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windsweptlassie · 3 years

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On Love

So as you know I made this uquiz with an open-ended question at the end, tell me something about love, and I’ve gotten the most wonderful responses! They range from descriptions of wonderful partners:

Lauren: oh, how long I went without being myself until I met him and he showed me who I truly was and that my worth was higher than I ever thought was possible

Levi: I love who we are with each other. I love who I am with you. In your company I am me. In your company I am the best of me. The best with the best, I've told you. I wouldn't give you up for anything

Daniel: i fell in love for the first time when i was 17... at the time, i didn’t realize it was the first time, i thought i’d been in love before, a couple times actually, but falling in love at 17 was such a fulfilling experience, it felt so forceful yet so right. it’s when i first truly understood what love was. never before had i felt so understood and so cared for as i did when i was in love with her, and she was in love with me. it’s been nearly 4 years since then, and nearly 3 years since we broke up and stopped talking, and still, i think about her almost every day. i’ve never known anyone like her; to me, she was love itself.

El: oh i’m in love with everyone that i know op!!! especially my girlfriend, of course ,but also my friends and my family and random people on the street and uh

Grace: i’ve met my soulmate and we plan on getting an apartment and marrying after college

A: I’m going to ask the woman I love to marry me and I just wanted to tell someone because I am so excited

Jeremy: you ever have that feeling where basically after years of denying that someone couldnt understand you in a way or love you and then the next thing you know you happen to find that person and its just great from then on out? idk how to explain it anyways I love my boyfriend so much he means the world to me

Lucy: i am so happy i have found the one i love

to descriptions of best friends and favorite people:

Nightbyrd: Love is a hug from an alzheimer's patient who hasn't the foggiest idea who you are, but they know you're worth hugging.

H: I have been doing so much yoga with my roommate recently!! It's a great way to center my mind for an hour

Riv: [platonic] i’ve literally never met anyone who understands me in the way that my best friends do. they’re literally the best people in the whole world and i genuinely don’t know what i’d do without them. i love them with my whole heart

Cillian: when i talk about how much i love my best friend i get so teary eyed because i cant believe that such a genuinely wonderful person wants to speak to me every day - i care for her more than anyone else on this planet

O: my two besties are my sources of happiness and they’re so pretty i would die for them :D

to beautiful quotes:

Kai: "you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on." DARCYYYY PLS MY HEART CANT HANDLW THIS PAIN

Dorian: When the plane went down in San Francisco, I thought of my friend M. He’s obsessed with plane crashes. He memorizes the wrecked metal details, ____the clear cool skies cut by black scars of smoke. Once, while driving, he told me about all the crashes: The one in blue Kentucky, in yellow Iowa. How people go on, and how people don’t. It was almost a year before I learned that his brother was a pilot. I can’t help it, I love the way men love. (accident report in the tall, tall weeds- ada limon, bright dead things)

Adam: every day I think about lemony snicket I will love you if I never see you again I will love you if I see you every Tuesday or however it goes. and it KILLS ME. love only fits in small things

Hero: “Your heart beats in my ribs and mine in yours, and both in God’s… The divine magnet is in you, and my magnet responds.” - Herman Melville to Nathaniel Hawthorne

Mary: "Love is watching someone die."

Alex: "meet me at blue diner, i'll take coffee and talk about nothing baby"

Sparrow: "How dare you love me like you've never known fear?" and "For you, the world," and "Darling, I was born to press my head between your shoulder blades," and "Will you start where I end?"

V: " You want to die for love. You always have. " and "someone will remember us, I say, even in another time" are living rent free in my mind 24/7 and I'm shaking. When will I finally be not the only one falling ?

Sahar K: To love another person is to see the face of god!!!

Miriam: all the love in the world is useless when there is total lack of understanding- kafka

Juls: Don’t you think they are maybe the same? Love and attention

to practices of love:

Leo; i love feeling happy bc somebody that i love is happy and comfortable....like its not about me i just love seeing you smile. we are safe together...idk i just feel it bro

A: I like to think love is leaning on each other during the light or dark days. Its a personal mission of mine to find out who I am and what I want. Yet I never seem to find my place in this world and as I look and look , I realise the only place I can be myself even with or without the efforts to find myself was done on that day or not, I am always tired so shall I lean on you? And you can lean on me as well. I shall be your fig tree and you shall be my favourite willow tree.

L: It's too late at night to be soul searching, but it's a journey we all seem to find ourselves on these days.

Anthi: feeling safe and at home, I guess (also I love frogs)

Julia: ive found that loving someone is like becoming your own thesaurus. you have to find or come up with infinite ways to say, you’re beautiful, or, i love you. it’s a gift

Galexies: ive been writing letters to the person i'd love one day since i was 14. i write them in a little journal usually, but i've been digitizing them into emails and sending them to one account that i'll give to them someday. i'd like to put pictures, but i haven't been outside much recently so theres that. i wonder if they'd like the sunsets i have on file, or if they'd find my cat cute in a bowtie.

Caeles: Love is sharing fruit slices and making someone tea at random

Dundy: Love is sending your friends cursed shit and watching them react in horror

to crushes and potential loves:

Jess: I have a crush on my roommate. It sucks, but it's also wonderful. I get to be around him all the time when we're at school. we share a life together; it's rather domestic. I think a lot about marrying him and being domestic with him forever. It won't happen, and I'll move on eventually, but I'll be happy with him for as long as I can. I hope you feel loved tonight, because you are. Sleep well.

Aki: I so desperately want to believe that love is fake because I’ve seen what happens when loved ones leave but whenever I start to convince myself that I’ll never love anyone my best friend messages me telling me she loves me. She’s the only person I’ve ever pictured having a future with but love scares me and I don’t really know what to do but I think as long as she’s with me in some way, I’ll be fine

Hi: her her i keep thinking abt her.... gonna see her in 8 days or so i really miss her. its ok if shes never gonna love me like i want her to really being her friend spending time with her makes me the happiest girl on earth.... outsold antidepressants

Kit: this guy i have a crush on has hypnotically dark brown eyes and he's wonderful and shows me kindness like no one else

Juno: my crush has all the stars in his eyes

Mads: When I have the courage to meet my eyes with hers, the world stands still

Be Nice To Me: Look bro I never do these but I am yearning to hold them SO badly right now and someone needs to know it besides me

to the trials of love:

Pppppp: I just wanna love like from the movies and what I read about.. but everyone tells me that that’s fictional and rare to find in the real world and it sucks bc it seems like all the guys I’ve met are terrible and the norms of society are all about not respecting women and uthdjdjdk

Manny: I have been in love before and I will be again but I’m not now and I miss it

Ok: I don't think I've ever been in love, though I love many people. I am waiting for the day I look at someone and can say, YES. IT'S YOU.

Chloe: idk rn i'm like okay with my love and i'm happy so we'll see i'm just a little cautious rn bc my last partner told me i didn't know how to love

L: love is so fucking complicated I don't even know where to start

Corrin: He’s not real and it worried me that I will never allow myself to live or be loved because I will always be waiting for him

Sean: Good luck it dont exist

Serena: i want 2 b in love :(( </3

13: I don’t know anymore

M: I just really don’t like dealing with it lol

to beloved characters:

Janaya: I’m madly in love with my comfort and kin character and I hope maybe in the afterlife I can relive a life with him in some sort of dimension

Jhgjdf: when i was a kid i had a crush on ash ketchum from pokemon and id always daydream about being a female pkmn trainer and meeting him and we fall in love

to advice and prose:

Mikolai: Love is earth, gentle and soft at first flight but upon being broken, drowns you in the dry choking wastes of its consequences...

Thex: Your hands will not go cold without someone to hold them. I am here. I will be here.

Kat: it is the nearest proof to god that i find myself surrounded by people who love in a way that complements so wonderfully the way i love

H: believe in love out of spite believe in love to prove everyone wrong believe in love because you were told not to and we will not do what we’re told anymore believe in love because it’s the strongest act of teenage rebellion we have left believe in love because it’s easier not to and when is easy worth doing? believe in love because everything says otherwise but you are untouchable, you are your own, you are not made by their design believe in love because, perhaps, you are love

Ali: I used to want a kind of love that feels like coming home and now I want nothing more than to be away from home on many different adventures

Em: you dont need to love yourself to accept it from others

to the small, the simple, and the sweet:

Ireal: Poems

O: Flowers

Fay: ah im sorry that i’m feeling unmotivated but you are very kind.

Ad: we love LOVE

A: <3

Isak: small things

H: intense

Hey: Listening to a clock ticking away

S: her

E: <3

Hania: Amorous, I adore that word ^^

Catboy: wholesome

J: i love love so much it hurts

Emmy: hi i love the song darkest of discos!! try and give it a listen!! <3

Nora: Love is painful, but most of the time love is great

Ariel: i like the comfort it can bring

M: i love love

to food!

Cool Whip: Matzoh ball soup!!

Woop: I love sausages.... I hope that's ok with you?

and animals too <3

Nee: hmm i have pet geckos and i love them very much!

96: raccoons ????

DJ Big Penis: cats

:3: I Love frogs,,, love is stored in the frog,,,

I hope that this serves as a sweet compilation of what love means! Love to all of you, it warms my heart so much to hear about your people and your geckos and your characters and soup and all the songs and quotes you love. <3 Strength to all of you who are figuring out to do about your feelings for your crush, and congratulations to you who are proposing or moving in with your person! Your words are a source of light to me, truly.

#on love #love files #uquiz #mine #shut up queenie #long post

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ohalemalia · 5 years

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Choices - Part Two (Theo Raeken Imagine)

Pairing: Theo Raeken x Reader

Warnings: needles, violence, bondage (not in the fun sexy way you think pal), a (probably bad) make out scene (who am i? i dont write this stuff it writes itself apparently) Y/N is a big meanie to Scott ):

A\N:yeah so if you hadn’t heard i hadn’t planned on doing a part two but it was *youtuber voice* heavily requested by you guys so here ya go. ALSO I PROOF READ THIS??? AND EDITED IT??? well, i was lazy and i had a software read it to me and i made edits but it still counts and geez i can only guess what my writing usually sounds like. i know how to write i swear. i kind of combined two requests together but also did my own thing idk but this probably wouldn’t exist without @cokecola4211‘s requests soooo ye thanks

Word Count: 1844

Requests: cokecola4211 said to ohalemalia: TW imagine the reader is Scott sister and she isn't really a part of Scott pack even w/ her knowledge of the supernatural and she gets turned into a supernatural by Aiden when he is an Alpha and stuff like that and she gets turned into a werewolf and a kitsune or something or a wolf w/ purple eyes w/ powers and she likes her new look and abilities.

cokecola4211 said to ohalemalia:TW imagine the reader is Scott sister and she is betrayed by Scott when she comes back as chimera bcuz of the doctors and she sides w/ Theo bcuz of her old "pack/family" and she feels deeply hurt or betrayed or something like that.

The tunnels smelled like moldy sewer water and you could hear the faint dripping of a broken pipe. You stepped carefully, but you in the dead quiet of the space around you, your shoes hitting the water sounded louder than normal. You weren't sure what you were expecting to see--Theo lying face down in the shallow water or a seven foot beast waiting at the end of the tunnel--but you didn't see either of those. In fact, the tunnels looked untouched, like the last experience you had here didn't even happen.

Your shoe kicked something hard and metal. When you looked down, you got the confirmation that what had happened was real. It was a silver metal canister, the canister that released the smoke when your "friends" came to "rescue" you. But other than that, there was no sign of the Beast and more importantly, no sign of Theo.

Your phone began ringing in your pocket, the loud bells echoing throughout the tunnels and probably giving away your position to anyone in a fifty foot radius. You wrestled it out of your jacket, looked at the caller ID, and with a roll of your eyes tapped the answer button, and put it to your ear.

"What, Scott?"

"Y/N?" Scott's voice was grainy over the phone, "Y/N, where are you?"

"Why? So you can come and play hero?" You snorted, "Forget it."

"Y/N, I'm serious--"

"So am I Scott, don't try to find me."

"Y/N, listen to me--it's not safe for you--"

"Oh, but it's okay for Theo to be here?" You scoffed, "Double standards, Scott. Call me back when you're willing to live up to that True Alpha title. Or don't. I really don't care."

"Y/N--"

You didn't want to hear whatever protest Scott had. You hung up the phone and put it back in your pocket. You turned around with a sigh, and focused on trying to figure out how to find Theo. Right when you took your first step, you bumped into the chest of someone standing behind you. You knew who it had to be immediately.

"Theo? Oh my god! What--"

You looked up and you were not met with Theo's familiar face. In fact, there wasn't a face at all. You were looking straight at the metal helmet of one of the Dread Doctors.

"Subject condition--promising." Was all that it said. You backed away and turned to make a break for it, but it seized you by the arm and yanked you back.

"No! No! Stop! Let me go! Let me go!"

It obviously didn't listen to you. It wrapped a strong arm around your chest and held you tightly into place. You felt a sharp sting in the side of your neck and your body grew too heavy to support. Your eyes fluttered shut as you slumped into the Dread Doctor's arms and fell into darkness.

"Y/N, Y/N, come on, please wake up."

You felt warm hands caressing the sides of your face. You peeled your eyes open and were met by a look of relief on Theo's face.

"Oh my god," He sighed out, bowing his head down so you couldn't see his face, "Oh my god."

"Wh-what--"

"What were you doing out there, huh? I found you passed out in the middle of the tunnels. Well, I mean, I almost tripped over you--"

You looked around and found that you two were sitting Theo's car. The seat was pushed back so that you were laying down. It was dark outside, too dark to see. "How did you--where are we?"

"I managed to not get mauled and escape, so I got the hell out of there as fast as I could. The Beast it--" Theo shook his head, trying to piece the events together in his head, "It didn't kill me. I mean, it should've, but it didn't. It knocked me out and when I woke up I was in this weird underground lair, somewhere in the tunnels. I was alone, I was bleeding--"

You noticed dark red splotches on his white t-shirt, some bigger than others, but nonetheless most definitely the blood from his injuries.

"--I didn't know why it had me there, but I didn't want to wait to find out. I had to get out of there. Fast. It took a lot of stumbling around in the dark but I got out of there. I was running out and, like I said, I almost tripped over you lying there on the ground." Theo turned to look at you, a stern look in his eyes, "What the hell were you doing down there? I thought you got out."

"I had to come back for you," You explained, "Scott and them, they came to rescue me but they--they were going to leave you to die. I couldn't do that to you. No way."

You reached over to lace your fingers with Theo's. He watched your fingers slowly intertwine and then looked at you, a soft look in his eyes.

"You came back for me?"

You smiled, "Of course I did. I always will. I'm not going to leave you behind."

Theo was caught off guard by such a sentiment, since being left behind was all that he was used to.

Theo shook his head slightly, "But--but Scott's your pack--your alpha."

"I'm not his beta or his omega, I'm not even supernatural, Theo. He can't order me around. And if he was a true Alpha, he wouldn't have left you for dead."

You licked your lips as you considered your next thought, "Besides...maybe it's time I find a new pack."

Theo's brows furrowed at you, "A new pack?"

You looked at him through your eyelashes, "There's no one else I would protect with my life other than you."

Theo chuckled, "Yeah, I think you showed that when you risked your life to come back for me."

Theo tilted his head and looked at your for what seemed like a long time. The corner of his mouth quirked up into a small smile and he reached over to cup your face with his hand. His thumb brushed soft circles on your cheek as he whispered, "No one's ever done that for me. Human or not."

"Well I think you'll find this human has a little more bite in them," You leaned closer and looked down from his lips to his eyes, "Let me show you."

Theo gave you a slight nod, getting the double entendre, and leaned forward connecting your lips in a heated kiss. You wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him over the console of the car and as close to you as he could get. Without breaking the kiss, he pulled his arms away from you. You were concerned at first, wondering why he didn't want to touch you, but you realized he was just taking off his jacket. Adrenaline kicked in as it hit you what was about to happen. Ideally, would you have liked your first time with Theo to happen in his car after you had spent the better part of the night passed out in a sewer and he had been nearly killed? No. But the pure adrenaline of it all was enough to spark the fire apparently. Teenage hormones.

You broke away briefly to pull your shirt over your head, leaving you sitting in Theo's car, panting heavily in your bra. Theo's eyes glazed over with pure adoration as his eyes raked over your body, but that pure adoration was soon converted into pure lust because you were back to locking lips in an instant.

"Y/N," You heard Theo muttered in between kisses.

"I don't want to talk anymore, Theo," You muttered back, "Just kiss me."

Theo chuckled against your lips, "I was going to suggest that we move to the backseat, where it's more comfortable so I can keep doing that."

"Oh," You stopped, "That works for me."

You both clamored into the backseat of Theo's car, and as soon as you touched the leather of that backseat it was back on. Theo climbed on top of you, his mouth peppering kisses down your neck.

You sighed out his name as your hands ran through his hair. It was all so right until Theo's mouth brushed against a certain spot on your neck that was colder than the others.

"Condition improving."

Your eyes shot open and you saw you were staring up at the grimy ceiling of the tunnels again. There were pipes criss-crossing on the ceiling and only one lightbulb hanging on a cord for a light source. It swung back and forth, casting sinister shadows around the room. Three Dread Doctors stood over you, ticking and whirring noises coming from them as if they were completely made of machinery.

"Subject shows signs of promise."

"We will perform further tests."

You tried to move, but found that your wrists and ankles were shackled down the table. There were also straps around your head and waist, preventing you from twisting in any sort of way. Your eyes darted around the room in a panic. You saw one of the Dread Doctors pick up a gruesome looking power saw and pass it to the other. The Dread Doctor turned the saw on, the whirring filled the concrete room.

"Ready to proceed with test."

The Dread Doctor brought the saw closer and closer to you and that's when you realised a part of your body was about to be sawed off and there was nothing you could do about it. You couldn't move. You couldn't scream. You could only watch in horror.

"No! No! Stop! Let me go! Get off!"

"Y/N? Hey what's--I'm off! I'm off! What's wrong?!"

"Get off of me! Stop! Let me go!" You swung your arms around, trying to fend the Doctors off.

"I'm not touching you, Y/N! Y/N! Hey! Stop!"

Someone grabbed your arms and when you came to, you were staring at a frightened (and shirtless) Theo. He held your wrists in his hands, both your chests were heaving.

"Wh-what happened? What?" You looked around and found you were still in Theo's car and not in the Dread Doctor's lair about to become a horrible science experiment.

"I should ask you the same thing," Theo's eyes widened as he got a good look at you.

"What? What is it?"

"Your eyes, Y/N."

You stared at him, waiting for more explanation but he offered none. You leaned over to the front of the car and brought down the sun visor. You slid the cover of the mirror over and were immediately hit with the bright yellow light the sun visor offered. But that wasn't the kicker.

Your eyes were glowing purple and where your regular teeth should've been were sharp rows of canines.

"You...might want to reconsider that "only a human" thing," Was all Theo said. You shifted your body to look at him. Your voice trembled as you asked,

"What happened to me?"

#teen wolf #teen wolf imagine #tw imagines #tw imagine #theo imagine #theo raeken imagines #theo x reader #theo raeken x reader #theo raeken x yn

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bright-hao · 6 years

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soft bias tag

okay, its been ages since i did a tag on here!! but my hermanita @hocidi(or hijita now? since you call me mom?) tagged me to do this soft bias tag!

my ult is still minghao, but bc most of this is romantic stuff(and i dont really have a lot of romantic feelings for hao) i’m gonna do my other best boy, seungkwan

Who is your bias: Boo Seungkwan of Seventeen

What made you notice them: I always loved seungkwan, its so funny cause at first i used to be like “oh i wish seungkwan was my twin” and as time went on it was like “yes, seungkwan and i would be best friends we’d be a killer duo” but like...by the time boom boom era came around and he dyed his hair blond the first time? fuck dude, i knew i was in love. very specifically there’s one photo (here) that always comes to mind when i think about first falling head first for him, and well. now he’s my guy.

what’s your favorite thing about them: boy, everything! physically, i love his cheekbones/jaw combo, people really dont pay enough attention to his bone structure. and personality wise, i love his ability to just talk and command all the attention in a room if he wants to,especially because it’s not in a scary, authoritative way, and i feel it makes people comfortable while they also respect him and hold him in high esteem bc of it. I personally have a close relationship with words, so to see the abilities he has with just his everyday speech is...spectacular

who would initiate skinship more: i think both of us, but in different ways? i feel like i would initiate a lot of smaller touches, just so we can be in constant contact, and also id probably spend a lot of time thinking about something before i do it, but i feel like seungkwan would be like hey! let’s hug, and we’d...hug. he’d probably initiate bigger things, like hugging and hand holding, and it’d be more spontaneous for him.

who would hog the blankets more: i don’t really feel cold easily and tend to get warmer as the night goes on, so what might really happen is seungkwan will often wake up buried under all the blankets because i pushed them over to his side in the middle of the night

who would be more clingy: earlier on, it would be him, bc i dont let myself get overly attached to people, but maybe if we spend years together and i get used to him/his constant presence in my life, things might change

who would say I love you first: oooohhh this one’s tricky. if i feel like he’s still sorting through his feelings and commitments, i’ll wait for him to say it first, but if i feel sure about him and where his heart is at, i’ll say it as soon as possible. possibly way earlier than most people would. it’s not a big deal to me when the words drop(bc it’s really not about words anyway for me, its about proving it with your actions, and if he loves me i should know even without him saying it), but if it is for him then i guess i’d wait til he felt right about it. granted, i think the more open you are to begin with the faster seungkwan himself would open up, so maybe it’ll just be a toss up bc we’ll both already be on the same page.

who would be more easily flustered: i’m a confident gay, so like, it would definitely be me making him flustered as much as i can for fun.

What cuddling position would you two have: okay, so here’s what i’m thinking: he’s mostly on his back, however he’s comfy, and i’m curled up at his side with one leg thrown over him and he has one arm around/under me, and my head is either next to his on the pillow or on his shoulder (like this). we can reverse the positions too we’re flexible

which colors remind you of them and why: sunset colours!! i often call him my sunset boy, so sunset colours, and very specifically all shades of orange, make me think of him. they’re just...warm and sweet but also fiesty and bold colours which is...him in print.

which season would you like to spend with them: uhhh all of them for the rest of my life? Idk, I feel stupid answering this since I live in a tropical country but...mm, maybe the time period where it's not quite spring yet but it's not really winter anymore...like, imagine going on a road trip and you get to see the landscape change from white and snowy to bare for a little while and then everything blooms. gorgeous. i wanna do that with him. or maybe the summer season in the arctic where it’s light out 24 hours a day. or just mango season here in trinidad

who would bake cookies and who would steal the batter: seungkwan would probably make the decision for us to bake cookies together bc it’ll be a fun bonding experience or whatever, but he doesnt really know what he’s doing, so i have to give him all the instructions and explain everything to him, and then i let him struggle with all the dirty work and look on and occasionally snatch bits of the dough to ‘make sure it’s coming out right’

which one of you would make bad puns and how would the other react: i dont really do puns, so it’ll have to be him. he probably spends all his alone time trying to come up with them. over text, he might get a eye roll emoji or a ‘why are you like this’, in person i’d probably just ignore it completely and continue the conversation like it never happened. (which might make him pouty, but pouty seungkwan is adorable, so either way i win)

which one of you would nearly burn down the kitchen trying to microwave a poptart and who come to the rescue: i’m brown and poor poptarts have never been a thing in my house, so i suppose it’ll be me who screws up. wake up in the middle of the night hungry so i sneak into the kitchen as quiet as possible, not even turning on any lights, put the thing in the microwave for way longer than its supposed to be. when it explodes seungkwan runs outside half asleep bc he wants to know who got shot. he cleans the mess bc he loves me and tells me to leave the pop tart prep to him in the future.

who likes to lean over tall railings and who pulls them back: it would be me, adrenaline junkie and lover of risks and high places, leaning over the railing of a tall building like ‘omg, i could jump right now it would be like flying’ seungkwan would drag me away and probably sit me down and lecture me about it too

what would you watching a horror film with them be like: i would never watch a horror movie, lol. next question.

who would be the cheesy flirt and who would be the smooth flirt: i think we could both be cheesy when we wanted to, but maybe more him than me since he’s the king of cheese. flirting is one of my favourite pastimes, so i’d probably be a decently smooth flirt. as earlier mentioned, my greatest joy would be seeing him flustered and at a loss for words bc of just how smooth i am

who is more competitive: oh we are BOTH very competitive, it’s super fun when we’re playing a game or a sport and we’re on the same side and trying to crush the opponents, but i think we try to get on opposite teams bc its ten times more fun to try and beat each other. like just the thought of being better at him at something is already exhilarating to me ;;;)))))))

who would have to be given constant reminders: for tasks that are hard/uninteresting, i’ll have to have him remind me cause i’ll find 500 things that are more interesting to distract me when i just need to suck it up and get the thing done, and i’ll need the nudge. when it comes to just forgetting, i’ll probably have to remind him bc it totally slipped his mind.

who sends memes and who sends cute I miss you text at 3 am: he definitely sends the memes, im way too lazy to save them on my phone and then have to go looking for one that’s appropriate, that’s a lot of work. i’m happy to receive them though. and uhh...i wouldn’t send anyone a text like that at 3am and i wouldn’t like to receive one either, and i would tell him that. emotions get weird and warped at that hour, and i dont trust them on a regular basis, much less at 3 o’clock in the morning. i say, hold it in for now and if you still feel the same at 10am? then you go ahead and tell me you miss me. BUT if i get a message at 10am from seungkwan saying he misses me/loves me/is thinking of me? i would be on a cloud for the entire day.

this was really fun! my heart is warrrrrrrrrmmmm and ive been in soft stan mode for the past two days cause of it. so now i’m gonna tag @woozifi @minigum @mvpgyu @pabospoiler @seonyein @szrw @witchzi @yookik have fun friends!

#seungkwan #svt #ginger and honey #tag games

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onwarddonkay-blog · 4 years

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im 20. just turned 20. the past couple years forced me to learn concepts that will forever benefit me no matter how difficult it was or how much i thought i wouldn't make it through. don't get me wrong I'm sad as fuck. but I'm in love with life but that makes a world of a difference. I'm talking to a girl right now, she's my ex actually. we dated for about a year. (friends for a year prior) we were broken up for about a year and somehow we ended up giving this whole thing another shot. our last relationship was toxic, mostly thanks to me but its a two-way street even if my side was a six lane highway and hers was a dirt road. we aren't official, she dated someone right after we broke up and has acknowledged it wasn't the right thing to do and after dating someone who didn't treat her the way she deserved (me) another girl threw herself at my ex at a vulnerable time. i get it. i do. they weren't compatible on that level and she's also acknowledged that the feeling of loyalty and having someone who put in the effort i never cared to was something she was scared she wouldn't find again.

with that being said-when we did start talking in a romantic way less than a month after they broke up we made it a point to take things very very slowly (besides the sex-i mean that egg was already cracked). as i started to get to know her i kept asking myself ‘how bad did ur last girl mess u up’ she seemed so dependent and insecure. it took me a while but it finally dawned on me... i did that. i made someone feel worse about themselves when inside my heart i loved the shit out of her but was horrible at expressing those emotions. long before beginning our new journey together i promised myself that i would treat the next person (people) who came into my life, like they were the last human on earth, as if they were jennifer lawrence during my middle school hunger games phase (okay not really) so a girl did come into my life-it was short lived, she found someone else and although i was half heartbroken I'm happy she found true love, everything happens for a reason right? well my ex wandered back and i am treating her no less than the promise i made to myself and maybe a little extra. but this time it isn't the same. i don't want to say i broke her- because i don't know to extent of her last relationship and even if i did-i wasn't there- i probably would have interpreted things differently. she isn't as happy or confident, like the junior i dated in high school she once was. but back then she was majorly popular, had a best friend, and wasn't stressed about college. a lot changed in the duration of our breakup. she now claims she doesn't have friends (she does but even i can admit its nothing like before) she lost her best friend who more so resembled a sister. she doesn't party anymore which used to be her thing. she's also extremely stressed about college and the direction she'll be taking her life in. its a lot for anyone especially her. she's sensitive and delicate, but like the tulips i gave her today (ok tulips are a more durable flower she is more of a chrysanthemum).

well we aren't toxic like before, communication is at the forefront of whateverthisis, I'm doing my best to be patient, because everyone who knows me well knows that patience is not my strongest attribute. i don't know whats going to happen. i just want to be happy. i want her to be happy. this post wasn't supposed to be about her honestly, she's just on my brain. we just got caught fucking in a gym parking lot by security and i feel real weird about it. never been caught before. she felt as if this was her fault because she asked for it. i tried reassuring her that we didn't get a fucking ticket!!! how in the world do i explain that to my parents, or her to hers, which aren't exactly too keen on the whole gay thing. annnnyyywaayyyy somehow she asked me through text , “could you see yourself marrying me”, i said I've thought about it multiple times, i guess she wanted a sweeter more heartfelt answer but we aren't even girlfriends man, i could’ve asked her “could you see yourself making me your girlfriend” baby steps man. well she responded with “okay”. I know that whoever is reading this doesnt know her (and if you do please stop this is a safe space tumblr) but “okay” is NOT GOOD.

idk man we aren't official I'm just trying to have fun, go on adventures, get to know her better, build a trust and share some kisses along the way. i know she's sad in general but I've seen her get a little better over the 3 month period this has been going on.but i don't want her to feel dependent on me. thats what i wanted last time. it was a sense of control and such an ego booster(a lil bit is good but my head weighed more than my entire body i swear). not good. i was an angry and sad person. I'm still sad but the anger thing I'm so happy I've reversed quite a substantial amount. i want her to be happy on her own. i don't want her to feel like she needs me or anyone else for that matter. i love her and its difficult going a day without seeing her (which only happened when i went on vacation). I'm struggling to find the balance. i want to tell her she's beautiful every two seconds, but i can't let those be the words she needs to feeeeelll beautiful. i want to FaceTime her all day to make it feel as if she's always nearly side. (like today we just watched ‘love is blind’ through factime for hours). but i want her to feel comfortable being alone. I'm scared to love her too much but scared if i give her the room to self engage more, she will think I'm loosing interest. its hard. but as i said everything happens for a reason. but if she found her dream person it would obviously hurt but its better than her not living up to her full potential with me.

i dont know whats gonna happen, but who fucking does.

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crazykendal · 7 years

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The Most Personal Ive Ever Been

Please dont read this

Who was the last person you took a picture with? 

I made a video with my sister a few nights ago

Do you have a younger sister? 

two

Did anything “cute” happen today?

Haha no, like always

Has a boy/girl ever called you babe/baby? 

I accidentally called my friend Morgan babe once haha I got to see her today for the first time in months

What woke you up this morning?

My alarm clock

Does anyone know your personal tumblr password?  

Surely a lot of people know because it’s really simple

Who last made you smile? 

This guy

Do you have a bad temper?  

Seriously I have anger issues, of course

Who’s the last person you argued with? 

Honestly.. Myself. I kept telling myself how dumb and stupid I was, something new

Do you know anyone who is pregnant right now? 

yeah

Do you speak your mind all the time or hold things in? 

I used to speak my mind a lot to people I cared about. I won’t anymore because it’s kind of regrettable sometimes.

Do you believe that you can change for someone? 

Yeah of course, it’ll kill you not being yourself with a mask like that but whatever, maybe they’ll like your fake self more..? Who the fuck knows

Who was the last male you talked to, other than family?

My frienndd.. Yeah

When was the last time you flew in a plane?

Never

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?

Chloe Price is inspiring but I do not want a full sleeve tat.. So no

Do you find tattoos attractive in the opposite/same sex?

Depends, a lot is too much

What do you want right this second?

To find out who’s gonna be in my classes, seriously that’s all I need

What’s the last thing you touched, other than your computer?

My rubberbands on my arm

How do you feel about girls smoking?

Haha here have some lung cancer

Do you prefer the ocean or pool?

pool.

Are you outgoing or more shy?

Depends on who im with. I’m really crazy and annoying with some friends and i’m more serious with others, or just awkward and dorky with others.

Are you wearing jeans right now? 

Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

Depends on who

When was the last time someone held your hand?

The other day, but it was my sister lol

Whose jacket did you wear last?

my own.

Is there something you’re looking forward to?

Can you commit to one person?

Of course

Are you a mean person?

Yeah, I should probably be taking medication for it

Has a guy/girl sat on your bed before?

both

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? 

Nope we’re always chasin that paradiseeeee

Is there someone who continuously lets you down?

My expectations? All the time!

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?

I never am and it’s always getting me down but whatever I’ll just sit here on the floor

Is your room ever clean?

sometimes

How often do you listen to music?

It’s something i’ve grown to need. I have to listen to it or i’ll go insane or kill someone. (im listening to music now) ~keep daydreaming~

Are you one to start the conversation?

Yeah, I’ve realized that, so if anyone has been wondering why they haven’t talked to me in awhile it’s because I’ve figured that i’m probably annoying or something.

What’s your relationship with the person you last texted? 

We were kinda.. Friends last year not really (I kinda used her.. Sorry not sorry)

Have you ever had someone pick you up off the ground and carry you?

No, but I can do that with people

Are you a couple with the last person you kissed on the lips?

Haha nope

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?

shorts

Are you wearing a ring, if so who gave it to you?

Don’t own one

How many people have you had strong romantic feelings for?

Haha one, but fuck that

Have you ever walked on the beach at night?

Yeah, I did once when it was a full moon, it was pretty neat

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?

What was the last thing you licked?

my lips

Last time you laughed?

About 30 minutes ago

Were you intoxicated the last time you threw up?

Sure wasn’t

What are you doing tomorrow?

I have to go to school and were having a stupid dance afterwards

Who was the last person to make you mad?

White supremacists

What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who?

Spiderman Homecoming with my dad and sister

Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you?

Technically yes, but it wasn’t their fault?

Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over?

Kind of haha, now that ive looked back, theres things a lot of those people have in common

Do you care too much about your appearance?

yeah

What are you listening to at the moment?

La devoteeeeeeeeee

Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/ girlfriend every week?

Haha i’m no hoe

Is there anyone you want to come see you?

Yeah, but at the same time I wish I never saw them again

Ever given your all to someone who walked away?

kinda…

Who was the first person you talked to today?

My mom

Will this week be a good one?

I’m gonna end it good

Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy?

No I bought Gta V again and I got Life Is Strange Episode One

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

Next time you will kiss someone on the cheek or forehead?

I’m going to die before that thought crosses my mind

Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy?

Doesn’t matter

Be honest, are you starting to gain feelings towards anyone?

Omg this guy in my math class who sits behind me, but i kinda maybe liked him last year haha

Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

Sometimes.. Not usually a lot.

You’re single, right?

Some people think i’m not but i’m not saying anything

Excited for anything?

yesss

What do you have pierced?

The person/people of the opposite sex you truly care about needs you at 3am, would you go?

maybeee

How’s your heart lately?

Broken and whole

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?

No ive got schoool

How old will you be in 14 months?

15 woot woot

What is the next thing you will probably buy?

Life Is Strange: Episodes 2, 3, and 4 or preorder the new Life Is Strange: Before The Storm Deluxe Edition.

Do you think girls deserve more respect?

Yeah, were treated like trash

Explain your relationship status?

I seem taken but dood idk

What’s on your bedroom floor right now?

My carpet :)

Is there a girl that you would do absolutely anything for?

apart from family, nearly anything.

Aw cmon, maybe like 2 months ago maybe. Not anymore.

Who was the last person you saw, besides family?

My neighbors

Has anyone of the opposite sex hurt you emotionally?

maybe

Would you rather be stuck in the pouring rain, or in a snowstorm?

rainrainrain

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?

Can you swim well?

sure

What makes you mad about girls?

All the cute ones are straight

What makes you mad about guys?

Why are they all f boys, seriously

Have you ever been given roses?

Biggest pet peeve?

People who keep telling me what to do

Are you texting anyone at this moment?

I just was

Are promises important to you?

Yes, I never tell people to promise me but I always trust people. I can’t anymore because one of my friends told someone something about me so I have major trust issues now! Yayyyy

What were you doing at midnight last night?

sleeping

What do you think of Valentine’s day?

Stupid af

Do you feel comfortable with answering personal questions?

Nah I don’t care

What’s more important in a relationship trust or happiness?

TRUST. no trust I can’t love yah

What’s a nickname you go by?

None because NO unless certain reasons

How do you calm down when you’re extremely angry?

Panic! At The Disco’s emperors new cloths on repeat, which i’m doing right now and i’m not mad but it helps a lot

Do you like the beach?

I used to a lot

Do you ever apologize first?

Yeah because that’s after I realize I just yell at people.

Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?

He’s my dad so strong connection?

Why aren’t you happy?

Depression actually runs in my family and i’m not mentally well so that’s cool How do you feel about chocolate covered strawberries?

nah

Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today?

My dad

Do you still talk to the person you last kissed on the lips?

Well technically no because I never had or ever will

Is there anyone you know that deserves to get slapped?

Me, and a ton of people

What are you most looking forward to tomorrow?

Seeing friends

Where is the boy you want most?

Oh boi I don’t know at this point

Have you ever seen your best friend cry?

I lost my bestfriend, but my old one? All the time when she was little haha

Are you wearing makeup right now?

Just washed my face so no

Is your hair up or down right now?

Down forever and then the rest of the Now Or Never lyrics

How many months until your birthday?

4 months til im 15, I can just hear that stupid 15 taylor swift song

Do you like falling asleep to the sound of the rain?

yes

Who was the last person who gave you advice?

My mom

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?

I never am dude

Do you have feelings for someone?

Kinda? Not really because i’ve basically killed my heart at this point

What are you planning on doing after this survey?

sleep

What’s something you really want right now, be honest?

If I were always myself and being honest I would say but i can’t

Is there a guy that knows everything about you?

No, not one. No ones knows everything about me, not even me at this point.

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?

I am right now so haha

What was the reason behind the last time you cried?

Can’t remember

Are you secretly in love with someone?

I used to be? What? How? Never again? Yeah haha fuck me

Will you be in a relationship in the next month?

Dunno but I can’t say no

Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 21?

My sisters

Would you ever dye you hair black?

Do you have a best friend?

Used to

Has anyone said they love you in the last week?

My dad?

Who was the last person to wave at you?

A girl who I kinda know

Is there anything bothering you right now?

yeah

What color shirt are you wearing?

white.

Who was the last person you hugged?

My cat

Is there anyone in particular that you’re missing right now?

Not anymore but maybe

Could you stay in the same relationship for over a year?

yes

Do you miss the way things used to be?

Yes but things have changed maybe for the better

Is any part of you sad at all?

My whole life, yes

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Doubt it, most people forget about me so what fucking ever

Do you like anyone at the moment?

Nah not really

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?

Funny you say that If never kissed a soul on this planet and based on my guesses on how long im gonna life I say I never will

Who was the last person to call you?

friends

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?

Water

Are you scared of spiders?

What are your plans for this weekend?

I’m gonna get a laptop and maybe get Life Is Strange if I can convince my dad to buy it

Ever been swimming in a lake or river?

both

What did you last buy?

stuff

What’s irritating you right now?

I’m waiting for something

Are you listening to music right now?

Halsey’s Hurricane at its finest

Do you like Chinese food?

sure

What is the last movie you saw in theaters?

Spiderman homecoming, tom holland is adorable

Was this the best year of your life?

No, but it was my luckiest

First and last name of your very best friend?

none

What was going through your mind during your last kiss?

WHY THE FUCK DO ALL THE SURVEYS I PICK INCLUDE KISSING STOOOOOP

Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?

No but definitely daydreams. I started daydreaming like crazy last year and it’s destroying me. I think its called maladaptive daydreams? Not sure but it’s crazzzzzzzzzzzzy

Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?

haha yeah, it almost feels physical

Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?

Nah cuz I dont have either

What did you do yesterday?

First day of school

What time did you go to bed at and when did you wake?

I went to bed at 10 and woke up at 6

If the last person you dated said they were in love with you, what would you say?

Who are you

What places have you been to today?

school

Anyone of the opposite sex been on your mind lately?

Not really

Do you like long hugs?

yes

What mood are you in right now?

idk

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?

yeah

When was the last time you sang an entire song?

2 days ago

Last person you texted?

My dad, don’t worry I have no friends :)

Latest you stayed up in the past week?

Maybe like 11

Have you been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?

No never had to go to the er before

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?

I hope so

What did you have for dinner last night?

I didn’t have anything

Are you wearing matching socks?

yes

Do you know how to read music?

Do you get nervous when someone is angry and yelling around you?

I get mad and then I get mad at myself which isn’t good

Who did you make plans with today?

Myself and my schedule

What smell reminds you most of summer?

Heat? Could that be a smell? Or chlorine

When in a car and you’re at a stop light or something, do you look at people?

Do you plan on moving soon?

Have you ever said something and then regretted saying it after?

Ah my whole life summed up

How many piercings do you have?

none

Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

depends

When you think of the rainbow, what pops in your head?

Funny you ask, probably lgbtqia+ pride stuff

How long does it take you to shower?

I never know

Explain why you last threw up?

Stomach flu

What’s the opposite sex form of your name?

kendal

Have you ever lost contact with someone you wish you didn’t?

Ehh no and yes

Did you talk to a complete jerk today?

probably

Is the last person you kissed more than a year older than you?

nope

What do you think of Lady Gaga?

I love her

What’s the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?

Love, respect, and TRUST

What time are you waking up tomorrow?

four

Are you currently reading a book?

No but I will on October 3rd

When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?

I’m listening to 100 letters awww yeahhhh, Idk

Do you have any piercings?

Were you single on your last birthday?

yes

Have you ever spent the night at a boy’s house?

probably

When was the last time you felt honestly broken?

Sometime in may like maybe the 16th

Are you craving something?

Are you thinking of someone right now?

I always am

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?

noooooooooooooooo

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?

I know someone who does

When was the last time you stayed up late because you were talking to someone?

Sometime in January

Have you had a good day today?

sure

Is there any chance you will kiss the last person you kissed again?

nope

Do you still talk to the last person you made out with?

Woah what..?? Haha

Are you wearing socks right now?

yes

Is your birthday on a holiday?

Can you make a dollar in change right now?

Have you ever been out past curfew?

I don’t have one yet

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?

Ew no

Have you kissed anyone in the past month?

Never have

When was the last time that you consumed alcohol?

never

Who was the last person to cook dinner?

my mom

How many people have told you they were in love with you?

No one

How often do you wear necklaces?

Everyday

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?

Yep, I plan on it

Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

Of course

Do you tend to make things complicated?

always

Would you be happier if life had a rewind button?

READY FOR THE MOSH PIT, SHAKA BRAH

MAX CAULFIELD I LOVEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Have you ever stayed up with someone of the opposite sex for a whole night just talking?

Texting? yeah

Where was your profile picture taken?

At a shopping outlet in Oregon with my sister

Are you counting down for anything?

STAR WARS EPISODE 8!

How often do you drink energy drinks?

never

Do you ignore people when you’re mad/upset with them?

Not really

Have you ever dyed your hair?

Are you an emotional person?

I didn’t used to be

Are you nice to everyone?

Of course not

Have you had any relationships this year?

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?

yes

Are you a morning person or a night person?

Both

What feature do you usually get most complimented on?

Eyes or my hair haha

What do you usually order on a pizza?

pepperoni

When did your power last go out?

years ago

What would you order if you went to McDonald’s right now?

nothing

Are you obsessed with anything?

CHLOE ELIZABETH PRICE

Do you have long nails?

What flavor of toothpaste do you use?

mint

How many posters do you have in your bedroom?

A lotttttttt

Do you buy birthday cards or make them?

Make them

Is there a TV show that you watch every day?

Do you eat your pizza crust?

Yeah dude

What do you spend the majority of your money on?

Video games

What is the worst pain that you’ve experienced?

Heart break

Does your bedroom door lock?

What is one thing you will never understand?

People’s thoughts

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