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fumifooms · 3 months

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Laios Touden and autism; admiring the non-human

Do you think people exaggerate when they scream about Laios being autistic? Do you feel like it’s weird that so many people including autistics are so set on Laios, the problematic (but incredible and kind) king TM, being the most autistic that has ever autisticed? Why do we cheer on autistic people wanting to be monsters?? Isn’t that weird?

Well, of course it depends on the way it’s done, it can be done quite offensively, but long story short Kui blew it out of the park. The thing is, autistic people really do like monsters and animals and robots. Nonhuman does not mean subhuman, it just means Other. Feeling a connection with them has been shown to be an extremely common autistic experience for that very reason.

Because some people don’t understand why we autistic Tumblr Laios stans cheer “autism! Autism!” whenever he talks about monsters and feeling alienated to humans so! Here’s a post about how yes even research papers are analyzing the special connection we form with animals. I’m not even joking but Laios Touden & the mass cries of relatability with autistic people he gets and all the love for him could be used as study material and evidence for future papers because the link is that strong. Oh also I think it’s notable that being autistic and undiagnosed vs diagnosed makes a huge difference. In my experience as someone who was undiagnosed up until 18, it’s even more alienating to not know that there’s a reason why you’re different, being gaslit that you’re ‘normal’ and you just need to try harder and get with the program, etc. Personally when getting diagnosed I went through the 5 stages of grief because the thought of having been fundamentally different all your life (a difference which you will never be able to change) and mistreated for it when you weren’t “wrong” all along makes you unload all the anger and sadness and loneliness and sheer trauma you’ve built up over time. Like it’s world shattering.

So! Back to seeing dogs as family. Also I implore you to value experiential evidence when it comes to autism and other neurodivergences because brains are complicated and neurotypicals not being able to understand us well even with scientific research is like, a whole thing even though we’re right there speaking about how we feel and being right every time because the topic is literally us and how we experience the world.

Disclaimer for this whole post that, of course, no group is a monolith and everyone has different experiences or can diverge from the norm of the group, and that doesn’t diminish the validity of either side! Like, I know autistic people who have trauma with dogs and hate them. But, trends do happen, and in this case... Autism is very “My experiences with humans make me feel dehumanized in a bad and lonely way so instead I’ll dehumanize myself in a good and inspiring way”.

“I was treated like a failed human my entire life and you’re surprised that my response was to become a dog.” -Patricia Taxxon

It’s literally well recorded that autistic people relate to animals more than humans globally. With this post, besides spreading autistic Laios truthism and explaining why the portrayal hits so deep for so many, I want to show in what way this is a very specific experience and not looking at his character through an autistic lense really misses a lot of why he’s everything that he is. (Tacking allegedly onto here for legal reasons, different interpretations are valid etc etc /gen). This honestly isn’t super long though.

To define an important term, anthropomorphism in the studies and in this post means to attribute human traits to the nonhuman, which not only includes anthro furry designs but also animals irl, inanimate objects, and animated media as opposed to live action, to humanize them and empathize with them.

Paper: https://www.liebertpub.com/doi/10.1089/aut.2019.0027

“Dogs taught me how to hunt and socialize and work in groups”, Laios having internalized body language... So real so real. I, too, make a great dog impression. And I want to emphase the part that it helps greatly develop a sense of emotions and relationships! For Laios, he didn’t get along with kids his age, it was him, Falin and the dogs against the world. Since it’s a group of dogs too, it taught him group dynamics and social hierarchies (like with Falin being considered as being below the dogs in authority according to the dogs rip), and the importance of group coordination when hunting.

For me, I cannot like, concisely explain just how much animals were important to me developmentally. I also grew up with dogs, but like I vividly remember encounters with like hamsters as well just radically shaping my understanding of boundaries, the importance of giving something space and the way you interact with them and respect their side of it. Unlike humans they don’t really mask how they feel, it’s direct cause-effect reaction and data gathering. There are no words involved, so the focus on having a perfect phrasing and tone is gone, leaving just pure interactions.

There’s also no reason to mask how you feel either, and you don’t have to feel silly over wanting to form a connection and it showing, what, is the dog gonna laugh at you because you obviously want to make friends with it? Toshiro or Kabru might, but dogs and cats will just tell you to fuck off and leave it there worst case scenario. I often say that I think one reason Marcille is special to Laios and he feels comfortable around her is because she emotes INTENSELY, she gestures, she puts her whole body into it, her facial expressions are pretty exaggerated and her ears even emote too- like with a dog’s ears!

I think there’s def also things to be said about how he gravitated towards Izutsumi at first, all excited, was eager to sleep in the same bed as her, but in the Izutsumi sleep rating chart we see they really just casual and chill so it’s not a Laios talking to Shuro deep into the night situation just a “I like sleeping besides animals” situation and that is enough to hype him up. I love how he pet her in the extra about why Chil let her sleep with him too. He’s just so transparently eager to befriend her, even if in the end they weren’t all that compatible and he accepted that.

There are honestly so many examples I could give for this. Like Grandin the famous cow lady.

More about autism & empathy:

https://www.spectrumnews.org/news/double-empathy-explained/ (Also mentions a study in which groups of autistic, allistic then a mixed group played a game of telephone and both singular groups had similar levels of information retention, but the mixed group was significantly worse. As an autistic person yeah duh, obviously autistic people are different from one another and can have plenty of interpersonal issues, but communicating with other neurodivergent people feels pretty intuitive and straightforward and comfortable. One of the reasons why neurodivergent people tend to naturally gravitate towards each other I suppose.)

^ Paper: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5932358/ For good, extensive summary of why we relate to animals so much you can go to the “anthromorphizing and asd” section of the paper. This paper extends to our widespread liking of cartoons and robots as well. Ok so this is a whole thing I won’t get into here but this is a big reason why a lot of autistic people are agender leaning as well. Genders and queerness in general is a lot about social constructs, and being queer is being marginal to these, not fitting into boxes or challenging those social norms and conventions. Queerplatonic relationships are a great example of this, where the framework of the relationship is platonic but the intangible nature of what it is exactly is the point, not familial not anything but everything at once too, just adoration, I like to say having pets is a bit like it as well, bc obvi it’s not romantic and often not fully familial, very platonic but also sooo much cuddling and adoration and kissing and whatnot that you wouldn’t typically do with a friend or family member. I’ll talk about qpr and labels another day though.

I got carried away but queerness in Dunmeshi is something I 100% want to make a big post on one day. Experiencing the world with different guidelines and not registering things to have the same boxes, sigh. Personally I also relate to Laios on a gender level, “cis by default because I don’t care all that much but if I were to dig deeper I’m probably otherkin and I want to be socially associated with traits of monsters and animalistic rather than man/woman” sighh hard to be a cryptid in this day and age. I wish we had a term like furry but for monsters, I want to be in the fantasy or folk tale genre ty, like changelings. Goshh changelings... You know, the irl myth where people said their neurodivergent kids were fairies’ children instead of human. Diminished physical sense of self means I see myself as some unknowable black void aesthetic wise, but like in a way that simultaneously makes me feel seen. Like becoming a monster, losing your sense of self but also somehow just being simplified and seen for what you are, it’s weird to try and explain. This post is more about relating to the nonhuman than about seeing yourself as such, but like connect the dots right, that IS an important point of Laios’ character. It’s because our brains literally work different than allistics which makes us feel as other, but also because of social ostracization and functioning in a different way than society at large, living in the margin of society, being weird and non-conforming.

Meanwhile, animals and social norms... Like ok, showing your neck and rolling on the ground to show that you’re friendly and harmless and play biting might not be proper. But have you considered that it’s also fun and feels very intuitive. Play with a dog in the dog’s way I promise it is so nice and freeing. Play tug of war and growl back when they growl. Hiss at your cat to tell them they do something wrong, engage with them on their level.

Autism made social life hard, but it made animals easy. Do you have anyyy idea how good it feels to mask all day every day and feel constantly misunderstood or like you’re doing a performance but then you can just, drop all of that in the company of animals and they understand you. They understand you. You form an understanding and rapport so easily.

And this whole thing with Laios is so explicit too, with the Winged Lion saying “You’re sick and tired of the human world”. Notice the choice of words. Sick and tired of the human world. Exhausted from the constraints, sick of the mind games. It really isn’t as much about loving monsters as it is about loving the nonhuman. Relating to them because you feel that you can actually understand how they work and think, and feeling like they could understand you back as well. Animals are safe.

Like I could go on about how Laios admiring even just demi-humans like orcs is because they’re socially seen as non-humans more than any true physical thing, that they’re not bound by human society and its rules and live with their own lifestyle. But it would deal myself 1000 points of psychic damage and I am not ready to cry today. It’s idealization 100%, and like, Laios DOES want to be treated as human, to be valued, but it feels like an unreachable thing meanwhile becoming a monster is instant gratification and freedom and a sense that now no one will be able to hurt you in a way that reaches you, never again shall you be defenseless, and then if people dehumanize you then that only strengthens your sense of identity as a monster and UGHH ugh ugh.

And like. This post is a mess at this point but if you want to kinda delve into the more “why” then I recommend this Patricia Taxxon video essay. It starts out on a very different topic, but it’s all about autism and finding comfort in the inhuman. Long story short is othering made us like this also animals are just simpler to intuitively get along with.

So when I post this

I mean it. I really mean it when I say he’s me. I have never felt so seen. So many conflicting emotions all wrapped so concisely yet so intangibly woven into the whole storyline so subtly.

Not being depicted as a monster of an human being for feeling/having felt that way?? The manga understands you. The world can understand you. Other humans can understand you. You can bond with them. You can. And I think that’s a big part of Dungeon Meshi too- Laios opening up to others about how he really is and his interests, and all the bumps on the way but how it was the only way to truly get to know each other and bond. With the climax being Laios confronting head on his complex with monsters and humans, and his monster-loving side and animalistic side being exactly what saves the whole world, what saves humanity. Because Laios does value his friends, does think humanity has beautiful sides to it, he wants to help it thrive and eat and become more accepting, carving out a kingdom for misfits and demi-humans. At the end of it, transforming into a monster and being free is a daydream fantasy, and the reality of it is that Laios does belong in the world as he is, and does receive and give out love.

If you enjoyed this you’ll probably like some of my other Laios analysis! Here’s an analysis of his succubus and what it says about his relationships with other humans. And here’s an analysis about his relationship with Shuro from his perspective.

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #laios touden #character analysis #i guess #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #spoilers #autistic laios touden #asd #autism representation #meta #draft so old it uses the old Tumblr post editor #it would be much better if i could put them side to side rip #i also wanna do an analysis trying to pin down his level of social awareness #i love that the monster story epic saga about misfits and your place in the world on an ecosystem level is just sooo autistic so perfect #this post has a weird structure but hopefully it can showcase some things and make ppl understand and others relate! I know we're out there #hiii therians how we feeling today. Brain chemistry is weird but ours is just wired different not broken #feeling self-conscious bc even with studies this is the equivalent of going 'trust me bro I get it' which usually doesn't go well with us #Humanity is beautiful <3333 Humans are social animals broski love yourself!!!

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bumblingbabooshka · 10 months

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Workforce B7 Au

B'Elanna and Seven start living together out of concern for B'Elanna living by herself so far along in her pregnancy (B'Elanna initially takes this as an insult, that Seven doesn't think she's a good mother because Seven does not phrase her concerns well but she is genuinely concerned about B'Elanna and her child.) They both mutually agree that if they find a romantic partner they'll just live separately again but as the months wear on they realize they've become more and more attatched to each other, their feelings taking a romantic turn which frightens them both. B'Elanna still goes to that diner place Tom works at and considers them friends. He eventually asks her out and B'Elanna, thinking that she's probably being a burden to Seven and confused by her feelings towards the other woman, accepts though she doesn't have romantic feelings for Tom. Seven is upset by this though she knows she shouldn't be so she tries not to express it but eventually they have an argument which ends in them both admitting that they like each other romantically. They hesitantly kiss, hold hands, ask if they want to really commit to this...yes. The answer is yes. Then strange men in a ship tell them they're members of an organization called Starfleet or whatever?? Then they're taken to sickbay and their old memories return. This leads to both of them having private freak outs about the fact that they felt so strongly attracted to each other and so...happy, with one another when all of the more complicating aspects of their relationship weren't an issue. This is a double edged sword for B'Elanna specifically because without all the history between them she truly didn't feel any attraction towards Tom and if she's being honest with herself - when was the last time she did...? Dun dun dun! You know this episode ends with B'Elanna staring out a window or something, wondering about what she should do...what it all means....

#B'Elanna #Seven of Nine #B7 #B'Elanna Torres #Seven of Nine: (trying to be helpful) -something condescending-#B'Elanna: ??????#<- It's that on loop for awhile until they learn to communicate better and Seven actually DOES try to understand B'Elanna #She doesn't know about being borg so she just thinks she has a lot of trouble with talking to people and B'Elanna's like 'hey it's not like #I'm a whiz at it' (That's very clear to me.) Hey! Oh - you're joking? (...Half joking.) Well it wasn't half bad then~#<- the start of their good times era where they become much closer #B'Elanna post this memory regain able to remember how nice it was to be with Seven which directly contrasts her relationship with Tom which #mainly makes her anxious and self conscious...remembering the long talks with Seven whenthey were supposed to be sleeping...remembering #Seven coming home with like ten different baby things because she read that they were the best on the market #B'Elanna 'joking' that she's just being crazy...typical her! when she's upset and Seven telling her that she isn't crazy - she #trusts that there's a REASON B'Elanna. Tell her what it is. (pause) please tell her what it is.#a month later B'Elanna 'jokes' that she's just being crazy...typical her! to Tom and Tom smiles and says he kinda signed up for crazy when #they got married didn't he? <- B'Elanna's heart breaks a little bit but she smiles thinly and laughs without vigor #st voyager #st voyager art #bea art tag

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suddencolds · 2 months

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i've def heard of people having to be in the right headspace to write like, v thirsty/self-indulgent snz content, but somehow i find it equally difficult to be in the right headspace to write angst

#snz thirst is more predictable bc it's just #letting my d pilot the plane instead of my head and blinking down to see that i've written 2 thousand words #angst is not like a snz-specific device so you'd think it'd be easier to utilize #but specifically in the context of h/c it feels like #close to the same level of self-indulgent for me... only i feel so much more self-conscious when i'm writing it. i think it's also because #i feel like people more easily excuse gratuitous snz as like 'omg the author really went for it 🥵 this is hot' whereas for angst the #equivalent of 'overdoing it' or being too indulgent is like... okay this is ooc. these characters are not arguing in a way that feels #believable. it feels like they are being flattened or misconstrued just for the sake of the angst 🙁#what i'm trying to say is #being perceived as overindulgent in the angst sense scares me so much more than being perceived as overindulgent in the snz sense #when i get really into writing angst i'm like >:) omg i live for dramatic tension and misunderstandings. please argue MORE #but when i get to editing it i'm like 😰😰 what was i thinking. would they really say that... would they really cry here...#which feels terrifying in a different way - the not-knowing if what i've been writing will be received as i intend it or if it'll be seen #as too emotionally trite / unbelievable #does that make sense... i am operating on 4h of sleep right now which is probably #why this post exists haha. but anyways

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spearxwind · 1 year

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snaps wide awake out of completely nowhere thinking “are my ocs too weird”

#USUALLY NOT A PROBLEM i think its just late and i am feeling the effects #but i went on like. a trip into my art files (never a good idea) and i got self conscious for no reason #literally its so silly i was like. fuck are my CD characters too nonhuman looking. i keep thinking theyre v humanoid but then i draw them #and taking into account the biology and stuff its like. wow they are just fucking beasts. down to habits and posture and customs #and now im like. fuck did i make them TOO like that #and that for some reason led me to look at art of talas and be like. god did i make him too weird. is his mask weird.#YOU KNOW.... TALAS. WHO IS MY SECOND FAVE. AND THE MASK THAT HAS BEEN THERE SINCE THE BEGINNING #i may be losing my fucking mind #it could also be that my brain is going ALART !!! you need to tweak the reference again!!!!! the art is not at prime capacity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#god am i making sense #im so fucking normal fr. i just need CD to be the best ever and get a good grade in it which is both normal to want and possible to achieve #thunderclap #oughghg sorry for the completely insane post i just needed to scream at a cloud for one second thank u for ur time

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skeletalheartattack · 8 months

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"BLJ" actually stands for Biden Long Jump <isnt sure if youre aware of mario 64 speedrunning technique backwards long jump

and if joe biden was put into half life 2 he'd do an "ABH", as in: Accelerated Biden Hop

#ask #catboygirljoker #oh of coarse i know the mario speedrun tech #i was doing that shit when i was like 6 #i cant remember how we learned it but id have to imagine either before or after learning about gamewinners dot com #we used that site for like. everything. especially when we were trying to find blue coins in mario sunshine #speaking of mario. im reminded recently of something didyouknowgaming brought up in a mario 64 video #specifically that the 1-up hidden in whomps fortress's tower behind the breakable wall #and they were like ''oh this was found recently'' (as of the posting of that video) but me and my family knew about it when i was a kid #i couldnt tell you how we knew but. i remember breaking open the wall as a kid through my foggy memory #also as for hl2. recently been doing another run on my new computer.#specifically another gravity gun only run. this time on hard mode just to make sure its possible for me to humanly do #which. i got past the part i thought wouldve been an insane roadblock for me to get past #i have a lot of fun doing the challenge. this is like my 3rd or 4th time doing it.#granted the first few times i did it. it was more me trying to figure out the least ammount of weapons to finish the game.#which my goals with the first few times was like... me just playing through relatively normally without too much speedrun tech #which mainly avoided doing prop jumping. only because i thought it wouldve been much harder than it truely is.#i am a little sad that if i do happen to stream my go-through of the run that it may not be as magical to watch with me knowing what to do #i dont know if id feel confident in streaming at any point in the future. im hugely self conscious #but anyway thank you for your biden tech!!! :)

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leofrith · 1 year

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perhaps nothing makes me want to crawl out of my skin more than trying to write while someone is looking over my shoulder. even if they're just standing in my general vicinity and not actively reading over my shoulder i haaaate ittttt. look away do not perceive my mental process or i will scream!!!!!!

#i'm trying to write an obituary which I've never done before and my mom is vacumming right behind me GO AWAY!!!!!#idk why im so sensitive about this but it makes me so uncomfortable #just dont look at me!!!!!!!#i think it's a knee jerk reaction to years of my parents making snide little patronizing comments that they think are harmless #but actually just make me feel self conscious about literally everything i do or anything i'm passionate about #like sorry nobody in our family ever talks about their feelings about anything ever but i'm trying to be better #ky posts text

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shoechoe · 6 days

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I only lurked on the Internet for a long time and still do not post on most websites I visit but it really is nice to have a place where I can talk about things like animated shows and music and other assorted interests without being judged

#personal #i will go on and on and on about the things i like and IRL it makes people sick of me #especially because my friends when i was younger were mean about my interests #i remember one time (i was 13) i was hanging out w/ my friends and we were watching shows so i put on invader zim #and then in the middle they said ''turn it off this show is so stupid'' and the rest of the night they watched superstore #i had to uh... resist the urge to run and jump out the window the rest of the time #people including my parents would make fun of the music i liked since i was like 11 #it would get to the point where i would snatch my headphones out of people's hands and obsessively clear every tab so they wouldn't see it #i would also get made fun of because i was bad at drawing (by my own parents too) and was kind of awkward in general #it made me very self conscious about so many aspects of myself i really wasn't happy #i think i am only starting to get a little better about it #and i'll be honest i'm not innocent when it comes to making fun of people for harmless interests too. the behavior is contagious i think #i try not to do it now i'm not proud of it #not to be too incredibly vent-y. but i really like feeling more comfortable talking about things i enjoy somewhere #i have found more friends that have some similar interests to me now and old friends have apologized and gotten less harsh #which helps. but also posting paragraphs on the internet about random shit helps too

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gibbearish · 2 months

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btw i just wanna say if ur a long term follower but we're not mutuals it 100% isnt a personal thing, i do love and cherish you just as much and have probably checked out your blog multiple times and we just. didnt have enough overlapping interests for me not to have to filter the tags for basically everything you post about to keep my dash from being 99% things i scroll past jsbfjsbfkdb

#I've never rlly engaged with the idea of mutuals the same as other people i don't think #like i think to most people its the social media version of like. best friends? which is also a concept I've never engaged with #normally so. lol #but yeah i check out new followers and ppl who show up in my notes a lot and if im like hm i dont like this person #then i just block them #so if i didnt follow you back it isnt that i didnt like you i just. already follow i think like 700 blogs JEBFKSBFKSBFKDN #actually i should go clean those out again its been a while since the last time #origibberish #esp the ppl i feel like might have post notifs turned on for me #some of u like new posts too quickly too often to just happen to be refreshing your dash at the right time 🤔🔎#jahfkwhfjdb thats /lh dw and i hope doesnt make anyone self conscious #i always have a thing where in like 'oh i cant like this post it was made less than a minute ago thatd be weird'#and then theres me getting likes right after posting a thing going !!!!😃👉 FRIEND #its rambling hours again ig lads JEBFKSBFMDN

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designernishiki · 10 months

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shout out to my poor unfortunate mother having to listen to me record and re-record rouge of love on the piano 3000 times because we live in a small house and i can’t find my usb drive to record via midi instead and use headphones right now

#you WILL hear rouge of love a billion times. it is not a choice #also machinegun kiss but what else is new #I recorded the backtrack for machinegun kiss not actually for a piano melody on top of it it’s meant for singing over technically #but. still works. so i recorded it anyway #ironically i doubt I’ll post anything right now though cause realistically it will bother me if I don’t record via midi instead so I can go #in and clean stuff up in post on my computer and whatnot #and the quality is just. infinitely better when exporting midi files instead of just recording me playing via earbud mic #you don’t have to hear my fingers on the keys and shit or any background noise At All #it’s satisfying………gotta find a fuckin flashdrive man #as for machinegun kiss. I actually am pretty okay with one of my lq piano/vocal cover recordings but. im way too self conscious to post that #lmao. maybe I’ll share it with someone. one day.#I do like hearing my own voice though simply cause it’s nice to be reminded how much my voice has lowered over the span of almost 2 #years on t……I have a weirdly similar vocal range to kiryu’s right now which is. something #like I don’t even have to transpose machinegun kiss into another key. kiryu’s is perfectly fine #adachi’s is slightly higher than is comfortable for me (id have to more or less belt the chorus and yeah I could technically but. it’s #exhausting and I have less vocal control. which I need a lot of. becuase i already put a lot of effort into controlling my voice due to t #making it not nearly as malleable and effortless as it used to be haaaaah)#kiryu’s (and kuroda’s by association I assume) vocal range is pretty small and most of his songs are within a small range of keys. he rarely #truly belts and rarely does higher adlibs or anything like that.#so for me- since my vocal range as shrunk significantly on t- his songs/song keys are convenient #but yeah #anyway #no one asked #rambling

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yuukei-yikes · 1 year

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i just think everyone should be in love with takane because she’s so kind and awesome and it drives me crazy that no one ever recognizes it except for haruka which is why he’s the only one who she loves back <3 srry for going crazy abt it it’s In My Brain

#ONE SIDED AYATAKA AND SHINTAKA DRIVE ME SO CRAZY. ITS SO GOOD (HITS WALL)#sorry for being so insistent abt Kagepro Being Meta And Everyone Has A Role. BUIT #haruka and takane are undeniably the love story.#LIKE IT'S WRITTEN. SHINTARO&AYANO(AND MARY) BEING THE ONLY CONSCIOUS ONES ABT HOW THEYRE IN A STORY #AND THEY KNOW IT... THEY KNOW HARUKA AND TAKANE ARE ENDING UP TOGETHER BECAUSE THATS. HOW. THE STORY WORKS.#theyre the tragic love story that finds its happy ending they make sense. BUT IT STILL HURTS...#even if takane loved them both back which she could im not saying she couldnt. they will ALWAYS be second to haruka #ALWAYS. always.#SO IT CANT WORK.. BECAUSE THEYD ASK SOMETHING IMPOSSIBLE OF HER... THEY COULD NEVER COMPETE WITH HARUKA. THEYD HAVE TO BE OK W BEING SECOND.#and they just wouldnt be. shintaro is too self centered and his history with takane wouldnt allow him to be ok with being second #and ayanos been putting herself in the backburner for so long she also cant afford to keep dismissing herself that way.#she could be ok with being second. but doesnt WANT to.#haruka will always go first she will always love him more HE IS the love of her life THATS HOW IT IS #haruka panicking through it all sorry for having such a hot girlfriend im so fucking sorry #sorry im fucking normal SORRY.#kagevinnie #headcanons #this is in ref to the art i posted last night btw lol

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minarcana · 1 year

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i am allowed to be self indulgent I Think. new years.

#mun draws #see i normally feel v self conscious if i post/rb my own ship art to my rp blogs bc im like #i dont want to make people feel as if im gonna forceship :pensive:#but also dez can have a little treat bc i was doodling this all day i can post it #anywyas speaking of forceship i still write uri with a onesided crush on than he Doesnt Know is a crush until like. porbably mid shb.#than is living his life unaware or w/e any than writer w me would want i just like afflicting uri with debuffs #debuff (Looking)#and it strikes me as absolutely the kind of dynamic where its like #[uri voice] alas too bad i have realized i have affection for my good friend thancred but i am not his type. we are holding hands and #raising a daughter. as bros. platonically. normal coworker activity. we are kissng. im sure he intends only cameraderie. if only.#SDFVDSFGSGSR #i am weak for urithan that is my life smh @ me #this isnt related but a notif popped up on my airdrop asking if i want to send this image to some random neighbours iphone and im like #happy 2023 have a gay anime elf neighbour :) (i wont) (but im tempted)#URIANGER | yester with thine eyes; morrow with thine hands #THANCRED & URIANGER | i touched your hand which has never slept

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kyouka-supremacy · 1 year

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Hi, feel free to ignore this but do you by any chance have recommendations for sskk blogs I could follow? I miss having my sons on my dash 🥺

I honestly don't, I'm so sorry 😭😭 It's hard to find sskk focused blogs in this trying times (← sskk not having interacted in the manga in two years).

I can suggest you follow the sskk and shin soukoku (and akuatsu) tags in case you don't already, so that you can still get sskk content on your dash pretty much regularly. That being said if anyone has a sskk focused blog feel free to use this for self promo!!!!

#To be fair I received an ask making me question if *this* even counts as a sskk blog which. kinda hurt my feelings AKSBRHSKDBEKS #I really shall posting my original posts again.#I just really struggle and feel very self conscious about what I make which kept me from posting them even once I resumed with the queue–#But this was probably the push I needed ahah #sskk #shin soukoku #people asks me stuff

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cryptidm0ths · 1 year

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some rambling on himeru in a pokemon au that maybe gotout of hand so under the cut they go

Kaname gave xx an eevee a few weeks after they had first contacted him, saying something about how cool it would be for them to both raise one and see what the evolve into, metioning seeing who the better trainer was a few times. Kaname ended up evolving his a few weeks later into a vaporeon, claiming it called to him more than the ice type HiMERU was supposed to specialise in, xx still has an eevee that they are unsure what to do with. They kept the eevee around though, it could be useful for a job later on, figuring that they could try and evolve it into a sylveon as its one of the more powerful potential evolutions and they'd had experience taking care of fairy type pokemon with mimikyu. But getting a sylveon is alot of work and they dont really have the time right now. So they just had an eevee.

After the failed revolution they had strongly considered just giving it away, looking at it was to painful, the promise made that they had been "to busy" to fulfill, and they reasoned that the cute little thing didnt belong with the older cooler ice specialist persona of HiMERU, then again did the soble that was handed to them a few days after the incident fit that image either? They still questioned why kaname had so strongly refused to evolve it, at least an intelleon would complement HiMERU better. But with their zoroark that wouldn't be an issue anymore. They could not bring themself to part with the eevee in the end, even if they did not bring it out regularly, the thought of separating from the most tangible sign of their connection to Kaname was inconceivable.

It took a few month for himeru to reveal the rest of their team to crazy:b, an eyebrow was raised at HiMERU's supposed ice specialisation when mimikyu came out but nothing more was said. With time himeru could finally bring themself to look at the eevee, slowly starting to properly take care of it, putting effort into grooming, teaching it to battle and perform, giving it the care and attention they wish they could have given earlier.

It happened one evening, Rinne and Kohaku where playfully arguing about what movie to put on, Niki telling them to not be so loud as they would disturb the neighbors, and himeru was sat on the couch in the middle of all this lazily petting the eevee when they felt the energy gather below their fingertips. And as the ribbon and bows formed infront of their eyes. they sat stun on the sofa. their sylveon's ribbons tapping around xx's face. They brought the sylveon close their chest, burying their face into the soft fur to hide the tears forming in their eyes.

#just sat down a nd wrote words #so #it might not make sense #i just wanted to get out the eevee headcanon and then #mmmm yea #imma post it before gwt too self conscious #have not reread it apart form fixing up the start so it makes more sense #oh going on the in the pokemon universe people have affinities to different types which just makes it easier to bond with those tyoes and #so on #so HiMERU the persona uses ice type kaname uses water types and meru uses ghost types or the priest thought they used ghost types bc they #had a mimikyu as their partner pokemon but really theyre also pretty comfortable with fairy types but the layers of repression are on #e #technically first time writing fanfic so #mmm #yea #moth chitters #if you saw me briefly post it then hide it again no you didnt #<-they got shy and reformated it a little #pkmnstars au

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