#why i don’t know bc i said so

[sacha-da-1]

Alternate universe where Ace was in the TV movie and she saw the Doctor Professor regenerate.

Then she would’ve encountered two unorthodox versions of the Master. (Both Cheetah!Master and Goosnake!Master)

#why i don’t know bc i said so #grace and chang lee are still there #but ace gets separated from the doctor for awhile so he meets grace separately and she can’t explain anything for him or be able to help #him till later #maybe she’s trying to track him down while also tracking down the master and getting into trouble trying to stop him #maybe he gets her under his control eventually idk she’d obviously put up a good fight if he did #also i don’t know the full details of her eu departure yet so i don’t know how this would fit with that yet #just an idea #ace mcshane #doctor who tv movie #doctor who the movie #ace and her adventures with the professor’s freaky boyfriend #she’ll be like why is he like this?? can all time lords do that?! turn into snake beings after death and spit acid after possessing someone #can they just produce acid from their mouth in general what the hell 😂

[trans-androgyne]

I feel like I’m constantly being held responsible for the actions of random shitty transmascs just by having the commonalities of being transmasculine & talking abt the oppression I face as a result. Like I’m sorry you’ve run into a handful of shitty people. I’ve also run into shitty people but that doesn’t mean I stereotyped the entire group they came from about it.

#why are you assuming I agree with them or should be lumped in with them just bc I’m transmasc #‘transandrophobia truthers’ aren’t even a group #that’s literally just transmasculine people who talk abt their oppression using a specific word #I didn’t even start using it or talking abt it until a few months ago & I’m being responsible for things people did & said years ago? #literally my only goal from all this if it even can be called that is to get to talk abt the experiences I have as a transmasc #why is that so fucking hard for people. I don’t know these random transmascs & I don’t care to #transandrophobia #intracommunity issues tag #mine

[mychlapci]

As much as I love a breeding kink, and thinking of these robots fucking like it’s the end of the world, and round bellies, and carrying and all that good shit -

what I also love to think about sometimes, is what bots would just ADORE being parents. Mama Drift would make his baby his whole world, and I love that for him. He would bring his little swordsman along with him everywhere, ratchet never gets a minute alone with drift or his kid, because drift is just that attached to his baby.

Or like, helicopter dad ultra Magnus, who makes sure his baby gets the best education.

Fun mom rodimus who would strap his kid to his chest then go skydiving.

Idk! I just love the idea of these bots having a great time carrying, but LOVE actually raising their kid!

hmmm i don’t focus too much on the kids, since i’m not very fond of ’em. as i said, i’m in it for the pregnancy glow, but after the baby is out i’m gone.... but kids are very cute to think of in theory. i have thought about the bots raising sparklings before.

i love mama Drift taking his little one everywhere he goes, hopping him on his knee so that he can see everything while Drift points and explains the world to him. Ratchet never getting a moment with just Drift or just his kid, because Drift is always there to hold the baby in his hands. Rodimus is definitely the kind of mom who will not stop living his lifestyle just because he’s got his baby now, if he has to strap the little one to his chest when going meteor surfing or going out drinking, then he will do just that. Also i like the thought of this being the same baby. I know we agreed that Drift would not let go of it, but if he ever did, you know Rodimus would take it on the night out because he misunderstood Ratchet saying the little one "needs more socalization".

tbh i am a bit of a feral sparkling believer, so i think it would be absloutely hilarious and adorable to have, let’s say Drift, cooing at his beloved little baby and you look at it and it’s a hissy, sharp-toothed freakish skeleton. It’s fine! He just hasn’t grown his plating yet, but he’s still adorable, right? Meanwhile the sparkling has crawled out from his grip and is perched on top of Drift’s shoulder and clawing at you. He’s a little shy <3

#you know i’m only there for the pregnancy glow bc one of my cybertronian baby-making hc’s is basically #that they don’t even care for the little ones for the first stage of their lives #except to feed them or to scoop them away from imminent danger #litters being big bc sparklings regularly wander of and get killed or eaten or eat each other... #so once they start growing higher processor functions there’s only two or three sparklings left from the litter #idk why i’m dumping this here. i definitely said all of this before #and it’s a little too dark #sorry dude. overprotective mama drift for the win

[yourqueenb]

This is so stupid. Like this actually pisses me off

#choices bolas #choices blades #blades of light and shadow #choices stories you play #playchoices #I really don’t know why I’m pissed bc I was just talking about how the writers glossed over everything Valax did to MC #but it’s still so annoying and infuriating #not only was she not given the room to feel and address what happened #but she was also made to be a complete and utter dumbass #bc like Valax said she was honest from the get go #she literally told you what she was going to do!!! #you knew what it was from the beginning so why are we acting hurt and betrayed now #it’s completely asinine #choices #choices app #pixelberry studios #pixelberry

[8rujaa]

my therapist really saved me….

#tw abuse // tw sa #i can’t sleep bc i keep thinking about this. #like i probably would’ve not been here if it weren’t for her #i started seeing her january of 2023… my life has changed entirely since then and she was definitely the one who got the ball rolling #literally so much has changed since then and it’s all because of her #i was so dissociated during our first few sessions #thanks to her i was able to get diagnosed and medicated for adhd. i was able to realize i was in an abusive situation and plan a way out #i was able to focus on myself and my healing and she’s helped me reframe so much of my negative thinking #i was able to process a lot of emotions and become a better version of myself with each session #she’s truly incredible. #i remember the first comment she made about the relationship had been ‘’so it’s like there’s an imbalance of control in the relationship’’ #i had put my partners on such a high pedestal that i had no idea they could be doing anything wrong #and i asked her what she meant and she said ‘from what you’ve been describing it’s sounds like a strict parents and child type of dynamic’ #she told me they didn’t need to understand why i wanted to leave and they didn’t need to make that decision. if that’s what was going to be #best for me the only thing i could do is let them know my reasoning and simply leave. i didn’t need their permission.’’ #i remember being so confused at that realization bc like… i had been putting their emotions over mine the whole time i had forgotten simply #doing what’s best for me was an option… l #ever since then i’ve been putting myself first and it’s been a steady uphill from rock bottom… i’ve made an incredible amount of progress #when i first started with her getting out of bed and walking to the kitchen was incredibly difficult and took all my strength. #yesterday i conquered a mountain!!!!!!! i hiked all the way to the top!!!!! :D #me a year ago thought it was going to take me years and years to recover. as soon as i left i made leaps of progress #im incredibly proud of myself and grateful for her. and my reiki lady she’s also been a great great help. #the silver lining is i realized who really matters. and the relationships i cared about deepened. #my sweet virgo friend was the one who was always like ‘THATS A GROWN ASS MAN WHO CANT UNDERSTAND BASIC CONSENT???’ #LMFAO i would be like ‘but he has trauma and bla bla bla’ she looked me dead in the eyes and said #’jess you said with your last boyfriend that you would never make excuses for a man who was hurting you again. stop defending him.’ #she’s really a gem and i treasure her with my life. i hope she knows i love her. she’s family at this point #she’s also literally saved my life before (like deadass called 911 for help) #im glad i had the support system i had. that was a rough situation with so many layers and im glad i got through it #my 22nd year of life was by far the worst of my life and i don’t ever want to put myself in that situation again. im glad i learned.

[alwaysneedyforsir]

back to bad habits (staying absurdly late at practice)

#like ok yes it was productive! #but it’s also almost ten pm and i’m only leaving now #ya girl’s still got to get home and finish her homework and try to get to bed at a reasonable hour #who knows tho i may stay up n bake cookies #honestly who needs sleep bffr #i am *killing* it rn on no sleep #promise!! #tired n hungry n fuckin beat up #the bruises i have on my body rn are ridiculous #plus somehow fuckin scratches?? #anyway my body’s fallin tf apart rn hehe oops #who wants to kiss my bruises better?? #taking applications rn #apply within w your qualifications n an essay of why you should be considered as an applicant #perks of the job include hugs n kisses whenever you want n probably when you don’t want #you also get a free use fuck toy who needs your attention on her all the fuckin time or she withers away n dies #n lots of flowers n books n chocolate too!! #honestly what’s a girl gotta do to get some flowers #good god idk how to shut tf up #whatever it’s not like i know how to shut up in real life anyway so #honestly if anyone’s read this far lmk bc that deserves a fuckin prize #(we can negotiate details of said prize if you don’t like my initial offer hehe) #me #my thoughts

[starlooove]

#torn between this nigga is such a loser #and this nigga was high asf when he said this #if Tim Stans weren’t so annoying i could make pothead tim jokes in peace #but instead of it being funny they’ll be like he’s so badass he’s high all the time or whatever #like there’ll always be that feeling of adoration under #but also it’s so funny that y’all wanna act like tim can’t take care of himself #but he is usually shown eating extremely healthy with the exception of zesti #and for the spleen angst to exist he HAS to be careful with himself bc he’s literally immunocompromised #so it’s also funny if he’s just. the pinnacle of good health #like his room is dirty but he also has a specific workout and diet plan he follows religiously #Billionaire Boy Tim Drake says NO to vape #‘you don’t wanna end up like my father 💔’ #(disclaimer his fathers death had nothing to do with drugs we don’t know why he said that) #lame ass

[allofuswantgwinam]

it terrifies me the way so many people keep living without even batting an eye about the genocide that’s happening right in front of our eyes. i will never shut the fuck up about this.

#from the river to the sea #free Palestine #im so fucking pissed rn #was just havin a conversation with my mom and it did not go well #and i want throw up and cry #she makes me so mad #she knows this is wrong #idgaf if she’s scared of trump. idgaf if this is stressful and scary to her it is to me fucking too #which is why I will not ever stfu about this #or ignore this or forget what is going on #and live in comfort #I think the fuck not #I wanna fucking lose my shit rn but I’m not bc that won’t help anything #she’s already said before ‘I don’t have to know anything to know that it’s wrong’ so fucking accept what I have to say then #i pay attention #I know wtf is going on. let me be your fucking tool to help with this instead of getting upset with me!!!!! #she is being a coward #she knows this isn’t right. she’s being selfish #i understand it’s hard but like that’s why we fight #that’s what drives you. the outrage and pain you feel watching innocent people get murdered #I can’t understand her rn. im so done with people her age

[transmechanicus]

Brb crying on this friday night

#my stuff #my ex texted me they’re having a rough time but they refuse to let me help #i feel so thoroughly useless to them and i feel like they should/will give me up as a friend if i’m not useful #like if we’re really friends like i think we are LET ME DO SOMETHING TO SUPPORT YOU #i’m actively offering to help and they refuse every time and it hurts bc i know they’re struggling and if we were partners still they would #they would let me support them like they deserve #i know at least some of what they’re struggling with is beyond my control but there’s a non-zero chance part of why they’re upset is me #in the sense that they’re struggling to navigate our friendship after they broke up with me #and i don’t want that to be a source of stress if so. i’ve offered to provide any and all reassurances that might help them #but they’ve said they don’t need to hear anything and need to work it out on their own #how’s uhhh how’s that going for you champ?? #they need support and i’m willing to give it but they won’t admit it even at cost #so i just get to sit here and hope they’ll be ok. and that i’m not making it worse in some way i can’t see #Spotify

[quillyfied]

I know where I want the fic to go. I have the vibe. I have the beats. I have the outline.

Why have I just been staring at it for the past two hours, completely unable to write it

#writing paralysis. this is a new one. #I want to write!! I have the idea!!! #I just can’t seem to brave the act of putting fingers to the keys and letting go!!!! #NOBODY EVEN SAID ANYTHING BAD OR NEGATIVE OR HARSH BUT FAIR ABOUT MY WRITING #WHY IS THIS SO HARD RIGHT NOW #and now I feel worse bc I just can’t do it and I don’t know WHY.

[yourqueenb]

Also quick focus on Mal… If I ignore some of the things that happened in this chapter, I still like his “reunion” scene from last week. It was fun and felt kind of like old times. But when you factor those things in — mainly the fact that he said he thought we were dead — the way he acted last chapter is so upsetting and doesn’t even make sense now. If he really thought MC was dead, why wasn’t he more shocked to see her? If he couldn’t express that during/after the heist, why couldn’t he express that on the dock or at camp or literally anywhere else? Why has everything been so rushed? What are the writers doing??

#choices blades #choices bolas #blades of light and shadow #mal volari #playchoices #the problem is that the heist scene is good on its own #but it’s not like we can just pretend it happened outside of the story #the narrative they’ve crafted for this book is based on MC being kidnapped and experimented on for a year #but the Mal scene does not work within that narrative #it would work if the group had just been separated for a while or if MC had gone off on her own for whatever reason #but that’s not the case and I really don’t know why the writers are making all of our friends act like it is? #idk how the individual scenes with the other LIs went bc I didn’t get them #so that’s also why I’m only speaking on Mal’s but overall the interactions with everyone are so disappointing #I’m kind of suspecting that it’s because they said they were planning to introduce one or more new LIs #and I’m assuming one of them is Valax #but if the writing for the original LIs has to suffer for that then don’t do it! #I mean how hard is that to understand #maybe I’m wrong though but I can’t think of any other reason why they’d be botching the story this bad already #choices #choices stories you play #choices app

[akkivee]

SOMEBODY NEEDS TO STOP RHYME ANIMA (DONT)

#vee queued to fill the void #hypanispoilers #THIS CONNECTION HAUNTS MY EVERY WAKING MOMENT #LIKE I THINK ABOUT KUUKOUS WANDERING MONK TENDENCIES AND ICHIROS POTENTIAL WANDERLUST ALL THE TIME #AND THEN RHYME ANIMA ACTUALLY WENT AND CONNECTED IT RHYME ANIMA IS SO CRAZY IM NOT SANE ENOUGH FOR THIS #YEARS IN THE FUTURE WHEN EVERYTHING IS CHILL AND THEYVE SETTLED INTO THEIR ROLES IN ADULTHOOD #KUUKOUS GOING TO FILL UP THAT TEMPLE OF HIS WITH MONKS WHO WANT TO FOLLOW HIS TEACHINGS OF THE BUDDHA #AND THERE WILL BE ENOUGH PEOPLE ON DECK FOR KUUKOU TO LEAVE TEMPLE IN SAFE HANDS SO #ICHIROS GOING TO WANT TO EXPERIENCE THE WORLD FOR HIMSELF AND KUUKOUS GOING TO GO WITH HIM #i’m not joking i think about this all the time lmao something kuukou’s said before that i feel is important #but idk if it’s in relation to him or someone else we don’t know this late into the game lol #is that radio answer of his where he says heirs to temples that leave bc they have other things they want to do #usually do come back later in their lives #kuukou is dead set on inheriting the temple so that’s why i’m not sure if he’s answering from his own experience as well #but i just think it’d be really cute if ichiro and kuukou did like a graduation like road trip #where they just go places and experience stuff before really saying goodbye to their youth lol #i love them very much lmao

[aardvaark]

is it the trauma or am i autistic: a question for the ages

#wren speaks #bc yes i have had multiple people think im autistic & i understand/gen on better with autistic people than most allistics & i clearly have #*traits* associated with autism but i can never know what id be like if i didn’t go through continuous trauma throughout my formative years #so i can never know if i always possessed certain traits or if i developed them as a response to trauma #(ie difficulty socialising bc autism or bc hypervigilance and lack of healthy relationships? repetitive behaviours from autism or learnt #self-soothing techniques to cope with traumatic situations? isolation from peers bc autism or bc depression at a young age? etc) #i don’t think it’s a question that could ever receive a good solid answer in either direction atp bc trauma will always cloud the situation. #and that’s okay! i don’t really need to know. im learning to accomodate my own needs regardless of why i have those needs. #that said feel free to give your input lol