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Nobody in this game has any chill

#I cannot fucking wait to play ace attorney. I have the most minimal spoilers of this game #bc I’ve managed to dodge it all like an ant in a microwave #so it will be so fresh. I’m making sure I play it with my friend who just passed the bar exam and works under a judge rn

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a brief recap of what has been going on with the sonic movieverse in the past several months:

paramount has come out in public support of israel

a man who has publicly rubbed elbows with none other than benjamin netanyahu reportedly gets cast as shadow for the upcoming third movie

the guy who plays tom got exposed as having written a letter of support for a convicted pedophile

there's fucking??? zionist propaganda in the knuckles series???

kind of connected to the last point but the guy who plays wade is evidently pro-israel too

this is a complete and utter joke.

#I didn’t have high hopes but christ

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saw a sign that said "honor aaron bushnell, free palestine" and man. why don't we honor the 40,000+ palestinians martyred in the last 200+ days. why don't we honor the palestinians who israel has maassacred in the last 75+ years. why don't we honor the palestinian villages wiped off the map. why don't we honor the entire lineages whom israel murdered. idk maybe yall need to think about why it took a white man self immolating for you to care about palestine!

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#small unequivocally

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Hiii i hate to be a bother but im v v v much in need of help rn financially ;; i currently have covid and missed a lot of work bc of being sick or out of state to see family.

I would really appreciate if I could get money to help from being overwithdrawn and to get some food possibly ;^; im putting the goal at 60 dollars.

Id appreciate donos being set thru ca5happ

$batbbit

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deleting files makes me so scared what if i Needed That

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Emergency: Food, I'd like to not starve.

I am out of money and I need to eat, I do not have a job and I am unsure of when I can get a job again. I am in need of food for my survival. I am a black trans man and it's already difficult where I live.

This is now cl0wn free.

I NEED FOOD, I do not have any! I don't want to starve!!

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Super rad cool art to look at!!

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Im reading my newest mad mag (which is just a rerun of old editions) and i got thrown so back to this which is one of my favorite panels ever

#this is just komaeda. sorry for the Danganronpa jumpscare but that’s all I can think of when I see this shit

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why is tumblr telling me I have shit in my ask box even though nothing is showing

#in other news tumblr mobile continues to shit itself so badly I can never tell which part is the glitch.

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due to Life Shit I kind of stopped drawing much about a year or two after I graduated high school bc I just kind of didn’t have the time or mental/emotional/physical capacity to fit it in, despite art being something I really want to be a part of my career. It kind of makes me sick to realize how much muscle memory I lost just from that time (I had only about a year and a half total of absolutely no art but that was enough. doesn’t help that during that time I seriously injured my hands) considering I’ve been drawing my entire life. I really wish things had not gone that way and that I could have kept going, but expectations were on me to do something else and any time I sat down to draw was treated as wasting time. There’s also something weird about recovering from severe trauma that kind of adjusts how you engage with a hobby you used as a coping mechanism, which Art very much was. I almost never drew vent art, but I used it to focus on something and make myself happy and proud of work I actually could do, and once I was out of the environments that funneled me into drawing (being forced to go to church, school, anything involving sitting down for a long period of time) I found less time to actually have an excuse. Someone bought me a single college course of art classes right out of high school, and I think that was where I COULD have had the opportunity to really get started if I had actually had the money to continue and the college hadn’t been so far away. After that course ended I didn’t have that excuse anymore. I used to draw in DeviantArt and Discord art groups, but those began to fall apart and soon I didn’t have that option either. After that I doodled but didn’t really create Full Pieces unless some friend asked it of me, and it was never a commission bc I’d never trained myself to get that sort of shit done without taking too long, so I’d always do it for free. So even that wasn’t a big motivator eventually. Now that I’m struggling for work after becoming more physically disabled after COVID, all that time I could have spent honing my art skills so I could do SOMETHING with my art really is weighting down on me. I have the option to do freelance work, illustrations, pet commissions, even things like cards and cookies. I’ve seen these avenues open up for me gradually, but I’ve lost the skills I built up that I need to actually make something I’m proud of. I’ve taken to tracing old art to try and remember my thought process and my “style”… but my memory was bad BEFORE the covid, and it’s worse now, and my brain fog makes it hard to focus even if I could get back on the train of thought. I don’t remember the construction that would be in my mind’s eye. I barely can keep a clear vision in my mind’s eye anymore, worryingly. I never had a crystal clear imagination, it was always sort of abstract, but I could see the lines, I could construct a scene. Now I have to focus hard to get any sort of detail clear in my head. It’s like if you tried to look directly into someone’s face in a dream, or put in a prompt in neural blender. So I have to adjust to performing the entire thought process physically, slowly and tediously trying to figure out what I’m imagining before I can really get started. Those old art tutorials for constructing shapes and bodies and such just aren’t coming naturally anymore so I have to dredge deep into my mind to remember which advice helped “click” the best and knowing it might not do it this second time around. It’s like if you forgot how to ride a bike. It was something natural to you, you could even get started haphazardly and distracted and still be able to tell where you were going and not fall over or trip on yourself, but now it’s like you have to focus on each step and it constantly feels like it’s taking everything you have to not crash. I’m glad I can start drawing again, but it hurts that something so huge in my life has been turned into this. I’ve ranted about it before it’s just easier to notice when you’re not sketching out people’s pets or doing super stylized doodles.

#I didn’t know you could max out a ‘text block’ on tumblr also. my indication to stop LOL #long post #vent #kind of. I’m not like super angsty abt it I’m just sad that I have to spend more time remembering #instead of actually accomplishing anything with my dreams. I’m 26 and there’s 18 year olds living my fucking dream yknow #I know you don’t have a certain age requirement for art but I also know you never stop improving #and being set back before I was even proud enough to set prices for my work is kind of devastating #I just love art. I want to be an animator or something involve with creative concepts. #I want to make things I’m proud of. but what used to come easily now feels like chewing nails #the metal ones not the cartilidge. anyway #I know I’m kind of hard on myself but it’s hard not to be when you’re surrounded by people with such talent #and it feels like you’re running behind when you see people getting to their dreams so much sooner than you. #I know it’ll happen but it hurts sometimes remembering what I used to imagine id be doing at this age #and realizing past me probably had more of a chance at these careers than I do right now bc of brain damage and physical and mental issues #it’s not confirmed if I have brain damage but like. I can tell something is different. #it’s not like they’d be able to diagnose it by now or even that it’d change anything #I just have to keep going and keep trying. it’s just discouraging and frustrating #I wish I could summon all the memories from my brain back up so I could feel happier about my art #I’m happy to have the chance to start drawing again don’t get me wrong. I still like to draw. it’s just. #I can tell the difference between how it was and how it is now and it makes me mourn #ough I wish I still had a therapist lmao. Deb get the fuck back here you traitor.

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living near the ocean for any period of time inherently makes one a little more at peace with death than the average person, not so much because of a natural quality of the ocean, but because one day an older relative of yours will ask you to "steer the boat" and then not tell you how to work the engine, at which point you're basically placing yourself in the hands of whichever loving god will take you

#boats are terrifying it’s like getting on a tempermental bull and expecting it to not buck you off #I love them so much but I can tell which ones are starting to get antsy for blood

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note from blogrunner: yes, we've definitely had a poll like this before, but enough time has passed and there's a lot more people following this blog now

#current one was suggested by my twin :) #I had no clue what to name myself and they suggested sharkie to go with their kitty

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’Hinduphobia’ is literally not a thing in India, you just want to be oppressed because your entire life you’ve been conditioned to be patriotic and nationalist and that almost always means Hindu nationalism and you’ve been conditioned to such a degree that you cannot hear marginalised groups criticise mainstream Hinduism without spontaneously combusting. In this essay I will

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Another fundraiser I trust!

He has a tumblr, and it seems he's very new to it and doesn't know how to use it properly so he ends up looking like a bot but dw he is legit. I had a long conversation with Mahmoud over DM's just to go over everything. It all checks out. Please consider donating to get his family out of Ghazzah! Additionally, his brother-in-law is special needs and cannot be taken care of in a tent!

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