#Genuinely fear for my life on this one

[mr-walkingrainbow]

That's not my only spongebob fic btw and if you think that one was bad you should read the existential Despicable Me one

I’m not even gonna ask….

#Genuinely fear for my life on this one #I am rePULSED #/j #Look I’m speaking Lavender! #its lavender!

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[oatbugs]

last night i got home kind of tipsy and very much in tears and my mother told me the force you exert to keep someone in your life is proportional to the force with which they will leave your life. if you have to fight tooth and claw to keep them, their leaving will be just as hard, just as harsh, and just as definite.

#she said it like a law. its just momentum. #also she told me to get a therapist and start archery ASAP bc i need to get it together #and also she said even granting that this person u were in love w was So Special . as in hot motorcycle-riding iranian masc lesbian in ldn #they arent the only one on earth and that once i start my proper adult life outside of studies etc etc i will probably no longer live in th #UK. she said most non straight iranians u would like have left the country anyway . where do you think they went? theyre out there #and also she asked me to imagine how many hot gay iranians there may be in italy or amsterdam or smth and i was like ok points 😭 maybe #ur right. anyway i was having a feeling of dread bc crying into the arms of ur strict asian mother while buzzed usually results in #death chaos destruction etc in the next few days but actually i think maybe she has genuinely changed as a person and the fear is #unwarranted #anyway i need to eat breakfast and study w the date person i met yesterday #they are so nice ??? genuinely so so sweet i dont feel attracted to them at all omg i genuinely think i have a thing for hot evil ppl 😭 #but we could b besties . theyre a lot more romantic than the ex situationship person too like generally . ugh they should be perfect but #alas it appears i am shallow as fuck or potentially a lesbian actually #OH THEY MIGHT ALSO BE POTENTIALLY A LESBIAN BTW #i think i just tend to not date cis ppl entirely by accident #....feel free to rb if u want btw sorry for the rant

[podcast-hemocytoblast]

By the time cars were invented, Jonah Magnus was already well into the body hopping game, which raises the question: has he ever actually learn to drive? Did this man sit through driver’s ed? Or has he just been getting out of legal repercussions for his shit driving by telling the cops everything he knows about their deepest darkest secrets every time he gets pulled over?

#the magnus archives #tma #jonah magnus #elias bouchard #tma spoilers #au in which real elias is alive in there because Jonah needs someone who can tell him what the road signs mean #poor man is forced to spend the rest of his days as a literal backseat driver for a pseudo-immortal douchebag #perish the thought #I’m sure someone has already asked this question by now but I can’t stop thinking about it #some people have pointed out that he would ride the tube which makes sense too. #btw this post is 100% inspired by how much I used to fear for my LIFE any time i was in a car while my grandpa was driving #genuinely terrifying experience grandpa stop it please quit turning your entire body around to talk to me while I’m sitting in the back sea #why are you driving with one foot for the pedal the other foot for the brake one hand on the steering wheel and NO EYES ON THE ROAD

[bacchuschucklefuck]

love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest

#not art #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit #kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it #until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it #until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her #but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs #she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying #probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone #lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear #Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!! #and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked #but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now #yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc #man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet #and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out #lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help #it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around #but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever #its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous #its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot #yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry #doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it #ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking

[rollforjackass]

i could KILL him for this. motherfucker's every interaction with children has him being, if not nice, then at minimum kind and forgiving and genuinely invested in their wellbeing.

he asks crying kids what's the matter, he's afraid to hold a baby because he's worried he'll drop it, he goes after people who are mean to kids without a second thought. his whole mentorship with timothy hunter is him trying to do right by that kid no matter how he feels about it at the time. man would be the most loving dad in the world but because of his own awful goddamn father and the ways he thinks he takes after thomas, he doesn't think that's true. i hate.

#this panel made me SPITTING mad for real he breaks my heart #the way his father fucked up his whole mindset and self-image is something that makes me so violent #me rattling the bars of my cage yelling about how the family man arc was a vessel for conveying constantine's fears about his father #how it made him feel responsible for his father's murder after his dad had called him the killer of his mother his whole life #then made him a literal killer which turned that childhood nickname into a self-fulfilling prophecy & his dad into an unintended oracle #how constantine has always been afraid of becoming his father and yet that's exactly who he had to emulate to survive the world of magic #and then vertigo gave him the fucking rosacarnis arc which made him unwillingly a dad and his kids killers. i'm unwell #i NEED john constantine to know how good a person he really is and how loved any kid of his would be #the one thing new 52 did right for him was making him genuinely loving and caring towards rose #instead of making him pawn her off on everyone around him. which i fear a lot of writers would make him do these days #i NEED him to know he's better than who raised him #they say mary anne constantine would have been a good mother if she'd lived and i think there's a lot of her left in her son #not that he'd ever believe it #hellblazer #john constantine #i'm very emotional about him right now #oxly hollers

[forestofsprites]

sometimes, life is truly dreadful. just really, really awful! but then there are FRIENDS, and STORIES, and with them, the suggestion that perhaps the bleak may not be so daunting, nor so lonely, as previously thought!!

#you'll have to bear w me on this one it's bordering cheesy I know #i'm in quite the predicament health wise and running on very very limited sleep #but the ethos is there #life can be sooo super awful ! just not great stuff ! and then there are FRIENDS #and STORIES #and NATURE #and it doesn't assuage All Of This #but in the absolute horrors and fears of life's varying predicaments- there is no comfort like it #the past week I've just been wrapping myself up in stories and fiction and the well wishes of my friends #I am BARELY staying out of hospital atm so things will genuinely get a bit quiet here while I simply . well yknow #live and such #love u all #wishing us delightful spring days #3 #<3 #thoughts

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Wait, but what is it about wally in the human au that makes him so weird?? Is it just an ableism thing or does he have like strange habits/interests

mmmm it's a bit of both kinda? more so the latter honestly! i mean by social norms & standards he's already a quirky guy, and i think he'd have a plethora of 'odd' mannerisms & habits on top of that. so yes, he's genuinely strange, but it's up to others to view/treat that as a negative or a positive or a neutral yk yk

#personally im standing off to the side sighing wistfully #wishing i could live my life so unbothered by how the world views me. oh to live your most genuine self without fear or compromise.... #like for example i gotta stick with the apple theme. he fucking Loves those things. he'll talk for hours about them #like in his & barn's kitchen there is an Apple Basket for him to gaze upon or pick out an apple to admire or paint #and he gets distressed whenever he views someone eating an apple or cutting one up cause to him they're Not Food & he loves them yk? #and of course there's the intense unbreaking eye contact with literally everyone #unless he's explicitly asked 'dont look me in the eye' he Will Stare Into Your Soul #and if asked he'll Remember & will literally never make eye contact with that person again. he'd rather close his eyes completely #& in this au he's still Constantly Smiling & honestly is very hard to ruffle to the point of it being slightly unnerving #he goes through a haunted house with his friends and has them all cowering behind him as he strolls through casual as anything #rambles from the bog #wh modern human au #i could go on! he's just... yk! he's Him! without compromise! he takes norms & expectations and crumples them up! #he looks at them and says 'wow! this is worthless!' #and keeps doing his own thing

[dennisboobs]

Dennis says the L word

#i definitely didnt have this kicking around on my hard drive #iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #dennis reynolds #the genuine ones being within his daydream where he has been forcibly desexualized by losing use of his dick & actually falling in love #in mac's fantasy where he fucking dies and dennis was too late to say it #forced out of necessity by dennis' fear of abandonment by dee #spoken when he believes theyre in a life or death situation and hoping to connect with dee at the very end #telling his wife that he does not love her while looking to mac and then reaffirming this saying he's NEVER loved her #and of course while absolutely shitfaced and upset at the loss of his childhood stuffed elephant (and dee's betrayal) #ill be real. the second i heard him say a bunch of shit about feelings & how he loved the monkey in 15x4 i had to check to see who wrote it #it had been SO long................ like of course glenn is the one to bring it back. ok. #more of den saying he loves things plz #ada speaks #ada's videos #if you guys can think of any other times he's said it pleasssseeee let me know lol i tried #update: i added in a few more #left out the ones in 7x01 w him talking about loving no restrictions bc i wanted this to be abt him expressing Love to sentient beings #loving crack and loving a person are two different L words jskhbshn

[moonlitswimmingpooltv]

PHIL????????

mum pick me up, i’m scared

#i can’t believe PHILIP MICHAEL LESTER was the one to acknowledge that post in the year 2023 #i’m genuinely fearing for my life #dan and phil #phil lester #amazingphil #phil tweet

[vulturevanity]

I feel like SV girlies haven't seriously considered "codependent mutually obsessive JuliNemo" yet and that's a shame, really. I've seen a lot of wholesome ChampionRank (really cute but a rehash of every wholesome yuri I've ever seen, not much original content here and that's okay) and one-sided obsessive yandere!Nemona ChampionRank (REALLY do not like the villainization of Nemona's neurodivergence but eh, you can do whatever you want forever) but not as much "these two get on like a house on fire. and boy, it's dry season" ChampionRank.

Where is "battle-hungry socially starved trainwrecks who have no one but each other" JuliNemo. Where is "oh god these two exacerbate each others issues into the stratosphere and this can only end in disaster but I can't look away" JuliNemo. Where is "bringing out the worst in each other and scaring the hoes" JuliNemo. Where is "you two are perfect for each other. Never change, just never involve anyone else in any of this" JuliNemo. There's so much potential here. Toxic codependent yuri save me

#pokémon #pokemon sv #championrankshipping #julinemo #babbles #my juliana is such a mess #she does not make friends easily and can't keep relationships for long at all #whenever someone enters her life she aants to make the best impression so she lovebombs them incessantly #and that either comes across as too much too fast or causes people to get too attached. #but she's young. she is very young. and the people who bothered to match her energy had ulterior motives #so now she's too afraid of getting too close to someone #she'll act the part but never show her true self #and at the slightest hint of genuine connection she'll RUN. #this of course clashes horribly with Nemona's own overbearing personality and loneliness #you know how she wants you to be her ideal rival. and you end up becoming exactly that. #yeah to my Juliana this was kind of a nightmare because. as much as this toed her boundaries #she isn't so inept as to not recognize a bit of herself in Nemona. so she decided to ride this out and appease her #and UH OH! she got attached. fear and need for control and validation from feeling wanted mixed in her head #and she started matching Nemona's energy and the two jumped into dating too fast and oops. they're codependent now #they literally can't handle being away from each other for more than two days or they start going feral #i wish i had the energy to write this one because i'm fascinated by this horrible dynamic. i want to study them in a rat maze #edit: i feel like i should clarify that this interpretation relies on Florian existing and being the one to help Penny and Arven #Florian isn't without his issues. he's a huge people pleaser too. but he's more of a doormat who can't say no

[toxooz]

been having wisdom tooth pain since saturday thats only getting worse and u kno what i understand him now i dont condone his actions but man,,,,i get it 💀

#priscus #he severely abused ponti bc he had hundreds of teeth growing in wrong in at least 15-20 parts of his body so its not Actually his fault uw #this is a fukkin joke btw in case some fuck takes to my ask box lmfao #GODDDD IT HIURTS #my appointment just to get referred to get them removed is in a week bruh idk if i can last that long genuinely #this aint even bad timing at this point this is straight up malicious this body wants me dead i tell u dead #its starting to fuck up literally half of my teeth like what is the long term damage going to be maNNNN #dont even get me started on the wisdom tooth removal surgery in and of itself like #my whole life i fear this bc i would quite literally rather die than be a blithering swollen faced idiot spouting god only knows what to my #loved ones fuck fuck ufuukckccc #remember kids this is what they mean when they say procrastination will ruin ur life take it from me a pro procrastinator

[confluencechimera]

I think a lot abt Optimus' dynamic w the Malto kiddos, both human and Terran, from the little glimpses we get, but especially in the later episodes of Season 1

Like, I think the way he tries to protect them best he can stems from that line he has about how "I didn't have other Primes to guide me", and how he promises then he'll be there for them, cause he probably sees a bit of his younger self in them. He knows while he can't prevent what's in store for them and their destiny because of being chosen by Quintus, he can like... negate some of the suffering and lost feelings he might've had to go through. At least, as much as he can while working around GHOST

This was brought on by I thought too hard about that frame at the end of the finale when he looks up at the tower and smiles like a proud dad waaahh

I really hope they get more time together in Season 2, I need to see him trying to learn how to Vibe with The Youths through Alex

#i wonder if people take the ''i fear ghost would sieze the terrans for their own use'' line has him saying > #he wants to see what *he* can use them for. its that he wants to protect them but he's aware of the risks involved #i've seen cold takes about OP + the Terrans not getting along that is clearly contradicted by their worry in the finale for him #its more like GHOST is such a looming presence in OP's life unlike some of the other Cybertronians that > #i don't think he has as easy of a time stepping away and making meaningful connections with them #see how he inquires about them thru Bee in eps9/10 #i genuinely think he would love to be apart of their lives in a larger capacity. he is so gentle and hopeful with the new trio > #when they spawn in. its just that his other duties prevent it. wough < getting emotional abt my blorbo at work #aven.text #transformers #optimus prime #transformers earthspark #hi. im a tfes optimus enjoyer. hes one if if not my absolute favorite fictional character

[cerise-on-top]

hey! i am once again requesting because i genuinely love your writing. is it cool if you write skittles with an s/o who has severe anxiety and often gets anxiety attacks? i completely understand if not! -💾

Hey there! Thank you, that's very kind of you! I hope I was able to do this request justice as well! I'm not really sure Skittles would know how to deal with someone like that in the best way possible, but he tries!

Skittles with an S/O with Severe Anxiety

He knows Nevada is a place where just about anything and everyone tries to kill you, but he never let that get to him. Still, he can see why you’d be anxious all the time about just about anything there is. Skittles is a rather relaxed kind of grunt, so he could usually be your voice of reason when your anxiety is telling you something bad again. Sure, things usually are bad in Nevada, but it helps to hear that not everything is going to be the worst case scenario. Sometimes you need a different outlook in life, and Skittles certainly has that. He’s well aware you always worry about him getting killed, or worse, but he can assure you that he’ll always come back to you. He has died a few times indeed, but he’s been brought back to life every time, so he sort of just assumes everything is going to be alright. If you’re too anxious about something, then he can do it either for you or with you, it really depends on what it is you need to do. If you ever pass out from fear, then he’ll stay by your side until you wake up again, draping a blanket over you so you don’t get cold. He doesn’t really know what to do with you, in all honesty, since grunts usually aren’t as severely anxious in Nevada, but he’ll stay by your side until you feel better. It’s the thought that counts. Even if you tell him to fuck off, chances are he’ll stay with you to make sure nothing even worse happens. You being irritated doesn’t bother him, he’s used to being insulted and around grunts who want him dead. However, as mentioned before, he will try to be your voice of reason. Sure, his views of the world aren’t as realistic either since he’s ever the optimist, but sometimes it’s just nice to hear someone’s voice. If you’re slowly starting to hyperventilate he’ll try to talk you out of it by telling you a story or two in order to distract you. It doesn’t eliminate the problem, he knows that, but if he can get your mind off of what’s bothering you for a second he can deal with the problem more easily.

Once he sees you freeze up entirely for a prolonged amount of time before storming off to somewhere where no one will see you, he knows something more severe than the usual is up. It’s during those few times, when he sees you act strangely, that his smile fades as well as he’s just that concerned. Skittles will give you a few moments by yourself before he ditches whoever he was with at the moment and seeks you out. Once he finds you, he’ll get you to a calm and quiet place where the both of you are alone. Skittles will ask you what’s wrong. He won’t judge you, even if you don’t know why you suddenly got an anxiety attack, all he knows is that you need help. He rarely ever sees anyone cry, so seeing you do such really does break his heart. Again, he’ll try to calm you down by calmly talking to you. Might put a hand on your back, but won’t repeat doing such if you flinch away from him. He’ll let you talk about whatever it is you need to get off your chest, or, if you can’t speak, then he’ll tell you about the butterflies he saw near a flower field and promises you to take you there someday. He’s well aware that you likely just need someone with you at that moment, even if he doesn’t know what to do. He hopes that him staying with you, distracting you, would be enough. However, he will shoo away any new grunts that might come along. This would be one of the few times where he might be rougher with them as well so they’ll go away. He won’t raise his voice, but he’ll make it known that you and him need to be alone right now. Will do anything to keep your mind off of what’s bothering you and get you away from any and all triggers you had in that moment. Since this seems to be a persistent problem for you, he’ll encourage you to seek out a medical professional. He knows someone, even if he might not be sure that person is actually a doctor, who might be able to help you. Since he can imagine living with anxiety all the time being very rough, he would not be opposed to having you be medicated for it. Will even go to all of your appointments with you if you need it.

#madness combat #madness combat x reader #madness combat skittles #skittles x reader #I think I've had exactly two anxiety attacks in my life so I got lucky on that one #it happened twice when I looked someone in the eyes #I just froze up and thought I was going to die from fear. the first time I cried as well. but it never happened again afterwards #I'm not sure I did this request justice since I'm not nearly as anxious in life anymore as I used to be #I used to be anxious about everything all the time but I've since calmed down ever since I got older #I've got other issues now. anxiety too from time to time but that's usually only when coupled with my delusions #I think I once almost passed out at school from anxiety though. but that was because of my delusions. not fun in the slightest #anyway I take some good meds now that really do help me a lot. I've been doing a lot better since and am a lot happier now too #it's genuinely an incredible little med: it lifts my mood makes me less anxious and treats some of my symptoms as well. #it helps me sleep too! so it's really good!

[emcads]

I’m not sure how exactly to phrase this but let yourself be genuine about your interests. not everything has to be ironic you can be cringe fail and wholeheartedly obsessed with something and it’s a lot more charming than the sardonic false coolness. we are all here for a short time and a good time and liking weird stuff with other weird people is one of life’s rare pleasures.

#someone sent me a podcast where the guy had gone to a dark shadows convention and he spent the whole time being like #‘’oh this is weird *I’M* the weird one I’m at a convention’’ #bro it’s fine. it’s literally fine #I can’t imagine living my life in fear of being perceived as weird I love dressing up like a 50’s woman I love pirates and ren faires #life can be so delightful and colorful if you let it and contrary to that voice of self doubt in your head #it brings delight to other people to see people dressed as I often am #(like a weirdo) #joy is infectious. genuine love and enjoyment is infectious. trust me!! #ooc. ( ࿐ྂ ) lesjibbities dangereuses.

[dreamyeyedrose]

Midnight Sky Blues

sometimes, instead of a person, instead of a being made of flesh and viscera, I feel like a speck of a speck gazing outwards like my entire tiny existence is behind the glass dome of a planetarium.

I hop up on the observation floor and peer out note down all that I can see with my 'scope sometimes it's a telescope, sometimes a microscope sometimes I can't tell the difference.

I observe all that goes on out there and then I hop off the scope, and I pace. and I ponder. and I think and I postulate but mostly I just....gaze up and out.

sometimes the glass above me might as well not exist, because sometimes I see great burning balls of fire and I worry about the flames raining down here other times I peer at a planet and see a lush green and dinosaur party favors, a kind of bliss I've only ever been able to see from here. and I'm viscerally aware that the glass works in the most spitefully impartial way.

sometimes I want to smash the glass above me break out of this scientific cave of misery float up to those planets I see and join in...

but stubborn and cold logic pipes up points out the risk of falling glass, how shortsighted and bloody it could all end up, and even if I break the glass I have no plan to rise through the stratosphere nor any plan to survive the vacuum of space

and on and on it goes, long after I've already dropped the subject.

even when I send communications out they're as polite as can be. I'm aware that telegrams and Morse code work best when the messages are short I still find myself sidestepping any desperate language even if it is the shortest.

I don't want anyone to worry too much. I'm safe behind this glass I reside behind. I'm bored and I'm lonely and I want to fly but I never tap out any messages asking for help, only pictures and descriptions of what they see of me.

#ravi rants #my oc #my writing #poetry #writers of tumblr #this is a poem about overthinking and anxiety lol #things are going really really well #maybe even finally going right #and yet all I can do is sit here and think about all the times I've hoped for things to go right. #I know that this time is genuinely different. there's no one in my life that would lie to me or purposely not tell me things #regardless of any excuse of fear or simply that if I knew the truth I wouldn't do what they want me to do. #I'm aware of all of the facts and differences. I'm aware of all the specifics of how this is actually genuinely different. #and about how I'm not the same bitch that those assholes left to die. #I know all of these things. my OCD has gone over all of the everything enough times. #and none of my planned actions are going to change. #.....even still #I sit behind my glass dome and panic about the sky falling.