#BUT I JUST WANT SOME GOOD FUCKING FOOD

[hibiscuslynx]

*holds your face in my hands* if you're going to write it, ill write it with you

as someone from massachusetts myself i thought there would be way more ny/mass in this fandom considering i was raised to give someone walking around Boston in a Yankees cap a death stare but also going on vacation there and loving the people and the sights

i WILL draw them and i WILL help you write them (i would write a fic on my own but i cannot finish anything i write on my own kalsjfd)

-yeti <3

good to know the massachusettans themselves cry for more ny/mass. i, a *cough* humble californian *cough*, will do my best🫡 (if i do even attempt to write).

if only i was into baseball. then i could really write their dynamic. alas all i know is hockey and the rags/bruins rivalry isnt as big as the yankees/red sox rivalry but its something . appreciate ur willingness to help i will let u know if i need help . or i might just post abt it. who knows!

#my only thing is i enjoy a specific ny/mass dynamic. but oh well #its 9pm im feeling a little crazy #one more gatorade i might just start showing my ass (metaphorically) on here. #i used to be really %*@&@*%&*&(=;-)=(/;; about talking abt wttt shipping #BUT I JUST WANT SOME GOOD FUCKING FOOD #the 1 time in my life i want ny/mass instead of ny/nj and i cant even have it smh my head #♥️♠️ smeared ny/mass. who said that #<- guy whos knowledge abt [redacted] has only been obtained via osmosis and the wiki

[naamahdarling]

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#my psych who prescribes my psych meds is a resident and is moving on in a couple of months #i don't even remember the names of them all at this point #this happens over and over and I cannot find a clinic that will put me with someone who intends to stay #thst will also prescribe my adhd meds #and my anxiety meds #and the real kicker is that twice now they have LIED about it and said they would #only to reveal after all the hoop-jumping that oops sorry they didn't really mean it #so it's a risk i have to take any time i leave #and rhen there's the issue of new people almost always wanting to DO something #but instead of talking to me about it they just decide that my meds need overhauling and pressure me to go off shit that works #but that they morally object to i guess #and my psych for some stupid reason has decided she wants bloodwork for my cholesterol and blood sugar stuff and im just like #what hell does THIS presage because if she harasses me about the results or tries to put me on drugs for that #I'll give her a nasty scrap about it #im not interested in those meds at all #and im certainly not messing with my diet since food is the only pleasure i get most days and even that is marginal at best #and removing that would just make me worse #but medpros for the most part really don't give a fuck about that #and so now im afraid - because i do not and cannot trust them - that if i disapprove of the meds they will retaliate somehow #which good luck proving that when management and oversight often don't even care if they course of treatment will HARM you #if it relates to being fat or having bad numbers #they just gotta pathologize! #so yeah im sick of everything and just kind of want to bury myself in a bog forever #i shouldn't have to deal with this

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

the father [solar lunacy] the son [you move to dayshift but aren't paid any more, go figure] and the holy spirit [i see you, sundrop!]

#random thoughts #fnaf #solar lunacy because it's what people think of when they think about iconic sun and moon fics (and for good reason) #(bamsara is a master at subtext and creating little scenes that all build up to a beautiful picture) #dayshift go figure because god. the corporate bullshit. the domestic bullshit. THE VIRUS BULLSHIT. #and also because it features my all-time favorite original character (drumroll please) #dundundundundun RILEY GREENE OF I SEE YOU SUNDROP FAME #god what didn't i see you sundrop do right. the characterization. the slow build up of dread throughout the entire fic. riley greene. #IT IS 106 CHAPTERS NOT INCLUDING A POSSIBLE FUTURE EPILOGUE #god sorry to the other two fics on my list but reading i see you sundrop broke my brain a little #the scenes with riley's mother. THE SCENES WITH RILEY'S MOTHER OH MY GOD #you can tell a fic is good when it gets you to give a shit about an oc that hard #their CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT??? WHICH IN TURN FED DIRECTLY INTO WILLIAM AFTON'S DEMISE????? #I AM DEAD. I AM DECEASED. #im rereading solar lunacy rn if you can't tell lol i went on a spree #fucking love the concept of sun not being completely isolated from moon and his illness god fuck #solar lunacy 🤝 i see you sundrop: we're gonna have some wild fucking takes on moon's illness in relation to sun #me: oh god thank god some good fucking food #and OBIWAN??? OF DAYSHIFT GO FIGURE FAME??? #best oc side character i think. i want to see him and sun just go at it for an hour shooting the shit #don't really have much else to say on dayshift go figure right now cuz its on SUCH a cliffhanger #that's kind of taking over my mind rn idkwettl #i could go on for hours about i see you sundrop though. that fic grabbed me by the throat and threw me down the stairs #binged that shit in two days #sun mentions having a crush on riley once and it's never mentioned again and that kind of fucks actually #the other two are romance fic and they're REALLY GOOD AT IT OH MY GOD #solar lunacy. just in general. makes me blush so hard it's not funny #OH SPEAKING OF BLUSHING #THE MC IN DAYSHIFT GO FIGURE KEEPS GETTING FLUSTERED IT'S SO CUTE #dayshift go figure is more of a typical 'i am in love and refuse to acknowledge it' fic it's so adorable

[ksrlvr]

IM SO FUCKING DESPERATE FOR SOME GOOD SHIU FANFICS/ART I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE. WHERE IS THE FOOD???? I don’t even have the patience to draw any more but I may have to pick up a pencil again. I fear I may have to force myself to learn to edit. IM SICK OF BEGGING ON MY HANDS AND KNEES FOR CRUMBS PLEASE. 😭😭😭

#wHY DO PEOPLE NOT APPRECIATE THIS MAN MORE #im gna have to be so fucking real guys�� #im ngl im sick of seeing shiu x toji x reader MAN FUCK TOJI I WANT SHIU #PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE #I just need some good food :( #I genuinely can’t stop thinking about him #I promise I haven’t forgotten about my babygirl gojo TRUST hes still my pookie wookie #anyway back to what I was saying #SHIU UGHHRHREHWVAHSN #on my hands and knees #sobbing rn #jjk shiu #jjk x you #jjk smut #jjk x reader #jjk #jjk season 2 #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu shiu #shiu x reader #shiu kong #jjk toji #jjk gojo

[vampiricsheep]

so since I may be free this summer after all, would anyone be interested in an RP event that's a potluck? I've been wanting to do it for ages but there's never any interest compared to other themes

for a discord rp, I would make a separate server explicitly for this purpose so you don't have to be in any guilds or anything! I would also delete the server (or at least channel, if people would like an event-planning server long-term) after a week - enough time for people to read over their stuff but not preserved forever and ever.

#actually remembering to make this a week-long poll this time! #if you've never heard the term before: a potluck is an event where everyone brings a food they've made to share in a communal feast! #there is no skill floor for this - if you (your character in this case) only knows a simple cornbread recipe they follow by the book that's #-just as welcome as an elaborate roast #and I know people have brought things they bought instead of cooked (like a bakery pie) #the point isn't to show off your cooking skills as much as it is to come together as a community and share :) #its historical origins were a little more complex in function than that but I'm going with what I was raised with #but yeah. it's a theme I've wanted to do a while because it's so community #I AM upset that I won't be busy this summer (rejected from every internship I applied to and can't apply to ones that require a- #-drivers license which is uhh MOST OF THEM! #but my psych was saying it's probably good for me to have some rest and recovery time after this hell semeste #(it wasn't hell but two of my classes have really been fucking with my head) #I DID get to try out darting guns last week in my wildlife sampling/id classes though and I hit the target dead center both times! #and that was fun. but the writing assignments from those other classes are incomprehensible in rubric #OH RIGHT MY TAGS #gw2 open RP night #gw2 rp

[torosdottir]

wish someone would hurry up and come up with a quick and easy definition of the word "love" and solve so many of my problems

#i feel like i love so many people but i struggle BAD to express it bc. i dont know what that means to them #it feels often like people take it to mean some deeper thing that i never mean at the same time they do #maybe i am simple in many definitions of the word. ive had entire fallings-out with people about it. #people say love is hard love is work people will say they can love someone but not even like them at times #i dont understand it. it leads me to believe i am lacking in this mystical 'love' they describe #but i feel full of love. #i AM simple i feel like i love people the way i love music and food and drink and. idk colours and warmth and. simple things!! #i think it means when something makes you happy!! when you enjoy it when u want it around! #but many people equate it with. things that i would describe differently. #whjatever i just want to tell a million people i love them but i want them to know what i mean. #i mean sure i care for u sure i dont want anything bad to happen to u but i feel that way about almost every human! #what i really mean is u bring me joy and i ENJOY being around u its not hard it doesnt make me feel bad or guilty its good!!! #anyway whatever anthony green just wants me to set myself alight on a fucking pyre. friends in my phone i love u..

[hella1975]

so it turns out it was actually never that serious

#the exam literally went fine what the fuck just happened i feel like i just hallucinated that #like im not one of those people that go 'omg i did soooo badly :(' just to come out with top grades if i say it's going to shit #then it's becuase i genuinely wholeheartedly believe it #and my headspace before this exam was the worst it's been in MONTHS like i havent felt that bad for an exam since first year #and i sat down opened the paper and. remembered everything. like i literally just Knew the answers #im not saying ive passed bc am i fuck about to jinx it and i was still riding mainly blind bc i have NO idea where that knowledge came from #but at the very least there was a 35 marker that i KNOW i aced like i could picture the exact lecture slides it wanted me to discuss #and i had all of them memorised so at the very least ive got like. 30 marks. which is enough for me to pass the module #bc this exam is only weighted 75% and with my marks from the other 25% i only needed like 20 marks to pass this exam #which... makes it even more embarrassing that i failed it the first time but whatever!!!! #oh my god im so glad that's done im so happy IM FREE #just been in the kitchen dancing around to my little tunes and texting my friends <3 #im meeting up with one of them when she gets off work at 5 and we're going for drinks #so ive got until then to nap and chill and then ill go to the shop and get us some food and wine #and she's gonna come here for a bit & then we'll go. like actually look at me. im having people over at MY HOUSE im going out to buy us WIN #im literally a functioning adult living independently who IS she a misty memory #alas i do only have £23 in my account so this is gonna be such a slay seeing how i make that stretch for a night out #i acc could budget for england when it comes to alcohol i think like the way i manage to have a good funky time with MINIMAL funds #is downright impressive. it's a skill idc what you say #hella goes to uni

[love-has-a-way-ofgrowingbackward]

everytime i take a tiny triangle out of the cake i made my brother comes in and cuts off a trapezium, making the cut a single clean line. it would be vaguely funny but like i made the thing and like could he not eat it all without leaving some for me

#rant #i guess #it really fucking annoys me how i have to cut off my share in everything that comes in this house ever #like always stay on alert for your food and stash away your share or its gonna be gone by morning #i dont even know why its making me frustrated enough to cry #its just. nice good food has always been a treat and motivator for me and my brother has a habit of always grabbing my share too #it sounds so silly out of context but like. ive had a lifetime of going through a bad tiring day with nothing to look forward to but #a nap and something i like to eat. and always opening the fridge to an empty container #or worse the box is there but then i get in bed with a book and open the damn thing to find half a spoonful inside. #it would be annoying once or twice but its just. all the fucking time. #i hate this survivalistic shit #its not long before i move out thank god but still #he always did it when i was young and my mom hardly ever said anything #like now if i want i can get myself some treats but when i was younger i didnt have much choice. #i havent had the time to bake in two years and prep plus baking the layer cake took two days. i put so much work in it. #and he ate half of it by the time i came back from fucking peeing. i cant even say anything because he gets fucking angry and aggressive #at the drop of a hat so im. crying in my room about it. look my feelings are not as drownable and consuming now. i generally dont #let things like that affect me too much. but i feel so young again and like the entire world is so unfair. i don't know #writing my feelings out on a tumblr blog is so much better than journalling they should recommend this shit in therapy

[natsarrownecklacx]

Noooo because Im sorry now but it’s literally 2024 and I think some men need to be reminded of that because in the last week alone the amount of times I’ve had to deal with men treating me like I’m literally just some stupid little girl or just not rly like an actual human or that I don’t have an actual brain in my head and literally just OH MY GODDDDDDDDD

#I am actually in a fit of rang #I am so fucking tired of thisssssss #some man literally walked up to me in work and was like “be a good little woman and do this for me #not even five minutes later some other man strolled over and was like “be a good girl and get me #like sorry sir I am literally 19 are your like 50 get that smirk off your face #disgusting behaviour #also ordered food and the delivery man was STARING AT MY CHEST #like babes I just want my pizza and I’m literally in a big as spider man T-shirt can you not #also got the biggest load of abuse off my brother because I asked him to pause his game and go to the door because our parents aren’t here #so #slay #sorry for the novel of a rant

[unexpectedbrickattack]

peep peep 🐁..

#chattin #waitin to be picked up from my aunts house #dogsitting while she was on a trip w my mom and sister #so im going to sit here and chat about some stuff #SFW this time im going to behave ! #thinking of ph #i like writing him as a fucked up lil guy…. #got obsessed; mistook possessive behavior for love oopsie ! #i think he would be REALLY hurt postgame #he was doing a GOOD job! he was trying to help peppino get rid of his shoddy shop!!! #bc owning a business is sooooo taxing and why do that when u can just work for someone and get paid good money ! #and no one has ever like. so blatantly and ANGRILY said NO to him before :( he is experiencing failure AND rejection for the first time #sucks ass #but i want him to be happy so like. eventually he has to deal w that failure #and he sees peppino like. still running a shop. but hes not angry like when they first met hes like #vibin! #hes in the back making food and occassionally he takes front and deals w customers and theyre weird but bearable #people TRAVEL to this little shop at the edge of the forest! #and he doesnt get it its like the food comes out slow and the tvs arent loud enough to hear anything and the prices are higher- #-than ANY fast food joint and yet people still come by…he has REGULARS…how… #hes so inefficient…and yet…. #peppino is really angry and dismissive of ph at first; he does NOT want to see his ugly mug and hes tempted to chase him out #but gus is levelheaded (like always peppino notes) and hes like its not worth it ; hes harmless #and over time that anger simmers out into being JUST dismissive and grumpy #but he tolerates him and eventually tolerates his questions #and peppino is like. u know thats why i was so damn pissed at u. thinking there was nothing this owning shit #this shit takes time so i price it that way. u gotta talk to customers like People not Money Giving Machines #like yeah peppino doesnt have the BEST temperment but he most people are just there for Pizza #and some of them are friendly! its tiring but he likes making food and dealing w people #he will not say it but he puts love into this business; this shop is his baby! and ph didnt really get that

[innytoes]

🐝: You Should See Me in a Crown

You Should See Me in a Crown

Even though her life sounded like some kind of fucked up fairy tale - father died, wicked stepmother, cruel stepsiblings and all, Carrie didn't need talking mice or a fairy godmother. Carrie Wilson was going to that ball, she was going to dazzle, and she was going to network her way out of her current, shitty situation. Between her fashion designs, her singing voice, her smarts, and her dance moves, she wasn't going home without a job offer. Preferably in a nice kingdom far, far away.

She hadn't meant to actually fall for the prince. And she certainly hadn't meant for him to fall in love with her, either.

#julie and the phantoms #fake fic #carriexreggie #I'm just picturing Reggie hiding behind a giant potted plant or something to scarf down some finger food in peace #and he hears Carrie networking and/or absolutely tearing someone to shreds and he's like: her I wanna get to know her #fairytale au #I am not writing a thing #I wrote a thing #carrie like: fuck fairytales. ... except this one time because damn I look good in a crown and this himbo wants to hear my policy ideas

[hopefulqueer]

BIG gummy worm for baby Bean

#tarantula #caribena versicolor #spiders #dead bugs #her colors look so fucking pretty rn these dont even do her justice #she took this prey so lazily also flskjdfhj just kinda felt it for a minute before slowly striking #im p sure it's the biggest food she's ever been offered #it was just slightly bigger than i rly wanted to feed her but u cant be super picky with 75% off hornworms #there was a tiny one in there as well which i'd love to give sprout. IF she would stop hiding #but anyway she honestly hasnt eaten as much as i'd have liked since her molt #and hornworms are of course super high in moisture #so that's rly good for her #i'm hoping she's having a lovely little spider time enjoying her feast #in a couple days when she's not hungry and also done eating i might try handling her #we'll see #baby: bean #ALSO she's finally started webbing up a good convenient cave for herself in the top corner :`) #so much easier to get food to than her previous hide near the bottom between some leaves

[anaalnathrakhs]

i keep looking at posts like "i stopped a binge" "i prevented a binge" and all of them are like. "i waited until the urge went away". buddy. the urge doesn't go away. there's no urge. there's just nothing else to do. i don't have anything else to do. every time i stop eating no matter how long i sit with the feeling or not, i always go for more food because there is genuinely nothing else in my life. nothing is enjoyable anymore. the world sucks. no matter what i force myself to do it's the only positive thing i can ever find.

#like okay cool i let the people around me guilt me into eating whatever they think i should be eating #i get it. i'm so fucking stupid for missing out opportunities to try new food. i should never buy the same food twice. #i should always buy all the variety i can and try everything. #i'm so stupid for having eaten the same stuff in a loop for years and years #i'm a massive fucking weirdo for not eating when other people are eating #i keep stealing food from my parents and the people around me i keep taking way too much of stuff intended for a group #nowhere i go will be free of obligations #i have to keep buying my own poison because everywhere i go there's other people's food waiting for me anyway #my parents keep looking at me like a freak no matter if i eat dinner with them or not #they see me binge and nothing happens #we just ignore it #i just eat until Designated Eating Time is finished #hunger doesnt ever have anything to do with it i just eat when food's in front of me #i need the ritual i need the structure it brings to my life #both meals with other people and my ritual binges #i dont know what to do with myself when i'm not binging #and it's like i'm not allowed to not want food #to other people #it's like i must necessarily want all food and anytime i refuse it's restriction #my friends are always like ooooh you can grab some of my fries if you want #or oooooh do you want the rest of my cookie #or ooooooh and how about you are you ordering something #and i'm like :) yeah sure :) like anybody else would :) #and to myself. to myself i don't know. i think i just want to give up. i want to suffer and i want to fuck up so badly. #so badly that no one can deny i need help #i want to be proven right. i'm just a little weakling and all i'm good for is to haunt the halls of a mental hospital. #no responsabilities no pressure nothing but a pitiable suffering victim #i want somebody or something to swoop in and save me #but nobody will come. it's my job to ask for reasonable help from the relevant authorities. and currently they can't offer that care. #so fuck me i guess

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

i’m so frustrated with people’s lack of common sense about wildlife. if you’re interacting with wildlife, you’re not having your disney princess moment. you’re not forming a magical bond. that’s a wild animal who is potentially terrified; maybe it’s curious if it’s young enough, but that just means you should minimise interactions as much as possible to make sure that animal lives a normal life. if your kid comes in holding a wild animal, don’t pick up your fucking phone to videotape it. bring the animal back outside and educate your kid to leave animals alone. you know what happens when you take in wildlife as a “pet”? either you keep it and do damage because even though it’s “tame” it’s a wild animal who is in no way meant to live in that setting unless it’s being kept by a trained and licensed rehabber who knows the housing and feeding requirements (and even then i’ve seen some who are keeping animals irresponsibility), or it ends up at a wildlife rehab when you inevitably harm it enough that you don’t know what to do, or when no vets see you, or when the animal becomes too aggressive for you to handle. and then we either figure out how to rehabilitate an animal whose temperament and/or body you have massively damaged or we euthanise it because the damage is too extensive. start treating wildlife like wild animals rather than a dog or cat. they’re not pets, they’re not domesticated, leave them alone and let them live happy lives as they’re supposed to.

#saw a video of someone’s kid bringing in a baby raccoon and holding it to her chest. what the FUCK are you thinking #‘it’s mine now it’s my pet’ and everyone in the comments is going ‘you heard her that’s her pet now’. fuck all the way off #not only does that harm the animal but that makes it very possible for animals to spread diseases to you or your actual pets #not to mention parasites and fleas #there was one the other day of someone getting a rabbit out of a skate park which is good thanks for helping it. but then the person spent #another 5 or 10 minutes interacting with it and petting it. that’s not a pet store bunny that’s a wild animal and it’s absolutely terrified #im not saying learn body language and temperament and shit for a bunch of different animals im saying have some common sense and leave #wildlife alone. look but don’t touch. if an animal looks to be in distress then contact a local wildlife rehab or any rehab at all and ask #for advice. if there’s a rehab near you then see if you can bring the animal in #if you try to do that shit yourself you can do irreparable damage #it’s all fun and games and ‘oh im keeping it as a pet’ until the animal is malformed and has broken bones and infected wounds or is so #aggressive that it’s taking chunks out of people with no warning #‘this wild animal andomly attacked someone for no reason!’ you see how it’s overweight? people have probably been feeding it and when that #person didn’t have food it jumped on them #someone’s gonna do this shit with a ‘sick bird they plan to nurse back to health’ and get fucking bird flu #im just tired i haven’t been working with wildlife for a year and am going to study wildlife and work with them for the rest of my life for #this shit to keep happening. i know it will but im just tired of seeing it over and over again #my post #y’all can rb if you want im just pissed and on my soapbox

[filthyjanuary]

feeling sad :(

#sorry this is such a dumb thing to be sad about im a grown ass adult but like two thirds of the people i invited to my birthday #either cant come or said they would then bailed and like #some of them have legit reasons but some of them i'm kind of like :/ ok well i put in so much effort for yall would be really nice #if a crumb of that was reciprocated #idk i dont ask for much on my birthday i just want to have a nice dinner with my friends #and i have friends who like throw the biggest tantrum fusses about their birthdays and make it this entire spectacle #and people still humour them so it's kind of like #idk #do i really suck that bad that you cant make a saturday evening work to like eat good food #idk maybe next year i just wont plan anything #and everyone'll be like BUT SIMA IT'S THE BIG ONE and i'll be like well! i wish it werent! #bc it'll suck even more to have people not come lmao i dont actually think i've ever had a milestone birthday people just dont give a shit #this includes my parents idk like they are nice to me on my birthday but like no birthday was ever like hashtag special #and like the holidays already sucked so bad this year they did not feel like the holidays half the people i got presents for #didnt get me anything which is like fine i dont give presents to get them back but it kind of sucks to not even get a card? a thank you??? #idk this is so stupid i am turning 29 i pay taxes this should not be a big deal #maybe it's bc i feel like half my 20s were pandemic years so it kind of sucks that theyre basically over and idk im just feeling sad and ol #and lonely and just kind of shitty and unlikeable #AND IT'S DUMBBBBB TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST IDK WHY I'M CRYING FUCK MY STUPID BAKA LIFE

[whimsicalcotton]

i am once again afflicted by the Images

#want. to draw one of those dramatic character sitting w a bunch of paintings things. w rachel ofc. bc gf has placed a wizards curse upon me #w That Girl by Emei. ouuagggh the rachel amber flavors. also it's how i hc she'd sound singing but that's just a Me thing #''i'm that girl with the perfect hair; and that girl doesn't really care'' #''and somehow everything goes right for that girl; that girl; wanna be that girl'' followed by Sick fucking guitar n drums in the chorus #i'm actually so obsessed w her. i love an Actor and Peddler of White Lies #i love a weaver of webs so intricate even they cannot escape what they've created #i love a bitch who lives in the shadow of their own idyllic image of themselves!!! #i love a perfectionist overachiever who just fucking Cracks and goes sicko freakmode partying all the time #i love characters who have that Heather Chandler spitting at the mirror vibe. perfection. delicious. finally some good fucking food #foaming at the mouth so goddamn normally etc etc #nebular.txt