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The rose inside of me isn't blossoming into that vibrant beautiful flower that I once imagined it would be. But instead is this closed seed that refuses to open, and accepts the feeling of dying.

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When I lost her, I knew that I could never replace her.

She was 13, she wasn't just someone.

She was my sister.

We made plans and simply they changed.

She was 20 then and living her life without me.

How do you go from being attached to being detached?

G, that was the initial of her name.

I crossed paths with someone else back in 2017 and even then I thought she was great.

I'm not good with friendships but I do try.

As an adult now, I thought friendships were different, and I wanted her there for all my big moments, but then I moved away.

I moved away, and we became distant.

So distant, it became "who is this?" Text messages when I reached out.

J, is the initial of her name.

I now know what I should've known then.

I'm not good with friendships.

They live their lives, and I see it through social stills.

And to that, I say.

I miss you both, and I'm so proud of you.

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I didn't want to believe it even though I saw it.

I didn't want to believe it even though I knew it.

I didn't want to believe it.

Then they closed the casket.

Numb.

That's what I felt.

Every inch of my body broke like glass, hitting the floor.

-E.R.S

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You were the one I Ieaned on.

You were someone that I would ride to the end of the earth for.

Laughter, memories, attachments.

Like a memory, they fade.

You were my best friend but I wasn't yours.

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I write about you.

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You shout.

I shout.

You hate me yet love me.

But you don't love me, let's be honest here.

You love the thought of me but I'm not who you want me to be.

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Your eyes.

Your smile.

Your laugh.

Contagious.

-E.R.S

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Life hits you hard.

Like the bricks that hold against the wall.

Love breaks you.

Like glass shattering.

You make things easy.

You make life and love look easy.

-E.R.S

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I may not understand but I stand with you.

✊🏼✊🏽✊🏾✊🏿

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We clinged to the idea of love.

The idea of each other.

We craved the attention.

You were the missing piece and I was the puzzle.

But now, that you're gone...

Your memory is cold.

Your memory is fading.

The idea of you was better than having you.

-E.R.S

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“‘Don’t worry,’ the

medic said, ‘It’s just

a panic attack,’ as if

that would comfort me,

to know I am the enemy,

my body––its own stalker.”

-Andrea Gibson

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It's been awhile.

I thought things were going well..

As I hyperventilate tonight and suffocate myself with the blanket and pillows to cover up my cries.

I wouldn't want to wake anyone.

It's been awhile.

I thought things were going well..

But like always,

It's my fault.

-E.R

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Emotional Abuse:

1) They are always right

Somehow, you will always be in the wrong. Facts and events get twisted and you will always end up being the guilty party. Nothing they do is ever their fault. They will have one set of rules for themselves and another set for everyone else. They do not take responsibility for their part and trying to get them to own up to something will leave you disappointed and frustrated.

2) They blame others

As previously mentioned, emotional abusers are never to blame for anything that goes wrong. They will somehow always be the victim. They will steadfastly refuse to apologise for their actions and blame anyone else,anything else to get off the hook. You are wasting your time if you hope that your emotionally abusive partner will apologise and work hard to change his/her ways. Why should they when it’s not their fault?

3) Gas-lighting

This involves making you believe things that didn’t really happen or aren’t really there. For example telling you that they have told you about an upcoming party that you are 100% sure they never told you about. They will never doubt themselves. Instead they will roll their eyes and insist they told you leaving you to doubt your memory. They will push their version of reality on to you and you may end up feeling as if you are going crazy, not knowing what is true anymore.

4) They are critical of others but do not apply the same rules to themselves

Emotional abusers often have low self-awareness. This is often because they are more tuned in to others in order to control them and manipulate them. Apart from being quite controlling characters, they are known for their constant put-downs.

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We were strangers when we met and you are my saving grace.

-E.R.S

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You've caught me passed out on the bathroom floor.

I'm caught.

There's razors everywhere and you're first assumption was that.

You looked at my body and noticed blood, you yelled instead of comforting me..

I fell, here in the bathroom.

I screamed into towels.

I cried and held back my emotions.

Feeling empty, broken.

I threw up.

Yes, this happened.

But please keep screaming at me and putting me down instead of helping me.

-E.R.S

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