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"Do these symptoms interfere with your daily activities?"

Bitch these symptoms ARE my daily activities wym

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requested by arsonissexy

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some late night poetry

lightly censored ;)

I’ve fallen asleep many a night,

waiting to talk to her; one

lonely heart pining for my only; I

hate that our moments together are fleeting. 

“Get in line,” she says, “there’s

too many poor saps swooning over me; too

many lovesick souls clamoring for my limited attention.” 

I wait my turn

seven days a week; this daily routine. I

love her; I can’t live without her. I

need her, like three meals a week. 

She

is my sustenance.

I am finally at the front of the line, I 

have been waiting to talk to her forever.

She

is my oasis, my only comfort

in a dry, dry desert, where

I am isolated.

I find a way to stay alive by thinking of her, of

the next time I’ll talk to her. Five

fingers clutching my heart in relief, five fingers caressing her

lips-- she is beautiful as always, dressed to the nines. I

would wait in line forever

to talk to you

one

last 

time

my

one

and

only

comfort

in

this

cruel

world.

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Could I please have a reading? I'm moving into college dorms for the first time, which is super exciting. But school's starting, which means that my depression and loneliness are going to get progressively worse until it spirals into hospitalization in a few months, just like it's done for several years. I'm not going to have a trusted adult living with me to make sure I'm okay. Is there something I should be doing to make the start of school less sucky? Or do I just let it happen and endure it?

First of all, ensure you utilize mental health resources on campus/take your meds/etc. I’m not a medical professional, so I will not be reading from a medical perspective.

For a self care school reading, you received:Judgement Reversal

Honestly, don’t be so hard on yourself.

Stressors and general bullshit are not your fault. People being assholes is not your fault. Don’t take all that extra emotional weight on yourself when you don’t need it:

it does not serve you. You deserve to serve yourself. Put yourself first. Put your happiness first. Believe in yourself. You can do this.

(Readings: PAID ONLY, FREE CLOSED)

Save a cow, tip your tarot reader

#ref #tarot #tarot reading #school

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i want to die

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me, talking about my trauma: haha yeah it was no big deal tho i don’t really care it’s whatever honestly

somebody: validates my trauma and says i shouldn’t have had to go through that

me, suddenly crying: huh. weird

#ptsd #relatable #trauma #text

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#my childhood tbh #picture #caps lock

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Hey I'm turning this blog into a personal blog where I can express my mental state of mind and needs so if you only followed for the studyblr helpful aspect feel free to unfollow

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Simple DIY Fidget Toy (text version)

(version with pictures here)

Materials:  -a bead -a safety pin

1.) Open the safety pin.

2.) Thread the bead onto the safety pin.

3.) Close the safety pin. 

4.) Spin the bead around. Enjoy.

Good for: texture, repetitive movement, moving parts, quiet and discreet

#fidget toys #diy #anxiety #adhd #diy fidget toy #fiddle #stim #stimming #easy diy #easy diy fidget toy #simple diy fidget toy #fidget toy #fidget #how to #text #repetitive movements #moving parts #discreet fidget toy #quiet fidget toy #ne/nv #ns #mine

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Simple DIY Fidget Toy

(text-only version here)

Materials:  -a bead -a safety pin

1.) Open the safety pin.

2.) Thread the bead onto the the safety pin.

3.) Close the safety pin.

4.) Spin the bead around. Enjoy. 

Good for: texture, repetitive movement, moving parts, quiet and discreet

#fidget toys #diy #diy fidget toy #anxiety #adhd #fiddle #stim #stimming #easy diy #easy diy fidget toy #simple diy fidget toy #fidget toy #fidget #how to #picture #gif #texture #repetitive movements #moving parts #quiet fidget toy #discreet fidget toy #ne/nv #ns #mine

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okay so my Physics teacher, made us write down what is known as the GUESS method. it is so helpful idk if y'all know about it, but goodness gracious it helps. G- given; write down everything the gave you. U-undefined; what you're looking for. E- equation; the equation you're using. S- steps; how you would solve it and finally S- solved; your final answer. she's the reason I liked physics and this made it so neat and organized. she literally made us do this or she would deduct points of our grade

oooh @ that person taking a physics exam soon!

#s #ne/nv #study tip #physics #!!!

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Can’t start studying?

Get up and go for a 5-minute walk

Have a glass of water and a snack

Write a short to-do list

Get out all the supplies you need.

Sit down

Tell a friend you’re going to start studying. (If you don’t have a friend nearby, text them. Or tell yourself. Or tell a wall. Just say it.)

Turn off your phone and close any non-essential internet tabs

Do the very first step of what you need to do. If you have to write an essay, write the first sentence. If you have to read a chapter, read the first sentence. If you have to do a multi-choice quiz, answer the first question. 

Congratulations! You have started studying!

Now do the second step. Write the second sentence. Read the first sentence. Answer the second question.

Now do the third step.

Keep repeating. 

Now you’ve done more than just start studying! Keep going and soon your to-do list will be all finished.

#text #s #ne/nv

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why are there so many tabs for just one class??? DX

one step at a time... one step at a time

(i really need to clean out my inbox lol)

#study #studyblr #screenshot #momentum #studyspo #xe speaks #ne/nv #s #picture

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hello all!

first off, i’m surprised to see that i have followers! hello! welcome! i didn’t even expect followers but wow thank you, i hope you enjoy the posts to come

second, i’m sorry i haven’t been posting much lately. you know how it is with mental illness... things get pushed to the side and priorities are tumbling around and emergencies get in the way so i haven’t posted here in a while! that should change soon- goodness knows i have plenty of homework for display...

i hope you see you in the weeks to come!

~andri

#xe speaks #ns #ne/nv #text

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"transgender people are just special snowflakes"

"the only people who have the right to say they're triggered are combat vets with PTSD"

"non-binary isn't a real gender"

"people who say they're triggered by normal things should kill themselves; they're a waste of oxygen and space on this planet"

"depressed people are just attention seekers"

"oh! look at me!!! someone complimented me and it's very offensive and triggering!!!11! lol but seriously kill yourself smh"

"anxiety is fake, learn to deal with your emotions loser"

"i wouldn't even care if you killed yourself; people who insist they're non-binary and triggered by everything and think the world revolves around them are scum"

"people who insist on using stupid pronouns like treeself or fairyself or xe/nym/hir or whatever are stupid. just use regular pronouns ffs nobody cares about your pronoun identity bullshit"

you know, guys

i've BEEN trying to kill myself

three suicide attempts in the last 6 months

i KNOW i'm a worthless piece of shit, i've been trying to die but i haven't tried hard enough yet

i'm so sorry for still being alive

i'll be gone soon, i promise

i'll stop being a waste of space and then you can be assured that the world will be a bit of a happier place without me around, sucking up resources and depending on other people

i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry

#xe speaks #ns #e/v #long post #text #suicide #transphobia #depression #anxiety #pronouns #please help me somebody anybody