#why was i allowed to do that!

[hunkydorkling]

It actually did take me just one comment and a few kudos on my recent fic to get me back into the groove of outlining and planning for succeeding chapters.

#big thanks! #i have been incapacitated by romantic emotions for the past... (counts) five months? #when i could have channeled it through fic #why was i allowed to do that! #bad!

[egophiliac]

wait, hold on, I love them

#art #twisted wonderland #eyestrain #i don't know why i am SO into the twsties wearing these super basic t-shirts but for some reason i absolutely am #i take my little joys where i can get them okay #and i do love when they have to do a special ortho version of the Generic Outfit because he is canonically not allowed to wear clothing #looking forward to seeing his bloom gear! #(chanting) robot witch hat robot witch hat give me the robot witch hat

[the-trans-dragon]

I think there should be a limit to how many Illnesses you experience at one time, it’s not fair that they’re allowed to stack endlessly

#if buffs can’t stack endlessly in viddeo game then why Bad Health allowed to do it 3: #sorenhoots #I am so very Ouch and Ough and Oof this morning

[greencarnation]

eleven is fascinating to me because he came right off the back of tens horrible traumatic breakdown after he lost everything and he immediately tried to establish himself as the opposite of that. he is funny and goofy and almost childlike, and he bulldozes on in his adventures with amy like nothing happened at all. but then something happens and his masks slips and it's like oh! the core of this man is still anger. he is so so angry all of the time and this façade is the only thing stopping him from being consumed by it. he isn't over any of it and he hasn't moved on. he is wearing a fez and laughing but under that all that exists is age old anger and grief and it is going to consume him

#i do think that this pit of anger was eventually covered and soothed by the ponds #but he didn't adress it and he couldn't even look at it until he was twelve #when he stopped pushing back and repressing everything and finally allowed himself to exist as he was #but ok listen #its all layed out in the first 3 episodes of season 5 and in the way amy sees him #episode 1. here is the new doctor he is energetic and reeling and fun #episode 2. the space whale comparison. here is the new doctor. he is unthinkably ancient and almost godlike but he is so so kind #and patient and good. he is ancient and lonely but he can't stand to see children cry. so the doctor helps people #episode 3. daleks. the doctor is a soldier. these are his age old enemies. he wants them dead and he will stop at nothing #all logic and reason vanish. he is hitting the dalek with a pipe and yelling his head off while amy watches in horror #like obviously we know why but amy didnt #this is not a sane or rational man he is unstable and angry #and in that episode he was stripped back to what he largely is: hate #you would make a good dalek ect ect ect #anyway 3 episodes with 3 very distinct and equally definitely traits layed out like: here you go #i don't like elevens era much but those first 3 episodes were great #doctor who #eleven #amy #eleventh doctor #matt smith #dr who #dw #i mean idk this is what river literally had to spell out for him #eleven was careening completely out of control #how long til doctor means warrior indeed? #mine

[biracy]

In general quite fascinating how "boys who liked bionicle are girls now" is called "gender essentialism" by like Radqueer Terfs DNI posters but "the thread of Girlhood Uterus Vulva Trauma connects all (cis) butches and trans men, so that's why I can reblog photos of trans men to my men dni blog in my #dyke tag" isn't. Lmao

#i say as a dykething obviously. it's still uncomfortable #honestly why i don't do the Boydyke thing despite that technically being true. also bc bisexuals aren't allowed to be boydykes #open mick night #lgbt #gender #transphobia cw #transmisogyny cw #<- as that is why the former is considered Gender Essentialism. i know this don't worry

[ruubesz-draws]

Zeuszilla? Zuezilla? Zeusilla???? Idk but it's trending on Twitter rn

Anyway, my contribution haha I'll just put this here and disappear!

#godzilla #godzilla x kong: the new empire #zeus #zeuszilla #it's a trend on twitter lol #so i give mine #it sucks idk why I gave him hooman body but it kinda worked????? #anyway wanted to add Rodan as the eagle that's always with zeus #tbh i don't like zeus #kinda sad they comparing him to Godzilla #BUUUTTT it's disney version so i'll allow it #lol #anyway enjoy #do not repost #my art

[gayjaytodd]

just in case you're wondering how bad antisemitism is online by now: my friend had to take down the memorial post she made on IG for her dad and stepmum (who died less than a week ago) bc people were spamming it with "free palestine" and "two less zionists is a good thing" comments

#antisemitism #I'm. tired #why is it that we are never allowed to grieve? why is our pain always politicised? why does it feel like jewish pain never matters? #what are we supposed to do with our grief and our pain and our sorrow? where are we allowed to put it? #I told a pal from uni abt it and was told to 'stop playing the victim' :)

[swedenis-h]

These two, man… (X)

#please forgive me that they’re from the same thing #I know that takes away from the whole meme but #like could have I don’t magneto? yes but also. #but also Leia’s my girl I couldn’t not draw her #and now I have a funny little Star Wars meme that fits my account woowww oh wow #why am I explaining this IM ALLOWED TO DO WHAT I WANT!! #okay bye #art #fanart #digital art #fan art #my art #star wars #leia organa #luke sykwalker #art meme #star wars fanart

[courfee]

“Regulus would be proud of us,” James whispered quietly to no one in particular, still gripping onto the painting like a life raft. 

— Tender Curiosities, Baby!  @otrtbs

#ive thought about this scene for so long it just took me forever to draw cause once again the anatomy of cars is the bane of my existence #like originally i wanted evan and barty holding hands to be visible to have the contrast of sad lonely james and sad not lonely rosekiller #but alas cars wont allow it #ahb just still has my entire heart you dont get it #i have a none blurry rosekiller and a just james in front of blue with stars version of this but i think ill only put them on insta... #tender curiosities baby #art heist baby #james potter fanart #james potter #jegulus #rosekiller #rosekiller fanart #marauders #marauders fanart #evan rosier #barty crouch jr #jegulus fanart #jegulus fanfiction #fic: ahb #art heist baby! #mine #my art #hp #ahb #(sneaky end notes: i do have to admit i am not too pleased with evan and barty but this was my first time drawing them) #(so i couldnt figure it out quite yet hency why they look a little. less efforty...) #(also the snake ring is the same design that i drew for chapter 34 of ahb in my little chapter illustrations for my typeset) #((nvm i just checked back and i am fully lying here i used a different one for my typeset and now im vaguely upset oops) #(i shouldnt make decisions only half awake im going to think about this for too long now i am sad)) #((like suddenly i was like. hold up. i had a different design there didnt i... it was an open ring goddamnit))

[inkskinned]

you wanted to be a good friend, because you loved your friends, but the truth was that everyone else somehow had a pamphlet on being normal that you never received. most of the time you learn by trial-and-error. you are terrified of the next big mistake you make, because it seems like the rules are completely arbitrary.

you've learned to keep the prickly parts of your personality in a stormcloud under your bed - as if they're a second version of you; one that will make your friends hate you. it feels feral, burning, ugly.

instead, you have assembled habits based on the statistical likelihood of pleasing others. you're a good listener, which is to say - if you do speak up, you might end up saying the wrong thing and scaring off someone, but people tend to like someone-who-listens. or you've got no true desires or goals, because people like it when you're passive, mutable. you're "not easy to fluster" which is to say - your emotions are fundamentally uninteresting to others around you; so you've learned to control them to a degree that you can no longer really feel them happening.

you have long suspected something is wrong with you, but most of the time, googling doesn't help. you are so-used to helping-yourself, alone and with no handbook. the reek of your real self feels more like a horrible joke - you wake up, and, despite all your preparations, suddenly the whole house is full of smoke. the real you is someone waiting to ruin your other-life, the one where you're normal and happy. the real-self is unpredictable, angry.

your real self snarls when people infantilize the whole situation. because if you were really suffering, everyone seems to think you'd be completely unable to cope. but you already learned the rules, so you do know how to cope, and you have fucking been coping. it's not black-and-white. it's not that you are healed during the other times - it's just that you're able to fucking try. and honestly, whenever you show symptoms, it's a really fucking bad sign.

because the symptoms you have are ugly and unmanageable for others. your symptoms aren't waifish white girl things. they're annoying and complicated. they will be the subject of so many pretentious instagram reels. if they cared about you, they'd just show up on time. you care, a lot, so deeply it burns you. you like to picture a world where the comments read if they loved you, they'd never need glasses to see. but since that's a rule you've seen repeated - "one must never be late or you are a bad friend" - you constantly worry about being late and leave agonizingly early. there are no words for how you feel when you're still late; no matter how hard you were trying.

so you have to make up for it. you have to make up for that little horrible real you that you keep locked in a cabinet. you are bad at answering emails so every project you make has to be perfect. you are weird and sensitive so you have to learn to be funny and interesting. you are an inconvenience to others, so you become as smooth as possible, buffing out all the rough parts.

all this. all this. so people can pass their hands over you and just tell you just the once -how good you are. you're a good friend. you're loveable.

#spilled ink #woke up at 530 to write this lmafo #me in a cold sweat: #how do i be normal #edit in the tags: #hey so i've seen y'all talk about like ... wondering if ur ''allowed'' to relate #like if this is about X specific diagnosis #and when i first posted it i really almost labelled it ''please don't assume this is about a specific condition'' #because as an artist i am often walking this line of discussing a symptom or discussing my conditions etc #and sometimes yes ! i do want to talk about an experience that is specific to who i am and my condition #but sometimes the effort of the post is about the EXPERIENCE rather than the diagnosis #because yes i am not neurotypical and as a result that influences my work but it is ALSO true that there are many reasons #why someone might experience this particular vague horrible feeling that you are... almost being CHASED by what you ''really'' are. #that you're outrunning your symptoms... that you're not really normal you're just sort of a mockery of a person #.... that's a really isolating and horrible way to feel no matter why you are feeling it. and the nature of this PARTICULAR post is that #it is inherently talking ABOUT that sense of isolation & of feeling not-deserving & of minimizing your own experiences to make urself #palatable for society in a way that others find easy-to-deal-with.... #this post is about a certain experience such that my impression is there's a higher likelihood that those who relate #would have more difficulty thinking they ''deserve'' to relate - that it doesn't REALLY belong to them #bc often we are the kind of people who are SO used to being alienated and set aside and ''different'' that we AUTOMATICALLY assume #that things are not ''for'' us... they never have been why would it start now #we are the kinds of people to be ... ''too normal for X diagnosis but too symptomatic to be normal'' #[or as this post points out... so good at ''coping''/masking/hiding it that we essentially conform to whatever shape we're poured into] #but i have witnessed others already say in the tags ''thought this was about me but it's about X so it can't be'' #and im like ... of course it was about you. #art is not a resource that is diminished by greater appreciation . #you reflect in whatever mirror fits your frame. not just the ones in your bedroom. not just the ones i specifically give you. #there will be - and often are - times that i will talk about my specific conditions... but if you're reading this #regardless of why you're here... we are here together. holding hands through space and time. and i love you for carrying it #and i know you're exhausted. i am too. but i understand. and i see you.

[rihlltalk]

ffxiv is a great game and all but why does no one tell you that the process of making an alt is literally just

#ffxiv #final fantasy xiv #final fantasy #ffxiv memes #i have three alts. i only play one regularly. why was i allowed to do this three more times. help.

[jaysworlds]

hello mcr girlies. which mcr song is YOUR song i mean like 'this song gets me like no one else has ever got me this is the greatest piece of music ever to be created etc etc etc' the song no one understands like you understand.

i'll go first. mine is Summertime

#and i was at the one uk show they DIDNT play it cries. though tbf not the end of the world #i would have SOBBED #and smudged my cool eyeliner #anyway transsexuals you are NOT allowed to say mama. that is OUR song #(im kidding. pick whichever song lives rent free in your heart) #mcr #mcr summertime #my chemical romance #rb game #yes i did post this while listening to summertime and feeling like my heart was being ripped out of my chest. why do you ask #ALSO also if anyone else tags this with summertime either we have to fight to the death or make out sloppy style #those be the rules

[petz5]

WARNING GIRLXGIRL DONT LIEK DONT WATCH!!!

#ranma 1/2 #ranma saotome #akane tendo #rankane #art #dudes i was fighting for my life to draw literally anything today wtf #IDK WHY but its not allowed to continue tomorrow i have shit to do

[gaymelie]

Once again saw someone yell on here about how "nobody is going to report this aaah the media is evil", closed this app and not even a minute later saw a report with that exact content on a major news platform. Ngl this phrasing is rapidly being added to the list of things i won't reblog on principle.

#Its always an argument as to why the post is more believable or more righteous #And its just a manipulation tactic whether deliberate or not #And I'm not doing that yall #Like either give me solid evidence its being hidden or discuss whatever issue you have in an actual factual manner #None of this reactionary bullshit #Like the amount of 'stories the news outlets aren't covering' where i found an article literally on the front page of the apo #Or with like a single basic search on their app if its a few days old #Like at this point you shouldn't be allowed to add this to your post unless you have googled the topic at least once #We can criticise HOW things are covered and when and by who etc but stop lying to make your point more dramatic

[kita-shinsukes-hand-holder]

I hate you mfs that don't like Gwen after across the spider verse it smells like misogyny

#i liked her MORE after atsv #like yeah she needs to apologize to miles duh #but why is she not allowed to make mistakes without being villanized #ive heard more people talk about how bad gwen is than fucking Miguel #shes CLEARLY being influenced if not manipulated by Miguel and jess #shes only doing those things because she wants to PROTECT miles #she doesnt want what Miguel is saying to be true #like yall im p sure she fully accepted that her dad was going to die #they had to have said some shit to make her accept that #and at the end shes trying to right her wrongs #shes become such a more nuanced character than she was in the first movie #why are you guys fucking stupid #AND shes trans shes literally amazing #gwen stacy #spiderverse #spider man across the spider verse #across the spiderverse #spider gwen #marvel

[egophiliac]

he can have a poster too, why not 🔥

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #glorious masquerade #why do art during the actual event when i can just wait until it's lost all relevancy instead #anyway i kid but i did think idia's reaction was a genuinely nice touch #especially since they did eventually establish that it takes place after episode 6 #so y'know. he's had his character development and all. #he is in fact probably the only person who is allowed to comment on this situation #unique magic posters