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[rahirrrrsstuff]

I hate eating i hate binge eating i hate feeling dizzy i hate being tired all the time i hate stars that i see under my eyes i hate being me i hate being in body this disgusting body i hate feel my stomach i hate swallowing i hate breath i hate feeling that i live

#i hate this #diary #embarrassing #emotions #existential crisis #i hate my body #feelings #i think about this a lot #tw self destruction #my thougts #anor3×14 #@n@ buddy

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Nothing is easy with eyes closed

#i hate this #diary #embarrassing #emotions #existential crisis #i hate my body #tw self destruction #my thougts #feelings #i think about this a lot #drawing #this person does not exist #anor3×14 #bing3 eating #tw ed in the tags #art #body image

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My Psychologist finally said to me that i have eating disorder, I've been trying to tell him that for the last few months, i put so much effort to tell that to him and after he acually said it to me after he realized and said something that i knew for a five fucking years i burnst i to tears maybe becouse i heard it for the first time the other person said that exact words I heard this in real life and this words appeared in my life and became my life i knew it but i thought it's just fascination about this theme, i was wrong and know he want me to go see a doctor to have a professional help but i don't want this help i don't want to have hope when it's zero chances to that when even me myslef don't want it

#i hate this #diary #embarrassing #emotions #existential crisis #€d #food #anor3×14 #bing3 eating #3ating d1sorder #3d f4st #my thougts #i hate my body #tw self destruction

[rahirrrrsstuff]

Sometimes i forget that being happy through the day is an actual felling. I feel like when i think about word emotion the first thing that i have in my mind is saddness.

#i hate this #diary #embarrassing #emotions #existential crisis #i hate my body #feelings #i think about this a lot #im crying #is it normal? #saddness #i'm sad #my thougts #tw self destruction #bad feelings #bad habits #lights #random stuff #human #mundane

[rahirrrrsstuff]

Sometimes I'm emberased to live in body I'm emberased about how i look

#emotions #existential crisis #embarrassing #i hate my body #body image #body ch3ck #tiktok #feelings #wanna disappear #i think about this a lot #thinkin thots #i hate this #is it normal? #im crying #bad feelings

[rahirrrrsstuff]

Sometimes i forgot that being happy through the day is an actual felling. I feel like when i think about the world emotion the first thing that i have in my mind is sadness

#saddness #feelings #thinkin thots #i think about this a lot #emotions #happy #happiness #self worth #diary #i hate this #is it normal?

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I'm sorry but i don't love myself

#bts #kpop #live #love #i hate this #i hate my body #diary #quotes #bts army #apology #im crying #life #self worth #tw self destruction #self love #lights #wanna die #wanna disappear #jimin #jungkook #bts namjoon #jin #suga #jhope #kim taehyung

[rahirrrrsstuff]

Existing is really embarrassing. Being human and being able to die in any time is really embarrassing.

#live #this person does not exist #existential crisis #detroit become human #human #embarrassing