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Start of End

moon, my dear friend

you were there from start to end

when time feels like its bend

looking af the stars above our tent

promise this is not just some trend

i want to be there in big extend

you talking about me vilipend

at least, please, my funeral attend

#poems and poetry #original poetry #my poem #art #start of end #moon my dear friend

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#i love this thread so much #screw Megan Kelly #santa claus ans jesus aren't white

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it hurts to see your ex, someone you truly and unconditionally loved, moving on and having the best time of their life a month after they broke up with you while you are still heartbroken and sad.

#relationship #ex #girlfriend #left behind #it fucking hurts #you said you loved me #you promised you'll never leave me #you wanted to stray friends and you once haven't send me a message first #lovers to enemies #and i still fucking care about you #and im wtill happy that you're happy #i want to be mad #i want to be angry at you

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dreams are memories in which we lived in but did not exist in.

#its true #question mark #i don't even know how i ended up thinking about that #thought?

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every time i try to make things better they end up worse and i keel hurting people around me and myself.

#gotta hate life #what is this #what am i doing wrong #hell #please #what if everyone around me just leaves #what am I supposed to do then #why do i always feel left behind #why am i so broken #why do i say things i don't believe #why can't i think before i speak #when did all of that started #why do i even try #why dont i give up on everything #why do i care #why do i have feelings #why am i alive

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i love women.

#i just love women #not even in like a gay way #they are just so powerful #and when they are together like they can do anything #women can do anything #can we all as humanity agree to this

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WHY do i keep laughing at their messages.

#like bro fr stop #we broke up #were friends #what is wrong with you #and like i laught at my besties messages too #i just feel i shouldn't with them #i feel like it would make them uncomfortable if they knew #but like i still love them #i love all my friends #and im happy to talk to them

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nobody ever cares about me as much as i care about them.

#well i guess thats just how it is #ill have to live with that #but like its so annoying when you want to be with someone (family friends doesn't matter) and you are the only one who's excited #or the only one whos looking forward to it #and like youd sacrifice your free time for them or like you wanted to go somewhere but youd rather cancel and go with them #and they just dont care #you're nobody you're so average youre nothing special #and they are the most special thing for you #it hurts #youre supposed to be my brother #youre supposed to help me and be there for me the way i an for you #youre supposed to love me #the only thing you do it make me feel left behind #and that im not loved #and that i care to much #im already broken #why are you not there for me #what did i did wrong #please

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currently trying not to have a panick attack while in class.

#it's not going well #i cried a bit #hope nobody noticed #i don't like this #im not having fun #i wanna get out of here #tumblr people help

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carpe diem but i don't speak latin.

#im really trying to seize the day #carpe diem #seize the day boys. make your lifes extraordinary #dead poets society #o captain my captain

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what if i die in my sleep and nobody remembers me the way i want to be remembered.?

#i was just lying in bed and the thought poped out in my mind #all because the right side of my neck hurts when i turn my head #how fun #i need help #just a thought #and ill literally be in the worst outfit #im not even wearing pyjamas like #im wearing nice jocker socks tho that's something right #how do i even want to be remembered as #the kid that wanted to carpe diem but was too anxious and sensitive #can i at least have a pride flag in my grave #why am i taking this sk seriously #im writing it like someone's gonna see it after my death #i probably need sleep cause brain cells aint working #good night yall

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guilt

i do something good

what they want

then their expectations grow

i should touch the sky

i can't

I'm still in my bed

unable

unstable.

sunday's dinner table

they talk

i run

a horse that wants to be free

hiding behind a big black tree.

trying to act happy

they already ruined my dreams

guilt

something they should feel

but i deal with it

why

they ruined safeness

now it's only me and my graveness.

#poem #poetry #i dont really know how poetry works #my poem #original poem #family #mental health #trauma #poems and poetry

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garlic bread to share to your aspec friends :)

rb to share

#garlic bread #international asexuality day #aspec

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can someone listen to Found Heaven too much?

#found heaven #conan gray #conehead #i love this album #its so good i listen to it non stop since yesterday

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#happy birthday Victoria Annabel Spring #happy birthday #tori spring #victoria spring #solitaire #its funny because its true #patience kills #april fifth #alice oseman #osemanverse

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stop killing women.

#femicide #stop killing women

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the imperfections are what make something perfect.

#imperfections