#world is a fuck i am going to scream

[fluffypotatey]

A Thought:

As Emrys, Merlin is a very powerful sorcerer.

However, his utter lack of any formal training means Merlin is not a very good sorcerer.

The magic he does should be theoretically impossible, but he's got enough raw fucking power to just make it work. Infant demigod smashing blocks together and creating a Lego Death Star.

Merlin: *does magic that Should Not Work*

Other sorcerers:

AND THEY ARE RIGHT TO FEEL UPSET

IMAGINE YOU'RE A SORCERER. YOU'VE BEEN PRACTICING YOUR CRAFT, SHOOTING THE SHIT, LAYING LOW, PLOTTING PLANNING.....THEN THIS FARMY BOY TWINK SHOWS UP AND NUKES THE FUCKING PRIESTESS OF THE LAKE OF AVALON

I'D FEEL PISSED TOO

like, bro, you meet him, you're apprehensive of him bc 'shit that's emrys'. the emrys. the dude that's said to be the greatest sorcerer to ever walk the earth. you meet him. you can feel his magic and like holy shit, what the fuck was that??? you ask him how the fuck he gained so much power by the age of 21????

merlin: you mean....y'all don't also just have magic doing shit when you're a toddler

you, the sorcerer who has had to spend years getting control to fucking heat up a teapot: .........no.......no our magic doesn't do that

goddamn do you wanna just chuck this adult child into the lake and be done with it. better yet, you wish for the sprites to just pick you up and use your body as a sacrifice for entrance into Avalon.

and then, and then

you see how this motherfucker fights against bandits and "WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU JUST PUSHING THEM AWAY??? WHERE'S THE SHOWMANSHIP??? THE PIZZAZZ??? HOW MANY SPELLS DO YOU KNOW???"

merlin, who forgot he can freeze time and space and can launch lightning bolts at people: uh....3???

it takes the triple goddess to restrain you from murking the prophesized warlock right then and there.

"NO, NO, FUCK THAT, FUCK THIS, FUCK ALL O' Y'ALL!" you scream as you jump on a ship and move to a place that doesn't have op young adult children who didn't study shit and yet still get an A+

#i could post this later.......but i won't so here we go #i am delirious it is......1:30 in the morning i should sleep and yet....here i sit #i hope this was enjoyable because this is the best fucking thing i've ever been granted the chance to read #headcanon fully accepted #this is canon #sorcerers hate merlin because he that's guy who always passes the class with flying colors but you know that bitch #sleeps during every lecture and never studied a day in his life #i know for a fact that gaius would have smacked merlin when they met but didn't bc this kiddo was too pure and sweet for this world #honestly a sorcerer who worked their ass off to be th best meeting s5 merlin who's tired & seen shit but only knows 7 spells #they would walk right out bc 'who tf does think think he is????' and merlin has had this interaction one too many time by then #bbc merlin #merlin #merlin emrys #headcanons #i want me screaming into the void at the witching hour to be my legacy

[neuxue]

The one and only downside to having been fortunate enough to take an extended amount of time off of work a while back is that now I know that simply not having to work for a living would fix like 99% of my problems. And I just have to carry that knowledge with me every day. Into work.

#best months of my adult life; absolutely no regrets #but ever since then it truly is like being cursed with knowledge a mortal like you should never have come to possess #like you've feasted at the fae banquet and no longer belong to the mortal world #used to be I just suspected that not having to work would fix me #but now I know it for a fact and every time I think about that it drives me a little more fucking insane #anyway. I am very aware there are ways to mitigate this. I will go back to applying appropriate coping mechanisms in just a minute. #but I just need to scream into the void first. #a day in the life of Lia #random workblogging

[frnkiebby]

just fucking end me~🎃

#please i’m begging #how am i supposed to exist in a world where HE exists being so pretty #fucking he’ll #he’s so gorgeous #just gonna go scream now it’s fine #it’s all good #whatever #frnkiebby #frank iero #mcr #frnkiero #mcr5 #mcrmy #frnkie #my chemical romance #my chem

[rolansrighthorn]

Watching George Taylor (Rolan's VA) play BG3 causes so much anxiety like babe PLEASE SAVE AND PLEASE GO LONG REST I AM BEGGING YOU

#my heart rate is so fucking high #i know we all struggled at first with the game #but i am the worlds worst backseat gamer #please i am going to scream #go long rest for the love of all that is holy #my post #own post #rolan bg3 #although #i lowkey wanna see him play the tlou games

[amaraudermind]

Something something Bruce love Gotham because it's his home, jason loves Gotham because it's in his soul, Duke loves Gotham because it's his family, Steph loves Gotham on purpose

#the void screams #duke thomas #bruce wayne #jason todd #stephanie brown #each member of the batfam having a complicated relationship with gotham is something that can be so personal- #but yeah bruce loves gotham because this is where his family has always lived. leaving would mean leaving them behind. #he loves gotham because it's the only home he's ever known #i don't know what fucked up tether there is between gotham and jason. compells me though. #even when he leaves he can't stay away along. gotham's in his head. in his soul. it's where he's alive and it's where his life is drained #the people of gotham are duke's family and he wants to protect them the way they've always tried to protect him #the city is the people and duke knows these people. he's one of them. he's seen what they go through to survive because #he goes through it too. he loves gotham because it's his whole world. his family. and he'll protect that family #until he dies. #steph though? steph grew up here and hated it. hated the city. resented the people. resented the heroes. #and still every fibre of her being goes into loving this city. into hoping for it. #on purpose. she's going to love this city on purpose. even when it hurts. even when she'd rather die. #even when the whole CITY turns against her. time and again. because she's already decided. #she's going to love gotham. even if gotham never loves her back. #don't mind me i am just rambling nonsensically. i am right though by the way. it doesn't make sense but it's Correct

[walmart-miku]

I will never be the same again. Revolutionary girl utena has changed me.

#revolutionary girl utena #im going to scream #fucking doomed by the narrative #why do i love doing this to myself #*continues to consume doomed by the narrative content* #aka orv madoka magica and now revolutionary girl utena #NO BECAUS THE WAY IT ENDS #UTENA DID REVOLUTIONIZE THE WORLF #ANTHYS WORLD #AND NOW ANTHY IS COMING TO FIND UTENA AND #I AM NOT NORMAL ABOUT THIS AT ALL #I NEED THEM TO BE HAPPY

[4lluring]

i am NOT okay right now.

#evan peters #pedro pascal #the last of us #monster the jeffrey dahmer story #american horror story #the mandalorian #my two baes #pedro pascal is daddy #evan peters is daddy #i am never going to recover from this #the way i screamed #the world is healing #the way we might be getting an evan peters rom com #whoever thought of them being in the same room needs to get fucked real good #tlou #ahs

[kuragesoda]

Is… is this an arb event based on the hyprice ???

...... ok i WILL be honest this ask was how i found out that a fuckin . hypnosis microphone RICE exists ??????????

#i had to read this again bc my brain just went “WHAT” #apparently its being played hypmic music while its growing this is legitimately THE funniest shit ever #imagine being a rice plant and your first exposure to the world is fucking . faces idk #i am going to scream cry #answering asks :00

[iwoulddieforienzo]

Something that makes reading TOA so devastating is how fucking much Apollo feels about Everything. There’s so MUCH. Like I don’t even know how to describe it to you if you haven’t read the books yourself. He has so many complicated thoughts and emotions about just about everything and he cares about everything so much and there is just SO MUCH going on in his head. And yet none of it ever reaches his mouth!!

He almost never says what he’s feeling. What little comes out of his mouth about his thoughts barely even scratches the surface of what he actually means. Like he’ll be having a long ass monologue about how incredible someone is, showing a deep understanding of them as a person and empathizing with them so hard you’d almost think it’s projection but it’s not he’s legitimately just mind melding with this random person he met like a week ago and he’s thinking the softest, kindest thoughts about them like he knows they’re fucking incredible - and what comes out of his mouth is just like, “you’re a wonderful friend :)” AND ITS LIKE. THERES SO MUCH MORE UNDER THE SURFACE. the sheer admiration and adoration he has for everyone around him……… UGHHH!!! But he never VOICES ANY OF IT!!!!!! He never tells anyone about what Zeus did to him……. He never tells anyone except the reader about his realization that Zeus is abusive…. He never even tells commodus about how much he adored him, not then and not now… he refuses to tell anyone when he’s in pain or tries to justify the things he does when he actually had Decent Reasons for why he did something… I’m. I’M. AUGH. AHHHHH

HE DOESN’T EVEN TELL US ALL OF HIS THOUGHTS IS THE THING. THERES EVEN MORE THAT HE IS NOT TELLING US!!!!! THE FUCKING OCEAN OF FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS HE HAS ABOUT EVERYTHING IS THE CLIFF NOTES VERSION. I AM IN DISTRESS.

And YET…. Even what slips out of his mouth is so fucking devastating it is SO devastating. He’s so fucking kind and gentle with Harley and Meg and and other younger Demis and his kids… he’ll act like an obstinate idiot and then turn around say something that drags the core of the person he’s talking to into the light like nail on the fucking HEAD like he reached into their soul and gave them the words to express something that they were struggling to say aloud or that they didn’t even realize about themself. Around the 2nd book he starts putting voice to some of his feelings and thoughts about others and even that tiny fucking sliver is overwhelming to the people he’s talking to bc he’s SO. AUGHHHH

#this is why ‘reading the TOA books’ fics fucking slap btw. because as embarrassing as his thoughts can be #so many of them are just incoherent screaming about how he loves everyone around him. devastating #like imagine helping out ur loser deadbeat dad who you don’t really know much about bc he’s flighty and hard to read #and finding out ‘wow he cares about us a lot more than I thought’ #bc he literally almost dies to save you/your siblings and keeps following you all around everywhere #but he’s still like. your weirdo absentee dad. u don’t know hardly anything new about him other than an apparent suicidal streak #and then u find out that the whole time he was whining about chicken nuggets or whatever he was internally sobbing abt how much he loves u #and every time u were nearby he was going ‘MY BEAUTIFUL PERFECT BABY… JUST AS INCREDIBLE AS THEIR MORTAL PARENT!!!! BEAUTIFUL LIKE THE SUN! #HOW DID I EVEN MAKE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PERFECT BABY. UNREAL. THEY CANT BE MINE!? BUT THEY ARE!!! LOOK AT THEMMM!!?!!! IM SO PROUD…… #my beautiful perfect angels… all of their parents best traits and none of our worst…. I am Barely restraining myself from sobbing #i would give u the WORLD if my father wouldn’t kill me for it :(‘ #and it’s like. wow. okay dad. um. would have been nice to know that when we were all dying in The War #Please Hug Me Though. #imagine being a Random Ass Demigod who didn’t go on a big special quest or something like you are literally just Some Guy #and finding out that this weirdo loser god u gave a sandwhich to or something thinks you are so fucking cool #your own parent doesn’t know ur name but Apollo knows u on sight and read ur soul within the 2 seconds yall talked and he thinks you rock #how are you supposed to respond to that. #snack time #toa #longpost

[yannfredericks]

being online rn is such a fucking nightmare oh my god!!!

#everyone purposefully misinterpreting the new ts album and taking lyrics out of context #and pretending they can’t tell when she’s making a joke or writing something tongue in cheek #I am being so good and so normal trying to ignore and not engage with the people spouting this shit but good lord! #people are 100% allowed to like and dislike what they like #but when all I’m seeing is massive threads about Why they hate something or why the lyrics are bad #I’m like don’t you have anything better to do #me personally when I don’t like something I’m not making huge threads about all the ways I hate it #where are the normal people!!! #people who don’t like taylor swift are being utterly deranged but then a lot of the fans aren’t being much better #it’s all fine I just wish I could exist online without being subjected to The Discourse #especially bc these albums came at the exact time I needed them and so much of them speak to me so personally #I’d rather see fucking nothing than everyone fighting over it #and I’m not engaging at all I just wish there was an option to be online to talk about the silly little characters without inevitably #seeing twenty eight think pieces and people screaming #no one in this situation is being normal !!!! #I wish the people saying the whole world is sick and tired of her and that she’s overrated were right #bc then it might actually stop being impossible to get tickets to her shows! #please amen bc I’d like to go in london 🙏

[thelabryslibrary]

Tamsyn Muir really said Exhume Your Gays and we all grabbed a shovel

#locked tomb #the locked tomb #tamsyn muir #Okay but I am obsessed with the levels of subversion in these books #like we are not only going to subvert genre and tropes and relationships and gender #but we are going to go so hard that we THROW THE WHOLE THING IN REVERSE #honestly that’s one of the queerest fucking things that you can do #It has nothing to do with the subject of the material but queerness is the way you approach the world #I’m just screaming #gideon the 9th #The labrys library #queer lit

[somecunttookmyurl]

i think you just slightly cured my fear of spiders because i can't stop laughing at the thought of this spider going through all the stages of grief as the world gets flipped (again)

"...and then i moved over to the big lot next door and it flipped upside down AGAIN"

"have you been on the whiskey again"

#idk how anybody can be afraid of (non poisonous)* spiders #bc if you think about the world from their little many-eyed viewpoint for a few seconds it's like #yeah okay this interaction is objectively worse for you i am millions of times bigger than you #and just flipped the world upside down #maybe the second time - having survived the first - is less horrifying but still #there's no way that's going better for you than for me #*there is of course a healthy amount of fear to be had towards spiders who could - if not kill you - hurt you a lot #screaming and panicking is unlikely to help you out there either though #given things mostly hurt you as a fear response if they feel threatened #and i dunno about you guys but i would Feel Very Fucking Threatened if an unfathomably large giant started screaming at me #i'd feel pretty threatened as soon as i encountered an unfathomably large giant #but definitely incredibly threatened if said giant then began deafeningly roaring and trying to squash me #rather than just like.... leaving

[xo8ball]

CATEGORY 10 BOYFRIEND EVENT HE SENT ME MORE THAN ONE SELFIE AND HE IS LOOKING SO DIVINE I MIGHT CALL HIM HEAVEN

#qpp tag #what am i cooking #personal #GOD. HES SO FUCKING HANDSOME #HOW CAN A BOY BE EVER SO BEAUTIFUL #IM SO FUCKING LUCKY I GOT THE HANDSOMEST BOYFRIEND IN THE WORLD #MI PRINCIPEEDD HGAGEHEHSHJE !!!!!¡ EL MÁS LINDO DE L MUDNODOOO!!!!!!!!!! #screaming so loud i feel sooooo hehfjejejdjksj FUCJKK HES SO PRETTY #I NEED TO GO TO HIS HOUSE AND ABSOLUTELY KISS THE SPIRIT OUT OF HIM

[nerdynikki94]

Crazy to me that people think Barry is a show about a hit-man trying to become an actor, but unable to stop killing, when really, it's a beautiful gay star-crossed romance between a Chechen mob boss and a Bolivian mob boss, prioritizing their passionate love over their torn allegiances, withstanding the bleakest of odds, to show that true love really does conquer all.

Like seriously, I think everybody's watching a different show than me, lol.

#i just binges Barry a couple of days ago #honestly i feel like they could've ended with the 3rd season. #not that i don't like the show. I'm just terrified of losing No-Ho Hank. he sincerely means the world to me. #i love him so much. and his romance with Cristobal is so sweet and really moving. that whole scene with elena in the finale wrecked me. #i was screaming at the bitch. i w as so happy to see hank shoot her. poor cristobal. #I'm not normal about them. I need them to stay happy. #am I wrong? they have so many truly tender moments. hank saved his life. cristobal refused to kill him to save himself. #now who here is going to tell me that isn’t true fucking love?! i won't hear it!!! #Barry #noho hank #cristobal sifuentes

[pepprs]

i will shut up abt this i promise but like. the concept of being in a stable safe mutually loving whatever relationship is INSANE . like how can you ever feel bad about yourself or wounded or whatever again. it’s like a superpower or somethi ng. <- doesn’t know what she’s taking abt bc she’s never experienced it or the absence of it after having it merely the negative space of it and is filling in the gaps w logic or something. but it’s INSANE to me. like of course i feel like shit about myself i am catcrumb unloved.jpg!

#purrs #imbeing insane about it i know it’s not that simple / reductive and i will still feel like shit abt myself once im in a relationshp (if i #get to be ♥️) and there are lots of other legitimate reasons to feel shit agtbyiurself. but it’s like no ficking wonder i feel inadequate i #am a 24 year old who lives at home and has never held a hand or whatever next to two 50sometjinf year old married men with pets and phds. of #course i am going to feel inadequate and stupid and lonely. like i canttttt 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 and th w worst part is you can’t just go out into #the world saying that and looking for that it has to find you so i will not join any dating apps or whatever but i don’t fucking go anywhere #so im not going to meet anyone and i knowi am so young and stupid and just having a horrible day that is reminding me of horrors. but the #way i am mentally shoving my whole fist in my mouth. OF COURSE I FEEL LIKE SHIT I DONT HAVE A LIFE PARTNER!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT HAVE THAT #SAFETY AND STABILITY AND TRUST AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!!!!!!!! AND I NEVER HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #delete later #like this is what makes me crazy abt parents and kids too and whyi don’t think ihave kids. bc i think (and i know this is wrong / unhealthy) #it is a primal human need to be mutually someone else’s number 1 person and when you have kids it’s like you’re gonna love your partner more #than the kids and then the kids (read: me) watch that and get fucked up over it. but also that could just be me reacting to the UNSPEAKABLE #psychological damage of being a twin. which again is ridiculous bc it’s n out like abuse i just had to share something with someone else si #since before i was born and ofc there was more like actually kind of abusive stuff on top of it LOL but that aside. idk what im saying i #just feel so crazy. the amount of composure it takes me every day to not start SCREAMING with frustration and envy when i see ppl being #RIGHTFULLY DESERVEDLY visibly confident and loved. like ok valentines grinch go sit in the drainage pond forever please. but it’s so crazy #like how are you supposed to go through the world unaware of how much love you’re missing out on because you’re young and then you realize I #it and then somehow you miss the train and you are scared you are going to d*e alone ♥️ im normal

[soldier-poet-king]

Still can't believe they put atte atte in the owlcrate qt merch. Am I gonna buy it?? Ofc. But UNHINGED decisions all around

#anyway. been offline today. less insane. #am almost finished the Screaming staircase in one sitting #kipps is the worst i love him #ans the portland row kids. i would die for them #the Most Ship of all time fucks and i guess???? the world has to know???? #like whatever they have going on is perfect but also oh my god