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when dean says "last time someone looked at me like that i got laid" he's being vicious

#yeah this one slapped me across the face #even in the least “destiel” reading it's Dean cheapening this Profound Bond™ he has with Cas #the Righteous Man pulled out of Hell by an angel by order of God #this angel gripped his soul so tight it left a physical scar on the body that the angel then stitched back together #this angel then goes on to REBEL AGAINST HEAVEN to help him STOP GOD'S OWN PLAN #their relationship is supposed to be HOLY and here Dean is... turning it into something profane #Dean refusing to name what is between them until he names it by the same sins of Sodom and Gomorrah #yeah man this one basically slapped Cas across the face too #destiel feels #SPN tag #SPN meta #SPN thoughts

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Toastystats: TV fandom fix-its on AO3 - Supernatural

Following the previous cross-fandom look at TV fix-its, we're starting fandom deep dives. We're starting with the strongest fandom response to a finale I've ever seen -- Supernatural.

For lots more data, explanations of all of the above, plus any clarifications & corrections, click through to AO3.

#woof. #so how many of those post-15x20 ones were written by Jensen Ack- #*CW sniper gets another one on me* #SPN fandom #SPN tag

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This is in no way the best way to post it but it is the only way I could get the format to stay

#oof #poetry tag #actual art #also #im sorry OP avert thine eyes #Dean feels

[ajcrowlor]

I'm fascinated by how the formatting of different social media sites affect how text is read.

For instance, a line break on Tumblr indicates a new idea.

#and tags allow me to giggle quitely abt this meta-ass hellsite #tumblr tag

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#5 is my pref in fic and canon but i can swing 3 and 4 too #people arguing that he wasn't happy as a human and like yeah he wasn't bc it was forced on him and during the worst time possible! #he hasn't been happy being an angel either! #being an angel. having powers. that's been about him feeling useful to The Cause (whichever Cause of the time #; Heaven or the Winchesters) #i don't really think he's happy being either bc i simply don't think he's had time to not be depressed #and i personally prefer human(-ish)!Cas endgame bc im thinking abt SPN storylines and themes and parallels #and i feel like Cas choosing/having to give up (most of) his Grace is the more cathartic? logical? ending #“will he be happy tho?” that's not the point imo bc i thinj the point is for the story to end in a place thay allows the characters to grow #esp to grow BEYOND the story they were forced into #it's okay for some sadness... some bittersweetness... at the end bc the point woukd be it ISN'T the end for them; #they have a whole life they can live freely now #free will bby let them make choices LET THEM LIVE !!! #Cas feels #SPN thoughts #SPN polls #SPN tag

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dean's like. when i want my dad to like me i hide all my soft parts and when i want other hunters to respect me i act like my dad and when other men leer at me in bars i no homo it up and when motel owners perceive something queer abt me i butch it up and when my little brother teases me i project the feminine things i actually like onto him and when i'm around attractive women i lean into the image that's already been cultivated around me as a charming ladies man and flirt shamelessly (but actually i'm shy) and when i'm around queer women i don't have to perform for i can relax and wear silly outfits and indulge in my actual interests and hobbies and when i'm around kids i am soft and vulnerable and honest because i know they won't judge me and when faced with the option of choosing any presentation i joke that i'd pick to look like a hot cheerleader and everyone thinks i'm being pervy but actually. well. who wouldn't want to be a hot cheerleader am i right? and no no other people don't think like that i guess, heh, nevermind....and when i'm with my best friend...sometimes i think he can see all of me, like really see me, and it's simultaneously terrifying and so so easy.

#:((( #Dean feels #SPN tag

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I fear misha collins will have to stay in europe from here on out because I'm not convinced the CW won't shoot him the minute he steps foot on US soil

#probably #Misha pls #SPN backstage #SPN tag

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#“helps me stay awake” in the way that i will still be tired as fuck during the day but will be unable to fall asleep until 12 hours later #like i will still fall asleep if i lie down reading fic bc im exhausted but if i had that coffee or tea or boba at 3pm #i absolutely WILL NOT be able to go to actual bed until after 3am #like my eyes will be burning reading fic at 2am but the actual sweet embrace of nighttime bedtime will not come for me for another hour #Tay Tag #tumblr polls #and i'll still fucking do it. i'll still make Bad Choices and have bubble tea past noon. bc mmm booba 🧋💕✨ #*is whacked w a rolled-up newspaper*

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every person can feel freddie’s presence in their souls when they sing MAMAAAAAA UUHHHH, I DONT WANNA DIE, I SOMETIMES I WISH I’VE NEVER BEEN BORN AT ALL with all the air in their lungs i’m not joking

#*wait_hold_on_a_minute_cat_crying_meme.jpeg* #Curse of the Bentley #shotgun shuts their cakehole #im having emotions

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Highlights from the conference room where they nominated contenders for Word of the Year 2023:

• They put Skibidi Toilet on the projector to explain what “skibidi” means.

• Baby Gronk was mentioned.

• We discussed the Rizzler.

• “Cunty” was nominated.

• “Enshittification” was suggested for EVERY category.

• “Blue Check” (like from Twitter) was briefly defined as “Someone who will not Shut The Fuck Up”

• The person writing notes briefly defined babygirl as “referencing [The Speaker]”. He is now being called babygirl in the linguist groupchats.

• MULTIPLE people raised their hand to say “I cannot stress this enough: ‘Babygirl’ refers to a GROWN MAN”

#welp #Gneil pls #linguistics tag #tumblr tag

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the "jokes" abt this being "the celibacy website" stopped being funny a while ago and some of yall are weaponizing "go to the (gay) club" in the same way "seek help" has been weaponized (will ppl realise their aphobia if compared to abelism... mmmmm unlikely!)

love (derogatory) having been a freak growing up bc i was too (unknowingly) queer and being a freak now for being too... "straight"... i fucking GUESS ???

Some ppl are like "I'm a kinky sex-positive pervert freak!!!" and then make fun of virgins and asexuals..... sure, reclaim freakiness but keep working on that because teasing ppl for their sex lives (or lack thereof) is, unfortunately, very normie mainstream vanilla behaviour. the right to sexual determination includes NOT having sex. 101 shit. Like this isnt subversive dude, it's using the edge of an ideology for bullying

#mhmm some of yall just suck #some ppl are ace some ppl are demi some ppl are sex-repulsed some ppl have trauma some ppl have disabilities etc etc #a queer asshole pointing and laughing at aces and virgins is no different than a hs straight bully doing the same #(while i disagree w “vanilla” being used as an insult i assume OP was using it bc the targets would take it as a personal attack > #< bc they see “vanilla” as something HORRIBLE when like. it's vanilla jfc get a life @ those ppl) #orienTAYtion #SJ wank #SJ tag

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Over the years there has been a lot of insane jenmish/cockles moments and things. We know misha has no filter about it and is insane but I would like to point out that jensen is just as insane. Let's talk about insane jensen moments implying cockles and more

*note this is all in good fun I'm not implying anything if it makes you uncomfortable for some reason please keep scrolling. I love them as friends and I love their chemistry overall and things they share with us just makes me happy.

#i mean many of these did Something to me #but the fact that my gf had to bully me into listening to the JiBcon song and i have refused to listen to it since that one time... #yeah heavy and intense brainrot #no recovering #cockles tag #(help) #SPN polls #SPN tag #SPN backstage #iykwim ;D #huh wait what's this little red dot on my shir- #*CW sniper takes the shot*

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4x20 "The Rapture" - April 30, 2009

#:( #Jimmy feels #SPN tag #SPN gifset

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Could you tw for Catholicism?

I write priest kink books

#Benedictions Dean my beloved~ 💕 #forgive me father #that could be my catholicism tag #even better: #perdonami padre~ #wink wonk~ #*i am forcibly removed from the church* #oops! all SPN

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jimmy novak can you hear me?

#Jimmy feels #SPN collage #SPN tag #SPN art

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#me thinking we may not get a kiss does not equal me thinking we won't get reciprocal destiel #and i don't need them to kiss like sure that would. likely break my brain in new fun ways to live through and post that #but any other act of affection would likely do similar #forehead touch? forehead touch would ABSOLUTELY KILL ME i'd never recover #SPN polls #destiel tag #SPN tag

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Maybe balls deep will be our always

#nOOOOOOOOOO #SPN backstage #SPN tag