#wait thats not a bad thought

[dizzybizz]

sleepy gill and gill with the bubbled evil cat

#hi remember when i thought i was in for a really bad bout of hsr fixation. lets see how thats going.. lets just check in and #oh . oh no. oh this was. this wasnt the plan. oh no #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #gill in pjs got to me ok. gill fighting in pjs got to me. the thought of gill sleeping in a barrel of water with pjs on got to me. #wheni tell you this fkn podcast is the only thing ive been thinking abt for the past few days dude what thef uck #theyre all so stupid they get up to so much bs its fkn great i lvoe the three of them so mcuh WHEHhghh >:'O #my art #i keep nearly forgetting that tag help??? #ive slowly been getting used to drawing them jsut you wait til i feel good abt the designs n shit ok its gonna be epic or smth #oop s its 1am soon whoopsies ehehee but like ..... the dumbasses... theyre in my head.. #there are so many stupid scenes i want to draw 😭😭😭😭😭 #im sorry to. my friends. for jsut . yknow. and everyone really #i wasnt ready for this 😭 idk what happened i just started going through eps so quickly all of a sudden and ive gone through like 12 eps in #2-3 days and i feel absolutely insane and i think abt them so much. theyve taken up all my time help

[coolnonsenseworld]

Samurai and Ninja in crappy pics because December here is under a constant cloud and I just want y'all to see them all golden and cute without learning how to take aesthetic pictures 🥴 💙❤️😆🥰

linktr.ee/Mezzy

#klance #can i tell everyone to look away before i write tags to someone privately lmao no? damn #anyway yes i meant music!! and thank you for sharing something!! #baking seems like a hyperfixation #like i know you said you baked once but then look at me #...i was thinking if i could make salads.... i gotta be medicore at least at one food thing #its a joke its a joke #i will one day get used to focusing on more complicated kitchen work than heating up meat or cooking things in salt and water #anyone else had trouble getting out of bed this december? #once i do i try to pick physical activities that dont require creative thinking because man #at the post office i had small talk with a lady waiting in line she didnt speak polish so u know me it happened #and she recommended light therapy lamp #im very tempted to try it becase i had record bad thoughts sleepless nights and jerking awake this month #it might be rooted in economic instability growing inflation costs of living and shitty working conditions while still trying to buy gifts? #but hey there are things we cant have control over and there are things we can #ive got winter wonderland comic coming though #i will try my best to speed-finish it as a christmas gift aight #i hope its going to be a nice thing!! #wow thats a long set of tags

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

idk if ill ever finish/polish this so here ya go. anyway helloooo Howdy/Barnaby nation, im joining your ranks full speed

#THEYRE SO!!!!! #wait fuck whats their ship name #is it... billar. cause barnaby B beagle and howdy pILLAR #no wait. cue sports. pool. nvm #is it... howby? barnapillar? #hold on give me a second i can come up with a name thats a joke. its what they deserve #oh my god im so bad at jokes.... uh how bout wordplay.... Earworm? #cause howdys a caterpillar and barnaby um.. has fluffy ears... also this ship is absolutely Infectious... #no seriously whats their name i need to know so i can Tag Things going forward #cause i have Ideas and Thoughts sometimes #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #scribble salad #LaughingStock

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Wait, fuck, hold on-

THEY CAN'T FUCKING BRING OUT AN ANTI-HERO ARTEMIS WHEN I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF STUDYING FOR FINALS!!

WHAT THE FUCK, DC?!? HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FOCUS?!?

oh i am so excited holy shit. am i the only one getting slade vibes from her?? because im getting massive slade/rose wilson vibes from the single eye cover and im wondering if artemis is a plant, someone unconnected from slade who wouldn't be considered a threat, to go undercover and get close to the titans. this is also like, high-key a chance to make jade and artemis sisters and/or half-sisters in canon which would be neat. i know comics fans aren't huge on changes to the canon based on outside things but making them half sisters doesn't really change jades backstory, nor artemis'.

#i am beating back spitfire fans with a broom #you don't understand what you are asking for. this man canonically has children and is married to someone else #so you are only asking for heartbreak #also Artemis canonically has a kid with someone else #so. again. stop it. if it happens it will be SAD #which #... i mean honestly id be cool with it if it was like... a mutual breakup where they remain friends after #but i kinda want Artemis and Wally to get character development without romance involved so like #im team 'lets not do that pls' #oh holy fuck dc wait don't try to pair up roy and artemis. waid i love you i trust you pls no #this is the pain of being a fan of a female comics character lmao. immediately worried about a shoehorned romance #and don't get me wrong. i fucking LOVE YJs spitfire but this isn't that and it would be so different #and itd be real hard not to be different in a bad way #so #yeah #thats my thoughts #OH GOD FUCK IS ARTEMIS SUPPOSED TO BE FRAN?????? WALLY'S SUPERHERO/SUPERVILLAIN TEAMMATE GF THAT HE LEAVES THE TEAM FOR??? #TO GO TO COLLEGE TOGETHER?????? #Like. I know that Artemis took Frans place in YJ but is Artemis doing it AGAIN in CANON?? Waid no i LIKE Fran. #Shes magneto but cooler and she just wants to be normal and she was childhood bffs with Wally and she also murdered her family and grew up #with a cult mom. Fran is so central city coded. shes such a girl next door with skeletons in her closet #aughhh #dc #dc comics #kid flash #wally west #artemis crock #tigress #roy harper #speedy

[cycle-hit]

also. kotoko's mother being a housewife (and potentially being awful as a parent) makes 0610 even more fucked up. which is funny. mahiru quite literally aspires to be a traditional housewife while kotoko wouldve experienced the effects of that firsthand. of what it entails. more likely the bad effects of it. kotoko why did you almost kill mahiru even though you said that wasnt your intent. does her ignorance grate you, kotoko? does her reverential treatment of something that likely hurt YOU and your mother as well dig under your skin and refuse to let you go?

is mahiru a cruel mockery of what love your mother couldve treated you with yet didnt?

#KOTOKO HEARS MAHIRU TALKING ABOUT HOW MUCH SHE WANTS TO BE A TRADITIONAL HOUSEWIFE AND SHE STARTS COUGHING UP BLOOD #“i cant wait to be a traditional housewi-” “NONONONONONONONONO" #0610 fucks me up so bad. i need them to be happy. I THOUGHT THEIR TOXIC YURI COULDNT CANONICALLY GET ANY WORSE BUT I WAS WRONG #milgram #kotoko yuzuriha #mahiru shiina #0610 #i hope people dont take this as me saying “Actually 0610 Isnt Romantic It's A Mother-Daughter Relationship” bc thats very much incorrect. i #dont see them like that at all. i want 0610 to bite each other. kotoko is just haunted by ghosts

[puhpandas]

I really really hope the hw2 dlc actually gives us a concrete direction of the story and shows us what to expect. I'm tired of not knowing at all how a new release is gonna progress the story and then getting disappointed when the main characters get none of the screentime they desperately need

I understand that ruin and hw2 were created at the same time and go hand in hand, ergo they are both in-between buildup stories to a later game. the issue is that we arent even getting excited because hw2 gave us no clear direction (at least didnt tell it to us very well) of where the story is headed. the game is so confusing and is leaving so many people believing wildly different things about what its about

theres more and more releases not touching on important plot points that have been left unresolved from security breach alone, like 3 star fam, gregory and vanessa in general, and ggy, and these would hit way less hard if we actually had an idea of when we COULD see them. every release has just been crossing our fingers and hoping for the best, but I'm so ready for hw2s dlc to just tell us what's going on.

I just want it to tell us what to expect for the next release like dreadbear did. dreadbear showed us vanny and the pizzaplex being built, and that gave us the setting for the next game and the villain. right now, we have THREE human characters established, so if they showed us the setting of the next game and the villain (probably vanny cassie) we'd KNOW what to expect. we'd get an idea of how the characters we know will be involved in a future release

when all we've known right now is just hoping and wishing for better luck next time. so little focus on the characters we're supposed to care about is exausting and I just really want there to be an AIM to all of this, which I'm expecting hw2 dlc to give us. that's why I'm so impatient for news for it

once again, ruin and hw2 were being made at the same time and reference eachother in themselves despite being released a few months apart, so since ruin is clearly a setup, that means hw2 is as well. this is the only reason I havent been getting crazy pissed at no 3 star fam screentime, but that's also why I'm expecting the dlc to actually tell us something. at LEAST that we can expect more from later games

like. I feel like hw2 is restarting a formula. we're pretty much confirmed getting a dlc for the game, and that's exactly the order the original help wanted went through too. hw1, dreadbear, and then security breach. with this in mind, it's not far fetched (especially with my earlier point of hw2 and ruin being setup) to assume what we get after this dlc will be another big free roam

so like. if there really IS a big game in the horizon, I would really prefer them to show us the AIM of all of this

#im mostly rambling but idk #i try not to get mad at SW but like #two and a half years of no screentime from the main characters.... #crazy #grimic was literally just to serve the mimic and cassies plot #and ruin like. technically told us 3 star fam was canon but nothing actually new was learned about life for the mains post-sb #its just getting super annoying #its just the era we're in thats bad #where its been setup for almost a whole year and a year and a half wait FOR that setup in the first place #i have hope things will get a lot better #in the future though #pandas.txt #pandas talks #pre hw2 dlc #thoughts #im mostly just complaining

[wrylu]

idk why i'm so moody these days but i find my despair funny

aka my average day as of now

#1. impulsive silly thoughts #2. STOP FORGETTING TO EAT!!!!!!!!!!!!1 please :3 (note for myself me myself and i) #3. i get sad 🥱 #4. tired #(tumblr deleted half of my tags. isnt that nice though you wont have to listen to my essay of vents nobody wanted to hear that) #vent art #wrylu #lu's canvas #negative thoughts below :) have some flowers 💐 #sometimes i feel like i should get up more and spend time with my family i miss how it used to be #but you know what i suck and im practically glued to my chair and im lazy like if i was one of the 7 deadly sins i would be sloth #im surprised im not dead yet #this is purely for myself to speak my poor mind #no i actually hate this #i wanna die #i wish i was dead #not really #but still #i wish time just stopped so i can re evaluate my life #and whoa damn dysphoria makes an appearance ever #i wish i had a schlong (funny) #this is awful #sometimes i feel manipulative like i switch my emotions and personalities so hard #am i manipulating you guys?? #i feel like im being sad for attention #ugh i hate that the internet is my comfort #thats bad isnt it #i feel like an attention seeker #why am i even writing this 🥱🥱 #i cant wait to fall asleep forever

[samipekoe]

omf i used to follow you (on twitter...? maybe) like 3yrs ago. glad youre still out there drawing women

we meet again so you can see how my woman drawing has flourished in the last 3 years

#i only started posting art online in 2019 so when ppl have come to me like omg were you x in 2014 im like most definitely Not #that was almost my automatic reaction here but then i was like wait...i WAS posting 3 years ago. time is fake #actually thats a lie ill tell you a story right here in these tags i used to be sooo afraid of posting art online #i thought people would instantly be like this is so bad kys #but one time when i was into bnha (lol) yrs ago i posted my art in reddit since it seemed anon enough #and people were so kind...i was so surprised #it still took me a couple years afterwards to start posting my art on twitter though

[todayisafridaynight]

tattoo truth prequel lmao

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #jo sawashiro #masumi arakawa #snap sketches #this is just a silly unserious comic but i couldve made it serious if i thought hard about it probably #wait what was i saying i forget #oh wait i remember. anyway this is my truth from henceforth until rgg gives me the confirmation i want #its funnier this way.. lol #OH WAIT BUT I WAS SO ENGROSSED DOODLNG THIS I DIDNT DISCLOSE MY TERRIBLE MORNING #so i had a class at 8am right. thats what i and twenty other students thought #i was gonna say kids but... we're all in our twenties..... im gonna throw up ANYWAY #so firstly i accidentally fell back asleep after my morning routine so i woke up at 7:30 and like . i had to speedrun a shower right #and i didnt have time to eat and im just like 'oh god im gonna be late its so bad' and im running to the building #and this building sucks i always get lost in it but i turn the corner and i just see. A Hallway Of Students just waiting #and so i join them and like ten minutes pass so i just start rewatching WotH until by like 8:30 some genius is like #'hey it says the professor's not on campus....' SO WE ALL JUST LEAVE. LIKE THANKS FOR THE NOTICE ASSHOLE i cant wait to drop your class #oh but the best part my id card still doesnt work so as im getting back to my building i see the door like. 25% on its way to closing #so MY unnecessary ass runs across the street to grab the door right before it closes and then i just gotta awkwardly look at the door woman #like <:) hi i live here i promise the universe is just out to get me <:) #anyway.. i have one more class like three hours from now. its spanish so hopefully no biggie #and then after that... i hope my id card works and then ill prob call the bank..... great.... #after that... who knows... maybe ill explode.. ok im done bye LMAO I JUST REALLY WANTED TO TALK BOUT MY DAY #thats the real reason why i mustered the will to finish this sketch i hoarded for weeks. i needed to rant LMAO OK BYE

[hws-lceland]

danish slaughterhouse fanart

#emil.txt #anon thank you for asking me about my danish slaughterhouse rant :] i will answer but writing is hard #have this while you wait that i drew for theymadecatsgreen's reading of it on insta live #mini rant here though is just that i hate that its treated as the funny haha denmark murder fic thats so bad its good while people fail to #even acknowledge the genuinely triggering shit in the fic? #also the fic did so much damage to denmarks characterization in the fandom #anon you have opened a can of worms i just need to collect my thoughts #i am NOT maintagging this #i will admit denmark calling norway the 2012 equivalent of 'discord kitten' is so fucking funny #i didnt give him his beard or red hair bcus my Denmark would never #the danish slaughterhouse #tdsh

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

HIII HI HI MAC N CHEECE. u cannibal. I DO ACTUALLY HAVE. A QUESTION. omg. now that you've finished soul eater.... u can help me w/ the nebulous prime defenders soul eater au that's been bouncing around in my head for like a month now. u gotta help dude its dire. b/c like... my first thought is of course dakota weapon william meister. but dakota hates using weapons so i have no idea what he'd be! but it cant be the other way around for the same reason! & ghostknife also is literally kind of just soulmaka 2 me. but vyncent like pretty much already does meister stuff in canon!! & ashe & the trickster have some ragnarok shit going on of course... anyway i've been thinking ab this for literally a month with no resolution to who is what. so. dropping it at ur door expectantly like a cat with a dead mouse. <33

OK THIS ISNT THE SAME THING BUT I NEED U TO KNOW I STARTED DRAWING THIS LIKE A WEEK AGO WHILE I WAS WATCHING . BC I COUKDNT STOP THINKING ABOUT SOUL EATER PRIME DEFENDERS. this is a nothing sketch rn but its gonna be like. halloween costumes dakota as black star vyncent as maka william as kid and ashe as crona hehehehehehee

ANYWAY. TO YOUR ACTUAL QUESTION. jonesy and i were actually talking abt something like this too and we ALSO thought ghostkicks weapon/meister duo. i had the thought of brass knuckles dakota. which i think is cool as hell. we also discussed the possibility of william as the weapon and narrowed it down to either. loke a firemans axe or a chainsaw (<< there are reasons for both of these but u cannot know them until you get to greyscale arc. teehee) . ALSO . DUDE. shaking u. literally everu time crona was on screen i was like. wow theyre just like ashe and the trickster. to me. so we're so same brain about that. i think a cool thing for vyncent would be like. basically just the sword he has in canon except its All Of The Greats somehow . so they can morph into different weapons like tsubaki can :]

aughaaguaghahhh !!!!!!!!! i love 2 combine interests its my favorite thing ever

#not shiwing the other sketch bc its BAD bc i couldnt get the POSES right. but #its gonna eventually be tide as lord death and mark as. wait for it. hold eberything. mifune #every time mifune was on screen i was like “wow hi anime mark winters” and thats how you know im insane. #eehehehehehehe #THANK U THANK U I DONT HAVE ANY SOLID THOUGHTS EITHER BUT I AM ALSO THINKING ABT THIS #asks #friends!!! #intertexts

[fleshdyke]

#csa warning for tags #ughhh ik i was just talking abt this but man. Man. constantly bullied as a child + raped as a child is a brutal combo huh #completely irreversibly fucked up sense of intimacy. i dont want to have sex with anyone i dont care what ppl think of me looks wise but i #also care more than anything and want people to want me so bad #like when ur only experience with anyone at all finding you desirable is being raped at 6ish. fucks u up man #was constantly told by everyone i knew that i was undesirable from day fucking one. i was always the one ppl would dare their friends to #'ask out' bc everyone thought i was that bad. i never had those rumours of 'some boy likes you' without people laughing in the background #all of my friends. even the ones that were also weird kids and bullied etc etc always have stories of other kids having crushes on them or #whatever. and i just never had that. it feels like i missed out on something important #i want to be pursued by a guy i hate i want them to not leave me alone. i want to feel like im in danger. and i know how fucking disgusting #that is but i cant help it. like i feel like thats the only way im going to feel normal and wanted like theres not something inherently #wrong with me. and i know how dangerous that is but its not like it matters anyways bc still no one likes me at all. #and i know how stupid of a thing it is to obsess over like what am i 9 years old? but i just cant get it out of my head #like idk i feel like the only way im going to actually feel desirable at all is if someone tries to rape me again. or if i feel like i have #to worry about someone raping me again. i know i wouldnt feel that way if someone was like. nice about it. #bc if someone genuinely liked me and was a decent human being about it i wouldnt be able to see it as anything other than faking it for pit #i wouldnt be able to believe it. even if i wasnt waiting for them to drop the joke and start laughing at me i would always think it was jus #an act bc they feel bad for me. the only way i could ever think it's genuine and that i'm desirable at all is if someone sexually #harassed me. like idk how to explain it but thats the only way i could feel desirable at all #bc it's the only way i've ever been desirable. when i was a kid. #and it terrifies me so bad bc i know how fucking disgusting that is and how self destructive it is #but i still feel like i dont even have to really worry about being assaulted. bc i still believe im completely undesirable at my core. #i dont believe i could be desired so i dont believe i have to worry about being raped. bc no one would want to anyways #rambles #vent

[pineappical]

I always thought is very tricky to draw that wrinkle that goes from the nose and around the mouth and still male it look good, but gosh you nail it in every art, super expressive and pretty. Looking at all your drawings 🔍🕵‍♀️ to properly appreciate and study it. But wow really in love with your art style is so expressive and pleasing to look at, and the colors are so pretty 👌👌👌👌

i LOVEEE drawing wrinkles!!! it makes faces soso so expressive and i try to add wrinkles to every character i draw whenever i can. and the fact i also love drawing characters smiling (they make me happy, so i want to be able to share my joy to other people by drawing them smiling too!) which of course makes that wrinkle around the nose and mouth more prominent :-)

im not a person that can draw well from memory, i use references excessively even if it doesnt turn out the same way from the reference im copying from in the end 😊

i drew these out real quick but i have no clue how to explain any of these so i just thought about sharing it with you anyways!

call it "cheating" or whatever, but most of the time i even trace over the reference just to have a base i can copy the expression im trying to draw from. i do art for fun and if it makes my process that much easier then. well!

anyhoo, ignore the fact these are all mr lassos... i just love him a whole bunch 💛

#im not saying 'tracing is good!' as a whole. never trace from other people's work and pass it off as your own obviously. i just think you - #can learn a whole bunch of tricks and how to draw specific things if you just Trace Over References #'ohh but youll never Get Good by just tracing though! :/' who cares. i love drawing men being silly and thats enough for me. #Getting Good be damned! #apologies if this doesnt make any damn sense LMAO !! i just got home a couple hours ago and its now 3am zzzz #pn.ask #theres also the matter of me being obsessed with handlebar facial hairs and how it 'removes' the upper lip when im drawing so i use the - #bottom part of the mustache as the line for the mouth itself #ITS THIS WHOLE PROCESS.... IDK!!!! wish i could explain it any better but i am. so bad at writing down my thoughts. why cant i just beam - #them directly into your mind smh #THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK THOUGHHHH i waited till i got home before answering it because i have some stuff i wanted to say

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I feel like barnabys favorite drink (alcoholic) might be a old fashioned? And non alcoholic mixed drink. Might be a Shirley temple. (Which Is my favorite non alcoholic mixed drink!)

(Of course this is all my opinion! But yea!

he Does feel like a classy guy, huh? but who's to say! Who's. To. Say...

#ohhhh dont say shirley temple thats one of my favs as well.... #dont put that thought in my head... #oh what i wouldnt do for one rn. its been so long </3 #catch me going to the bar and getting one of those instead of Anything else #rambles from the bog #but yeah. who knows maybe he'd enjoy just plain whiskey #a nice Quality bourbon perhaps... #we're probably way off the mark here! #no wait he seems to have a sweet tooth given his hotdog order... as well as a lack of tastebuds... #idk. you know that guy who makes hellish alcohol concoctions in bathtubs. bathtub jungle juice #maybe barn would enjoy That. absolutely absurd concept.... #but as always! what do i know! #lmfao im picturing him swirling whipped cream on whiskey aaslcnjalscnslkd + a cherry.... maybe some sprinkles.... #actually that doesnt sound too bad. hm. #we Do have whiskey i think... maybe ill have some fun tomorrow #nah actually im not a big fan of straight whiskey #im more of a rum guy... maybe ill do that to some Rum...

[crescentfool]

a compilation of sillie notebook doodles... i think drawing without giving a shit is very refreshing...

#persona 3 #minato arisato #ryoji mochizuki #splatoon #minatoast #ghost trick is also there and so is a sth crossover also vintage coroika ALSO PIKACHU!!! #lizzy does art #posting for archival purposes bc sometimes i dump tradi doodles on my instagram story for shits and giggles... and i thought- #that people here might want to see them even if they kinda bad #happy mochizuki monday??? there's ryoji here FKDLHFDH #maybe i might make “cleaner” versions of the stuff drawn here but there is smthn very endearing about drwaing as fast as u can. #even if its sillie. i only started doing these bc i had a very long wait time for an appointment and i was like #well i have a pen and also a brain SOO #turns out its very fun!!!! highly recommend. even if u think it look like shite art is always worth creating bc ur doing it me thinks #this is how ive been staying sane. even though it is not 'complete' who cares? i laughed. i cried. thats beauty of creation

[bigothteddies]

the thing about abusive and manipulative people is they that will be able to explain their actions and they will sound convincing and they will be genuine about what they say. We demonize these people so much until they fit into a category of evil monsters that are obvious to the naked eye and hold nothing but malice behind their actions. The truth is that they’re just people. Normal people who have failed in their ability to be honest with themselves about anything they do and possess an ability to reframe every event into something that suits how they want to interpret it. And you’re going to fall for it. Someone you love will tell you they didn’t mean something hurtful they said, didn’t you know they clearly meant it in another way? And they mean it, not because they didn’t mean it when they said it, but because they don’t mean it now, after they’ve realized it was a bad thing to say. And they can’t bear the possibility of saying something cruel like that, so they reframe it in their own memories and experiences as a joke, something they didn’t mean. If you had never told them your feelings were hurt, they’d’ve never apologized or realized that what they said was wrong. And that’s a pattern that will continue and only worsen. So many people ask why someone abusive in their life can’t just…admit to mistreating and undervaluing them instead of carrying the charade on, because it makes it so much harder to end things. And it’s because to them they haven’t mistreated or undervalued you. They can’t face a world where they are the bad guy or where they have to improve upon themselves, so they won’t. Or, on the flipside, they’ll switch back and forth between being awful and cheerful or crying and begging and pleading you to stay because they know how awful they are and they’ll treat you right this time they promise. And they mean that! They know what they are. It sticks in their stomach and turns to a pain in their heart. But once they’ve achieved their goal for immediate comfort, once you agree to stay, they don’t have a reason to keep themselves in that discomfort. Why would they want to be continually reminded of how awful they are? It’s painful. They don’t want to go through life like that. So they forget. They go back to normal. They have you again, they don’t need to face that side of themselves anymore. And they won’t see any issues with that. They are capable of reframing every event and action in their head into something that suits them and I don’t mean that in a gimmicky way I mean that they will be able to explain to you in perfect clarity why they truly love you despite their mistreatment and why their feelings of pain and discomfort are more important than how you feel about how they mistreated you. And it will be convincing. You will question yourself because they seem so sure of themselves and they seem to genuinely believe it. And it will lead you down the wrong path. These people frequently stand against abuse and repost ideas you agree with that make you feel safe. And they will mean it. And years later you will ask yourself why they supported such causes and things when they were clearly abusive themselves, and you’ll fail to realize that they saw themselves as a normal good guy the whole time. Just like we all do.

The right person will tell you when they’ve done wrong. The right person will be able to give you space to heal and do the *right* things to help you heal from any pain they cause, not love bomb you until it’s forgotten. I don’t know this wasn’t very coherent but I just wanted to say that abusers and manipulator are so good at it because they aren’t trying to do so and they don’t believe themselves to be doing so. Don’t fall for moral high ground bullshit, it only makes you easier to fall for bad situations.

#unimportant thoughts #delete later #anyways #abusers are people and the more you ‘other’ them the worse you will be at being able to spot abuse when it starts happening to you #and if youre reading this going ‘wait i do that’ #im not gonna hold your hand and tell you ‘if you have to question if youre abusive youre not abusive!’ #cause thats bullshit #so many abusers have self hatred complexes and will have breakdowns over how awful they are and still not change #so ill tell you this right now #when i say i was an awful person in high school #i was an A W F U L person in high school #and i still fight bad habits because id rather be a genuine good person than just fake it in order to feel comfortable with myself #and yeah #it sucks #the first few years when i realized what i had become? #when i had to sit there every day and acknowledge what id done and all the hurt i caused and how i couldnt fix it? #how i couldnt take it back? how i avoided thinking about it in order to not take responsibility for my actions? #it. sucked. #but it’s deserved in a way. #youre not going to escape your past scot free #you have to look yourself in the eyes and live with the pain and disappointment in yourself #only way to get better is to BE better #anyways getting off my high horse now ill delete this later i just wanted to shout to the void a bit I guess