#Art block still hurts

[pichiicake]

#palworld #ribbuny #lifmunk #chikipi #bunny squirrels #I'm obsessed with this game #It's like Pokemon Arceus & ARK & BoW had a baby and I love it #It's very obvious which Pokemon they combined to make the Pals designs tho #Art block still hurts

[bumblingbabooshka]

Christina is the main character of Moral Orel...to Me

#Bloberta is also the main character #I drew these while dissociating BIG time -peace sign as I vanish- #moral orel #Christina Posabule #Bloberta #Shapey Puppington #Orel Puppington #Poppit Posabule #That's everyone! #moral orel art #bee doodles #thinking about Christina's brother going missing and no one around her caring #Shapey grows up to be an incredibly irritable and fastidious person due to wanting to be close to Bloberta #He gets into fights with Orel literally everytime they meet but Orel keeps trying #He's also like...a door-to-door bible salesman or something #Christina's arm gets hurt...parallel to Orel's leg #and yes her mom did it v_v #I didn't draw Block here but I think he'd calm down as he got older...not as attatched to any of his family (Posabule or Puppington) #Still close with Shapey but also close to Christina and Orel

[liccy]

Seeing how I'm still in a bit of a block (It's not the longest one I've had, but it is several times more frustrating) I've Decided to post some old art... like 2004 old... in Clumps.

Today's feature, Full Metal Alchemist. Still one of my top favorite series.

#Full Metal Alchemist #edward and alphonse #alphonse elric #edward elric #fma alphonse #fma edward #fma fanart #Old Art #Like REEEALLY old art #This hurts me #but not as painful as my current art block #I still don't see any difference from then to now #This was when my art peaked #and hasn't moved since.

[charlinecarter]

Happy birthday to the banjo boy ! Sammy, we love you even though you've been more than slaughtered in BatDR 🤡🔫

#batim #bendy and the ink machine #batim fanart #batdr #bendy and the dark revival #batdr fanart #batdr spoilers #sammy batim #sammy lawrence #poor guy #he’s really so fucking useless in batdr it hurts #but I still love him #also #small doodle because ✨art block✨

[dragon-tamer-1]

I want to be able to reblog people's art without having to worry about people's negative reactions when it's someone that a majority of people don't like, is that so much to ask?

Why must it be a problem if I like someone's art even if the person believes in something others don't? Why must people treat people like they're bad for liking someone's art and writing when others don't like that person because of their beliefs?

I'm just hanging out and reblogging art and writing that I find enjoyable. In the end that's just what I'm doing when I reblog stuff. Enjoying it. If it's something I don't enjoy/like to see, I just block the tag or, if it's a specific blog that I decided that I didn't enjoy and don't want to see I block that blog as well. Otherwise just vibing. I don't hate anyone that doesn't like someone else of course, but the way people talk about that one person, it's like they think it's the worst possible thing for someone to enjoy that person's art and writing. I just can't hate someone based on that person's beliefs, it just goes against my own personal beliefs, and I can't help that I still enjoy those things.

I try to keep the drama and stuff off my blog cause I'm not about that. And it shouldn't be treated like some kind of crime to still enjoy someone's art/writing/etc just because other people don't like that person, in my opinion.

#vent post #i only feel this way cause someone on anon asked why i still follow a certain person cause i reblogged that person's post updating their fic #and i think it's weird that if people don't like that person. then just don't like that person #i just enjoy the art and writing #i only see hate going to that person yet that person has never spread hate for anyone to anyone #i just want to reblog stuff without it becoming this big thing of drama #discourse tw #stop spreading hate and just move on #at this point it just seems like toxic behavior (not attacking anyone. just how it feels to me) #like i said you can freely dislike someone #its just that it seems controlling when you want others to think like you do and dislike who you dislike and congorm to your own beliefs #I'm just here to enjoy art and writing #regardless of who it's from #unless that person has legitimately hurt people #just block certain tags and the person you dislike and move on #i don't think anyone is bad for liking or disliking people for their own reasons and personal beliefs #i also just cant hate someone for their own beliefs. especially since they're not hurting anyone with those beliefs #sorry for the down mood #this whole thing is just tiring for me and i just want to enjoy the things i like without being all “man people are going to dislike me - #just because i still like the art/writing of someone that everyone around me dislikes. i just want to enjoy stuff why must it be such #a controversial thing to just like something “ #can't we all just agree to disagree instead of being mean to someone who likes something /someone you don't? #liking and reblogging stuff that doesn't have any harmful stuff in it can't hurt anyone #i wish this stuff didn't make me feel as stressed as i did #I'll be fine #i just want to enjoy the art and stories that i came to love by the people who made them #regardless of their beliefs #cause i think that just because someone believes something doesn't make them a bad person for believing that

[turtletoria]

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#hi sorry for bein a downer but i just want to make clear that im blocking mcyt blogs on sight bc i curate my own online experience and i - #Do Not want to see that ever. theres been an uptick in ppl rebloggin my old mcyt art and while i very much appreciate that i rlly dont #want to see that shit ever!!!! i hate all my art from that era for real for real!! ive never felt so Bad! #i just really dont like the mainstream mcyters and i just remember feeling very manipulated and hurt by both the mcyters and the fanbase #i think their content is immature at best and downright hurtful at worst #so sorry if you got blocked dont take it personally i just dont want my notifs covered with art of ppl i parasocially despise #sorry i could go on and on abt how much i rlly dont like these ppl but u didnt come here to get a moral lecture from me so i'll just stop #i love the block button so if u r a mcyt blog run while u still can and please stop rbing my old mcyt art #and also. when i say downright hurtful i mean it in the harshest way. to the point my younger siblings (who r in the target demographic for #this kind of media btw) felt uncomfortable watching them. like honestly that boils my blood a little #theres fun cringe and then theres bullying cringe and i put mcyt in the latter. thanks for reading #and blah blah i know theyre not all bad every fanbase has good and bad eggs whatever man. i dont want to engage with that so i am kindly #telling yall to get out. #sliding them onto a paper with a cup and releasing them (derogatory)

[anthro-cat]

why are people so mean in the internet

#im crying over some stupidity on roblox #believe it or not it did hurt #they insulted my art #and im super insecure about it #so like. it hurt more than it should've #then they wanted to kick me outta the server #told others i was harrasing them #i wasn't harrassing them #i just. blocked those kids #to never talk to them again #but they still managed to kick me outta the server #i just wanted to doodle man #sorry. im too sentimental #my rambles

[suppuration]

thinking again how my original "alien angels" race i made in high school basically looked like "blue elf but with trill pattern all over the body" and really wanting to... get more creative and eldritch than that. but at the same time, i currently question whether i could juggle another attempt at rebooting my pokefic (again) with my fallout stuff right now

i know i get a lot of cravings over the winter months to reboot old stuff, and this is no different really

#i still need to finish that cover art redraw i started in the spring #i drew everyone but erroll and loren :/ which is. idk what that's about cause that's the eff'n protags #might not hurt to entertain the craving though #been feeling art blocked to hell and back

[blobbei-art]

Listen up, listen up

There’s a devil in the church

Got a bullet in the chamber and

This is gonna hurt

#theresia #ocs #art #my art #artists on tumblr #yeah im finally drawing a little again after some major art block #im either uploading a lot over the course of like a week or nothing at all for months lol #anyway theresia my beloved #ive revamped her backstory a little and its STILL kind of messy aaaugh #either way that doesnt stop me from drawing her with a cool church aestehtic #the caption are lyrics from This Is Gonna Hurt by Sixx A.M. #which is VERY much her vibes. on top of her playlist

[samuraisharkie]

due to Life Shit I kind of stopped drawing much about a year or two after I graduated high school bc I just kind of didn’t have the time or mental/emotional/physical capacity to fit it in, despite art being something I really want to be a part of my career. It kind of makes me sick to realize how much muscle memory I lost just from that time (I had only about a year and a half total of absolutely no art but that was enough. doesn’t help that during that time I seriously injured my hands) considering I’ve been drawing my entire life. I really wish things had not gone that way and that I could have kept going, but expectations were on me to do something else and any time I sat down to draw was treated as wasting time. There’s also something weird about recovering from severe trauma that kind of adjusts how you engage with a hobby you used as a coping mechanism, which Art very much was. I almost never drew vent art, but I used it to focus on something and make myself happy and proud of work I actually could do, and once I was out of the environments that funneled me into drawing (being forced to go to church, school, anything involving sitting down for a long period of time) I found less time to actually have an excuse. Someone bought me a single college course of art classes right out of high school, and I think that was where I COULD have had the opportunity to really get started if I had actually had the money to continue and the college hadn’t been so far away. After that course ended I didn’t have that excuse anymore. I used to draw in DeviantArt and Discord art groups, but those began to fall apart and soon I didn’t have that option either. After that I doodled but didn’t really create Full Pieces unless some friend asked it of me, and it was never a commission bc I’d never trained myself to get that sort of shit done without taking too long, so I’d always do it for free. So even that wasn’t a big motivator eventually. Now that I’m struggling for work after becoming more physically disabled after COVID, all that time I could have spent honing my art skills so I could do SOMETHING with my art really is weighting down on me. I have the option to do freelance work, illustrations, pet commissions, even things like cards and cookies. I’ve seen these avenues open up for me gradually, but I’ve lost the skills I built up that I need to actually make something I’m proud of. I’ve taken to tracing old art to try and remember my thought process and my “style”… but my memory was bad BEFORE the covid, and it’s worse now, and my brain fog makes it hard to focus even if I could get back on the train of thought. I don’t remember the construction that would be in my mind’s eye. I barely can keep a clear vision in my mind’s eye anymore, worryingly. I never had a crystal clear imagination, it was always sort of abstract, but I could see the lines, I could construct a scene. Now I have to focus hard to get any sort of detail clear in my head. It’s like if you tried to look directly into someone’s face in a dream, or put in a prompt in neural blender. So I have to adjust to performing the entire thought process physically, slowly and tediously trying to figure out what I’m imagining before I can really get started. Those old art tutorials for constructing shapes and bodies and such just aren’t coming naturally anymore so I have to dredge deep into my mind to remember which advice helped “click” the best and knowing it might not do it this second time around. It’s like if you forgot how to ride a bike. It was something natural to you, you could even get started haphazardly and distracted and still be able to tell where you were going and not fall over or trip on yourself, but now it’s like you have to focus on each step and it constantly feels like it’s taking everything you have to not crash. I’m glad I can start drawing again, but it hurts that something so huge in my life has been turned into this. I’ve ranted about it before it’s just easier to notice when you’re not sketching out people’s pets or doing super stylized doodles.

#I didn’t know you could max out a ‘text block’ on tumblr also. my indication to stop LOL #long post #vent #kind of. I’m not like super angsty abt it I’m just sad that I have to spend more time remembering #instead of actually accomplishing anything with my dreams. I’m 26 and there’s 18 year olds living my fucking dream yknow #I know you don’t have a certain age requirement for art but I also know you never stop improving #and being set back before I was even proud enough to set prices for my work is kind of devastating #I just love art. I want to be an animator or something involve with creative concepts. #I want to make things I’m proud of. but what used to come easily now feels like chewing nails #the metal ones not the cartilidge. anyway #I know I’m kind of hard on myself but it’s hard not to be when you’re surrounded by people with such talent #and it feels like you’re running behind when you see people getting to their dreams so much sooner than you. #I know it’ll happen but it hurts sometimes remembering what I used to imagine id be doing at this age #and realizing past me probably had more of a chance at these careers than I do right now bc of brain damage and physical and mental issues #it’s not confirmed if I have brain damage but like. I can tell something is different. #it’s not like they’d be able to diagnose it by now or even that it’d change anything #I just have to keep going and keep trying. it’s just discouraging and frustrating #I wish I could summon all the memories from my brain back up so I could feel happier about my art #I’m happy to have the chance to start drawing again don’t get me wrong. I still like to draw. it’s just. #I can tell the difference between how it was and how it is now and it makes me mourn #ough I wish I still had a therapist lmao. Deb get the fuck back here you traitor.

[weenie-kun]

so shining live is shutting down after all. the biggest reason this sucks is because next to the anime it was the only other thing international fans could easily access content wise (+ in eng) so thats a bummer. on the other hand the writing or art wasnt much to write home about and it got kind of samey so its ran its course i suppose. rip

thus continues my wait for the utapri games to be localised before i die (which is likely never but i can dream)

#i gotta scour all the syo UR stories before theyre nuked #txt #i sometimes mourn my attachment to utapri #because i know if every drama cd or merch or stage plays etc were subbed or easy to find i wouldve eaten all of it by now #it truly brought new life into me and fixed a bad art block i was in a few years back when i got into it #i mean the same year i also fucked up my hand due to a bad desk setup and realized too late so i couldnt draw much anymore anyway #but still #i had watched the like short of them going on a trip because it was available subbed and i was reminded of how much joy it brought me #i dont have the energy to deep dig into forums or sites and compile cds or chronologically ordered stuff that came out so ill just sit here #i cant probably fly to another country to watch the new utapri movie this time so ill have to squidward behind the blinds it lol #id like it if they put out more scenes of the guys living their lives and interacting like in the short because that was great #anyway uh. yeah. i miss utapri i guess #also miss having an arm that doesnt hurt #im aware theres a fan translation being put work into these days as well so theres some hope?? so kudos to those guys

[sorieba]

some Dana sketches

#sketch #character sketch #dnd #artists on tumblr #dungeons and dragons #digital art #dnd oc #tiefling #dana #my art #was kinda happy with this #still trying to find the happy medium with my broke ass hand #this hurt like hell to get out and only took like 3 hours #so definitely still gotta take it easy :// #referenced that one tom cardy red flags animated video for the leftmost pose. it was just such a good pose #i tried searching for the artist in the desc but?? couldn't find it #so thank you whoever drew that pose. you broke an art block for a bit and u have such a beautiful style

[unicornofgt]

re my most recent gtms post: y’all do not get to decide if it was uncalled for for me to acknowledge the last year’s worth of events. it is not up to you. you do not have to like how or that i did it: it is not up to you, i do not care how you feel about it. as i said in my post, i did not make it as a call out, i made it as an acknowledgement to move forward. and to the people whose reaction was “why didn’t you just say no/that you were uncomfortable”: re-evaluate that take. i am not interested in dragging this out further than it needs to be and will not be addressing it again.

#also a clear example of why i do not feel safe talking to her personally is how she reacted to this: #she still views this as something i did to her and not that i felt pressured and unsafe #and it is quite simply not my responsibility to reopen wounds to spell out for the person who caused them why they hurt #not to mention that post was never meant for her—she is blocked for a reason #it was not meant for her to find and read it was not meant to send hate her way it was just to acknowledge the elephant in the room #that is it. #and yeah i knew somebody was always gonna send it to her but i can’t control what other people do #it doesn’t change that it was never meant for her #but all of this is irrelevant bc even if i did talk to her privately that post would still be necessary bc the Point is acknowledgement #i could not continue about the Point Of My Blog (gt and my ocs) with this unacknowledged #and do not brush off what i have to say just bc she makes nice art and is nice to You #that does not make my experience illegitimate i cannot believe i have to say this #also people are saying i hate neurodivergent people bc she’s ND like ?? i am also ND it excuses nothing #not to mention she knows the personal details of my traumas that make boundaries difficult to set #but however much i struggled i DID set them and they were blatantly ignored #sometimes less than 24 hours after being reinforced #anyway as i said i will not be addressing this again but this post had to be made bc some of y’all desperately missed the point

[thethingything]

so after changing our bedding last night we now feel worse than we did after going outside for two hours a couple of week ago and I'm not exactly sure why that's the case, but anyway we currently feel the way we used to feel the day after going to college

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #have you ever one that thing when you go running and you run for way too long and your throat hurts and you're nauseous #and can't catch your breathe? sitting up makes me feel like that at the moment #I'm so shaky and brain foggy and our rib is still dislocated so that hurts like fuck #I really wanted to work on a drawing today but I have no idea if I'll actually be able to because holy shit #which sucks because I've had art block all month and it would have been nice to draw while we actually have the motivation for it

[hecksupremechips]

Girl help I keep thinking about freaking persona 4

#i have banned myself from engaging with any persona 4 related content (except for memes my sister sends me) #because yeah its genuinely deeply upsetting for me and i always feel like absolute shit #but aghhh for some reason my brain has been fixated on it this week thinking about all the offensive garbage it is #and i keep thinking of all the evidence i can gather definitively proving that the writing is sooooo homophobic/transphobic #which is a very easy thing to gather up and prove since its all over the damn place lol #but like im just so fixated on how awful the game is and how the fans are even worse and i have this urge to argue forever #something im sure a lot of yall can relate to #cuz god it hurts to be screaming at people that theyre hurting you and for them to just say no to you as if its up for debate #if this sounds dramatic cuz its Juat A Game liiiike no its not Just A Game this is about #my daily life requires me to argue my existence constantly and its the same for every other damn marginalized person out there #and idk if youre still gonna either ignore or deny that persona 4 isnt batshit insanely offensive then youre stupid #i dont have the patience to argue shit like this anymore because theres no way someone with a brain can deny shit like that #and quite frankly even well intentioned queer fans who try to make headcanons that either say fuck you to the game #or hcs that do nothing at all to challenge the bigotry in p4 are kinda annoying to me #cuz it hurts too much to play along like yeah id LOVE to just slap a rainbow on kanji and a trans guy badge on naoto #and call it a day and enjoy the game outside of it all but thats kinda impossible #when these two characters entire existence revolves around the bigotry and its done in a way that hurts like hell to see #its too real for me to enjoy even if i make positive ‘fuck you atlus’ fan art #yeah ughhhh whatever its just annoying cuz I’ve been doing a good job at blocking this game away from my life #cuz it brought nothing but anger to me but its just been something thats been stuck on me lately #and im really not sure what triggered this or why its been lingering so long like please stoppp #its really embarrassing to be having bad mental illness over a shitty bibleo game 🙄

[mistysblueboxstuff]

Are you sure you're comfortable leaving anons on? It's totally fine to leave it off for a while. I'm just concerned as to if the stalker's bothering you via anon of if they're the type to stay silent

oh the stalkers are very careful not to do their harassment publicly or doing stuff in a way that i could actually prove they're doing anything to me. some vague and not so vagueblogging and spreading lies and sending flying monkeys to my blog so they can make anything i say be about them (because I'm so fixated on them even though they're the one talking about me to people and visiting my blog multiple times a day for like a month now), sending me threats via email and then saying they thought what they said was funny, accessing my blog while being password protected etc but see it's all because I'm ~bad~ anyway so that makes it okay 🤷‍♀️

my anons are always very sweet though, very rarely do i get a rude one, most people have been nothing but kind to me which is why i keep my anons on 💙

#they're all blocked so them getting pissy about me posting this only means they're still visiting obsessively lol #meanwhile i don't visit any of their blogs because i don't really give a crap what they're doing or saying #as long as they don't hurt the people i care about #not art #rant #reply #anonymous