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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 9 months

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ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet!#here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress!#you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better'#i Immediately started doing Worse!#i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now!#okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um.#i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually.#love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me.#perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that!#with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!!#gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

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magpieddd · 1 year

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Oh to look into the mirror and realize you’re starting to look more and more like him.

#vent art that i ended up liking be upon ye #I’m terrified of looking like my mom #thankfully she always disparagingly says i take everything from my dad <3 #which is also what people said to her when she was my age but now she’s identical to my grandma <3 #i swear to god that if one day in my future i’m going to wake up and see her in the mirror i don’t know what i’ll do #what do you mean i can’t get rid of her once and for all and that’s she’s always going to stare at me everytime i walk in front of a mirror #the owl house #grimm’s art #emperor belos #toh oc #gatherer #the owl house fanart #toh #backup au #Grimwalker oc

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ryonello · 11 months

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valorant catgirls on the brain again .... fade this time :3

#fade #valorant #hazal eyletmez #sorry for no art for a while ! i have been um . going thru it #this month has been the worst for a long time i am having a lot of SHit Happen ALL AT ONCE but i keep trucking #🥺👍#my car kaboomed . and i need to buy a new one . and everything costs so much #+other financial shit happening BUT ITS FINE BC I HAVE A BUNCH OF CONS NEXT MONTH #i am goign to be exhausted but i am going to be okay . staying strong staying positive crying a lot but thats fine it is like that sometimes #hope life is treating yall better than me rn <3 #sorry for spontaneous vent in tags on unrelated art oops #anyway ! :D #i will be at adelaide ozcc next weekend / melbozcc the following weekend / sydnova the weekend after that !#ALSO super lookign forward to smash and avcon in july !!!! will have new merch for them if they arrive in time :]#but yes . back to binging totk to cope :] maybe new link art when i have free time again i love him so fuckign much its insane #mwah #my art

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mel-loly · 3 months

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-Who is happy to have this little thing for 3 years here on the blog!? :]

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darehearts · 21 days

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me signing on after 48 hrs of radio silence : does anyone....... remember me ?! hEWWO....... ?!?1 🤧

#obviously i'm exaggerating and being silly but yes hello 💛#after 2 days of contemplation and trying to get my marbles #together-- i'm here ish. i am resuming my queue and after #nearly a month? i will be getting back to my ooc msgs today #tbh? on top of all that happened i learned 2 days ago that #the company that acquired the previous company that i #worked as a contractor for is firing basically all contractors #and i may lose my job any moment from now... and my #project will get terminated for sure end of the year and as #you all know my car is basically totaled... and i am the only #person who has a job in our house rn lmao so like!! i am not #well ;' ))) my personal life is on fire too but i HAVE to get it #together. and i will fight through my discomfort writing Jim #after taking 3 weeks long of a break. idk anymore beloveds!#i will chill out with my vent posts. thanks for sticking around~#tbd #vent tw

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reel-fear · 1 month

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MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

#ramblez #little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao #this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it #hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD #hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you #batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions #it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting #But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent #dw Im not going anywhere <3 #also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently #old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD #also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns #he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs #and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get #and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they #dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves #to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent #mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did #so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!

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skrunksthatwunk · 4 months

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you go to a lesbian blog and find it says women only!! no men allowed!!! and go oh! excuse me, um, what about other lesbians? plenty of lesbians are genderqueer... and they go well, okay, go fuck yourself tim chop off your sweaty dick and stop calling yourself a lesbian. you do not have a dick, actually. you think about that fact often, even though it does you no good. you do not tell this person that.

you go to another lesbian blog and it says women only and you try again, and this time they change it to wlw + nblw only (non-men who love non-men :D). and you'll say hey i appreciate that but gender's not really that cut and dry for a lot of people. someone could be both a man and nonbinary, for instance. i just worry that you're looking at nonbinary as a generic third gender, or an extension of womanhood. i mean yeah you include nblw in your tags but all your posts are about pussy-havers exclusively. what's with that? and they say go fuck yourself you pervy man pretending to be a lesbian. you tried to sneak in but i won't let you.

so you go to a lesbian blog with a dozen or so posts about queer people needing to be more weird about it and you sigh in relief. but you still see the men dni. that's odd. hoping for the best, you say hey! i know you mean well but please maybe don't put men dni at the end of the lovely posts on your lesbian blog bc some lesbians are men. and they'll be like ok!! well you're allowed ;) and you say no that's not. no. some men are lesbians not just me. you think about your own dicklessness and wonder if that's why you were given entry. and you add that even if male lesbians are allowed, there's no indication of that. how would anyone know without asking? and they're like ohh gotcha gotcha well men dni + this is for sapphics only!! and you'll be like ok well that treats the concepts of men and sapphics as mutually exclusive identities and i just told you that's not true and you agreed with me so.. i don't think that solves our problem. and they're like. ok. fine. men dni but genderfluid and multigender people are allowed! and you're like no see that's. that's still the same thing.. you're saying the same thing just with different words. if you don't want men to interact but you're fine with multigender/genderfluid/etc ppl interacting then you either don't see them as Real Men (because they don't reach a standard of Full Manhood) or Complete Men (because they're only Part-Time Men), both of which suggest that they are, in some way, not men or less-than men, which is invalidating and defeats the point of the exception in the first place (accommodation) OR that you don't really mean the dni which is confusing and inconsistent and makes guydykes feel weird and uncomfortable and excluded from the lesbian space you're trying to cultivate. and they're like um. ok. so. cishet men dni? and you're like well i think that makes more sense, but what if someone identifies as both a cishet man and a sapphic? again, if we're trying to accommodate the genderfucky populace then that has to be a possibility that is considered. and they say god you people are never happy. what do you want me to do? what am i supposed to say to keep the right men out? and you pause. you empathize with the need for a space free from dudes trying to fuck you straight and feminine. dudes who watch lesbian porn and joke about what they'd do if they were allowed into girls locker rooms. who look at you like a piece of meat, and like someone who looks at women like pieces of meat in the same way he does. you get it. you know. you want a space where you can be sapphic, too. that's why you came to these blogs in the first place. you brace yourself and you say well i don't know that there are "right men" to keep out. i don't know that there's any single label that would accomplish whatever it is you're trying to accomplish. you could go for "sapphics only" or "queers only" and i think that might be the closest thing to what you want, but it's never going to be perfect. creating any exclusive space is going to shut out people you didn't account for, and the broader the label, the more people will be shut out that you didn't want to shut out. and what about people who don't know if they're allowed? what of questioning transbians, where are they supposed to go? and, frankly, i think i might rather my dykey posts get read and appreciated by a gay guy who sees me as a man than a woman who only sees me as a sacred womb, pure from male perversions or violence or whatever. i think community might just be more complex than a dni can handle. and they look at you and say i don't want to not have a dni. i think you're too permissive. you can't just "what about" or microlabel your way into everything. go fuck yourself, i bet you're not even a lesbian anyway. go find a real problem to get mad about.

you go to a lesbian blog. you ignore the men dni because you know you probably don't even count to them. or maybe you do count and, out of respect for your manhood, they'd shun you accordingly. you try to feel okay about that. you scroll past dozens of posts about mediocre men and gagging at straight friends' boyfriends and how gross and undeserving men are of the beautiful women they couple up with and how all women should be gay so they can get treated right and and and and and. you finally find a post about curling into someone you love and feeling at peace and try to lose yourself in it. you know that feeling is what unites you, what makes you belong. you try to focus on it. you think about carding your hands through a butch's hair or lacing fingers with a femme and feeling warm and loved and more yourself than you ever have before. like this is who you're meant to be. you read about lesboys and butch boytoys and genderfucky dykes and big hairy deep-voiced wonderful women (like you want to be someday, like you wish you could make yourself) and you try to ignore the men dni underneath each and every post. and you daydream about meeting someone kind and earnest at a lesbian bar even though you don't think any such bars exist within three states of you and you can't drink and don't want to drink because you need to be in control of yourself at all times so you don't fuck up like you're always about to and here in the nonexistent lesbian bar you feel wanted and safe and in good company. you picture your ideal, happiest self. it is a mistake. ideal-you has a goatee. not the mascara one you smear on and call drag even though you know it's not drag, not really, the beard you call drag because you think everyone would look at you sadly if you told them it was just to pretend you had something out of your reach. a beard that's soft and that you grew and that cannot be smudged away if you get too comfortable with it. the dream shatters. your people pull away from you, their scoffs mixing with the mind-numbing gay girl bedroom pop you learned to settle for just to have something that almost resembled you, they all pull away and turn their backs and do not look at you. you're too close to being a man now, even though you're the same amount of man as before. and they know you're not supposed to interact with men, not as you would with dykes, at least. and it sours. it's all your imagination, all in your head, but it sours.

you sigh. you think about how small you are. how short, how narrow, how feeble. how your voice pitches up when you talk to strangers because it's easier to speak quietly when it carries more, and because you're nervous. because it's a chore to talk, like everything is. you think about testosterone. you think about how your family would look at you, the questions they would ask, your answers they would only pretend to accept. the uncomfortable glances and whispered questions they'd try to hide from you. you think about how small you are, and how small you will always be. how you don't know of a way to fix it, but even if there was one, no one would want you anymore. you'd be the only one thinking it made you a cooler dyke. you think about how you don't even want a T-voice all the time, how you'll never be able to switch it at will, because you don't know how and can't bring yourself to figure it out. you think about how your throat closes around every hint of your own attraction. how wanting is perverse, how wanting is invasive, how wanting is embarrassing and too vulnerable so it must stay anonymous, as an online witness, and how you can barely manage to form or maintain friendships because your brain makes you pull away, always spinning out and struggling to recover from the simplest of interactions. how they'll all leave you and you won't chase after them at all and how that will hurt them. how stuck you get. how it looks like nothing's holding you back, how that frustrates everyone who thought you were going to be more than you were. the people you love who understand except when it comes to being ghosted, being shut out. how you don't want to hurt them. how you can't tell them that because you're stuck. how you turn to stone when touched, how you never reach out, how you lose your speech and can't look at people, how your autism is fun and sexy until it becomes real and you never see them anymore, how much you longed for someone who knew everything without you having to explain, and who loved you anyway. how unreasonable you know that is to expect of anyone. you think about that not-even-real lesbian bar. you think about how you still can't drive. how you can't leave your home on your own, without dragging somebody into helping you. how you can't leave your body. how you can't leave your manhood behind.

you think about finding another lesbian blog and ignoring everything. about skimming it for the parts you can juice some meaning from. the parts men ignore and don't understand, and how typical of you it is to do so. or the parts where you're not welcome and you should accept that, because it's for lesbians only. how you are a lesbian anyway. how you're meant to choose lesbian or man, how each is a betrayal of some kind to yourself or your people, your family, your lovely strangers, your rare friendly acquaintances. about the parts that tell you you're not wanted, that you're ugly and lazy and gross and insert yourself everywhere without even asking. about the parts that tell you you are hated, and how lesbians are above it all by rejecting men. how lesbians are each blessed miracles. about the parts that say you should be ashamed of being whatever twisted confused freak you are, of everything, of looking and wanting or not looking or not wanting, of picking and choosing instead of taking it all in with a smile. after all, shouldn't you take it? or is your ego too fragile, as men's so often are? aren't you tired? good. we're not here for your consumption. and we sure as hell don't want your company or "community" or whatever. didn't you read the sign? no boys allowed. and if you want to come in you have to make up your mind. as if you haven't told them the only answer you have. you're both. you're both.

you know you broke the rule by interacting.

but it gets lonely sometimes. you wonder if they know.

#before i maybe get yelled at:#1) no i do not think ppl are evil for having men dnis no i do not think these are all equal transgressions even #though there is an overlap that should be examined that i think is based in a degree of lesbian separatism + exclusionism #2) yes there are lesbian blogs and people that are cool about genderfucky people. i'm not talking about them #3) this is a stylized vent post about trying to find lesbian content on tumblr that isn't like this. all these dnis/rules are ones i have #encountered. no i do not literally tell these people to change their dnis to suit me. the conversations are symbolic and ideological in #nature. if i find a blog with men dni i generally go somewhere else. it's about emotions. it's about my feelings on that it's not literally #about dming someone demanding they change things. it's not about demanding that You change things or else you're a bad person.#4) it is about the conflicts and hypocrisy and inconsistency of strict and exclusive sexuality labels persisting in gender-diverse spaces #and how it affects me as a lesbian who is a man who is a woman who is fucking whatever else. and yes it is about transphobia too.#5) it's about how lesbians feel the need to exclude men and how i think efforts to do so fail and hurt ppl and are often misguided #tht i think also comes up in like. bi lesbian/mspec lesbian/gaybian discourse. i'm not any of those myself but it seems like there's overla #6) if this post seems whiny and sad and insecure that's because it probably is. i have a right to be all of those things.#7) no i do not think all lesbians are man-hating assholes. i am a lesbian. i love lesbians. i love dykes and most of them are fantastic ppl #i just think the general bullshit of the world leads to this defensive thing that ends up hurting others in our community y'know?#8) i get that my perspective/experience is a bit unusual and many lovely ppl haven't considered it. that's part of why i'm sharing this #nyarla dni #<- sorry man it's too vulnerable. gonna keep this one to the internet-only folks

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toaster-fire-art · 2 years

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Wu Xi!!!

bonus version with the veil and a close up <3

#i love him so much #he!!! <3 #wu xi #my beloved #qi ye #lord seventh #it's been a long time since i did a potrait with real detial and i actually really like how this turned out #i feel a completly normal amount of emotions towards this book and the characters #chronic pain sure does things to a mf (me)#this isn't a joke i'm in so much pain lol i spent an entire day doing nothing but drawing to destract myself #tiny vent there sorry lol #my art #toasterfireart #qi ye fanart #over halfway through reading now so that's something #i started it and was like: man if only i were painting right now #but it turned out nice so i can't complain #i predicted this would happen as soon as i saw this mf i knew i would become obsessed and i was right #babe wake up new comfort character just dropped #xie lian still holds that title the most sorry xu xi you are up there tho

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cookiebonbon · 10 months

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Hi I kinda. Uhm. I. COUGH

Uhhh thank you @blackkatdraws for making silly hot wife and the pink clone, I will never forget your generous donation (💀??)

Some close ups too, I mean why not? :3

#goddamn Im awkward Im too shy akndksnfjsndnf -😭#also kitty if you're reading this I wanted to let you know that I saw your vent (?) post and Im letting you know that Im pretty much going -#- through something similar. I dont want you getting fully taken by this feeling like I did. Its not nice at all and it hurts a whole lot #Sooo I just want to remind you that you're loved by many many people and we care about you dear kitty <3 #Apologies if that sounds strange- I mean its our first time ever talking- But just wanting to let you know because you're important to me!#but yeaaa I want to make out with Black I MEAN WHAT-#(also I drew this for the whole night. I started at 11 pm and finished at 6 am :333 yes Im okay :33)#the stanley parable #tsp #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tspud #narrator #tsp narrator #gip!!#I gib gip eheheeh >:3

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caruliaa · 2 months

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hes literally the greatest character in all of fiction hes first introduced in drag of frida kahlo then he immediately starts father figuring the protagonist. then you find out thats hes suffered more than jesus.

#HECTOR RIVERA I WILL ALWAYS LOVE U <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 #looking thru my coco artbook and remembered that i love him so fucking much #flappy rambles #FOUND IT !!! this post in my drafts from april 2022 i rewatched coco today nd cldntstop thinking abt it. literally so true .#coco #also looking thru my drafts which i also used to vent often #seeing all these posts like that are like #'im always so worried **** cares abt me less then i do abt her!! i hate my stupid brain and issues #that have nothing to do with her making me feel like this when its not her fault at all!!!!' yes it is. and im going to kill her #but thats not the point. the point is HECTOR RIVERA I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU !!!

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milomilesmib · 18 days

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Trauma

(image description: a mixed media art piece of a person holding several stacked square boulders engraved with words. The person is much smaller than the boulders and is struggling under the weight, bleeding from their hands and a gash in their chest. They have light skin, short brown hair, and grey clothes. The background has grey streaks and faceless grins. There is text in all caps across the page, the letters are black outlines with white over red-orange streaks. At the top, there's the text "all day, every day". On each of the boulders, from top to bottom, there is one word: "therapist, mother, maid, nymph, virgin, nurse, servant". On the left of the person, there is the text "just an appendage". On the right of the person, there is the text "lift to attendance." Beneath the person, there is the text "so that he never lifts a finger". The piece is based off the song "Labour" by Paris Paloma. End description.)

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ghosts-cyphera · 7 months

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I'm so off my game. I want to be all "kinktober and halloween and ghost" and instead my brain is all "relationship issues and sleeplessness and inability to focus on the task at hand". what a stupid life. 😤

#please send me soft!dom price recs #daddy kink sir kink I don't mind I just want to feel small and soft and adored #your girl desperately needs it right now #I hope you're all having a good weekend 💕#if yes feel free to share something cute and positive in my inbox no matter what it is <3 #and if not feel free to rant or vent <3 I got you!#lo talks

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lavendermerry-go-round · 8 months

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Okay, enough of the temporarily divorced idiots!

I want to see my baby Muriel figuring out how Earth works!!!

Imagine finally getting out of a sensory deprivation tank that you've been in for at least half a dozen millenia and suddenly everything is loud and colourful and interesting and you just have to marvel at everything around you.

I want to see them trying to devour any book they get their hands on. I want to see them contemplating to use a miracle for it but deciding against it because they want to experience this the right way not the fast way.

I want them to discover food that they like. Something that is nothing like that "cuppety" Aziraphale offered. Something cold, or crunchy. Something that gives them a funnily satisfying mouthfeel and they stick to it indefinitely.

I want to see how they are different from Aziraphale who, because he witnessed humanity's advancements firsthand, is prone to clinging to the past. I want to see Muriel discovering the internet and being utterly overjoyed by it.

I want to see them skip all the human basics and going directly to abstract and advanced ideas. How do nuclear submarines work? The exact layout and moving mechanisms of the Tower bridge? British literature pre-Shakespeare? Sure, they could talk for literal ages about it. But what's an alphabet? Why can't I ask random people on the street about their feelings? What do you mean that people convey emotions through distorting their faces?

I want to see them discover stuff with a bright, never fading smile even if some people try to bring them down

#good omens #good omens season 2 #muriel #it's so important to me that they are autistic can you tell?#we need season 3 #yes I know it's a bit stereotypical but this is an emotional vent and not a carefully planned character study #cut me some slack please

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moonsfantasyworld · 3 months

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dont mind me

mourning again the train wrack poppy playtime became

#spoilers just in case #i havent watched chapter 3 #i dont plan to #but i've been told by friends a bit how the game is on that chapter and #from all the changes to me that game is just NOt the same anymore #its not the same game #it feels as if the whole point of abandoned factory with monsters in it has been lost #things the fandom wondered about were confirmed yes #like the creatures being humans that were experimented on #or huggy being dead by a line poppy said on chapter 3 #but the fact they also killed kissy feels like a genuine slap to the face #it hurts #it hurts because that game was genuinly a very big positive thing to me until the developers fucked it up with their nfts and starting to #be money greedy bastards #im just sad and dissapointed #knowing how much comfort huggy used to bring me hurts to some level #he was so important to me #moony chaos #ramble i guess #vent

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lunabug2004 · 3 months

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RANT INCOMING: Noooo guys the reactor I was watching said the line! He said "Will deserves better" after he figured out Will's feelings in s4... :(

I honestly dunno if I can keep watching him now. I know that's dramatic but when I tell ya'll Michael Wheeler means the world to me... Michael Wheeler Means The World To Me. I mean it. Wholeheartedly. And I cannot handle when people don't even try to see Mike as more than just Will and El's love interest, which is what it seems his take on Mike is unfortunately.

And I dunno if I can watch someone who's gonna sit there and claim Will deserves better than the one thing he's wanted for who knows how long and the one person who means the world to him, while also claiming Will is one of his favorites... like how does that even make sense?! They got in a couple arguments (in which both had valid points and valid reasons to be upset with one another)... so what?! That automatically makes Mike a bad friend?! It's the most stupid thing ever imo. I could go on forever with this so I'll stop here...

I know this is actually most of the GA's take on it so it shouldn't be surprising but... come on man! I was hoping this reactor would be different cuz I really like him. (Though some red flags did pop up regarding his reactions to Mike in s3...)

#stranger things #byler #mike wheeler #will byers #stranger things 4 #yes im talking about ST reactors again...#oops #“will deserves better” is my least favorite take in the whole world #(talking about w byler not in general)#it just doesnt make sense!#he doesnt want better he wants mike!#ranting #venting #im so upset yall #(you can probably tell)#Jay's saying stuff :)#Jay's talking ST <3

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indestinatus · 5 months

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why is life so hard

#for those who dont know i'm retaking med exams #because i didnt pass them last year #and im just so... sad #because it's never easy #why do all my friends get the life i dreamed of? and i stay here #1) i dont have a job 2) i live with my parents #3) my twin sister has a fianceé and lives in another country for gods sake #can you name a bigger disappointment? my TWIN sister #rock bottom. again.#i promised i wasnt going to let my emotions play such a big part again but #i just cant #it's inhumane #i do everything i can and i'm still dumb and i can't fix this #and it's not even that hard i'm just not good enough for this #sorry i needed to vent urgently #yes it's all i've wanted and all i've dreamed of #so i'll keep trying but wow. it breaks my heart #i studied so hard. for so long. i did everything i could. it's such a hard lesson #sometimes it's not enough #sometimes it doesn't happen because I physically can't push past my intelligence #i'm simply not intelligent for this #i know i'm victimizing myself but wow i wanted it so bad #i spent days dreaming about it and nights studying #and to see friends get positions i wanted just breaks my heart #always watching never participating #yes i've learned when I was 13 i was way less intelligent than my sister but still #this was such a different path from hers and i still couldnt do it #now i have no idea what to do because it's a fortune every year to pay for these exams #and i dont know if theres anything else i could do #sofia rambles

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