Forgive me if I'm a bit nervous about Gorgug this season. It's just that the last Zac Oyama pc was Colin Provolone, who was arguably one of his greatest D20 performances, if not the greatest.
Zac always does great with every pc he plays, but Colin was something else. He came out swinging with actions and words that were teeming with unspoken emotional baggage. The way Colin's presence affected the other pcs; there was this level of depth that I don't think I've seen in any of his other characters. It was understated and quiet in that signature "just a guy" way that he tends to be, while still captivating everyone instantly with just how raw it was.
Not to say we haven't seen emotional depth in Gorgug. It's just that, compared to the other Bad Kids, Gorgug's journey and progression as a character has been very... impersonal? Like, yes, he found his birth parents, and he found friends who appreciate him, and he faced his insecurities about his intelligence, and he navigated relationship troubles, and his trial through the claustrophobic bug-tunnels was a horrifically-uncanny parallel to how he's spent his entire life trying to make himself as small as possible.
But how much of that has actually changed him from the Gorgug we started with? I would agree that he's definitely happier with his life, given all the loving and supportive people that have been added to it when it used to be just him and his parents. And he's certainly grown into himself and become more self-assured in his abilities, even if he's still, and always will be, our anxious little guy. And there's nothing wrong with that. I've always liked how Gorgug was a representation of all the little things. The subtle acts and kindnesses that don't seem like much to most, but to some are everything.
We don't need another Bad Kid living in fear that their mouth could be shit-in at any moment. We've already got one-too-many.
All that being said, I just feel like Gorgug's personal story beats are much easier to sweep under the rug than everyone else's. He has the same soft and understated quality that Colin held, but they lack that extra oomph that pushed Colin over the edge from being just another guy in a series of dudes, to a character that the vast majority of us could not get out of our heads. He took someone who was anxious and softspoken, who ultimately never wanted to be violent— someone who is remarkably similar to Gorgug in many ways— and maintained that demeanor and core in Colin's character while still hitting us in the feels with character development at max velocity at every turn.
I think Zac gets better and better at this with every season that goes by. With each new character, there is always something that leaves me stunned in awe. And it's been, what, three? Four years since we last saw Gorgug?
I'm just,,, I'm cautiously optimistic but also going into a bit of a worry about what violence this man may inflict upon us
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I'm slowly getting back into making animations (FOR REAL THIS TIME RAGHH), as it is one of my new year's resolutions afterall XD
So here's a small wip animation of Moon from a hit indie game called Rain World :3
There's still gonna be more seconds of this animation so you guys gotta wait what's gonna happen next when I finish it <3
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the thing about dean’s confession in the trap is that it had a serious buildup throughout the ep. he goes through multiple stages that all accumulated into him falling down onto his old man knees..
stage one: it starts with dean going out of his mind cause sam is in danger, and cas talks some sense into dean, telling him to not be so stupid. dean is surprised by this and argues it, saying “what?” in response, but once cas explains himself, dean goes with it, cause he knows cas is right.
stage two: once they get to purgatory, dean tries to split him and cas up in order to cover more ground, but cas isn’t having it. once cas declares that it’s a stupid idea, dean doesn’t argue this. he follows cas without question.
stage three: a little while later, they come across a dead body, and dean thinks it’s the same one they encountered before, but cas insists it’s a different corpse. dean looks at it more closely, and admits that it is indeed a different corpse.
then, they are walking in search of the leviathan blossom, and cas tells dean that he already apologized, and that he might have left, but dean didn’t stop him.
fourth and final stage: dean doesn’t respond to this right away, because he needs his time to process it all and to know what to say, but he also doesn’t tell cas that’s bs or anything like that. you can tell that he is really thinking about it. then, when he realises it’s almost time and cas is nowhere in sight, and he is about to lose cas, that’s when he truly ready to be honest.
this time, cas didn’t spur him on. sure, his final conversation with cas was fully playing in his mind, but dean decided to address it all on his own, in sheer desperation.
and he tells cas, that he should never have let him go, and that he is his best friend, and of course he forgives him. he confesses that he doesn’t know why he gets so angry, but it just happens. he cries because he hates that this is who he is, but he is owning up to it, and he wants cas to hear him. that is so big, for a character like dean, who is always putting up a brave face, who is always playing a part.
you can tell how serious he is about this when he finally finds cas, because with mere minutes to spare, he still wants to repeat it all for cas. in fact, i think he wanted to say even more than that, and tell cas exactly what he means to him. i will die on this hill. dean was gonna confess first.
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