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meitanteisachi · 3 years

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(long) personal post ahead!

Well technically this isn’t a personal post but it’s about two of my friends from the same circle (I’ll call them A and B) whom I just recently discovered are mutually into each other and I’m SO FREAKING HAPPY FOR THEM AND THEY REMIND ME OF SHINRAN. SERIOUSLY.

They’re my block mates and before the pandemic (so like, timeline around late 2019 to early March this year?) we’d frequently hung out in the student council room (most of my friends are council members and I’m just literally leeching lmao), and at that time I could already see them being sweet, but I’ve always thought of it as friends kinda sweet since A had a gf while B is in casual relationships then.

Guy A is so. freaking. handsome. Like I wouldn’t deny it his face is gorgeous, magazine material and among the top 10 (top 5?) hotties in my grad school. He’s smart, but he can be obnoxious sometimes and makes dumb jokes but his humor grew on me (on everyone actually) so I was able to survive grad school with this idiot of a friend.

Meanwhile girl B, my other friend, is timid and quiet for most people but is actually loud and crazy around us and has very dry humor (that may have been influenced by A) though overall she’s very sweet. She was also the council’s secretary.

This morning, I got to interact again with my block mates thru DMs (after xx months of being in my own little recluse of purely anime in my mind lmao) because council elections is coming up and A invited me to join his PR team as he’s running for Secretary (B’s previous position). So I joined and we made a grp DM for the whole team, some of my other friends in there including B, the head PR. While discussion was ongoing, A told me in a separate DM that if I get to notice some implications in the chat that he and B have a thing, I shall not mind it because they really do have a thing now.

And me, being the clueless, oblivious beech that I am, reacted with ‘HAAAAAHHH??!?!>?’, ‘But I thought- You!- Hah!?! HOW LONG HAVE I BEEN GONE?!?’ (and he replied with blame it on your Naruto!! - lmaoo thank god for non-weeb friends who understand my isolation haha).

Anyway, what really got me about these two was how MUCH I WASN’T EXPECTING they’ll go down this route. After all they’re merely close friends and had each of their respective relationships prior (I learned, eventually, that A broke up with his gf last March, while B stopped with casual dating long before that).

I learned that B, being the more ‘quiet’ one, has admitted to my other friend that she did have a crush on A long before, but suppressed it because they’re merely friends and A had a gf. B said she admires A’s leadership - how he can pull a rough situation into something favorable, how he’s very calm and rational about facing crises, how he’s just so confident on the outside though deep down he might probably be panicking - but nonetheless, he’s still confident (very Shinichi IMO).

I also learned that A fell in love first. Before they got to admit their feelings for each other, A would visit B in her house and would invite two of my other friends in the guise of ‘hanging out’ but really, A and B just wanted to be together. A would also drive B to court hearings even though he lives far from her; would drop by her house even if it’s out of the way just say that he’s on the way to where he’s going. They go out on late night drives. And if asked if A likes B, A is straightforward about it, he’ll really say “I really really like her, what do I do about this” like god arent you two like two teenagers in love fuckkkk.

But now it has come to this, A is so crazy about B. And B, I hope this is THE relationship for her. B has a particular type in a man, none of which A falls under. Her infatuation/love for A might be forreal this time. Who knows. But rn I’m squirmminngg.

TLDR; Two of my friends are dating and they radiate Shin x Ran vibes and I cannot stop gushing about it (but not in front of their faces bc I dont want to freak them tf out so I’m just gonna rant everything here HAHAHA)

#i never meant to tell a story here but i cant help it my heart is exPLODING for these two #i havent gotten the chance to interview them in-depth abt this #all of these ive only learned from another common friend #but whatever the case is one thing's for sure - im so happy 4 them huhu #i feel like im witnessing a potential shinran fic developing right in front of my eyes HAHA #anw yea thats my rant #gisa rants

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peachyunjinnie · 4 years

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allelitefics · 4 years

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Powerful

Characters: Santana x Reader

Warnings: smut, definitely smut, a little angst.

Summary: Santana needs to step up with you before he loses you completely. This one is for @allelitexo who requested something to be written about Santana. Love those guys but Santana is def my favorite as well.

...that was the only Santana gif i liked... lol

You were the girl who had the personality that just attracted people towards you. Even when you tried to downplay it, so that you weren't bringing attention to yourself, it never made a difference. Being in a job where you are social all the time was something you knew you'd excel at, and as a wrestling fan being in charge of the social media department for All Elite Wrestling was a blessing.

One of your favorite things about working for AEW was that it really was like a family, since day one you could just feel it in the air. You had prior experience working for some other indie promotions, and it was definitely different when you stepped foot on your first day into AEW. There were also some people that you automatically clicked with and they were all pretty different, one of them being Santana ... you both immediately bonded over growing up in NYC - although he grew up in the Bronx and you grew up a less rough area, you often found yourselves talking about different spots you both went to growing up. Joey Janela was another one of your favorites, same thing growing up in the same general area, and you worked with Joey a lot on the indies. You loved the girls that they brought into the roster Britt Baker and Brandi quickly became ladies you looked up to, as well as the makeup team they might've been your favorites to hang around during your down time.

Dynamite was your favorite part about AEW because of everyone going out together afterwards. Of course some would opt out, but you loved the socializing, it was honestly super motivating and promoted your own mental health. Every Wednesday the crew would find a spot, whether it was a local bar or the hotel bar - and you were there with your whiskey sour or glass of wine depending on your mood.

Santana was in the corner of the bar with his tag partner of several years, Ortiz. He watched you, he always watched you and became more and more protective as time went on. You weren't dumb, you always felt his eyes on you, watching every movement you made. He had quickly become one of your best friends, at least thats how you felt. If you were ever lonely, he was the first one you texted. No matter what time, day or night, he was there. But on these nights you went out as a group you found yourself surrounded by Joey, Britt, sometimes Sammy and a few others and Santana would isolate himself.

An hour after being at the bar and him remaining in the same area you finally went over after a conversation with the group came to an end. "Hey!" you say with excitement, glass in hand from behind him running your hand down his bicep to get his attention. He turned around with a smirk, "Hey baby girl, whatchu up to?" "Why don't you come join the group? Come hang out with me." you say, trying your hardest to charm him. You really didn't have to try that hard because he wanted you, he really did. "I'll come over in a bit." he says. You feel yourself slump, because he says that every damn week and never does. You frown slightly, "Yeah..right." You turn to walk away and once there is no way for you to hear them Ortiz speaks up. "What the hell man!" he says hitting Santana's shoulder. "What?!" "Maaaaaan, for WEEKS! She's been hinting at you, what the hell." "I don't know man, I'd do literally anything for her. She's too good and I man...you know me I fuck up every relationship I'm in." Ortiz shook his head in disappointment. "You ain't even gonna give it a shot?? You're pushing her right into Janela's arms.. literally." he said nodding over to where you were with the group.

You dug the hot dirtbag kind of thing that Joey had, for some odd reason you did. So you didn't mind the flirtatious relationship the two of you had developed. But he wasn't what you wanted and it made you so bummed out that 30 minutes had passed and you didn't even see Santana in the bar anymore.

You whipped out your phone to text him. "Where did you go?" you sent to him. "Back to my room, sorry baby." You hated when he called you petnames, especially when he knew you were probably pissed. "What the fuck Santana." you sent back to him and then put your phone away, you didn't even want to see what kind of reply he would come up with. You were completely helpless when it came to him though, you were attracted to everything about him. That thug vibe was a huge turn on for you, and you found yourself constantly looking at his social media, especially the photos in the gym, you were smitten hard. At the same time as much as you wanted him you couldn't keep with the empty promises from him. Maybe this would've been that indicator that you two wouldn't make it as a couple.

When you got back to your room that night you slumped right onto the king sized bed in your room and finally pulled your phone back out, several unread texts from Santana. "Let's see tonights excuses" you say to yourself.

"I'm sorry, I was really tired" ..the first text. "You know that I love spending time with you" ... "Shit, are you really going to ignore me?" .. "Text me when you get back to the room?" .. "I'm sorry Y/N." "At least let me know that you made it back safely.." ..

That last one got to you, because if he hung out with you tonight then he would know you got back safely. Asshole. You roll your eyes, not wanting to send him anything back, but you couldn't help yourself.

"I'm fine and back in my room." you texted him. He immediately texted you back which made you smile a little, at least he's been waiting by his phone all night, maybe panicking a little. "Are you mad at me?" "What the fuck do you think?" .. you hated to be like that, but at this point thats often the language you two used with each other. "I know, can I come by your room?" You sat there and threw your head back because you were annoyed with yourself because you knew you were going to say okay. But if he came by tonight, something would need to happen because if it didn't, then this friendship/flirtatiousness had to end. "201" you responded. 5 minutes later and he was there at your door, white v-neck shirt, his adidas workout pants and he always had the best shoes for his outfits. Just in that simple outfit he looked so damn good. The mix of alcohol and loneliness had you wanting him more tonight than you had before. You opened the door then turned around. "You gonna be cold to me?" "I don't know Santana, I'm so over this shit." "What shit?" You were so annoyed he was playing the stupid card. "Oh my god, this...us....either put up or shut-up because this is ju-" you were quickly cut off from your rant with his lips pressing against yours and his arms wrapping around your waist pulling you closer into him. He broke apart after a few moments. "I'm done too, let's do this, forreal." "Really?" you ask with big eyes which makes him smirk down at you. "Yeah." "Ugh finally." you say and you pull him back towards you for your lips to press against each others one more time. Your back hits the mattress and you knew all the tension was going to be let go tonight. Your legs wrapped around him as he then kneels up to take his shirt off. He nods at you gesturing that if you don't do the same he'll rip your shirt off in a second. You sit up and do the same and then he continues to kiss you, your lips, down to your neck, when he gets to your hips, he pulls down the jeans you had been wearing, your panties soaked at this moment and he bit his lip when he looked back up at you. You were so nervous but so eager. "You want this right?" you double checks. "Yes!" you say rolling your eyes and that just fuels him with confidence. You knew Santana was an experienced guy and really had no doubts about his talents in bed, but damn it was better than you ever expected. The way his tongue moved against your most sensitive area, then pumping his fingers inside of you, you were completely his melting right into him. "Mmmmm, fuuuck" you moaned out when you were coming close to your climax. "Cum for me baby...cum for me now" he starts sweet and then growls and you feel yourself tighten around his fingers, his tongue flicking against your nub. When you came, it was that release you'd been craving and that was just with his tongue and fingers alone. You pulled him to kiss you, tasting yourself on his lips. You then look at each other and he searches your eyes, wanting them to tell him what to do next. "Fuck me" you let out. That damn smirk, it showed on his face once again, he did exactly what you told him. You moaned out loud when you felt him ease his length into you and you gripped onto his biceps. "You good baby?" You nodded as the breaths you took got more and more shallow. Time was nonexistent as he put you in all kinds of positions and then finally both of you climaxing at the same time.

He laid on his back his arms sprawled out and pulled you into him. "I'm sorry...fuck I've been an asshole." "Not an asshole, just an idiot." He laughs, "Yeah okay, an idiot. I don't want to hurt you, that's all I'm worried about." You look up at him now, resting your chin on his chest. "Stop doubting yourself, if you could just be the Santana I know, then we'll be fine." A genuine smile creeps upon his lips as his hand moves to the back of your head pulling you in for another sensual kiss.

#lax fanfiction #santana and ortiz #santana x reader #santana aew fanfic

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nahimjustfeelingit-writes · 5 years

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Imagine:

Erik and Reader having a one night stand that WASN’T supposed to happen.

This shit wasn’t supposed to happen, but the weed was so right and the vibe was on 💯.

Think of it as Y/N’s time away from the depressing reality of her life.

She worked two jobs: one Monday through Friday from 9-5:30 and the other job on alternate weekends from 11-7pm. On top of that she had a boyfriend who worked just as much as her, never home and when he was home they were both too tired to have sex, settling for taking separate showers and laying in bed with a cup of noodles in their lap.

Outside of that stress, Y/N decided to go to a friend of hers kick back to relive the moments of her early twenties when the 11:59pm deadline for an assignment was her only stress. She missed the weed, disposable red cups, jungle juice, and vibe music. Here she was on a chilly October night dressed in a black silk mini dress with the back out, a black faux fur coat on and weed in her right hand. She tried starting the Bic lighter up but it was no use. She didn’t get one puff in before her shit went out.

Putting the blunt between her lips again, Y/N cupped her hand over the Bic, flicking it over and over to get a spark. Nothing. Like a ray of light descending upon her, a random guy who must have been good friends with her friend walks over, standing before her with his hands in his pockets.

“You need a light?

“...sure,” Y/N looked up just in time to spot one of the most attractive men she had ever seen in her life. He wore a leather moto jacket with multiple silver zippers, black ripped jeans and a red t shirt with multiple silver chains around his neck. Hair freshly dreaded and braided back, skin smooth and chocolate, eyes low from his own high and lips full and pink with a slight discoloring in the corners from smoking. He was sexy as fuck.

He flicks his Bic lighter, flame bright as he leans forward to spark her weed for her. Y/N took a few puffs before blowing out smoke with a contempt expression on her face.

“Thank you, what’s your name?”

“No problem, and It’s Erik. You?”

She reached out shaking his hand, “I’m Y/N”

“How you know Lisa?”

“Hm, since high school. We used to go to Fremont High.”

“Forreal? I had a few friends who went there.”

Erik got comfortable next to Y/N, leaning forward to pull his red cup towards him. Y/N shifted a little, facing him more.

“And how do you know Lisa, Erik?”

“Her man is my friend. Been knowing her for two years now.” He brought his cup to his lips, taking a huge sip. Y/N watched as he licked the liquor away, tongue disappearing again and dimples showing.

“How come I never saw you at parties?” Y/N flicks the ashes from her weed into an ashtray.

“Because I just got back home officially. I’ve been in the Military.”

Oh she could tell alright. His body looked as if it were carved from stone and she could tell even with his moto jacket still on. It was his neck too, it was thick and strong, shoulders all broad.

Stop it, Y/N.

She was just fuck-a-strated. She needed some dick that she hadn’t had for almost two weeks now.

“You alright?” He asked with genuine concern for her. Y/N met his gaze, staring for a few seconds before blinking away.

“I’m good, just tired. But I needed to get out.”

Erik hummed, the sound so deep and raspy it caused her knees to connect. That sound always drove her crazy. Erik didn’t need to make himself comfortable like this, it wasn’t helping situations. Her man was home right now probably laying in bed watching Netflix. If she didn’t leave tonight that’s probably where she would be right now. Nah, she was tired of that shit.

“What do you do for work if you don’t mind me asking,” Erik reaches for Y/N’s weed, handing it over with no hesitation.

“I work in Human Resources at a hospital during the week and on weekends I’m a receptionist for the same hospital.”

“You like doing that type of work?”

“It’s okay, it gets the bills paid.” Y/N grabs her cup of jungle juice to take a small sip.

“Does it get your hair and nails done too?”

Y/N’s brows raise, eyes looking down at her maroon colored claw nails.

“When I can, yes. I can’t stand walking around without my nails done,” she stroked her sleek low bun with baby hairs, “and my hair.”

Erik gave her a small laugh, Y/N’s eyes focused on the bounce of his solid chest.

“That’s the sexiest shit to me, a woman with her hair and nails done,” Erik took one more hit before passing it back to her, “Thats a weakness of mine.”

What else makes you weak? She wondered.

Y/N fell silent, looking out in front of her with a small movement of her hips to the music. She watched the other guests dance or play cards. Y/N really didn’t know how to respond to that. From her observation, Erik and her were the only ones occupying the couch while everyone else partied. She was beginning to think that he wanted to get to know her.

“You bored talking to me?” Erik asks with a serious look in his eyes but Y/N could tell that he was only messing with her.

“No, just chilling thats all.”

Erik smirked, biting his bottom lip before turning away to drink from his cup. Y/N’s stomach felt uneasy from all the nerves. She waited to see what he would say next but before she could, Lisa walks over, almost tripping on her long maxi dress.

“Girl why are you sitting over here?! Oh,” Lisa had a sly smirk on her face before side eyeing Y/N, “Hey, E! Welcome home!”

Lisa pulls Erik into a hug. Y/N smiles at the interaction, cup to her mouth and eyes staring straight ahead so she wouldn’t get a good look at his ass, the waist band to his boxers exposed. They were crimson red. She wanted to grab it.

“Y/N you wanna play never have I ever?” Lisa claps her hands in excitement, “remember high school? We used to play this all the time.”

Back then Y/N’s didn’t have anything to tell. She was only a teenager.

“Well, anyway, lets go play.”

Y/N agrees, slightly worried about how far this would go.

———————

20 minutes later:

“Never have I ever...had a threesome.”

To Y/N’s surprise, there were a good amount of people who put down a finger. She had three still up. This made Y/N feel left out. She looked around the table at everyone’s laughing faces before spotting Erik with a fresh cup in his hand, more faded than before and eyes glued to her. She looked away quickly, focusing on a drunk Lisa.

“Get yourself together bitch! How you gonna host a party pissy drunk?!” Y/N yells across the table.

“Whatever! Your turn!”

Y/N dreaded it being her turn but either way she interacted.

“Never have I ever...cheated on someone.”

It was simple. Nothing too sexual like most of the game had been. Half of the group put a finger down without shame, a small voice inside of Y/N’s head telling her to look over at Erik. Sure enough, as if expecting her to look at him, Erik and Y/N locked eyes from across the room, his thumb still proudly up.

Thank God, she thought. She couldn’t believe she felt relieved. But then again...her lusting over this man made her feel like the cheater. She might as well put her finger down.

“Yeah Y/N is an angel y’all!” Lisa teased.

“Ain’t nothing wrong with that, I like em sweet and pretty,” a random guy mentions from a corner.

“She’s taken, Jerome!” Lisa corrected. This time, Y/N didn’t meet Erik’s eyes.

Okay! Next person!”

A girl with short blonde hair seated on her mans lap started speaking.

“Never have I ever had sex at a party.”

Groans spread across the room, even a groan from Erik as he finally put his thumb down, taking a shot.

“Looks like Y/N won that round again!”

She wanted to shrink in her seat.

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The night went on, and Y/N was glad she decided to take an Uber over because she was too tipsy to maneuver a car. She had her faux fur coat off now, dancing to Megan Thee Stallion- Cash Shit. Drinks always made Y/N feel even sexier than she already was. She shook her hips, dipped low while popping her booty. Eyes were on her for sure and she knew that. When the song changed she went to the kitchen to retrieve another drink. While there she started fanning herself to cool off. She picked up the ladle, scooping the fresh batch of jungle juice into her cup. Footsteps approached causing Y/N to turn and spot Erik with his cup in hand, waiting for her to be done. His moto jacket was off now and she could make out his arms and tiny raised scars mixed with veins.

“You don’t wanna know what these are about, Baby girl. It would give you nightmares.”

Y/N stepped aside, allowing Erik to grab himself another drink. She watched, cup to her glossy lips.

“So, you do have a man?” He didn’t look at her when he asked, too focused on scooping some jungle juice into his cup.

“Yes. I do.”

“Hm,” he turns to face her, “and how is that?”

“It’s great.”

Y/N looked down into her cup, fiddling with the ring on her finger.

“He know you stepped out tonight dressed like that?”

Y/N couldn’t help that she looked the way she did.

“No.”

“If you were my girl, dressed like that, you wouldn’t be attending no fucking party unless I’m coming with you.”

She couldn’t deny that Erik saying that made her aroused.

“And what if I was your girl and I wore it anyway, leaving your ass in the house?”

Erik smiles broadly, the act alone causing her to blush tremendously.

“Then I would have to fix you.” He twirled his cup in hand, eyes low and predatory.

“Oh?” Y/N clears her throat. She didn’t think the heat would turn up in here that quick. What was she thinking flirting with Erik?

Sis, it’s just a little fun, the devil on her shoulder argues.

“You look nervous, you good?” Erik takes another step forward, stopping again.

“Nervous about what?”

“You tell me, Y/N with the tight dress and pretty face.”

The blush over her light brown skin was so deep she was sure Erik could tell. Y/N rubs her shoulder, too nervous to even look at him again.

“Should I step off?”

The moment he mentioned that, her conscience battled with her. This man wanted her. Y/N almost squeezed her cup from that alone.

“No.” Her words spilled out her mouth before she could even think. Erik bit his lower lip with a smirk.

“Okay then.” He fully invaded her personal space, his musk smelling divine. She could feel his heat mixed with hers and it turned her on heavily.

“What was that about not having sex at a party before?” He whispers in her ear. Y/N gasps, low enough for only Erik to hear and it made him chuckle.

“You want me to show you?” His finger stroked her neck, “I can be the first for that if you want me to.”

“Y-yes,” she confesses. Hearing herself say it felt so dirty.

“Aight, Baby girl,” Erik hovers over her a second more before palming her ass firmly, walking away and up the steps. Y/N let out a breath, hand to her chest. She needed another drink now before anything happens. Making herself another full cup, she self meditates to get her act together before leaving the kitchen, following Erik up the steps without anyone noticing. She walked further and further, heart drumming in her chest. Turning left she spotted Lisa’s guest room door ajar with the lamp light on. Shit...this really was about to happen.

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Y/N’s moans were stuck in her throat.

Besides the constant nervous tremor, her pussy quivered every single time Erik sucked or licked on her. The base from the music vibrated the walls, disguising her moans and cries. Erik made her look at him. He made her sit up on her elbows and watch. Her boyfriend never made her do that. He held her legs open, mouth all over her pussy.

Erik: Where you want me to eat?

Y/N: My clit, please.

Erik: *smiles darkly* I gotchu.

He surely did.

Y/N shook from Erik’s lips wrapping around her clit. She palms his head, holding him there while her thighs shook. She could feel her orgasm growing and the urge to squirt.

Y/N: OMG ERIK PLEASE.

with a final gasp of pleasure, Y/N came in his mouth.

Erik: Taste so fucking good girl.

She had to return the favor, Y/N got to her knees, instantly taking Erik’s dick into her mouth and sucking softly. Erik stroked her hair, guiding her with encouraging words and a smile. He was so big and he tasted good. Y/N sucked like she was tasting something exclusive.

Erik: Good girl, yeah, you that.

She enjoyed giving head. Especially to Erik. She didn’t have time in that moment to feel bad at all. His dick was in her mouth, that’s all that mattered.

Erik: Damn, Baby girl, hold up, *lifts her from her knees* I ain’t tryna cum yet.

Erik pulls out a condom from his wallet within his jeans, kicking his pants off further before ripping open the pack to put it on. Once secure, Erik locked eyes with Y/N, curling a single finger for her to come to him. Once there, Erik lifted her from the ground, wrapping her legs around him and placing her over his dick until he was buried to the hilt. Y/N’s moan was sharp and beautiful, hands cupping his face as he bounced her over him while walking to the bed. He stroked and walked. That alone made her want him more.

Y/N: Fuck, Baby. *bites lip*

Erik places her back onto the bed, pulling her legs over his shoulders, leaning forward to open her up more. He fucked into her with skill, skin smacking loudly. Y/N’s toes curled, arms around his neck and moans stuck in her throat.

Erik: Got some good pussy girl, *pounds* the nigga you with is a lucky motherfucker.

He held the back of her thighs, fucking slower but with a deeper thrust. The penetration was too much, Y/N’s thighs wanting to close. His grip was too strong.

Y/N: Jesus, Erik you’re gonna make me cum!

Before she could plead for him to slow down her sanity snapped, eyes wide and a loud cry of pleasure bouncing off the walls. She hoped no one heard that. Erik leans forward, taking Y/N’s sweet mouth, tasting her lips with his tongue.

Erik: mmm, I gotta buss that pussy open from the back now.

He slips out, flipping her over and arching her. Y/N waited for him to connect with her again, eyes closed and fingers gripping the sheets. Erik enters her again, hands in the middle of her back to keep her still.

Y/N: Ahhhh!!!!!! *squeezes eyes shut*

Erik: Yes, *slaps ass* tight fucking pussy, Y/N, *slaps ass again* you gonna be a good girl and let me fuck this tight pussy?

Y/N: *nods head rapidly*

Erik: You ain’t gotta speak, Baby girl, *thrusts forward* go ahead and lay there while I take it.

He took her and it was everything she needed. Y/N came so much from back shots alone she couldn’t believe it happened. Her pussy soaked for this man. It was so damn good she couldn’t even dress herself. It was going on 2:30 am and the party was still rolling. Erik has to dress her himself but that turned into him eating her pussy again while she pushed at his head. He was the devil.

Y/N went down the steps first, sitting on the couch. She looked off into space, the entire sex scene playing in her head like a movie. Out of nowhere, she began to laugh. It was crazy that she even did that. Y/N never imagined having a one night stand with another man. Erik slowly descended the stairs, adjust the collar to his red shirt before locking eyes with her. He smiled faintly, giving her a wink before walking away. She was happy he did that, she needed to cool herself down. Y/N took Erik’s number but she didn’t want to use it. Stroking her temples, she thought about her boyfriend, checking her phone to find two missed calls and a text. He was worried, and it pained her. While she was getting her cheeks clapped he was thinking about her and when she would be back.

After the good feeling came a bad feeling. Y/N wanted out of the party, she needed fresh air. Grabbing her things, she found Lisa, saying her final goodbyes before doing the same for everyone else. Erik wasn’t in sight which was perfect, she didn’t need to see him before she decided to leave. The sex was beyond great but it could never happen again. If it did, Y/N really wouldn’t be able to forgive herself.

#killmonger imagine #killmonger x reader #killmonger fanfiction #black panther killmonger #erik killmonger

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ruffled-serpent · 4 years

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Marmite’s Lair Review

@marmite-forreal aw ye time for some marmite dragon sammiches

First things first - I love that when we enter your lair page we get an amazing showcase of all your earth themed dragons. It’s a great spectacle and they’re all dressed up so nicely! Now lets pick some nice lookin’ dragons to complement

Lillith

Woah a fan favorite right off the bat! I like how you decided to dress her in something more saturated. I think her pinks, while lovely, are nicely contrasted with the red of the silks. The Golden seraph apparel, daybreak decorations, and star pieces from the silk all tie in nicely with the accent that you’ve chosen. I also LOVE the hints of black we get from the accent and how it complements the birds in Love’s Herald. The comments you’ve made in her voice on the inventory items she possesses really brings out the personality you’ve made for her. What a fun and creative way to express that!

Null

I love this spunky noodle. He is an excellent rogue-like representative of wind and I’m swooning over the direction you took with him. The scarf and cutlass match the greys in his primary so well and I love the small flashes of yellow you’ve thrown in with the jewelry to match the reedcleft resonance. You’ve placed all these small apparel items on him so expertly that it feels complete and doesn’t need a huge body piece to bring it all together.

Vukan

The swirls that the chancellor rings make on the wings of this tundra is so mesmerizing to look at, but I particularly enjoy how well they match with the tans of the horns, accent, and stripes in skink. The subtle reds introduced in the rings complement the tertiary well and help introduce the more saturated reds of the flower apparel. Speaking of the flower apparel, I like how it brings in small splashes of green to match those nature eyes. Another detail I enjoy about the rings is how they seem to wrap around the lantern of the accent, the illusion of depth is so GOOD.

Kerttu

Kerttu looks so fierce right off the bat. The antlers are such a good choice and they go so well with ridgeback spines. The raven sylvan dress you’ve used to match with the tertiary is a gorgeous touch. She gives me haunted egyptian cryptid types vibes and I’m so here for it.

war

ohohoho if I thought Kerttu was fierce I’m straight up terrified by this dragon. She looks SO good though. The deep reds have a nice gradient to them that lend themselves well into the black. The bright white of the accent give her amazing contrast that matches nicely with the sword and her jewelry. But I want to mention how you layered two onyx grasps to make raise the opacity that is such a subtle detail that I feel would go unnoticed that really just adds the extra oompf to this outfit. Solid work.

Honorable Mention: Nadia

You’ve done excellent work on this fan dragon! I’ve only played The Arcana for about 30 minutes at most, but she was easily recognizable and you’ve done a fantastic job on making her bio look stunning.

Marmite, your lair has taught me to appreciate the subtleties much more. I hope that I will be able to incorporate such skill into my own lair going forward. Thank you for letting me review some of your beautiful dragons!

#lair review #marmite #long post

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shesawriter39049 · 5 years

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BTS -HS-HEADCONS

(Slightly NSFW ) ..JUST A LIL

Mkay ..disclaimer this is all in good FUN, I’m also a fellow 94 liner, so if the boys were in the US, we would’ve been in HS together!

This is Obv very Westernized and I’m writing this as if they aren’t the art school AU’s people typically write

(EDITED 8/5/2020)

Jimin-

-A whole thot thot, I mean don’t get me wrong he’s a total sweetheart but he’s still a walking thirst trap, no cap, no filter! He’s kinda ”famous” on social media(Prob like 15-20k) Snap, IG, FB, you name it...for some reason he always seems to work out shirtless. LOVES to take pics so you KNOW he worked out shirtless!

-Please don’t let any form of R&B play at a party...It’s a wrap, what you tryin to see? Some grind work? A little hip roll action? You want a lap dance? Tongue out and all! The Asian alllll the black girls girls love(Obviously not just black girls but lets be real..it takes a certain...appeal..and Jimin has it!)

- Gives off that whole “My dad owns, about 5 nail salons and beauty supplies in the hood” kinda vibe! (Meaning hes comfortable around different walks of life,he doesn't feel out of place easily, hes the type of person that everybody can gravitate towards) The boy has swag and he knows it…got everybody from Megan to Brian thirsty as all hell!

-Will win best hair his senior year..without a doubt, well if he doesn't fry it first!... Looks like a walking Pantene commercial, yes, more so because he can’t go two seconds without running his fingers through his scalp!

-KING of subtle shade...knows all the tea but acts like he doesn't as he slowly sips his Starbucks. The type to honestly forget he’s told 3 different girls they could wear his jersey/Letterman jacket! Until they all text him Thursday night ....

-A jock that’s cool with everybody! The type to cuss out his fellow athletes that are total dick wads and bully people... I feel like he’d be a damn good running back, he has the right height a muscle build up for it.

-Owns a pair of buffs, don't lie to yourself you know you could see it too...wears skinny jeans with Timberland's 😒, still wears 3878374 rings. Believe it or not he gives me like Tilly’s/Zumiez/PacSun vibes!

-Drives a red obnoxiously loud scat pack that’s tinted way past the legal shade! He drifts on the weekends. Jimin would be your local plug IDC,IDC,IDC...LOL I said what I said, got a whole eighter hiding in a fake bottle of orange juice!

- Just flirting his way through high school living his best life… will fuck someone up if need be, has a slight temper, sassy as hell, can roll his eyes with the best of them. ”Would it be ...too extra if I changed outfits and dates during the dance?..Serious question guys! ”

- He’d be the one that all the girls say gives the best head ...I mean..those lips..that tongue..HELLO! Stroke game on point...I feel like he’d have no filter when it comes to talking about sex publicly. No shame, loves to tease you, at the worst times, down to sneak off to the bathroom, or the janitors closet! Will bend you over behind the bleachers after they win a football game...if your down...gang, gang!

Namjoon-

-An Asian with light skin tendencies ...the one that low key may think he’s black (I’m joking!! lmao,,,maybe)

-He’s that one person that legitimately everyone likes...no matter how hard you may try..you just can’t dislike him!

-He actually is class president!

-Hangs out with all the basketball players and has the freshest Jordans..but can’t hoop! He’s on the school newspaper..writes the sports column...is still that free spirit telling you to live your best damn life.

-Either looks like he’s going to a business meeting or like he just picked out damn near everything from Champs there’s no in between!

-Makes and sells beats on the side, would also have a strong social media presence! He’s be the type to have a ton of followers on Sound Cloud and Spotify!

-The type to try and talk is way into and or around everything “I understand hats are against the wardrobe but I’m just trying to express myself and I think it’s right to give everybody self expression” Wears glasses, though none of us really know if he needs them forreal forreal…. Wears a snowman on his wrist (A big iced out watch).

-Drives a white BMW 430, puts cones around his car in the parking lot..Yoongi and Jimin kick the cones...faithfully..everyday!

-Don’t let his niceness fool you, will cook your ass in the blink of an eye if need be! Prefers a good verbal situation though, the king of a good word battle will have you all types of trying to check the dictionary to understand what he just said! Got you standing there like a misplaced student in honors English…

- If shit get’s physical well..we can’t let the president fight soo...he’ll call Yoongi or Jimin to handle it for him…. Because...well his Jay’s are brand new..and only 10 other people have them...sooooo..OR maybe it’s lowkey because he can’t fight all that well...baby’s not coordinate OKAY!? Don’t @ me!

-Oophfff daddy long leg! Lmao nah but you know he’d be the one...the one that every girl says he’s packin..and he is...He’d be little more reserved..and modest when it comes to his skills but he’s damn sure not shy! Would deff skip lunch, for a quickey at the park..yes the park.....would leave for lunch in a suit...come back in some joggers....real subtel....

Yoongi -

-The unexpected jock ...the one who can kick your entire ass in basketball, one of the stars on the team! Shooting Guard, has a championship ring from every year he’s played!

-Picks and chooses when he wants to be social. Just judge his mood based on his face that day!

-DJ’s every party and school event. Often gets into trouble for not playing the clean versions of songs!

-He’s on the morning broadcast with Jimin and Jin...also forgets to censor himself. I.E “Peter Pan opened last night and it sucked actual ass!”

-Lowkey highkey funny AF, king of sarcasm and one liners!

-Purposely owns an old school Chevelle instead of a new car, also drifts on the weekends.

- Lives in like the flyest loungewear...joggers, hoodies,Jays..doesn't look like he tried but still looks bomb AF.

-Another one that will creep up on you when it comes to his skill in bed, the one that girls say there surprised with how passionate and attentive he is! In contrast to how hard his exterior can be, the type to take his time and make sure your more than satisfied….

-Always, ALWAYS has his headphones in, lives and breathes music! He raps on the side, competes in underground competitions, and win’s without even trying! Refuses to ever participle in the schools talent show because he can’t swear therefore they are hindering his creative flow!

-Constantly looks like he’d rather cut his own testie off than be “here” right now.

-Will walk out if you don't let him go to the bathroom when he feels like it, actually he’ll just walk out period…”Yoongi where are you going!?” .

“Oh I need another espresso shot before I sit through this extremely falsely sugarcoated reality of how Columbus “discovered” a place that was already there!”

Jimin: “Aww man, sit down I got you! I was just about to have Pizza Hut sent to the office, you wanna add into my postmates order!!?”

😩😂😂😂...I canttttt ..maybe I’ll do the other four!? Again all in good fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I often wonder what the boys would be like if they were born in the states. Then I realize the lack of filter they’d all have especially JIMIN and I’m grateful for the cultural differences that come with them being Korean born !

UPDATE- 7/29...I think I might turn these headcons into a lil sum sum...writing these reminded me that I actually enjoyed HS (For me my “shitty” period was like elementray and part of middle school) But I made HS my bitch, and had so much damn fun lol !

7/30- PART 1

#jimin #jimin smut #jimin headcanon #namjoon #namjoon smut #namjoon headcanon #yoongi #yoongi smut #yoongi headcon #bts #bts smut #bts high school au #bts au #bts headcon #kpop headcons #jimin hs #park jimin #kim namjoon #min yoongi

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punkscowardschampions · 4 years

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Carly & Ali & Caleb & Drew

Carly: [sends these boys a thirst trap] Ali: what she said Caleb: what you need Ali: [picture of the crowd of people 'cos 1. we're popular 2. we're going hard] Ali: enough to make it worth your while, bring all you got Drew: Bit harsh to your girlfriend that you reckon it weren't worth it from her snap Caleb: is it though? 😏 Caleb: we all 👀 her before Carly: [goes harder cos if you want a show boy challenge accepted] Carly: 😘 Ali: and you got rewarded for being a dickhead Ali: you can get here faster now Carly: ha Carly: idk why we r still talking when we could b not Carly: u wanna 👀 or u wanna touch Ali: 🤔 you both too exhausted from your busy day, yeah? Ali: n'awh Caleb: nah 💪🏾💪🏾 Ali: gonna need you to prove it, Cavante Drew: 👀 Walsh wants it but where's your proof 1st, like Caleb: what he said Ali: I get it, imagination is limited, but you really have no room between the two of your 🧠s to save it? Caleb: you got no room for attitude if you want your order filled before the party's over Ali: Well puts me in the mood that, nice one Ali: least your products better than your 🗣 Caleb: your 👄 is running the wrong way to put us in any mood Caleb: address that Carly: partys over then bye Carly: ill get �� from boys who know how to behave Ali: I'd sooner pay Ali: so your loss on every level Ali: hmu when you work out how to run a business and talk like a grown human Drew: C'mon bro, chill out Carly: 👶🏾 aw Caleb: you wanna be talked nice to all of a sudden? Caleb: 👌🏾 15 mins how's that? Drew: you need a party, drink a little, smoke something, you'll be ✌🏾👍🏾👊🏾 Ali: we're not going anywhere Carly: but up 🚀🌟🪐💫⭐️🚀 Ali: 🙏🙏🙏 Ali: closest imagery to me getting on my knees, you're welcome Caleb: 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 I can get down with Ali: see how many rosaries I can get done 'fore you show up Carly: shes a 👼💙 if thats how u want it Ali: only for you, baby Carly: i want u however tho Ali: that's why I'm with you not them Carly: 💍💙 Drew: I look the most 👼 though, just saying Carly: wait ur turn for the 🙏💛 tho Carly: goldilocks energy u kno it gotta b right Drew: come on, I'm the one that's been nice to you the whole time Carly: ur cute Carly: make me feel good ill make u feel good too like Carly: im always that nice Ali: oh and bring a mate Ali: I wanna party forreal, so if Cavante ain't vibing Caleb: all you gotta do is let me make my apologies in person Ali: oh now I get it Ali: a preview would be fun Caleb: we're past the free taste, tica, I know what you want & I'm bringing the party Caleb: there's 👼🏾 too Ali: I know that Ali: @ your bro being mad problematic Drew: 😮😮 Caleb: he can't 👀 my 🙌🏾 it's his loss, it don't need to be yours Drew: I didn't agree to be bad cop now you wanna get some 🍯 back Caleb: there ain't no good cops, bruv Ali: 😂 Ali: how you two aren't locked up is beyond me Carly: happy u aint tho thatd b no fun Ali: no conjugals in young offenders Ali: also reckon you have to be married??? so that'd really make it a bummer Carly: even if we got u mood rings to fool the feds theyd just say u were 😢💔😒 no fun either Ali: 😏 Ali: so don't get caught, yeah? Ali: especially not tonight Caleb: 🙏🏾 for us Ali: [a picture because we are already and this is only getting messier] Ali: like this? Caleb: yeah, that'll work Carly: its working for me Ali: all you gotta do is be 👼🏾👼🏼👼🏻 Carly: 🤎💛💚💙 Drew: damn Drew: we'll make it 10 minutes Carly: what do u need to make it 5 Drew: why aren't you two together? 🤔 Carly: we r always together boy Drew: 📸s or it didn't happen Carly: [video because you gotta one up a fuck boy] Carly: k? Drew: 👌👌 Caleb: 👌🏾👌🏾 Ali: you two are always together and all Ali: so 👀👀 Carly: aw so much 🤎💛💚💙 in here Ali: could be more Carly: yea Ali: not afraid of a 📸 are you? Caleb: 👀 away, bro Caleb: [fuck boi pics] Drew: [own superior fuckboy pics tbh] Ali: not together but that's okay Ali: we'll take 'em when you get here Carly: so creative baby Carly: 🔮🎨🌠🎇 Ali: They're good subjects, I can admit that Carly: theyre k Ali: they're nothing on you obvs Ali: muse extraordinaire Carly: ur 🍑🍯🍒🍍 Ali: 🍓🐇🌹🐿🍄🐰🍓 Carly: ☀️🐅🌼💫🌻☄️🐯🌱🌊🪐🚀🍀 Drew: is this gay code Carly: ha Carly: if i was gay u wouldnt have a party invite Carly: ur hair aint that long or pretty Drew: yeah it's just for 👀👀 Carly: its for 💙💍 Carly: dont get it twisted Drew: 👌👌 Carly: i need her i dont need u Carly: cavante can come thru wit the drop if ur gonna b 👿 Ali: Caleb's being nice now Caleb: I got you 💪🏾✌🏾 Ali: you can be 😈 later Caleb: you know it Ali: that's why you're 💌 Caleb: & omw Ali: better be Caleb: it's better when you trust, you know that too Ali: not been the day for it Ali: 👀 is believing Caleb: [drug pics because he is on his way] Caleb: I look after you both, all you gotta do is ask Ali: You want it in words now too, yeah Caleb: what your girl said about unnecessary chat, we done the lip & 🙏🏾 service Ali: 🕐 Caleb: count it down, I'll be there when I said Carly: 🚀🚀🚀 Ali: patience ain't my virtue Carly: & i dont have any Drew: can handle needy Carly: yea? Drew: for the night Carly: have it then Ali: have anything you want Ali: everything Carly: you heard her Carly: its all here for u Carly: 💚💙

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lordsunriot · 6 years

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two heroes review (dub) (minor spoilers obv)

the movie was super funny n really good. like there were a lot of twists i didn’t expect and it was all so moving and i had a rly good time. i’ll put a list of reactions and whatnot under the cut. i won’t give away any huge spoilers, it’s mostly me talking about how much i love them all.

the entire plot lies around david shield being super fucking gay for all might like not even exaggerating. jit stands around in empty rooms looking at a photo of all might as a pastime. calls him toshi. it’s incredible.

all might and david would just STARE at each other A LOT it was CRAZY.

there’s also a flashback of when they first met. all might’s shirt fell off.

I LOVE MELISSA SO MUCH!!! SHE CALLS ALL MIGHT UNCLE MIGHT!!! she is so good i love her so much. she’s so smart and brave and i love her. she and deku get along sooo well and it’s really sweet and they work together fantastically!

all the girls were so lovely in this movie. of 1-a, ochako, momo, and jirou were in the story. tsuyu, tooru, and mina were at the hotel and there’s a few scenes with them.

speaking of, sato and sero were hanging out together as well. and shouji and tokoyami were hanging together too!

kirishima n bakugo were gay, obviously. the shit you’ve seen in spoilers is basically it but it was great. when it cuts to them wandering around “””lost””” when kiri “”””left”””” his phone, it just’s a close up of bakugo going, monotone, “moron. you absolute idiot” and that was funny to me.

bakugo screaming kirishima’s name after he saved him.... oof... then kiri blushing when bakugo thanked him... lol..... gay

jirou and momo were very touchy. they were both so great and confident in this, especially momo! so so good. i love them

momo is very confident and smart!!! i love her! she uses all of her strength to help her classmates, and figures out solutions to a lot of their predicaments. they would b so lost without her i stg

jirou very good. properly Punishes mineta and kami for being dumb. she’s beautiful and shy but badass

honestly mineta and kaminari were being Them but kaminari had some great moments and when mineta wasnt being gross his scenes were actually kinda funny. i mean they were still both lowkey useless lmao

iida was hilarious. he’s such a good boy. there were like 2 times where he’d Run towards the screen talking and it was so funny. his hand movements were also the best. really badass too kickin shit everywhere. at one point his pants ripped to reveal his thick ass calves

before taking off iida dabbed for like a split second

also when kirishima was stuck in the wall after the 80th floor fight he was t-posing.

there were some really good deku & ochako and deku & melissa moments. it was rly nice.

also?? surprisingly?? todoroki and bakugo moments? like i think(?) kiri called them a good team and there were parts where todoroki just like.. smiled at bakugo or whatever. they were both smiling cuz of whatever but todoroki was lookin At bakugo like a fool.

todoroki would literally just go “midoriya...” unprompted with NO follow up like BOY LMAO

midoriya would also be like “todoroki! and everyone else!” that forreal happened. hon....

bakugo was screaming mostly as usual but he was great. super badass as you’d expect smh. he saved ochako at one point.

ok but there was one part where his arm like cramped up or something but then he says (to all might(?)) something along the lines of “you idiot, losing to some villain like this” or whatever (i think the word weak was in there somewhere and probably a curse but i forgot) and i thought he was talking to himself at first and i was like BRO WHERED THAT COME FROM. but i was mistaken. anyways.

the fight scenes were really well done!! very smooth and dynamic and overall not too hard to follow, either. and so exciting omg. ESPECIALLY with deku omg. obviously he has the best scenes and it’s . very good.

there’s a few plot twists and it’s insane. like you don’t... really expect it at all.

once things start heating up it kinda has overhaul arc vibes cuz of the villain’s quirk and also he just straight up pulls out a gun on people.

deku and all might have the BEST fight scenes and it’s unlike anything we’ve seen in the show and it was just. rly impactful tbh. it was so cool.

i’d die for melissa. i love her so much.

the movie was overall really funny? just like in expressions and things happening and idk man but it was great, everyone in the theater was laughing a lot.

music was fantastic. love the young all might theme.

during the credits there were some stills of them eating bbq! koda’s there! kirishima goes to a brooding bakugo with two kabobs! tsuyu and ochako are like, feeding each other kabobs?! idk but it was gay.

i might be forgetting stuff but im rly tired so!!! im hoping to see the sub version on monday so ill post another one of these then maybe ?!

#dontlistento me #two heroes #two heroes spoilers #bnha two heroes #mha two heroes

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lightsandlostbells · 6 years

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Skam France episode 9 (S1 finale) reaction

Thanks to everyone who reads these things! I’ve gotten a lot of nice messages and comments since I started blathering my thoughts on Skam remakes into the void, which I didn’t expect, and it makes my day. Even if you don’t agree with me on something, I appreciate hearing your thoughts. I love talking about sad teens and their drama and it has been a grand time talking about sad teens and their drama with others!

Also thank you to everyone who translates or helps increase accessibility to any of the Skam shows, I am truly amazed by the kindness and generosity of everyone who donates their free time to it.

Episode 9

Clip 1 - Daphne peed on the wrong stick

Nice job getting in that shot of the condoms and water bottle at the beginning as if to say “I fucking told you so.”

There were apparently several real time errors in this clip in that French students should not have been at school that day, and Daphne mentions having gum at 10 am when the clip dropped at 8 a.m.

This doctor does not quite have the same quality of being from another planet as Dr. Skrulle.

Alex screaming to the heavens about no baby is glorious, but on the other hand, GIRL, you might wanna lower the volume about your friend’s pregnancy scare as people are clearly hearing you.

I love Daphne and think she did a really great job here of being bitter and resigned. I think Vilde was also great in this moment, but I think she was approaching it more from an outwardly (phony) sense of self-assurance. You don’t know want what you’re talking about Noora, I do. And though Vilde is pretty stunned by the doctor’s visit (and tbh I think part of her wanted the baby to be real … but that’s another conversation) you can see her starting to laugh and smile with the other girls before Noora pulls her aside. Then it feels more like cheerful denial that there’s anything wrong with what she’s doing. Daphne seems straight up miserable and defeated.

Clip 2 - Charles creeping again

MY BELOVED THEATER KIDS RETURN. One day they will get their day in the sun. One day.

TBH Charles has more sleazy charm than William and I can’t determine whether that’ll end up being a good thing or a bad thing.

This clip is WAY better placed than the original, actually! It always seemed off that Noora would be taken in by William telling her she’s beautiful when she still thinks he’s knocked up Vilde. Now that they’ve determined this isn’t the case, it makes slightly more sense. At least that consideration is out of the way.

The only drawback about having the doctor clip before this clip is that it occurs to me that Noora’s conversation with Vilde is likely what prompts Noora tell William to apologize, since Vilde has internalized his words so much to the point of repeating them, and I find it harder to believe that Manon would give a single shit about Charles’ flattery after she’s heard how bad his words made it for Daphne.

Lmao at fucking Charles being like “What are you doing here?” and Manon being like “I go to school here, dipshit”*

* (100% accurate translation)

Wait, this is the same song for the Emma/Yann scene. Is this going to be a Skam France love theme? Will French Even sing it to Lucas?

My favorite thing Emma has done all season was the ensuing text conversation after this clip where she just replies to everything Manon says with “Fuck, you’re so beautiful.”

Clip 3- Emma and Lucas on the steps

The setup of this scene satisfies one of my burning questions, in that I always wondered what the vibe was between Eva and Isak as they walked over the the bench (awkward) and here Lucas joins Emma on the steps so I don’t have to wonder about their weird small talk or painful silence.

This is the first time where I bought Lucas’ acting. He’s still not exactly wowing me, but I thought he was fine here. Maybe he just needs that very large scarf to hide in to make him seem all vulnerable.

“You smoked at the cabin?” Emma, didn’t you literally see them smoking??

Wait, Tom was supposed to be Ingrid‘s brother? That’s what it sounds like, because why else would Yann contact Ingrid if he couldn’t get through to Tom, if Tom is just some unrelated dude who has weed? I thought her brother was some other guy because Elias was not Norwegian Ingrid‘s brother. Surely Emma would know Tom as a result of being Ingrid‘s best friend for years, but I don’t think either of them said anything about that, unless I missed it or can’t remember it. At the cabin I didn’t get the vibe they were anything more than acquaintances via Yann. And if Tom is Ingrid’s brother, then doesn’t it make more sense that Emma would hear Ingrid in the background on the phone, and it wouldn’t automatically be a cause for suspicion? It’s not weird for Yann to hang out with Tom.

I think Tom isn’t supposed to be Ingrid’s brother, but this line of dialogue is confusing, considering they changed it from Yann not being able to reach Ingrid’s brother to not being able to reach Tom. It doesn’t make sense to get Ingrid to get in touch with Tom; the chain should go Tom -> Ingrid’s brother (who also has weed) -> Ingrid.

They changed a bit from where Isak owned up to being shady when Eva asked him about hearing Ingrid‘s voice over the phone, he implied that he kind of suspected it wasn’t anything serious and figured it had to do with the drugs, and he acknowledges that he could’ve told Eva this, and he gave her bad advice to ask Ingrid about it. Lucas says he swears he didn’t know, which is kind of funny because IMO, Lucas seems way sneakier and more plotting in that scene than Isak did.

I do appreciate changes to the material but since they’re keeping most of it the same, I wish that they left in the line about karma being a bitch and Emma understanding how Ingrid would’ve felt, because I think that was a thematically relevant line.

Aw, it was sweet to see how Yann smiled and seemed so happy when Emma called. It’s a shame I like him so much more away from this relationship. He seems so pumped for their meeting. I think Yann is a little needier than Jonas and it affects their relationship positive and negative ways, like I think maybe he’s a little more attentive than Jonas, but he also seems to get more threatened by potential obstacles to their the relationship.

Clip 4 - The Emma/Yann breakup

Yann is so sweet and charming here, like I get why Emma fell for him.

So the final bit of this clip worked pretty well for me!

I said in another post that the three scenes they needed to nail were the skate park, Ingrid in the bathroom, and breakup scene, and while I didn’t think this was as powerful (mostly because the season-long buildup didn’t make it feel as earned) I still thought this was a strong scene, definitely the strongest of those three.

I loved the sweet moment of Yann holding Emma on the steps and them smiling sweetly at each other, and that was an aesthetically appealing, tastefully done semi-sex scene, especially the shot with their hands. Although I did find myself wondering if they sat on the steps and then smiled at each other like “let’s go have breakup sex” or if they banged it out, put their clothes back on, and cuddled outside. TRUE TO THE ORIGINAL in that regard.

More Seinabo Sey songs, love her.

Clip 5 - Ending party

The Emma/Yann hug is really sweet and makes me think the breakup is going to be less fraught, more amiable. which, IDK, it kinda feels like it should be more fraught considering these two are supposed to be very much in love? But it also makes me buy them airing season 2 so soon after S1’s finale, if Yann and Emma are going to be on more friendly terms.

Also the general atmosphere of the scene is more lighthearted. The music too, not as much of a serious tone.

Lucas was all right acting-wise in this scene, too.

INGRID AND EMMA NEED TO HOOK UP. I can’t say I shipped it in OG Skam but here … they should get together.

Ingrid, Sara and Imane dancing together is great.

Also Ingrid is there when Daphne tells Imane and Alex about Charles, awwww.

I love Daphne. I know I’ve said that a million times but she’s the MVP of Skam France.

The shot of Lucas with Yann definitely did not have that immediate SO THAT’S WHY HE DID IT effect. Yo, Skam France, remember how some of us were like “You’re telegraphing Lucas’ crush on Yann too hard?” Well if ever there was a time to project that shit from an IMAX, THIS WAS THE MOMENT.

Forreal, Lucas is paying about as much attention to Yann as to the other dude standing next to them. Where is that OTT longing gaze?

You’re holding a drink, dude, you could give us a dose of innuendo by slurping on that straw while you make eyes at your bro.

But then again, I guess no moment can be as OTT as when you have “Gay Bar” as your musical accompaniment.

There is a major continuity error in the scene because the other guy that is in the scene with Lucas and Yann can be seen behind Manon immediately in the next shot, so either he has a twin who dresses exactly the same or he teleported.

As much as I love Isak’s love of BUTT as the final moment, closing the season on Manon and Charles is a perfectly logical choice for leading into S2. Although lol, the lyrics being like “I’m just waiting for my day to come” are very creepy, Charles. “Cause something inside has changed” is better, though.

General comments:

They should’ve ended this season with the girl squad’s party, dude. Doesn’t that seem like a fitting finale? If the object is to gain popularity at school, shouldn’t they do it as soon as possible so they gain some capital before the popular senior guys leave?

One benefit about airing the next season right after S1 instead of taking a few months is that I can at least buy that they could have the party at the end of season 2. The longer they draw it out, the less it makes sense.

Lucas was definitely panicking and trying to be overly nice in that text to Emma post-Camille’s party. Emma was keeping it cool and Lucas was like I HOPE ALL IS WELL AHAHA WE’RE SO FRIENDLY :D :D :D oh god don’t tell Yann

Right now, I don’t have many thoughts about the season as a whole that I haven’t said before. Emma’s character arc is somewhat muddled, certain plot developments and characterization don’t make sense, the show overuses music, the girl squad dynamic is one of the show’s better qualities, marry me Daphne, marry me Ingrid, etc etc.

My main takeaway is that, out of the three remakes that have aired so far, Skam France definitely has less of a personal identity than Druck or Skam Italia. Even with those shows being early into their first seasons, I can already tell they’re more distinct adaptations with more done to fit their respective cultures. That’s not to say either of those versions are perfect or that Skam France doesn’t have its own strengths, but I would very much like to see Skam France develop more of a unique personality. Not sure if they can do that until S3 since they’ve already filmed S2 and can’t incorporate viewer feedback. It depends on how much it is going to reflect original Skam’s S2; judging by the trailer, it feels like the answer is A Lot.

#skamfr reactions

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hearingmyselftalk · 3 years

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interesting phenomenon, really

the things you learn from the people that you date.

you learn what you like and what you don’t like, what you’ll tolerate and what you absolutely won’t stand for... but something i never thought about until my last relationship is: what are peoples thresholds forreal? and at what point is acknowledging these thresholds the right time to?

what do i mean by thresholds? people’s tolerance, expounded. what are people really willing to put up with when it comes to a boyfriend/girlfriend. you know how people date and joke around and say, “if i were to get into some kind of freak accident and left bound to a wheelchair for the rest of my life, would you still love me?” that’s a super high threshold innit?

if we were to scale a threshold or were to explain different levels of tolerance as scenarios to ME, they would go as follows;

-losing a job -finding out you’re depressed/anxious some other kind of mental ailment -repetitive, never ending, annoying arguments -physical ailment, something long term or something like losing a limb, or facial disfigurement -toxic arguments where there are often low-blows, using something said in confidence to you as a defense, verbal abuse -terminal illness of yourself or direct family members -death of a close family member

along the lines, i’m sure there are other various scenarios that would test a persons tolerance or their threshold for dealing with you like if you murdered someone or, just having too different of opinions or even something smaller (i guess i figure the smaller things would get weeded out earlier because if those things bother you now, you figure you would address them now, but that’s for another time) however, you really have to know the person you’re dealing with.

that’s really my bottom line. it sounds so simple like when you say it outloud, but really, investing so much emotionally and mentally into a person, when it comes down to bullet two, repetitive, annoying never ending fights... i’m just different because one) i believe in picking and choosing your battles and two) i genuinely have thought ive found the person that i would obviously prefer not to have fights with, but if they were gonna be with anybody, they’d be with you...and it doesn’t ever happen like that for me is what i’m trying to say.

i’ve grown EXPONENTIALLY when it comes down to how i handle my relationships. i really really need to work on the whole “leave before you get left” ideology because it’s not working. it just doesn’t work. and that’s not even what i really want. i’m truly a lover, and im a firm believer in fighting for the shit that you really want. nobody ever wants to fight for me though. LOL. i read in mark mansons book unfuck yourself, about being a winner. telling myself we weren’t going to end up together and we would stop talking, is me being me, self sabotaging, and at this point, miss me with manifestation because that shit doesn’t work for me either, but saying that and then it happening is literally me winning. but in the bad way. in the way that mark said that we fuck ourselves. by inadvertently or subconsciously and even really more often than not consciously make decisions and essentially have thoughts that turn into exactly what ends up happening. i end up winning but not really in the way i want.

but then i ask myself, can i even be mad, really? can i? i knew that he wasn’t sure about me for a long time, so i believe i’m equally guilty of knowing the cards could have fell like this. but then the lover in me says, i stayed to see if anything would change, but the reality is, you can’t love someone into loving you. and as much as i wanted to put a lot of ... i don’t want to say blame but a lot of the weight on “a man” knowing about you, right, knowing if you’re “the one” or “her”, but i feel like if you’re in a place where you’re even questioning if you think he’s certain about you, or if you’re ballsy enough and wanna fucking ask, hey, how do you really feel about me, do you feel like i could be right, or am i just for right now, and if he straight up tells you, it ain’t you, you’ve got choices, but one of them ISN’T getting mad at the fact ya’ll break up because he finally decided he didn’t want to be with you anymore.

how mad can you get, can you be, really, right? if you willingly participate and spend time and make yourself available for someone who reciprocates time and energy but not affection. they won’t talk about relationships with you in a realistic way. they speak to you as if everything is up in the air and they have no kind of control or role to play in the situation. you can’t be mad at that. you can’t blame someone for finally making up their mind.

and, speaking of getting mad, you can’t get mad about someone not being sure about spending the rest of their life with you, or even what a future looks like with you, if you yourself can’t even see the future!! make it make sense. the only concrete plan i really have for myself is suicide, and i’m a super high functioning depressive, so that sounds really sad or whatever, but i mean, really, that’s the only thing my mind reverts to whenever i think about the future forreal. even when i’m “happy*”, i don’t ever see me 5 or 10 years from now, like in a better place, happy.

i wonder if that’s because i’m just a negative, miserable ass person, or if, like i’ve said before, my depression just really does not allow me to see into the future. i don’t even like trying to project months time, because fuck, anything could happen. it seems easier to predict negative timelines or realities than positive ones, because my happiness doesn’t really seem to exceed 2 years. and sick of me to frame the basis of my happiness on when i was in relationships but i know me. but really, i don’t see anything when i think about the future, it’s like just this completely blank slate and anything could happen... it’s like im sure ill be alive i guess somewhere but living where? doing what? with who and i had what? nah. it’s just not, realistic, i can’t plan for something i can’t even imagine.

but i don’t know why being in relationships make me happy?? i’ve tried to reason it within myself and i’ve got some pretty solid theories: - weird familial dynamic when it came to showing and expressing love to each other has me desperate for a non obligatory love, that actually caters to my love language - obviously being with someone who makes you feel good and you vibe with and shit literally does shit to your chemically but yeah what the fuck ever -trying to make up for attention i didn’t get when my sister was sick, so i’ve turned to romantic love as an escape, or attach romantic love with feeling happy because i was in a serious relationship with someone when my sister first got sick so having that person to go to made me feel better -unprotected sex -im just a codependent person because i dont have any other friends, hobbies, interests or activities i like to do, so being up under someone and consumed with them gives me something to do -gives me hope?

i think i might really be getting down and into some shit right now... i was going to say to myself well why would being in a relationship give me hope, and i know i was saying that because i often feel worthless and like nobody will love me forreal, but it’s like, why is that the basis of happiness for me? i love love, but love might not really fuck with me forreal because the fact that i even am doing this shit for love, but getting fucked by love, or letting some fuck ass boy tell me i’m worthless like be an end all be all for me... or somebody deciding that they don’t want to be with me or that i’m not the girl they want to spend their life with, why should that bother and break me so bad?

why does that end up being the bottom line or how shit comes back around? i didn’t really attach the fact that i was with someone that made me feel good when i was going through something that would change my life forever. completely. i think this is it. i rely so heavily on relationships as a source of happiness because when i was at my lowest, my relationship made me feel good.

it just dawned on me, i’ve never had a relationship that ended on a healthy amicable note, or that wasn’t overly explosive and “passionate”... and i think i blow up because i associate people i love leaving me, with abandoning me to be back alone with my problems i have due to my sister being sick.

im unpacking these things. that is a completely new concept that i had never thought about or realized before. i knew i was USING relationships to overcompensate.... i remember telling ____ _, i use people/guys im dating as an escape from my reality. when you don’t want to see someone losing their mind, you want to be with anybody that can keep you away from that and make you feel good about yourself. you want to be with and around someone that’s going to make you feel normal.

that’s another thing i’ve been thinking about lately... my lack of knowledge about various kinds of mental health fucked me too. if i had even an inkling that it was a much grander spectrum than crazy socio psycho i would have been better prepared. i blame tv. i blame schools. nowadays, you see advertisements for all kinds of mental health issues. and good for people now to be exposed, but i feel like i was blindsided by not knowing. i would have spent less time being upset about it because i would have known better.

i feel like i kind of just, one day got tossed into that life, or like literally that’s when my season of the truman show, but featuring me was on. and it was just a terrible fucking time in my life.

i started taking some drugs to help, i stopped them though, but they did really work. i just wish i didn’t have to remember them or stay on such a routine about it... i didn’t feel anything at all. and that’s how i would love to feel all the time. just neutral. i remember watching a soldier coming home and surprising their mom or something video and wanted to cry even just happy tears and my body wouldn’t do it. i said i would take a pill before tomorrow, when i’m supposed to be meeting up with the guy who i’ve spent the out of the last 16 months? all but 3 collectively (if you added up all the single days out of the last 16 months, it would probably equate to 3 months i did not see this person), and now we don’t talk. i’m crushed but also ^^^ ????? you see what the fuck i’m talking about. i can’t be mad.

that’s really what i keep saying to myself. literally, everyday i tell myself. “he’s going to talk to, and have sex with, and date, and kiss and talk to other people. he probably is now. he is going to date her for a couple of months, make her his girlfriend, they will get engaged, or have a baby and that is what will happen because we are 30 and that’s what happens when you’re 30. you find someone else and you just move on” no joke. i say that to myself everyday. it really helps too, because when we first stopped talking, i used to get the worst gut wrenching anxiety, to the point i would feel like i was going to throw up. thinking about him with someone else, laying up with someone else, exploring and just doing the little shit with someone else, it stings, but i did get through typing out that off the script part of my mantra about the reality of dating without my stomach turning too much.

my body had been tried to tell me to get out. and i ignored it for so long. i don’t think we would rekindle this relationship. if it was up to him we would never talk about it again, and we would actually probably never talk again. if i see him tomorrow, if he doesn’t flake on me. i know the whole vibe will be different. i know he won’t try to sit next to me or want to talk about it. i’m just going to be coming over as a friend, to smoke and watch black monday.

the real test will be going into his crib and sitting in his presence, it’s been over a month, and my stomach is actually going crazy thinking about that, but again, that’s my ever active imagination. i’ve always had one, even as a kid. thinking up literally the most dramaticized versions of situations that would never ever ever fucking happen, like really like some only in the movies shit and even then it would be a fucking corny ass cringey ass movie. im getting queasy thinking about some shit and how awkward it will be, and he’ll end up texting me to cancel the whole shit before this misery can actually play itself out. lmao.

it hurts to feel replaceable when we were so cool though. and honestly, dating him is a regret i actually have. i regret that, forreal. i would have preferred to just have been friends. because knowing what i know and have been known, that i was i never her, i always knew that wasn’t going to magically change for me, even if i played along and put on the monkey suit. it was always on some “im just tryna see” shit.... it’s like why even mix shit up or get so involved? i knew he didn’t know, he knew he didn’t know, we both knew he didn’t know, and the conversation “youre either gonna accept it, and stay or leave” it’s literally so fucking insulting but when you actually fuck around and accept it and stay, that’s when you’re sick and you fucked up on some real shit. but when you’re thinking to yourself “if i leave, this nigga won’t care” and like you KNOW, leaving would only prove yourself right... you really just feel stupid.

but that’s really my thing though. at the end of the day, i was really fed up, ready to get the fuck on and be over it. i was mad and upset and talking crazy and real slick, but after a few weeks i would have reached back out to him like i dont want beef, and i legitimately don’t think i would be here now dwelling on shit. it’s like i was already out the door right, like, i had all my shit, my coat, keys, phone, wallet, mask, feelings, everything. i had never been so ready to be out in mY LIFEEEE... and then it’s like you went and did the one thing i put emphasis on meaning something to me and like at an attempt to grasp straws or like not lose the fight, you did that, and then turned around and flipped on me and now treat me like i said fuck your mother, eat shit, i hope you die.... i’m just confused. that’s why im torn like am i really not shit... or do the people i meet and glorify really just be terrible people? i kind of think just off the fact that he did that, i shouldn’t talk to him ever again. to practically beg me to not stop talking to you, it like literally feels like you only did that shit so that YOU could be the one breaking things off. and that’s beyond petty to me. it’s super vindictive, and like we say shit is mean, and people are mean, but like in the context of things, doing something especially specific to someone that to them means you care, and then renege on that, you might as well had just spit in my face forreal.

i have a feeling stronger now, that we won’t link up tomorrow.

link. lol. at 3:50 IN THE MORNING he texted me asking me about this stick figure dancing really silly that i sent it to him talking about thats how i dance in his kitchen, and it’s hard to think he wasn’t up after having just fucked someone and probably saw something similar to that and was dying laughing thinking about the one i sent... so when i sent it to him, he asked for a link to it, probably because the screenshot of the video i sent had me laughing in it or something, and he couldn’t show that to the new girl bc “he texted a “friend” (non gender specific) and they had the video and wanted to see if they still had it”

but a goofy i am that i thought he mayyyy have meant link with me, with all that extra emphasis, and of course, when i replied in extra innocent confusion, i don’t have the link only a screen recording.. he said oh. lol.

when we decided to stop talking in general it was goofy. i email him saying i miss you, he unblocks my number and texts me somewhere between i miss you too and im pissed off still and so we talk and he’s like oh i spent this last week hating you for no reason and yadda yadda and then that segways into me talking about us being done, and he goes “why are you so finite about everything, i need to time to just sit and think” just to still turn around in the same day and be like yeah naw we don’t talk now. everything is a mixed message, but i’m just gonna chalk it i wouldn’t dare even try to bring the shit up unless he tried to. but that was it. like okay we don’t talk no more. and again we didn’t have screaming matches or block each others number again after that or any other petty fights. so for us to go from seeing each other to every day to it’s been over a month, and texting someone who would text you back within 3 minutes, not even respond to you for hours or even the same day.... the shit is all just weird. it really makes me even second guess being around him because it’s like, i know i still care, but that’s just me hurting myself to care. at this point, he’s accepted that it’s over and done with and his life will go on and he’ll date new people and hang out with new girls and get to know them and like completely throw me away like the fact that it doesn’t even feel like this person is even a friend now is completely beyond me. maybe im just that fucking far removed from dating and breaking up so me expecting someone to still want to talk to me is asinine and insane but what the fuck ever.

honestly, i’m a better writer or more expressive when i’m depressed. in a manic depressive episode, i thought for a second, if i start documenting what i write when i’m sad, and i get a really good series of short sad stories or these bouts of where i just want to say some shit like this whole post, then when i kill myself someone will find them and ill be like a fucking world renown emo writer like poe, saying beautiful miserable shit that people relate to and relate to it so much more because the pain of what i go through is seared into them, so they get it.

pain.... i thought earlier about pain and suicide..... and how people who are suicidal and are looking for a way out but would like it to be as painless as possible are people who already deal with too much pain they know they can’t take anymore because they want to leave, but they literally also can’t take anymore because it’s like, give me a fucking break. then you have the suicidal people who do shit like suicide by cop or slit their wrists or set themselves on fire and shit, and i think, people like that feel so much pain, maybe they’re incapable of even registering the out as painful... maybe having to feel that is nothing compared to how they feel all the time...

#just rambling

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thecharlesdilaurentis-blog · 7 years

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7x19: FArewell my lovely

*WARNING SPOILERS*

"Hanna monas AD." GIRL U ARE FARTHER FROM THE TRUTH YALL GOTTA STOP JUMPING TO CONCLUSIONS SO QUICK EVEN WE COULD SMELL THAT RED HERRING FROM A MILE AWAY

"I'll convince her" ok yea Caleb cause y'all are secret agent friends we all know it just admit it already

Ezra talking like he knows AD personally or something, like he's been the one getting texts or something. I see u Ezra u can't fool me.

But he was right about everyone in the room making mistakes & the look on everyone's face when he said it HA I loved it

Ooooo looks like AD stole the game back "time for pie"??? Is that not screaming EzrA to anyone??? especially the crows.

Mary really does seem like she's the nice twin but I can't help but think she's still more involved than we think

"It took me so long to finally get here w/ you, I'm not gonna loose it now." MY EMISON HEART UGH EMILY YOU DESERVE THE WORLD ALI BETTER GIVE IT TO YOU

AD PUT A GAS LEAK (But nothing ended up happening so i’m confused wtf marlene)

Did anyone else notice how when the video of ali kept playing on a loop she wanted emily to quickly turn it off, almost like she didnt want anymore questions raised about ‘That night’

"I'm not interested in you doing anymore sacrifices for your friends" BOYYYYYY IF U DONT GTFOH WITH ALL THAT THE ONLY SACRIFICES SHES MADE SO FAR ARE FOR YOUUUUUU OMG I AM DEAD I HATE EZRA I LOVE IAN HARDING BUT I HATE EZRA

YEAH OF COURSE MONA LOOKS NERVOUS SHE STOLE ADs GAME AND THAT ASSHOLE KNEW & STOLE IT BACK I WOULD BE NERVOUS TOO SHE ONLY GOT INVOLVED IN THIS CRAZY SHIT AGAIN B/C HER POOR LIL HEART STILL WANTS TO BE ACCEPTED BY YALL UGH IM SO MAD

Hanna the only one who ever gives Mona the benefit of the doubt now that's a somewhat real friend lmao

"You two are fighting like a married couple.." AWKWARD we are. Spaleb who??

Lmao Caleb annoys me a lot now but I am not gonna lie dude has BALLS idk if that's a good or bad thing tho.

But like I said before him and Mona are too comfortable around each other. Look how easy she's talking to him and how calm he is with her. They have to be working together they just have to be!! (Not like as AD but idk as investigators to track AD or something, they know each other tea choices THERE AIN’T NO COINCIDENCES IN ROSEWOOD)

"There's always been someone watching, manipulating." Girl yes I been saying this since day one!!! Bethany young, twincer, wren, ezrA you may make your appearance now.

Lol I knew that waiter left a note from AD, like u said Mona, they be watching

By the looks of Mona running they had to have said meet me in the back or something, Mona READY to see who keeps jacking her games lol

ANOTHER SECRET PASSAGE WAY GAH DAMN ROSEWOOD PROBABLY GOT THE WHOLE DAMN UNDERGROUND RAILROAD UNDER THERE

YES ARIA TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR ACTIONS I LOVE IT AT LEAST SOMEONE IS

Come on though I knew that body was gone the minute I realized they left it in the car

I'm not mad that they reshot the classroom scene or that it ended up being a dream but I would've much rather the dream be Ali's than Emily's dream the "emma thornwald" name would be a lot more relevant b/c how in the fucking world would emily know that. & why put that scene as the cliffhanger?? That's so anticlimactic! They could've put the liars burying Rollins but not showing who it was, or charlotte clutching the rose, or fuck even the fucking girls sipping mimosas w/ Mona would've been more climatic than that shit.

"AD doesn't get notes they give them." Finally someone has a clue, go Caleb I get points.

Btw idk if I really enjoyed that spaleb moment or if I just really love Troian & her amazing acting, her whole part in that scene was just perfect!

Was it a little weird to anyone else that Alison was the one who apologized to aria first?? I think it's because she knows she still has her own secrets/mistakes that haven't come to light.

Ooooo I bet this tunnel that spaleb is in is going to lead to the church and radley.

So Mona must have a split personality disorder or something cause the way she's telling on herself to Hanna and how she's dressed just give off a total old school Mona vibe like radley Mona vibe. Hanna really fucked up by letting her fuck with that game she should've just killed charlotte and GOT GONE GIRL. lol Ali 2.0 forreal this time.

I also figured she had some altercation w/ charlotte that was the only person I could see her saying "am I supposed to be scared of you?" Too lol I love ceces sass.

I love how Mona knew everything & I also think it's funny but slightly choosy how charlotte said "you always were the smart one Mona, not spencer."

I think this charlotte flashback is the FUCKING BEST THING EVER

Ceces such a bitch it almost doesn't seem like she's the charles she explained in her story. Like literally she’s not charles.

So I guess Mona does have a personality disorder and she's even convinced one said that the liars are actually her friends wow I'm sad. I love her :(

& I think it's now clear cece was planning to start the game right back up again but this time bigger and better it seems "not only did u lose the game you lost the story, its mine, everything's mine... god I hate this town I guess I'm supposed to do something about that too."

Fuck janels performance is EVERYTHING I am loving this flashback!!!!!

But did anyone else notice how we never actually SAW mona push the body off and fake the suicide. She could’ve ran and someone else came and covered it up. Like mona said to hanna she didnt mean to mess it up but what exactly did she mess up?? she didnt cover up the murder someone else did.

I think Hanna spoke for everyone when she said "not really an answer"

I told y'all Mary was gonna take the fall

Wow andrea Parker did so well at playing both Mary & Jessica

In the end im still confused and my brain hurts

OKAY SO, obvi alot of my predictions were a miss but I did get a few, I knew mary was gonna take the fall, I did see a few ali clues not a ton though maybe ill find more in the rewatch, I was right about mona getting into a fight with charlotte and somehow being involved in her murder & the episode did feel like a lame finale so I guess thats pretty good! This episode was amazing from start to finish they really kicked it into high gear for these last few episodes i’m finally seeing a picture in this crazy ass puzzle we call PLL. I’m trying not to expect alot from the finale but I just really hope it is as satisfying as all the cast say it’s going to be.

After this i’m really starting to hop on board with twincer, ezrA, or even Toby after seeing the finale promo. I’m going out of town for the next week so tomorrow i’ll post my finale PLL theory & then ill be off til the finale! It’s been real guys and although i’m ready for closure i’m also going to miss reading everyones amazing theories and all the possibilities this show could have gone with.

Tell me all you last minute theories!!! I wanna know what everyones thinking before the finale and how we all see this shit tying together!

#PLL #PLL thoughts #pll theories #pll spoilers #PLL post #pll final episodes #pll 7x19

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just-seheun · 6 years

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bye 2017, hey 2018

I feel like I always get around to writing an end of the year post on tumblr even if i never really even get to use this site during the year.

well I guess it’s that time of the year (or new year I should say) where I try and look back as well as look forward.

let’s see what happened in 2017...

- let’s say, for one, ‘Murica as a whole kinda went through a lot of bullshit (still is honestly) - we’re getting rid of DACA, the tax cut bill was passed (holla @ the rich 10% and say bye to the other 90%), we’re slowly trying to get rid of/fuck up the EPA despite climate change being very real (if category 4-5 hurricanes occurring back to back is what we’d call “real”), and ya know just the firing of members of the HIV/AIDS awareness and prevention council in the government - to name a few (not to mention, continued police brutality, racial discrimination/injustice (tbh just racism as a whole), and dumb ass fucking people who - ugh

well, moving on to maybe more lighthearted moments...

- I tried to infiltrate the Asian community a little more with (mixed, mostly unsuccessful) efforts. Idk man I tried. I think I did make stronger relationships with the Asian friends I started out with so, I think that’s definitely a major plus. (*insert thumbs up here*)

- also, kinda along with that one, I think I dived into more adventurous food/hangout spots in terms of finding kinda Asian hubs and places I vibe with (an accomplishment of last year too that I think worked and flourished even more in 2017).

- Kind of cooled down with the whole going out scene. I still go out occasionally and have a pretty good time but it’s definitely dwindled down. We definitely started the year going out more but like I said, definitely calmed down a lot.

- Went to my first Terp Thon FTK! Started my TTPT journey with the 1 million dollar year - pretty crazy and amazing. It was truly and unreal experience for all those kids and wouldn’t have changed it for anything. Super sad I won’t be there for Terp Thon 2018 though.

- oh! successfully (kinda) resurrected my GPA from a sad 2.7 (result of getting a 1.7 from failing calc2 and getting a D in bio) to a nice and solid 3.23 which I am tbh very proud of. A 3.8 and 3.88 (technically straight As - woo hooooo) these last two semesters - yay! Just also improving in school as a whole. I’m really starting to enjoy what I’m doing. yeah, spring ‘17 sem was more chill and fall ‘17 sem was more like hell but, overall I’m pretty excited about the work and studies I get to do. (like hell as in 3 2900-3200-word papers in the span of like 2 weeks)

- Another academic thing, I added Art History (officially) as a Double Major which probably means a winter term here or there but still very exciting. I also feel like I’ve really learned a lot about the fundamentals of art history that I really felt like I was missing this whole time. Just like the basic timeline of movements and key artists from Burgundian Netherlands to Venice to Rococo to Realism to Cubism (and all its various forms) to Der Blauer Reiter to Contemporary and everything in between. All cool stuff - definitely makes you pay attention more to dates and stuff when visiting galleries and museums and just makes me feel more in the know if nothing else.

- Again, another academic thing, I’m officially in the English Honors Program - woo hoo! This does, however, mean I’ll be writing a 25-page thesis but honestly it’ll be fine, I’m fine, it’s all fine... I mean I don’t really know what I’m gonna write about and I have to skype my professor for like 2 months in the summer but hey, it’s all good and if it’s not I’ll just figure it out (*insert nervous sheepish grin here*)

- Kind of started the process of cutting off 아빠 which take that with a grain of salt. It’s a mess tbh, I don’t even know what to say honestly.

- Finally left Slaveway for good. It really tbh started becoming too much of a risk and just uncomfortable for me to stay. Not an awful job (despite the shit customers a lot of the time) but I just couldn’t stay longer.

- I feel like there was also definitely a more solidifying of sustained relationships and a distancing in others. I don’t know definitely still a lot just up in the air and a lot of familiar faces but a lot of new things and stronger bonds in 2017.

(now, post looking at my snapchat memories from the year and realizing how much shit I did this year... lol)

- I went to 2 concerts (kinda); one being 2 Chainz and all of the many acts that came before him at Art Attack 2017 and the other being Khalid’s bomb American Teen Tour concert at the Filmore that I initially just went to because Sam wanted to go and Anh had an extra ticket that ended up being real lit.

- Had like a little fame after writing an Odyssey Online article about Moco which was kinda cool and kinda ridiculous lol. I also just stopped writing for them all together after like less than one sem rip.

- Also realizing I went to a lot of really cool exhibits and art-related things this past year which I’m really happy about actually. Yayoi Kusama’s exhibit was crazy amazing and well worth the wait. Artec house was really cool and just visiting the NGA, the PMA, the Hirshorn, the Freer/Sackler with a fresh and more knowledgeable outlook was really nice. Also starting those solo museum trips during the sem was really nice no matter how short-lived they were.

Honestly this year was very different from 2016 in many many ways. I think there’s been a lot more growth in this past year but I and the community around me definitely went through a lot.

- Something I realized this past year in unfortunate circumstances, was the prevalence of loss and losing individuals close to your community. I never thought things like death, loss, grief, and suicide were things that I would ever come across (let alone, this often) at this age. We really did lose a lot of young lives that were filled with so much potential and hope this past year especially in this community, including an old classmate. Things that we always thought to be intangible and far away landed right in front of us and I don’t think a lot of us including myself still know how to grasp all of that. It’s hard to see the people around you, the ones you grew up with and always had by your side whether you knew them well or not, lead such a tragic fate. This year made us think about mental health more and more. You realize in the most unfortunate circumstances that everyone has there own demons that they’re fighting. No one is free from them. Even in regards to Jonghyun, it affects everyone in the darkest of ways.

This past year really made me think more about how fragile life truly is. I’ve dealt with and still deal with my own demons and the dark thoughts of my past and truly wonder especially in light of all the tragic events from this past year, what things would be like. It would be a lie if I said that they didn’t make me wonder about past thoughts of my own more.

I think it’s sad to think that even as I wonder about all this, I still feel empty about it in the midst of being unable to process it all. I feel like in a way, whether as a result from school distracting me and my own self protecting or shielding itself, I’ve grown numb. I feel like my own mind is trying to avoid emotions at all cost in a way that’s pushing away emotion and problems by just not dealing with them (which by no means is the right way to deal with things at all bc you’re not dealing with anything). I don’t know, I guess I’m getting by and I’m not as broody as I was in the past but I wouldn’t say I’ve improved, I’ve just kind of paused in a way I guess.

I want to end this post with a brighter look toward the future though. I think 2018 has a lot of potential waiting to happen with lots of things to look forward to that I think should be highlighted in this post. After all, a new year means moving forward, not burying your past necessarily but, using the past to cast light on the future.

So with that, things to look forward to in 2018...

- First things first, STUDY ABROAD IN ROME for Spring ‘18 sem! I mean it doesn’t get more exciting and new than this honestly. Yes, I am super stressed and there’s so much stuff to do besides the fact that I’m paranoid and don’t know what to expect at all. I’ve never traveled abroad in my life, let alone lived away from home (ever) so this is just gonna be absolutely nuts tbh. I have lots of hopes though. Do I want a fairytale, movie-like experience? Lowkey, of course. But I also try to be a harsh realist when I can so, we’re staying generally tame about our study abroad fantasies lol. Still, I’m hoping this will be a chance to make new friends and hopefully make some of them in my art history classes as well as in the school in general. It’s been a hard few years in the whole making friends department seeing as how all my past roommates are very antisocial. Yes, I myself am also very much like this but that doesn’t mean my internal self doesn’t want a lot of friends lol. I’m excited to take a class with Evelyn and just experience the city while hopefully staying safe and smart. It’ll be a crazy and hopefully amazing semester with a lot of travel and just a lot of fun before my senior year. I could go on and on about all my thoughts and hopes for this coming semester but, I’ll just leave it at that (your girl really needs to sort her life out/figure out what to pack/pack/schedule the rest of my home excursions/get her documents together/everything else. Bottom line: we’re a mess lol.

- Hopefully a summer internship. Forreal forreal like actually. Your girl was stuck at safeway again this past year and we’re not having that shit again. Nope nuh-uh, not happening. Not this year mm mm, no. We’re gonna find one. We have to - it’s gonna happen. Trust and believe. Trust and believe!

- Also turning 21 this year (although, this probs won’t be exciting seeing as how I’ll be legal all semester while I’m abroad, then come home and be nonlegal for another like 2 months and then be legal again). Look, I’m just looking forward to getting mimosas and going to bars without memorizing random identity information from Illinois.

- Also 2018 is really gonna be a year for me to REALLY think about me. In all contexts, really. Academically; figuring out what it is I really want from my education and working toward making the most out of it, finding a real path for myself in terms of grad school and other things school-related. Lifewise; gauging how I’m going to continue my life. Graduation is coming faster than I can think and by this time next year, I’ll be gearing up for my last semester as an undergrad. That is so wild. 2018 is really gonna be me trying to buckle down, I suppose. Trying to cloud out my peers and their success/failures/paths and really try to hone in on myself. It’ll be a challenge but we’ve got to start somewhere, right?

All in all a lot was thrown onto the table in 2017 in a lot of different ways. It’s been a different kind of roller-coaster with much much more to come after this year (my favorite number year really, 2017). 2018 will be a test of time and one of the biggest challenges but, also hopefully a year with a lot of hope and potential for success. Wishing everyone the brightest new year with health, opportunities, growth, and burgeoning happiness! Cheers to all 2018 has to offer all of us and to all the things 2017 gave us!

#new year's #new year #bye 2017 #hello 2018 #2018 #2017 #일기 #새해 #새해 많이 받아랏 #thoughts #new year new challenges

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sinandredemptionff · 7 years

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Chapter 14: Secrets and Betrayal

Robyn POV:

I stepped onto the plane and took my seat. I waved to Don one final time at the window. He waved back as he wiped his face. Was he crying? I hope not.

"Mrs. Brown, would you like anything to drink?"

"Bring me whatever alcohol y'all have."

"Sure."

After two glasses of vodka and cranberry, I decided to take a nap.

*3 Hours Later*

"We have arrived." The flight attendant said waking me up.

I yawned and looked out the window. I saw our family car and Chris getting out with a bouquet of roses. I unbuckled my seatbelt and hurriedly made my way off the jet and into his arms.

He picked me up and we began having a makeout session. It was getting intense but we didn't care. We're married and we missed each other.

"Man you don't know how happy I am that you're back." He said.

"I think I have an idea."

"I gotta get your ass home. Come on."

"Where are my babies?"

"With my mom. She's had them out all day and they’re staying in a hotel tonight. I didn't tell them that you'd be back today, so it's a surprise."

"I can't wait to see them."

When we got home I immediately went to lay in my bed.

"It feels so good to be back in my own house."

"I bet." Chris said lying next to me.

"Especially being back with my husband by my side."

I cuddled up to him and he began to kiss me as his hands roamed my body. I let out a soft moan and he smiled. I climbed on top of him not breaking from our kiss and unbuttoned his shirt. The doorbell rang interrupting us.

"Fuck, who is it?" He turned the surveillance camera on the tv to see who was at the front door.

It was my girls smiling and making faces at the camera.

"My sisters are here!!" I said excitedly and hopping off of him.

"You really told them you're back already?"

"Oh yea sorry, I actually texted them when we were on our way. I didn't know they would come over."

"Tell them to leave."

"I'm not doing that."

"Unlike some men I love your friends but we haven't seen each other in months, and I missed the fuck out of you. This might be the only time we have to ourselves for a while."

"I missed you too honey but they're here now, and I'm not going to tell them to leave. I'll make it up to you, ok?"

"Fine!" He said and I gave him a quick peck.

"I'm coming bitches!" I yelled as I jogged down the stairs.

I opened the door and hugged everyone individually then we did a group hug.

"We missed you sis." Mel said.

"I missed y'all too. Now pop open that bottle and let's talk."

We got some fruit and wine, and went into the den. We sat on the floor Indian style.

"Tell us everything about NY." Mya said.

“Yes, how did you like my state?” Jessica added.

"Girl there's so much to tell."

"Spill it."

"Here's your phone. I'm going over to Trey's house to meet with the homies." Chris interrupted.

"Thanks and ok let me know when you make it."

"Aight."

"Hey to you too Christopher." Jessica said.

"Hi."

"Umm is someone upset?"

"Yea, he's cranky because y'all interrupted something."

"Oop we're sorry bro, we didn’t know."

"It's cool, bye y'all." He said leaving.

"You didn't tell us that you were about to give up the goods and now he's mad at us. That man is probably so frustrated." Monique said.

"He'll be ok. He waited over 2 months he can wait another few hours."

"Chile I guess, anyway back to New York. What happened?"

I told them every detail about my experience and showed them pictures of the new store.

"How are the people there? Did you make new friends?"

"She better not had replaced us." Mya said.

"I could never. I met a few nice people. What were y'all up to?" I said changing the subject.

"Nah sis you're not getting off that easy. I know you too well and I know you're not telling us something. Who was he?" Mel said and everyone looked at me. I didn't say anything and downed my glass of wine.

"Oh bitch!! See I knew something was up because as much as you talk about Chris I know you would've left us outside for the D. So spill!!" Monique said eating a strawberry.

"Don't tell us you cheated on Chris." Jessica said.

"No! I would never in my life cheat on my husband."

"What happened then because the way you're acting says a lot."

"Nothing happened. I met a guy named Don and we became close. I considered him just a friend, but today when he dropped me off at the airport something seemed off."

"What do you mean?"

“I think he has feelings for me. He didn’t say it but that’s the vibe I got.”

"I don't know what to say."

"Did you do anything to lead him on or think that you were interested?"

"He knows that I'm happily married and have a family. I would go over to his place for dinner sometimes and play with his son. We spent a lot of time together but I was just nice to him."

"Sis you're fine and have a dope personality, niggas are going to fall for you eventually." Monique said.

"What am I supposed to do?"

“I want to know what he looks like.” I pulled out my phone and showed them a picture of us from his son’s birthday party.

“Oh shit he is fine!” Monique blurted out.

“Mo!!”

“Oops I mean he’s aight.”

“Robyn, do you possibly have feelings for him?”

“What?”

“Do you have more feelings for him than you’re putting on?” Mel asked.

“Honestly, I thought about it.”

“Giiirrrrl no ma’am. You can’t do that to Chris.” Monique said.

“Real shit Robs because Chris is a good man.” Jessica agreed.

“Y’all think I don’t know how great my husband is? Of course I know. I’m the one with him therefore y’all can’t tell me shit. Excuse me.” I said getting up.

I went to sit in the backyard by myself. I got slightly pissed about them trying to imply that I didn’t value my husband. I’ve been through it all with that man and I know him better than anyone. Those are my best friends and I didnt expect them to come at me like that.

“Robyn, we’re sorry.” I heard them say and I rolled my eyes.

“We didn’t mean to get you upset. We just know how much you and Chris went through to get to this point, and we would hate to see someone come in between that. Can you please forgive us? We love you.” Monique said.

“Ugh I guess I can and I love y’all too.”

“Now what you were saying earlier sis?” Mya said.

“Like I said I thought I had feelings for him but I realized it was only because he was there. I was used to having male attention from Chris every day that it was weird not having it until I met Don. He was there for me the same way Chris is except there was no sexual interactions what so ever, but when I saw Chris at the airport I was reminded why he is the man I married. When I kissed him again I realized there’s no way I can have feelings for another man when all of my heart belongs to him.”

“Damnit sis, you make me sick with this cute shit.” Monique said wiping her eyes.

“Are you crying forreal?”

“Shut up, y’all know I’m sensitive.”

“Girl here’s a napkin, but anyways I understand what you’re saying Robs and it makes sense.” Jessica said.

“I get it too. I mean you’re used to affection and attention, and when Don showed you that you developed a temporary grade school crush. It’s no big deal honestly.”

"Exactly!" I replied.

They shifted the conversation and got on what they've been up to. However, my mind stayed on the one we just had. I can't think about this anymore. Don is a great guy and he'll be perfect for someone else.

Chris POV:

"Why aren't your women with y'all?" I said when I walked into the den of Trey's house.

"Because they're with Robyn."

"Right and that's the problem."

"Why is that a problem?"

"Nigga probably ain't have the chance to get it in before they came over." Trey said and they all laughed hysterically.

"I'm glad y'all think it's funny."

“Ok y’all, leave a brother alone. It’s hard when a man is going through a drought.” Jermaine said.

“Thank you, at least someone understands my pain.” I quickly go quiet after my last statement.

“Well I’m sorry I can’t relate.” Trey said.

"What about you and Monique?"

"Wait, you just reminded me that we haven't had sex yet, thanks a lot Mijo. Nevermind fam I can relate."

"How is that working out for y'all?" Jermaine asked.

"Pretty well actually, thanks for asking." Trey replied.

"No problem man."

"Back to the subject at hand." I said.

“Seriously all jokes aside bro, I told Monique to not go over there. She’s hard headed.” Trey said.

My mind keeps reverting back to Robyn’s trip and I can’t help but to think she isn’t telling me everything. I know that woman all too well.

“Y’all don’t think Robyn would…?” I can’t even say the word.

“Would what?” Mijo asked confusingly.

“Cheat?” I replied lowly.

“You never know what someone is capable of doing when you’re not around and I don’t put anything past anyone. However, in this case bruh no. That woman loves you too much, she has shown that. Why would you ask that?”

“I don’t know, it was stupid to think anyway. I’m trippin’ but let’s talk about something else. Trey, how is your relationship with Mo going?”

“Great! She’s given me what I didn’t know I needed in my life.”

“Are you two official yet?” Shad chimed in as he walked in from the kitchen munching on a snack. Trey gave him a funny look and shook his head.

“Just because y’all are my niggas doesn’t mean you all are free to eat me out of a house and home.”

“That’s exactly what it means. Stop trippin’ we’ve been tight since like the third grade. You’re practically my brother, now answer my question about Monique. She’s so damn fine with those slick baby hairs and deep dimples.” Shad continued to egg Trey on.

I don’t know why he likes picking at him. We all know Trey has a temper but he’s being extremely calm right now, thank God.

“To answer your question, no we aren’t official. I actually really like her though. She spends the night and we go out three times a week. Everyone in this room knows that never happens which can make this a good or bad thing.”

“Damn Tremaine I’m happy for you, don’t fuck this up she’s a good girl. You need to stop playing and officially wife that. She’s smart with a great head on her shoulders. My baby did a great job looking out.” I said.

“She sure did, that’s why I have to thank my sister. Now do y'all want to get on this 2k or poker? Either way I’m dominating, this is my house.” Trey began trash talking, something he is great at. He thinks he can beat us all in every game.

“Nigga you know I’m always ready.” I called his bluff.

“Nah, I’m about to head out. I’ll catch up with you guys later.” Jermaine retorts.

“Where are you going? I drove us here. Jess picking you up or something?” Mijo asked.

“Umm yea. Anyway just play y’all little game and stay out of a grown man’s business.” He chuckled.

He waved his hand in the air before removing his coat from the rack in front of him. I know Jermaine he’s very discrete. He moves very quietly when he’s up to something. We used to joke and call him the silent killer.

“Who’s ready to get their ass whooped in 2k? Come on down to the price is right.” Trey joked.

“Put your money where your controller is then Mr. Neverson. I bet three hundred dollars. Winner takes all.”

“Stop being modest like you aren’t wealthy as fuck over there. I’ll put up eight hundred.” Trey challenged me.

“Cool that’s fair game. Anyone else want in?”

“No thanks, I have a wife and a kid to feed. I don’t have the luxury of throwing money around.” Mijo laughed.

Trey plugged up the system and the game began. This is all or nothing and I refuse to go home empty handed.

Jermaine POV:

I looked behind me to make sure none of the fellows were watching me. I didn’t drive over here for a reason, I rode with Mijo because I knew I had other plans. I walked a few blocks down from Trey’s house to my destination. I got in the passenger seat of the car that was waiting for me on the corner.

“Hello handsome. To my place or yours?” Her sweet voice sounded in my ear. A smirk formed on my face. When I’m around her I can’t help but smile.

“To my place gorgeous.”

After a ten minute ride in silence we entered the parking lot of my condo. I unraveled myself from the seatbelt as fast as I could. Reaching towards the driver’s seat I grabbed her face and began passionately kissing her. With each kiss our make out session intensified. My breathing was beginning to become heavy and she slightly moaned. I broke from our kiss and her brown complexion was turning red.

“Wow Jermaine that was amazing.” That was the first time we’ve kissed and it felt amazing.

After a couple of months of playing phone tag we started hanging out recently, and it didn’t take long for me to realize I wanted her in the worst way. I feel terrible about doing this to Jessica but I can’t resist her.

“No, you’re the amazing one Mya.”

“Here I was thinking to myself this night better be worth it. I left my girls to be with you. They also questioned me and gave me the third degree. I lied saying I had to get some sleep.”

“Well was it worth it or do I need to kiss you again for an answer?”

“It’s more than worth it. I’m starting to feel you’re worth it. Jessica and I have been friends since middle school and she has had my back ever since. She has always been there for me but I can’t control who I care about. I know I will lose my best friend behind this but I’ve been through so much hell, and you are like a breath of fresh air. I’m tired of hiding us from everyone Jermaine. We are grown as hell and should be allowed to be with whomever we want, no matter the consequences.” I knew eventually she would become frustrated. Women hate to feel they are hidden.

“Baby girl we will tell them when we are sure it's right. We are grown but I just don’t want to bombard them with this. Jess doesn’t deserve to be hurt and we’ve been together for a long time. I do still love her but it’s something about you that draws me in.”

“I feel the same way about you. I know this is wrong but I can’t help myself. If only you were someone else and not my best friend’s boyfriend everything would be easier.”

“Yea, but I guess anything worth having in life isn’t easy.” I pecked her lips and we headed inside my condo.

Jessica has been my ride or die for a long time and she has my heart. However, Mya is intriguing and I can’t stop myself from thinking about her. I haven’t told anyone about my dealings with Mya because not only do I not want to hurt my girl, I’m not sure how Chris will act.

Mya and Chris haven’t been together in forever, and he’s very much in love with Robyn but he can be very selfish at times. He’s a Taurus, who’s naturally bull-headed. I’m not ready for anyone to fuck up the happiness I feel and I’m not ready for judgement from the rest of the guys. They will rant about how I broke the bro code and say I should feel shameful. Mya is a special person to me in my life. Chris played her if we’re truthfully speaking and we’re not even going to speak on the bastard who put his hands on her. We will tell everyone about our blossoming friendship eventually. I know we need to do this soon before this explodes before our eyes. There will never be a right time to tell them but it has to be done. Either way hearts will be broken. Chris is my brother and I don’t want any bad blood between us. Jessica is my love and I honestly don’t want to lose her, but she needs to know the feelings I have for her friend.

Trey POV:

As I cleaned up my house two hours later after the intense game challenge, I feel foolish. I lost my money to Chris and I’m certain I won’t hear the last of it. Normally I am the one who is amazing at shit like this but maybe I got too cocky. My doorbell began chiming in the middle of my cleaning session. It’s probably one of the boys. They are always forgetting car keys and cell phones. I opened the door and to my surprise I’m greeted by a petite Monique, who’s wobbling from side to side. She can barely keep her balance.

“Hey, I missed you so I told the cab driver to bring me over. I hope you don’t mind.” She hiccuped making her way through the front door.

“That’s fine babe. I have no problem with that.”

“By the way you owe the cab driver $80.50. I don’t know where I lost my wallet.” Damn I just keep losing money tonight.

I chuckled lowly to myself as I jogged upstairs to get my wallet. I came back down to Monique spinning in my bar stool. I see this is going to be a long night. I walked outside to give the cab driver exactly what he was owed and go back in the house to assist the little drunk one.

“Baby girl, how many bottles of wine did the girls drink?” I picked her up removing her from the bar stool. She needed to change out of these clothes.

“I lost track, we had good girl talk. We talked about everything baby.” She snickered.

“What did you talk about?”

“We talked about you and how much I like you. We talked about some other stuff too.” I began removing her clothing one by one. I removed her heels from her feet. I took off her shirt replacing it with one of my big T-shirts and I removed her jeans, and swapped them out for some shorts.

“What are you doing Trey?”

“I’m trying to make you feel comfortable that’s all.” I sat on the edge of the bed and placed her in my lap.

I didn’t know what the hell I was doing but I began fondling with her hair to make a bun. Then I remembered the last time she was here she left a bonnet. I quickly went to the master bathroom to get it. Her eyes lit up once I placed it on her head. I have enough aunties and sisters to know that women never sleep without headscarves on. I laid her down on the bed and cuddled up next to her.

“Oh my gosh Trey you put my bonnet on! That is so beautiful!!” Her eyes are beginning to well with tears. Yep someone is definitely out of it. It’s time for bed.

“I’ll do anything for you, never forget that.” I placed kisses on the side of her neck. She giggled like a school girl with a crush. I don’t know what it is about her that makes me want to be all in.

“That’s why I love you Trey.” She mumbled lowly but I still heard her.

It feels like the room is spinning. My heart is pounding fast. I can’t say it just yet. I pretended I didn’t hear it and began kissing behind her ears.

“Just get some sleep little one.”

I know I feel things with Mo that I’ve never felt with other women and it makes me feel good, yet it is also terrifying. I have always had a disconnect from women until she came along and now I think I’m getting cold feet. She is more than a man like me deserves.

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