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My bed feels better

With you in it

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True

What felt real in the moment

Was

But if I am to lay my doubts to rest

Do your best

Or better

To assure a heart

Weakened by toil

It may not seem much

To you

As life has been but a steady current

My body and mind

Have endured travels

Most would rather not’ve survived

And yet

My lungs bear breath still

The romantic in me

Gave way

To the sway

Of your winds

Despite your protestations

You’d return again

Planting seeds of hope

Then the storms came

What had sprouted

Washed away

Rejected in wonder

I persisted

More poems

Paint

Even the algorithm cast a thread

Which I fear got caught in the tread

Of the blackened Baja

Tired of my tears

I entreat you to speak the truth

Friend foe lover

I know not your character

Anymore

But for the fragments

I will sew together

On the corpse

Of a flower

Beheaded before the bloom

#poetry #hopeless #hopeful #sadness #grief #tragic #spinster #beyond the seasons #beyond reason #situationships #death

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Kosmic Menagerie

By

P. Yoni bloom

#art #mixed media #magic #dreaming #gold

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Entrails

Not sure

But

I think he hates my guts

When I misunderstood

And ran with an over explaining paragraph

Of artistic intent

Only to realize

Humility is a double edged word

Wishing

I’d be in your thoughts

Without me forcing your hand

So I won’t

Anymore

I’ll

Study the Japanese art

Of swords

In silence

And leave the post mortem

To the narrator

#processing anxiety #releasing fear #joy #writing #poetry #dark humor #brain

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Twirling in the dark

Riffing through the ways

I wandered into darkness

hoping my absence would stir

an inkling

of love in one

two

three too many lovers

a want borne of late night

tormenters at 7 12 13

seeking a stolen innocence

to be deemed a whore

and I'd rather

have been alone in the woods

twirling with bears in the darkness

they'd not lead me to a den with 10 of their friends

or demonstrate their talents for silencing

violation

with a legal team to shield them

I was always more than enough

so they hewed my limbs

with every turn

and I let them

I rebuilt with branches

adequately absolved

care to dance in my fallen leaves

in the sun?

17, 18 and sometime in 2008

they came for me again

in sunglasses, a Bentley, and the red lights of la brea

bought sold and traded

I survived

and i'm

twirling with the bears in darkness

again

saving saplings

putting my heart and guts on pages

splashing canvases with blood

feasting on memories

of my mind being blown

what will take root

from these seeds of something?

I won't wait for a second or third wind

for watering

needing

no prince

or kiss

to wake me

save me

from my day born nightmares

Divining my mind

Spirit

courage

to

face the monsters that made me

Under the shade of my

Evergreen

Then

Let the bears claim me

#writing #rape #culture #love #hope #strength #bear #men #rage #shame #art

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Laser birds

Pew pew

No joke

Another tweet tweet

As you lay next to me

Half asleep

Sorting calls

Dreams

Savoring every second

In the soft

Sculpture of your

Cheekbones

The lips that finally kissed all of me

I get up to pee

Coming back to your stillness

I feel a quiet in me

I’ve never met before…

Hello.

#birds #morning #sex #fun #peaceful #feels right #joy

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His toe

Is slightly off-set from the rest

I’ve grown to love that toe

And miss the man that owns it

From that toe

To the foot is attached

A calf slight and sculpted

To thunderous thighs

Where rests

The most gorgeous of ebony throbs

And the v from those hips

That have slid so deftly between the

Pallid flesh of my thighs

To divine

The heave of my lungs

To his chest fair and sublime

As the sinews of necks climb

Seeking tongues and lips

To moan

Betwixt

And as we drift into midnights swift

And cumming light

It is that toe

A Mind misses most

This

Fast fortnight

🫀

Oh madness be your mistress

Do you not wish

Me sanity

Dear friend?

#harlot #lover #foot #feet #toe #the tortured poets department

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The edited vs the original

Mended vs the unmendable

If only we could edit our lives this easily.

Though I hunger for love

And thought I found a version I could live

With

I realized

Blinded by beauty

Convenience

&

Placation

I was cheating myself

The truth of two avoidant

Anxious people

Fragile

Hopeful

Electric

But the proof has always been there

Too much loss

And I’m left

Wanting to run as far away as I can

Humiliation is where I’ve always lived

When it comes to men

Tennis kept me sane

Then half a man came in and I broke

Twice for throw pillows

And nothing has changed

But begging for an affirmation

From a whole man

Is sadder

Than any loneliness the truth

Would bare

🪡

Unmendable

#angst #writing #joy #poetry #lovers #unwittingly cruel

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By

P Yoni Bloom

1. Aortic Plunder

2. Witches in the tall grass

#painting #artwork #original #joy #sleep deprivation #lust #lovers #brain #despair

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i love you, it's ruining my life

fortnight (feat. post malone) | dir: taylor swift

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If

The last two visits

there was a hint

a glimmer of what that elusive

bitch might be

but

then I flinched

what if

what would I

do with this lump

called 'love'

from

you of all the beautiful creatures

in the universe

...

it's no matter now

because I've embarrassed myself

to what end I know not

but you and that silence

is a pain I gave myself

when I accepted the ride

saw your cars

and said as much

but Sharon of 592 was on the phone

not realizing the rising discomfort

in my veins

with every passing minute

if only I could stop caring

I'd be better for it

I've got a black hole in my soul

trying to suck me in

after the scare last night

a part of me

Wonders what would have been

Had I not the impetus to run

Which

I had when the first lie came to pass

The death of it all

And the flash of sexy once upons

To live on now

then the dust

for a gust

That can’t be undone

#goodbye #no excuses #friendship #one sided radiostatic #no answers

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In kindness

You

Are most cruel

And like a gust of wind

You blew my mind in a different direction

west of the terms and conditions put forth

our closeness

begets

avoidance

I cannot shake the urge to care

yes,

I bristled when you touched my heart because that loveliness

Is reserved for 3am-noon

Baffled by beautiful banter

And this ease

And you finally going down

On me

The hair tie

My ever determined optimism

Overshadowed

By

The reminder

I am merely a thread in your many cloths

My continued adoration

Is steeped in a shimmer

A mirage

Of years from now

Knowing the whole of you

Seeing the space where you lay

The world that made you

6 months of sexy philosophy

Tenderness

Creation

And laughs, those I reflect on the most

The tide sweeps while giants sleep

On the moment I thought I might matter

A stitch or two

Beyond the minutes in my room

🍂🫀🪡🐝

#the tortured poets department #writing #poetry #lovers #despair

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6:38pm

Like a pebble on glass

I felt my heart break

It’s 6:41

And the splinters

Find my rib cage

No blood

Just an ache

For a lie

Not the hallmark card

But

The simplest idea

Of what my kind of love could be

But I write better when I’m sad

Maybe by 6:50

The pain will decide

Its course

And

Let me be

Or devour me quietly

Like you

Did

Once upon a time

#silence #friendship #trust #ghosted #the tortured poets department

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Giant Mosquito

Bedtime imagination

subsists of random anxieties

riddled with disappointments

for many projects off to a good start

but far from completing

the doubt

that I won't be able to do it

or that nobody will care

the pressure of being a creator

a lot like winning at tennis

never okay to lose

I've been making strides

the peril of a setback

is fresh

the strange wonder of Cosmic

only to feel severance

holding court where trust used to sit

eventually I roll onto my left side

if I'm lucky the deep will win

but it's so rare

middle dreams evolve swiftly

and my plethora of alarms begin

snoozing on repeat

only to be startled suddenly

by a giant roadside mosquito

penetrating the crack

in my driver's side window

taking a stab

at my cheek

good rise indeed!

#writing #sleep deprivation #dark humor

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Destiny's Child

Boyence has taken leave

for the thoughts might need clearing

intrusive or otherwise

life can do that

and

our boundaries as such

I overshare

he encourages my creative energies

the weekend connections

spontaneously scheduled

the joy of a new openness

in the last visits

my heart felt free

a companion for my resurgent thigh pain

is worry

keeping my anxiety on the shelf

festers to a hum in my ears

I have injustices to fight

wars within to win

for whatever we are

a harmony is amiss

in learning a new way to be

I shall not force an answer

or

cry out for

clarity

for no reply

is

more

than

enough

to what a word

would do today

#writing #worryless #poetry #meh #uncertainty

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Game changing gear by Forme.science

Get $10 off and I get $10 towards a purchase. Win win.

#training #fitness #recovery #back pain #healing

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Between Laughter and tears

I've done the forms

sent the contract

over slept

drank too much wine

not vacuumed the car

and

I've got a match soon

I'm burning for my creative humors to awaken

a burst of unlimited energy to create

until my hands bleed

and find you

there

to drink the last

drop

&

laugh

#lovers #vampires #joy #pain #poverty