#who knows if i have the motivation

[nebuladreamz]

ART SUMMARY OF 2023 BAYBEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Template by Sherharon (You can find it here)!

#tw scopophobia #cw scopophobia #tw blood #unsure if this is going in the art ta- #fuck it we ball #nebula art and doodles #thank you all so fucking much for the most. #insane year of my life honestly #so much shit has been happening (both good and bad) and it's #insane to think it all happened within the span of a year #unsure if i'll make a new years post but #who knows if i have the motivation #i also love how you can see live how i sporadically do full rendered pieces vs whatever fuck ass doodles i do #art summary 2023 #2023 art summary

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bonus 8: How met your mother (CSSR design by @qourmet!)

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #cangse sanren #wei changze #jiang fengmian #It was important to me that WCZ had the hereditary mole. I will die on this hill. #I have been *waiting* for the day to finally arrive when I could finally make this comic. It's been marinating for months. #My mission is to redraw all of qour's character designs one day. They are just *that* good. #CSSR has the vibes of a wandering menace who shows up in towns like a stray cat arriving at a new doorstep for treats. 10/10. #While YZY strongly leads us to believe that JFM was in love with CSSR and that's his whole motivation behind taking wwx in- #-I do think this is (once again) rumour being presented as reality. It's the juicer story to tell after all. #It is still possible that he did love her! But I think that story undercuts the relationship he also had with WCZ. #Yall ever think about how JC and WWX parallel their fathers? How Wei Changze also left the Jiang Leader's side? I do. #Unlike JC though It is far more hilarious and plausible to imagine JFM begging to be CSSR and WCZ's third. You know he would. #My wild headcanon is that JFM and YZY are in a mlm and wlw arranged marriage situation. Deeply unhappy as partners. Better as friends. #they care for each other and I'll admit that there is a beautiful tragedy in them having romantic feelings for each other the whole time. #But I am also here for the gaffs. Let them be unfulfilled homosexuals together. #Meanwhile cssr and wcz are having incredible hetrosexual sex in a bisexual way that WILL leave him pregnant by the end of it.

[starlightomatic]

"these jewish bloggers keep saying it's possible to talk about gaza without being antisemitic but keep saying everything i say is antisemitic so clearly they just don't want us talking about gaza"

it's actually really easy to talk about gaza without being antisemitic if you're not antisemitic, and really hard if you are antisemitic. hope this helps

#jumblr #sorry i know this is snarky but at some point you're an adult and you need to take responsibility for unlearning bigotry #and it's not just a matter of changing your wording you actually have to unlearn your antisemitic beliefs and biases #when you have beliefs like 'all jews are collectively responsible for the state of israel's actions' #and 'antisemitism isn't real' #and 'jews are whiny and deceptive and untrustworthy' #and 'jews are even whiter than white people' #and 'jews always have an ulterior motive and are trying to take advantage of you' #those beliefs are gonna come through in your speech and posts #and they'll come through consistently #so yeah... if you keep being called out for antisemitism it's probably because you're antisemitic #but who am i kidding i know you didn't post that in good faith bc you don't think antisemitism is real

[boygirlctommy]

out of all of the (many, many, many) miscommunications on dsmp, this one still makes me lose it the most. these two were never on the same page even once and this was the culmination of all of it. 2 entirely different conversations going on

#sorry for being abnormal about cbedrockbros. no im not itll happen again #THIS. THIS MOMENT. SCREAMS AND EXPLODES. THE FACT THAT AS A VIEWER WHOS ABLE TO UNDERSTAND BOTH OF THEIR MOTIVATIONS YOU *KNOW* WHAT EACH O #THEM MEANT IN THAT MOMENT. BUT THEY NEVER REALLY SAT DOWN AND *TALKED*. EVERYTHING HAS BEEN HALF-TRUTHS OR TOO SCARED TO SAY. #AND I KNOW THEY CARED ABOUT EACH OTHER OTHERWISE THIS WOULDNT HAVE HURT THEM. BUT THEY NEVER FUCKING TALKED AND BOTH OF THEM WALKED AWAY #BOTH BETRAYOR AND BETRAYED #AND THEYRE BOTH RIGHT! AND THEYRE BOTH WRONG!!!! FUCKING BEDROCK BROS #AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #my post #my art #mcyt #dsmp #dream smp #fanart #tommyinnit #technoblade #ctechno #ctommy #bedrock bros #cbedrock bros

[smile-files]

not gonna go in depth on my feelings about the finale right now... i'm just so happy for cabby!! :)

#dandy's doodles #inanimate insanity #ii #ii cabby #battle for dream island #bfdi #bfdi flower #ii spoilers #girls who have character arcs and win <3 love them #i think i'll only be able to truly appreciate the finale when i'm able to comprehend the antagonists' motives. like what are they doing #it could be the most beautiful finale ever for all i know but i genuinely do not understand a good 70% of the conflict here #(it probably isn't a good thing when you have to rewatch the whole season to understand a huge plot point in the finale... #...or maybe i'm just dumb and didn't pick up on something obvious :P) #hello clover is the 'green goddess'??? hello

[ineffectualbookseller]

The way Azirphale is underestimated and practically infantalized by heaven is so closely tied to his femininity and I think we should talk about it more because I just want to shout about how relatable the way he's treated in his workplace is as a woman working in a traditionally male field

It's in all the little niggling comments from your boss about personal things that hold no bearing on your work

and the assumption that what you're doing must be simple if it was assigned to you

your work is trivialized

and you get these the placating smiles when you're told plans and proposals are rejected and passed over

or when your complaints are dismissed

and you get more of the same from upper management

it all feels so frustrating and draining but you're at work so all you can do is take a breathe put on that mask and move on with your day

It is all so deteimental to your emotional well being and textually, so much of this is tied to Aziraphale's softness, his gayness - his femininity

The thing about working in an environment and gives you this feeling - of being simultaneously destrought watching your belief in yourself get chipped away but also just so irate becuase you know you don't deserve it - is how it builds. It sinks under your skin and feeds into this indignant dejection until you can have a moment of release - but Azirphale doesn't get to bitch about it over drinks with friends, he doesn't get a lunch break where he can go for a walk and listen to an angry scandi death metal playlist, he doesn't even get the chance to cry about it in the bathroom for 5 minutes before confronting it again

(And I talked a little bit about it in the tags of this beautiful photoset but this all comes into play whenever Crowley dismisses his plans or calls him an idiot. These are purely emotional reactions; I really don't think Crowley means much by it - he respects Aziraphale's opinion and genuinely thinks he's brilliant - but Crowley is so quick to use this terminology when Aziraphale is making a decision Crowley thinks is wrong and he doesn't know how much this hurts Aziraphale. Just like Aziraphale doesn't understand the true impact the Fall had on Crowley, Crowley doesn't understand the ways heaven has been tearing away at Aziraphale's self worth)

Aziraphale has been facing this constant drip of denigration since before the beginning of time and has never released the pressure valve. At this point, he's a bomb waiting to go off

#(I want to note that I am coming at this from my personal experience as a woman #but I know femme neurodivergent and disabled folks of all genders face these same issues) #along similar lines I have tons of feelings about how often Aziraphale hides his hands when talking to other angels #to hide his stimming #and look I try not to tie everything back to explaning why Aziraphale ended s2 the way he did but apparently I can't #its just the juiciest character moment to me #also thinking about how angry Crowley was at Gabriel when he was treated like this once #granted shut up and die already IS the worst thing Gabriel has said to Aziraphale but if Crowley knew how much of this was going on... #aziraphale #good omens #go2 spoilers #good omens meta #Thanks to folks who responded to my tags on that post because you really motivated me to find these screen caps #and finish this post which has been sitting in my drafts for ages #also sorry so many of gabriels faces are funny I cant help that jon hamm is comedy gold - i refuse to let it undermine my point

[collophora]

haha I'll never finish this

but hewwo new followers <3

#star wars #star wars the bad batch #the bad batch fanart #but the idea is cool so have this bleurg #today I broke a teeth and I don't know how #got an appointment but not before a week #it's annoying to eat 'cause the sensation is weird #maybe it will motivate me to lose weight tho #so I could finally pass this threshold of 2 pull ups in a row to 3 #and finally go to the gym without my emotional support elastic bands #do strength training with your own bodyweight they say #it will be cheap they said #yeah guess what it's hard when you're afab lol #in the meantime doing legs is easy but eeeh no one do squat competition in party #it's always “hey look how much pull ups I can do” #gnagnagna #hey people who read my tags comment which clone would win a pull up competition if you read this #ok I need to sleep #bye

[hegodamask]

"I've learned from Palpatine."

#Star Wars #Andor #StarWarsEdit #AndorEdit #SW Edit #Mon Mothma #Palpatine #Sheev Palpatine #genevieve o'reilly #ian mcdiarmid #gif #edit2 #i know i've made like ten posts about this line already #and it's late #but sometimes the inspiration to make a gifset just hits you and you have to follow it before you lose motivation again #anyways: love my two red-headed senators who are trying to bring down the system from within (for VERY different reasons) #would sure like to see them share an actual scene one day...

[stuckinapril]

It’s never overstated to me when people are like “work out bc it makes you feel better” bc it literally does. I think what I used to get hung up on is making the perfect schedule / wanting to know what I was doing right away. But it’s also okay to flounder at first and experiment w things and figure out what works for you and your body. The important thing is you’re starting out bc your body really will thank you for it later down the line. You cannot keep pushing it off it will add up

#“Work out not bc you hate your body but bc u love it” is the truest statement ever #I also don’t think a gym membership is needed bc I know straight up athletes who only ever do bodyweight workouts #It helps me so that’s why I have one but it’s by no means necessary #I still do at home workouts at times bc I think they’re rly fun and a nice switch up #And just playing around and finding out what works for me but what also challenges me #I don’t think I perfected it yet but I’m doing lots of research & experimenting w things & I also just love the endorphins it gives me #My friend and I are ab to start regularly biking through nature trails & I think that will be so therapeutic for me bc I usually just #Work out at the gym/at home. It’ll be a nice little addition #And buying cute workout two pieces actually motivates me to work out too they make me feel like a Pinterest girl fr

[uncanny-tranny]

So often, twink death is framed as a bad thing. However, the "twink death" for trans men* is frankly one of the most healing things you will bear witness to (pun intended).

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #honestly i hated being called a twink pre-t because so many people treated me like... lesser for it? #like... 'i think you are effeminate (and less of a man)... but i /guess/ you're still a man🙄! hope that helps' is how it sounded to me #and so often it seems like 'twink death' is just... fear of aging in a world that hates the realoties of the human body #i have compassion for the fear of aging however it will pretty much always be harmful to the person experiencing it... #...in that they too will age. no matter what you do to prevent aging it will still happen... #...i don't think fear is the fault of the individual - it's a systemic issue. however i think it's needless suffering... #...you certainly do not have to /like/ aging and it can truly suck at times. i just want people to think about why they fear it y'know? #anyway that's what i think motivates this apprehensive attitude about people and how they change and whatnot #though my twink death isn't me becoming a bear (in the future who knows but for now not so much)

[amaliatheartist]

#amalia's art #art #artists on tumblr #the mountain goats #tmg #tmg lyrics #this year #collage #collage art #analog collage #traditional art #this is a personal one #the calendar is from a diary #on it I circled a couple of dates for various things like exams and big events and hanging out with friends #I filled the rest of the months with the letters cause I don’t know how it’s going to be #I have not been doing well mentally lately #i don’t have a lot of motivation #so this is a reminder to me and to anyone else who needs it

[pixiemage]

Holy crap I completely forgot I attempted to download the entire Unus Annus channel right before it got deleted. I just found an old hard drive in my desk I forgot I even had, and like - dude. I have no idea how many videos are on here but it HAS to be in the triple digits, including thumbnails. This is friggin' insane.

#unus annus #markiplier #crankgameplays #also I realize that goes against the entire purpose of the channel #I know that #I don't really remember trying to download these in the first place so I can't tell you where the motivation came from #I only saw like two videos back then because a lot of them dealt with some existential topics and I can't handle that kind of thing usually #so maybe I had fomo regret at the time - who can say? #I don't intend to share them on YouTube or anything like that because I know Mark and Ethan didn't want that #I just think it's bonkers that I have a partial archive of something that no longer exists on the internet #this is the coolest thing I ever forgot I did #ADHD is a trip man

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

ORV is about enduring the horrors in real time.

(for @everyonesfavoritebastard)

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk #I read a few arcs of ORV a few years back so I am at least loosely familiar with the characters and premise. #ORV dares ask the question: “what if you finally met your beloved blorbo who helped you cope through the horrors - and he *hates you*” #The reversal of what most people feel about some of their blorbos (love them but would never want to meet someone like that in person) #I would love to keep reading orv but it is very long and I already promised to finished like...3 other shows and several books. #my gesture of affection is consuming the media my friends care about. Alas I have none who are into orv to motivate me. #Also hey there raffle winner everyonesfavouritebastard - you gave no prompt at all so I took a random swing based on ur pfp and blog #I hope you like kim dokja! I am terribly sorry if you meant to leave a prompt and something glitched #EDIT: Found out raffle winner everyonesfavouritbastard didn't know it was a raffle. Homie...I'm So Sorry. #Now I *really* hope you like Kim Dokja. #You're so valid; I too would be mesmerized by the beauty of stackedbird's lovely little apple art.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Everyone Look At My Son. Look At Him.

#baby boy... baby... #all he wants to do is be left alone to cook #ive been working harder on improving my dragons. i think its showing! #Drawing for Friend motivation is so fucking strong #me normally: ehhh ill progress slowly as ever who cares #me when scribbling stuff for friends: I Have To Excel. I Have To Be The Best Artist I Can Be. For Them <3 #but also i want more variation in my dragons #both for worldbuilding reasons and for eeeeheheheeee Dragon<3<3<3 reasons #scribble salad #not-fish <3 #i think i finally know the vibe for the shoredrakes... #and those vibes are Sealy! pinniped components!

[blood-starved-beast]

So I've been thinking.

Icarus and Arachne clearly have some situationships going on (Arachne's is triggered when Mel gives her ambrosia and it looks to be mutual unless something else changes). They are both shades LIs (2)

Eris and Nemesis both clearly also have situationships with Melinoe. They are both female god LIs and daughters of Nyx (2).

Moros is highly implied (like the foreshadowing is very thick) to be a potential LI for Melinoe. He is a male god and son of Nyx (1). If we look at the pattern going on so far, we're missing one male god love interest. Who could that be?

Now, it's entirely possible that it's a god not yet included in Early Access and has to be patched in with development. But also. Melinoe has had a parasocial relationship with Hypnos going on since forever. She gives him great reverence/interest with him. She clearly is into babygirl" men. It would be wild, and I say wild, if the final male LI established is Hypnos. Once you wake him that is.

#Melinoe #Melnos #hades 2 #hades II #hades II spoilers #wouldn't that be a lot of LIs? #well Supergiant double the number of levels here #they can triple the number of LIs especially when the game is about repeating the same levels over and over again #like you need motivation for that you know? #also melinoe is clearly sublimating her mommy/daddy issues into gaining as much LIs as possible at least let her get this one W #speculation #EDIT: OK I know I've been talking about the LIs aspect of this game far too much #but consider - I think the whole thing is hilarious #the overtly serious Melinoe having the romance drama the size of a fucking house is peak comedy for me #love the irony #also the people she's selects are literally unhinged and it says a Lot about her as a person #like part of characterization is who and what they see in other people #Especially their LIs

[wenellyb]

Excuse me but how is Namor a villain? Someone explain it to me like I'm stupid because I don't get how he's a villain.

An opponent maybe but certainly not a villain. He didn't do anything Wakandans wouldn't have done when they were still in hiding.

Not saying him or the people of Talocan are perfect, but saying he's a villain is a little too much imo. He's just a ruler protecting his people. Just like the Wakandans.

#wakanda forever spoilers #black panther wakanda forever #namor #If I invited someone to my home and her friend came and killed my friend... I would go to War too #I know some people said he kidnapped Shuri but she asked to go there and they were treating her like royalty #I think he had bad motivations but towards the surface world not towards the Wakandans #and the scene at the ONU shows he was right #The lady guard who died could have been anybody ...I'm not surprised he went to war after her death #The villains are the United Nations members stated we saw at the beginning #ONU is UN lol #sorry for the typo