#How are you supposed to feel clean???

[pyrepostings]

whumpee who's only given soft water to drink/bathe with.

#pyreprompts #Sourced from a very unfortunate hotel experience #I understand soft water in the shower because the glass door #But the sink too? Sir I just had several drinks at your bar I am thorsty for something that doesn't taste like soap #Too tired to go see if there's a water fountain around the corner #In too much period cramps to fall asleep #Def dehydrated #Don't know if soft water is like actually bad for you or just tastes like shit #Eyes too adjusted to darkness to want to get on my phone to find out #Bad time #Could be solved if water was palatable #Give that option to your chained in the basement whumpee #I say bathe as well because low pressure hotel shower plus soft water equals Bad Sensory Time #How are you supposed to feel clean??? #Whump prompt #whump prompts #whump scenario #whumpee #whump #whump ideas #whumper #Also also can't get over the keurig in the room #Are they expecting guests to put salty soapy water in the machine to make their tea or coffee?? Huh??? #Anyway my point is make your whumpee dring vile tasting water it's so effective

[noxious-fennec]

Snapshots of simpler times..

#hellooo been a while.. again #i was overwhelmed by finals but now I've been over two weeks off of school so you get a treat!! #i was feeling nostalgic and wanted to draw uniforms and this came to be #it's supposed to look like candid photos if it doesn't that's the fault of your lacking imagination /s #anyway i tried to improve on different things with each one so they're not really consistent but i tried my best #ignore how inconsistent my artstyle is you just gotta get used to it #the picture with sleepy tubbo is titled whittle boy in my heart <3 #the first two are kinda related. tommy shot up the mess hall and had the month's cleaning duty cus of it #anyway i ramble too much here. it's good to be back tho! maybe I'll draw something else before the end of the year lmao #my art #dsmp fanart #cwilbur #ctommy #ctubbo #cniki #cfundy #lmanberg #fennec.art

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!' #(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

[spotsupstuff]

I wanna learn more about Blessing / Boreas. What’s up with all the bat flies with him? What’s his city like?

-rubs my hands together like a fly- uuuuuu boy, time to shake my blatantly favorite child Hell yeah huhuhuhuhuuu

the batflies enter the scene a good while after the Mass Ascension- they are his coping mechanism after Zephyr collapses and goes dark!

from the comic where they talk about Euros' n Sparrows' relationship, one can probably guess how close these two are. Boreas might be the big scary dog of the whole Eo family that punches things in the face rather than take any miniscule amount of shit, but when it comes to Zephyr he is very open and sweet. she's the only person who can actually influence his opinions and ideas greatly, because he loves and trusts her enough to allow her to do so. so when she collapses, he takes it the worst out of everyone. in a very quiet way. his pain if for him to keep, nobody else can know he's hurting

bear witness to Ňuňu

this lil shit was basically Boreas' therapy dog. just.. very very feckin teeny

child...

she is as smart as your typical bat, but the thing was that when she accidentally made her way into his chamber, he didn't have much will in himself to send the animal to eeby deeby so she got to flutter about. and as animals do, girlie used the empathy trap card to figure out this person who doesn't seem to be posing any danger is Sad. so she landed on his head, crawled up to look into his eyes and chirped

n that was the straw that broke the camel's back and Boreas had his first grief-inflicted breakdown ever. Ňuňu stayed during it and even after it, so emotionally-empty-feeling Boreas decided to take her in. hardly can replace Zephyr, but at least he isn't alone

Ňuňu later brought friends and Bee decided that he will look after them then. even after Ňuňu passes away, he still houses and raises them. the younglings like sleeping on his antennas so he has to watch himself to not move them too much sometimes. Euros has a folder full of photos like that

to his city- the name kush is:

originally from me looking for latin words for Rage. ended up going with Desaevio, because Bee is indeed positioned in a fitting place for the word

and the storm connection plus the last two are the main reasons why the Ancients called the city as such. after project Abet Zephyr ended in such a failure, they had to vent some stuff out. and we are going to claim that it is anger because that isn't as pitiful as shame or embarrassment

(the fact that almost every translator i put it into gives me "i'm sorry" works wonderfully, too. because what else will ultimately Boreas do, but quietly mutter to himself a mantra of apologies when he'll be lying in his chamber 30 seconds from his death, drowning in his regrets and mistakes?)

Desaevio was capable of comfortably supporting over 5 million people (no other Iterator city ever reaches that far- the max is ambitious Gen 3 cities that only ever reached around an estimate of 2.7 million) but at times housed over 6-7 million. despite lying close to the geographical location of Bergen in real life, Desaevio is very far from reaching such nice vibes (the old towns Boreas' structure overshadows come close, though). it is way closer to New York, but more dystopian. if u look up dystopian city on google images u get to see pretty closely what it looked like. combine it with Coruscant from star wars for bonus authencity with the layering

made up of skyscrapers, with endless layered bridges for means of transport (most commonly expres trains), with what little decoration of the buildings chipped away by time without anybody caring enough to restore the beauty- the grey, gloomy expanse of Desaevio is as majestic to witness as it is absolutely harrowing

with it being a layered city and one with Boreas' consciousness/structure, some wonder when does one truly leaves the borders of the city and enters the giant's actual insides. it's hard to tell, with old models of Iterators not being all that enclosed and isolated like Five Pebbles is. there is no karma gate to tell you when exactly the walls turn from homes for people to homes for wires, tubes and alien-like organic life of a colossal Hivemind

despite the whole "Iterators are above the cloud level" thing, i like to imagine that it rains in Desaevio either way. at least- some levels are just straight up Wet like after rain. but it'd be those normal rains like we have, not the annihilating ones that the old towns need to bear with down below. or maybe it's just the upper layers' waste water seeping through the ceilings

most of light of the lower levels comes from streetlights, neon signs and Boreas' own systems once deep enough

cameras and such security systems litter all the streets and every public room- and the private homes are still accessable by overseers- and All of that feeds directly into Boreas' memory cache

this omnipresence is why Boreas later suffers with the fuckin

nobody is as unhappy with Boreas' omnipresence as Boreas himself. no wonder he's always ticked off, imagine being a witness to All of New York's road rage 24/7

#Spot says stuff #rw #oc tag #oc: boreas' blessing #desaevio is very. Factory-core. idk how else to explain it it all feels vaguely like a giant factory #for someone like sparrows its Hell. its almost like the place forgot that religion is supposed to come with certain Cleanness #the motherFUCKERS made a LOWER CLASS FOR THE HIGHER CLASS WHAT KINDA FECKIN DEPTH DOES THE DISCRIMINATION GO TO!!!! #you have city like Ales that is all white and gold and dedicated to birds and the divinity- sunlight is Always present everywhere #and then theres Desaevio. our beautiful capital city that we love built on top of our biggest pride and joy Boreas' Blessing that we Also- #-super loving towards -casually administers paralyzation venom of lower circles into his puppet when he misbehaves at a wrong time- #gotta LOVE it there #the lower levels or whatever throw a rebellion against the omnipresence thing n hes like “-side eyes- yes actually listen to those there”

[vermillioncrown]

i was so sure my wine mom vampire boyfriend would have wanted to hang the 'damsel' out to dry lmao

#damsel is the guy that poked my eyeball out and everyone hated i let him do that #hey but he gave me a sweet new eyeball that lets me latently see invisibility all the time! #something something the grinch's heart grew #verm is playing... #also my roommate and verm bf think i'm both rude and nuts bc i make shadowheart cast create and destroy water to clean off bloodstains #idk if summoning ghouls is supposed to work like this but i can't dismiss them? so they just turn into a pile of blood by my bed after rest #and i'm in a hotel room rn so i feel bad so i make shadowheart clean it up #''she doesn't deserve this verm.'' #''...cleaning up after yourself. in your video game hotel room. okay.'' #and i also found a funny exploit for free necromancy casts but that also got them mad #''i hope you're proud of how you play this game.'' #thanks i am with my spell DC of 23 🥰 #if i'm casting hold person on you you are being held 🥰

[yourqueenb]

I think I understand why Vic and MC are into each other now. It’s basically like “great minds think alike” but the opposite. They’re both dumb as hell so it’s no wonder they’re drawn to each other

#choices kod #choices kiss of death #choices #choices stories you play #playchoices #I feel like this was supposed to be another ‘MC and LI are opposites but they balance each other out’ kind of thing #like how it was supposed to be with TPA MC and Agent Gray #but just like those two instead of each one’s unique traits and strengths working to their advantage as a team/couple— #—everything is just doubly worse #and the side characters have to step in and play clean up #which unfortunately came at Roy’s expense today 😒 #we’ll see how PB brings things to a head and then a conclusion though #but I highly doubt if any of it will be believable or particularly enjoyable to read for that matter

[magical-girl-coral]

Okay, what is the Internet's brilliant idea of how to stop the I/p conflict

*checks notes*

You people are planning on boycotting an entire fucking country?

#are you going to send back Israeli medical tactics and machinery from your local hospital? #you're gonna destroy every phone that has something to do with an israeli company? #you're gonna discard all the sewage cleaning plans israel has put out? #will you harass Israeli immigrants? their attempt to trying a business to escape this country? #how far is this supposed to fucking go? #do you people even bother to search how many countries israel works with? #all the items you'll have yo throw away #or do you just say whatever you feel like with no regard to the civilians who will be harmed by these ideas #because of your desperation of needing to be the hero? #like seriously #so many innocent jewish businesses are going to be harmed with this type of thinking #i bet people are already destroying kosher cafes even if they have nothing to do with israel #actual people are going to die. but ay least the person posting these ideas has free Palestine in their bio

[spock-smokes-weed]

So for my AU I want to fill out the town residence with other one piece characters. Like figure out where I can fit big both major and minor characters.

And I’m thinking that Sanji plays soccer recreationally in his free time (it’s his thing outside of the straw hats) and I want to creat some drama with some shitty teammates, and is there are any notable minor characters, maybe like a marine, would would fit that? They really don’t need to be important just a misogynist dip.

Zoro swings by one of Sanji’s games to get him cus they need to go to a doctors appointment. And some guys on Sanji’s team notice him standing on the sides waiting for sanji and are like “is that Roronoa? Aren’t you friends with him, sanji?”

And sanji is like “uh yea something like that. He’s uh, he’s actually carrying my kid. That’s why he’s here, we have an appointment to go to”

And then his teammates hit him with some sexist bullshit like “damn really? Congrats on bedding that one. I always hated that guy, always wanted like some big bad alpha too good for his betters. I’d be careful tho, don’t let some bitch try to trap you with a kid”

Sanji instantly goes berserk on them and starts a fist fight (sort of. we know sanji doesn’t fight with his hands) to defend Zoro’s honor, and suddenly he’s getting jumped by like three dudes and Zoro and Luffy have to break up the fight.

So anyway, is there any characters that come to mind visa vi “shitty one note characters who are probably sexist dips that Sanji would get into a fist fight with.”

#one piece #one piece sound au #vinsmoke sanji #zosan #omegaverse #a/b/o #mpreg #I just really want a scene of zoro cleaning up a badly beaten sanji #and them talking about their relationship and how they both feel #sanji feeling embrassed because he realized he acted like a knothead #and zoro being like ‘don’t need you defend my honor jackass I know who I am and I don’t care what people will say’ #and sanji being like ‘I know. but you know I would have done it for any of our friends’ #‘would you have stood by if anyone talked about luffy like that?’ #and zoro is quiet for a moment and is like ‘no I suppose not’

[technovillain]

working on this banner of my best friends my favorite not real people on the not planet.

#if i clean this up and finish it it will be a big banner on my website. at the bottom of my homepage #i might add more characters but i'm not sure #in short it feels a little wrong that elsik isn't there. but you know. YOU KNOW. thats how its supposed to feel. #just as the writer who writes the flashbacks where he is relevant. yknow. #hiyoko honestly isnt that big a character but i dont care i love drawing her. plus she belongs w riu on here u gotta agree w me. #oc tag #another story comic

[adore-gregor]

my football team is so hopeless

#not dortmund lol i mean the club i play at myself #it makes me want to quit ngl #there are just so many things i'm fed up with #at times it's not fun anymore #i like playing football but there's just a lot wrong with this team #but i'm mostly just hanging around because i don't want to let my coach down like he cares and genuinly seems like a good coach #the only thing which gives me a bit of hope #and i hate letting people down 😅 that and also i hate giving up #but i have never seen a team more hopeless or felt more hopeless playing a sport 😅 #and he apparently thinks i'm kind of important to the team which i kind of get but also it doesn't really make a difference... #we're just so hopeless i can’t turn this around lol #i always start and i hope it continues but there's not much i can do #we just have too many people who don't care last match so many have given up #some of our team just refuse to run or move at some point it's awful #like why can't you try #we always loose so high like what's the point but still don't give up #besides that the endurance (and also sprint speed) of most is awful which could be trained to a point #but whenever the coach tries to do that almost no one shows up 💀 #and i usually play wing or outside midfielder but i'm supposed to also be a defender apparently what #whenever we get a goal on my side and i'm not back in defence someone moans at me like that's my fault #i get working back but i can’t be everywhere especially when some people don't move #and i actually try to get the ball foreward or try to get the ball back in the front because i don't give up when we're behind #i want to score goals and not settle with loosing and only sit back to do defence anymore #naturally there will be open spaces when i try to do that but how is giving up better even when it's hopeless we could still try scoring #and i can't be everywhere they should try my position they would never last 90min running like i do #besides i'm already exausted each week from my training before like i do sports 2-3 hours 6 or 7 days a week #unfortunately i have to because once again i'm trying some entrance exam (for sports to become a teach in sports and english hopefully) #asides from that i don't like most of the people at my club 😅 it feels a bit like highschool again and i didn't like highschool #so many are ignorant and judgemental #like the girl i told you about with her comment about the cleaning lady instead of wanting to clean up her stuff herself 🙄

[cuteniaarts]

Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way. #so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes

[davidtennantpussytulpa]

anybody wanna nominate themselves to kill me with hammers?

#somehow the week of spring break is my most incredibly busy week with work. KRILLS MYSELF!! #im on our colony care rotation. im doing my grant experiment that takes 3hrs a day. my TA prof wants me to grade a shitton of stuff. my PI #was like can you get an updated draft to me by wednesday? ^_^ gonna have to tell him no fucking way tomorrow #bc we are also having a fucking forensics meeting #i wanted to go on another bug catching trip with a friend on wednesday but idk if ill be able to now :( #and i wanted to have a wine and cheese night. no fucking way im gonna feel up to hosting that this week #i was supposed to have an appointment this last wednesday. lady cancelled last minute and said how about monday (tomorrow)? and i thought #that would be fine. but i just had to text and be like hey sorry dont think i can #im probably forgetting something too. who fucking knows. #i wanted to clean my room bc its looking like the fucking labyrinth trash lady zone in there but fuck me i dont have the energy to #oh edit from one minute later. just got an email from my prof abt an assignment he wants us to do over spring break in my horrid fucking R #coding class. yeah im killing myself 😁👍🏻

[running-in-the-dark]

I don't want to be someone who always just complains (about my body, my brain, my marriage, my family, everything) but I just. can't change the things that bother me. it doesn't get better because I can't make it better no matter how much I tell myself to, I just can't

#I CAN'T just convince myself to not be tired/fatigued at all times #I can't somehow make it so my brain and body are able to work a fucking full time job #I can't. I literally genuinely cannot do it #I can't live on my own I can't go somewhere else I can't have the life and friends and hobbies that I want #I. can't. #and it feels fucking horrible to say that. that's not how it's supposed to be! you're supposed to be motivated and positive and not give up #and believe you can do anything you want #but how. how? #the problems I have are what is stopping me from fixing them. I can't talk myself out of that #yeah if someone gave me a bunch of money or a house or all the support I need I would probably be better! I would be able to do things that #I'm not able to now! #but that's not how it is #no I can't do the laundry and cook and clean and keep the house nice and tidy. I can't even do that. I have no children - no 'excuse' to #stay home and not work #I'm not disabled. there's no illness or anything that would prove or justify that I really can't do it #I'm just broken in a million tiny ways that no one takes seriously at all. I'm just bad. #I should be fine. there is nothing wrong with me that anyone is able to find #so there is nothing wrong #I should just get over it and be strong and motivated and just fucking DO IT #even when it's hard #but it's not hard it's. impossible. #man im so tired

[wirtsauce4020]

Finally made it to The Scene™ and it's safe to say I am Not Normal about it

#I couldn't even be bothered to make this a clean drawing #I was way too excited #I think this scene Did Something To Me #I feel so ill about them #I can't be normal #how am I supposed to go to work after watching this #three years is such a long time if you think about it #maybe I'll clean this up tonight #krillin #kuririn #goku #son goku #dragon ball #dragon ball fanart #fanart #my art #wirt's sauces

[aroacesigma]

this is like . a genuine question because i really dont know . when it comes to teenage angst and all that , is it normal for your younger sibling to be physically incapable of going a single day without giving you a bitch face for asking them to help with the chore they just got told to help with (like . cleaning up the kitchen.) and then proceed to yell at you and make fun of you for asking more than once . like is this just the sort of thing that happens . every single day . because im not sure i can take this for another two years

#ramblings #just going to preface this by saying i am *fine* i promise #but i dont actually know how to explain how shitty she acts towards everyone in this family #and then she flips it around once you get pushed to breaking point and snap or yell #i dont know how much longer i can take from this because i jsut feel so intensely guilty #that i really want to just hurt myself . cause im the worst fucking brother int he world why am i making her upset this must be my fault #even if rationally i know its not #even if she isnt crying ! even if shes YELLING at me for asking her to do something that shes supposed to fucking do ! #i dont want to clean her fucking hair out of the drain its totally my right to ask her to do that right? #but then i feel AWFUL because she obviously doesnt want to and its my fault and really i deserve a lot of pain because of that #just going to reiterate that im fine i swear i just really needed to get this out somewhere sorry for the rambling #vent tw

[thelaughingmerman]

The worst part about all this medical shit I've been going through aside from how debilitating the resulting anxiety has been is I can't sing anymore. If it's not my throat being in pain because I forgot to take my medicine again it's my jaw hurting so bad I can't even talk let alone sing

#i would be more happy to jump up and clean house if i could sing along with my musical soundtracks again 😭 #i cannot state how bad the jaw pain has been and frankly #everything aside from the anxiety ive been feeling can apparently all be attributed to tmj #difficulty swallowing tinnitus dizziness eye strain if you can believe it #the human body is a goddamn disaster like bro i was supposed to be a dragonn #it makes it hard to eat too like if the anxiety or depression isnt keeping my belly empty #the jaw pain is because i cant chew and the docs like eat soft foods then #but bro my neurodovergent ass cant just #choose a soft food i have to be in the mood for something in particular or i wont eat #the only soft food i can thi k of is mashed potatos and. no. potatos are fine and like ill eat it if i really have to but. eh