#but how brightly it burns in the meantime. how dearly and fearlessly mordred & those like him lived and lived and lived

[meowww-ffxiv]

I make a single OC who's 100+ years old and I'm already oooo oooooo we can fit so much shit into this guy.

I think vieras who lived among other races and who outlived many of them would develop a kind of strange in-between of being a tired old person and being...well, their age, in viera years. And then if they had partners who passed before them...

Cooking, cooking.

#chattery #as this relates to maedwyn: hes over the heartbreak within the first 3 decades #now he just has relationships with the full expectation theyre gonna go to hell in a handbasket at some point n it became #a self fulfilling prophecy loool #so far his relationships had only twice ended in him living out the years with his spouses #the rest are like. arsenic. betrayal. getting sold to garleans. watching your lover get publicly executed in dalmasca. #killing your lover in self-defense. yourself pulling strings to kill your lover because you found out they were a specific sort of awful #watching youngsters you mentored turn on you. watching them split off and go die young for a cause. lament. knowing you can do nothing #why do you risk your life. this question maedwyn had asked a hundred times to many hundred people #their answers are all different but the conviction and courage and faith they had were colors in the same kaleidoscope #so he is still here. he still recruits and guides and mentors and helps #meteion journeyed across the stars and found only the wish for death #maedwyn mired himself in two hundred years of mortality and found hearts bright as nova explosions in the mud all around him #it's why he is mordred's friend. drawn helplessly to that flame knowing it will one day soon burn out #but how brightly it burns in the meantime. how dearly and fearlessly mordred & those like him lived and lived and lived