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sad-writers · 29 days

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Top 10 things to tell my mom when its all over

I just can’t tell her right now because one of us always pays the price for the others feelings

I sometimes still think about when you said you would leave, I sometimes wonder if your suitcase is packed ready to start over in the same way mine is packed ready to go home

I’m disappointed in myself these days. I think you would be too if you had the time to look at me.

I think your husband and I would get along if I just wasn’t his child. Or maybe we still wouldn’t because I have his worst tendencies and I hate them on him just like he hates them on me.

I think you’d be a doctor if I wasn’t around. I think you would've lived your dream, and you would've been proud of yourself.

I’m really lonely here. I would go home but I’m lonely there too.

I’m still trying to impress you. All I try to do is make you feel like I was worth having. Was I worth having? Do you regret me yet?

I wish I could be young again. I would let you go back to a better version of me if I could.

I still cry and wait for you to notice me. I always wait and want for you to knock on my door and ask if I’m okay. I think I’m going to spend the rest of my life wanting a hug from my mommy.

How can I fix this? I’m asking you for that mother daughter advice one last time, how can I fix this? I’m begging for you to tell me one last time, I need to know.

I’m sorry for being born and I’m sorry for being home and I’m sorry for not being home. I’m sorry I get such bad grades in school and that I cry all the time. I'm sorry for needing you so much. I'm sorry you never traveled the world, or got a big house, or built your savings, or became a boy mom like you wanted. I’m sorry that it was me that you got, instead of all those nice things.

#when is over exactly?#the world may never know #maybe when im dying or smth #sigh. anyway #we went too long without a poem tbh #mental breakdown was inbound #nobody worry about me ive just been dramatic lately #top ten #anyways #mommy issues #but not really #i love my mom #and she loves me #and i think thats the best and worst part #i think we both want the other person to be happy #so much so that we'd be unhappy #but then when the others persons unhappy it makes us unhappy and so on and so forth #oh welllllll #it be like that #i think ill totally tell her these things one day #when its over.#if there even is an over #sometimes i worry that this feeling will be with me the rest of my life #idk how to even describe it.#its just this feeling of lacking #of lacking something #but also being lacking #im hoping this will not last forever #but its not that bad anyways #ill just get used to it

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dudedidujust · 2 months

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Au where Damian comes to Gotham with the goal of infiltrating and eventually overthrowing Batman instead of inheriting the mantle. Not much changes from canon except for the fact that he views everything that batman owns as his. That's his future cave and his future batmobile. This also includes his robins. After all everyone knows Batman wouldn't really be Batman without them.

Cue a very bewildered Tim being lectured on his eating habits by a righteous Damian who won't let one of his people take shortcuts with their health.

#Damian looking at the manor: its free real estate #he almost writes off red hood but after finding out his identity he switches to trying to lure him yo his side #jason gets the head of a random thug who was bothering him on his doorstep #damian: im gonna be a better batman than batman. I'll sway all his allies to my side and then there'll be no complaints when i take over #everyone else: he's such a sweet kid. sorta prickly but he has a good heart ❤��#damian wayne #batman #batfam #bruce wayne #tim drake #jason todd #they all thinks he's trying so hard to be accepted into the fam when infact he's trying to get to the top

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puppyeared · 8 months

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learned something about myself lately

#i dont think its even the fact almost all my characters are somewhat beasts in one way or another. i just #really like tails and wish i had one myself #and then my oc designs are a little tame theyre mostly human shaped with animal features. but they always have tails #my eyes have recently been opened to the appeal of long whiplike unicorn tails.. so flowy and curly #something about the tuft at the end being long and swirly just does something for me..#maybe it would make sense to change auggies tail shape so it looks like a meteor. her design is mainly pink with hot pink accent #so it would be cool to use that and orange to make it look like a fire meteor.. maybe itll help complement the blue/green in her design #head full of ocs today so expect a ramble later #if i had a tail i think it would be long with a kink. so it kind of folds over once but not in a curl #when it wags its kind of a swaying motion. i have thought about this a normal amount #yapping

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stoopidstapler · 10 months

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SO IVE BEEN GOIN INSANE SINCE THIS TRAILER DROPPED. JUST. SIMON. SIMON. SIMON.

#simon petrikov #fionna and cake #adventure time #goin insane over him #thers no words to describe how im feelin #i wish i could draw somehtin better but i am goin INSANE #FINALLY. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS. we are being FED.#ALSO?? HOW THEY SHOWED HIM EXACTLY WHEN THE LYRICS GO ''WHATS WRONG WITH ME'. LIKE HELLO???????#ive seen so many good theories PLEASE GOD WRITE FICS I AM BEGGIN I LL DRAW U FANART BLS HEL P #IDK WOT IM GONNA DO FOR A WHOLE MONTH #SOMEONE KNOCK ME OUT TIL THE 31ST. HIBERNATE ME. HELP.#also i need to put it out there the first thing i thought when i saw this trailer was simon is tryina rewrite fionna and cake #which is why their world keeps changin so much? idk idk #ive seen so many different ideas and they are all so good please help #ALSO GOD. THIS MAN IS JUST GOIN THRU IT. AND ITS ONLY BEEN A QUICK TRAILER.#im sorry for so many tags idk where to put these help #maybe i should make an actual blog for like. whatever. n reblogs. help.

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bigfatbreak · 1 month

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Birds of a Feather previous / next

#my art #feralnette au #birds of a feather #long tags #sorry I went apeshit in the tags #LETS SAY IT ALL TOGETHER NOW #I - M - A - G - OOOOOOOOO #its fun drawing marinette's back to Alya and having her appear stout and unstoppable and totally logical #and then you see her face and she's like two seconds from completely snapping and is keeping it together by a thread #as a note just because mari feels very certainly abt smth doesnt mean she's right. feelings can be valid and also irrational #in the throes of grief she decided it was better to be alone than to lose someone again so she started pulling away #and lila made pulling away very very very easy to do #shes also vaguely aware she's being unfair in pinning this on alya which is why she started spinning the drain on cockmoth again #legitimately all the shit that's happened to her wouldn't have been so catastrophic if he was never in the picture and she knows it #but the bitterness of her bestie choosing a fantastic liar over her at the worst of times stiiiiiings #alya's personal timing was bad but lila really took advantage of the fact that marinette had been acting off and weird #she basically clocked marinette as being unstable from SOMETHING and made up a lie about her #knowing she wouldn't have the strength to defend herself #between her social life going tachy bc of lila and losing fu in a way that felt like personhood death marinette was really put on the spot #and alya doing her thing of busting in there and assuming her bias is correct was a terrible combo #essentially marinette is highly unstable and alya is just realizing that #busting in and giving her a lecture when she's slightly hysterical and definitely delirious from exhaustion is NOT the way #to show her she's self sabotaging #cuz thats just gonna make her double down on self sabotaging. bc marinette will not accept that she is also a CHIIIIILD

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hezekiahwakely · 4 months

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Really funny that Colin insists that Alice shouldn't give the computers a personality JUST MOMENTS AFTER he claimed that the computers are fucking with him and him specifically due to their hateful and capricious nature

#i mean part of that is just how you feel working in IT i guess #but its funnier that he wants to pretend nothing weird is going on while also expressing his undying hatred for these sentient machines lol #tmagp #tmagp spoilers #tmagp 3 #the magnus protocol #colin becher #also lets not gloss over the jmj error. and the sassy beeps when it refuses to run. you know they are getting salty cooped up in there

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ssalballoon · 6 months

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rot and ruin

this was heavily inspired by thatkorka's lovely fic! please check it out, it's such a good take on Gale's arc :')

#btw astarion is doing the flehmen response in the 4th pic... cat fr #TO CLARIFY ITS THE CAT FLEHMEN RESPONSE... THE HORSE ONE LOOKS SCARY OHMYGOD #i was thinking of the spaced out look cats have with their mouths hanging open when there's a smell they're trying to parse #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #astarion #astarion ancunin #my art #bg3 fanart #bloodweave #please skim over the text im verbose and allergic to making sense #i started this in late october.. i'm never making comics again (lying)#these two are too curious for their own good

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detectivehole · 4 months

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when the beat drops or whatever tf you call it in classical music in Danse Macabre Op.04 Camille Saint-Saëns (1875)

#its literally been my no.1 spotify song of All Time for three fucking years #not of individual years just of All Time in that little spotify ranking page you can look at #mine #you know my head is fucked when i looked up when it was composed and saw the date and though 'damn it's so young' girl no tf it is not #it's over 100 years old. which i. guess is young for such an iconic classical piece but come on

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vacueye · 2 months

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looking through old tf2 stuff again + felt like reuploading some of my favorite (mostly spy) art throughout the years

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s0fter-sin · 23 days

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people are acting like we’re saying creators shouldn’t be paid for their work; they absolutely should. and watcher already is. they have a patreon, they get sponsors, their videos regularly get millions of views which gives them ad revenue, they sell merch; they are getting paid. feeling indignant and disappointed that they’re asking us to pay for content we were already getting for free isn’t entitlement, it’s expected. they wanted to make bigger produced shows and now their budget can’t sustain it, that’s not on the viewer to make up for

#im not going to feel as sorry for the company as iam for an artist working out of their bedroom #they went too big and now expect us to make up for it #its normal to feel slighted by that #im not paying over a hundred dollars a year for a guy to eat food another to walk around a house and a puppet to tell a story #im just not #their shows are entertaining theres no doubt about that but can you really say its worth that fee when we are in a cost of living crisis #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #watcher #watcher tv #shane madej #ryan bergara #steven lim #hey there demons it’s me ya boy #ghoul boys

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imissthembutitwasntadisaster · 8 months

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Donna Noble really got in the TARDIS and on trip number ONE like ONLY the FIRST trip she was like we are going to change history to save a single family because that is how it should work so that is how it does and then on trip number TWO on the SECOND trip she was like we are going to destroy an entire culture of slavery because it is right I don't care if we're two people and then on the THIRD trip she was like I am going to be unbelievably brave to save my home and everyone I love and then on the FOURTH trip she was like no living breathing thinking creature is less than a person and how dare you try to dehumanise someone like that how dare you not give her a name and the list GOES ON this woman NEVER MISSED there goes one of the kindest bravest most constant women you might ever meet and she's a temp from Chiswick

#dw #doctor who #NOT TO DOCTOR WHO POST ON MAIN BUT SOMETIMES I LOVE HER SO MUCH #doctor who is at its best when it doesn't really try to make its companions like cool or special I think #beyond humanity #which is why martha is my favourite because she didn't even get bad wolf or timelord dna or anything #she was just brave over and over and over again and she walked the earth with it #and donna also I adore because she was just good. she could have been anyone. she happened to be in the right place at the right time.#she was anyone.#and she was the best of us

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bixels · 4 days

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Scary Sunset.

I'm concepting things way outta order in this story, but I'm sure you can piece things together. Context is for a storybeat where, after defeating and capturing Adagio (thus having all three sirens in her possession), Sunset enacts her revenge plot to release the sirens on Canterlot as Thea discovers she's been manipulated. In a confrontation, the two scuffle and fight over the siren orbs while Sunset struggles with her conflicting wants and emotions.

#mlp #sunset shimmer #twilight sparkle #twiset #the orbs are the glass balls sunset carries on her back btw its in her cast line up art #deep down sunset hates thea. she was named “twilight” by celestia. the time of day succeeding sunset. she was always her replacement #but at this point in the story sunset's also fallen for thea. so it's also a conflict of wills in sunset. love or hatred.#hence the “don't make me do this” language. she's rationalizing her hatred and violence as thea forcing her hand and getting in her way #when in reality she doesn't need to do any of this. it's her last stand and outburst to cling to a life of revenge that she's grown too #fond of. because she knows thea has the power to change that and disrupt her identity as a pathetic victim who fell from glory #and that's scary. thea's a very scary thing to sunset because suddenly sunset wants something and to be someone new.#she suddenly wants to change. to be better for someone else. and she never thought or believed that could be an option for her #anyways toxic yuri yayyy #my art #the grand galloping 20s #character design #i hope i got across the pained conflicted emotions in sunset's face tho i belabored over them these past 3 days #i hope a look of anger and dissonance and guilt and “oh god i don't really wanna hurt you please just obey me” while trying to intimidate #is readable. if so it's all in the eyebrows babey

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ribbittrobbit · 1 month

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Ruvina, goddess of winter and sorrow

#ruvina #d20 fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #dimension 20 #fhjy #fantasy high #fhjy spoilers #d20 fhjy #lucy frostblade #d20 fanart #yeah so im spinning in circles in my mind like gorgug when he was losing it over mango soda #ribbittrobbit #completely normal about the cosmology of fantasy high #my ipad says i worked on this & ankarna for 12 hours #ice is hard to draw so its just little lines now lol #now i need to go do actual work instead lol

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hedgehog-moss · 7 months

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The farmer I buy hay (and some firewood) from hasn't had time for deliveries yet, and he texted me yesterday to ask what I needed most urgently, hay or wood. Selflessly, I said hay.