#wanna give one so bad tbh

[aroaceleovaldez]

Nico and Percy's dynamic through the series is eternally funny to me, because it's just. like.

Percy's having a constant mental struggle between his fatal flaw of loyalty with a promise he made to Bianca to protect Nico, versus his Big 3 kid desire to maim other Big 3 kids / Poseidon descendant urge to totally maim Nico specifically. He hates Nico so so much. He thinks Nico's annoying and weird at best, and creepy/sketchy when he's older. The only positive thoughts Percy has towards Nico are "He's Bianca's brother and Bianca was my friend and I owe her/He's Hazel's brother and Hazel is my friend and would kill me if I was mean to him," "He's a powerful asset and useful ally (if questionable)," and "He's kinda pathetic and I feel maybe a little bad about it." Percy has multiple occasions throughout the series where he strongly considers - and on one occasionally actually goes through with - throttling Nico.

Meanwhile, Nico is following around Percy like a lost puppy. He explicitly can never bring himself to even dislike anything about Percy no matter how hard he tries. He has a whole bit in BoO where he's mentally going "UGH he's so stupid BUT IT'S ENDEARING HOW DARE HE." He's totally smitten. He's making deals with his dad for Percy. He's making convoluted plans to help Percy stand a chance against Kronos. During the entirety of BoTL it's like he's playing tsundere - "I'm helping NOT PERCY SPECIFICALLY with this quest! Me helping Percy would be SILLY because I DEFINITELY HATE HIM." Then he proceeds to show up to Percy's birthday party to basically ask him on a weird date and spend the entire next book scrambling around trying to help him or protect him or impress him. And Percy could not give less of a shit.

Just. That dynamic is so funny to me. Percy is the founder of the Nico Protection Club in that he's the one they're all protecting Nico from and meanwhile Nico is throwing himself at Percy to the point where the literal god of gay love calls him out on it.

#pjo #percy jackson #nico di angelo #Percy shows up at CJ and squints at Nico like ''hm. why do i feel like i hate you? like i just wanna punch you in the face?'' #and Nico just immediately goes ''huh no idea anyways i have to go-'' and jumps into Tartarus #but not before he gives Hazel essentially a detailed explanation of ''this is Percy i cant say much but please dont let him die <3'' #and Nico's whole Tartarus trip was basically a whole ''im doing this so no one else has to'' #only for Percy and Annabeth to fall in like one book later and Nico proceeds to spend the next book internally screaming about it #and then Cupid calls him out on it and the next book #Nico's just like ''at this point im hoping i keel over within the next week just so i can force this dumb crush to chill the fuck out'' #Nico staring pointedly at Will: ''For my own sake i need to form another crush RIGHT NOW so i can finally get over Percy.'' #''this has been so bad for my health'' #Nico's crush on Percy is just too funny to me. horrible pick my guy. terrible job. love that for you. he could not be less interested. #Percy LITERALLY TRIES TO KILL NICO and ditch him in the underworld and Nico is somehow STILL like ''but i love him'' #Percy basically chokes him. beats up his dad. tells him ''go get smited by your dad for me.'' and ditches him. #and Nico's opinions/crush on him DO NOT CHANGE #though also Nico's reaction to Percy beating up his dad + skeletons is SO funny. his jaw is on the floor. he's flustered about it. #he just witnessed Percy be incredibly hot and proceeded to go ''yea i'll do anything for this man. collect reinforcements of 3 gods? sure'' #nico you absolute DISASTER with HORRIBLE TASTE. you can do better. raise your standards. #which tbh is funnier when you factor in sun and the star. Nico just wont stop crushing on guys who dislike him and everything he stands for

[victimized-martyr]

As awful as Cartman is, his true desires are simple. He just wants attention and praise— and it’s not only important to Cartman that he gets that praise, but also by whom it’s being said. (there’s a reason Jimbo is one of the people to say good job)

#south park #he could have gotten this praise honestly too. he’s always so close yet so far #trey rly said ‘he doesn’t wanna rule the world or crush his enemies he just wants praise’ and i’m listening trey i hear you!! #i’m taking notes!! #moments like this is why i’m so adamant that he’s an ennea 3 and not an 8 like most ppl assume #8s as well as any ennea appreciate praise but it’s not a priority #usually it’s the success of the business and seeing it grow that would empower an 8 #but for 3s seei bc how their success is turning the public’s eyes towards them and praising them for their efforts— #for THAT specifically for Cartman’s voice to wobble and say it’s a dream come true— i’m furiously pointing at the screen like leo dicaprio #that’s a signature 3 wish #eric cartman #cartman #I think his more specific wish of being a hero (that’s been brought up more than once) is also worth looking into #he doesn’t wanna be seen as the bad guy even though he’s objectively the worst person in SP #one person was missing in that gaggle of ppl giving praise but tbh if he showed up cartman would literally die on the spot

[oh-meow-swirls]

was looking through old posts and i'm surprised to see that i seemingly didn't have any commentary on anything in 3 in chapter 7, 8 or 9, the posts related to 3's story go from "my first reaction when i saw yopple-bot was 'i love you. but also you are definitely the boss for this chapter-'" to "i have been in hell all day. hell being bada-bing tower." funny to me cuz those chapters are like, the best ones sdfkljsdfjfsdkjlfsdjkl-

#puppy rambles #yo-kai watch #yw3 #i love dukesville. yo-kai watch wild west. though also everyone in bbq talks like they're in the wild west- #i don't blame myself for not having any commentary on hazeltine mansion tbh. it sucks ass. i mean it's kind of fun but like #god is it annoying. i think using the mechanic of switching between nate and hailey for puzzles is a cool idea but. bad execution #very bad execution. it is so annoying #especially the section where you're in the basement and have to use the drill a bunch #... why are there prison cells in the basement anyways??????? i just realized how fucking weird that is- #i'm mostly just annoyed by the dining room puzzle tbh. i KNOW the fucking answers but verygoodsir is an ASSHOLE for some reason #and won't let me choose the FUCKING CORRECT DOORS #3's so fucking amazing tbh. i really wanna replay it soon. don't wanna have to delete a save file though #wish 3 had three save files like 1 and 2. i get why though i mean it's the biggest 3ds game klsfdjfskjfsdjksdf- #i wanna like. actually use my originyan for once. i might just end up using nyases ii instead tho fsdkljjdsfjskd- #i love every chapter in 3 after nate and hailey meet tbh. the bestie moments are so good #though also i don't think it was an amazing idea tbh. it means there's six main characters after that point #sometimes one character will go several cutscenes without talking at all. it's usually buck #he doesn't have any dialogue during any of the key quests in new yo-kai city. which is pretty amusing admittedly #i think the writers just forgot about him or something fslkdjdfslkjfsdljkdf- #i think my favorite thing related to that is like. during the stuff in bada-bing tower komasan and komajiro are there too #but they don't have any dialogue. which makes it seem kind of pointless #i get why they're there plot-wise but like. at that point you should either have them leave before you go to bada-bing tower #(esp since they don't end up in the ufo with everyone else. idr if there's a reason for that there probably isn't-) #(i think i slightly blocked out everything in bada-bing tower cuz it is so grueling) #or just. give them dialogue??? #i love 3 and all but it definitely has some problems- #which is why i'm so excited to rewrite it <3 for both of those reasons. i can fix things. and also it's the best game #just. full-stop. not just the best yo-kai watch. i just think it's the best game ever #that title changes based on my current biggest hyperfixation though sfldfsjdkslfdjkfdj- #i think i'd say my overall top 5 is like. yo-kai watch 3. deltarune. ummmm. fantasy life is up there

[p-p-panda]

Random art vent lol

I get tired of constantly pouring my heart out when asked about my stuff only for it to fall flat. Like why did they even ask me to begin with??? Just to tease me??? 😭 bruh

#this is very different than what I usually post #I don’t really like doing it but tbh this has been bothering me for the past couple of months in different places I’m active in #and it’s starting to become annoying #i listen to everyone’s lore and ocs or whatever the convo is only to end up with like one reply and they die on me. AND IT KEEPS HAPPENING #IN DIFFERENT Group chats #man I’m just so tired of even lore dumping all the time at this point 💀 #it seems like when I actually have the motivation to finally open up that’s when I get ignored the most :/ #I’m probably being a sensitive baby rn so I might delete this later. only wanted to get it off my chest #i can listen to other people talk for hours then the second I speak it feels like bore everyone 😔 #i only have like 1 or 2 people that actually listen to me when it’s my turn but most of the time I’m always listening. which isn’t bad but #man #it hurts and kinda makes me wanna cry lmao #and it makes me just half ass shit at this point when people ask about my ocs/lore since I don’t know if they want a tiny bit of info or #if they’re actually intrigued :/ I just give up now #ok I’m done this is way too long ahaha #vent #it’s not that I constantly want atteion because I don’t and I love listening to other people and sometimes when I ask they don’t talk to me #but will to someone els even when I’m super invested so idk at this point #😞 #i admit I have times when I’m shy but it mostly due to not wanting to wast peoples time anymore #ok I will shut to the up #gn #it’s like 1am for me #and I really don’t want people to ask only because of this post. trust me that’s not what I’m trying to do i swear. only getting out feels

[bunnihearted]

📖🖊❄️

#journal dump bc i have too much on my mind #1) i HATE my neighbors. theres never one quiet moment. they stomp around and slam cabinets all the time it feels like #2) ​i've been reading more recently even if concentration's hard bc of noise. but i also feel like there r too many books i wanna read #but yeah. too little time. so instead i cant settle on a book and kinda dont even read as much as i want to. a stupid problem really #3) it's crazy to say but i wish i had a part time job. sitting at home 24/7 for 5/6 years has been SO terrible for me. #everything feels meaningless. every day is the exact same. im not LIVING. im rotting away and all my issues get worse. im also so fkn bored #and i dont wanna sit at home and do assignments (even if thats what i technically should be doing) #i want a job to go to which takes me away from home + gives me money #then i can come home and sit and rot and ENJOY it. bc now my lazy time is only smth negative and bad for me :/ #ofc i hate the mere thought of having some soul sucking utterly pointless job and our capitalist society is a slave hellhole. but.. as it is #im not even able to enjoy ANY of my time bc all my time feels bad. plus im only getting poorer and poorer so i cant afford to buy anything #4) im so fkn bored and going crazy from eating the exact same food every single day for the third month now. im sick of it #everything tastes so bland and disgusting. it's genuinely making me depressed 😭 i wanna eat REAL food. im so tired bc no nutrition :(( #i cant do anything except wait for my appt w the doctor next week and hope they put me on a waiting list for surgery.. but ong im sick of it #5) i miss my sisters :/ we live in the same apartment but its like i've completely ceased to exist to them #except when they need to be passive aggressive to me. lol. i miss them. but they just dont wanna talk to me :/ #but tbh. most of all... i just want my health issue to be over so my body can function normally again. #i can face anything in life if i can come home to a cup of coffee nd some chocolate ^-^ <333

[malikselfindulgence]

GUST/SILVERWIND SHIPPING (unless tumblr decimated my ask)

DW I RECIEVED YOUR ASK !!! just been wanting to draw stuff 4 me lately but I will get to requests soon esp now that finals r done :33 here's a mini Rie + some old ass Morros from my other acc for your troubles ....

POWPOW MORRO BLAST !!!! I need to draw him More ....

#hope you dont mind the random echo/citrus in there it was for rarepair week :3 #malik's asks #iguess this is art but also . its all posted on my ninjago acc anyways so . shrugs #the drawing w the purple accents is now gustshipping coded . ive decided #its also th3 most reccent . i heart giving him edgy earrings . <3 #I didnt like the citrus one at first but tbh looking back at it . I like the colors :33 #okim just rambling rn my bad #OHALSO THE MORRO W DREADS I WANNA DRAW HIM W DREADS TOO BUT i might just post it on my ninjago acc ??? ILL TAG YOU IF I DO !! #IFTHATS COOL

[tvrningout-a]

hmm how would we feel if i remade

#i am so horrible about feeling okay with deleting drafts or asks and tbh i think i've overwhelmed myself with options #i'm hanging onto everything i've ever been sent and everything i've written and it gives me decision paralysis #like i wanna write and the muse is booming but i can't decide on one thing #and tbh!! this blog won't save new tags which is a minor inconvenience but still #there's that and the fact that there's so much extra stuff from muses i've gotten rid of #hmm i dunno i'm just thinking once again i just need a clean slate and to hopefully manage my inbox and drafts more responsibly #like i write as much as i can for certain prompts and then delete everything i don't have muse for #so i don't open my blog one day to 200+ asks that are unanswered #me @ me every day: pls get some help oh my gosh #i will say i hate the thought of moving bio's and headcanons but! we do it in chunks and then it's not so bad :' ) #sorry to ramble so much asdfg i'm just wondering if on top of everything that's going on rn #i'm not helping myself by holding onto so much #get ready to ramble | ooc

[designedparadigm]

i really do wanna like put some more limelight onto my ocs!!! i wanna be like everyone else and have that balance where people are open to my ocs or my canons! it's great and fun to write canons and all that but like where's the oc & oc love that used to be around i miss doing like... oc stuff and making all this fun original stuff with other people!

it's great i have like a couple of people too who actually do this regularly but i just! kinda wish all of us did it more. because i really! enjoy my ocs! and i think i write them well! just as well as my canons! and i'd really just like to feel like they're just as valued!!

#out / kings decree #just thoughts lately #it's not bad to want oc and canon stuff but #ye know. #be really cool to like do oc and oc stuff and be excited about ocs again! #breathe life into oc spaces. make everyone who has ocs feel seen & appreciated! #ocs can be just as good if not better than canons #& i feel like i have that in cash & riah #riah i am so happy some of you love tbh she's just a hard favorite of mine #i just wanna do more with cash too bc! i offer him out and it feels like no one cares so it's a little! frustrating! #i'm gonna give what i get fellas and if it ain't equal i'mma start easin back with the canons #be fair to people!!

[pyromaniac-cyndaquil]

pmd chatot for blorbo bingo? ^^

He's a silly rabbit. I love him

#anonymous #wondermail #tbh w chatot i think ppl jump from one extreme to the other of either 'horrible capitalist' #or 'genuinely plans everything out to test people's faith and is Always Trusting And Good W Protags' #but i think there's more nuance to it than that #he does make mistakes! and he laughs nervously and tries too hard to cover it up and that's why i love him honestly #like when wigglytuff says chatot clearly believed hero and partner all along i think he was trying to give him an out #and chatot could tell and gratefully took that #he's flawed and that's okay!!!! it doesn't make him any less passionate or caring #he's just the head of intelligence and trying to run w what he thinks is logical #anyway. love this disaster birb. will fight ppl who make hating him their personality. (except eots hero bc their dynamic is awesome) #*dives back in w more tags* OKAY HIM NOT BELIEVING THEM ABOUT THE FUTURE AT FIRST MAKES ME THINK OF PARTNER REFUSING TO BELIEVE GROVYLE #it's not a slight to them it's just. he idolised dusknoir and he's in denial. he doesn't wanna believe things went so bad #and honestly i think he's probably wanting to avoid the idea that he let hero and partner down by letting dusknoir so close if he was bad #so he rejects that reality #damn now i wanna make a post about this #but I've also seen the aftermath of my mutuals facing backlash for chatotposting and it's like hmm. ppl can be so negative about him huh

[mythology-void]

watching S2 of ATLA and why did no one tell me zuko had them pretty pretty man titties

#gonna honk those bazonkas #he's soooo pretty i just wanna #mmm he's so broken i just wanna sprinkle some more ✨trauma✨ on him #long hair zuko supremacy tbh #not looking for a father figure but i am looking for a DADDY #atla zuko #prince zuko #zuko #long hair zuko #I'd fuck him your honor #that one ep when he was dumping water on his head had me so down bad #i can give you smth to drink pretty boy #anyway im unwell #broken boys with long hair are my kryptonite #avatar the last airbender #avatar #nickolodeon #the sound affects are hnggnghhhh #making me feel things #atla livepost

[donrotbrain]

I set up a little randomizer thing to practice drawing turtles and expressions. It’s over for my depression as soon as i can draw all my boys

#tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #my art #tmnt fandom #fanart #rottmnt #messy sketch #rise of the tmnt #tmnt 2012 #tmnt 2003 #tmnt raph #rise of tmnt raph #tmnt 2k12 mikey #actually i rerolled the mikey one twice because i felt bad hurting the boy but it kept giving me mikeys #was like: oh you dont wanna hurt rise mikey? ok hurt 2012 #my rise raph looks so goofy #its the first time i draw him tbh #but also i think i really like drawing him #hes so friendly #but like also so big its such a fun combo #classic gentle giant #i draw the 03 turtles all the same basically #2012 turtles are the hardest for me to draw #mikey is the easiest though #drawing any turtle is too powerful of an ability #tiny me would be so happy

[snailfen]

i think the stuff i post abt the dragon tamer in servers makes them look more fearless and tough than they really are

#THE REASON THEY ARE LIKE THAT: i fucked up and accidentally gave a scug the darkest backstory ive ever made. idk what happened #poor fucked up little cat. get them one of those sweaters they give to dogs with anxiety or something #they really are just... a cheetah with a therapy dog. except its a dog with a therapy cheetah and there are multiple cheetahs #also i felt inspired to do anthro designs for most of my slugcat ocs... i wanna digitalize them first but ill share em sometime #also with people throwing around human vers of their iterators... i might do that too actually but i need my designs to be set in stone #i want to draw burning curiosity SO BAD but i have NO time 💔 midterms and also big school workload. its a pain #oc: call from the constellations #oc: the dragon tamer #slugcat oc #iterator oc #my art #also started workshopping my designs for the mother but. tbh i might not use straight up noodlefly colors like i planned #cus i dont like how its turning out honestly! then again im not colorpicking LOL #i might steal a design from a certain background slug i drew in the dragon tamers backstory doodles... cus theyre cute i cant not use it #no idea how im gonna factor her needle into her design but oh well! maybe ill make it a stinger or something

[ratscabies]

being a university instructor is actually really hard bc I want nothing more than to be nice and accommodating and understanding with my students, but like. baby I can lead a horse to water but I can't make it drink!!

#my class grades are essentially effort based too #im not grading students on the 'goodness' of their writing but rather marking their assignments complete or incomplete #based on if they followed the proper format of the assignment #and then i give feedback and give all students an opportunity to revise and resubmit for a complete grade #and final course grades are based on grading contracts so students decide what grade they wanna work towards #and then complete the assignments associated with that grade #and honestly i am very lax with my grading and feedback #the only way to fail this course is to turn nothing in #but like a fifth or sixth of my class is failing rn bc they havent turned anything in despite me trying to work with them #and it's like. i feel bad but having them email me NOW with less than 2 wks left of the semester asking how they can pass the class #is infuriating tbh!! #listen im just one person with my own life and my own struggles and my own classes to deal with #ive tried all semester to help you #'how can i pass your class??' #baby youre not gonna #i know most of my students are first semester college freshmen #but its like youre an adult learn how to take care of your shit #ive tried holding your hand throughout the entire semester to get you to pass #and youve rejected it #you made your bed you better lie in it

[alchemiclee]

I didn't like blade at first for some reason. too edgy and emo and seemed generic like a sasuke (I never liked sasuke lmao) when I learned about yingxing, I really liked him but still didn't like blade. now I like both for some reason even if yinxing is a dumbass who did this to himself. but blade grew on me somwhow, and someone really needs to gently hold him or something. that poor man. he's so broken. give him a break 😭

#why do i often end up like the sad tragic characters #sometimes even ones that do evil shit because i feel bad for them or something lmao #lee text #hsr #if they really wanna make us sad they can end game give him a purpose and reason to live but then make him die permanently 😈 #because its what he askd for all this time ans its granted to him and he realizes in the end he made a mistake and isnt ready yet #(i doubt theyll do that but it would amuse me to see people's reactions fbfdhjsj) #i doubt blade will have a happy ending and it would be weird if they dont end him at the end #also dan heng needs a hug. hes also a mess and wont leave his room right now fhdjjdjjsjs #i hope he can open up to his friends more at some point and they become closer and rely on each other more????? #he has hope of moving on with them. but what if he also ends up tragically ending fhfdhjddj blade still wont let him go #tbh ive kinda lost faith in the writers writing a good story. they rush things and everything is disconnected and many holes #so idk if it'll end up being a good story at this point 😅 maybe my expectations are too high for this type of game idk #but they did show good potential and kinda threw it away imo fhbfdjjdjdkd #what am i rambling about

[kaserolly]

I cried so much today and NGL I'm ready to cry again

#this day was just... bad. one of the worst ever #but tbh ive had such a bad week overall bnhghhfh #it hurts to see so many close ppl suffering... while i myself am hurting as well... i wanna help them i wanna heal them #idk i just feel like its my fault... like i made them suffer #its a stupid thought i know bghgghg but i cant help but believe it... #my parents are already stressed cuz of work and cuz of the health of my grandparents... and im starting to become one of their problems #i... havent been well these past few months. i cant say what exactly is going on gvggg but its getting worse abd worse #even if i tell myself that its fetting beyyer i know its a big lie hghhggg #im hurting others... heck i bet im hurting the one i love the most rn... #it hurts so much bbhghh i wish i could heal others i wish i wasnt a nuisance #im not ok i was never ok i jysr wish i can just stop i wish i was a happy and healthy and confident person #but ill never be one... ill always be a nuisance and i can never give people happiness and love... #im starting to cry rn huthhhbim so useless... #im sorry everyone... its my fault its always been my fault

[phantom-does-a-thing]

Good when schools start offering and asking pronouns to be more inclusive!

Bad when I’m closeted and having to box myself into one pronoun set is very upsetting and painful.

#thinking of this again #it hurts so bad tbh like I got a physical pained reaction when we had to do that in anatomy class #bc she asked us to go around introducing ourself and we had to give pronouns #and so I had to use she/her bc I don’t wanna out myself #but that’s confining me to one pronoun and I hate it. #it really hurt a lot and I’m thinking about this getting myself all worked up #it’s good schools are trying to be more inclusive here #and they’re trying to be more open and welcoming #it is nice to see teachers sign off their messages with their name and pronouns #but yea it hurts a lot #rambling #phever dreams with phantom #my relationship w gender n pronouns is so complicated