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mbti-notes · 21 days

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Hi! I came across this post of yours /post/179222467392/you-once-said-that-you-are-not-a-religios-person and i was wondering what the things are in Buddhist philosophy that u dont agree with? And also how did u manage to tap into the oneness belief? I heard ppl often get there thru ego death by using meditation or psychedelic drugs. Lately I have been into this topic and into getting into that oneness belief and you seem to know a great deal about philosophy!

If you're new here, philosophy is one of my majors. I learned religious philosophy as part of my studies in the history of human thought, so people sometimes ask me about these topics.

- To be clear, I am sympathetic to Buddhist beliefs and I think the religion has a lot to offer people. Buddhist philosophy underwent a lot of change over the centuries as the religion spread through very different cultures. When you dive deep into the scriptures, you'll find some truly wild ideas about multiverses and supernatural beings. It's hard to get on board with those ideas if you are a rational and scientifically minded person.

At this point, there are several different branches of Buddhism that sometimes hold very contradictory beliefs, yet they all still call themselves "Buddhist" (contrast this with Abrahamic religions that splintered three ways). Such contradictions are possible because Buddhist beliefs are almost designed to be impervious to critique. On one hand, this allows for great diversity of thought. On the other hand, it can make the whole thing seem nonsensical.

For example, I don't agree with how Buddhists conceptualize and characterize the human ego. However, as soon as I raise those objections to these Buddhists over here, some Buddhists over there will argue that there are different levels of understanding and many different ways of looking at the ego depending on how far you've gotten in your Buddhist practice. They simultaneously accept and dismiss my objections. Thus, if you want to be Buddhist, you basically have to accept this sort of incoherence and perhaps dismiss it as illusory or the result of small-mindedness.

At the end of the day, whether I agree or disagree with the beliefs is inconsequential, because no objection is really real or pointing to anything permanent. But when all your thoughts and feelings and behaviors can easily be dismissed as unreal, what happens to your life? Whether or not your life is objectively real, it still seems real to you and you have to live it, and the suffering you experience feels real. Can you dismiss it as just ephemera? There has always been an internal debate in the religion about whether one should be apart from or a part of the material world, and I don't think this kind of ambiguity helps people who are already struggling psychologically.

- I guess you could say I came to the belief in oneness first through intuition, then through science, then through philosophy. I think I mentioned before that, as a child, I genuinely believed that everything in the universe was imbued with some form of consciousness (aka panpsychism). It's not an uncommon belief in children because the human mind has a tendency toward anthropomorphism. For example, I would wonder whether stepping on the sidewalk was hurting it. People had to reassure me that if the sidewalk had feelings, its feelings worked differently than human feelings, otherwise, the sidewalk would object in the same way I would to getting stepped on.

Most people grow up and forget about these silly notions, but I didn't. Psychologists say that normal infant development starts at oneness and evolves into individuality. I feel like the world tried to convince me that I'm this separate, discrete, individual being, but I just couldn't believe it. Separation has always felt to me like a very wrong way to be. Who is right, the psychologists or me? I don't know. Maybe a Buddhist would say we're both right and we're both wrong and that neither is seeing the bigger picture.

To me, it seems as though I was born believing in panpsychism because I don't remember a time when I didn't believe it, so there is no actual "origin story" or explanation as to how I came to the belief. If I am capable of consciousness, why wouldn't it be possible that everything else is as well? If I am capable of being conscious of others, shouldn't there be something out there conscious of me? And if consciousness exists everywhere in everything, isn't reality fundamentally relational? In order for these beliefs to stand, I had to possess the underlying belief that everything in the universe is somehow interconnected despite superficial appearances.

Then, I studied science in school and learned that all matter in the universe is made up of the same constituent elements. We are all stardust. At the atomic and quantum level, the boundaries we perceive between objects are difficult to define. As an adult, I studied philosophy and was introduced to the full gamut of human thought and learned that oneness was a key concept in many Eastern religions. Actually, several influential thinkers in the West (such as Jung) were heavily influenced by Eastern philosophy. Philosophical training helped me sharpen and refine my spiritual ideas.

- Yes, some people come to a belief in oneness through psychedelic drugs. Presumably (according to the limited research that has been done so far), these drugs help to "open up the mind" by restructuring it in such a way that expands one's perspective beyond one's narrow everyday ego concerns. Some people call this "ego death", but I don't like that term. As I mentioned above, I don't agree with Buddhist conceptions of the ego, which some secular Buddhists blithely reduce to "ego death = enlightenment". If you read my previous posts on this topic, you'll see why. I don't believe the ego is a bad thing or an enemy to be vanquished. I've seen how aspiring to ego death can go terribly wrong for people. And I've been exposed to different perspectives on ego and believe there are better ideas out there.

#philosophy #religion #buddhism #oneness #ego death #panpsychism #drugs #personal #ask

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ri-kin · 10 months

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Chapter 1: The Backstory

PAIRING:Witch!Reader x Rival!Yeosang

GENRE:Enemies to lovers, Academic rivals (?),yeosang is a douche.

WC: 1k

WARNINGS: reader has a relatively bad relationship with her parent cud of her grades

REQUESTED: nope (please request !!!!!)

a/n: my first fic EEEEKK! I hope you like it and dont be too hard on me since english isn't my first, lowercase intended, anyways enjoy !!! (also brief mention of hyunjin in the beginning )

You and yeosang go way back and not in that reminiscent, friendly way. You both attended the same school " Littlewood Academy of Witchcraft and Wizardry" grades 1 through 12. The school was not at all modest.It was a castle , one you'd see straight out of a fantasy story. The students though.... not so much. They were split up into extremely close-knit cliques,only having about 5-8 people each.You were apart of the smart kids clique , However yeosang was apart of the "Cool kid clique", so you never interacted much ,but when you did, all hell broke loose.

" Sup y/n " said Yeosang as he leaned forward onto your desk after class.

"dont talk to me , people might think we're friends" you replied , eyes still on the homework you were doing.

"Hey why do you hate me so much ? We barely ever interact?" Yeosang commented, eyebrows furrowed in confusion.

"Well," you began as you closed the book you were solving in " first you are an insufferable human being that can't function without at least two girls on either shoulder , a playboy , and a borderline bully. " you sighed as you opened your mouth to speak again " Second, you pay people to do your homework , and third you're just a douche bag over all" you ended.

"You need more? cus i got all day." you added making Yeosang's lips turn into a thin line.

"no, thanks" he uttered.

"good" you said as you got up from your seat to your next class , a smirk plastered across your face. You were especially excited today since it was the last lesson you'd attend at this god forsaken school, then you'd finally become a witch.

As you were walking a glimpse of a tall man with long black hair caught your eye.

Hwang HyunJin.

The school sweetheart. Everyone and their mom had a big crush on him. The way his hair covers his eyes and his long legs striding at an unusually fast pace .You too had a crush on hyunjin,But you knew he was way out of your league. Not necessarily because you were ugly ; You were actually somewhat pretty ,But he was part of the "cool kid clique" and ,as if it wasn't bad enough , he was Yeosang's friend. God he is so drea-

OUCH!

Your thoughts were interrupted by a stinging pain on your forehead. You looked up to see what you hit. You looked up and saw a pair of eyes. A little too familiar for you liking. Oh god. no no no no.

You had just hit your head on Yeosang's chest.

"Sorry" you murmured, walking away fast enough to escape from the severely embarrassing situation , but slow enough for Yeosang to catch a glimpse of your face.

" God, is she clumsy " He said laughing to himself.

＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚　　˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊. ＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚　　˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚　　˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊

You let out a sigh of relief as you heard the last bell ring ,meaning you were done with your schooling for life now. You heard the announcement speaker turn on and a familiar voice started speaking.

" Congratulations grade 12 students on graduating and I hope your dreams take you to the corners of the earth, to the highest of your hopes, and to the most special places your heart has ever known.Behind you, all your memories. Ahead of you, all your dreams. Within you, all you need. Wishing you the best graduation.The next chapter gets really good. Congrats, grad! Don't forget ,your graduation ceremony will be held tonight , best of luck to you all. Special congratulations to this year's co-valedictorians , Kang Yeosang and Y/l/n Y/N . Officially Signing off , this was principal Conrad . Congratulations graduates ! "

Not again.

You hated being tied with anyone let alone tied with Yeosang. You were raging with fury at how ridiculous this scenario is. Yeosang's dad bribed the principal so that his son could be valedictorian. Meanwhile , You worked your butt off this year and all the years before and he just goes and bribes the principal ?

"God, life's unfair." you thought out loud, heading to your locker to clean it out.

"i know right."Your best friend ,yunjin, mumbled beside you "that's why i'm glad to be graduating " yunjin said as she sighed.

You both said your goodbyes to each other and you rushed to the front of the school , since your mom was picking you up .

＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚　　˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊. ＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚　　˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚　　˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊

The trip back to school was full of silence as you scrolled mindlessly through your phone.

Once your mom parked the car you hurried to the front door and opened it , heading towards your room before anyone could ask you how your day went.

you closed the door and plopped onto your bed , deciding to call it a night early ,since you had too much on your mind and so little energy to think. You closed your eyes and drifted off to sleep , Knowing that tomorrow, all this suffering would end and you'd officially have to get a real job.

＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚　　˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊. ＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚　　˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚　　˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊

A/N: Hi everyone! hope you enjoyed this and a new chapter will (hopefully) be released within 4 weeks ! Also, this took me multiple days to write and it took you minutes to read so please remember to reblog this, since tumblr works on a system of reblogs ,not likes !!!

ily and stay safe everyone! make sure to keep hydrated and eat all your meals , stay healthy , BYE !!

Taglist (for this series only , comment if you wanna be added): @nstarqueen

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stargazerlily7210 · 4 months

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So, I might've picked up on something?

About who the mystery woman/Ruby's bio mom might be?

More accuratly, I have two ideas.

Firstly, let me just say, I dont think the person we see leaving baby Ruby at the church is her bio mother. Something like that just seems too easy for an RTD/ Doctor Who storyline. Both of these theories are working with that assumption.

So! Who is she?

When I first watched it, I'd been willing to bet (like, $15, max) that the cloaked woman who brought her to the church's doorstep is future (maybe season finale?) Ruby. IDK where the baby came from (maybe another point in history? Maybe another human-colonized planet?), but having the mystery woman in the snow being future Ruby is such a RTD type of full circle moment, it seemed like almost a given to me. And I still think it's a real possibility.

Until I paid closer attention during my re-watch, and thought I recognized something. Specifically the woman's clothes/shoes...

Now, bear with me! I know it's a big stretch. Both narratively and logically. These two pics of Amy are from set, not the show, so the coloring is obviously gonna be different. And the mystery woman is in very dim, warm toned lighting. But:

These pics (while they're really poor quality) ARE both from the episodes themselves.

The one of the mystery woman walking away, while you can barely see anything, was what first caught my attention. The skirt seems to be an odd length for a snowy winter night. And the lighter/brighter colored tights/stockings feels like an odd choice for someone in an otherwise all black outfit, trying not be seen, unless the tights and boots combo is meant to be our visual clue to her identity (whether we're meant to recognize it now or later on).

I have no clue how or why it would be Amy Pond, so I don't REALLY think that's it. But let's not forget, the last pic isn't even really Amy. It's the Teselecta. A time traveling, shape-shifting robot/ship thing with a penchant for bending the rules around interfering with history. And if you watch the long shot of the mystery woman walking away, her gate seems...off. robotic almost.

But if that's still too far-fetched for you, and you think I'm just reading waaay too much into the, like, bottom eighth of the woman's clothes (yet have managed to come this far w/o scrolling away, thanks, btw), let me just end by tying it back into my first theory, real quick:

Amy's not the only one whose leggings/boots combo could match the mystery woman.

Just a thought.

#doctor who #amy pond #ruby sunday #the church on ruby road #doctor who spoilers #doctor who theories #lily thinks

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bunnycoffeeumcat · 5 months

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post of the fics I read (wangxian) because they're getting v hard to manage, and also for recs if anyone wants them

also like this is gonna be ongoing forever, cause its mainly for *points to self*

Guys dont be like me, and read tags.

*slowly updating*

ALL COMPLETE UNLESS I SPECIFY OTHERWISE

the GOOD ones

impossibility brought to life series A little harmless role-play for stress relief leads to an impossible fantasy becoming reality and a dream come true that Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian could never have anticipated. 163k

(dreaming of) being human “Pets are not allowed in the Cloud Recesses.” Lan Wangji stares at the animal in his older brother’s arms. It is his understanding that they went to rescue a group of children, not hunting for...whatever this creature is. Lan Xichen chuckles, strokes the creature’s fur. “He is not a pet, Wangji. He is a person. A Huli Jing.” Lan Xichen moves to take his leave, the door to the jingshi already open when Lan Wangji asks, “What should I call him?” His brother turns back, a few snow flurries catching in his hair and instantly melting. “His name is Wei Ying.” 109k

A Matter of Time After Wei Wuxian's death, Lan Wangji went insane, doing everything in his power to get back his most precious person. Willing to sacrifice every single person in the cultivation world to reclaim his love. 41k

love, in fire and blood In which the Sunshot Campaign ends through an arranged marriage to the Yiling Patriarch, and Lan Wangji suffers the mortifying ordeal of falling in love with his own husband. ft immortal wwx 360k

all i want Wei Ying leaned a little closer. "The conversation we're having right now is about how it turns out I'm a bearer and we weren't careful and I'm not expecting anything from you, but now that you're here you should know that I'm...ah...you know..." "Pregnant," Lan Zhan said mechanically. "Pregnant," Wei Ying agreed. "You knocked me up, Lan Zhan. Sorry." 47k this one is so so good

silver & gold Wandering through a rather busy night market on the boundaries of Gusu after a successful night hunt, Wei Wuxian with his son and nephew chance on a mysterious cultivator who rivals him at talismans. Curious as to the wares she has spread out over her table, he forgets the simple rule - you break it, you buy it. AKA Wei Wuxian gets turned into a child and because it is Wei Wuxian, no one has any idea what to expect. 161k

how to be a heartbreaker “Lan er gege,” Wei Ying sings out an old nickname, his lips curving up into a well-rehearsed smile. It’s adorable, and it’s pretty, and he knows it mesmerises anyone who lays their eyes on him. He has done it a million times—bewitching and convincing men who need to be convinced. He just doesn’t expect to hear the hitch in Lan Zhan’s breath, too, and feel the taller man’s grasp around his wrist tightening. He fell for it. A sickening thought suddenly enters his brain, and Wei Ying wonders if he should be so cruel. “Do you want to find a private space for us, Lan Zhan?” 105k

A Myriad of Blossoms Eight months after surviving the First Siege of Burial Mounds, the Yiling Patriarch, stronger than ever before, asks for Hanguangjun's hand in marriage. To refuse Wei Wuxian is not really an option and Lan Wangji, still recovering from the events of Nightless City, is left learning to live with a man he barely recognises. 56k

Twelve Moons and a Fortnight the one where Wei Wuxian spends the year before his wedding as Yunmeng Jiang's acting sect leader, and the cultivation world's greatest love story finds its happy ending with the help of three juniors, a teenage romance, and one very involved (and exasperated) younger brother. 290k

the scarlet lotus a Scarlet Pimpernel-inspired fix-it featuring Wei Wuxian in disguise, Lan Wangji determined to bring the nefarious Yiling Patriarch to justice, and the hijinks that ensue when you accidentally marry your greatest enemy/love of your life. 137k

MDZS: The Golden Engine In the modern era, immortals Lan Zhan and Wei Wuxian return to Gusu. New evil and old friends + new friends and old evils. 82k read the tags!!!

Canon Divergence / Canon Compliant

Little Death The resentful energy thrums within him as he scans the room, whispering all kinds of unspeakable wishes. It wants blood. It wants life. He does not have to take either in strong measures to stave it off. The itch growing inside him will dissipate if he gives it a little of what it wants. A little blood, a little vitality, as one does in acts performed in a place such a this. A taste, and it will be sated. For now. He is still in control, after all. 28k

inevitable everything The Yiling Laozu demands Lan Wangji's hand in marriage in exchange for his aid in the failing Sunshot Campaign. Or so it seems. Three months earlier, Lan Wangji is rescued from the Xuanwu of Slaughter's cave by a handsome man with a brilliant smile who wields a power he always believed corrupting and uncontrollable as easily as breathing. 193k

When the Words Stop Coming Wei Ying had been openly declaring his love for Lan Zhan ever since they met at The Cloud Recesses. Confused and emotionally constipated, Lan Zhan rejected him, until everything went wrong, until he lost Wei Ying in the end. 13 years later, Wei Ying cannot trust Lan Zhan with his heart. 7k

To Love a Lonely God Lan Wangji wasn't supposed to die, but he did, and the Yiling Patriarch will burn the world to the ground to bring him back. 6k

Post Canon

Far Away You Are Suddenly, it snaps into place. The weary way Lan Zhan has been holding himself is suddenly cast in a new, much more distressing light. Somebody is responsible for it, a real live, horrible, blind, stupid person. The combination of guilt, sadness, and anger that sets in all at once is hard to contain. Lingering wisps of resentment that remain from the night-hunt flock to him, like calling to like. All four boys stare at him with wide eyes. “Wei-qianbei,” Sizhui says. “You look...um…” “Scary,” Zizhen breathes, beaming. “Who has rejected Lan Zhan?” Wei Wuxian asks. Or; during one of his visits to the Cloud Recesses, the juniors strike a blow to Wei Wuxian's certainty that his feelings for Lan Wangji are one-sided. 17k

a kind of emptiness Recovery is complicated. 11k

the absence of hunger “He told me that you have not been eating.” Wei Wuxian chuckles. This is not the appropriate response. 27k

Aus

meet me at friday at seven Wei Ying is a romantic and dreams of meeting the love of his life some day. After a string of bad dates he’s set up with a friend of a friend, and when Wei Ying sees a man across the bar with his gold eyes and white ribbon he’s immediately taken with him—too bad it turns out that’s not actually his date. Lan Zhan, Wei Ying learns, isn’t really into dating, but after he runs into him two more times by coincidence he believes, romance or friendship, he and Lan Zhan are destined to be together. 128k

there's no promised goodbye here Wei Wuxian navigates the trials of living with his ex-boyfriend in apartment 1301. 54k

leading tone The first time you touch someone you're fated to love, you leave a mark on their skin. If they will love you in return, they'll mark you where you touched them. The deeper the color, the deeper the connection. Wei Ying has no marks at all. 32k

我的皇后是農民 | sowing seeds in the cold palace Wei Ying is wed to emperor Lan Wangji in order to save the Gusu Lan empire. But instead of the blissful marriage he was promised, he is spurned and sent to the cold palace—until a chance encounter changes his fate. 84k

The Last Concubine Humiliated and taken as a concubine (but not touched) by Wen Rouhan, Lan Wangji is taken to a deserted area of the Imperial Palace and forgotten there, ignorant of all the political changes happening around him. When the new Emperor, Wei Wuxian, finds him, he has to choose between lying to Lan Wangji about everything that has happened and risking his life. 13k

my memory plays our tune, the same old song Someone moves into the vacant flat adjacent to Lan Wangji. They have a small son who cries himself to sleep every night. Reminded of his own troubles as a child, Lan Wangji takes the music box his mother gifted him and knocks on his new neighbour's door. If the music box was able to help him, there is no reason to believe it won't be able to help another child in distress, right? 15k

Reluctant partner how Meng Yao ended up being Wei Wuxian's birth partner. 31k

Closer Than Eternity In a world where immortals keep to themselves, one of them has decided to let himself be seen. 26k

I'll buy you the moon (I'll buy you two) Wei Wuxian swallows and exhales shakily. Lan Wangji is acting very collected for someone who just spotted a ghost. Shit. If Wei Wuxian survives this, he is going to have to fake his own death again. 28k

Post Mortem Life is a horror movie sometimes. You ignore all the warning signs. You end up standing there in the final scene, covered in blood, contemplating your life choices. Wei Ying is used to that. But it’s harder when you’re in love with your best friend. 28k

take me back to a time So, yeah. There’s enough on Wei Ying’s plate already, meaning it’s not entirely welcome when he comes home and finds a man standing in his bedroom. A man in extravagant white robes, a ribbon tied around his forehead, long hair gathered into a topknot, fist clutching a sword at his side, who asks him, “Where am I?” 143k

other earths and skies Increasingly desperate, Wei Wuxian turns to unconventional means to help the Wens. If one can call trading away a year of his life to live in a secluded estate with a mountain spirit 'unconventional'. Or, the 'east of the sun, west of the moon' one. 53k

how to fall in love with a catfish: a guide by wei wuxian (disaster rat) Wei Wuxian plots to expose a catfish using strategic memes and turtle pictures while wiggling his way out of family dinner. Lan Wangji just wants companions. 54k if the loml could be turned into a fic, it would be this fic

always be closing

During a long overdue divorce and messy custody battle, Wei Ying gets demoted to small business finance. There, he's partnered with a new closer who clearly hates him, until he finds out Lan Zhan is far more verbose—and dare he say flirtatious?—in writing than in speaking. 32k

finally safe (for me to fall) When he meets his first client, Wei Wuxian, he’s fully confident he can gain experience while also keeping details of his personal life from the caring older man. But as time progresses, and his relationship with Wei Wuxian begins to shift, Lan Wangji can’t stop the lines between professional and personal from blurring. 77k

Nothing but your heart

Thirteen years after Wei Ying received no response to his letters about their son, he meets Lan Zhan again. 21k

Smutty filth lol w maybe some plot

to know, to be known series Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian got together, of course. They're still figuring things out. Just gratuitous prn. Sometimes that's all you need.

plant the seed of your love, let it take root Lan Wangji has moved out of the city and back into his mother's old home in the country, inviting his alpha best friend Wei Wuxian to live there too. Platonically! As Friends! Then, the stay-at-home order hits...Then, his heat hits... 37k

at your feet Wei Wuxian brandishes his hand, coquettish like an empress. “Kiss my hand, Hanguang-Jun,” he says 2.6k

crawl on hands and knees until you see the fic where Lan Zhan verbally degrades Wei Ying while fucking him with Bichen, and also loves him very much. 4.3k rip bichen

A Lesson in Patience Just a moment ago Wuxian's dearest husband had walked out to take care of something; he requested that Wuxian wait until he was back to do anything. Of course he chose not to listen. What could he say, Wangji was hot when he got mad. 4.4k

to know that you're mine Lan Wangji immobilizes Wei Wuxian and fucks him all throughout his normal business day as Chief Cultivator, even with others around. 3.9k

The Strength to Hold Him Wei Ying's new golden core has grown stronger. Lan Wangji has some feelings about that. 7.9k

Thorough Investigation Wei Wuxian makes a minor mistake on a talisman he's testing. Or he makes a "micro" mistake. Lan Wangji is happy to help his husband work out the kinks. Kinks. Get it. This summary is a mess sorry. 6k

love like a hand at your throat Wei Ying catches wind of his horny, pregnant mate stuck in a meeting for the day. He intervenes. 3.5k

For Everyone To Hear Lan Zhan fingers Wei Ying under the cover of their dinner table. It leads to bathroom sex and embarrassment. 5.5k

walk my days on a wire To the rest of the tech industry, Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji are former classmates and bitter rivals. But the truth is quite different. During their monthly meet-ups at discreet hotels, they enjoy a very different kind of relationship. One evening, a fantasy spins out of control, forcing them to confront the truth: it's not just sex anymore. They both want something deeper, something serious. 27k

Tonal Vibration

One too many comments of “tag ur porn” on Lan Wangji’s extremely popular Youtube ASMR channel gets him thinking. Wei Wuxian, a middlingly popular camboy, and long-time fan of Hanguang-jun’s ASMR finds the new smutty dirty talk channel and films his reactions to it. 7k (podfic available)

Maybe You're the Reason

Lan Wangji clutches his phone in a tight grip. The dial tone drones a steady rhythm in time with his fluttering heart. Suddenly, the cloth of his shirt feels suffocating.

This is a mistake. He never should have written that number down—not from a flyer promising something so shameful. 67k

The Grandmaster of Dildonic Cultivation

Wei Wuxian invents a new toy. Lan Zhan helps him test it out. 7k

Curse shenanigans

come to my heart On a night hunt, Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji get cursed and stuck in each other's bodies. As you would expect, shenanigans ensue. 29k

and fall to desire After a nighthunt, Wei Wuxian takes a curse meant for an inadequate husband. Lan Wangji happens to be in the wrong (right) place at the wrong (right) time. 14k

beneath six layers of silk While exorcising a haunting, Lan Wangji gets cursed with a brand of honesty, and is forced to speak his every thought out loud. 12k

with such a suffering, such a deadly life Staring down at their hands, Lan Zhan shakes his head. It's a slow, loose shake, so different from his tight movements of just moments ago. Almost like he's drunk. An uncomfortable thought arises at this apparent level of relief. "How...how long have you been in pain?" Wei Wuxian asks. Lan Wangji is so preoccupied on one of his precious, rare nighthunts with Wei Wuxian that he does not feel it when a tiny, quiet curse latches onto him. 7.1k

Linger in the Sun "Tell Lan Zhan that I'm weeping uncontrollably," Wei Wuxian says to the juniors. "Tell him I'm truly pitiful and he needs to do everything I say until I'm well again." Lan Congyi is in the middle of carefully holding his eyelids open to check his pupils, but he still obeys, bless him. "Hanguang-Jun, Senior Wei would like us to tell you that he can't stop crying and he'd like for you to do everything he says until he's better." There's a moment of silence, and then Lan Congyi says to Wei Wuxian, "Hanguang-Jun says he already does everything you tell him." -- Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji find themselves cursed, unable to see or hear each other. They figure things out anyway. 39k

grow “Okay,” Jingyi says, as Sizhui puzzles this out aloud. “Okay! So the demon has been turning its victims into children.” “I think so,” Sizhui says. “To make them easier prey,” Jingyi says. “Yes,” Sizhui says. “So—” Jingyi’s voice cracks here, “this kid is Senior Wei.” Wei Wuxian, still tangled in his own massive robes, blinks politely at them. (Or: Wei Wuxian is cursed on a night-hunt, and the junior quartet rapidly finds themselves in over their heads.) 14k

moonlight caught in mutton fat It wasn’t bone. It was too smooth. It caught the light like something greased. “A curse,” Lan Wangji breathed, because it could only be such. The Twin Jades of Lan get turned to jade. 45k

your hand in mine

A curse brings Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji together—literally. 20k

Others (pov of other characters, humor, other minor ships, etc)

anyway, here's wuji Lan Jingyi comes of age. 18k

Losing My Mind On a drunken dare, Jiang Cheng drinks a potion that allows him to hear other people’s lustful thoughts. It’s just his luck that he’s stuck in close vicinity with the guy who is completely and utterly besotted with his idiot brother. 6k

Bestseller when Wei Wuxian writes the Xianxia cut-sleeve equivalent of Fifty Shades of Grey, based entirely on his experiences with Lan Wangji, he doesn’t expect it to become the next big hit 7k

Important Distinctions Father arched an eyebrow and lifted his chin. Jingyi said, “Hanguang-jun would like to respectfully state that he thinks you are a punk-ass bitch.” “Lan Jingyi!” another Lan disciple hissed, horrified. “He said it with his eyes,” Jingyi protested. “It’s Expression 321.” Sizhui fished the book out of his qiankun pouch and flipped through it. One of the Ouyang junior disciples sidled over to him and peered over his shoulder. “There really is a book.” 5.3k

Model Behaviour Jiang Cheng watches his nephew attempt the impossible: seducing the purest Lan disciple. If Lans could bet, Lan Xichen would have wagered in Jin Ling’s favour. 1.3k

you are my chosen family 5 times sizhui and jingyi accidentally call wei wuxian and lan wangji dad, and the 1 time they do it on purpose. 14k

My heart in my sleeve Wei Wuxian needs a new workshop. Lan Wangji has room in his qiankun sleeves. 2k let lwj spoil his husband

Audience Of One

that AU where everyone is famous in some way or another, Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji have been dating in private for years, and Lan Xichen and Jiang Cheng pretend to date publicly for their brothers' sake. 181k

This is XiCheng, Wangxian is bg only.

Attempting the Impossible

Jiang Cheng gathers up his determination in both hands and goes to the Cloud Recesses to embark on one of the most difficult endeavors he can imagine: Repairing his relationship with his brother.

To his surprise, he discovers he's become an uncle again... several times over.

Wei Wuxian, what the fuck?! 36k

#mdzs #the untamed #wangxian #wangxian fic rec #the grandmaster of demonic cultivation #mdzs fics

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xotication · 10 days

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all of ur thoughts abt biker!ken is so soo reaall im crying, kaneki ken the man that u are😞😭😭 i also often like to think abt him in just a normal college au... im curious what was his course bc i dont remember it was showed in the manga? im such a nerd omg im sawry, if we're talking about white haired kaneki somehow he gives me computer science type of guy? but i definitely want to hear your thoughts abt it!!! (haise sasaki is definitely a human understanding and social sciences guy i just know!!!)

-mimi

i can’t tell if ur asking me but if u are.. YOU ARE ASKING THE WRONGGG PERSON LMFAOAOAO. 😭

& i also think white haired kaneki gives computer science typa guy, or cyber security. something or anything to do with computers. either that or he’s stuck in business & hates his clssses bc they’re so boring nd he already knows all he has to know, yk?

he lowk prob doesn’t come to school much bc he knows he can miss however many days & still do the work in a timely manner. bro usually ends up being the mf who just has half of his classes number bc they’re constantly asking him for the work, & he’s way too sweet to say no to anyone.. especially y/n!!

i mean he’ll write little side notes further explaining any material that he kinda struggled with at first. so he wants to make sure you’ll have no issues at all!

ken even stays up extra late, just in case you wanna text or call him when ur doing ur assignments right before the deadline.

he’s for sure half asleep the entire time, giving you soft mhms & uh huh’s when you’re repeating things to make sure it’s correct. poor baby comes into class the next day with bed head & horrible eye bags.. safe to say you’re the reason too.

but that doesn’t stop him from bringing you a coffee or an energy drink bc “you worked really hard last night, you must be tired” like ..

he even forgets to buy himself something. 😭😭😭😭😭

you end up sharing! >.<

#xoti speaks!#anime #fanfic #kaneki x reader #anon ask

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sehnsuchts-trunken · 2 years

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Your wishes of asking drabbles for smoker Riven are orders to me 😂

What about Riven with a fem!reader who is too pure and naive. She finds him smoking on his own during the night and ask to share a cigarette with him. But she can't tolerate the taste because she haven't try it before (Riven finds it adorable)

Nela 💜

holy fuck yes I actually wanted to go to bed (like I'm already in bed I just haven't gone to sleep yet) but no this is more important

(okay look I know the gif cuts off at the end but despite that everything about it is perfect and I am in love)

"What are you doing here?", you asked, a bit perplexed. Riven raised his eyebrows and blew out smoke, his cigarette between his fingers.

It was dark - almost too dark to see by now. He should be in his dorm. So should you, to be honest. But you were just on your way back. He didn't particularly look like he was going anywhere or had been for the past few minutes.

"Smoking", he said, poorly concealing a grin. You just rolled your eyes at him.

"Yeah, I can see that", you huffed. "I meant, like, why are you here?"

He raised his eyebrows again, chuckled and took another pull of his cigarette. Smoking on school grounds - was that even allowed? Probably not. But Riven seemed like the rule breaker type anyway.

"Forget it", you sighed, shaking your head at him. "I don't need another 'smoking' as an answer."

Because really, that's what he'd been saying, even without words. You made to walk away again. If he thought being an asshole was cool, to hell with him.

"Fucks sake", he laughed, making you whip around again and narrow your eyes. "You're stuck up."

For a second, you didn't know what to say. Stuck up? Excuse you for trying not to get expelled by being caught out past curfew. Excuse you for trying to form a human connection with him.

"You are a bastard, so I guess we're even", you said, crossing your arms. He only chuckled again.

"Bastard", he repeated, leaning his back against the pillar he'd been standing in front of. "Haven't heard that one so far."

"Then add it to your list of words to bring up when you're asked to describe yourself", you muttered, making to turn around and walk away once more.

"Here."

This was the second time in less than five minutes that he'd left you speechless and confused. You looked down at his outstretched arm slowly. But this wasn't some weird illusion. No, he was actually holding his cigarette out to you. Offering it.

"No thank you", you snorted. Smoking? That wasn't you.

He didn't let you off that easily though.

"Come on, don't be a prude", he said, grinning as he raised his eyebrows. You stared at him wordlessly.

You weren't really about to take a cigarette from Riven and smoke, were you? Then again - what was the worst that could happen? You'd never even tried smoking before. And you neither wanted to be stuck up, nor a prude.

"Fine", you gave in, leaning forward to take it out of his hand and bring it to your lips, carefully holding it between your index and middle finger the same way you'd seen him do.

In hindsight, you really should've just left him standing there with his cigarette in hand.

Because inhaling sucked. Literally.

Your eyes were filling with tears in the span of a second, your mouth tasted horribly of smoke, and your lungs were so not used to this sensation that you immediately started having a coughing fit.

Riven laughed in the background, taking the cigarette back from your hands as you fanned your face, trying to calm down. He was still laughing when you finally managed to do so.

He was also, in fact, still holding your hand. And you were also still squeezing it like you were giving birth. Quickly, you let go of him, ignoring the red that was now surely stinging your cheeks, if it hadn't been already from all the coughing.

"That shit is horrible", you croaxed, leaning back against the railing for a moment. "I dont understand why anyone would smoke."

He only shrugged. You shook your head at him again.

"I'm gonna go get something to drink", you said eventually, deciding you'd stared at him enough in this dimly lit corner, where you weren't sure if he was looking back or not. "And try to forget this traumatising moment. See you around, Riven."

Sooner or later, you were sure you'd find him here again. You were also sure you would not try his cigarette then.

#winx riven x reader #riven x reader #winx riven #riven winx #fate riven #ftws #ftws riven #x reader #winx #fate winx saga #fate the winx saga #fate series

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yevnevlyrics · 5 months

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Odorouze/Let's dance - Yorushika - Translyrics!

💃 yippee yippee yippee

Ahh, with my clear as transparent heart

Cant help but laugh, i cant believe the world we lived that life in

Ahh, what did i ever choose music for

i'm laughing, i just cant believe the person i was then

And all i wish to convey

This song, and these words i'm trying so hard to say

Fizzling out, flying high, taken by the wind, one with the sky

So, gone with these sentimentalities, useless, but i guess its no fault of mine

If you even still can hear, and if you still at all wanna know

Hey, at least youve got nothing to hide

Even if just one more time, let's dance all night

Ahh, living here, human, i'm done

Its alright, you humans are so dumb, and ive just had enough

Ahh, like when i flaunted that dumb new guitar

I guess I wish i could still laugh at me from back then

All i still wish to convey

winter nights, summer cries, our words that broke all to say

Burning out, floating up high, ashes of our feelings in the sky

I want these feelings i thought we'd lost long ago, to give up on ever finding mine

If you wish we'd never met, or if you would just rather forget

Hey, dont make yourself wait any longer

Because these memories can't last, till dawn let's dance

Ahh, you know its the end when im giving up on music

My memory, even fading it's gotta describe you perfectly

Then im sure theres nothing else left that i needed to do

Thats all i wanted to do

Since the days i knew you passed, nothing that matters is gonna last

you seem to be running away too fast, hey, let me set this to a melody

You're out of excuses for me,

your memory's all i can see

forget it, dance with me one last time!

Fizzling out, flying high, with all you have take to the sky

Our feelings we could never word, together we didnt need words anyway

Please think of me as a friend if you also wish this wouldn't end

Hey, you've got nothing else left to hide

So before we're truly free

I'll ask once more if you will dance with me?

#yorushika #translyrics #ヨルシカ #these are so old #but i still like them a bit #n buna #idk how to feel about some of the wording but i found them and thought why not

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hajihiko · 2 years

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do you have thoughts on izuru post sim? ive seen a few headcannons here and there where he disappears, or hajime develops a sort of alter ego/DID situation. im curious how he would play into the survivor dynamic you've got

Ok this is gonna be based on absolutely nothing but bear with me

1. Ideally, I would WANT Hajime and Izuru to be pretty merged, but still separate? Seperate, because I just think the concept of talking to the seperate entity in your mind is such a cool trope (in a fantasy/sci-fi setting, no real logic behind it, dont wanna be insulting towards people with actual DID). Merged, because I like the idea that Izuru would have some of Hajime's thoughts and feelings and he could re-learn what it's like to have feelings and friends 🥺 BUT that could potentially mean Hajime shares some of Izuru's lack of life luster, which is fittingly sad but.....haji....

It's like the best scenario for both of them I think, they sorta blend into each other but they can still be more this guy or more that guy, but they're pretty content

2. the other idea is that they sorta, fight to pilot the same vessel sometimes? Mostly Izuru doesn't much care about it, and Hajime is Player 1 by sheer force of will (which he has a lot of!!) But Izuru jumps out in moments of panic of where Hajime loses control, and it can be a little hard to get them to switch back. Which is a little scary bc Hajime may be pretty superhuman but it's all muddled into his shitty little normal human brain, and Izuru is 100% power 100% of the time.

(sidenote, Hajime having shit like super strength and super intelligence, but sometimes he forgets?? Like he needs to focus to apply talent and still remain himself, and sometimes it slips and he drops an entire car or something.)

This lends way to a fun "learning to live together" narrative and some drama!

Maybe first situation 2, then situation 1? Happy ending?

As for how it fits into the group;

I like the idea that Hajime might hide how much Izuru is still around, because drama, but he can't hide it for long because FRIENDSHIP. obviously his friends will love him regardless, but it might be a little scary to see your friend blink away and a blank slate of immense power pop out.

Akane would be on him right away because she can just tell there's something more to him. Her gut doesn't lie! But no one fully believes her at first :( she gets to have a great I Told You So moment. She kind of catches on that Izuru isn't...a SUPER huge threat, so she's chill (maybe too chill. If Izuru chose to do something bad, she wouldn't notice because of how non-emotional he is and it'd really fuck with her confidence in her senses.).

Souda wooooould probably be very distrusting of the whole thing. Like he's supportive of Hajime ofc but he does not like that there's a whole seperate guy (not really) who can spy on them. Souda is already such a suspicious guy, and I think at the end of FTEs hes like "ok don't make me suspect you tho hahaaa" but he comes around eventually. Probably loves that Izuru-side can do basically anything, great help with carrying heavy machinery!

Fuyuhiko is a very loyal dude and might take it a little far tbh? He's like "I wanna talk to HAJIME my friend HAJIME and no one else" and Hajime is like "ok I appreciate that we're still friends but I can't..make him leave. You're just yelling at *me* right now." I think he'd be the one to treat them the most as seperate people, which is sometimes good and sometimes bad (might relate Izuru to Peko and insist he's his own person lol). But bless his heart he tries real hard to let Hajime know he's in his corner.

Sonia is always a little hard for me so I have no idea about her tbh. I guess maybe she'd relate to Izuru a bit for being made into something he's not, the whole "useful first, human second"? She might actually think the whole thing is really cool and grill both Hajime and Izuru about the details of their situation.

Ok talky over I have no idea if this is gonna make sense I woke up like an hour ago lol

#Hajime #Izuru #Fuyuhiko #Kazuichi #Akane #Talky talky #Sonia

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dualityvn · 1 year

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me theory posting again? more likely than you might think

Demo Spoilers below

now that my ban on talking about this has finally been lifted since its now out in the open, lets talk about some things. so, the boys exist as two entities in one body, they both have their own thoughts, feelings, and motivations, but when those align, they can co-exist in the body at the same time. this can be painful (see that one 'bad' end) because Keith's body isnt built to hold more than one person at a time. speaking of, it is technically Keith's body, it was the one made by his parents that he would have inhabited alone without Tenebris' being there, and Tenebris has a different form that is entirely his own. they are not aware of the outside unless they are the person actively in control, but they can share thoughts and dialogue with each other when only one is in control.

now that we have that all established, which does answer like, all of my initial questions, we're gonna get off on a tangent. now, this hasnt really come up before, but one of my favorite things to theorize about is morality issues, specifically when it comes to controlling the narrative a person sees. and i see a Very Delicious moral dilemma with Keith and Tenebris and how Keith is like, the only person Tenebris regularly interacts with.

let me explain. like it or not, we are all a product of the things we interact with on a daily basis and the experiences we gain from those experiences. whether its the lessons we learned from our parents as children, or the interaction we have with our friends on a daily basis, the way other people interact with us is fused with who we are and how we react, even if just on a subconscious level. now lets apply this to the boys. Keiths parents hated Tenebris, and treated Keith coldly as a result. This would be hard on anybody, but especially young children who arent able to really understand the complexities of the situation they were in. this would also continue to be a problem, due to the nature of their inseparability making it hard for either of them to make friends, Keith having difficulties because of Tenebris' existence in his life and Tenebris having difficulties because he's not human, and also presumably because he's not around all that much. this makes socializing hard to impossible for both of them, leading to the state we see Tenebris in in the Demo.

Presumably, Keith is the one who has taught Tenebris everything he knows about humans/the human world/ human customs, but theres still a lot of holes in his knowledge as we can see demonstrated by Tenebris thinking it is alright and normal to just,, show up in our house. There are things that Keith has forgotten to mention because he thinks of them as pure common sense, common sense that Tenebris doesn't have because he never had a social support network to allow him to develop common sense. Keith can't be expected to have explained everything to Tenebris perfectly, especially when Keiths own understanding of the world might be a little skewed.

Lets not forget that they are Both Yanderes, Keith's twisted idea of love may stem from his abandonment issues, but its still there. and considering that Keith is the one who teaches Tenebris everything, its no small wonder that their combined "love" for the MC was enough to put them in sync enough to co-exist completely.

basically what im getting at here is that Keith is the epitome of an unreliable narrator and having an unreliable narrator as your only consistent source of information about the world leads to a very fucked up idea about the world. im not saying that Keith would lie to Tenebris on purpose, i dont even know if he could since they read each others thoughts, but if the lie isnt on purpose then thats a whole different game.

anyway, yeah, Thoughts. once again, congratulations on the demo release!!

I've missed your huge theory asks, Cacti.

But the funny thing is, Tenebris wasn't born at the same time as Keith. Yeah, he was also a "kid" when he entered his body, but he also got a small amount of knowledge from his own species. He started out with a few prejudices, if you can call them that.

In truth, the two of them being together kinda resulted in Tenebris getting better and Keith getting worse :') Since Keith did his best to teach Tenebris compassion and empathy, things that he did not have. But the struggles and trauma he suffered along the way tore at Keith's mind.

As for the yandere tendencies. Well I don't wanna spoil anything for you guys.

#duality game #yandere #dating sim #visual novel #duality theory

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thotsforvillainrights · 7 months

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Yo, congradulations on the pregnancy, may i ask for some rappa or all for one smut, or fluff if you dont feel like doing anything like that now!

Lots of love! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

(Thank you anon and also thanks for letting me choose! I don't mind writing smut but I'm still so unsure as to why I can't seem to fully get back into it. Maybe eventually. In the mean time, I will deliver some fluff!)

(since we're on a small All For One kick, I'll make him the subject. It's interesting for me to write him in such a light, even though I do miss writing for Rappa too lol)

~Treated Like Royalty~

headcanon|scenario|imagine|match-up

Tonight would've been a rather peaceful full night of rest had you not been awaken by the loud boom of the thunder and bright flashes of lightening right outside the large bedroom window. It was pitch black in the room aside from the lone candle in the corner of the room on the bedroom dresser. You sat for a moment and tiredly let your eyes adjust to the dimness of the room. Once you'd woken up a bit more, you noticed the empty space on the bed next to you. You slowly ran your hand along the bedding and noticed it was cold indicating your love hadn't been next to you for a while.

You stretched your arms above your head and stepped carefully into your bedside slippers. You'd grabbed the candle holder by it's handle and carried it with you downstairs. The old wood of the mansion creaked beneath your steps no matter how softly you walked. You were reminded for just a second to try and get it fixed someday. Hopefully this time you might not forget again but who knows.

When you rounded the corner and found the main room of the mansion, he was there. Standing near the screen and chatting with someone (likely Shigaraki) about the next plan of action. You frowned and waited at the door until he was finished. He'd hung up the call and spoke to you without turning around. "What are you doing out of bed at this hour?" He asked softly and you yawned. "I could ask you the same thing." You walked over to stand next to him. You could tell he was deep in through before he finally decided to speak up again. "Come, let's get you to bed. You need some rest my dearest." He gently placed his hand on the small of your back but you frowned. "I'm not going until you come with me. You've been working on something for the past week or so and I can't sleep without you. Besides, the weather is freaking me out. The wind is rattling the old widows and I'm afraid the glass may break soon." You expressed your concerns. He chuckled softly and shook his head. My dear, you will be just fine. Even if the windows do end up breaking, the bed of facing far from them. However, if it makes you feel any better I will will have someone to reinforce them tomorrow. Now come." He gently ushered you out of the room and back up the stairs. He trailed closely behind should you ever lose your footing so you can fall back into him safely.

Once in the room, he'd tucked you carefully into bed and placed the candle back onto the bedroom dresser. For a moment he considered leaving but the look on your face by now was probably anything but happy. He could sense it in the air. He sighed and took a seat on the bed next to you before beginning to gently rub circles onto your hand. You sighed and watched the rain splash against the window here and there, the wind whipping the trees wildly around every which way. "Perhaps I don't say it often enough but I truly care for you unlike I have for anyone before. I'm grateful to have you here with me. I do hope you'll continue to love me as you do." His voice broke the silence around you. "Of course. Is there any question to that?" You ask him with a small smile on your face. "I certainly hope not. I will admit I have not been as present lately as I usually am. I'm only human after all. I have a small twinge of worry here and there that you'll come to your senses about me and be too far gone before I can stop it."

To hear him admit something like this was a bit of a shock to you. He never had concerns or really worries to be honest. He was never a man to fear anything, at least not in front of you.

"I love you and you shouldn't ever question that. However, if you don't stop staying up all night and leaving me in the giant bed by myself then I'll be sleeping in that room down there with you." You threatened lightly and he laughed. "But of course. I'll make note of it immediately. Now get some rest my dear, I assure you I will be here when you awaken this time."

He made good on that promise and was right there that morning, waiting by the bed and holding a rather tasty looking breakfast tray. No doubt an apology for his absence the previous nights.

#bnha #mha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #is it fluffy?#scenario

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luesmainblog · 4 months

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hey i'm not an expert on this by any means but i did see a post talking about this so i figured i'd give my thoughts: i don't think it's actually THAT unusual to have a lot of third person memories that are real, IF first person is not your usual point of view. we're all aware that viewing the world from third person is a form of dissociation, but usually it's only talked about for specific events, so i wanna explain what it can look like when that's your CONSTANT state of being. essentially, my life lives between two pop-up windows. the first is the Actual Camera - what my eyes actually physically see, the proper first person POV that every human with visual sight experiences. like any normal person who isn't dissociating 24/7, this feeds me all the information i need, as well as a lot that i dont.

in my Mind's Eye, however, there's an alternative view - a third person re-interpretation of the scene, with much less detail and only the things that are actually important. when i'm FOCUSED on what i'm seeing, my life pretty much looks like the above; the third person view is always kept in mind, but i can see what i'm seeing. however, if i'm not actively focused on what's going on...

it flips, and my brain's re-imagining with only the important bits is more actively noticed. i can still see what i'm Seeing, i haven't gone blind or anything, but my brain is no longer paying very much attention to that, only using it to draw in information i need for this reimagining. these POVs flip depending on what i'm doing and which i 'need' more. this is usually when i'm doing tasks that don't require hyper focus, like walking through a hallway, sitting in a car, or cooking. I think this happens for a number of reasons, but the main two are this: i have a SHIT memory, often forgetting what happened two seconds after it's passed, and i have very poor visualization skills for Realism and First Person POV. real life simply has too many details for me to get right, and i'm usually stuck in a cartoon rendering of what i'm imagining; solid lines are easier to process and imagine than 3d objects in a 3d space with no clear dividing line.

because i struggle to visualize in first person, and that's the POV that my actual sight is in, visual memories are often the first thing to go. but i remember the FEELING very well, and the general knowledge of What Happened. so, my brain replaces the original visuals with the third person POV so i can 'see' what happened, not just Know it. I think this is actually why i started dissociating in third person all the time, so that i would always have it on-hand and ready to go when i inevitably lost the visual memories.

at the end of the day, life and reality are Perception, and your perception is strongly dependent on your brain's mental abilities. I'm not disturbed by living this way, i just have to try and remember that most people don't have that extra view. if anything, it does help remind me that the human memory is VERY fallible, and the only thing i can really trust for visuals is a camera, haha!

#memory #dissociation #rambles #seriously i trust my memory about as far as i can throw a box full of books #it took a LOT of analysing my life to understand any of this #cus i never really thought about it much before

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wuzetianadmirer · 6 months

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Manhwa: Depths of Malice

Tags: Smut, NSFW

This manhwa is an abso lute banger. Its fun, its satisfying, hot people, hot FL who's a psycho as well as a schemer. Hot ML, who's also psycho. Power couple and all that.

This is a rant as well as an appreciation post.

First off, the FL, Verta, is dead set on revenge and SPOILER she gets revenge. Its so satisfying to read. And I think its so refreshing

Verta doesn't hide who she is. She actively gets revenge on those who wronged her. And she's a good actress. No scratch that, a superb actress! She has people around her thumb. Its honestly terrifying.

Another thing is, she doesn't care about other people. She doesn't care who she has to use or take down to get her revenge. And thats so badass. Its so refreshing to see a FL like this, who isnt just rude or puting up a facade. She's here to slay and we're here for it!

And most of the men here are awful. Just horrible human beings.

Exhibit A:

Lawrence, her then-fiancee

This bastard enjoys watching other me violate her. Specfically bis subordinate Baron Jacob. Honestly an ass. He dies by the way. Killed by Jacob beating him to death, due to a drug that increases one's stamina (that Verta gave).

Exhibit B:

Jacob

He's a sexy motherfucker. He's in love with Verta, but he cant do anything to help as he's under Lawrence. No excuse though. The fandom collectively agrees thst he's a prick. Love or no love, he let her be hurt. Due to the drug, He ends up killing Lawrence in a rage. Goes to prison.

Exhibit C:

Marquis Proud Carter

Another sexy motherfucker.

Caused Verta's (before posessing her body) mother do kill herself. A pedophile. Kidnapped a princess to make her his love-toy. Instigated most of her suffering. Gets exposed and executed in the end. Die you bastard!

Exhibit D:

Baron Ralph Maximilian

A mildly good-looking bastard.

Tries to violate Verta. Is a prick. I dont like him. Personality like shit. Is canonically a looser (said by his wife) and utterly pathetic. Gets killed by Verta. So badass of her.

Lets forget about the bad boys, lets look at the good boys.

A: Nathan

He's actually not a ML. He's actually a subordinate of Proud Carter, which makes him our(the fandom's) enemy too, but from the comments I've read, he's not too bad, other than the fact that he's an underdog of Proud. I almost forgot! He's a deuch to his fiance. She's so sweet. But he doesn't like her for whatever reason. His loss.

But he's head over heels for Verta. If Im being honest I don't think he's that bad. He's actually kinda sweet. And like a softie for our FL. Too bad, FL had to seduce him in order to kill him so that she could use his body for someone else's vessel.

I honestly think he ranks second in my books as ML. We love a guy who'd die for us to be together in the afterlife (eventhough Verta technically tricked him). Honestly I love him.

B: Yersha

He's the wizard that helps Verta. Good guy. Not a ML but still that pretty face earns some brownie points. Also, he uses Nathan's body as his vessel after he dies fir personal reasons. Very helpful to our FL. I liked his face. Not complaining cause Nathan's face is fine too.

C: Blaine Shade

A hottie. The actual ML. Marris Verta in the main story line. A physco in his own right. Tried killing his sister. Manipulative. Very sweet to Verta. Awesome chemistry between them both. Sexy. Very suave. Head over heels for FL. Honestly very good ML.

I have to make separate post for the Prince.

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pumpkzsafeplace · 8 months

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think big 🧵 was mostly worried that freind wasn comfortable with hug but only offered cause look sad

knows its ok to have hug but worry lot that buging

sorry not big 🧵 now he really scared to talk today

icky person keeped talking to him an he had ptsd episode and couldnt words after

big🧵started getting really mean about it so small now

dunno if too icky to share so can ignore message but he gave ouchies an it hurt lots

good news tho stuffie arived

need get him stuffed but super cute

big 🧵 say am being annoying or bug too much an it really hurt not trying be annoying promise can stop bugging if annoying or upset

know that cause just dumb an annoying an always upset and bug people don deserve cuddles or new stuffie or watch movies but really wann curl up an watch movie and get cuddles an huggies and cry but need be better know crying not good an shouldn or shouldn wanna but feel like cry just cant cause trying be good

really wannt be held and comforted an reminded that not bugging but am bugging by get cuddle an held

maybe shpuld just start leaving people lone so that dont annoy and can be good an deserve cuddles and just be held

sorry for be sad still

promise tdying gets better

-🧵

─•~❉᯽❉~•─

hihi lil bug’ 🌼

it is completely fine to have big emotion's, you know honey? <3.

it's completely fine to be upset, to feel a little down and to even cry sometimes. we're all human at the end of the day- and that's just part of life <3.

i'm sorry that the icky person came and spoke to you today, hopefully we can avoid that in the future & you can surround yourself with people who love and enjoy your presence! <3

but people do care about you, you know? i know that sometimes it may feel like we're all alone- but you have so many people on tumblr alone that care <3.

you are special love, don't forget that okay <3.

big big big big hugs & i hope you feel a little better soon! <3

-🍰

#askpumpkin #🧵pumpkinasks #age regression #agere community #sfw agere #sfw age regression #safe agere #sfw little community #agere little #sfw little post #sfw little blog #agere blog

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After the End part 4

Continuation of 2x06

Meanwhile back on Earth.

- So, we're just going to live like this, until they come back? - Crowley asked.

- Looks like it - Nina answered - I'm just worried about our shops.

- I think you'll be fiiine - Crowley said reassuringly with an accent on the last word.

- It's uncanny how much you play him so well already.

- Oh. Thanks - he smiled.

- I don't know. You don't look very grumpy - Maggie said, focusing in on him.

- Oh, just let me do some customer service and I'll get there. God, I can't even look at coffees right now! Yuck.

- I feel you - Nina replied.

- I'm... I'm not sure if I get how you act like - said Maggie in fear of getting caught - Can I hang out with you maybe, to get into character more?

Crowley and Nina looked together.

Minutes later all three of them were in the coffee shop, working.

- Are you sure it's fine? - Nina asked.

- Yeah of course, you just put on the service uniform, and nobody's going to care if you don't have a contract working here. You just won't get paid! - Crowley finished with a smile.

- You're enjoying this, aren't you? - Nina asked looking at him disappointedly.

- A bit.

The day was very hectic, and rough for them. But Crowley enjoyed that he now had 2 angelic helpers. It was good to spend time with Nina. And teaching Maggie how to act like a human was simultaneously funny and rewarding. Kind of felt like taking care of a big child.

At the end of the day, Nina, and Maggie were exhausted, Crowley was happily walking with them.

- Ahh! Easiest work day of my life!

- Easiest?! - Nina exclaimed in shock.

- We should do this more often!

- I feel like I need to put my head into cold ice, and just forget about everything that happened today - said Maggie with pain in her voice - they were all so mean! I don't understand.

- Hmm... Yes, that's bound to happen at your first time - Crowley hissed out - Better get used to it, by the time Aziraphael and Muriel get back, you will be the greatest human impersonator!

- Hm... That sounds worthwhile.

- There you go then.

As they were walking, something caught Crowley's attention. The Bentley. It was still in the same place where they left it after the four of them talked. He knew that Muriel loved it very much. The others stopped in their tracks too.

- I cannot place it why - Crowley had started - but somehow I feel sorry for that car.

Nina stepped a bit forward.

- I think it's best to leave it untouched. Their owner isn't here right now.

- Yeah... Yeah.

- So where do we go now? - asked Maggie.

- To home...? Where do you usually go?

- Oh I just walk around the city. I've been only here for a little while, only seen the Sun disappear for like 3 times. Hehe.... It's a bit... Scary.

Crowley looked at them, and gave out a sigh.

- Okay, I think, we should stay over at Nina's house tonight, if it's alright of course.

- S-sure! - Nina hesitated - but why?

- I'm not leaving my body alone with you unsupervised, and Maggie here needs to stay off the streets at least for the nights! - he made a good point, even his head bopped at it.

- Oh my I always wanted to do sleepovers!! - Nina yelled out in joy.

- Yeey! - Maggie clapped - What is sleep?

- This is going to be hard, won't it? - Nina asked rhetorically.

Crowley continued.

- Let's just remember the rules, that... You know who gave us.

- Mhmhm.

- No talking about who we are. No miracles. And absolutely blending in with Crowley's perspective for myself. To make a believable story for outsiders.

- So what is it then? - Nina asked - he got depressed after all that evil coffee business, and he decided to move in with me and Maggie to cope?

- ...MmmYeah?

- I wish I understood anything from that - Maggie said with a sad smile on her.

- You will, dont worry - Crowley reassured her and gave her a cruel wink - on the second day.

- Is it good?

- Depression? Sureee! Look, let's just get to Nina's place, so we can finally start our after work hours to relax.

- Okay, I like that word! I know it. Heh... - Maggie was starting to feel downbeat, but Crowley cheered her up with a pat on the back.

Their night went well. They were together, but somehow with different bodies, it didn't feel so exciting. Especially for Crowley seeing himself out of his body. Same for Nina with Maggie. It wasn't much of a turn on, but it was rather not needed at the moment. They figured talking about their lives, was a good choice for Maggie too. Then somebody brought up boardgames and since then there was no stop to it with Maggie. She thought this was the best night of her life, and even if working in the daytime like today would continue, it was worth it if these "girly nights" went on.

Meanwhile in Heaven, it wasn't long after Aziraphael and Muriel parted ways, and Muriel was onto leaving to the stars. At least she could finally visit the Nebula.

She was happy, in love, but also determined. Giving bravery has worked for both of them as it seemed.

Soon, she got close enough to her recommendation to the two of them, and heard they were indeed there. She gave it a thought, and found it better to dismantle her cloak for a moment. It would only change for her.

He shouted out right after.

- Gabriel!

He looked around in one place, if he can spot them somewhere. Until he popped up right behind him.

- Hello!

- AAAA!.... Stop. Doing that!

- Should I make a noise when I move around?

- No... Where's Beelzebub? I need both of you.

- What is it, traitor?

- You're one to speak.

- What can I say, the name stuck.

- Lovely. Khm. Listen...

- ...Well?

- You really took on my advice of the Nebula. Wow.

- You created the best stars! - Gabriel gave him two gentle fist bumps at his shoulder - of course we'd take your advise on them! Very good choice indeed.

- Wonderful. Now, uhm. We might have had, fucked up a little bit.

- By that you mean, me? Again?

- You... Remember, don't you?

- Yes. I didn't forget anything after that.

- Then you remember how awful you were. And how you didn't want to be awful anymore. And felt sorry for being that.

- Phhhfh, yeah you can say that.

- Yes, right. You see. You, refusing to redo Armageddon, I admit, a very nice idea of you.

Gabriel lifted his arms, like he was doing a little bow, taking the compliment.

- But-

- Oh not again...

- Now that you left, Metatron took Aziraphale away to take over your abandoned position and finish the job for you.

- ...What?! He- heh, he can't do that! He's not even in a soldier shape! He's way too soft to take on any of those tasks. Wasn't he the one who ruined the world ending plan? Why would he do that now?

- Because Metatron has manipulated him into such a tight grip that he either complies or dies! - Crowley hissed out - And they gonna keep filling in new angels to your abandoned post until they find someone who will start it! So how about you own up to your mistakes and help us out for once, to stop this angel demon war for good?!

- ...Fine. But what can I do?

- We need someone to alert and gather the other angels, for a distraction so big, even Metatron gets lost into it! We need to get Aziraphale to talk with God personally.

- So... You want me to do a Lucifer 2.0?

- ...Kind of...?

Beelzebub cut in too.

- Hmm... Maybe we can help you with that.

- You can? - Crowley sounded surprised.

- Well, I would help him, definetely. I try to come up with something with the demons.

Gabriel looked at her, confused.

- Will you really?

- Of course! I LOVE getting into mischief, my flies definetely would like to scare some angels and cover that whole sterile place in. Damn, I want to do it just by thinking of it now.

- Alright then! So Crowley, let's talk about the plan.

- Uh.... Uhm. Okay! - he was surprised that this worked out so well. He didn't have any words, he never thought he'd get this far - Any recommendations, Gabriel? You're better at planning!

Crowley grinned.

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens 2 spoilers #good omens 3 #good omens 3 continuation fic #fic

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how will you feel about henry if your mindflayer theory turns out to be false? i dont think henry is a rape allogory either but hes pretty fucked if it doesnt turn out the mindflayer cant do things on his own imo.

Lmao, yeah I kind of feel you there. I mean, personally? The fandoms perception of it being a r*pe allogory is the fandoms perception. Its not reality. And thats the thing. There was no actual s*xual assault and NO "s*xual intent" behind any of it, particularly in universe. Possession is possession. You can't depict it without, in some way, "violating" another persons body and mind. But not all violation is s*xual in nature, even if all violation can lead to like, similar feelings-- and imagery particularly when shown in an 'artistic' way.

Like I guess, as someone who has been assaulted like that, its almost offensive to me to compare an example of "spirit possession" in a piece of horror media, specifically when the source didn't seem to have the full conscious intention of their work being an allogory to SA, to actually talk about it as if it was real SA and that we need to seriously condemn the "possessor" as if they are a real literal r*pist. That's mind boggling to me. Like I'm just VERY sure that the Duffers did not intend it to be a r*pe allogory. The whole demonic possesion thing just an aesthetic they went with because its cool and creepy. Because at the end of the day no r*pe actually happened. There was no actual SA. And Its gross to pretend there literally was, to me, personally. And I feel like a lot of the fandom is particularly obsessed with the idea of it being literal SA is because it gives them good ol' fashioned whump fuel, especially for content regarding the ship between Mike and Will. Like it literally all directly orbits and connects to the Byler ship and the headcanon of Henry's sexuality and this horrifically ignorant misread of Henry's psychology and his idea of what a predator is. Like its crazy that he literally explained himself in full context and this fandom has still misread it and goes out of its way to twist the things he said... Like he was literally talking about the animal kingdom, ecological balance, and the comparison to political/social equality for people like him, minority groups, who CURRENTLY do not possess any of that. Like CHRIST in Henry's time racial segregation was still an active thing in the US.

He wasn't talking about predators in an exploitational way, he directly put forward the concept of 'a predator but for good'. Its literally what he said. He was explaining that predators (like spiders) in the animal kingdom are important because they weed away the undesirables, which keeps the ecosystem stable, without them, things would be bad. His idea was for humans, humans like him and Eleven, who had the powers they had, to be predators and weed away undesirables, bad humans, toxic humans, evil humans, to make the world a better place, especially for 'minority' demographics. And like I agree, even in its actual context this is ambitious and has the potential to go very, very wrong. But another thing about Henry is he's been trapped and locked away from the entire world for the last 20 years of his life. Henry has spent more years of his life locked away in a lab as a test subject and a slave then he spend free as a person. Henry only had 12 years in the "real world". My boys a little out of touch, theres no doubt about it, but this idea wasn't born from evil and a desire to hurt people. It was born from a desire to help and protect people from the same oppression and cruelty Henry had been subject to his entire life.

And my other gripe is that I feel like so many people in this fandom forget or ignore that Stranger Things is a period piece. Its not modern day. We're talking about conservative 1950s-1980s America. I don't think a lot of people fully comprehend exactly what the cultural, social and political environment was like back then but its really important to the show.

Anyway, as for how I'll feel? I don't know! I think I'll be confused, mostly. I know unless the Duffers come out and say "yea that was a r*pe allogory" I'm not gonna treat it as such. But I do genuinely believe at least SOME part(s) of my theory(s) involving the MF are true, whether or not Vecna has supreme control of it, I don't know, but I feel like there is more to it than just being a random cloud. Because theres just no way to me that the MF doesn't represent The Serpent from the DnD universe. Like if you know about the Serpent in DnD and you put it with what we know about the MF now in Stranger Things its Bang On. I also believe some inspo was taken From the Elder Brain but the Serpent I think is very closely referenced. And sure while it is sometimes stipulated in the DnD universe that the Serpent "isn't real"- or isn't its own being- and its actually just a figment of DnD Vecna's "madness", I feel like there is too many suggestions that the MF is something more than JUST a "tool" for Henry for that to be the cut and dry angle theyre gonna come at it as. (I mean they could but Idk, would feel a little off to me) How much more though? I don't know. I've entertained the idea of the MF just being a powerful being caught up in the mess of Henry's vendetta with the human world but I do personally lean more toward it being a ""malign god"" per se, of some sort just because thats a sexier aesthetic to me personally, particularly with how it feels like concepts with Vecna also references things like hinduism, and occult / esoteric themes and concepts (like the left-hand-path in particular!!) But if the MF is just a completely non-sentient power source for Henry its gonna feel weird to me with a lot of the other little things laced around the show. Taking things like the tentacles/vines/roots whatever for example-- I don't know how they intend to explain what/how they work or why they would be trying to get through to the normal dimension or why they were originally written as having a big part in turning Henry into Vecna, etc.

#henry creel #vecna #001 #byler #sa mention tw #I don’t want to apologise for Vecna’s murders – I’m not sorry

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