#but overall it’s just me chilling

[the-irrelevant-trumpeter]

tumblr is the ideal social media for me because i’m truly just yelling into a void, which means i don’t have to be as worried about what people think. i’m not a part of actual conversations, i’m not (most of the time) creating content to be shared. it’s just me living in my own little world, which is exactly what i need.

#bc like i was thinking about how i’m very different on tumblr compared to discord #and i think it’s because on discord if i message something #it’s kind of… a contribution to a conversation #which is stressful to me #and i don’t really use insta much because when you post stuff #it has much more of a ‘content you’re trying to share’ vibe #which makes me self-conscious of posting #on tumblr? it’s primarily me just typing out my thoughts and sending them into nothingness #occasionally i have some select people reblog or like them #but overall it’s just me chilling #so there’s not that pressure like on others that i actually have to be a part of something or make anything important #and like. i do contribute to conversations on here! #but it’s usually just reblogging someone else’s stuff and rambling in the tags #which in itself is also just. rambling into the void. #idk how to articulate it better but yeah #so anyway if people who know me on both tumblr and discord were wondering why i almost never speak on discord #while i’m rambling on here #it’s because i don’t know how to take part in conversations

[dawnlotus-draws]

A loneliness like morning frost.

#dsmp fanart #dsmp #c!tubbo #c!tubbo fanart #dsmp tubbo #YEAHH drawing my boy again. literally drawing him makes me so happy #gosh the current arc on the brain loop is snowchester and for me personally overall the feeling of loneliness was more pervasive than the #domestic fluff. Both of them were equally important to each other - the loneliness and the love #but between the lore streams I can only imagine what kind of chill that house held. especially those last few months #with cranboo dead - their ghost slowly fading away - ctommy watching ctubbo from afar invisible #I downloaded two Snowchester Zines awhile back - and each of them had Drastically different tones. I LOVED both. #one made me warm and the other cold. The one called Safeguard does an amazing job of depicting the haunting feeling of Snowchester #anyway. ahem. yes I’ve still been drawing and stuff just have not been on tumblr so much. see ya guys next post <3 #dawnsart

[shimamitsu]

it sucks that if stl doesn't get a s2 many anime onlys won't get to experience the shift from (even though engaging and emotional) light hearted slice of life to like... in depth character study that makes you wanna climb walls. if that makes sense

#ofc sukirofa has been a character driven story since the start and ofc we still get chapters like the early ones here and there #but i think the overall vibe definitely changed after the cultural festival arc #and ESPECIALLY after chapter 46 #or is that just my impression bc i've been in the trenches for too long #no i think that now even chapters that are pretty chill hit harder than the early ones lol #arcs like the cultural festival or even makoto's date which came later are like. just a preview of takamatsu's abilities as a storyteller #anyway it's funny that i still see people calling it a romcom. to me it's been a drama for the last 30 chapters. a thriller even #joking #or am i #i need every person who watched the anime and still hasn't read the manga to get into it nowwww #like a lot of people still don't know warm picnic!!!!!!!!! i need to change that.

[photographypunk]

Gotta love that while being in many fandoms and oftentimes want specific scenarios and such story wise apparently fucking Scriddler is that special thing that gets me willing to work on shit

#i mean i have adderall and that been helping me overall but jeaus #all of my ships and the one i am obsessed enough with and its the most toxic mother fuckers ever #winterbaron is top toxic ship #scriddler though pft these mother fuckers would rip eachother apart for a Klondike bar #they are my special little boys #(ie read as fucked up feral and weird) #you can say zemo and buck at least respect each other #most fanfiction of scriddler eddie is abused and used lol #not bad dont hate it but...the few soft one have my heart #two grumpy bastards who are only diffrent in the kind of trauma walls they built #my heart #totally headcannon as these idiots just needed someone as psychotic to make them realize they can be chill with some people #scriddler #edward nygma #jonathan crane #the riddler #dc scarecrow

[rebellum]

The weird thing about the "well trans men have it easier than trans women because if you completely pass and go stealth and are gender conforming then you only experience horrific discrimination in medical care!" Is that, like

You know trans women pass too, right

Like that statement is gender neutral

If any trans person, regardless of assigned gender, passes, then they are safer than any non-passing or visibly gnc person

It's like these people think trans women are doomed to never ever be able to ever pass. And it's like. Do you guys... actually talk? To other trans people? Are you part of a trans community? Like, not just reblogging or retweeting stuff, but a community where you know people's names and speak to them and they know your name and speak to you? Cause it seems like you have never spoken to another trans person before.

#ITS SO WEIRD. ITS SO WEIRD SEEING THE CONTRAST FOR ME IRL VS ONLINE. #luckily i live in a place thats overall really trans friendly to ppl #and my trans communities are accepting and not weirdly transphobic towards any group in particular #so its just weird. to go from irl or my discord conmunities where we are all allies and just chill with eachother #to tumblr where there are even other trans people that are like “actually only trans ppl who were amab are oppressed” #(thereby leaving out ppl who were afab and completely overlooking the experience of anyone intersex) #also. dont get me wrong. pre/non-op trans fems get discriminated etc in healthcare too #but like. its REALLY REALLY REALLY bad for people with vaginas (whether neo or born) #and really really really bad for anyone with a uterus #like. if you can get pregnant. you can get raped and forced to carry the baby to term and the entire time be in extreme medical danger for #being a gnc pregnant person. #like trans ppl with uteri are in more danger than cis women or trans fems when it comes to reproductive healthcare.

[starbuck]

me last semester: i am NOT taking four courses again! no way!

me now: *clown shoes jingling as i go to sign up for my fourth course*

#LISTEN. #this is DIFFERENT #i am looking at the syllabi FIRST this time #and one of them is just an English course which is nothing for me #i eat English courses for breakfast #one week the ONLY assignment is gathering sources and you get 100 points for it like. Bro. #and yeah Chem is gonna be hard but a lot of the assignments are just practice problems #which i’m sure are a pain in the ass - but if i work ahead they should be easy to keep up with???? #and lab is lab. also a pain in the ass but not THAT time-consuming if it’s anything like Bio (which it looks to be) #so like. why NOT also take an introductory Wildlife course? #WHAT is the worst that could happen? #i mean… i probably shouldn’t invite questions like that… #but like. it’s an extra two credits i could be getting NOW instead of busting my ass later! #seems like a good move to me! #and it’s stuff i really wanna know! #plus it’s only 9 credits not the TEN credits i took last semester #it WILL be a huge pain in the ass overall and i am acknowledging that #but i’m kind of willing to deal with that #cuz again - work now and chill later #THAT’S the vibe right there #that’s my final opinion

[mono-socke]

Bonus post for day 25 of Squipril, except it's based on something only me and my best friend will get

#be more chill #the squip #squip #squipril #squipril 2024 #me doing art #sorry for tagging squipril under this #if it bothers someone #just tell me #^this is based on a play we once saw #and i was like #'oh my god that sounds like smth the squip would say' #and the character overall gave squip vibes #so now i still joke about this #just take it #(translation: a deal is a deal! life is not a game!)

[galwithalibrarycard]

My New Who watchthrough has now reached well into the second half of Series 7, and it’s time for some Opinions:

- I’m gay for Clara Oswald already. Also I crackship her with Amy Pond and I will be reading all the fanfic.

- I don’t care for River Song.

- Okay, no, hear me out, River’s an interesting character and I like Alex Kingston, but I can’t stand how her entire character bit is a constant smug-ass “I know something you don’t know”, and her whole arc felt kind of anticlimactic. Also, I don’t buy for a second that she and Eleven have an actual romantic relationship. I don’t see the spark. It’s all offscreen if it happens at all, so I don’t care. Bringing me to…

- Eleven/Amy/Rory OT3 is the superior ship of the Smith years. Platonic found family or romantic messy awkward polyamory, either way they’re very sweet together and I’d rather watch them than River any day. You can also have asexual Eleven in there, which I can really see why people headcanon. I want to call them “ot3: the power of three” but I feel like the threes sound redundant. Oh whatever, I’m calling it, that’s the ship tag I’m using.

- If it wasn’t for the weird Doctor/River romance, you could totally say that River’s Time Lord DNA makes Amy, Rory, and Eleven ALL her parents, and I’m annoyed that canon makes it more than a little weird to consider that headcanon concept, because it could be cute in another world.

- I like the Ponds a lot, but I have to say: Amy and Rory’s ending felt like such an arbitrary “we’re obligated to make the separation from the Doctor permanent, what monster can we use to do that?” ass-pull of a writing choice. In my head, Amy and Rory’s arc ends with them staying on Earth in 2012 at the end of The Power of Three and enjoying the mundane life they built together. Just say the Doctor sends them postcards and visits offscreen once in a while. The characters don’t have to be walled off from the Doctor forever just because the actors never want to come back to the show. I really like the idea of them choosing their own life outside the TARDIS, almost Martha-style. (Gotta love Martha!)

- It feels cheap to take Amy’s kid away and then not bother to give her an emotional arc dealing with that trauma. Same for Rory, for that matter. I bet someone could write or has written some extremely deep fanfic about that. I don’t know that I want to read it but I want it to exist, if that makes sense. And I would’ve liked to see more of it onscreen.

- The episode with the Gunslinger is OOC garbage, the Doctor would never use a gun, learn the show’s lore, Steve.

- So many little “what straight white man did this???” moments in Moffat era. It’s like going on a nice walk and then every once in a while you find yourself walking through a surprise cloud of gnats. (Not that Davies era was completely blameless either but damn.)

- Eleven’s “retirement” and hopeless disillusionment in The Snowmen feels like a flat, rushed, emotionless retread of the far superior arc of Ten going dark and mad with grief and his god complex across his last four specials. Ten did it better.

- Speaking of which, godDAMN the Tenth Doctor’s send off was good. I miss him forever and I need all his audio dramas and tie-in novels yesterday.

- While we’re on that, I have FEELINGS about Tenrose and Tentoorose and how they’re the same exact ship but also two completely different ships, but I’m still tagging them both as “otp: I believe in her” and no one can stop me. (They could have had a house with a mortgage AND still traveled in the TARDIS on weekends, I’m just saying.) (They are PEAK ROMANCE and I’m never recovering.)

- Lotta concrit here but that being said, I really do love Eleven, he’s a sweet adorable lil bean. I’m gonna miss him so much too. Can’t believe I only have a handful of his episodes left! There’s so much good stuff in here, truly. Vincent and the Doctor! The Power of Three! 🥹 I also really liked Dinosaurs on a Spaceship, even though the longer you look at it, the more Problems you see. Those are my standouts off the top of my head.

- We are now well into the era of New Who I’ve never seen any of and know basically nothing about, so no spoilers please!

- I’ve also never seen any of Classic Who, so be aware of that. There’s a lot I don’t know.

- (I already do kind of pre-ship Twelve and River in a totally superficial way, just because, to quote Bones, “they are the exact same level of hotness.” I just think they’d look good together, and sometimes I’m basic like that. I know she has an episode with him, that’s the only thing I know about that era, so we’ll see.)

I’m all-in on this fandom now, for real. And I still have so much to catch up on! So, is it too much of a line to say Allons-y? (I still like it a little better than Geronimo!) 🤗🪐👽

#my post #gal’s dw opinions #DW opinions tag #so I don’t have to put this in the real tags bc big new-to-me fandom is scary #i love this show ok #please no one get mad at me I’m literally just chilling and having thoughts #also I don’t looooove how much more of a kids show the Eleven era is trying to be #there’s a difference between a family show and a kids show and sometimes they lean too far to the kid show direction for my taste #and on that note it’s late and I’m going to bed goodnight! #i feel like this comes off as a really negative post but it is not meant that way #i still finish most episodes feeling overall happy

[munamania]

having a moment. it's like. something else to have someone be so genuine and openly interested and swoony im not um. very easily accustomed to this yk it's like cognitive dissonance unfortunately. as much as i want to be with it

#and im trying! #and ive communicated like an adult that i have some things i need to work on #but it's truly............. waugh. #also guys. um. big moment for me! something i am trying so hard to be chill about #had my first lil kiss. in a long time. and i was so nervous all day and there were so many moments where i meant to just go for it and ask #like one time i set myself up so perfectly it could have been cute. and i literally said. Give me one second im short circuiting. and #walked away into the kitchen. like when i say losergirl #um. yeah. i dropped that ball several times. AND when i so super casually suggested a lil gn kiss #i literally backed up cause they leaned in to the left and i was like Omg and they were once again so chill #like ok you kiss me however you want. i literally like. had to step back do a full 360 and then went for it #and got soooo nervous and jumpy that i stepped away after like one second with an Okay gn see you #not my hottest moment let's be real.... i guess everyone be so proud of me but like. Ugh. #im hoping and thinking they just found it endearing but i was so geeked and scared lmfao #overall though i cant complain or self obsess they were so sweet and silly and patient #abby talks

[born-to-lose]

Some photos from this week 💕

#first shift at the bar on friday + concert on thursday 💕 #third pic is the face of a girl who had run around mixing longdrinks and juggling shot glasses at rush hour #overall it was chill tho it will be a lot busier next weekend but hey i get to properly prove i'm good for the job!! #and get paid immediately after we close and i already got tipped €15!! even when there weren't really that many customers #but one guy who waved me over to him a couple of times tipped me 50ct or €1 each time he ordered <3 #and i was adopted pretty quickly by everyone!! my colleagues the boss the boss' mom the djs the regulars 🥹🥹 #the dj asked if i have any music requests and when i was like not really he asked what i listen to and i said glam metal #that was when i came back in after my break and a few minutes later he played pour some sugar on me 🥰 #on his way outside he said there's gonna be two or three more songs for me and it was just such a sweet welcome imo #still haven't gotten to write the concert summary but it will follow soon!! including some photos and videos #mutuals from my area or the ones who come to this bar for gigs (you probably recognize it) come visit me if you like #mel talks #my face #the bartender chronicles

[codecicle]

hello codecicle master of the jrwi fandom, answer me this riddle I plea

hypothetically, if someone drew their own version of the Charlie bimbofication art, and this person was pretty good at anatomy and such and as a result the picture looked a little sexy, and also this hypothetical person drew him in a gay little croptop like MaxGGs suggested, and also they gave him eyeshadow...... how do you think this image would be received. I am new to this fandom and I don't know

because I have three theories:

oh my god this person took the Charlie bimbofiction joke that we are all in on seriously and actually put effort into the art! That's so cringe. and kind of weird, why are they so invested?

oh my god this person is sexualising Charlie Slimecicle. Kill them. Find their house and murder them irl

omg cool art I love this!

any thoughts?

hello anon! this is a holy land Far FAR away from twitter so we do not do any killing or finding of houses or murdering here ^_^ if you sexualize him we typically dap you up and compliment the art through saying Normal Things in the notes and falling slightly more in love with him faggot style. if i had to guess how it would be received i would say the response would be OVERWHELMINGLY positive

and if this hypothetical person ends up posting this art, could i, codecicle the alleged master of the jrwi fandom (LMAO?!?!? THANKYOU??), Maybe get a little tag in it so I can see. persnaps. i am not above begging my faggotry must be fueled

#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍 #we have mail :] #lmao overall dude its totally chill dont worry ! you can do whatever you want forever and i really do think people will love it #everyone i know here is so nice and welcoming no matter what #if you post it (AND PLEASSSEEEE POST IT) i would love to be able to see it #and im sure so many others would to :] #some friends of mine included #also i need you to know i ended up reading just the opening line in the notification and laughed so hard i cried #thank you so much that is the funniest title ive ever gotten that might make it into the pinned post for REAL

[opiumvampire]

Ive been in this weird transitional state for like a year at this point and i keep putting off doing fun things and seeing my friends bc i feel like i should be “saving money” or “waiting until things settle down” but that just means i havent seen most of my friends in like. An embarrassingly long time. If you’re my friend and I havent seen you in a year I need you to come into my house and drag me out and take me to get boba

#i want boba #genuinely since like last march ive just been sitting on my haunches ready to run if anyone moves at me weird #ive been looking for a new job (i got one) and trying to move (in may) and people keeping like dying??? on me?? and its making it hard to #focus on things that arent like. survival. #maybe once ive moved and have gotten in the groove of my new job and have had time to relax a little bit i’ll come back from the dead #im good overall like ive very happy and chilling for the most part im just like. every time i go outside and see groups of girls out togethe #im like. i miss being in a group of girls. but my social circle hasnt been set up that way since like high school #girls if anyone wants to be my friend i will be making a google form so you can apply

[preservated]

thoughts about ling’s design from the other night

there are a lot of ak designs that i think could be stronger than they are rn but ling’s case is particular bc once my yansui sibling hype died down it was hard not to be like.. hm... this is a little disappointing actually

oh well

#arknights #draws #ling arknights #dusk arknights #nian arknights #my point here isnt that pants on women = automatically good btw. pants can also be boring. but in ak's case the oversized shirt/booty shorts #/short skirt is immensely overused and kind of drags some designs down especially if youre looking at the designs of the overall cast #i could go on abt fantasy women visual design bc i like talking abt it but like. given the type of game ak is i wont bother #also i prob wouldnt be as critical of her design if her writing was good but intro to wine kinda gave me nothing #despite it being her debut yansui event. so unless she gets more fleshed out appearances in the future she can just chill in my base ig

[theragamuffininitiative]

Me: ya know, I do have some recent interests that none of my mutuals share/are blogging about currently. I should go dig up some good posts for them!

Me: performs one (1) search for one (1) children's/family media

Tumblr: immediately returns one text post, then three fan arts, followed by a string of explicit porn ads.

Me:

Me:

Me:

Me: and this is why we can't have nice things.

#ragamusings #tumblr things #i'm stuck in the content on my dash alone which is great bc i follow awesome peeps but rip sharing new interests #anyways i'm almost finished watching hilda on netflix #i've been listening to so much new music lately too: #the collection and the brevet and the gray havens and christa wells are top faves rn #not that tumblr has ever showed any particular amount of interest in any musicians who are not #ts or mcr tbh #all the other shows i have loved recently have been oldies #combat! and adam 12 and mash primarily #maybe should really look into emergency next #also want to finish x files and band of brothers and fringe one dau #*day - but all of those have been too intense for me to binge lately #(don't ask how i binged through combat idk man it just hit right somehow) #and i'm not super into cartoon shows hilda is special bc yeah it gets weird but it overall is extremely chill and calming vibes #and very very few other cartoons are #like i tried gravity falls and no and i tried over the garden wall and may finish it but still no mostly #am just online to ramble today apparently #but that brief tumblr search was scarring and i am sad

[unproduciblesmackdown]

yes Hell Yes full "archie's all-american" in riverdale clip

#the epic highs of silently clapping & laughing when everyone whips off their shirt & lows of [when the song cuts off it doesn't resume :( ] #thanks riverdale for that classic (epic highs & lows triumphs & defeats of high school football) #joe iconis #enough sampled you can tell it bops along #archie vaguely looks like an amalgam of all the other guys (with fire in their eyes they know the way their whole lives will play out) #i had Just been watching a video where someone was explaining [musical theatre creation songwriting process] to the camera #so the start of this threw me for a loop like. behind the scenes?? #Youtube #oh lol the first time i saw this it was like fr is the other guy julian supposed to be also archie in this broader way #then via the media analysis of how movement is choreographed and the understudy line i see it's like ''yes and i'm mad abt that'' #tfw you have an archienemesis....def get the vibe either julian's been the cool chill buddy all along or the arch nemesis for half the show #i also appreciate how overall i'd say my idea of riverdale is laughing & having a great time being yourself #but then i remember the wisps of the Drama like the murderer gene & the idfk organ harvesting cult & archie drafted to the trenches #although really maybe all that was also always abt laughing living loving have fun be yourself. i mean godspeed to whatever

[bravevolunteer]

werewolf michael has murdered an unspecified amount of people including Multiple Children but he is literally just a baby. like he's just a little guy. he's innocent your honor.

#verse on the brain since i posted it last night oops JHDSFJ #HE'S JUST A LITTLE GUY. committed atrocities and just overall terrifying. i'm holding him in my hands #it's not like he WANTED to alright he can't control the attack dog moment #he is so Issues. i love him. #i have more thoughts but i cannot be coherent rn i just. spins him. #after i finish working i'll probably just chill and i have a busy weekend ahead of me so 🔪plot with me save me #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc #murder tw #child death tw