#ALL THAT MAN GIVES HIM IS PAIN

[celia-dreaming-24]

IF MEGUMI DOESNT LIVE I WILL FIND GEGE AND UNLEASH THE WRATH OF A THOUSAND SUNS UPON THAT STUPID CAT

#I HATE THAT MAN #MEGUMI DESERVES LOVE AND HAPPINESS #ALL THAT MAN GIVES HIM IS PAIN #megumi fushiguro #jujutsu kaisen #jjk spoilers #jjk 251 #gege akutami #gege when i catch you gege

[haunted-xander]

Sometimes I think about Urianger's role in and feelings on the Thancred-Ryne dynamic and I think watching it kills him a bit inside. For several reasons.

Like, to begin with there's the guilt he's been carrying with him since he ushered Minfilia to the first, how he effectively killed the person Thancred cared about the most in the world and who's "death" ended up causing Ryne's entire Situation. He looks at what's happening between them and can only think "I caused this" even though that's not really true. No one person is responsible for this outcome, it's a culmination of several circumstances and the consequences of them. Logically, Urianger knows this. But it doesn't matter, because his guilt is overpowering his logic.

And also, like. What Thancred is doing here, the way he's knowingly letting Ryne be and stay hurt because he literally cannot bring himself to tell her his feelings, is the exact same mistake Urianger made with Moenbryda. Of course, the circumstances are vastly different, and the potential consequences to Thancred telling Ryne the wrong things or her misinterperating it is far greater (being a matter of literal life or death), it's still the same sort of paralysis they are trapped in.

And he knows it. He sees it. But he can't say or do anything about it, he doesn't have the right to. He acknowledges the mistake, but he hasn't really improved upon it yet. He still doesn't voice his thoughts and feelings as he should. He's also non-confrontational by nature, he doesn't argue or try to change peoples minds, he probably doesn't think he has any place to.

So, he tries to help in what little ways he can. Because he doesn't want it to become Monebryda again, he doesn't want to know he stole not one but two people from Thancred. So he does what he can. He tells Ryne little tidbits about Thancred, things that help her understand him but are safe to share. Nothing too deep, nothing too personal. Just small things, things that are purely factual, because he can't afford to give her a false image of who Thancred is. He teacher her fun and interesting things, because Thancred isn't in the mindset to provide her with non-essential skills.

I like to think Urianger has brought it up with Thancred at least once, during one of his stays. But nothing would've come of it. Not really. Unlike Y'shtola, Urianger isn't pushy, he'll bring it up once or twice and when he sees this won't go anywhere, he gives up. He wants to help, but he knows that persistance only does do much, and he is not the person who has the resiliance needed to push and push until Thancred finally budges (because he won't budge, it won't help anything but to sour things further by adding aditional stress to an already strained dynamic).

And like. Urianger gets it. He gets it because he's been the same way- not saying what he should to someone he loves more than anything else because she was meant to figure her life out herself, and 'steering' her in any direction by telling her his feelings (regardless of if the 'steering' is intention or not) will go against that. He gets it. He gets it and it's all the more painful for it. He knows it can't just be fixed by acknowledging it or with encouragement, something needs to happen to break the stasis.

I think this is probably why he stayed behind while they went off to Nabaath Areng. This is the very last chance they have to say what they want to, and he can't afford to be the anchor anymore. This is about them, not him, he can't let their resolution be buffed by his presence, so he stays behind. Which was probably for the best. Ryne got nervous when Urianger said he's staying behind, probably not too excited about being alone with Thancred (well, not alone, but WoL doesn't count) so soon after she had ran away crying. But she needs to be nervous. For anything positive to come out of this Thancred and Ryne both can't afford to be too relaxed. As sad as it is, the stress is necessary for anything to happen. He knows it. Does he like it? Absolutely not, but nor does he like his other plots. At least no one dies this time if it goes right.

#urianger had an integral part in the thancred-ryne situation and i think its very important to remember that #like i think he served as a very important buffer that prevented the dynamic from becoming even more strained than it already was #but also like. ryne NEEDED to have at least someone she can be comfortable around without the stress of her circumstances souring it #urianger is uniquely suited to play that role. even with his guilt regarding minfilia he never showed anything but genuine kindness for her #it helps that she didnt know about his hand in the situation existing to begin with (as shes surprised when he tells her in ahm areang) #THATS ALSO IMPORTANT BTW. like this man had a DIRECT hand in making this happen (even if it isnt fully his fault. minfilia made her choice) #AND LIKE. the parallels between uri-moen and thancred-ryne. they both love these girls so so much but cant bring themselves to say anything #urianger has been through the pain before. he knows. but he hasnt improved much himself. what right does he have to scold thancred? #silent support is all he can give. pushing thancred would make him a hypocrite and risk making it worse. hes not suited for confrontation #y'shtola and uriangers approaches to helping both have their merits but it needs a balance #too much pushing and the dynamic just gets worse but too forgiving and nothing will ever change #and yes i know im just repeating myself but ITS IMPORTANT OK #GOD #urianger augurelt #thancred waters #ryne waters #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles #xander being insane about ryne #urianger actually this time but. its related to ryne so. it gets the tag

[crystal-verse]

god i want. an au where it dosn't work. where it's just arr g'raha who's woken up, and he doesn't have all these memories and all these people keep looking at him like they're mourning someone. the world has changed and time has changed and all the people he knows have changed, but he hasn't changed, he was just sleeping, just sleeping, and the world nearly ended several times and apparently he helped prevent yet another end but he has no memory of this. they want him to join the scions. he does not know these people. (he barely knows the warrior of light, now, but did he ever truly know them in the first place?) his little sister is alive and well. she looks at him like a ghost. she's changed, and she's older than him now. he acts bratty and loud and brash to cover up the fact that he does not know anything it seems, and he is tired but he was sleeping for so long, so how could he be tired?

he doesn't know these people. they seem to know him. he wonders if he'd killed someone, when it was him and not that exarch who woke up. he wonders if it should have been him who was "killed" in that way, if it is him that lives and not that man who had known and become friends with all these figures from legend. he wonders if he'll always be fated to be a historian one step back from everything, because he simply cannot be a hero.

#bound with thread | original posts #letters in verse | talking #g'raha tia #crystal exarch #hello everyone i am being Incredibly Normal about g'raha tia at -checks time- 12:02 am #you ever think about the fact that arr g'raha is basically killed/replaced when the exarch wakes up in 5.3. because i do. a lot #hi i have brainworms over this man he's SO tragic and i need to hold him gently in my hands like how you cradle a small trembling kitten #genuinely happy about his character growth and progression and happy ending and all but arr g'raha was the one who grabbed my focus #and i do miss a lot of that character sometimes yknow? post-shb g'raha isn't the same person as arr g'raha and that's intentional‚ i think‚ #because he has gone through so much that we didn't see. so much trauma and pain because of the 8th umbral era and that loss he got hit with #and he's not the same person because he's *had* to change so much to keep himself and his people alive and i'm glad he's getting to #experience life to the fullest in endwalker onwards but just. i miss arr g'raha yknow #honestly the silliest thing about it is i miss his student of baldesion tattoo. was a fun little design element you know. #show us the tattoo again squeenix. give him back his red eyeshadow that he had. #give him his bow back i am begging #this has been: incomprehensible ramblings from simon at 12 at night

[p4nishers]

thinking about the relationship between mightily oats' "the worthwhile [words] don't burn" and constable dorfl's "the words in the heart cannot be taken"

#especially the journey both of them had to go through to get to the point of saying that. like the whole of carpe jugulum oats was so TORN #and before that too about what words could you believe and who could you really trust on their word about om and the prophets and he went #out of his way to look up records disproving what the book of om said bc he KNEW nothing they said could be believed and just all the pain #and all that doubt he went thru and the part where he questioned om's 'infinite compassion' as he prayed bc really what compassion? #how many people prayed at the stake just like he was doing in that moment? how many people had to live with the silence of their god just #like he did? but still when his book of om – that he clung to the whole book for reassurance – burned he said the worthily words don't burn #the worthily words are in the heart and in the mind and not feed into his mouth by old man who just #made things up to justify their actions. he had all the words he needded the whole time and holiness was always all around him. he just had #to look #and dorfl being created with words in his head that dictated his every move . words that chained him. then he and the other golems created #'king' for themselves in the hope he'd lead them to freedom but they put too many words in his head and he failed and carrot gave dorfl his #own freedom and his own words and that lead to dorfl destroying his well child basically and destroying himself in the process but the word #in his heart his OWN words remained and they were able to rebuilt him and vimes give him a voice and his words and belief remained in him b #they were always his #god. sorry for the ramble im severally unwell about them #mightily oats #constable dorfl #carpe jugulum #feet of clay #gnu terry pratchett #discworld

[wrathofrats]

well... how abouuuttt "why dont you ever listen to me?" with a ghoul of your choice, maybe the other ghoul is mad at dew, or maybe dew is upset, maybe because hes been trying to communicate that hes struggling ajd the others havent picked up on it, and he just wants it to stop. idk im not that good at coming up with prompts on the spot but i hope this is a good enough idea!! 🤷

Hi it’s been ….. we aren’t going to talk about how long it’s been.

But I hope you enjoy, yall seem to love when I give Dew problems (don’t worry I love it too)

Slapping aether in here because it hurts

Anyways, cirrus makes a joke, dew needs a hug and aether is a very supportive boyfriend

-

Dew doesn’t know when it began to bother him.

He sat on the couch nonchalantly watching some horror movie cirrus had thrown on. The exorcist? He doesn’t know, he doesn’t think he really cares.

“Careful cir, you’ll give him nightmares” aether teased

“He is the nightmare” cirrus rolled her eyes in a response, a playful smile at her lips. It was a joke.

His chest feels hollow as aether ruffles his hair. Something about it didn’t feel right. A normal quip that would have him saying something stupid in response, or simply giving her the finger, suddenly didn’t have the same feeling to it.

He swallowed heavy, the salvia only added to the pit in his stomach.

It’s a gross feeling, something between knowing he’s overreacting and wanting to cry at the thought that they actually think he’s a nuisance. Both are untrue, the logical part in his brain tries to convince him but it doesn’t stop the tears that sting in the back of his eyes, the flush in his face or the way his head feels like it’s full of starch.

It was a joke.

He’s overreacting, he’s certain of it but he can’t stop himself from getting up and walking away without his usual banter.

“Dew? What’s up?” Aether calls after him, following him into the bathroom.

Dew shakes his head to save his dignity. His voice will shake and crack, he knows if he even tries to say he’s ok a sob will rack his body and he won’t be able to contain himself anymore.

He’s embarrassed because he’s overreacting and he’s clutching the sink as aether puts a supportive hand on his back but it feels patronizing because he knows he’s overreacting and he’s-

���Did we say something?”

Dew sobs. Quick, choked off like it wasn’t supposed to come out because it wasn’t. Because he’s overreacting and he shouldn’t be acting like this. Because it was a joke and he’s making a scene because he can’t help but overthink everything.

“Dew, it was a joke” aether embraces him, lightly to not overwhelm him, but he can’t leave him like this. Dew barely lets go of his vice grip on the counter top to let aether pull him into himself. “She didn’t mean it, we thought you liked jokes like that”

He doesn’t. He’s said that.

Dew shakes his head and pushes away from aether enough to speak.

The crack in his voice makes him wince as he chokes and gasps the sobs back to try and get out what he’s saying without being a complete mess, but it’s pathetic anyways, he feels like a child. The way aether stares in concern makes him feel like a petulant toddler throwing a fit.

“I can’t stand them anymore. I’ve said this”

“Have you?” Aether asks, genuinely. The fact that he’s being genuine almost makes it hurt more. He wishes aether would just let him be dramatic and leave him alone.

“Why don’t you ever listen to me?” Dew all but wails. He’s louder than he means to be, another sob ringing out in the middle of his sentence. Aether looks confused and concerned, like dew has actually lost it this time, over a joke no less.

“I am, I am listening to you droplet, tell me what’s wrong”

It feels patronizing, dew knows aethers not trying to be but the frustration builds anyways.

“I’m tired aeth, I’m tired of you all acting like you hate me. No one ever acts like they genuinely like or want to be around me and it’s fucking heart wrenching” dew cries

“Water bug you know i-“ aether shakes his head, remorseful.

“No, aether you don’t understand. You all keep saying you hate me. It stings. I don’t know what to do I don’t understand why I’m the only one not worthy of kindness” dew clings to aethers shirt like if he lets go aether will disappear and stop listening to him.

“Dewdrop I’m sorry I didn’t know-“

“Stop please just - I don’t get it” dew sobs. He leans his head into aethers shirt, fist fulls of fabric brought up to his face as aether embraces him tightly.

Dew just weeps, a dam of emotions he can’t bare to vocalize comes out in tearful pleas instead.

“I don’t get it. I’m sorry. Please listen I’m sorry. I don’t understand” the demands come out in choked off cries, forceful sounds racking his small frame as aether hugs him tightly to try and get him to stop shaking.

Aether lowers them to the floor, holds dew in his lap and tries to soothe him.

“You’re not being dramatic, I’m sorry. We love you so much and I’m sorry we don’t say that” aether whispers into his hair.

Dew starts to quiet down as aether traces shapes into his back, the distraction well needed. He clings and listens and tries to focus on whatever aether is dragging into his skin with the tip of his fingers.

“So sorry waterbug, you’re ok, I love you so much. You’ve done nothing wrong”

Dew realizes what the shapes are.

He’s tracing hearts into his back.

#time to give dew pain again #I’m sorry man idk. love that thing but consider: I give him all my problems #also the important note of no one’s in the wrong here #sometimes communication is hard and so are emotions #aether would die for him ok? so would cirrus #the band ghost #ghost #fanfic #nameless ghouls #ghost bc #wrath writes #dewdrop ghoul #aether ghoul #angst

[liquidstar]

so Subaru has Return By Death, Reinhard has the Divine Protection of the Phoenix, Ferris has the Sacrament of the Immortal King AND Pseudo-Immortality, Al has his Unnamed Authority, what the FUCK does Julius have? 6 glowing orb daughters? a sword? congrats on being the only knight in the group who can be killed, idiot. now go fight the goddamn first Sword Saint

#re:zero #i wish subaru and al could openly talk abt their abilities so they could all bully julius about being the odd man out LOL #look at this idiot hes not even traumatized from experiencing the horror and pain and agony of death #i wouldnt be surprised if by using his spirits powers he can also conjure up an ability that gives him a resurrection power tho

[fractiflos]

Okay, I thought I'd share my thoughts on the AFO and Yoichi height thing.

My first thought: Oh, AFO must've be normal-sized at first, he just grew super tall because he lived for 200 years.

After I realized: Huh, I wonder if AFO just started stealing height related quirks after he realized Yoichi was starting to grow taller than he was.

#mha #yoichi shigaraki #all for one #Okay but as an older sibling with a younger sibling who's starting to grow taller #I would do the same thing #I mean you can't really fault him for this one #I understand your pain AFO #But 7'4 (2.25 meters) is a little overkill man #Like Yoichi isn't even that tall #Besides everyone knows the key is to grow just tall enough that people don't doubt you're taller #But also just short enough that you give your younger sibling false hope #C'mon man you're a villain #I thought you understood these things

[radaverse]

I just really want samurai jack to have a friend he's always so lonely why can't he have a friend I want him to have a friend he needs a friend fr please AUURRRGGHGVJDNSNDKLD 😭😭💀

So I'll just give him a btw creature :)

(Wip)

#samurai jack #totally not me writing a lotta lore for a samurai and a chinchilla #art #animatic #wip #samurai jack art #sj #jack #I mean if I have this creature why not give it to someone who needs it #mai is just the total opposite of all the hate pain and sorrow that's in aku's #bro at this point they're just some comfort characters #mai the chinchilla #oc #samurai jack needs this btw creature as a bestie you can't change my mind 💀 #And there's scotsman. the man who brings jack comfort #BUT HE LITERALLY HAD LIKE 4 APPEARANCES IN THE WHOLE SHOW 😭 #jack needs comfort please comfort for the samurai GIVE HIM COMFORT HE NEEDCOMFORTJSNBFKSMSLMS #extra points if you instantly recognized the song 😉 #jackposting #radaverse

[h0estar]

Yukine surrounded by cherry blossoms 🥹🫶

#yukine and sakura petals man #yato's first shinki sakura who changed him for the better :( #now yato's recent shinki yukine who he named after the snow but who's real name actually means spring tree (the sakura tree) #and yukine's first friend who loved taking care of that sakura tree :(((( #now yukine running to yato's aid with sakura petals all around him bc it's a new beginning for him :( #i love everything about this manga for real #the yukine + sakura petals combo give me life but they also cause me great pain #noragami #noragami spoilers #mine

[tothepointofinsanity]

[The sensation of phantom pain in my dreams have intensified to a realistically obstructive and uncomfortable degree...I feel pain for a part that does not even exist in my body.]

#why does my father get cool dreams where he's a hero or whatever #while im here fighting the demons or whatever with a fever in a DREAM #the voices have been very quiet lately. that does not give me any confidence #i actually dreamed i got “diagnosed” with yellow fever #im shaking rn at all the medical inaccuracies in my own dreams #how to piss off a science man: present to him pains not even characteristic to his body and butcher the life cycle of pathogens #i don't like dreams where I'm in pain... #ttpoilog

[jtownraindancer]

Ace's TURИ for Burn Rewatch: Sealed Fate

#burn gorman #major hewlett #edmund hewlett #edmund my dearest 🔭 #my beloved starboy 🌌 #turn washington's spies #amc turn #turn #my gifs #only a few moments in this episode but him smiling at himself in the mirror and smiling BIGGER when he hears Anna- #don't look at me I'm in pain over this ship all over again #annlett #(l'espirit) #shut up ace #man i need a tag for burn now fuck #the burn collection #give him ONE HAPPY PERIOD PIECE ROMANCE PLEASE

[clerichs-xi]

tender as a bruise, sharper than a razor wrap her tentacles around me like she'll never let me go

klaus' backstory arc just ended heho and it was revealed he used to be the lover of the goddess of storms and pirates... she had basically kidnapped him and imprisoned him into murder and piracy for 20 years and needless to say it greatly damaged him on every level <3 its okay he's been able to be normal for once since the start of the campaign thanks to the party aka his new found family

get urself a surrogate middle-aged father who can speedrun a forbidden romance in one minute and then immediately go to confront the darkest version/a corrupted version of himself, as well as his toxic lover as she tortures him -w-)b

details and just the lines hehe

#clerichs.png #my artwork #original character #original art #original illustration #digital art #digital painting #digital illustration #dnd character #oc #oc illustration #im so unnormal about him. #he got hurt soo badly in isolation... thats where all the scars in his ref came from </3 #this portrait is of the one scar his goddess did not give him.... </3 #tfw ur jealous sea goddess lover pits you against other pirates and sea monsters to fight for ur life and test ur devotion #and she promised to love you wholly only for u to realize she doesn't understand or know what love is #and only wanted it bc everyone else who had love seemed so happy and she wanted that too #so after she destroyed everything you loved (literally your entire world) she merely treats u as a possession for 20 years #and you don't know how to ask for love because you don't know how to love either so you resent her and everything and everyone #leading rage to build up within you and you willfully slaughtering so many things because you cant handle your emotions and pain #and after deflating and sinking into apathy a rogue priest manages to break ur exterior and touch you deeply enough to let you love again #and because of him you're able to begin breaking free of everything and you lose everything again but this time #this time you wake up in a crate of fish to outstretched hands and people who love you as family even after learning who you are/were #filling you with strength and willpower even as your goddess lover comes back swearing she loved you and loves you still #and she tortures you and threatens to take everything away again if you don't come back to her but because of your love for everyone #and their love for you youre able to hold fast long enough for them to break you out #his goddess made a copy of him by warping the body and soul of a naive young man in an attempt to replace him and fill the hole in her hear #he had to literally kill the darkest version of himself that hurt everyone and he laid him to rest... catharsis if ive ever seen it #as i said. im so normal about him <3 the guy i project onto the most ever #klaus lierstark

[petekaos]

We’re partners.

Shahid Kapoor as Sunny and Bhuvan Arora as Firoz in

FARZI (2023), dir. Raj & DK Episode 4: Dhanrakshak

#farzi #farzi amazon prime #tvedit #dailypoc #pocsource #shahid kapoor #bhuvan arora #indian drama #okay there were some monumental moments btwn the 2 of them this episode but none where they were alone LMAO #i rly had to scrub to find any twoshots bc yasir chacha was with them a lot #they were actually so boyfriends this ep tho ... sunny being protective over firoz eg shielding him from the emotional trauma of seeing #naanu go through so much pain and having to be in this hospital PLUS them being kidnapped and sunny making sure firoz is okay #in the way that his first words after they come back to consciousness being 'firoz are you okay?' AND the give me your hand ... #like what was the reason for that moment. he said it so tenderly too ... #can only explain it this way: sunny felt bad after the whole kidnapping thing and wanted to comfort firoz using - once again! - #physical touch. that's their THING man :(( #anyway i hashtag love them and all and the next eps only get more intense <3 #rahul.gif

[chumpovodir]

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#castlevania #castlevania curse of darkness #hector castlevania #it's funny that the narrative takes pains to make us understand hector is like. not just castlevania pretty but *strikingly* gorgeous #yet every media iteration of him has a moment where its like “damn bro u look *awful* tf” #there's a bit with isaac when he catches up to hector in the tokyopop manga #and rosaly's indirect “oh shit you're not a corpse???” from PtR as well #idk if its all a deliberate running gag but #give the man a fucking break lmao #have this meme from the depths of my drafts instead of me bitching about nocturne now that cv is getting a bit of traction again #castlevaniaposting

[dontgofarfromme]

Incredibly fucking insane how well the Wit fits as an allegory for queerness. Burrich's harsh rejection of Fitz and Swift for it, the simultaneous automatic learned reaction of disgust and the fear at learning he has a child who could face real danger because of it, the multitude of ways he misunderstands and refuses to understand the way the Wit functions in order to keep his views. His "I've tried many years to purge it from myself. Still, it lingers. But if it cannot be purged from a man, he can nevertheless be taught to refuse it. Just as a man must learn to refuse all other sorts of vices." The damage to his relationship with first Fitz because of his inability to accept thar Fitz not only has but continues to use the Wit. The way Fitz eventually embraces his Wit but is always careful, so so careful and so worried for people like Swift, who flaunt it. Web's "there are other types of neglect and deprivation. To deny what unfolds in someone...to say to a child 'you must not be what you are.' That is wrong." It's just!! All over the fucking place!!!

#realm of the elderlings #reason 72938372929 why its utterly incomprehensible that hobb intended to write fitz as a straight man #like excuse me ma'am #u cant queer code this mans entire life and then expect me to believe u when u say he could never be into dudes #also burrich is so clearly and painfully wrong here but i find him so interesting #he gives valmiki from valmikis daughter vibes when jt comes to this topic #a reference that is totally incomprehensible to 99% of people but which i am correct abt #also just the damage done to his and fitz relationship and how bitter things are after #the way they talk around the wit even once they mend their relationship in the first series because even if he loves fitz #he still still cannot accept it #that like quiet pain of not being rejected in whole but having someone who should love all of you but refuses to #IDK!!!!

[lorelune]

see i always envision jing yuan as a teasing soft dom kind of lover or power bottom but him completely insatiable after centuries without sex….. absolutely delicious. my eye has been opened. he’s so touch starved and drunk he’s cooing how you feel so good on him that he just can’t help it. later admires in the mirror the hickeys on his neck and the scratches on his back while you’re still asleep after many rounds of sex <333

anon anon ANON i love. love. LOVE soft dom jing yuan ... power bottom jing yuan. truly the flavors. the brainworms.

but there is so something about him discovering his sexual appetite again. he's gone so long intimacy like this, he's grown so used to it (and the company of his own hand.) jing yuan truly thinks he intimacy isn't like... necessary for him. not like that.

but the moment you're under him, chest-heaving and bare, he realizes how foolish he was. how badly he wants this— you. he knows he deprived himself, but he really forgot what he was missing. and now he has you. under him, to held and touched and made to make the prettiest sounds, all by his hand.

#lore answers #thirsts #give me a man self-starved of intimacy and teach him indulgence #or let him learn indulgence #jing yuan does have all the pieces in the palm of his hand #but i like the idea that perhaps the theory that his memory is spotty bc he uses meditation to separate from his painful past #perhaps he has some blind spots