alright, i have come to the decision i am keeping this blog up as an archive and leaving the gt tumblr community for the foreseeable future.
when i made my post about chamomile-g-tea’s damaging treatment of my story, gtms, my goal was to acknowledge the situation so i could hopefully move forward and restore gtms/my blog as mine again, without her influence. and while i anticipated backlash, some of the responses were just...downright disturbing. lots of comments echoed a victim-blaming sentiment that i am responsible for the emotional and creative damage done to me by another person because ‘why didn’t you just say no or tell her to stop?’ not only does this ignore the several attempts i did make to express discomfort and set boundaries—which were not respected—but even if i didn’t manage to express a ‘no’, that doesn’t make what happened ok; it doesn’t erase the year of crippling pressure and guilt i lived with and still struggle to shake daily. realizing that so many people in this community think otherwise is just...disturbing. it’s disturbing. that’s the only word i can think to use.
the response to all this does not make me feel safe being here—that’s what this situation has unfortunately showed me: that the audience i hoped to allow to view my reclaiming process would also contain the same crowd who make me feel so unsafe—and why the fuck would i let those people see something as personal as that? why would i let them see anything? it’s made me understand i can’t continue to heal myself and my writing if i am posting it for other people, especially harmful people. and even though it turned out this way, i’m glad i gave it a shot; that i made that post as an effort to see if it was even possible or worth it to restore this space—even if the answer was no! absolutely fucking not!—because it saved me from even more time spent sharing my work with people who do not respect me as a person or a creator. i’m glad i tried, however much it sucked, because it allowed me to understand: it is not just one person in this community i feel unsafe with, but a solid percentage of the community at large that i just cannot healthily engage with, and no amount of blocking will fix that.
but of course this is not the only situation that showed me this community’s true colors—the dismissive or outright aggressive response to the calling out of racism in our tropes has also been deeply disturbing. to clarify, there is no problem in identifying with and finding comfort or catharsis in problematic tropes such as the pet trope, but there is a problem with using that comfort to make others feel unsafe and speak over people of color. and the solution to this trope problem is very simple—generally apply critical thinking skills to the media you enjoy, and tag your shit properly (dead dove, particularly when the giant owner/abuser doesn’t face consequences and/or if the abused/abuser fall in ‘love’—dead dove is not actually currently used in this community, that’s the problem). but rather than taking this as an opportunity to listen and improve, it was instead used as a chance to lash out at and make clear that poc are not welcome in this community and come secondary to the feelings of white creators and readers.
over the last few years, this community has fostered and been exposed for bigotry such as terfs, ableists, racists, etc, and especially in the current political era, this is no longer a community i want to share my work with or even just lurk in. and i know on the surface this community seems progressive, but take a better look and you’ll find members of the community doing and saying…questionable things, or keeping quiet and enabling their friends who do and say questionable things because they would rather be passive and polite than be genuinely kind and compassionate through active accountability.
of course this is the risk you take interacting with any person ever—but it’s especially taxing to look around at such a small, close knit community you know is riddled with these problems and wonder if the people making innocent posts are actually harmful; if they prioritize their comfort over the safety of marginalized people, if they even see you as a full person, and for me, personally—if they are willing to overlook consent to blame you for your trauma and defend the person who inflicted it. it’s taxing to explain basic basic concepts to strangers over and over in a place that prides itself on being a safe space, where people just have fun and mentally escape from irl hardships. it’s taxing to ride out shitty, hateful treatment when you are just simply one person (voluntarily providing free services btw) with only so much energy and fucks to give. it is not worth the strain it puts on you as a person, nor is it your responsibility to sit there and accept it, and i am not the only creator in this community who feels this way. we are fucking tired.
quite simply, this is not a community i feel comfortable participating in or sharing anything with. and that’s a shame, because there are wonderful, creative and caring people here who i have enjoyed sharing this space with, and maybe someday i’ll give this community another chance, but currently it’s just not worth the time of day. and i want to make it clear: my leaving is not simply because of just one person or just one situation—that i could handle—it is the community itself that is the root problem; that continues to be harmful, in multiple contexts—that is the reason why i and several other creators are leaving for greener pastures and more enjoyable communities—or just simply for a fucking moment’s worth of peace, because lord knows you won’t find it here.
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this week has been a bitch for my health so i’m goin on a break to recover n focus on managing my chronic illness, see y’all in a bit
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I will NEVER see a prehistoric dinosaur
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not to poke my head in on a convo but i will say that as a disabled person, if i see ppl using disability/physical conditions purposefully to dehumanize a tiny character i will personally claw your eyes out
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Old art, but hey check out these tinies Mii found,,
Don't mind her crying over her gf, it's fine
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the next person who turns this into fearplay vs fluff discourse i am breaking into the house of to smash all ur dishes. we are not talking about preferences we are CALLING OUT RACISM you absolute fucking fools
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You’re Still You
(hi this is the thing that’s been on my mind for months, in which morgan looks at his top scar surgeries for the first time after waking up from being in the mech. there really isn’t a warning here, save for mentions of nudity and scars. this is just pure self indulgent gender euphoria.)
Rain was the only way to be a semblance of clean in the arid wastes…well, at least when you were sixteen times the size of a normal man. Humans had the privilege of being able to spend a fraction of their meager water resources for a towel wash, maybe even a full on bath for the children…Morgan had to wait until the blessed day when the skies darkened and spat out a river for him so he could wash off all the muck on his person for the first time.
As he watched the little people milling below him run for cover in their tents, he rose to his feet and plucked Nick up and off from the ground below. He squirmed between his fingers, briefly alarmed but ultimately annoyed by the sudden movement, easily clamoring onto the giant’s shoulder when brought up, up, up to it. Little hands pressed gently on the skin of his neck, and Morgan could hear the whisper of a kiss, feel the most miniscule scratch of his stubble–he couldn’t help but smile. Did Nick think he brought him up there to cuddle?
“Come on, you. I’m finally getting out of this bloody monkey suit.” He grumbled as he rose to his feet.
Keep reading
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(Pirouettes into view) Hello ladies and gentlethems. You may be seeing quite a few community critique posts around. You may be seeing it framed as a battle between ✨puritanical exclusionists✨ and the ✨deranged kinky outlaws✨. I am here to remind you that this is not the case.
Yes, tumblr g/t has a subcultural battle between its kink roots and extremely sfw modern culture, but we’re not discussing kink right now. We’re discussing the repeated bad treatment, infantalization, and dehumanization of PoC creators and the lack of diverse viewpoints within writers of the community. Please do not try and straw man this important argument by chalking it up to a lack of sex-positive thought, or my whore ass will come and bury you in a graveyard with half a bottle of whiskey.
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I would also like to say that people are not saying that if you write these tropes, you’re a bad person. I wrote these tropes when I was younger as a metaphor for my own history of abuse and a way of expressing and processing my own trauma around them. When you’ve been through extensive abuse, your brain recontextualizes that kind of stuff as your sense of normal, and forces you to be attracted to it as a way to try and lessen the cognitive horror of the abuse.
What you need to understand, though, is that those tropes have underlying implications that connect to stuff like slavery and can be v triggering for other people. The important thing is self-awareness about the tropes in your story and how you manipulate them. Do you need to post your personal trauma-processing extremely triggering stuff on tumblr untagged? We have to find a way to deal with our own trauma in a way that does not perpetuate the harm in the world. Write what you want! Write it! But be mindful how you share and tag it, and be aware of how it could be damaging to others. PoC creators are begging you to listen to them and not brush them aside as we do too often.
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Yea ik I said I was gonna be more concise with another post but everything has mostly been said tbh. This is just tiny things I wanna emphasize/say to sum up and add:
If you do choose to write the pet trope, either fully acknowledge the implications it has, or don't write it at all.
Stories that don't do this ^ send a message to readers about what in that world is more important to care about...with the choices being between caring about a person's rights or the cutesy moments in their questionable love life.
You can't expect a community full of minors to apply critical thinking to fics that package these things as. Good. You just can't. If you present the characters as good, they will see them as such no matter what they do, because every action is backed by excuses and justifications from the writer that they eat up without criticism.
If a character wholly participates in this system that oppresses people. They. Are. Bad. Fleeting moments to point it out flaws followed by little substantial consequences does not change that. Do they still get the love interest? Do they still end the story or are currently pretty secure and safe, not dealing with any permanent repercussions for their actions? If so they haven't received enough punishment, because imo they should at least be in prison.
Supporting something because it offers scraps of a genre you crave (say angst or smth) is imo, a poor excuse. You are ignoring how much it harms another group of people simply for your own benefit. Very similar to stuff going on irl with current fans of a particular famous writer....and her lil wizards :/
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more butches written like male protags in the good way. we won't have gender equality till we have fucked up women with a heart full of love and an interminable sadness around their eyes who wander the world with a sword, perhaps a gun, breaking hearts, taking names, and changing lives wherever they go
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lmao
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re my most recent gtms post: y’all do not get to decide if it was uncalled for for me to acknowledge the last year’s worth of events. it is not up to you. you do not have to like how or that i did it: it is not up to you, i do not care how you feel about it. as i said in my post, i did not make it as a call out, i made it as an acknowledgement to move forward. and to the people whose reaction was “why didn’t you just say no/that you were uncomfortable”: re-evaluate that take. i am not interested in dragging this out further than it needs to be and will not be addressing it again.
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something underwater,
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