#so you are only asking for heartbreak

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Wait, fuck, hold on-

THEY CAN'T FUCKING BRING OUT AN ANTI-HERO ARTEMIS WHEN I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF STUDYING FOR FINALS!!

WHAT THE FUCK, DC?!? HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FOCUS?!?

oh i am so excited holy shit. am i the only one getting slade vibes from her?? because im getting massive slade/rose wilson vibes from the single eye cover and im wondering if artemis is a plant, someone unconnected from slade who wouldn't be considered a threat, to go undercover and get close to the titans. this is also like, high-key a chance to make jade and artemis sisters and/or half-sisters in canon which would be neat. i know comics fans aren't huge on changes to the canon based on outside things but making them half sisters doesn't really change jades backstory, nor artemis'.

#i am beating back spitfire fans with a broom #you don't understand what you are asking for. this man canonically has children and is married to someone else #so you are only asking for heartbreak #also Artemis canonically has a kid with someone else #so. again. stop it. if it happens it will be SAD #which #... i mean honestly id be cool with it if it was like... a mutual breakup where they remain friends after #but i kinda want Artemis and Wally to get character development without romance involved so like #im team 'lets not do that pls' #oh holy fuck dc wait don't try to pair up roy and artemis. waid i love you i trust you pls no #this is the pain of being a fan of a female comics character lmao. immediately worried about a shoehorned romance #and don't get me wrong. i fucking LOVE YJs spitfire but this isn't that and it would be so different #and itd be real hard not to be different in a bad way #so #yeah #thats my thoughts #OH GOD FUCK IS ARTEMIS SUPPOSED TO BE FRAN?????? WALLY'S SUPERHERO/SUPERVILLAIN TEAMMATE GF THAT HE LEAVES THE TEAM FOR??? #TO GO TO COLLEGE TOGETHER?????? #Like. I know that Artemis took Frans place in YJ but is Artemis doing it AGAIN in CANON?? Waid no i LIKE Fran. #Shes magneto but cooler and she just wants to be normal and she was childhood bffs with Wally and she also murdered her family and grew up #with a cult mom. Fran is so central city coded. shes such a girl next door with skeletons in her closet #aughhh #dc #dc comics #kid flash #wally west #artemis crock #tigress #roy harper #speedy

[ineed-to-sleep]

One of the cruelest things in this world has to be having to choose between your pet's life and paying your bills

#my aunt's akita has a cancerous tumor #and you would not believe the price of each chemo session #my aunt is a firefighter and a single mother raising a 13yo daughter #the price of each chemo session is almost her full salary #and he's gonna need many #she said he's fine for now and not suffering and the only thing she can do is pay for the euthanasia when the time comes #it's so fucking heartbreaking. he's such a good dog #I thought well maybe she could ask for donations but it would take so many donations just to pay for 1 session #and then what about the next ones yk? #what is she gonna do. get a loan and sink herself further into debt? she's already trying to pay for a house #it's just. not viable #sleep.txt #I have no idea how to process this yk I watched that dog grow up #he's always been my aunt's baby. I hate to think she's gonna lose him to something like this

[starheirxero]

I've just watched Lunar's nightmare, and I don't even know, where to begin!

First of all, there is the "You're a disappointment" line from Castor. I really, really hope, this was just Lunar's imagination, because I will cry otherwise-

The dream itself though? Terrifying. There's something so unsettling about the warm atmosphere as Lunar is chased by their nightmares. It gives off a false sense of security. The lights are warm and comforting, the place is cozy. They went there for safety, and yet, they ended up found, and chased in a scene that could be out of a horror movie, only to end up dead.

Then there are the things they saw, the people they encountered. The very personification of their fears and insecurities.

Earth and Monty's scene in particular made my heart sink. They are so afraid, that Earth is still scared of them. To make matters worse, Monty seemed just as terrified, and this hits honestly horribly. They were the first to reach out, to treat them with kindness. They were always a protective barrier, and an emotional support. Hell, they were the one to witness their death, and brought them back! They were the one, who made Lunar doubt Eclipse, simply by treating them kinder than their own brother! Seeing them nervous and scared is…honestly? I'm not even sure how to describe it. The idea, that Lunar thinks Monty, strong, protective, fierce Monty could be afraid of them, when she really loves them so much is…painful, to say the least…

Then theres Gemini. Oh, dear, sweet Gemini… The way they mocked them, spoke out the words Lunar thought about themself… Pollux in particular made me nervous, she was pretty much chirping out her words, sounding delighted as she mocked him…its incredibly eerie.

And then there's Eclipse. Oh. My. God. Eclipse. Where does one even start with him? I think, this dream perfectly represents to us just how fucked up their relationship is.

Of course, he started out as the backup in Solar Flare's body, lurking outside the window. Just like last time. It's a direct callback to their trauma, same as when they avoided the room in which they was caught. It's the day of the hunt again, the day of Lunar's death.

What I find interesting though, is Eclise's role. Because Eclipse is the most prominent, of course he is, he is the cause of the trauma. But I find it interesting, that he talks in the same breath as Gemini. The two/three of them talk together, switching as they throw insults. It feels big. It makes sense as well, I don't think, Lunar cares as little about Eclipse as they'd like to admit. A deep rooted part of them, one they keep hidden away, seem to still care about what he has to say.

There's also the room in which they were caught. They go in, and immediately leave, only for Eclipse to chase them inside again. It feels as though it is saying, that Eclipse still has control, still has influence, though I could be wrong of course!

There's also the way he speaks to them, almost like talking to someone younger. Not a child, exactly, but someone who operates similarly. Given, that he designed them to be younger though, it makes sense. After all, how would Lunar be able to leave him, if they are young, and need to depend on their big brother still?

And then comes the first Eclipse, the original Eclipse. And man, this truly shows their old dynamic, the absolute terror it was, the way it made Lunar feel! Eclipse talks so casually, as though that's all they are, brothers. But then he locks the door, because Lunar could never escape from him, not from him. And then he starts yelling, making them feel bad for leaving, because of course, of course Lunar harbors guilt for it. After all, there were good moments there, moments that made them wonder, if they were really in the right. And of course Eclipse would guilt drip them, because that's what manipulators tend to do. One could also bring up Lunar's wish to understand Eclipse, their realization, that he's as fucked up as the rest of them. It may make them wonder, if they were in the wrong after all. Most tragically is, how they listen to him though, soaking in his words like the truth, and simply going with what he's saying, even answering him, thinking it's exactly what Eclipse wants to hear, just like they used to.

It's the haunting realization, that Lunar may never be free around Eclipse. If they are angry, they'll be controllable. But if they aren't, then they'll be afraid, and then they'll listen.

"I'm a monster" "A monster? Oh, you're worse than that. A failure." This line drives me insane, actually. There is just so much you can interpret into this single line.

On one hand, it could be "I may be a monster, but you are a failure, who can't do anything right."

But it could also be: "I am a monster. But you can't even be that much, you fail in doing even that." And this is what makes me insane. This is what drives me up the walls.

Just hear me out here: The meaning of what a "monster" is, can be incredibly subjective. However, there are two people that Lunar views as such.

Their first brothers, their original brothers. Bloodmoon is a literal monster in the sense of a bloodthirsty beast, craving only violence. Eclipse is a metaphorical monster. He is what Lunar fears most.

Lunar loved his brothers. He was so excited when he met Bloodmoon. He only ever wanted with Eclipse what Moon and Sun had. He wanted the three of them to be family.

But they are monsters, and he fails in being that. He could never be a part of them, no matter how much he'd wish for it, because he is not like them. He is a failure, for he can't even be a monster, feeling remorse and spiraling when he kills someone, even if it's someone, who hurt him deeply.

Last but not least is the conversation they held with themself. Interestingly enough, the other Lunar reminded me of the time, they were still stuck in Moon's head, and only had one official brother. Except they are bored, and are waiting for something to happen. How ironic, that this version of all mocks them, and tells them to grow up.

However, they managed to pull themself up, and that's all they can do for now. However, if dream Sun is to be believed? It's still just a mask again, they may be relapsing into old habits soon…

And then the Adhd took over, which is relatable-

HOLY SHIT, THIS IS SO DAMN LONG- I AM SO SORRY, MY MIND IS JUST IN OVERDRIVE RIGHT NOW, AND I WANTED TO SHARE MY THOUGHTS WITH YOU-

-Stardust

YEYSYSYEYYSYSYSYSHAHAHAHHHA!!!!!!!! YEEEEESSSSSSS YOU TORE THIS EPISODE APART DON'T APOLOGIZE I LOVE YOUR THOUGHTS!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't have many additional thoughts you are just so correct on ALL OF THIS. Episodes like this that give insight to a character's feelings and fears and thought processes are just EVERYTHING 2 ME. Especially with the fact that this dream had a theme of 1) being a failure and thus, a disappointment (Eclipse and Gemini) and 2) being a monster and thus, too scary to be around (Earth and Monty).

AND GHOD. ECLIPSE AS A WHOLE IN THE DREAM YEAH. I HONESTLY FELT MY HEART DROP WHEN HE SHOWED UP IN THE GLOWY SUN MODEL I FELT LIKE I JUST GOT BLASTED A MILLION YEARS INTO THE PAST. And yea omg the fact he locked the door scared me so bad. Especially with the fact that, like u said, he spoke so casually to Lunar as he came up the stairs. But literally behind closed doors it's an immediate barrage of insults!

AND GHOD. GHOOOOODDDDD BOTH THE WAYS TO INTERPRET ECLIPSE'S LINE TO LUNAR YEAH!!!!! "A MONSTER LIKE THE REST OF US" VS "TOO MUCH OF A FAILURE TO EVEN BE THAT." AUGH I'M GUNNA THINK ABOUT THAT FOREVER

AND WITH THEMSELVES,,, YEAH. YEAG. Seeing that version of Lunar come through the door IMMEDIATELY made me tear up I get so emotional for any variation of "same person talks to a version of themselves from a different point in time" and that HIT for me. Their words reminded me of when Lunar told Earth they don't like how they see themselves (before the Eclipse thing even happened), and I can only guess that old Lunar's words are an extension of that </3

AND THEN SUN AND THE DRAGON YEAHAGWJSGSKWGJCSM SUN'S WORDS WERE RLLY INTERESTING BUT THE DRAGON DISTRACTED ME SO BAD I DIDN'T EVEN PROCESS THEM THE FIRST TIME THROUGH. Sun voice stop lying to yourself stop masking so hard you don't even process your emotions stop feeling like you're exempt from the basic living experience of mistakes [dragon scampers by] what was that

#asks #anon #stardust anon #HSJAHSJSJD BUT ALSO LIKE CAN I BE HONEST #THAT EPISODE MADE MY HEART STOP A COUPLE TIMES TOO FOR REAL ABSJANDJ #not like a JUMPscare but I sharply inhaled!!!!! #the only time i actually jumped from a tsams episode was when sun bumped into lunara during the hide and seek game. fun fact HDJWBSJSJ #/ALSO./ #realizing I didn't comment on the earth n monty part but YEA THAT FUCKED ME UP BAD #especially with the 'i didnt think you were still hanging around this guy' #thinking that ppl r isolating themselves from u bc ur too terrible to be around now is like AUGH. HEARTBREAK 1 MILLION #exactly like u said too the fact that those 2 actually care abt lunar so much makes it so much more ueueueue #lunar and earth show #the lunar and earth show #tlaes #sams lunar #laes lunar #sams eclipse #long post

[mahuhumaling]

the last thing Pat wants is to let Pran slip through his fingers again.

— a drabble inspired by this fanart where Pat stays awake after the end of epsiode 4. he sits up and looks at Pran who has his back turned, asleep.

why does Pran drive him away? does he not care, did those 3 years apart mean nothing to him that he can just push Pat away so nonchalantly?

all he wants is to be back in Pran's life again — whatever that takes.

maybe it's easier to fall back on the kind of relationship they had before, instead of anything else because it's familiar: the genuine moments hidden beneath fake hostility, the teasing, the way Pran's whines don't quite reach his eyes, the way he relents at the end, as if he can never really hate him.

but now.

now maybe he's gone too far. he says he hates him, and for a minute Pat believes it.

maybe there's a pink painted line he crossed, an invisible road sign he missed, an alarm he slept through.

either way, hearing it stings. right there, in his chest. sharp. quick. the kind that makes him double over.

Pat replies with something, anything, to retort. it comes out flat, sounding more compensating than a diss.

he lays back down when he sees Pran roll over, closes his eyes even though surprisingly he's not that fatigued from the rugby game, and feels Pran tug the blanket back to his.

Pat lets him.

he stays awake, his mind not shutting down and his body still jittery.

but he has his eyes closed and feels his chest rise and fall from the breathing.

Pat opens it again and sits up. when he lays his chin on top of his crossed arms, the only thing he sees is Pran's back. he feels relief wash over himself.

at least Pran gets to rest. he knows that shoulder is still hurting him.

Pat doesn't get it.

what would it take for Pran to look at him like he did before? to talk to him as he did back in highschool?

he doesn't get it.

there's still something sitting on his stomach, heavy, unidentifiable. he can't figure out what.

but maybe if he sleeps it off, he eventually will.

maybe tomorrow, he thinks as he inevitably dozes off, succumbing to the night.

maybe tomorrow.

tomorrow when he wakes up, he'll realize why.

#bad buddy #bad buddy series #bad buddy the series #bbs #patpran #saturn #i once tweeted this before #but pat's characterization in his pre-realization is excellent because #the only thing worse than being hyperaware of your own feelings (pran) is not being aware at all. #pat being kept in the dark by his own emotions is so heartbreaking to me #i've never experienced it because i'm more the pran type #but it must hurt. to just /not know/. and to always ask why #if you look at pran's actions from pat's view he always seems so cold. and pat wants nothing more but warmth. #so how would he get there? how would he earn it? #...he doesn't know #like there's always something missing. a void in his heart

[keungking]

to be honest, so far? top hasn't done anything for me to dislike him.

he hasn't lied and he hasn't disrespected mew, and he actually has tried to get along with mew's friends. it's not exactly his fault the friend group all have messy complicated feelings for each other.

and ever since he actually started talking and getting to know mew, the only times he's implied mew is some kind of conquest for him to win has been when boston has told him that's how he feels and what kind of person he is. all his playboy tendencies that we've been shown have been boston projecting that persona onto him.

originally he might've had douche bag intentions, but i can't help but feel like the fate he's rushing towards is being strung around mew's finger.

i just feel like things very well could've turned out fine if boston wasn't so dead set on ruining them just because he's jealous, maybe jealous because he's not the winner, and maybe jealous because his whore in arms might achieve something boston himself might desire but doesn't dare let himself chase (a mature and genuine relationship). perhaps he feels let down and abandoned, left to be the only predator playboy hunting men for sport that's left.

#only friends #only friends the series #and i don't count top not telling mew that his friend assaulted him as lying or disrespecting him #i might be completely wrong about top of course #but if you compare the way boston chases top as a prise to conquer and the way top chases mew #top isn't exactly a predator on the hunt is he #he might just not be so serious yet #Yet #i feel like we'll get to see top just perfectly crushed and heartbroken in a future episode #has there been teasers released of top and boston hooking up? i absolutely do not think that removes the likelihood of heartbreak #top's only crime is being cringe and fail when asking mew out at the bar #.txt

[kyouka-supremacy]

Does anyone know where I can find the good quality version of this image? It's so frustrating because when cross searching on google it'll tell me the original quality is 850x478, but I can't find a way to download it in that quality. This is another version of the image (I'm guessing it's Mayoi promo art):

But I liked the clean white background one...

#It's cute... #It's got Akutagawa stealing glances at Atsushi #Thought asking was worth a try ;;;;;; #Google cross image search has changed and as someone who used it as I use breathing it's been absolutely heartbreaking. #It makes cross searching images so much harder it's awful #Because before when you looked up an image it suggested you the best quality avaible of that image. #And the search got worse every year but it was still functional you know?? #But now there's not that anymore. There's no “large” “medium” “small” and instead it only gives you “find image source” #Dude I don't want to find the image source. I've downloaded the image I KNOW the source. What I want is ANOTHER SOURCE with better quality #And I used to get it when I was 10 and I used to get it when I was 15 and I sued to get it when I was 20 #And now I don't have it anymore?? It stripes away one of the most powerful search tools on the internet from the public???? #It drives me insane. Like why does internet get worse every year that's not how humanity is supposed to work #Sorry. I needed to rant. This makes every quality-freak media archivist (like me) job harder beyond comparison #Btw if you're looking for an alternative Yandex images still does the work... It's not as powerful search engine as google #and it's often going to miss the particular hidden media (y'know- super niche Akutagawa merch from 2018 and stuff) #But for the rest it does a pretty good job. If anything there's still the best quality avaible option #But seriously looking up stuff for aktgw-daily has gotten so much harder ever since this fucked up change to google lens #and it makes me hate the world. I haven't been able to find a way to reverse it but if anyone more tech savy than me who has any idea- #what I'm talking about can help me. Please please hmu I'll be grateful forever #Sorry for the rant I have a lot of pent up rage over this. Stop making broke people's lives harder challenge #random rambles

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

Babe you are SO CORRECT about everything you’ve ever said about Hum Hallelujah. I finally listened to it and it’s been on repeat. I was so pleasantly surprised about the hallelujah melody on the bridge. I am vibing SO HARD. Thank you.

head in my hands. there's another song on that record that rather sarcastically says "this is a love song in my own way" but the thing is. Hum Hallelujah IS. it is a love song in its own way, in the band's own way, and it's so insane that it even exists, like, I know I've said this and it's probably in my FOB tag but. oh my goodness. there is so much love in the fact that that song exists and not only is in the album, but acts as such a touchstone for it (in my opinion). also it makes me want to CRY.

#I feel this need to like. handle hum hallelujah with such care when discussing it. just by nature of what it is #bc it's a breakup song with death. it's unbelievably honest and personal. it's heartbreaking but also so hopeful #but it is. most importantly. a breakup song. with Death itself. #and the first line that would later become a lyric in it that I'm aware of is from... only a few months following the best buy incident?? #and FOB has a THEME of personifying death. in like 2016ish pete would say this thing about how death loves you #and your job as a human being is to breath Death's heart #which is. what hum is about in a lot of ways. #ok sorry I'll stop now. I've made all these posts before. I can tag you in sideblog stuff skfnskgnskg #Lu rambles #asks #music #fob #<3

[akkpipitphattana]

i mean hey, if you're convinced of sand's mom dying, we can speculate further on that: hey how fucked up would it be if the thing that finally cracks ray's belief that he's fine and not an addict and totally doesn't have a problem is a grieving sand asking him if alcohol made it easier to handle, when ray's mom died. and ray's gut instinct answer of yes being stopped by the visceral feeling that he does not want sand to cope the same way he did?

i just think it could be neat

hey can you shut the fuck up maybe

#yeah. i think that’d be so heartbreaking and perfect but why would you say that to me #only friends #sandray #ofts #asks #nonnies

[felixcosm]

130: Compound Storage Will Protect Us has some of the best voice acting performance ever.

The switch between comedic and witty, to terrifying and gut wrenching is something Dylan does so well in his writing, but then he and David took that script to a whole nother level in their acting

It's hands down one of the best woe.begone episodes out there

#woe.begone #wbg spoilers #i recently relistened to it for fun and then for that one web weave #i could talk for hours about it #the first back and forth between ty and mikey has some banger lines (mikeys little 'you cant do this to me ty' lives rent free in my head #he sounds SO dejected #or ty's 'they already hate me' YEAH I WONDER WHY #and then the second time around theyre a bit more agreeable and it even ends with mikey sort of accepting whats happening #and by the third time he even greets ty in a friendly manner only for the worst possible outcome to be confirmed #ty's anger at mikey's fate and mikey's reaction to being told everyone he loves is gone #its so heartbreaking god #his worst fears literally come true and ty doesnt do anything but apologize and eventually promise to leave him be as mikey asks #and then ty's decision to save him again #and tex coming in to get mikey out of there and its such a relief and the tension deflates as they riff back and forth #the whole thing is amazing - season 11 had some of the most emotionally difficult to listen to episodes in the entire show #ty betteridge #mikey walters

[rapha-reads]

#i needed to share my disgust and anger at people i personally know #i have a now ex friend i've known for 7 years turn into a full zionist denying the genocide #my instagram story views have dropped from 50 to 10 since i started sharing about palestine #of the people i personally know that i follow on instagram only 2 people also share and shout - my sister who has been very vocal #about palestine for years and a german friend who overcame decades of german miseducation to educate himself #everyone else? nothing. not a single word. #no wait i'm fogetting my other french jewish acquaintance who's still saying 'we should cry for both israel and gaza' - sorry no #i'm so mad at the dozens of people that i call my friends who are not saying a thing not sharing a thing #and also not even asking me how i am. maybe it's selfish. but the only texts i receive are my phone network texts #(apart from my immediate family of course but i am talking about friends here) #(okay i went too fast - there's also my black american friend and my queer texan friend too - love you t and a) #anyway. this is just me ranting and venting out my anger and heartbreak and disappointment in my friends #not tagging this

[meowww-ffxiv]

I make a single OC who's 100+ years old and I'm already oooo oooooo we can fit so much shit into this guy.

I think vieras who lived among other races and who outlived many of them would develop a kind of strange in-between of being a tired old person and being...well, their age, in viera years. And then if they had partners who passed before them...

Cooking, cooking.

#chattery #as this relates to maedwyn: hes over the heartbreak within the first 3 decades #now he just has relationships with the full expectation theyre gonna go to hell in a handbasket at some point n it became #a self fulfilling prophecy loool #so far his relationships had only twice ended in him living out the years with his spouses #the rest are like. arsenic. betrayal. getting sold to garleans. watching your lover get publicly executed in dalmasca. #killing your lover in self-defense. yourself pulling strings to kill your lover because you found out they were a specific sort of awful #watching youngsters you mentored turn on you. watching them split off and go die young for a cause. lament. knowing you can do nothing #why do you risk your life. this question maedwyn had asked a hundred times to many hundred people #their answers are all different but the conviction and courage and faith they had were colors in the same kaleidoscope #so he is still here. he still recruits and guides and mentors and helps #meteion journeyed across the stars and found only the wish for death #maedwyn mired himself in two hundred years of mortality and found hearts bright as nova explosions in the mud all around him #it's why he is mordred's friend. drawn helplessly to that flame knowing it will one day soon burn out #but how brightly it burns in the meantime. how dearly and fearlessly mordred & those like him lived and lived and lived

[chryzure]

okay so. modern au dweeb jacks (canonical, but i digress) where he somehow wound up being chrysi’s online friend in addition to being her best friend irl (yes, he knows it’s sad that his closest friend(s?) are both chrysi, don’t talk to him abt it) & now chrysi’s sometimes texting him & asking him what she should do if she has a crush on her loser bestie. is this a win or a loss? jacks rlly can’t say.

#memorie.txt #s.chrysijacks #on one hand: yay! she has a crush on him!! on the other hand: LOSER? #also ummm. what if this au has jacks’s OTHER friend be aurora instead of castor.. swapping the valor siblings out!! #aurora figured out jacks’s online friend was chrysi before he did #and she was like ‘oh god. this is heartbreaking. no im not going to tell you why i’m laughing you’ll figure it out for yourself’ #actually i have so many thoughts on this au. #bc jacks isn’t even enough of a nerd or a geek to have other ppl to talk to. he jst likes chrysi 😭 #like the gamers all talk to him bc chrysi gave him enough knowledge on certain video games to fake it #but the moment someone asks him something specific he flounders. and everyone can tell he’s a faker #literally aurora only hangs out w him bc he’s her current project 💀 #au.modern

[ooc-miqojak]

wrath

Once upon a time, she'd have moved the stars for her crew - for her friends... her family. People she'd thought had accepted her flaws as readily as she'd accepted theirs. Of course... she hadn't known them well enough to know all their dirty little secrets until it was too late, it seemed.

And she was becoming just like him, now.

Her own ship. Her own crew. Her own dark deeds. Either a flask, or a joint always at hand.

She wasn't, usually, all too interested in things like fury - why bother, really? Anger is a quick burning fuel that leaves you worse for wear, most days.

Better to laugh, and live, and indulge in the now.

But when it came to a broken vow - when it came to the person who said they'd be there... blaming her for what was done to her? The things that haunted her, day and night, those things were her fault? Accusing her of... of being something she wasn't, now.

He'd looked at her with disgust, after all her suffering. After she fought to get back to her 'friends'... back to the man she respected, and admired - suspicion and revulsion were all she got.

"Yeh aren't me Lily-flower, yeh sick fekk. Yeh dunnae get ta use 'er against me."

The memory was as stark now, as the moment had been, then - and still made her stomach churn in a way nothing else could.

A knife right in the heart of the girl who had held on. For him.

For all of them.

Once crew, always crew.

"What do I have to do to prove that it's me, it's really...honestly me? How do I prove to you that you are why I held on? That I hit rock bottom, and I endured horrific things because you told me that's what a bilgerat does - that they survive no matter what. You taught me not to play fair, so I beat the fucker at his own game in the end."

Long, thin fingers drifted upward in the mirror, to set lightly at the silvered lioness pendant she still wore - the one the Marquis Vynguld had given her so long ago, now. He'd told her to embrace her 'Lioness'; to embrace the parts of herself that she'd always been afraid of - forever the doormat, the lap cat... never embracing herself in full, never stretching her legs, or her own claws... unless at the behest of another.

Iloam's words had been a slow-acting poison - and the only sort that could harm her now; a poison that gnawed at the edges of her as surely as the demonic impulse did... his revulsion. The man who'd given her a home, and a purpose, and a family when she'd had nothing.

She disgusted him now. She'd survived... and for what? To see loathing in the eyes of her loved ones?

Perhaps anger was best left to simmer - perhaps, if they wanted her to be a monster, she would in time. Perhaps, like that lioness, she should be patient - she would, after all, outlive everyone, now - and the 'sins of the father' were the sort of thing to linger, after all.

So she would respect his final words to her, and leave him alone.

"Yeh aren't goin' ta fool me - so next time yeh see me, walk t'e ot'er way."

Love betrayed had a way of rotting inside a person - of twisting, and befouling waters that once were pure - and rejection of a hand reached out in desperation had a way of amplifying that effect.

But as much as she hated the things he'd said to her - the false accusations, and his paranoia that she wasn't even herself... she hated even more that she was becoming just like him.

#sin'dorei #felblood #wow rp #world of warcraft rp #old rp #thanks for asking! #7 deadly sins #wrath isn't a common one for her #but fighting to get back to someone who helped redefine your life only to have them be disgusted by you bc of what was done TO you? #that was a slap in the face #so she has a complicated set of emotions regarding all this #love and hate and heartbreak and anger #alas she'll probably never get the chance TO try and speak to him again #so this'll just fester for a few centuries

[lloydfrontera]

NOVEL SPOILERS 🖤

Just gotta love the fact that in the final chapters, but really let's face it- the fact that in the ENTIRE novel, it builds up on the viewpoint of Javier on how he constantly fails to protect Lloyd whenever something terrible happens to him, and the fact that in the end, he really wasn't able to protect him, even as the strongest swordmaster in existence, and i just think it's funny how unresolved the whole thing was to the point that Javier thinks he doesn't deserve to cry over Lloyd's final letter to the fronteras znxnncnf

LIKE WHY SAY THAT JAVIER DESPERATELY WANTS TO HELP(he does, really), AND THEN NOT BE ABLE TO ACTUALLY PROTECT HIM manxnnxndjdh though, granted, in the final scene they did simultaneously protect each other cliche-ly via getting stabbed for the other, it's just hilarious how this didn't go anywhere as lloyd died anyway

The narrative really said "Javier can't protect lloyd but he can help in other means, i swear"

I just think that sad boy Javier hours :>>>>>>>>

oh god

oh fuck

you cannot do this to me the damage this ask did to my brain and heart is immeasurable

you are so right tho!! that was. that was a really strange plot thread to leave dangling like that. and like it starts all the way back to cremo! javier gets disappointed in lloyd and leaves him behind to go fight the zesty lobster only to later feel guilty about it because he should've protected lloyd and lloyd almost died because of him. then there's the mastodons incident and javier gets really angry that time because lloyd isn't supposed to put himself in danger! he has people for that! he has javier for that! and yeah this is shown as a good gesture from lloyd because he refuses to put his people in danger for him (and don't misunderstand me it is a good thing) but it's also the start of lloyd not asking for help and wanting to take all the worry by himself. and javier notices that. then there's namaran where once again javier can't find lloyd, he can't protect him, lloyd almost dies again because javier couldn't defeat the hell knight by himself. and javier feels so guilty about it! he starts trying and training and working even harder because! he wants to be strong enough to protect lloyd! and then comes the bone dragon fight where, yet again, javier thinks he failed lloyd and couldn't protect him. literally his last thoughts were about how sorry he was he couldn't save him and how he'd wanted to be there at his side for the rest of his life. favorite scene btw. and then he does! he does manage to save lloyd, he literally turns into a grandmaster to save lloyd (which btw, getting to a level of swordplay that is thought of as imposible just to save your best friend? that's g-)! and you'd think that'd be the end of that right? except that no, lloyd is a little shit who keeps getting into more and more trouble each time more dangerous than the last. and while javier doesn't struggle as much physically to protect him, now lloyd's problems start being of a kind javier can't help him with as essily! especially because lloyd refuses to let him know how he can help! and in lloyd's mind that makes sense, because he knows javier wouldn't even doubt to give his life in his place (even if he's like absolutely wrong in the reasons on why. which is. a topic for another post. we'll get to that. oh trust me. we're gonna get to that) but it does cut off javier from doing anything to help him! it cuts him off from a major part of the plot! and javier notices! he tries so hard to be there for lloyd, he gives lloyd so many chances to be truthful, he confronts him several times, hoping lloyd will trust him to tell him how can he help... and lloyd doesn't. he has his reasons but at the end it just comes out as him not trusting javier enough to let him help.

and that's never resolved! javier never gets the chance to be in equal footing to lloyd when it comes to resolving the situation! lloyd never actually tells him anything! correct me if im wrong but lloyd never even tells him he's not actually,,, well, he never tells him he got isekai'd! javier finds out on his own, he pieces it together all by himself and then the letter where lloyd tells the truth isn't even for him.

and i'm not saying javier should've died in lloyd's place, i kinda don't love when choosing to die is shown to be a heroic, always right, selfless, good act, honestly that's part of why i am ok with lloyd's sacrifice at the end. because it's shown to be a tragedy, something he desperately didn't want to do, something he fought so hard against, something he really didn't want to choose and it's meant to be sad, we're not meant to be satisfied or content with it.

but i do think not even telling him takes away so much of javier's agency, it cuts him off from further character development and like you say! it's just! a plot threat that's left dangling. it's never resolved, it's never addressed, we're just meant to see javier struggle with the feeling that he can't protect lloyd and then failing to protect him at the end, feeling so guilty about it he doesn't even allow himself to grieve for him.

maybe we're meant to see his admission of missing him and wanting to see him again at all costs as him finally being able to do something in order to protect and save lloyd? it is a thing that was mentioned very often, how javier constantly admits to himself that lloyd is a better person than he thought and how he does think they're best friends but also is not willing to say it out loud, so maybe him bring willing to broadcast it to everyone in order to get to lloyd is the pay off for that? but it feels a bit,,, unsatisfying. i do love it! like javier admitting how much he loves and misses lloyd, annoying one of the most powerful beings in his world and hopping universes to get to lloyd? absolutely amazing, i love it, wouldn't change a thing. but it does feel like they didn't address one of his biggest insecurities except to confirm it to the most extreme degree.

ANYWAY ALL THIS TO SAY you are very right, the narrative did say "fuck you" to javier, and it is sad hour times for our favorite knight 😔

unrealistic that we didn't get a montage of javier being extremely over protective of suho after getting him back. he probably would refuse to leave his side for a good while, being too afraid to even go to sleep because what if something happens and he isn't fast enough to protect him yet again? i will admit that is a good sandbox to built hurt/comfort fics 🤭

#the greatest estate developer #the greatest estate developer spoilers #lloyd frontera #hey i got an ask #lunacurse #plus i was talking to lazyandalittlebitcrazycat about the competition at the end #and we both agreed miss ella should've participated #are you telling me that this man. who's been fighting all this time. going through so much. literally ascended to a new plane of existence. #all in order to protect suho only to fail and get a miracle second chance. would trust someone else to protect the person he cares the most #about?? and even worse that person is being chosen with a competition that anyone could enter??? like yeah he could probably assume that #alicia would win but crazier things have happened what if something goes wrong what if the person chosen isn't someone they can trust #what if they accidentally choose someone who isnt that good what if they don't choose the right person what if they fail to protect him too #there's too many risks he can't allow that he isnt willing to play with lloyd's safety like that #so he'd definitely enter the competition and absolutely trash everyone except for alicia who he does trust and is willing to yield to #ajdkajdkad #but because he is disguised most people don't recognize him and think miss ella is a very talented knight who's very in love with suho #but who gave up her rightful spot as the winner in order to respect the queen only to mysteriously dissappear out of heartbreak #so now a lot of the country believes suho has three extremely talented sword masters in love with him. except two of them are just. javier. #he's 2/4 of the hypothetical polycule ajdkajska #btw that last part was just me rambling crazycat just told me about miss ella entering the competition #everything else is from my own harvest lmao #god i really love to not shut up don't it akdjals #i talk a lot <3 #javier asrahan #tged

[willowser]

For me the saddest/favorite trope for pirate kiri (and also any "canon" pro-hero story) is when it's the reader who doesn't come "home", dies, something bad happens to etc.

Because in these situations both reader and kiri/the pro-hero are kinda ready for him not to come back? They know it's a possibility, even something very likely to happen and they probably thought a lot about it and readied themselves for it. But when it's the reader? Kiri isn't ready for that, he never thought about that possibility because reader leads such a safer life compared to him so he wasn't ready for it and I think that's even more heartbreaking?

I don't know how to explain it but it just hits so hard and I love it.

Have an amazing day and keep up the awesome work!

stop this is LITERALLY it. there are two wolves inside of me. the absolute heartbreak in a hero being able to save EVERYONE but his loved ones is SO AHFBDJDBAK but i am 🥺 too soft 🥺 and i cannot read or write it I CAN'T 😭

but you are so right like. they're ready for it. as best as they can be. it's like an inescapable fact that they are going to eat it in some dangerous situation bc that's the life they've chosen for themselves !! and for you, their whole heart, to die before them for whatever reason is like. so unfair STOP. i can just picture them — whoever — being like, "it should have been me," and that KILLS ME. i could never write it. i could never read it. the closest i could ever come to is like. pro-hero x oc and then the oc dies and we come in in the aftermath. and it wouldn't ever be the same, but at least our pro would be able to find love again 🥺

#i have to have a happy ending !!! #i have to !!! #i will die !! #on the pirate kiri note can you imagine him coming back to find you and he only finds your grave 🥺 #oh that man is. distraught #he is eternally married to the seven seas now he is never going on land if he can help it #wants to go down with his ship and that's IT #SAD I CANT #it does hit so hard friend you are so right !!! #i hope that you are well !! and thank you for hand delivering this heartbreak 🥺 kissing you ! #bnha #✿ ask willow

[whatudottu]

// mun of @honor-cxde here -- THOSE COMICS THO. lays on the ground and sobs PERFECTION

You mean @brookriver's comics? Heck yeah what a powerful sock rocking one-two punch comic pair, makes me mourn not only for Skyquake (as i am want to do) but also for Cliffjumper who's essentially just the 'this EPIC series has DEATH 🔥😎🔥' punching bag, like- perfection indeed!

#ask #pacis-quod-alcedonia #not only did this take according to my handy dandy timestamps 11 hours to answer because 'day occupied' #but also be trying to math out 'okay what comics have i recently reblogged' #if you happen to be referring to another comic that's flying over my head because i'm bad at math? woops! #but brookriver you deserve so much kudos for your work equally heartbreaking (part 1) as it is tear jerking (part 2)