#we’re working it out though..

[berrys-hide-out]

Hey Berry, how are you doing?

Heya! I’m pretty bad rn 🥲 apologies for running so late with your rq 🙏

My condition worsened a few days ago and I’ve been needing to rest. Your request is slowly coming along tho, I’m adding a few sentences every now and again when I get the chance✨

Thank you for checking up on me 🩷

How about you?

#berry talks #vis✨ #CFS been kicking my a$$ the last few days #one of my doctors did smth without mine or my parents consent too #we’re working it out though..

[grilledcheese-savage]

Part 22: Never seem to catch a break

Jaya prime empire au

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#anddddd we’re back #I really hope working on both comics at the same time don’t burn me out #but it also might do the opposite and make me love it more #I was thinking now that I’ve gotten used to writing and drawing a comic #maybe I finally work on the comic I’ve wanted to write for the last 5 years #I don’t know if you guys would be interested in that though #ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #art #ninjago comic #jaya prime empire au #ninjago fanart #agent walker #jay walker #jay gordon #ninjago jay #ninjago jaya #ninjago Nya #lego ninjago #superstar rockin jay #ninjago jay walker #ninjago masters of spinjitzu #ninjago nya smith #ninjago nya jiang #nya jiang #nya smith

[buwheal]

Bro the askers treat spamton so much better on that askblog.

While over here we send him drawings of his joints and tell him "go puppet boy go!"

Honestly I love seeing the difference.

LOLLL they do… and maybe a little bit of that is my fault based on the ones i choose because im really picky with the ones i do answer (being nice to him, in this case) because there are SO many people who are trying to make him feel better, but ultimately they always bring up something or other to remind him of the shit he’s gone or is going through..

..Like,, “so you know how youre always failing and you’re uh… maybe alone with the (physical) things you’re going through? Yeah? Well ive failed too. Sometimes. Hope you feel better after i just reminded you!” Kind of stuff. Obviously im very much exaggerating what people say but YIPPPEESS its like they’re trying to get him to cry or something. I appreciate their efforts and how much the care but damn i dont think that they’re thinking about how that’d sound to him, especially since his immediate thought towards things like that is that its ingenuine.

I think less of Loki’s audience wants to see him suffer. A lot of mine do. LMAO. The difference /is/ funny.

#ignore the rambling aha i just started writing and kept going #but goddamn #some of them are like SUPER long too #and idk what to do with them because like… they dont need to be super long to work #its sweet that they care though #i think my specific choice in which ones get answered in that kind of context have shaped the ones i get #which is nice because i actually have a good few to work with right now #also so glad that at least some of you recognize that the reaction he had was toward the mention of his appearance #not sure if you’ve fully figured it out though #im actually itching to animate him crying his eyes out for no damn reason #because i dont think i have drawn him crying.. im deprived/j #hes like pretty much consistently on the brink of sobbing lmaoo #but he HATES crying in front of anyone so I havent had him do it.. yet…. #yet…. #theres a lot i really want to do but i cant yet based on the position we’re at

[notalostcausejustyet]

I’ve already attached this to a re-blog, but it feels like something that I want to post as a standalone as well. Sometimes I scream into the tumblr void about shit. Thanks to a gifted copy of The Body Keeps the Score I’m doing more DIY therapy work and processing some of my thoughts through the interwebs. So here’s a brain thing.

🎶Let’s talk about projection baby, let’s talk about you and me!!🎶 All joking aside, so many of us who deal with CPTSD use fictional works to process our trauma. We are outsourcing emotions and memories that we, for whatever reason, struggle to deal with unless there is some remove from the immediacy of them. We seek to find ourselves in characters, parallels in stories and situations for our own experiences. We live their struggles and triumphs as our own and so find catharsis within them. Aziraphale as a character is a particularly good example of this. He’s doing the thing so many of us who are trying to convince everyone else and ourselves that “we’re FINE, thank you!” do. He isn’t really processing his shit. He’s putting it on a third party to release some pressure before he completely loses it. And in so doing, us the audience, have gained a character that we both empathize and sympathize with, and in turn, use to work through much of our own trauma. I honestly think that’s why so many of us are waiting for S3 with bated breath. We need Az to figure it out. We need them both to heal. To defeat the odds. To find happiness. We’re all waiting for that because we need to believe that it’s something we can have too. If this Angel who foists 6 millennia of grief and rage and maddening questions about the “why” of everything off into an entire bookshop’s worth of stories and characters, if he can figure it out…surely we can too. Surely there is hope for us buried somewhere in the stacks. Surely there is some understanding that can be found, some catharsis or healing within the lines of these narratives. So we’re all holding our breath, our hope and our hearts, in our hands, waiting to finish the story, and in so doing, complete some part of ourselves. Finally framing those cracks where the light comes in, into something beautiful.

#good omens #aziraphale #good omens meta #DIY therapy it’s like DIY electrical you can but you’ll probably get zapped a few times #tumblr is the void into which we scream #come void scream with me we’ll be like the hallelujah chorus #but off key terribly off key it’s amazing #projection and displacement are integral parts of aziraphale's character #self projection #this is really good diy therapy though we’re all out here being diyers #doing the work #books that saved our lives #books have always saved my life #neil gaiman #Neil Gaiman we are in your walls

[autumn-opossum]

My theory for why Dr Hemlock’s hand is always hurting is that he’s a beginner crocheter who hasn’t learned how to properly hold his tension yet. The glove is a compression glove

#he wanted to start up a side business in case the whole evil scientist thing doesn’t work out #I’m definitely correct #dr hemlock #royce hemlock #dr royce hemlock #the bad batch #tbb #star wars #ster wers #i’ll actually be so annoyed though if we never get an explanation #very sick of the disabled villain for the sake of reflecting their corrupt nature trope #either way it’s still using that trope #but it would be slightly less annoying if we’re given an actual reason for it

[mcybree]

Thoughts on 3rd life mirror birds. 3rd life big dogs. 3rd life property police. They fascinate me and I think you have thoughts on them but I might be wrong..either way

i do in fact have thoughts on them but i think if i talk about 3l!flower husbands publicly any more rn I’ll get so self conscious I’ll explode on the spot. this being said i have still yet to watch evo but its been on my list for forever bc of 3l!property police specifically… i really love martyns petty grudge against jimmy for those first two episodes he acts like he’s 12 and really pissed off on the playground. anyways i think that martyn going from being concerned for his friend to Just Fucking Lying to split up Scott and Jimmy, because he took personal offense to Jimmy being unwilling to drop everything to go live with him on the spot is the funniest thing in the world. Girl it’s not about you

#asks #for real though i think that martyn played up his offense at jimmy not taking the offer in order to pressure him into agreeing bc— #stuff like “oooh this is your ONE CHANCE for FUN OPPORTUNITY and if you miss it WE’RE NOT FRIENDS ANYMORE!!” typically works on jimmy #but martyn wasnt expecting jimmy to stand his ground on that #And at that point (in martyns mind at least) you Have to commit. so then the mock offense became Real. bc what can you do #he cant just go back on it and go like “sorry i was just worried and wanted you to live with me bc i miss you and— #dont think scott is treating you well” martyn would never be that honest with himself much less jimmy #The offer in itself was somewhat selfish to begin with in my mind as well #He did just want Jimmy to come live with him so he saw the opportunity and jumped at it. he’s an opportunist #but i also think he originally followed jimmy and brought it up with him out of concern. does that make sense #a little while after their falling out i think he fully puts jimmy out of his mind #“Jimmys a lost cause he’s clearly done with me. Why should i care when he clearly has a nice loving husband he cares sooo much about #(eyeroll emoji) lets save grian” <- what i think he was thinking #he didnt mean for jimmy to die #but what happens happens yknow. the games the game #sorry for putting all of my Real Thoughts in the tags i wasnt expecting to write them out honestly #i just think about their conversation on that mountain a lot….bigb moves into that specific spot later and martyn gives him shit about it #Which means something to me also (<- bigb and martyn pilled individual) #etc.etc

[tomatoluvr69]

Guess who just got between a mama bear and her cubs LOL

#I’m a cool customer I played it off legit. by trespassing. but I do feel it was warranted #honestly you guys have no reason to believe me. but my lifestyle is insane #and I live in black bear country. #NOT grizzly I should add. i would not be posting this #these bears are well habituated. we saw the first one but could barely make it out in the moonlight and then kept walking #then we were like fuck. that’s three more bears and we’re straight up just in between them #we cut through a sheep grazing field and some barns though #i mean what was I gonna do. just not go to my car. i got work tomorrow. it’s pollen season

[brookheimer]

my boss: write an 800-1000 word piece on the truman show’s 25th anniversary

me: *currently 5000 words into dissecting the history of a subgenre i coined mid-article*

#yes it’s about the truman show. yes it’s about gaslight media which flourished from 2003-2005 had a failed revival in 2014-2015 and is has #been coming back with a vengeance the past few years due to our widespread fascination with gaslighting as a concept and newfound cultural #familiarity with it in day to day life allowing us to take comfort even from shows using machinations of manipulation as their entire format #in a way we couldn’t in the early 2000s when said format was almost solely used for the humiliation of unsuspecting citizens #now though we’ve come to see it as a bad but almost ubiquitous aspect of life so we find more comfort in witnessing it occur in a ‘positive’ #way than not witnessing it occur at all because we automatically assume it is anyways and we’re the targets #sorry if this didn’t make sense. it does if you’re me #aka if you spent the entire day frantically researching every reality tv hoax to ever air with rabid fascination #and also the truman show. also that #i don’t understand how people in theory heavy fields are able to suddenly shift to write pithy simple cultural commentary on slate #how do you pivot like that. how do you not say all the things you want to say #like…. maybe i am not cut out for this. maybe i’m only cut out for academia. except also FUCK that i don’t want to be a professor #in other words: i am fucked #why can’t i just write giant analyses of everything and get money for them. wdym that’s not how the world works #lol not like i’m getting money for this either. getting paid in experience baby #(read: i am incredibly broke and in desperate search for a second job. fuuuuuck unpaid labor i love capitalism love it)

[steviescrystals]

i seriously need to get a new job and start making money again asap bc i cannot keep living at home much longer it’s driving me insane

(wrote an entire essay in the tags without meaning to oops)

#i feel so isolated from everything bc i’m not in school rn but all my friends are and 90% of the ones who are in state go to the same school #so they’re all in the same town and here i am 45 minutes away #i never get invited to anything bc 1) my friends all tend to make plans really last minute #and 2) if we want to go out and drink - which we usually do bc that’s the stage of life we’re in rn - i’d have to stay the night with #someone bc i absolutely cannot afford a 45 minute uber home and most of my friends don’t like staying over / having people stay over #so i have basically no social life and it’s only gotten worse in the past couple months since i got laid off from my main job #not only did i love that job but i loved my coworkers and work was pretty much the only time i left the house and interacted with people #and without that job i can’t even do the little solo things i used to do to cheer myself up like go see a movie #or even just go for a long drive bc i’m broke (as in i have $17 in cash to my name and am like $1000 in debt rn) #so all i do is rot in bed all day and apply for jobs that i’m overqualified for yet still don’t get hired #i barely even leave my room bc i avoid my family which just makes me feel guilty bc i love my family #but they get on my nerves so easily and most of the conversations i have with my mom end in her lecturing me about something and me crying #and on top of everything it’s just straight up embarrassing to be unemployed and completely directionless about college and living at home #logically i know i’m still very young and it’s common to live at home when you’re 20 but literally none of my friends do #i had a couple friends who lived at home for the first 2 years after high school and went to community college but by now they’ve moved out #and they’re all at universities and either graduating this year or next year meanwhile the earliest i could possibly graduate is in 2 years #i should be finishing my junior year rn but i’ve only completed my freshman year #i hated the school i was at and planned on transferring sophomore year but long story short that didn’t work out #even longer story short i ended up doing a semester each at 2 different community colleges and failed all my classes both times #and took 2 semesters off so now i’m a full 2 years behind and even though my freshman year was miserable #i’m starting to wish i stayed at that school anyway bc at least i would be at a university and accomplishing something #plus theres a huge difference between staying at home for a couple years after high school then moving out later #vs living on your own right away then having to move back home after you’ve already experienced having your own space #and on top of everything i have an older sister who’s a literal genius and graduated last year #and a younger sister who just finished her freshman year at the school i hated but she loves it and got perfect grades and made friends #so they’re both thriving and here i am living with my mom and my 13 year old brother and just completely failing at everything #i’m just so miserable and obviously moving out again and going back to school wouldn’t magically fix everything #but at least i would feel like my life was going somewhere and i wasn’t getting left behind by everyone i know #i just have no idea how to move forward and i feel like ever since high school not a single thing has gone the way i wanted it to #vent

[getosugurusbangs]

tfw you have a much worse day than you’ve been having

#today has been shit 👍 #hoping it’ll get better later but who knows #broke down as soon as i got out of the shower earlier #because i realized some really sad shit about myself #i was supposed to be up early today - and i was. but i didn’t get nearly enough sleep so i went against the plan and went back to sleep #for several hours (and ended up being properly awake a bit later than i really wanted to be) #and now even though i’m not really tired or anything. i just want to sleep #i can barely get any work done #as much as i want to #so we’re doing great today #me.txt

[bloomingtrans]

University lgbt center lore drop when?? (/lh)

im gonna be so real anon every time i think it cannot get worse it does!! but just one example: cis white gay director tries to make a ranked list of the most marginalized students on campus. puts black and brown students on the same line. and then adds christian students (not queer christians, just christians). guy who understands how marginalization works.

also when asked why the candidates for the new leadership position were all white (one of whom is his close friend from his old job at the student health center) he pointed to the one (1) latine person on the list and made some shrugging noises about “qualifications” 😑

#I WISH I WAS JOKING. he was convinced down from ranking the list but he did all of that afterwards #obviously i think the lgbt center is super important and im very grateful that we have the resource and theres a ton of goodwork we’re doin #unfortunately our new director is fucking useless after the previous black trans gnc director was exploited #out of the job back to the midwest. so. #also hes trying to turn the center into his old job doing health education lmfao #also he kept calling the student staff lazy behind our backs because we werent doing ‘enough’ work even though he never. communicated this #to us #there’s also a contingent of transphobe fascists in town that we’re dealing with so thats been fun #Three more weeks and then im free… #asks #anon #nate.txt

[perereiii]

made the decision (I have ap exams in a week) to finally write down what I consider dimensions, universes, time travel, etc in pop culture (I have ap exams in a week) which is great and it’d be fun to turn it into a space looking infographic like thing with a cute artstyle and little references to shows that involve dimensional travel (I have ap exams in a week) but I’m not done and I’m starting to get really tired of trying to conceptualize infinity and how interactions would play out (I have ap exams in a week) because I’m basing what’s less standardized by pop culture on our actual universe so things are more codified and less willy-nilly while still making sense like putting dimensions with similar attributes into families and trying to determine what makes a subdimension and how they operate to fit close enough to pop cultures definition while still having some ground in reality (I have ap exams in a week) I think I should keep working on this

#-Raven #*sighs woefully* damn me #I’m tired of the trig homework that I also have to work on becuase it’s due tomorrow so I’m trying to make sense #of frankly a bastardized version of dimensions #by turning it into something standardized enough to go off of whenever writing drawing or even thinking about dynamics between dimensions #brought to you by the simple innocent question of how the hell does ford’s portal work in gravity falls #I am doing this for fun. I AM DOING THIS FOR FUN #because I didn’t want to do math #I’m going to math disguised as cool space science to escape math #help me. #I’ve already done a quick calculation to determine unique combinations of letters to classify #the dimensional families. it can be assumed that there’s infinite dimensions as #we already assume that the universe is infinite (though by going for multiple travelable dimensions we’re assuming that universes are #limited. which is a hypothesis out there but I’m not delving into that) #but grouping the major families (which is technically a smaller infinity in of itself) #there’s more classification for some poor soul who decides they want to travel dimensions #i’m having so much fun (sarc but also not. it’s interesting but my head is starting to hurt) #damn you stanford for using bullshit science to make your portal and damn you again for mixing up your terms so much

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

[tacit-semantics]

Did Not figure out the job situation but I DID finish crocheting my planthopper nymph so. I have nothing to finish this with actually those are just sorta two things that happened there’s next to no relation

#id in alt #god I could make SUCH a good flea. or a weevil. projects for another day though we have to figure out other stuff first :((((( #honestly not that big a fan of this one but that’s ok it’s ok he’s the best she’s my very best friend. it’s cool it’s cool we’re cool #insects #bugs #crochet #amigurumi #fiber arts #my work

[kohakhearts]

cons of going to a “good schoolTM”: insane workload, unbearable classmates, next to no support when you have any kind of extenuating circumstances Including literal hospitalization, etc

pros of going to a “good schoolTM”: the 9-5 lifestyle is genuinely a major improvement

#taylor.txt #the extenuating circumstances point was not me btw. i know someone who had his degree delayed an entire year because of two weeks in psych #we’re in a co-op program or else maybe it wouldve just been one semester but. lol #i hate it here…i hate it #but hey…at least i have the world’s shittiest health insurance! #some of my classmates say they dont feel like working full-time is easier than going to school full-time but it so is #for me. anyway. even when i fumbled my time management bad on the field and make no mistake i was incredibly busy plus i chose a field #notorious for Unpaid Overtime and Taking Your Work Home. even then. it was still easier than this #i would never do undergrad again. i loved everything i learned. i took interesting and awesome classes #but i would never ever do it again. miserable overworked spent most of it friendless until i got on the field #i have a friend who keeps being like idk how you did 4 physics classes this sem and im like girl we are education students…thats an average #semester for a physics major. how must THEY feel #also i have to say just you know. generally. ive worked full-time while living with my parents #AND while living alone. and 50 hours a week was incredibly manageable in the former arrangement. i even wrote and edited an entire novel #in the beginning stages of a pandemic while working 50 hours a week of retail and fast food hell. 40 hours full-time with weekends off #while living alone though? thats hard. i still managed to go to the gym almost every day #currently? i cant get out of bed in the morning. i am putting in 12 hour days and then goinng to bed unable to sleep because im so stressed #i have dreams about school. tangentially theres a really good marxist poem i read last year about this phenomenon in workers #ANYWAY. i have just 8 more days 4 exams 1 research paper and video project #i think i can pass and then thats it. my next semester is hell but just because scheduling the actual classes will be easy #and then i get to go back on the field and actually want to wake up every day. lol #and 8 days from now i will have my christmas shopping done and my apartment will be clean and i will be a fanfic writing machine #also my friends and i booked a demolition room so im sure that will be beneficial kfldjfldndks

[lesbiansanemi]

I maybe potentially (most likely) have covid but my job is being so fucking cagey about if I’m going to be on the receiving end of disciplinary action for not coming in because of it. I have multiple symptoms of it and was in close contact for an extended period of time with two people who have tested positive for it. I went to get an official test from an urgent care place (because I was told I need proof for my job), and was told it would be up to 48 hours until I get results and until then I needed to self isolate and then obviously continue if the test is positive. They wrote me a note saying to excuse me from my job which I emailed to them. But they keep emailing me like “well the cdc says isolation is no longer necessary so…. If you don’t have a fever you’re supposed to come in” and now I’m so paranoid that I’m going to get write ups for not coming in despite having a literal doctor’s note telling me not to because all covid protections have been so thoroughly axed and it’s treated like any “normal” illness (though this shouldn’t be okay for ANY illness, not just covid) and if you don’t have sick time (which most places don’t supply at all, or if they do, it’s a dismal amount) you have to come in or experience the consequences and I’m just 🙃🙃🙃 so anxious about it and also I fucking hate this country for putting MILLIONS of people in this position where they have to choose between not going work but risking being fired and losing their livelihoods which leads to SO many risks if you have no safety net (and most people don’t) OR going in because you just don’t have a choice but you’re miserable and actively spreading highly infectious diseases to multiple other people. I truly don’t understand how there are people who look at this system and act like it’s fine

#I’m lucky enough that my job won’t straight up fire me #I’ll likely get a write up I think but I’ve never had one before and we’re so chronically understaffed that I won’t be fired #it’s still nerve wracking though… #and I know most people don’t even have THAT much of a safety net #I just straight up don’t understand how jobs can straight up be like ‘we don’t care that you have a doctor’s note come in anyways or we’re #writing you up’ like how is that fucking legal #because it’s America and all we care about is profit and controlling everything about a person’s life I know that #but still #not to mention the classism of the fact that most ppl can’t even get doctor’s notes anyways #that in of itself is a privilege #but Jesus fucking Christ #like I’m not going in tomorrow cuz I’m waiting on test results and healthcare professionals have told me to isolate #but the fact that I’m in this position at all is insidious #jobs should just be like ‘okay! got it! see you when the isolation period is over and/or you’ve been cleared by a doctor’ #the fact that it’s ANY other response is deeply evil imo #never mind my health like I’ll be fine I’m a mostly healthy person #but everyone I could potentially infect that could then experience LIFE ALTERING or maybe even ending consequences???? #I know it’s been said before but the flippant disregard for human life is so…. #like I said I genuinely think it’s cartoonishly evil that it works this way #and if you try and argue against it or point out it shouldn’t be this way you’re just some crazy lazy commie or whatever #lord #kaz rambles