has two faces from the show. When he’s alone, and I mean alone and lonely, he feels a twinge of sadness nag at him. When he’s around other people, he’s the loud mouth of the village. He wants to be someone that people can look at and see that he’s their hero with a smile. He wants to be your hero, he wants to let you know that he’ll be there for you with a smile. Sometimes, you’ll see him alone with a frown, but as soon as he notices you’re there, he immediately smiles. However, he’ll use his past to guilt you once he gets more comfortable with you, showing you just how much turmoil he’s in. Years of abandonment will do that to a person.

Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

No physical punishments. Count those out because he loves you too much. He is neither a sadist nor someone who would feel the need to hurt you as a reprimand. He’ll lightly scold you, he’ll even try to manipulate you, but that’s about it.

Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling?

Naruto thinks you’re spending too much time alone. You went to the bathroom and shut the door for one minute. He’s taking the door off. Your privacy is the first thing to go. Next, he’s trying to tell you that you need to be home more often because he misses you. He’s great at guilt tripping, so he ends up making you feel so terribly that you have no choice but to spend more time with him. Before you know it, your social life is destroyed, and Naruto is the only person left in your life. However, he doesn’t mind! He’ll always be there for you. He will ALWAYS be RIGHT THERE for you.

Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

He’s impulsive. He can’t help it. He’ll jump to conclusions if he feels like something is off even in the slightest. He’ll probably end up doing something really stupid as well.

Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

Oh God, if you were to die, that would be the straw that broke the camel’s back. He would not be able to move on, even if you told him he could. You can try to escape, but there’s a large chance you won’t be able to. Even Sasuke couldn’t escape Naruto. Do you really think you’d have a better chance than Sasuke?

Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?

Naruto can’t regret something you were willing to do. You willingly moved in with him. You willingly sleep in his arms every night. You willingly shower with him, or at least he thinks it’s all consensual.

Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

Definitely his painful childhood. The village hated him for something that he had no control over. They kicked him like a puppy, but he would just get back up and yell in their face. He never lost sight of his goal, however. He always dreamed of finally not being invisible. A little boy who fulfilled his dream. At heart, he’s still that hurt little boy. He needs love, and so he goes to you for that. Not necessarily like a mother would comfort her child, but just an equal for him to rest his shoulder and cry on.

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

He hates it. Doesn’t understand it. Will definitely hold you until you’re no longer crying, even if you just want to be far away from him. He won’t let you isolate yourself because you can’t lock yourself in a room with no doors.

Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

He’s not willing to kill anyone. His value is to reach peace without violence. That’s his nindo. He’s sticking to that, even with thoughts of you in mind. Even when he’s so jealous or sees another man look at you, he won’t kill them.

Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

We already talked about escaping, but you could use his delusions to your advantage. You could easily manipulate him by making him think you love him. It wouldn’t even take that long. He already believes you love him, but if you were to really play the role of a lover instead of a victim, you’d have him wrapped around your finger.

Wit’s end: Would they ever hurt their darling?

Not intentionally. He grasps onto your wrist hard enough to leave bruises. That’s okay! It’s a sign of how much he wants you to stay with him. Don’t worry. He’ll never raise a hand to you. The most physical it’s going to get is him pinning you down or holding you on his lap. No matter how much you slap, shove, or scratch at him, he’s taking it all in silence, not letting himself express any ounce of pain. You’re just in one of your moods he’ll tell himself.

Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?

He is a worshipper. He’s obsessed with you, everything about you. He must know you from your favorite food to the type of panties you like to wear. He’ll run his hands all over your body with such loving tenderness, treating you like the goddess that you are to him. You made his life so much better, so much happier. This is the least he could do for you.

Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

Naruto is an over thinker. If he doesn’t jump in soon, someone else might sweep you off your feet. He can’t have that. You need to understand that you and him are in this together forever. He’s already decided that. It’s that decision that leads him to snap not long after he meets you. Think about it this way: he sees you like ramen, and he needs to get to Ichiraku’s before all the ramen is gone. Starting to get the picture?

Zenith: Would they ever break their darling?

Since Naruto is not a sadist, he feels as though there would be no benefit from breaking you. Why would he want a lifeless doll? Breaking you isn’t even something he thinks about. No matter how hard you fight him, he doesn’t mind. He’ll just lovingly hold you until you calm down. He’ll never raise a hand to you or punish you with a jutsu. He’ll never starve you or try to brainwash you into Stockholm Syndrome. Hell, he’s not even willing to chain you up no matter how many times you run away. He treats you with love and kindness, it’s special and tender. It’s the only way he’d ever treat you.

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[rebelwrites]

Winner Takes It All || Eleven On The Path To Right Wrongs

Charles Leclerc x Valentina Hendrix (OC)

Winner Takes It All Masterlist

Summary: Charles finally grows so balls, Valentina is worried about her future but Charles feels like he is finally on the path to right all the wrongs.

Warnings: I don’t think there is any apart from being emotional

As always reblogs and feedback is highly appreciated ❤️ if you want tagging in future parts let me know ❤️

Charles POV

I was left standing in the kitchen alone, I had no idea on how this would have gone tonight but it felt so good to get the truth out in the open, it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders however I still had one thing to do before I was finally free from the devil.

Pulling my phone out of my jeans pocket I quickly found Becky’s name before I could call, her face popped up on my screen signalling she was calling me. Rolling my eyes as I answered the call I quickly realised she had face timed me.

“I’ve just been to your apartment and you weren't there.” she pouted. “I also went over to your mums but she said she hadn’t seen you.”

“That's because I’m not in Monaco.” I shrugged, propping the phone up on the counter as I grabbed the coffee pot, tasking myself with brewing everyone a drink, I mean it was the least I could do. “And I won’t be home for a couple of days.”

“Charles, where are you?” Becky said, squinting to see who had just walked into the kitchen behind me.

Quickly glancing over my shoulder I saw Louisa walk in with a worried look on her face. “Everything okay?” she asked softly, the effects of the alcohol long forgotten.

“They will be soon, Maman.” I nodded, as I replaced the filter in the coffee machine. “I’m making coffee. Can you see who wants one please.”

It was like she could sense I was asking to be alone for a moment, she caught a glimpse of the face time that was happening and nodded at me.

Turning back to Becky I noticed her face had a tint of red to it, no doubt from the anger that was bubbling away inside her.

“Please tell me that isn’t the Hendrix house you are in?” she scoffed, folding her arms across her chest.

“So what if it is?” I shrugged, not bothering to try and pander to her any longer. “I needed to come over here before flying out for testing, not that it matters to you.”

I could see the frustration forming in her expression and it was only a matter of time before things exploded.

“We were meant to go on a date tonight?” she screeched, it was a sound that made my ears bleed.

“Yeah well that obviously isn’t happening is it.” I laughed, I knew I was being cold but I had taken enough of her bullshit over the last four years and I wasn’t going to stand for it any longer. “Say what you want, I really don’t care.” I said with no emotion in my voice, this girl meant absolutely nothing to me, not like Valentina did. “I’m no longer going to sit here and take you shit, this isn’t how I wanted to live my life. I have had enough of you trying to control my life. This is over Becky, I never wanted to be with you anyway and I don’t know why I even let you try and blackmail me losing the one thing that means the most to me.”

The scream that came through the phone was ear piercing, I knew that this wouldn;t be over, she wasn’t the type of girl to just drop things. She would try her hardest to make mine and Vali’s life a living hell but I would do anything to protect Valentina from Becky’s wrath even though I knew she would be able to handle anything that came her way.

“You will regret dumping me, Leclerc.” she screamed, tugging on her fake blond hair. “I will make your life hell and Valentia best watch her back because I am coming for the bitch.”

“How's the nose healing?” I laughed, walking out of sight of the camera to grab the coffee grounds.

“Fuck you.” she spat, I swear she was practically foaming at the mouth from anger. Nothing more was said and the call ended.

Running my hand over my face I found myself leaning against the kitchen counter letting out a breath of relief but the only problem was Valentina, I had no idea what Becky was going to do next.

After a few moments, Pierre walked into the kitchen. Silently he pulled me into a tight hug, he didn’t need to say anything, his actions said everything.

He was the first to pull away from the hug, a sad smile appearing on his face.

“So what happens now?” he asked, leaning against the counter next to me.

“I don’t know.” I sighed, running my hands over my face for the millionth time today. “But what I do know is that I am going to be fighting for Vali every single day even if she doesn’t want it. I will be there in her corner.”

Pierre nodded, placing his hand on my shoulder.

“Elle ne le montrera pas, mais elle a plus que jamais besoin de toi en ce moment. Surtout maintenant qu'elle va courir avec nous, on a déjà perdu Jules alors ne sois pas un con et ne fous pas tout en l'air. She won't show it, but she needs you more than ever right now. Especially now that she's going to be running with us, we've already lost Jules so don't be a dick and fuck it up.” he nodded, helping me to finish off the coffee’s.

“I don’t plan on fucking this up.” I said, looking over my shoulder as I grabbed the milk from the fridge. “I have already lost her once, I’m not going to let it happen again.”

Once the coffee was ready I left Pierre to take the drinks into the living room whilst I took Vali’s and Josh’s upstairs, with each step I climbed my heart started racing.

As I approached her bedroom door I stilled, I didn’t mean to evesdrop but I felt like I couldn’t just barge in at this point so I stood there holding the two mugs of coffee just listening.

“This is going to ruin everything.” Vali sniffled, causing my heart to ache, all I wanted to do was hold her tight and promise her things will be okay.

“Let me tell you a little secret.” Josh said softly, I could see why Vali liked him so much and got on well with him. He reminded me of Jules, especially with his caring nature. “We already knew about that night and your record. We approached Pierre about it and he told us everything we needed to know.”

“And that didn’t bother you?”

“Not at all Valentina, you were young and everyone at that age is easily led.” Josh said, followed by a brief silence. “We also know that even though your record was sealed and was taken off your record you convinced the judge to do community service which shows that your actions weren’t your choice. We all make mistakes but this is how we learn and grow as people. We will come clean to the press on the first weekend, squash any rumours before they even start.”

Smiling to myself, I knew she was going to be in good hands with Josh and the Alpha Tauri team. Adjusting my grip on the mugs I tapped my knuckles on the door waiting until Vali opened her bedroom door.

“J'ai fait du café. I made coffee.” I hummed, as she let me into her room. Nodding at Josh as I passed him the mug.

“I will be downstairs if you need me V.” He whispered, squeezing her shoulder as he exited the room.

Once again we were left in silence as I perched on the edge of her bed. I didn’t know what to say, I was scared I was going to say the wrong thing causing an argument to happen.

“Things aren’t just going to fall back to how they were before, you know.” Vali said, clutching her mug as she sat at the end of the bed, tucking her feet under her thighs. “I can’t just pretend that the last four years never happened, because they did.”

“I’m not asking you to.” I said quietly, turning to face her. “I know I have caused a lot of heartache for you but I do want to try and put the past behind us and try to move on from this.” I paused for a moment, taking a sip of the coffee before speaking again. “I broke up with Becky after you left the kitchen.”

I expected a sarcastic comment from Vali but none ever came. Looking up from my mug I saw tears streaming down her cheeks causing me to place my mug on the bed side table, before carefully taking her mug from her and placing it with mine. I didn’t ask if I could hug her, instead I scooted over to her pulling her into my arms.

What did surprise me what the lack of fight coming from her, instead she snuggled closer into me until she was eventually settled between my legs, hiding her face in my chest.

“You weren’t there, Charlie.” she cried, my heart screamed as she called me Charlie, something that I had missed. Only Vali called me Charlie. “When I needed you the most you weren’t there.”

“I know, babygirl, I know.” I whispered, nuzzling my face into her hair. “I am so sorry, I should have been there. I made a promise to you that I broke and I will never forgive myself.”

The two of us sat tangled up in each other for a while, I didn’t care about how long had passed or that the coffee was getting cold, all that mattered was I was on the path of righting my wrongs and picking up the pieces of Valentina’s heart along the way.

It felt so right to have Valentina back in my arms even if she wasn’t my girl anymore, resting my chin on the top of her head. I gently rocked her back and forth trying to soothe her tears and calm her breathing. I had no idea if this still worked for her but I was going to try anyway.

After a while I felt her breathing shallow out and the whimpers had stopped, pressing a kiss to the top of her head I quickly realised that she had fallen asleep in my arms. My heart melted at the fact she still felt safe in my arms to doze off to sleep. I wasn’t going to mention this to her but if she brought it up I would. Carefully I lifted her off the bed, adjusting my grip so I didn’t drop her whilst I pulled back the duvet. Softly I placed her back down on the bed pulling the covers over her. She looked so peaceful sleeping even with the smudges of mascara and eyeliner around her eyes. Pressing another kiss to her forehead I picked up the two mugs from the bedside table, taking one last glance at my sleeping angel as I turned off the lights and gently closing the door behind me.

Letting out a shaky breath I made my way downstairs to join the rest of the family.

The moment I walked into the kitchen, I instantly made my way to the sink, pouring both half drunken cups of coffee down the drain.

“Pass me your mug son, I will make you a fresh one.” Enrico smiled, looking over his shoulder at me as he filled the coffee machine with grounds.

“Thanks Papa.” I smiled, passing him the mug.

The smile on his face grew wider at what I called him. “È passato molto tempo dall'ultima volta che mi hai chiamato papà, figliolo. It's been a long time since you called me Dad, son.” he hummed as he busied himself making the coffees.

“It has.” I whispered, taking a seat at the kitchen table.

“Is Vali okay?” he asked, as Pierre and Josh walked into the kitchen.

“As okay as she can be I guess,” I sighed, resting my chin on my fists. “She fell asleep in my arms, I don’t even think she meant to but for the first time in the last four years the world felt right again.”

“Just give her time.” Enrico said softly, placing a fresh cup of coffee in front of me.

“I will spend the rest of my life trying to right my wrongs.” I said quietly, scared if I spoke any louder everything that happened tonight wouldn’t be real. “Non mi arrenderò mai con lei. I will never give up on her.”

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[jesssssssssica]

someone like you ln4

dear lando,

it’s been a long time since we’ve last spoken and seen each other. i’ve of course found myself from time to time, looking at your account and seeing where you’ve ended up. i saw that you’re married and i have to say that i never would’ve guessed that out of the two us of, that little lando norris would be the first to get married! no i’m only joking, she’s beautiful by the way, so beautiful i wonder how you manage to get her to date you, let alone marry you!

i saw that you got world champion as well! i remember when you would chat my ear off about that title when we were together, happy younger. not much has happened on my end apart from the rare night out but it’s never going to top our nights out. do you remember when we got so drunk we kissed each other, cause i do. lando i just want to know why you haven’t reached out, are you ignoring me or are you just being shy? if so then i know something is up, you’re never one to hold back your feelings.

and i know you’re probably reading this in disgust at how strange it is of me to just send a letter and reach out for the first time in years but i haven’t been able to get you out of my mind and no matter how hard i tried to not write this letter, i just couldn’t fight it. and i hate that i know that you’re happy and married and yet i can’t fight it at all. i think this is for closure though, so i know now that you’ve moved on 100% and that there is not a chance in the world that we could ever happen.

but it’s okay, because i will find someone, hopefully someone like you and i will be at peace with the world. at least that way, at night i can still fantasise about what could’ve been, what could’ve happened if i had just tried. but it’s too late and i wish you the best in your future but i want you to remember me, not as a lover not as the bitch that broke your heart, just remember me as your friend.

surely you should know how time flies, and that it feels like just yesterday we were having the time of our lives, partying who knows where under the beaming sun and now look where we are. you married and me working a 9 to 5 job, young us must be laughing at how boring our lives have gotten! of course you’re marriage probably isn’t boring, i can imagine the norris family is having a blast and i’m sure your mum must love her.

i hate that i’m writing this i really am, this is just as out of the blue for you as it is for me but i just felt my words were so passionate that they needed to be wrote down. i think all i need is the reassurance that at least you know.

it’s okay though lando, to not love me back, it really is fine. i know i’m stupid but i know well enough that you probably feel immense guilt for something that was never your fault and i just want you to know that i never expected you to love me back, so don’t force yourself to. just remember me and that’s all i need because sometimes love will last and sometimes it won’t leaving us hurt and that’s okay because at least i was hurting with you,

maybe nothing will ever compare to what we had, but that’s what we had not what we have. we learnt our mistakes and make some regrets with each other but those are just the memories we made and we can always reflect and reminisce those moments.

it’s okay that you moved on, never would i have expected for you to wait for me after all this time and plus you look ten times happier with her than you ever would’ve with me. i will find someone, someone just like you who made me laugh and feel beautiful and i will always check on you, like the good friend i am, just as long as you never forget me.

from your good friend, 

y/n

#lando norris #lando norris imagine #lando norris x reader #lando norris x y/n #f1 imagine #someone like you

[dialovers-translations]

Diabolik Lovers LOST EDEN ー Laito Maniac [Prologue]

CHAPTER MASTERLIST

Monologue

ーー Ever since, Laito-kun and Kino-kun,

began to work out the various steps

of their plan to attack the Sakamaki family.

As for myself, 

I simply could not bring myself to join them,

and instead chose to watch over them from afar...

Because I knew that I probably wouldn’t be able to stop myself,

from asking them if maybe, just maybe...

they could reconsider. 

I am sure that if I were to be there with them,

I’d blurt it out.

Even if I know that to Laito-kun,

that would be the most painful thing to hear.

ー The scene starts in the inner courtyard of Kino’s manor

Yui: ( In the end...I know what my heart tells me is the right answer... )

( It’s just figuring out how to get the message across to Laito-kun which is the tricky part... )

( But, at this rateーー )

...I wonder if I should at least let the others know about all of this? 

But I’m sure that Laito-kunーー 

( He’ll most definitely feel betrayed by me, no? )

( Even so...I simply cannot stand and watch as everyone’s lives might be lostーー )

...I can’t choose either-or... 

*Rustle* 

Yui: ( Should I prioritize protecting the man I love? )

( ...Still...That’s what Laito-kun wants from me, right? )

( It’s almost as if he’s asking me to choose between himself...or the others. )

ー Laito walks up to her

Laito: Bitch-chan~

Yui: Laito-kun...

Laito: So this is where you’ve been? I’ve been looking for you, you know?

Yui: I’m sorry. I kind of needed some fresh air.

Laito: Nfu~ I wonder if that’s because of what’s being discussed inside the manor?

Yui: ...

Laito: You really can’t hide anything, can you?

Your expression immediately gives away what you’re thinking.

Yui: ...Is that so...?

Laito: I wonder if you don’t realize this yourself? ーー But yes. 

You are opposed to killing the Sakamaki brothers.

Yui: ...

Laito: See? Seems like I’m spot on.

Yui: I don’t want to see you get hurt any more.

Laito: ...We already had this talk once the other day, didn’t we?

Yui: No matter what...I want you toーー 

Laito: Could you please stop putting all the blame on me? 

Yui: Eh? 

Laito: I mean, if you’re simply going to repeat that phrase every time, this discussion will never get anywhere, will it?

Besides, I can’t seem to prove my true feelings to you. 

Which means I’ll have no other choice but to ultimately tell you ‘Maybe for you?’, right? 

I just don’t want that kind of deceit.

Yui: Then, what should I say...?

Laito: ーー To admit that it hurts you emotionally. 

Yui: ...

Laito: Or maybe this: ‘I simply can’t stand by and do nothing when I know that their lives might be in danger!’

‘After all, that’d make me a bad person as well! I can’t live with that!’

ーー Just like that?

Yui: No way...How could you, Laito-kun.

Laito: But it’s the truth, isn’t it?

Yui: ...It’s not...I would neverーー 

Laito: In that case, I have no other choice but to prove you wrong as well. I won’t be hurt, even if my brothers die. 

In the end, we know our own feelings best, don’t we?

Yui: ...

ー Laito pins her against the wall

*Thud* 

Laito: You really are a liar, aren’t you? 

Yui: I haven’t even said anything yet...

Laito: Exactly. But I can already tell what you’re going to say next.

Yui: Ugh...

Laito: It’s fine. You don’t have to agree with me?

I guess that’s too much to ask of Miss Goodie-Two-Shoes, huh?

It would feel wrong to go along with my opinion, wouldn’t it? To someone like you.

Yui: Laito-kun...

( Hey, tell me then. If you feel like you aren’t wrong. )

( Why do you look so terribly sad? )

( Deep down...You don’t actually want to kill your brothers, do you? )

Laito: ...What? Why are you staring straight at my face? 

Yui: I was just thinking how your expression looks like you want me to disagree with youーー That’s all. 

Laito: Eh...?

Yui: I just can’t help but feel like you’re hoping that I’ll stop you...By how you keep on bringing this topic back up, or asking me the same questions over and over...

Laito: Fufu. You’re trying to say that I wish to be stopped by you, basically? 

Yui: ...

Laito: ...Don’t be ridiculous...

Yui: ...You’re basically confirming my statement by getting upset, no? 

Laito: ...!

Yui: You always get upset when somebody sees right through you. 

I’m also capable...of understanding you, see? 

( Exactly. That’s why I’ve been feeling indecisive this whole time. )

( While facing him head-on and going into discussion with him...The answer finally came to me. )

Laito: You sound pretty confident. 

Yui: ...But, I really think that this is how you truly feel deep inside your heart.

Although I’m sure you’ll only deny it again. 

But this is how I feel. Perhaps you simply have yet to realize yourself. 

In which case, I have no other choice but to stop you. 

After all, I don’t want you to get hurt any deeper.

Laito: Bitch-chan...

Yui: Even if it means I have to betray you, or you’ll end up hating me as a result. 

If that means it will ultimately save you from being hurt...I don’t mind.

That is my answerーー 

I want to keep your heart safe. 

Laito: ...

Yui: ...I’m sorry. I guess in that sense...I might be a liar after all. 

ー Laito embraces her

On certain CGs, little black roses will appear on the screen. If you click on them, you get an extra line of dialogue.

“You can read me like an open book, can’t you...? You’re the only person in this world who understands my true feelings.”

“I even find myself doubting...Whether you need me in your life...That’s how I feel at times.”

*Rustle*

Yui: But, I...I truly wish you would speak openly about your true feelings. 

I know that might be difficult for someone like you, who constantly lies even to himself...

Laito: Excuse me? Are you pitying me? 

Yui: Exactly...And at the same time, I feel pathetic myself as well. 

I mean, aren’t I? I can’t even get the person I love to show his true feelings to me. 

But I know that doing that is just very difficult for you. 

Laito: ...

Yui: But even if I know that, I keep on asking myself the same question over and over.

Laito-kun...Do you even need me...? That is.

Laito: ーー Fufu...Fufufu...

Yui: ( Laito-kun? )

Laito: I should have expected as much from you...Fufufu...You seem to know me very well. 

I can’t believe you understand me even better than I understand myself...You really areーー 

You’re such a ruthless yet precious girl, aren’t you...?

Asking yourself whether or not I need you...Kind of a stupid question at this point, don’t you think?

Yui: ...!

Laito: I mean, you’re probably right. And most likely, you’re the only person who’d realize that. 

But stillーー 

Yui: You’re a mystery to yourself, aren’t you?

Laito: Exactly. I don’t know anything. 

Yui: You’re not alone in that.

Sometimes I have a hard time figuring out my own feelings as well. 

Laito: You too? 

Yui: Yes...Actually, I think everyone does at some point or another...

*Rustle rustle* 

Laito: ...Bitch-chan...What do you think I should do?

Yui: Well...

Laito: It hurts. Because of these powers, I’ve become all the more aware of the fact that I’m his son... 

Besides, just knowing that I have to live in this World which he created is unbearable to me.

Yui: ーー That’s why you want to destroy it, correct?

Laito: Exactly ... Still ーー Even though my brothers are the closest thing in this world to that man...

I don’t think I actually hate them. 

That’s why I jumped on Kino’s offer. I figured that if I got them out of the way first and foremost, it’d help me make a definite resolve.

Yui: Thank you...Laito-kun. 

I understand very well...Just how difficult it is for you to admit to all of this.

Laito: ...That’s whyーー 

*Rustle* 

Kino: Oh, Laito. So this is where you’ve been.

Laito: ...Kino. What’s wrong?

Yui: ...

Kino: Nah, our plans have changed a little, you see! I’ll explain everything to you on our way there.

Laito: On our way there? ...Are we heading somewhere? 

Kino: Yeah. The Sakamaki manor. I’m going with the plan we discussed earlier. Is that okay? 

ー Kino teleports

*Woosh*

Yui: ...Don’t tell me...

( He’ll go attack the others!? )

Laito: Bitch-chan, we should go as well. 

ー Laito picks her up and jumps into the air

Yui: Eh!? Laito-kun...Hold uーー

Laito: Shh...Could you be quiet for a bit? We’re flying through the air, so you’ll end up biting your tongue. 

Yui: B-But...

( What now? In the end, our conversation ended without a proper conclusion... )

( If they launch an attack on the others at this rate...No. )

( I confirmed how Laito-kun truly feels earlier. ーー I just need to have faith in him. )

( I am sure...He will be able to stop Kino-kun as well...! )

ー The scene shifts to the balcony of the Sakamaki manor

Ayato: ーー You’re tellin’ the truth, right? If you’re just spoutin’ random crap, I’m killin’ you right here, right now. 

Kanato: I’ve never heard of a Familiar delivering a false report. So I am sure he will show himself right now. 

Subaru: If they want to just waltz their way in here, I’ll give them a taste of these fists.

Reiji: So a strange fellow is heading this way? ...Although they might end up disappointed to find out Laito is not here at present.

Ayato: ーー I don’t think they’ll mind that.

Kanato: Exactly. If anything, it’ll only play in their favor, don’t you think? 

Even if he was here, I doubt he’d be of much help. 

Shuu: I mean, you have a point...

Subaru: ーー Who cares ‘bout the details. Is it the same guy who has been sneakin’ ‘round our place before? 

Shuu: Good question. Well, our Familiar deemed it necessary to let us know.

So I’m pretty sure it was his plan to have us be in a disadvantaged position?

Reiji: ーー ...If you speak of the devil. Seems like he has shown up already. 

Kino: Oh? You noticed me? Well, I guess you would.

Subaru: ...You bastard...So whatcha here pickin’ a fight for, huh? 

Kino: Um...You’re Subaru, the youngest? Nice to meet you.

Subaru: Aah!?

Kino: Can’t you at least give me a proper greeting instead of going ‘Aah!?’...? 

Ayato: Oi. You should realize this isn’t the time and place to be exchangin’ hello’s!

Kino: Hmー What a bummer. No need to be so alert.

Kanato: That’s only making you sound even more suspicious, you know?

Reiji: From what I can tell, you are a Vampire just like us...

Which means it was you who entered our manor before?

Kino: As to be expected of the ever-so-sharp second eldest...An excellent observation. 

Shuu: You’re either after Laito or his powers, huh? ...Haah.

Kino: Too bad! I’m not interested in either of those!

Subaru: Haah? What is your objective then!?

*THUD*

Kino: Oh come on, calm down. Listen to what I have to say.

ーー It was the owner of those powers who asked me a favor.

Ayato: Aah?

Kino: To kill you guys...You see?

Subaru: ...Cut the crap...!!

ー Subaru throws a punch at him but Kino dodges just in time

*Woosh* 

Kino: Woah! Geez, I can’t believe you’d lunge at me right away. It’s time to teach you some...manners!

*THUD*

*Thud* 

Subaru: Uguh...! 

ー Subaru collapses

Ayato: ...You bastard...You’re just spoutin’ a lot of bullcrap...You’re up against me next!

*Woosh* 

Kino: Geezー ...I was going to wait to get this party started until the main guy got here but...

Well, he’s the one who planned all of this, so he can’t complain, right!? 

*Whistle* 

*Woosh woosh woosh* 

Kanato: !? Who are these people? 

Shuu: This scent...Ghouls!? What are they doing here...?

Reiji: ーー I believe now is not the time to theorize about that.

Kino: Oi, you guys! Let’s massacre these guys at once!

*Caw caw caw* 

Ayato: ーー Your opponent shall be none other than myself!

Kino: Fufu. Sure. Bring it on!

ー The scene shifts to the outside of the manor

Yui: ...!!

( Oh no! The fight has already started! )

Laito: ...

Ayato: ...Laito!? Fuck...You come waltzin’ in here like it’s nothin’.

Kino: You’ve finally shown up. I’ve been waiting...

*Woosh*

Kanato: Laito!! That guy told us earlier...

Are you actually trying to kill us!?

*Woosh*

Yui: Wellーー!

( Oh no...I spoke up instinctively. Even though this isn’t the time for me to butt in. )

Laito: ーー It’s true. 

Ayato: Haah!? The fuck!? What are you thinkin’!?

Laito: It’s not that strange is it? I’m sure all of you could see me doing something like that.

Ayato: Have you completely lost your mind!?

*Cling*

Ayato: But two can play that game.

Laito: ...Ayato-kun...

Yui: ( !? Is that a silver knife!? Don’t tell me, Ayato-kun...! )

Ayato: I’ll send you to the afterlife. Before you can do the same to me, you see!? 

Kino: Excuse me!? You’re just gonna pretend I’m no longer here!? 

Ayato: You’re up next! Get yourself ready and wait!

Yui: ...Hold up! Ayato-kunーー

Laito: Stop, Bitch-chan. This is between Ayato-kun and myself. 

Yui: Ugh...

Ayato: Nice guts!

Laito: ...

Ayato: Oi, what’s wrong!? You’re not gonna fight back!?

Laito: Not reallyーー

Ayato: ‘Not really’, my ass!!

*Cling*

Yui: ( ...!! )

Laito: ...! What are you doing? You only barely grazed me. 

Ayato: Cut the crap! What’d be the point in killin’ you when you won’t even try to defend yourself!? 

Laito: What do you mean...? You should just go ahead and end me already...

Ayato: ーー ...No way I’m lettin’ you be the only one who gets to be put out of their misery!

Laito: Kuh...

Ayato: I bet you want nothin’ more than to die now that you had that shitty old man’s powers forced on you!? 

I mean, I’m sure it must be hard to be forced to inherit the powers of the guy you loathe against your own will...

But all of us who have to stand there and watch you suffer...We’re hurtin’ just as much, you know!? 

Laito: ...You guys are?

Ayato: Duh!?

Yui: ( Ayato-kun...Laito-kun...Please stop already...! )

Laito: Don’t lie to me...You’re all just doing as you please, not thinking about those around you...

Ayato: If you don’t believe me, then I’m done with you!

Laito: ...Kuh...

ー Laito falls to his knees

Yui: Laito-kun...!

Laito: What should I do...? If not even Ayato will free me from my suffering...!

*Woosh* 

Laito: I guess I shouldn’t have bothered listening to everything you had to say and just done this alreadyーー

This way I can also...

Yui: Laito-kun!? 

( What’s happening!? There’s suddenly some kind of pressure...radiating from him... )

Shuu: This is bad...His powers have begun flurrying out of control...

Ayato: !? Chichinashi! Get away from him!!

Yui: Eh!? B-But...!!

ー Kanato pulls her away

Kanato: No buts! I mean, I won’t stop you if you want to get blown to bits by staying by Laito’s side, of course!

*Woosh* 

Laito: I’ve had enough...I just don’t know anymore!!

Subaru: Oi! Laito! Calm down!!

*Woosh*

Laito: I just want this suffering to end, for someone to put me out of my misery...So why!?

Why do you all...Band together to only cause me even more pain...!? 

*WOOSH*

Kino: ...Shit!

Yui: Laito-kun...!!!

Laito: Aaaaaaaah....!!!!!!!!

Yui: Laito-kunーー

*BOOM*

ー The screen fades to white

Monologue

ーー My innermost feelings. My true feelings. 

True love. 

Those concepts are simply too complex for me. 

If I was able to live more carefree,

just like Ayato-kun,

perhaps I would have been able,

to be more genuine to myself about those things.

To love and be loved. 

To cherish and be cherished. 

Thanks to her,

I was able to somewhat come face-to-face with those.

However, that man’s powers,

once again made me lose my mind,

putting a haze over those sincere feelings.

Meanwhile, 

the others remain capable of being true to themselves. 

They can talk about their genuine feelings to others,

while I’m the only one who remains messed up.

Laito: Uu...Uu...

Yui: ( ...I can hear someone crying...Is this...Laito-kun? )

Laito: ーー Save me. 

Yui: ( I have to save him...! But I can’t move...My body feels like it’s made out of lead... )

Laito: Somebody!!

Yui: ーー Laito-kun!!

ー Yui wakes up in the guest room at the Sakamaki manor

*Rustle* 

Yui: ( Where am I? )

Ayato: Oi! Chichinashi! Get a grip!

Yui: Ayato-kun...?

Ayato: Phew, god. I was worried you might never wake up againーー

Yui: ( Right. Laito-kun’s powers went rampant andーー )

I’ve been unconscious ever since? 

Ayato: Yeah.

Yui: Haah, I see. Ah, right! Where is Laito-kun!?

Ayato: ーー Look next to you. 

Laito: ...

*Rustle*

Yui: He’s asleep...?

Ayato: Yeah. He’s not hurt or anythin’, so no need to worry. 

Accordin’ to Reiji, he just needs some time to recharge after unleashing those powers which he hasn’t yet learnt to properly wield. 

Yui: I see...So, what happened to the manor in the human world? 

Ayato: It got flattened with the ground. Sure didn’t make things easier.

Yui: ...Is that why we’re here? 

Ayato: Well, yeah.

Yui: ( The castle in the Demon World. It’s been a while since we came here but...I feel like it will only make Laito-kun even more unstable... )

( I’m sure this place is filled with bad memories. )

( Besides, he mentioned before that it’s harder to control his powers in the Demon World than it is in the human world, right...? )

( And look what happened over there when he was supposedly being ‘restrained’ーー )

Ayato: ーー I’m leaving him in your care. 

Yui: Eh? 

Ayato: We couldn’t do it. It has to be you. 

Yui: Ayato-kun...

Ayato: Well, there you have it. See you. 

ー Ayato leaves the room

*Thud* 

Yui: ( Ayato-kun looked hurt. )

( I mean, makes sense... )

*Rustle* 

Laito: Ugh...

Yui: ...!? Laito-kun? 

*Rustle rustle*

Laito: Bitch-chan...? Huh? ...This is the castle in the Demon World? Howーー

Aah, right. I made a mess out of everything, didn’t I? 

Yui: You remember? 

Laito: Unfortunately. Haah, if only I could forget. 

About everything...

Yui: Laito-kun...

Laito: By the way, I’m pretty sure I heard Ayato-kun’s voice earlier?

Yui: Ah, yeah. He was here just now.

Laito: I see. I guess he left because he doesn’t want to confront me right now.

Yui: I’m not sure? 

Laito: ...Hey, Bitch-chan? 

Yui: Hm? Yes? 

Laito: I wonder why Ayato-kun acted like he was going to kill me...but then changed his mind and barely even put a scratch on me. 

Yui: Wellーー 

Laito: I wonder if he doesn’t want to give me a chance at ending my misery while all of them are still suffering?

Yui: ...That might play a part in it as well. 

I believe that Ayato-kun doesn’t want you to give up on life because of such reasoning. 

Laito: Excuse me? 

Yui: I think it’s probably ーー Kindness. From Ayato-kun.

Laito: Kindness... 

Yui: ( Laito-kun...? )

Laito: ...Uu...Blergh...Uu...

Yui: Laito-kun!? A-Are you okay?

Laito: Uu...Haah, haah...

I’m sorry. I’m going to rest a bit longer. 

Yui: Sure...Don’t push yourself, okay?

Laito: Haah...

Yui: ( I wonder what just went down? )

ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー

#diabolik lovers #dialovers #laito sakamaki #lost eden #diabolik lovers translation #lelaitomaniacprolog

[verstappurr]

𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐮𝐫𝐫’𝐬 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

— some of these prompts are mine and some of them are not so credit goes to their respective owners. your requests can have as many prompts as you want or none at all. if you come up with another idea of your own, i really don’t mind. these prompts are here for some inspo in case you need it. also the prompt list will be getting updated, so keep an eye on it :)

𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐟𝐟

1. "it's alright... it's okay... i'm here now. i've got you."

2. “you are my everything.”

3. “i’ve always loved you, and i pretend to keep doing it until our last day on earth.”

4. “i just wanted to make sure you were okay.”

5. “is that my hoodie?” “keep it.”

6. “you can hold my hand, if you want.”

7. “honey i’m home!”

8. “stop it with the puppy eyes, they won’t work this time.” “you sure?” “stop manipulating me.”

9. “how about a kiss before i go?”

10. “seeing you happy is all that matters.”

11. “you feel like home to me.”

12. “what, am i not allowed to look at you?”

13. “you’re so dumb.” “you love me.”

14. “i’ll be damned if i don’t make you smile at least once today.”

15. “how did you even get sick? you look ugly. come here.”

16. “what do you need?” “kisses, cuddles, and a back massage.”

17. “you’re mine.”

18. “i’m yours.”

19. “you did all of this for me?”

20. “what are you doing?” “i’m getting comfy!”

21. “you’re my everything.”

22. “you’re staring.” “i’m admiring you.”

23. “By the way...” “Hm?” “I'm gonna kiss you now. If you don't want to, just punch me.”

24. “Give me a chance.” “A chance for what?” “A chance to prove you that I can make you happy.”

25. “I freaking love you!” “...You're drunk.” “I knooow!”

26. "Please shut up so I can kiss you."

𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭

1. “i trusted you.”

2. “it was never my intention to hurt you.” “but you did.”

3. “i still got love for you.”

4. “please.. don’t lie to me.”

5. “if you won’t change... then i can’t stay. i’m sorry.”

6. “don’t start a fight you won’t win.”

7. “you’ve changed.”

8. “please go away.”

9. “i know i have a heart because i can feel it breaking.”

10. “don’t go on that date.” “why?” “you know why.” “say it.”

11. “you didn’t just break promises, you broke me.”

12. “that’s not what i meant and you know it.”

13. " 'till death do us part, huh?"

14. "do you ever think about anyone other than yourself?"

15. "all i’ve ever wanted is for you to see me, but i’m not like them."

16. “you don’t have to hide your tears for me.”

17. “tell me what’s going on.” “i don’t feel good.”

18. “you deserve better than me.”

19. “i miss you.”

20. “i never wanted that divorce.”

21. “i will always take care of you no matter what.”

22. “no matter what they made you think, you are worth loving."

23. “Seeing you like this and not being able to help – it breaks my heart.”

𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐦

1. “sleep is for the weak.”

2. “did it hurt?” “what? when i fell from heaven?” “no… when you hit your head with the door.”

3. “do not do that again” “or what?”

4. “YOU DID WHAT?!”

5. “come over here and make me.”

6. “fight me, bitch” “i’m not going to fight you.”

7. “just because you can doesn’t mean you should.”

8. “you were put on this earth to give me a headache.” “and you were put on this earth to make me horny.”

9. “one of us is clearly smarter than the other.”

10. “did i stutter?”

11. “what would you do without me?” “live in peace?”

12. “you sent me a nude.” “accidentally.” “how is that even possible?”

13. “you make me want to rip my hair off.” “nice. what about your clothes?”

14. “why are you following me?” “i need attention.”

15. “i’m not your friend, i’m your boyfriend. get it right.”

16. “go away.” “then let go of me you idiot.” “you’re rude.”

17. “can i-“ “no.”

18. “stop poking me!” “then give me attention!”

19. “can i wear your race suit?” “it’s too big for you.”

20. “shut up.” “don’t tell me what to do.”

21. “stop calling me a bitch, bitch.”

22. “get off me.” “you’re literally on top of me.”

23. "Friends don't look at each other the way you two do."

24. "I didn't do it." "Then why are you laughing?" "Because whoever did is a genius."

25. "You're burning up."

𝐧𝐬𝐟𝐰/𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭

1. “if we weren’t in public right now i’d have my head between your legs.”

2. “this feels dirty” “that's because it is”

3. “bend over.”

4. “im going to fuck you until you forget that assholes name.”

5. “i can’t hear you.”

6. “fuck you.” - “when?”

7. “do you want help with that?”

8. “i don’t care what you do just fuck me.”

9. “touch yourself for me.”

10. “everything off. right now.”

11. “i love it when you moan my name.”

12. “no panties?”

13. “i want you right now.”

14. “can you feel what your doing to me?”

15. “don’t be gentle.”

16. “be a good girl and spread your legs.”

17. “we’re.... just friends.”

18. “i forgot my towel.”

19. “you won’t be getting any sleep tonight.”

20. “don’t pretend to be so innocent.”

21. “oh don’t mind me I’m just enjoying the view.”

22. “you’re naked aren’t you.”

#f1 imagine #f1 imagines #f1 driver x you #f1 driver x reader #prompt list

[damagedlittledolly]

Know that I am someone who “likes” to sing. I burst out into song in the most random moments, and with that being said, I LOVE MUSICALS. I have this habit of watching the same ones I’m obsessed with over and over, I won’t mind if you don’t feel like watching it with me, as long as you wouldn’t mind hearing the same songs while you do your own thing, maybe in the same room I am, or in another. I’m a glutton for repeating the same song in a row. My favorite musical is actually rent, I could watch it over and over again endlessly.. I’d probably still cry every time.

I also have a tendency to re-watch Series and Movies I like, and have this annoying habit of still crying every time even though I’ve seen it a dozen times. I watch the vampire diaries every fall… I watch greys anatomy every year doesn’t matter when I just restart it. True blood is actually a huge comfort show got me. My favorite movie is the after series… just tears me up. Then there’s this weird thing I have with zombie movies as much as I LOVE watching them, I get nightmares. Know that I have waited for this moment to “be” with you to be able to watch them, because watching them as I live alone is a no-no, and I’m considering we’re going to be spending time together, so … I guess it’s safe for me now? As long as you are okay with some night terrors and crying from being scared.

My biggest insecurity is my body, mainly my stomach and my arms. In so insecure on how I look and I’m a recovering bulimic at best. I used to vomit everything I ate back up. I’d purge and purge. I have a love hate relationship with food and with my body. I don’t know if I’ll ever love my body. But here’s to trying.

I can be a huge bitch. My mood swings are indefinitely all over the place and half the time I can barely handle myself. I try to not be so mean or so brutal but half the time I act before I think and o promise I’m trying to work on that. End of the day I’m more sensitive than I let on and I’m a huge sappy cry baby.. the bitch is just a hard shell to protect my vulnerability and how scared I am to let others in.

I’m a hopeless romantic. I believe in true love, love at first sight.. I believe in fairytale romance. I believe in chivalry and sweep me off my feet romance. I believe in if it’s a good passionate kiss my leg will just pop. I love thought out surprises and love letters and countless paragraphs of feelings. I’m in love with love. I crave and yearn for it. I’m a huge fucking sap.

I crave intimacy, passion, romance. I want the DDLG dynamic. I want to be an obedient but bratty sub. I want to feel little and vulnerable and comfortable and safe. I want the kinky and the love. I want to explore my kinks and desires and even my little side more. I crave to be loved like how I love someone so deeply and whole heartedly. I crave to be wanted and enough for someone. I want to be someone where you don’t see anyone else ever coming close or wanting to find more. I want to be that person for you. I’ll take the good and bad and all the inbetween. I want someone to trust me and support me and guide me and nourish me. I don’t want to walk on eggshells or feel like I’m a walking mistake. I just want to be fucking LOVED. All the movies and books I watch may have damaged my way of romance but I’ll never stop craving it like that. So be chivalrous… send me love letters, open my door, send me notes or gifts when you think of me/something reminds you of me, take me on dates, show me be things, reassure me because I’m a fucking mess who’s brain overreacts too much.., love me for me. Be with me for me. Please see past my flaws and past and love me.

I ran out of things to say and I’m tired but this is what I’ve come up with. ✨

#personal

[aajjks]

umm didn’t you guys want them together? he knew she was crazy from the beginning, let jungkook have his “happy ending” 😭😭

reward!jungkook

“you’re fuckin crazy” jungkook says to you before heading upstairs. your breathing becomes uneven as you process the hurtful words jungkook growls at you. he’s looking at you like he hates you and normally you’re able to stomach his harsh words but not this time.

when he comes back downstairs with his shirt and shoes on, you try to talk to jungkook but he cuts your embrace short by showing his obvious distaste towards both you and jorja.

“i won’t let you die without me, jungkook! i’ll find you in the afterlife and fuck your soul over if that’s what i have to do. what’s your deal with her, huh? was she a game to you? i want the truth!! what’s got you so hung up on her, huh? what kind of coward kills himself for being a willing participant in her demise?” you bite your lip before asking the painful question. “do you love syelle, jungkook? are you…are you in love with her? because you aren’t making any sense right now. you ACTIVELY didn’t give a fuck about her and now you’re talking about harming yourself, so what is it? you love her because it’s becoming more obvious that you were IN LOVE with her”

jorja can’t even bring herself to say anything. she just watches you try to talk to jungkook and understand his feelings about his dead wife that he seemingly cares a lot about or maybe it’s just the guilt. he feels guilty, so to atone for his constant infidelity and lies, jungkook must pay for it by taking how own life or maybe it’s his fucked up way of love.

He keeps on glaring at you and your stupid questions.

You have no right to feel this way and of course he’s gonna be sad because his wife died-because of his infidelity recorded and sent it to her. “Yn grow up.” He grits his teeth.

“you’re a selfish bitch you know that.” He looks away from your face, “of course I’m fucking sad she was my wife.” He doesn’t understand why you can’t see the fact that he’s upset because of his bond with her..

The bond he didn’t respect enough to not cheat on her again.

“it’s so easy for you to say that she’s dead-there’s no remorse. She’s dead because of you.” And that is the fact because you had the audacity of sending a video that you knew was gonna hurt her. “she was just 24…. 24 YEARS OLD. YOUNGER THAN YOU AND YOUNGER THAN ME.”

“how dare you record me without my consent? Are you that sick in the head?”

Tears well up in his eyes again. “get this through your stupid brain because you failed to understand such a basic thing. I NEVER WANTED HER DEAD YN.” He grabs you by your shoulders once again, and shakes you harshly. “why the fuck did you come by the cinema anyways? What did you say to her in the bathroom? WHY THE FUCK DID I COME HERE THINKING THAT YOU WERE GOING TO UNDERSTAND?!”

This is his mistake too because he can never resist you, but only if he had his wife would still be alive right now

“I never wanted her dead-and now she’s dead because of me and I have to live this guilt forever… what makes you think that we can be together? Just because she’s dead?” He scoffs.

Are you even human with a heart at this point? “I am not a toy.. YOU ALWAYS WANTED TO KILL ME.”

It’s about time he tells you the truth.

“there’s a huge difference between you and her, and there will always be the difference yn,” his eyes borrow into yours. “her love wasn’t selfish just because you liked me. You spared me. So that means when you’re tired of me you’re going to kill me.”

“you could never love me like her. She genuinely loved me and I failed to see it.”

Maybe jungkook is in love with her, but if he is then why did he allow himself to disrespect his marriage vows last night yet again?

“you and I have no future together. An innocent girl is dead because of me. This is why I want to kill myself. And you,” he turns to look at your friend.

He hates you so much right now, but he hates himself more.

“I’m going to tell your boyfriend all about this- and keep yn away from me. I’m leaving..”

“remember one thing yn… didn’t you say to her that once a cheater always a cheater? That means if I can cheat on her with you-I can cheat on you with someone else. SO STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME.”

He is a destructive man and you’re next.

#ask: reward!jungkook #I know I know but I just didn’t expect her to die and it feels really heavy you know #He is obviously going to feel guilty because of him she’s dead you know #Let’s see what yn does now

[minervahouse]

why “mariners apartment complex” is so david coded

spoiler warning, etc. etc.

You took my sadness out of context, at the Mariners Apartment Complex, I ain't no candle in the wind

she reached for his arm, but he roughly shrugged it away. “this is where we leave each other,” he said. (tvs, 314)

I'm the bolt, the lightning, the thunder

going back… to see edward king’s son. and he was a complicated person to go back to. (tvs, 39)

Kind of girl who's gonna make you wonder, who you are and who you've been

before david, stevie had never had a boyfriend.(nine liars, 389)

And who I've been is with you on these beaches

david got out of the kayak, half falling, and got her up under his arm and moved her to the shore. (bitw, 312)

Your Venice bitch, your die-hard, your weakness

but once stevie was around david, something in her became wobbly. the lines and edges blurred. (hotw, 111)

Maybe I could save you from your sins

“both of us have real problems, but maybe we should make our weird personalities work for us.” (truly devious, 318)

So, kiss the sky and whisper to Jesus

whatever had happened between david and stevie didn’t exist at this moment. everything was dew and larry’s instant coffee and the gentle, buttery morning sun. (truly devious, 407)

My, my, my, you found this, you need this

she wanted… david. she wanted him. (truly devious, 315)

Take a deep breath, baby, let me in

was this really going to happen? the last foot of space between them was rapidly closed up, and david pressed his lips to hers. (truly devious, 242)

You lose your way, just take my hand

stevie could only concentrate on the feeling in her hand, the warmth of his palm against her skin, the message it conveyed. it was a need. a need for her strength. (tvs, 247)

You're lost at sea, then I'll command your boat to me again

“whoa… whoa…” david swung his legs over the side of the kayak and slipped into the water, catching her in a clumsy hold. (bitw, 311)

Don't look too far, right where you are, that's where I am

david had come a long way to be with her. her. that was the only reason he was here. (bitw, 227)

I'm your man

“he got to you once,” he said. “i didn’t want him to be able to get near you ever again.” (hotw, 288)

I'm your man

“these nice people will give me a minute to speak to my girlfriend, won’t they?” (hotw, 342)

They mistook my kindness for weakness

“and in the end, all I'd be doing is taking money from another person who wanted to buy me. this guy isn't asking for anything- he's nice- but he's also sticking it to his enemy.” (bitw, 382)

I fucked up, I know that, but, Jesus, can't a girl just do the best she can?

“do you think i can’t control myself or something? like i’m not serious about you? what have i done to make you feel like that? because i’ve kind of worked hard to stop being fuckup david and he this new one?” (nine liars, 171)

Catch a wave and take in the sweetness

he turned to her and grabbed her in a huge, enthusiastic embrace and started jumping up and down. she started jumping too, because it was hard not to jump, and because this was something worth jumping for. (hotw, 292)

Think about it, the darkness, the deepness, all the things that make me who I am

“because… my dad has messed up everything in my life. now he’s making a career of messing up everyone’s lives. but he can’t have this. he can’t have you. it sounds cheesy, but it’s all i’ve got.” (tvs, 221)

And who I am is a big-time believer, that people can change, but you don't have to leave her

“i thought you just left,” she said. “i wasn’t got i leave,” he replied. (bitw, 317)

When everyone's talking, you can make a stand

“because believe it or not, this is the right thing to do. it’s not easy. but it’s right. so what’s the bigger deal? what’s worth it?” (hotw, 141)

'Cause even in the dark, I feel your resistance

she wished she could see his expression now, but they were blind to each other. he held her face in his hands for a long moment, saying nothing- not kissing, not moving, not seeing. (tvs, 222)

You can see my heart burning in the distance

just the sound of david’s voice was all stevie needed to conjure david in his entirety (hotw, 85)

Baby, baby, baby, I'm your man (yeah)

it was david. her david. stevie and david. (nine liars, 389)

#truly devious #david eastman

[theflowerofthecommonwealth]

Power Armor Punch Part Forty Eight

Masterlist

Teshteal: Oh- but I’m sorry. It looks as if our store does not carry that selection. *audible overdramatic sigh with a fake apologetic customer service voice* We only sell the finest of filthy dresses- what you’re looking for is too clean. Now excuse me. I have to restock our wares. *tosses the dress aside enthusiastically*

Lucille: What’s taking them so long?

Nick: Not sure. Hope they’re alright.

Gardio: *adjusts his own fedora* What are we to do if they aren’t but rescue them? After all, Linus only left a few minutes ago. Give them some time.

Jasmine: (Softly chuckles as she puts her dress back in her bag. She spots a mini safe under some rubble and picks it up, staring at it curiously. She takes out a bobby pin and a screwdriver, picking the lock easily and removes its contents that includes a ridiculous and overly done feathered ladies hat for some reason. Partly amused she holds it up to Teshteal, tilting her head to one side as the brightly colored feathers flap with the movement)

Teshteal: Oh! *claps* What a nice hat! We should keep it! *quietly to himself* I’d wear it but I have horns. *louder* I wonder how it would look on you? *bouncing excitedly on his feet*

Nick: So I hear you’ve been doing detective work-

Gardio: Free lance. I tend to roam about, rarely ever coming back to Hangman’s Alley.

Lucille: You lived in Hangman’s Alley this entire time?! And we never crossed paths until now?!

Gardio: I prefer not to stay in the Alley… *points at his face* I don’t want anyone getting sick because of my sheer existence.

Jasmine: (Shakes her head at that idea of her wearing it as she closely examines the hat. Might’ve been some sort of prewar fancy luxury brand that probably cost an arm and a leg to but which must’ve been why the owners decided to put it in a safe. Can’t understand why something like this was once so desirable, it’s completely useless now. She holds it out to Teshteal so he can take a look)

Teshteal: *takes it an examines for a moment* It hurts my eyes. *puts it on top of his fedora but doesn’t try to force it past his horns. He looks even sillier now* How do I look?

Gardio: Nick… *sighs regretfully* About what happened before the war- at Cainbridge, I’m sorry. I’m sorry I didn’t step in when the department-

Nick: Gardio, that was 200 years ago. You wouldn’t have been able to change much-

Gardio: I could have done something. The best I could do was try to look for Winter myself but then- *purses his cracked lips as he looks up at the sky* I didn’t see the point after the war. I ran. Helped people, yeah, but I couldn’t finish what you started.

Nick: *pauses for a moment as he realizes what he’s talking about* Don’t worry about it. *smirks* Lucille and I put that son of a bitch Winter six feet under. Where he belongs.

Gardio: *surprised look*

Nick: *reaches up and slaps his shoulder* That doesn’t mean I won’t thank you for trying to do right by the original Valentine. You’re a good man, Chapel. *nods* A good man.

Jasmine: (Smiling brightly on the inside but she can’t make herself react physically to Teshteal, and it weighs her down. She reaches into her bag and pulls out the bloodied book and flips to a page, taking out her pen that has cats printed on it) (Writing) “I am not suppose to react to anything at all, sorry. If I do I get mad at myself and feel like I am about to get punished.” (Points to the hat) “It looks ridiculous on its own, but you somehow can pull it off.” (Draws a smiling face by her writing)

Teshteal: *bounces forward and presses the book almost daintily down* We are not supposed to but wouldn’t you love to anyway? Who’s gonna stop you? Not me. Not the dead raiders. *looks over at a mannequin* What are you going to do, mannequin? Suddenly spring to life? Shout if she giggles? What? You will?! I’ll kill you. *smacks it into the wall then runs back to Jas* See? Anyone that says otherwise will get the “mannequin treatment” from yours truly. *jabs his thumb at himself*

Jasmine: (Slowly blinks at Teshteal, reaching down to her sleeve and pulls it up along with some bandages to show him her self harm cuts, then points to her head) (Writing) “They carved themselves in my head, you can’t fight me to stop me.” (Gestures at her side then at her legs that are also littered with cuts, cuts that bring a forbidden relief when inflicted) (Writing) “That was the next step for you I think, to get commands to self punish so they are always in control even when they aren’t there. It starts with breaking you down, then they can build you however they want and you can’t stop them because you’re nothing and worthless.”

Teshteal: I cannot- that’s a bit of problem. Hm. *taps his chin* Perhaps imagine I’m beating them up? *does not know how to help* Or both of us! *grins stupidly. He’s trying his best*

Jasmine: (Shrugs her shoulders, having no idea how to stop these thoughts either. Or the more violent thoughts that occur to “solve problems”, those are the most dangerous to herself and others. There is a way to pacify herself however, although she hates that it can happen. She stares down at her notebook and flips back a few pages, peeling two that are stuck together. The page is shown to be a list of those mentioned commands. On the very top is written “A-001”, her assigned number from the vault that is needed for some of these commands)

Teshteal: *immediately points to Reset, Dismissed, and the Custom Command* Those seem to be the safest ones. *scratches his head* I don’t think I’m a handler, but maybe we can make a custom command word? One not associated with fear? *snaps his fingers* Valentine-! His last name’s perfect for a command and he’s associated with a strong emotion- literally the one that rivals fear itself!

Jasmine: (Writing) “They used the custom command one mostly to get me to eat, although they found out they had to specify how much because I’d only eat one spoonful then stop.” (Freezes, her hands shaking when she remembers what else they made her do with this power. She was helpless against it) (Writing) “Also had me do other things, I hated the custom command.” (If used in the right way maybe these can helpful, especially to Nick if she gets out of control or lost in her head)

Teshteal: I know you hate it but it could be useful to help stop the voices. We can use their tactics against them. *smiles reassuringly at her* We have a way to stop them.

Jasmine: (Puts the tip of her thumb in her mouth while she stares down at the list. Hate is an understatement. It would send shocks of fear through her to hear these spoken directly at her and possibly flashbacks of being punished for not following orders, but in the end is it better than the alternative? She doesn’t know, she’ll have to leave it up to Nick in the end to make the call. Should she show this to him? Show him her assigned number so he can activate the command that render her completely useless and submissive if necessary? Her Dad won’t abuse this power, yet she doesn’t want to…)

Teshteal: We can show this to Detective Valentine and discuss what to do. He seems too kind to use the commands excessively.

Jasmine: (Immediately tears out the page when he says that, tucking the list in her jacket pocket so it’s safe with her and she the one with control over it. She tilts her head at Teshteal when two thoughts comes over her) (Writing) “What’s your assigned number? And where’s Nick if he’s not here?”

Teshteal: *heart beat roars in his ears suddenly and ge stiffens up at the thought of anyone knowing it. Regardless he keeps a chipper tone* I assume still over at Hangman’s Alley. I initially came here to bring you back to the group. *hesitates* Why do you want to know my number? *tail wraps around him and he starts to fidget with it nervously*

Jasmine: (Writing) “You know mine, I’d be lying to say that it doesn’t make me uncomfortable that you know it. I am the one who’s more susceptible to this.” (Looks up and blinks under her mask, realizing that her coding is yelling at her to get the edge on Teshteal and even things out. That’s why she wants to know it) “Fuck….” (Takes a few steps back in horror at herself while she drops the book, crashing into the wall as she starts breathing quickly and grabbing at her arms)

Teshteal: That’s true. *ringing his tail even more nervously* Mine was F-666. The useless ones. The… the cannon-fodder. *suddenly feels a wave of panic wash over him. He slowly backs away, his own coding and instincts telling him he’s so much more vulnerable now that someone now knows his assigned number*

Jasmine: (Horrified that she didn’t even realize her own true ambitions for doing things until it’s too late, until she was getting what she wanted. She presses herself up against the wall as the words “Monster” and “Pathetic” ring in her head over and over again, along with another one that’s getting louder. “Mistake”) (Quietly) “I am sorry…” (She has tears on her face now, not that Teshteal can tell as she slowly slinks to sit on the floor in a dark corner and picks at her arms)

Teshteal: *smells the saline and his eyes widen. Softly, fighting his panic* No, no, no. Don’t cry. *slowly approaches her and kneels. He takes her hands, gently crossing her arms over each other, and starts breathing slow, deep breaths. Softly still* You’re okay… We’re okay…

Jasmine: (When she heard him say not to cry she goes deathly silent and stiff because she’s not suppose to and would receive severe punishment for doing so. But when Teshteal starts comforting her in that sweet and gentle manner she relaxes a bit and lowers her head as the voices in her head attack her, the mask fogging up from her tears. She’s getting hit with berating and judging remarks for how she handled things, scolded for not performing better. On the other side is the same three words that are meant to keep her down and scared)

Teshteal: *keeps comforting her as he sits. He keeps taking deep breaths, hoping she’ll subconsciously start matching them while keeping his own thoughts at bay, too* You didn’t hurt me. That’s good. We’re okay… *puts his forehead against hers* I’m okay…

Jasmine: (Choking on her tears) “What if I hurt you?” (Shy’s away from him out of fear of doing so. She already hurt people who tried to help her. Nick- her own father, included along with Lucille)

Teahteal: So what if you do? *shrugs* I’m Safeguarding you, right now…

Jasmine: (Raises her head when she hears that command he’s doing for her, sniffing back her sobs and she tries to stop trembling so much. She’s suddenly very aware on how much time they are wasting just sitting here waiting for her to stop being such a baby) “You are not suppose to, no one is.” (Pulls back and tries to stand while bracing onto the wall)

Teshteal: *stands and extends a hand to help her* As your sibling and your friend, I’m absolutely supposed to. *determined* They may be in our heads but I’ll be damned if I let them stop me from helping people I care about.

Jasmine: (Stands on her own and just starts walking back to the rooftop without looking at him, hoping deep down that he doesn’t take it personally. She’s gone completely numb to keep herself at bay, to keep herself from crying. Soon she’s rushing up the ladder and jumping from the stores roof to another roof, looking back to see if Teshteal will follow)

Teshteal: *already pocketed the ridiculous hat and it’s following her easily and effortlessly*

Jasmine: (Starts efficiently leaping from rooftop to rooftop, railing to railing, gliding across nimbly like a cat save for the part of constantly walking on all fours, she only does that when it’s easier or needs to stay hidden. Soon she and Teshteal near where she last saw Nick and Lucille, quickly lowering herself so they can’t see her. Or rather so Gardio doesn’t see her)

Teshteal: *whispers* Why are we hiding?

Nick: Alright. I think I need to go find those two. It’s been a while.

Gardio: I probably should have gone with him. Don’t know why I didn’t. The man doesn’t have the best track record of keeping his head low or out of trouble.

Nick: Didn’t he crash his car through a precinct window once?

Gardio: Good lord, don’t remind me, Nick. *chuckles at the memory*

Jasmine: (Peers down, swallowing hard. She pulls back and takes off her mask, quickly wiping it from the inside so she can see better. Her eyes are red and puffy, there’s still fresh tears going down on her face as she puts it back on and tightens her hood. She slowly starts backing away in the direction they just came from)

Teshteal: *takes her hand* Hey. Gardio won’t hurt you. I promise… at least tell Nick what’s going on before you run off. *softly. Pleaful* Please?

Jasmine: (Gestures over the edge to where the trio is standing below and points to her head, shaking it while holding up her trembling hand. Then she points to her heart and shakes her head again to try and signify that she can’t feel anything and has gone numb. She thinks for a long moment before she uses her free hand to make several small slicing motions down her arm, remembering her promise to Nick. She looks over the edge, seriously considering jumping off and scampering to somewhere she deems safe)

Teshteal: *takes hold of her other hand after he sees the sign* Hey, look at me. Neither I nor Nick will let Gardio hurt you. I doubt he ever would seriously try, but neither of us will let it happen. Let’s talk to Nick. Please…? *his pupils are wide with concern as he begs her almost desperately*

Nick: *about to go when he suddenly looks up at the building* Nevermind. You two stay put. I’ve got this. *walks over and climbs up a fire escape on the side. He swings himself over the ledge of the roof* There you two are. *walks over* Talk to me about what…? And when did you start calling me by my first name?

Teshteal: *keeps her hands in his as he addresses Nick* It’s faster to say- sorry. *looks to Jas then Nick* Rosie’s scared of meeting Gardio. She might need a second to get her barings but I’m scared she’s going to run and… *pauses, fear crossing his face for a second* Do something…

Jasmine: (Starts pulling from Teshteals grip while grunting with frustration, twisting her wrists in a furious manner. If she really wanted to she could escape and run free, but she rather not hurt Teshteal while doing so. She’s dangerously close to the edge as she struggles, not that isn’t aware of it she’s actually trying to jump off)

Nick: Thanks for the warning-

Teshteal: Nick. *mouths* A-001 Reset.

Nick: What- That’s-

Teshteal: Just do it. It’ll help.

Nick: *with some hesitation and regret as soon as he says it* A-001 Reset.

Jasmine: (Eyes immediately go wide and get filled with terror as she goes completely limp. She falls to her knees still super close to the edge and puts her hands behind her head while she heaves heavy breaths. Her mind and vision go blinding white, heart thumping in her ears while she “resets”. Essentially, this command was to help them clear their heads if they get overloaded and out of control, helps them rethink their decisions and strategies. For her it was mostly used when she made a grave mistake in combat. So she’s getting slapped with internal corrections on her recent and past mistakes, fearing that she’ll be severely punished)

Nick: *terrified at seeing how frightened and powerless she suddenly becomes* What did you just have me do?

Teshteal: Quick- tell her she’s not in trouble. That’s a crucial step.

Nick: *glares angrily at Teshteal but kneels and gently and calmly starts reassuring her* You haven’t done anything wrong, Rosalinda. You’re okay. Dad’s right here… I didn’t know what it that would do to you or what the situation was. *heart breaks seeing the fear on her face. His voice cracks a little* I’m so sorry. *gently cups her cheek and strokes it with his thumb*

Teshteal: I-

Nick *looks back at him with a glare then quietly goes back to reassuring Jas that she’s safe*

Teshteal: *goes quiet again and wordlessly starts pulling out the trinkets he found around Jas’s house, setting them next to the pair* Please give these to Rosie. I found them at her house… *decides he’s gone too far this time* I’ll be somewhere. *scampers off suddenly*

Jasmine: (Staring off at nothing with her hands still behind her head in surrender, her red teary eyes unfocused. She doesn’t seem to register Nick as her mind continues to flash white for the reset, anticipating a blinding pain to come from either a slap or her jaw roughly grabbed to wake her up from it followed by berating remarks)

Nick: *holds her close, gently lowering her arms so he wrap his around her* Come back to me, doll…

Teshteal: *running like the wind, tears streaking past his ear. He doesn’t know where he’s going but he knows he can’t be there anymore. He messed up. Being alone is what he deserves*

Jasmine: (Can’t stay in reset mode forever and starts slipping back into reality and into the correction stage. She doesn’t move but blinks with slight recognition at her surroundings as her previous actions slowly play out in her head, the slightest mistakes coming into view. It throws her off that she’s not getting hit or forced to do things she doesn’t want to, instead her Dad is here and comforting her. She still feels like she did downtime terribly wrong…)

Nick: *gently petting her hair* It’s okay… I’m sorry.

Teshteal: Stupid. Moron. You don’t deserve anyone. You’re a burden. You’re just an inconvenience. *stops suddenly and just collapses into a ball* No one cares- *the memory of being held in one big strong hug by Gardio burns inside his mind. He wants to go back to that so bad but knows… he knows as soon as he finds out…* You just make things worse…

Jasmine: (Finishes her assessment of herself from the moment she first left to the store until now, biting down on her tongue. She’s currently in a “do whatever the hell you want with me, I don’t care anymore” stage by reflex in order to shield herself. It’ll be awhile until her mind registers that it’s safe to fully return, and that she doesn’t have to go numb anymore for these type of things)

Nick: *decides to carry her on his back back down the fire escape. He arrives at Lucille but notices Gardio’s missing* Where’s your father?

Lucille: Went off to find Teshteal.

Nick: *opens his mouth then shuts it*

Jasmine: (Completely motionless as Nick carries her, not making much of an effort to hold on. She’s like a limp Raggedy Ann doll, anticipating for something to happen to her, waiting for someone to puppet her)

Gardio: *looking everywhere for Teshteal, even asking a few feral ghouls*

Teshteal: *curled up in a hole, waiting to just… Die*

Gardio: *managed to find him* Linus…?

Teshteal: *a jolt of fear causes him to jump* Don’t call me by that name!

Gardio: Oh- sorry… *kneels in front of him and even then he towers over the poor rat of a man* What are you doing?

Teshteal: …Trying to die.

Gardio: By sitting in a hole in a wall? Friend, you’re going to be waiting for a while.

Teshteal: Why did you even bother finding me? I’m a monster. Literally. *smacks his tail against the ground*

Gardio: That makes two of us. *points at his face* That’s no reason to give in.

Teshteal: It is if you hurt someone close to you so easily.

Gardio: I see… but don’t you think that it would hurt them more if you ran away and never apologized for it?

Teshteal: *looks up in surprise. He hadn’t thought of that. He lowers his head, voicing another thought* What if I keep hurting them?

Gardio: If you make steps to improve on yourself, you won’t. Not in the same way, at least…

Teshteal: *sighs sadly* Detective Valentine won’t want me around anyway-

Gardio: You let me worry about Valentine. Worry about the person you hurt first.

Teshteal: *starts to cry again suddenly* I don’t deserve this kindness.

Gardio: You deserve friendship.

Teshteal: No-

Gardio: Don’t fight me on this, officer. That’s an order.

Teshteal: *well now he can’t argue. Orders are orders*

Jasmine: (Closes her eyes and takes a deep breath, counting how long it took her to calm down earlier. Two minutes too long, pathetic)

Teshteal: This might be stupid to ask but can I have a hug?

Gardio: *Picks up the little rat of a man and gives him a big hug* Not a stupid question at all.

Teshteal: *feels a lot safer suddenly. He hugs back*

Jasmine: (Opens her eyes, lifting her head from Nicks shoulder and she looks around like a wide-eyed lost kitten. She’s so terrified, so confused. Her brain doesn’t know know to process anything, it’s stuck in this mode)

Lucille: *just standing near Nick, checking one of her guns for damage*

Jasmine: (There’s a slight haze to her vision and a ringing noise in her ears, almost like her mind is censoring what she sees and hears. Again it’s completely unnecessary now, maybe she can correct it later so the reset is just her clearing her mind and nothing more)

Nick: *worried about her specifically*

Teshteal: You always give the best hugs…

Gardio: *sets Teshteal down on his feet* Are you going to be alright?

Teshteal: *whipes his eyes* I think so.

Jasmine: (Puts her head back down, partly closing her eyes while she take heavy, but steady breaths. She still anticipating the regular abuse she’d normally suffer after a reset. Luckily for everyone, unlike when Lucille slapped her into a similar state she isn’t being drowned in horrific memories, although she still remembers them)

Lucille: *Kind of regrets that, too. Still thinks Jas hates her for all of that*

Gardio: Glad to hear. Now let’s get you back to the others. *adjusts his hat* What do you say, partner?

Teshteal: Yes sir. *salutes him dramatically*

Gardio: *starts walking back towards the group* At ease, we’re not on duty. *cracks a grin* Save the formalities until we’re in uniform.

Teshteal: You are. *referring to his coat as he starts to follow*

Gardio: Hey, you gotta look the part out here in the ruins! Dress for the job you want and all that.

Teshteal: *sticks his tongue out at the old ghoul*

Gardio: *glances back* Still just as immature as ever.

Jasmine: (Tenses suddenly, going completely relaxed while she trembled. She’s not sure why exactly as she’s not currently getting flashbacks, guess it’s just muscle memory)

Nick: *decides to cradle her like a toddler and quietly comfort her*

Lucille: *yawns*

Jasmine: (Raises her head and her little hands hesitantly grab onto his coat. Her eyes get teary again while she feels something jolt in her chest. She didn’t do anything wrong, did she?)

Nick: Ssh… it’s alright, doll. You didn’t do anything wrong. Not this time.

Teshteal: *leading the way this time*

Ferals: *start climbing out at the sound of the two’s footsteps*

Teshteal: *gets into a fighting stance*

Gardio: Let them be. They’re curious about the noise.

Teshteal: They’ll attack-

Gardio: No, I don’t think they will. *looking around at all of them* Go back to sleep you all…

Ferals: *stand and twitch in place, seemingly unsure of what to do*

Gardio: Just keep walking, Teshteal. Don’t make eye contact.

Teshteal: *hard swallow as he straightens up and walks normally down the road*

Gardio: *keeping an eye on the ghouls as they pass through* That’s right. Slow steps. *calmly* We’re friendly…

Jasmine: (Stares off for a bit while her bottom lip trembles, suddenly feeling very clingy to her father and fearful of being separated from him. Ditching all the voices telling her no, she grabs onto Nick as tightly as she can while she wails nonsense into his coat. Aaaaaand here’s that separation anxiety she’s been trying to avoid developing all this time)

Lucille: *jumps* What the-!?

Nick: Whoa-! It’s alright, I’m not going anywhere, kiddo! I’m right here.

Jasmine: (Not sure what the hell came over her that’s making her sob and hold onto her Dad like he’s the last person on earth. She had never been like this with her mother even when she was very small, or with any other adult she was close to after her mom died)

Nick: *sighs and keeps reassuring her he’s not going anywhere*

Teshteal: *Once they’re through and a safe enough distance* How’d you keep them from attacking?

Gardio: Glowing Ones tend to be a bit… odd as nonferal ghouls go. I can kind of tell what they’re thinking usually- don’t know how or why.

Jasmine: (Realizes that she’s not even crying tears all that much, she’s just blubbering incoherent sentences. She shuts her mouth but doesn’t loosen her death grip, closing her eyes to recount again with a clear head. She’s not in trouble, she was told to reset by Nick and not the trainer or the guards. There’s no need to shield herself anymore after a reset or have a panic attack, she can take a rest now…)

Nick: *softly* I’m sorry, Rosie…

Teshteal: *eyes widen* You have super powers!?

Gardio: You have super speed, horns, a tail, and cat eyes. Still out to lunch on how that last one’s even possible.

Teshteal: Touch-ay.

Gardio: You still don’t know how to say Touche…?

Teshteal: It’s a weird word!

Gardio: It is literally two syllables.

Teshteal: Listen, I can only hold so much grammar and pronunciation rules in my head.

Gardio: *rolls his eyes at his lame excuse*

Jasmine: (Ran out of batteries, she’s exhausted from the ordeal. She keeps her tight hold on her Dad while she buries her face in the crook of his neck, dropping into a power nap)

Gardio: Wait… how are you leading me back?

Teshteal: Take a wild fxcking guess.

Gardio: …Oh please don’t tell me you’re guessing.

Teshteal: What? No! Sense of smell. *taps his nose* It’s very accurate!

Gardio: I don’t know whether to be impressed or disgusted.

Teshteal: How did you find me anyway?

Gardio: The power of friendship and “Ghoul to Ghoul communication”.

Teshteal: … Please tell me you’re joking.

Gardio: I’m not. I wish I were.

Jasmine: (Napping quietly and peacefully, some tears still on her cheeks. She’s holding Nick on his promise that he’s not going anywhere, that’s the only reason she can sleep right now)

@lucilleandherrobots

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[alyosiuscreightonward]

Dear Diary. Just the other day I had learned that someone I know is in a state of mental distress. I’m not sure what there support system looks like but I also know that there are several people who just want the drama and they then go at it.

It sucks that you are going through this but it really does irritate me to know that trying to parse something down to the molecular level isn’t going to help the situation and also doesn’t offer up solutions nor provides tools to help. MF dealing with shit is definitely harder than putting together something from fucking IKEA. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Yeah I can go back to a place that hurts me and explain the trauma.

Yeah I can go to YouTube and find a video for whatever you are feeling but that’s not gonna solve anything.

Yeah I can then go to the interwebs and find a quote for you and it still won’t solve the anything.

Yeah I also know that I sometimes don’t take the advice that I dish out.

In my world, I allow myself to have these feelings and I allow myself to vomit my feelings. In my world, I believe that shit happens and yes, I’ll hold onto them until I realize that these great big pieces of emotional luggage needs to be checked through never to be seen again.

At the job, I’m usually in a foul mood because of the people I have to interact with because I don’t have time for them nor am I able to deal with their manufactured drama. I don’t want to give them my time or effort. Even the ones who should know better are still attempting to stir the pot meanwhile they’re trying to make it look like they don’t have a ladle or a paint brush and a 55 gallon drum of black paint.

I come here to say shit all the while knowing that lots of people who are on this app don’t read nor comment on my verbal diarrhea. Bitch please. I do read their posts and I don’t comment either. It’s very much like TikTok or Instagram, scroll on by.

Regardless of whether or not I deal with shit or not is my prerogative. The only thing I can do is fight. I fight with all my demons and my feelings and eventually I do come through.

People blather on about how they can communicate and all that rot but I also know that they have their problems and yeah pretty much.

I’m able to say that I have been homeless junkie prostitute and thief and a Shitkicker and I wanted someone to pay attention to me as playwright Arthur Miller scribed the following sentence in “Death of a Salesman,” ‘Attention must be paid.’”

Exactly. The character Willie Loman had been overlooked for most of his life and in his career but now that he’s passed…we’ve got to stop and see that he is and was a human being who existed.

I’ve got my own feelings about this but I also know that some folks don’t care if I have feelings about this that or third. Then I do know that there are some folks who actually care about me because I’ve touched their lives.

I’m going to tell you one story about me and the guilt I often feel.

I honestly forgot exactly how old I was at the time of this incident but I know that I had not moved to NYC yet. My family had a dog and her name was Tabitha. She was a former show dog and was just so beautiful and so sweet. Also she was skittish about herky jerky movements. That night I was given the task to take Tabs on a walk and she’d do her business. I walked down the street, I took a right turn and we walked to the parking lot behind my house. Since it had snowed the night before we were left with a huge pile of snow at the opposite end of the parking lot. We ran like fools. We both had run up the snowbank. I lost my footing and I slipped and fell. I screamed out and Tabs got freaked and bolted away from me. I immediately chased after her. Tabs was a Saluki and she ran like the wind. She would easily outrun Usain Bolt. The next thing I knew, a car appeared out of nowhere and she got hit. I freaked the fuck out and bellowed every single swear word I could ever muster at the occupants of the car. Tabs ran back to the house and I found her on the front porch. I began to wail as to bring my family onto the porch. I screamed and cried and the whole house shook. Eventually my mom and, I think, my brother and sister came out. I told them what happened and as I was explaining it all to them, the occupants of the car were standing on the porch watching me lose my shit. Tabs had a broken leg. She came through it all with flying colors. She wasn’t afraid of me. I thought she’d just avoid me because of the trauma she went through. I’m not sure what happened after that but I did come to learn that my mom had made the decision to to rehome Tabs. From what I remember, Tabitha lived out her life on a 25 acre farm in Vermont.

That was one of many things slash trauma I went through with the dogs and cats in my life.

There are many other things that I’ve experienced in my life that have made me feel numb. When I was with my brother over the weekend, I nonchalantly said that I no longer cry. He said something about how I should cry etc but I ignored him. He has no clue what I’ve been through and why I rarely cry.

Recently my husband’s dog, CoCo passed away. It hurt me deeply but I still love that little fucker to no end. It’s now just myself and my Harry.

I have my moments but I absolutely refuse to let the world know that I’m in pain. I put on the blinders and march forward. Though in my private life, I let the emotions run amok. Then the next morning, I’m able to deal with this shit and I don’t allow it to absolutely consume me anymore.

The one thing I do want you to know is that, you should find an outlet to vomit your feelings and not give permission to control you. Like I said before, I don’t always listen to me and do the right thing or the correct thing. There’s no wrong or right way but if there’s one thing that you can take away from this, it’s a learning experience that will help you build a stairway to paradise. I may never get there but I will fight for me and that’s all that matters.

Lastly, I will leave you with some lyrics to a song that hits my heart and was playing on my iPod when I drove up to vets office with CoCo in my lap and before I said goodbye.

“Well, I wasted years,/All the useless, bitter tears./If I'd known I'd have stopped it at the start./I knew life was long,/And I knew life could go wrong,/But I never knew my life would break my heart./'Cause I made, and I'm gonna lie in my bed of roses./Bed of roses I believed my life would be./Bed of roses I believed my life would be.” written by Bonnie Hayes & sung by Bette Midler.

Rage. Feel some kind of way. Scream. Break things. You do you. Fuck them all.

Then there’s this piece of sage advice that I adhere to on the daily, “Pour yourself a drink (or beverage of choice), put on some lipstick and pull yourself together,” so said Elizabeth Taylor.

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#dear diary #no your not the only one #i wrote this for me #inside my mind #my words #my writing #ramblings #pity party #bipolar depression #lgbtq #fuck them all #keep moving forward

[thefairylights]

I wanted to add in more but couldn’t so I am going to do it this way. Also because I literally just woke up and can barely see I couldn’t see your username at first and thought it said anon. So. Forgive me! I’ve literally been awake for ten minutes now but it’s been great because this messages has been making me smile.

First of all, yes. Because yes. Because everyone is meant for someone so why not have David and Marius together?

Secondly, it makes all the sense in the world that QOTD was able to spring this ship onto the world. That movie was so horrifying that something as dark and twisted as David/Marius makes complete and total sense.

Thirdly, this is so funny to me because l've been thinking about it. Marius and David can be together and live on an island far away from all our resident vampires and be grossly in love together forever never to be seen or heard from again. They can be gross. And nasty. And creepy. But together! Good for them. If they need to stay in contact they can send an email. An email that may or may not be read because their addresses may or may not be blocked!

Let me imagine this. Benji, as the resident little tech vampire, choosing to keep his vibe going and decide hey, we should block these two emails! Definitely block them. And voila, said emails don’t work. And because Lestat is Lestat, he won’t question it because he’s too busy not really understanding emails or podcasts or whatever else and he can go be happily and blissfully ignorant with Louis. Far away from Marius and David.

We will pretend that they can’t all communicate mentally btw. Maybe the island is so far it’s absolutely and completely impossible. So so far away.

And Armand, because he has transcended so high from this, can have his own happily ever after away from his abuser. And he can be as weird as he pleases and Daniel can just smile and pat at his head because how precious is our gremlin? So precious and murderous and crazy and the most special. Armand deserves some blenders for all this wonderful freedom of those two problems.

And Pandora can be her boss ass bitch self.

Omg And Bianca too! Maybe they can chill.

I feel so happy right now. Thank you.

Marius Mishap March haha. The upcoming ides of March has got me feeling some type of way. 🔪

#team dead david is the best david #Marius come catch this smoke #marius de romanus #david talbot #the vampire chronicles

[taintedsoul-if]

Hey I was wondering I’m not like a vengeful person. But a lot of people messed over the OH. And I get the MC is technically the OH soul if I read that correctly.

But do we get the opportunity I get if it’s spoilers but all these people got to live this extravagant lifestyle and the MC has settled for less and that makes me upset. I don’t know why I guess because I’ve felt I’ve had less for a long time. But seriously I won’t them all to loss everything. This isn’t fair and I get that’s life. But the hell they killed the OH and what joked that they were stupid and naive. And they got to all be around each other for centuries and made each other dislike one another.

I feel like the Mc going to be like it will be a cold day in hell to let that happen again. Sorry if this a bad ask but these people got away with something that I think is morally wrong and they all need to pay. Never mind the OH being naive. They simply didn’t care and had heart eyes. So yeah T definitely do revenge path.

Have a great day. Can’t wait to see more.

👀 the body that the MC is currently in doesn't belong to them. The MC soul transmigrated from our timeline, which is 2022. And entered the original host timeline, which is 5089? I think, that's the date I wrote. 🙄

Of course Anon, you'll be able to take back every single thing. Ragriel was a servant of Lady Anaya's household and because, Lady Anaya wasn't a "virgjn" her family knew for a fact, that she wouldn't be able to marry a nobleman. Women were shun just for not being a virgin before marriage. Anyways Lady Anaya's family took a liking to ragriel, because he helped solved a crisis of theirs. The old man immediately wanted to marry Ragriel, as his grandson in law.

Ragriel comes from a loooooonnnnng ancestry of slavery. Everything he sits so dearly on right now, belongs to Lady Anaya's family. And by right the original host was the only living heir to that wealth.

Yeah it was literal murder in board daylight. The Montholon family was afraid that their secret would come to light, and seeing as the original host mark was Ash-black now, technically even if they killed them, nothing would come of it. So they tossed the original host unconscious body into the portal leading to Ostror. Also Ragriel, Yesenia and the cumdumpster was in on this plan. 😭. Imagine getting married to such a princess/prince who killed the person who once owned the body, your Mc reside in. That's outright betrayal.

+1 guys another revenge player has joined our ranks! At this point I think I should start giving out ranks, to you guys. What kind of revenge do you all have planned? Fuck 'em and leave them? Or ignore? Play the green tea bitch and when the iron is hot, you strike?

But anon I am one hundred percent behind you too! From day one I've never liked Yesenia and Trysten/Trista. That is why instead of keeping their identities in the dark, I outed them right from the get go. And the stepmother, that didn't even allow Lady Anaya's Ash to warm in her coffin. Death! Reign hell down on them! But I will advise you, if you expose your strength the empress will want the emperor to issue out a decree to have your Mc betrothed to trysten/Trista again. Make sure your Mc jumps in the way of the assassin. You guys take the hit for trysten/Trista. After healing from your injuries, you'll be able to ask for a decree which will make your Mc the master of their own marriage. That revenge is going to be sweet. Because trista/Trysten won't be able to force your Mc into his backyard.

Alright anon, thank you for the ask. Have a wonderful day.

#revenge #slag family! #anon honestly everyone was against the original host #smh theyre in a good place now #so dont worry. #lovely anon #ask