the thing is, akutagawa meeting dazai in that forest is possibly the worst thing that's ever happened to him, but akutagawa himself sees it as the best thing that's ever happened to him, and the juxtaposition between that never fails to make me insane
Idk if 'best' is the most accurate term but he does see it as a life-changing moment, and "giving him a reason to live" at the very least has a positive connotation. And yet this ended up causing him so much more misery and pain than he was already in to begin with. Basically it didn't cause his problems but it did amplify them. But he doesn't see it that way and it makes me wanna 🕳🏃♀️
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listen i've been listening to ttpd: anthology on repeat and crying for a bit so.... uh, poke the heart for a random lyric starter from the album??? if you want it from a specific muse, lemme know, otherwise it'll be whoever i'm feeling.
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Reminding myself I draw sometimes 😭
Working on a little something of my dark urge’s ceremonial robes. Rough so far, still have a lot of rendering and adjusting to get through 😔
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category five got too tired and now loud noises make me want to start sobbing moment
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Why do you like Pen? Not judging, I'm legitimately curious about your opinion on his character!
(Spoilers for Knives Out update)
Hey! Honestly most of it is sourced in amusement. Even before I started romancing him (which I did on my 4th playthrough) I just found him funny. You get off the train and meet your boss who is totally not embezzling town funds, and then immediately meet this fucking guy. Jumps off a wholeass building to get up in your face. Like, what's ur problem, dude.
When I bought the game, I wasn't aware of who was romanceable, so when I saw him I knew that I would immediately give his romance a good shake if he was an option. Like, I understand why people didn't like Pen even before the Knives Out update, but people being so confused about why someone would like Pen really need to chill. For some of us, it's not that deep. He's just a guy. Just a silly little guy.
But I was also surprised he was an option at all because, what, pray tell, could Pathea's plans be for such a weird character. It felt like a weird risk, so part of romancing him was sourced in wondering where it would go.
As I played his romance, I felt like there was a good setup for some interesting character development. One of the devs mentioned that the source of inspiration for him was Gaston, which I believe is why a lot of what we see is completely unredeemable. It's also why much of his characterization went off the deep end after Knives Out. Gaston was the villain of BATB, so of course with Pen's characterization being based off of him, he's going to lean into being the bad guy.
But it also bears mentioning that I like Gaston too. The guy is completely unredeemable. I would never defend him within an inch of my life. But I also find him funny in the same way I find Pen funny. There's just something about utterly oblivious, self absorbed characters that tickles me. wat can i say?
I also think that, as a writer, I just love the idea of fucking with characters like Pen and Gaston. Pen specifically is far more oblivious than Gaston and is willing to put himself in uncomfortable situations to make a point (i.e. not wearing a mask during a sandstorm, and the Lucien Crepe Incident). That is literally a story that writes itself. He's also incredibly lacking in decorum or self awareness, so making mistakes would take having them shoved in his face (preferably by most of the community).
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okay so like. what's the metric on when too much weed is too much . like i realized over the past few days i think i just? function better as a human being when it's actively settling my brain down? so i can actually think. and do things!
and like i know there are people who Need weed every day due to various medical or brain reasons (like esp when you think about medical marijuana cards in semi legal states etc, plus however many more people out there who can't get one for various reasons, but would absolutely flourish with one etc)
but like also. what if im specifically using it wrong and everyone hates me specifically for it so much and thinks i suck because i smoke too much weed
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the TA and contract instructor organization at my uni is organizing a strike but also are currently in negotiations with the school (which are expected to continue overnight as they haven't reached a full conclusion) and the emails from the TAs and profs are so stressed out 😭😭😭 no one knows what's going onn
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