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neptunym · 2 months

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ultravalentines 💕

#waaaaa i was supposed to make more. but i got sick so these were the only ones i could finish #sickness + period combo. truly hellish #oh well. hopefully next year i’ll have enough foresight to get them done before valentines day lol #edit: i forgot the stripe on one of the t’s shdgsfgfdsgf #ultrakill #something wicked ultrakill #v1 ultrakill #v2 ultrakill #id included #edit 2.0:I FROGTOT V1'S WINGS AGAIN ARE YOU KIDDING ME.#yknow what. i dont care anymore #ultrakill fanart #gala draws

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psihawaii · 2 months

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it is... a bit upsetting that there aren't a lot more people aren't talking about grian's episode (or at least, in the way they probably should be lol). to be clear, i'm glad he changed the title, i'm glad he's made an attempt to correct himself instead of doubling down but... i mean what use is changing the title when you say the phrase 'Manifest Destiny' so many times in the video itself. why would the painting you commission be so similar to The most famous depiction of it. i wanna take this in as good faith as possible and believe that he really did just not know what the phrase meant, and, again, i'm glad that he's made any kind of effort but... eugh. idk you'd think more people would be talking about it.

edit: apparently he's now edited himself saying the phrase out of the video. which i'm thankful for.

#psi speaks #ask to tag #and also... because i saw it sort of infrequently in the tag... grians is a 30yr old man i Swear To God he does not need you defending him-#or calling out the Mean Tumblr Users who DARE to speak up abt this (there are not a lot lol).#and i do just feel... again even though hes apologized n correct himself (kind of.) he shouldve known better #im willing to believe that he rlly did mean Manifest Mending throughout the whole video but like... why not just say that instead of. yknow #not trying to 'cancel' him either i dont even like mcyt anymore i could Not care less what grian does in his spare time. clearly.#and i feel like. in general you should probably be more comfortable with 'calling out' bigger content creators like this-#-even if it is supposedly just a mistake on their part. i promise u wont hurt their feelings if u do.

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mullettaegi · 2 months

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incoming: another fucking voltron rant because i watched a langst edit and now i wanna cry😭😭

they did not take time. they did not slow that show down for a little bit. especially for lance. cause he did not getting a fucking moment to find himself again after he FUCKING DIED. we saw him homesick, we saw him missing his family, we saw him insecure about his position on the team, we saw him insecure about himself, but we never actually saw him go anywhere else but being sad. he really did get barely any character development.

and tbh i feel like in a way just all the characters didnt have a moment to slow down. and i know, i know, its a kids show, its about fucking robots for fucks sake, theyre in the middle of a war. which, yeah. youre right. but there couldve been so much more, for him, for all of them. what about them? as people, with feelings. where are there emotions. why is it only sadness and happiness and not the enitre confusing spectrum of emotion between. does pidge not feel lost after she finds her brother? yeah, hes back, but i bet she didnt imagine she would be fighting an intergalactic war, and now matt is too. she imagined family dinner, brother barging into her room, dad making corny jokes, house happier and full of life.

hunks family was put in a fucking work camp. he had seen this across the galaxy, zarkons army imprisoning people, making them work, killing them. did he imagine that for earth ? did he imagine that for his family? how the fuck did he cope fighting a war, anxious as he is? how did he cope at all?

shiro isnt even in his fucking original body. thats fucking weird. im not saying that in a rude way bc like yeah, organ transplants are a thing irl, and a major life saving thing they are ! but like, how odd it must be to have someone elses kidney or heart in your body. nevermind to have your entire soul and conciousness put into another body, you but not really you.

keiths life,,, dude probably just doesnt even give anything a second fucking thought anymore. but like, could they not have shown him showing some more emotion. fair enough if he doesnt always cry in the moment but rather late on, but you'd think seeing allura die, they wouldve at least put some tears in his eyes. he had fucking no one before he had voltron. only shiro, and even then he was alone for so long when shiro had been on his mission. you cant tell me he didnt want to think of voltron as his family. they bonded :(

and lance, gosh lance. i feel like, if we looks at this as it is, lance would be the character that people think back on and go "oh yeah, he helped me accept my emotions, he helped me become the best version of me and gain confidence in who i am". in the fandom hes seen as someone with big emotions that he wears on his sleeve, but also someone who will put everyone else and their needs before himself.

he's a story of self-sacrifice, quite literally. he's the story of sincere love, of casual admiration. he's the story of the most wonderful friend, of loyalty, of no, I'll step down because there's a cause bigger than me, and im not the one for the job when there's people like my friends and you on the team.

and no one wanted to explore that? no one wanted to see him do more than just, what? flirt and literally die and fall in love and barely find his place on team voltron? that was it for him. it shouldn't have been, but it was.

#just... im no professional qriter but like #there couldve been more humanity to it yknow #to all of their emotions but most importantly lance who was brushed off time and time again #he was destined for greatness #hes so much more than what he shows people but the people just cant be bothered to look past the mask #:(#vld lance #lance mcclain #voltron #vld #mullettaegi #long post #i may be talking no sense but yall will be seeing it cause i cant be keeping this shit in my brain itll eat me up #i care about this show far too much and am not gonna hide anymore it means so much to me :(#and theres so so much more that im forgetting bc its been a while since i watched the show #so alls i can say is lance deserved better he deserved more he couldve been such a character!!#but ik there is so much more to it and i have more to say about his death but i just dont have the words

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dreamsy990 · 4 months

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good thing sora doesnt ask questions

#kingdom hearts #kh3 #i cant believe nomura killed them #fun fact i dont know what nomura looks like and was too lazy to look it up for a shitpost #doodles #shitpost #sora #not tagging the winnie the pooh characters #good the winnie the pooh kh worlds are always so good but 3 is like. mmm #but still 'im trying to think of a way where you dont have to leave me' was so good actually #<- thats probably not the quote but u get the idea #i have no comments about it in 1 #in 2 it was so good #with 3 idk if this is intentional or not but it feels like its a bit about sora like. growing out of it #like hes older now theres so much serious stuff going on #now it feels like a waste of time instead of time spent with friends #yknow yknow?#like. it feels like growing up and realizing you dont care about the stuff you used to anymore if that makes sense #i hope if its in kh4 they have a plot continuing w something like this #was talking to my sister about it and i said something like. i hope kh4 is about reconnecting to things you used to like #like rediscovering the joy in things you decided were childish #idk this is a silly little shitpost about how nomura took a bunch of the cast out back with a shotgun #but also this is like. the one opportunity im gonna get to talk about this world so!! yeah

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nicky-jr · 1 month

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shoutout gothcleats shippers o7

#rambling #idk i feel like as a dndads blog im legally obligated to make A post abt it #but idk! it was fun #sad about normal but glad everyone else got a happy ending #(warning i get like. pointlessly negative/personal beyond this point)#but idk. ive been so checked out of s2 that i feel like. detached?#like makes me feel shitty to admit this but i just dont really care #idk if that has to do with my disinterest with the season. or just not being fixated anymore #or just my own mental state as of recent #it just makes me really sad that i feel this way about a series i adore #i dunno. i'd like to do a relisten of s2 so i can really pinpoint what about it frustrates/bores me #but rn i just cant be bothered #dont get me wrong i love this season!!! i feel the need to clarify any time i get negative about it #i love the characters and most of the plot and there were things i found really really compelling #and god its SOOO FUCKING FUNNY #my venting comes from a place of love yknow #but yeah tldr i have like literally no strong thoughts on the finale atm. it was fine #but im excited for the future #dndads s2 spoilers

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mbat · 2 months

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yknow, its easy to look at the owl houses shortening and be like 'oh they had to have done that cause its gay' and thats a really easy answer to give that can feel right because things arent as shiny and perfect as people pretend, not to mention disneys own actions and views about queer people

but sitting here rewatching the show now, i think its more the theme of the show, the way that it references and alludes to religion, specifically cults and even christianity, and the way that it criticizes these things and stuff like that. its no surprise to me that that would be the actual reason, and no one in charge exactly wants to say 'we cancelled this because it criticized religion' because like, duh

obviously i dont agree with it for several reasons, its no secret that i criticize religion a lot, even when i maybe should rather keep my mouth shut. not to mention the way that the show moreso is criticizing cults, and that it is NEVER a bad thing that kids know more than ever to question what theyre told, especially by people who claim power, or to be the ONLY ones who can do something special like how belos does with 'hearing the titan'

and really... i think thats why it happened, or that thats at least one of the reasons. ive never been satisfied with the vague answer of 'it just didnt fit our brand' because like... thats fucking stupid. that doesnt mean anything! i would not be surprised if the people who made the choice to shorten it were people who felt somehow attacked by the very messages and themes of the show, even though that would be so ironic imo.

i will forever wish this show got to have the full length it more than deserved. i still wish we could somehow get the extra content that there was meant to be in another form, like comics! but its not as simple as that, sadly.

#this is all just my theory/opinion of course #im not making any concrete claims or whatever who cares yknow #idk shit about what goes on behind the scenes with these things!#i do know that people dont really like when i talk about religion. so i try not to anymore #its a really personal and sensitive thing for people i guess? i never really understood that cause ive been atheist forever #but its a conversation that i think is more than overdue. its an... institution? that has its hand in everything. and thats-#thats not exactly always the best thing. but whatever. ugh this is not the time or place whatever #my post #owl house

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labratboygirl · 7 months

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HI EVERYONENEN heres the gayass comic i was talking aboujt earlier ………. fair warning it is Very Badly Written ((his ass can NOT write romance normally))

#tfw you give the joke ocs you made Actual In Depth Characters and also make them gay and in love #yknow what WHATERVER i am making rhem tags #d.u.c. 🌀#goose 🎸#the machine 🔌#AND AN OCVERSE TAG TOO …….. I DONT EVEN CARE ANYMORE #d.u.c. and goose 🧨

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spinchs-field · 6 days

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you think it’d be weird if i did start believing in god again? because the thought feels comforting. it’s nice believing there’s someone who loves me no matter what. yknow.

#vent #religion tw #im.#i like. genuinely prayed earlier when i was crying. and it felt. nice #i dont know #i think its just been bad lately and this feels like the only outlet i have anymore #i was raised christian. i fell out of it because i dont think i ever really believed in it. yknow #i was just a kid doing what my father told me to do.#and then i realised i was just being made to believe in something i didnt understand #but sometimes i do just clasp my hands together like im praying and theres a sort of comfort to that #there’s a sort of comfort in asking to be saved. in asking for help from someone who’s powerful enough to do something #i dont know.#i should sleep i think #maybe i’ll change my mind in the morning.#maybe i wont. either way i dont think i’ll ever casually bring it up outside of vent posts #i just miss feeling loved by the people who made me.#maybe if i did start believing in god again i can feel that love. at least i’d have a father who cares.#whatever. i’m going to bed.

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fiendishartist2 · 29 days

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guys what if i want to make my own apollo justice game.

#i need to write a prequel to aa4 pls pls pls pls pls #okay get this: so phoenix isnt disbarred yet and he doesnt have trucy. hes still taking and winning cases #one day he gets a call from edgeworth and hes all like ''wright i need your assistance'' and hes like what for and edgeworth goes #''ive been given the most ridiculous case and i think youre the only man in law who can take care of it''#so phoenix bikes his ass to the detention center and boom. child behind bars #and phoenix is like ??? hey kid what are doing here. and this kid is the most surly mfer on the planet like you couldnt get-#-a word out of him if you tried. hes kinda giving phoenix the stink eye too but hes just the littlest guy on earth #and phoenix feels bad for him so he tries to get a rundown of the case (maybe edgeworth gave him an autopsy report or smth beforehand)#but get this. the kid still wont speak. he hasnt even moved a muscle. and after some prodding you find out this little dude-#-doesnt speak english (i dont love aa6 but i think apollos tragic backstory can be interesting so we're going w that but taking it seriousl #anyways so maya is like omg this kid is speaking khurainese but hers is kinda broken bc shes not from the mainland and only knows it-#-from like prayers #so you only get bits and pieces of the kids testimony. plus he still doesnt wanna talk bc ''dhurk told me not to talk to you''#so you start following the new lead but you ask too many questions and apollos like oh shit i said too much and wont talk to you anymore #but now you have two leads: khur'ain and a man named ''dhurk'' plus the fact that this is kid might be new to america since-#-he cant speak english but is smack dab in the middle of california. its all v curious and phoenix wants to get to the bottom of it #for the rest of the case i feel like it would go in the direction of ''we dont know exactly whats up w this dhurk guy or where this kid-#-came from but we do get him acquitted and phoenix is able to save him from the dark path he was heading towards'' thus steering apollo-#-in the direction of law and giving him a wayyyy better reason than aa6 gave him <3 #i kind of like the interlinked nature of ace attorney's storytelling. like everything leads into smth else and everyone is impacted-#-by another person before they even become properly entangled w each other's lives #like how mia faced dahlia years before she met phoenix but dahlia was the one to connect them #or how trucy gave phoenix the diary paper but she's also the one who ropes apollo into the waa. even before they know they're siblings #or how lamoire left apollo and trucy as children and when they reunite as adults they cant recognise each other but they all find each-#-other anyways #i could go on but i think this could be cool yknow esp bc i think the most interesting thing about apollo's aa6 backstory is his life-#-post dhurk. like where did he stay? was he a foster kid? was he put into the system? how did that affect him? what kind of ppl took him in #i just wanna know how that whole thing would have effected him bc like when yiu think about it how did he even get to america?? his dad's #-considered a terrorist. idk man i think its interesting and apollo and dhurks interactions are one of the only good parts of aa6

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gibbearish · 2 months

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yknow i hadnt really processed how much the adderall weight loss has changed my face shape but then i found this slightly older selfie

<== old now ==>

like. aww look at ur cute lil squishable cheeks:3 i can see why bf did that so much i would too

#n like i know its not an extreme difference by any means but idk its interesting jenfksnfksn #selfie #origibberish #i think my jawline is where it shows most #given that i like. have one now?#like obv its still the same shape but its def a bit more pronounced now #it has been very weird having pronounced collarbones again though i dont know if i especially like that #and esp my thighs have downsized a lot which is a bummer #bonus however is some of it seems to have come out of my honkers as well bc i dont even really need a bra anymore much less a binder #idk its a mixed bag but yknow. ive never really been in charge of what weight my bodys at nor have i cared to change it #i just let it wander as it will #shit we didnt even have a scale for like. four years #altho i have to weigh myself more often now to make sure its still holding steady bc my doctor didnt believe me that i was still eating the #same as i normally do KEBFKSNDMSN #but like before any of the meds my body would generally had a 40lbs fluctuation range that it would just wander back and forth through #and now ive dropped an extra 20 off of the lower end of that and bottomed out like i knew it would once it adjusted to the legal meth #so. get dunked on emily LOL #/weight loss discussion #/weight discussion #also i hope it goes without saying but if any like. proa blogs or fatphobes touch this post i will kill you so very dead.#weight loss and weight gain are both morally neutral and just part of how the body works and you shouldnt force it to be any one specific #size and people should be able to discuss both without it being a whole Thing. do not touch.

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yelloworangesoda · 2 months

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gotta get off the internet and only interact irl with people who were 30 before they got their shit together i cant keep doing it like this

#like this being. feeling like i have no future and nobody likes me #‘youre only 19’ only goes so far when i dont know any other fail 19 year olds #im not gonna be a damn dentist for sure but like. and ive said this a thousand times. what am i gonna do. i cant live a worthless nothing #life where i work a shitty job i hate. i have to like something #i hate my art. i hate my lack of creativity. my art is so bland i just dont think its in me anymore #i finished. and i hate it #i have other hobbies. i like to cross stitch. i like to sew. i like to paint. i like to make dolls. do you see the common theme here #i have a few more than that i technically could do but i cant create anymore and it kills me. i want to. i constantly want to but i cant #it doesnt help that even if i havw ideas i dont even want to do them #i was gonna draw some characters from a game i played when i was little but i just #didnt want to. at no point did it not feel like a chore #ill try to go to new mediums! its fun to mess around and then itll feel boring again and going back doesnt feel any better #idk. googling it is useless. ive tried all the things. for years. ive been TRYING to draw consistently and like. doodles are fine theyre fu #but theyre not what i want to do i want to make something im proud of. i drew almost every single day for like 2 years #and its not burnout bc its been like. 2 more years! and ive barely wanted to at all!!!#i want to be creative and i also want people to recognize it. different complaint but it sucks so bad #i feel like nobody likes me. still. nobody cares about what i do. nobody would care if i stopped #like except me but i can only support myself so far!!!! im so tired of it!!!! someone PLEASE be here for me and just say ‘hey i love this #drawing :)’ like you have no idea what that would do for me #not always. but yknow especially if its been a while. if you like it. if you dont like it :( idk. you should tell me that too i guess #yknow so i can have some confirmation so i dont feel like im crazy. idk. dont actually id never go online again. i would probably. well.#i dont like to say the words #simons spouting #vent :(

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imabiscuitinthousandworlds · 5 months

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throwing this into the queue but like. it's lowkey been bothering me. so i'm asking my fellow tumblr weirdos.

since the summer, i realised that listening to music even on one ear is fucking great for my spoons. being in a stressful situation immediately gets way easier. especially during school - lots of noise, lots of people (i don't like), little sleep, little motivation, did i mention all the Noisy People - it really helps to put on some music during breaks. i just. get away from the situation a little and save some spoons and stuff.

but i've also started doing it basically every possible second, whether strictly necessary or not, and it does make conversations with my friends harder. which is also annyoing to me bc i care about them and when it looks like it's gonna be a longer conversation but i still get at least a minute of music, i'll turn it off too, but.

anyways my friend recently got annoyed about me not understanding her that well bc she was on the side i was listening to music with (i asked to switch sides) and said it's really unhealthy that i can't function without music anymore. should i try to like, at least cut it down significantly? i mean, i used to get through an entire week without needing music that badly. but also. i used to not be so overwhelmed by everything. i don't know.

#the thing is i dont think she gets it at all?#like also stimming and stuff #i. do stim a lot (as another friend noticed before myself lmao) and shes often kinda annoyed by it?#like bouncing my leg when we were going somewhere by bus. the sound of my spinner ring during that one class we have together #i just. she really cares a lot and so do i about her. and im genuinely unsure if im overdoing it #like ik i can be a lot. heck its a lot for me at times. but its better than just Enduring stress yknow #i just seriously cant tell anymore whats normal and whats okay and whats a point when i have to get my shit together #its just. ok this is also a dont trust you feelings at night moment #but its been bothering me on and off for A While. getting input from other people who stim would be nice #or like. ways to stim more discreetly #my other grounding methods when im Stressed and things are Too Much have been biting hair pulling and squeezing snow for twenty minutes and #those are neither discrete nor all that good methinks #a biscuit's rambles

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wyrmswears · 1 year

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shoutout to grubbs for being my favourite reject the call trope