mejaydee

[mejaydee]

Sometimes I feel like a spider caught in its own web.

Sometimes I feel like a puppet controlling its own strings.

Sometimes I feel like a witch spreading a curse.

Sometimes I feel like I’m being cursed.

Sometimes I feel like I am the curse.

Sometimes I feel like me.

But I don’t know if I have ever felt human

#poem #text #text post

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Works for the whole year too: 4/20/2024

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One of my favorite parts about hanging out with friends is when someone has to go so everybody stands up and walks to the door and then sits there for 45 minutes just talking because we love each other’s company and we don’t want our time together to end. Underrated moment every time

#text post #text #friendship

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I’ve always thought of myself as not worth remembering

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Anyone else feel like their heart died an ungrieved and unnoticed death in 2011 and the last 13 years have all been against your will as your body and mind are puppeteered by an uncaring spider creature who thinks only in terms of control and wicked perversions or is that just me

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Jack off all trades, master of cum

#shitpost #196 #text

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One of my strongest love languages is sharing music but unfortunately my music taste fucking SUCKS. So nobody wants to listen to it

#music #text #shitpost #love langauges

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#meme #memes #196 #19684 #shitpost #japan #the one on your butt

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The social norms around me are the English language and everyone else seems to have dictionaries, but it appears I’m dyslexic and for some reason mein Wörterbuch ist auf Deutsch

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#one piece #op #one piece manga #ch 1106 #the drums of liberation #meme #sorry for low quality image

[mejaydee]

Ha! You are too late, fool!

I have already made a YouTube video, and when I presented your opinion I did it in a “silly” and totally not ableist voice, thereby depicting you as part of a classification of people that I perceive as lesser than me!

I have won this argument.

#ableism #please stop doing this #if their arguments are incorrect you should be able to prove it without resorting to ridiculing people with stutters/lisps/disabilities #tired of even people I agree with doing this #it’s the audio version of wojak and chad

[mejaydee]

The Archangel Michael:

“You stand before me as conceited as man can be. You dare not kneel before the heavenly lights as you think even them to be beneath you. Your actions on the mortal coil have wrought naught but fear and terror and suffering.

The power you have stolen and have thus unjustly wielded in your crusade against all that is good and holy must be punished, and it must be so great and painful that even the most wretched souls of hell should balk at the mere thought of it.

Yet I fear even an eternity spent at that magnitude of punishment may not be enough, as even facing me as your judge and jury you do not fear me as executioner.

You shall never repent, you shall never be redeemed, and you shall never. Be. Free.”

Tim Allen:

“Aaueuaaghhh????”

#meme #text #196 #19684 #shitpost #memes #funny #lol #tim allen #home improvement

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I don’t know which of these things happened first or if they happened concurrently but around the same time I stopped viewing myself as “ugly” I also realized I didn’t see anyone else as ugly anymore either.

People can still be not my type and whatnot but I no longer see anyone as specifically ugly. Even people who I would have in the past considered ugly I generally just think about how I would’ve used to think that. I see art of some old timey cartoon villain that’s obviously supposed to be fat and ugly and I know that’s what I’m supposed to take away but I just don’t anymore.

It’s just another point to prove that attractiveness is completely and utterly subjective and any understanding of “attractive” people is purely societal and conventional. We are raised to believe that there is such a thing as objectively beautiful, and things that don’t fit that exact definition cannot be beautiful.

For the longest time as an acespec person I’d see everyone around me seemingly in unison agree about how hot some lady was and to me she was just like an average blond woman in a bikini. Like to be clear, I believe the average blond woman is beautiful, but all of the guys around me would somehow all agree that this woman in PARTICULAR was a cut above the rest.

They were all already aware of what was “sexy”. She was hot because she was in a bikini and they wanted to have sex with her. I eventually learned what sexy and hot and beautiful looked like, even if I didn’t feel it like they did. And the same thing happened with ugliness. The people around me told me that everyone KNEW that this chubby girl in our class was ugly. Surely they can’t all be wrong? So I learned what ugly was too. And applying that to myself, I knew I was also objectively ugly.

It took a long time and a complete dismantling of how I understood attraction as a concept before I got this conditioning out of my head. I’ve hated the body I was born in for nearly my entire life, based purely on what other people told me I “should” want to look like.

I still feel the effects of not fitting in with these conventional beauty standards, but I’ve stopped seeing myself in the same light. And you should too. No matter what you look like, I can PROMISE you. You are not ugly.

#body positivity #ace #asexual #demisexual #acespec #text #text post

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No offence but I feel like some people got a little too comfortable with telling people to touch grass and swung all the way round to just straight up shaming anyone who might have a less active social life than them to feel better about themselves. “She should be at the club” was a really funny meme until people started acting like fucking middle school bullies towards people who don’t go out with their friends a lot. All those drinking/drugs/sex milestone polls were fun to engage with until it became a wierd circlejerk making fun of people who haven’t done those things before. People on twitter are once again dogpiling someone for wanting queer social spaces that don’t revolve around alcohol or loud music and telling them it’s their own fault for not having friends.

Like I get that nightclubs and sex have strong ties to queer culture and are often the first targets in the hellscape of respectability politics. It’s important we remember our roots and protect these spaces from conservative scrutiny. I mean that. They are important. But just on a surface level it seems like people are starting to see having an inactive social life as some kind of moral failing which…it’s not. I feel like an insane person for feeling like I have to say this on the fucking queer autism website but like. You aren’t inherently a bad person if you don’t have friends. You aren’t “falling behind” if you haven’t had your first kiss in your 20s or never done drugs. The real world isn’t a movie. And if you see someone who doesn’t go out much and instinctually think “wow what a terminally online loser. I bet their social life sucks because they’re a sheltered creep and not because of systemic barriers beyond their control” you need to have a long hard look at why you feel that way.

There are very real barriers that prevent isolated people from finding community and connection. Do you think you’re superior for being able to breach them? Time, money, sobriety, accessibility, none of those factors were a problem for you, so it shouldn’t be for them, right? Right?

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I’ve seen a couple of posts and comics about the classic aspec experience of hearing “how can someone as attractive as you not have experience” or “the uncomfortable feeling when you realize a person you see as platonic has romantic/sexual feelings for you”

And as much as those shitty situations deserve to be talked about I never see anyone talk about the other side

Shoutouts to unconventionally attractive aspec people who never get mistaken for having experience

Shoutouts to everyone who has to see people not be surprised when they say they haven’t had their first kiss

Shoutouts to everyone who has never been approached or even complimented on their appearance even though sometimes it’s nice to want to look good even if not taken sexually

Shoutouts to everyone who has had to see the condescending look of “oh yeah I’m sure it’s ‘your choice’ to not be in a relationship”

Shoutouts to all of the alloromantic aces who want to have a relationship but have to put up with all of the bullshit of the dating scene that is forced upon people who don’t fit traditional beauty standards, especially if they want an actual relationship and aren’t an “easy lay”

Shoutout to all the aspecs who are considered “””ugly””” in a world run by “””sexy””” that they never wanted to be a part of in the first place.

#aspec #asexual #aromantic #aroace #ace #demisexual #cupiosexual #i say unconventionally attractive because I believe anyone and everyone can be attractive and conventional standards are bullshit #the solution to all of these problems is treating each other with basic respect and human decency

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#ai art sucks

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This moment awakened something within my very being and I am still dealing with the consequences

#meme #196 #19684 #drake and josh #nickolodeon #goth girls #i always related more to josh but I don’t know if I ever wanted to be anyone else more than drake in this moment