#unless im REALLY out for the count...

[green-tea-lemonade]

Hi! Your solnep art is so cute! Ive never considered that ship before, but given nepetas type, i could totally see it working out. Keep up the good art 💚💛💚💛

y'all are making me emotional by the sweet comments 😭thank you guys so muchhhhh!!!

its fair that folks dont consider them really but i think with working them out a little more and actually having them interact more, theyd honestly be pretty good together in any quadrant. even if its just generally chill friends at first and overtime growing a bit closer (which is how i kind of always viewed that working out).

#art #digital art #homestuck #procreate #nepeta leijon #sollux captor #solnep #whenever you guys send me messages i cry little happy tears because its like #wow!!!! people like the little chaos ship!!! #i wholeheartedly believe their relationship works the absolute best in future settings and when older #unless you count like the little bloodswap au but thats a whole different setting and story #truth is these two would have been absolutely killer to see together and i think its a shame we dont actually really see them interact much #like yeah sollux knows shes the weird kitty girl but shes also a mauling machine and i think a reminder of that would be funny #just the eyebrow raise of like “oh yeah she has tea parties but she also ripped a bears throat out with her teeth” #and nep would be a little boost in his pessimism and when she hears him talk badly about himself #:33 < lux if i hear another murmurr about you thinking your work is trash im going curb stomp that frown into a smile

[six-of-ravens]

think I've figured out what bugs me so much about Natasha Pulley's work - every female character who could potentially interfere with the ~gay couple~ is portrayed in a negative light

#there's something else about it that bugs me too. like. something about her depiction of history... #i started the kingdoms and im trying to puzzle out why it's not really working for me #also i swear this author KEEPS GIVING HER GAY CHARACTERS WIVES for NO REASON #she literally just wants to portray the wives as bitches #but like. WHY ADD THEM?? WHY MAKE ALICE JOE'S WIFE??? #she did that and then immediately went 'well alice is a rapist and a bad mother then!!' like girl. you could have just made them like #co-inhabitants of this house. and not married. and Lily could be related to Joe in some other way if you NEED a kid... #idk. im still bitter about pepperharrow lol where the eofe finally started being treated like a human and not a fucking chess piece #and then killed herself for her husband basically. SHE DIDN'T HAVE TO DIE. THERE WERE A TON OF SOLUTIONS!! #but no. we can't have sweet baby Mori having a wife after he ran away to England to live with his gay lover nooooooo #WHY EVEN MAKE HIM MARRIED JUST SO YOU CAN KILL HIS WIFE OFF. SHE COULD'VE BEEN HIS HOUSEKEEPER OR SMTH #this has gotten away from me. I just don't like it tho. #if there were any female characters that were portrayed positively though and not treated like a Threat to the Gay I'd feel better #but there aren't so far #unless you count the absentee Madeline #the only female character treated well so far is Joe's daughter Lily and she's two

[healingheartdogs]

Cardio said my echocardiogram ultrasound, exercise stress test, and week long heart monitor all showed no serious issues, my resting heart rate is fine, but that my heart rate does seem to rise very rapidly under even small amounts of stress (postural changes, taking stairs, casually walking around my house) and rises very high (160+ bpm according to the monitor) so now I get to be put on beta blockers to see if they work and if they do she said that is sufficient evidence to confirm for sure that it's POTS.

Obviously could confirm it as well with a tilt table test but those are TORTURE based off what I've heard from fellow POTSies so I am very thankful that she doesn't think that's necessary and will not be making me do one.

#i was not expecting to get dx and meds this fast tbh but im very happy about it #i think the fact that she also has POTS herself helps because she is very well acquaintaned with what it looks and feels like #and how hard it is to actually catch with orthostatics in office unless youre having a bad heart day #so my orthostatics not being within range was unsurprising to her and she was like #'that doesnt mean anything you clearly still have a heart rate issue going on even if it didnt show itself right now' #i didnt do shit the entire week i had that monitor on to like physically exert myself but my heart rate still hit almost 170 a few times #also the doctor who did my stress test asked me if i ever experience any chest discomfort or pain and i was like hm no dont think so #and he went 'your chart says you have palpitations though?' #and i was like '... those count as discomfort???' akdjaicidjwjcjsn the answer is yes apparently #im just so used to them now because i have them daily that they dont even really register to me anymore #unless theyre bad enough to knock the wind out of me or make me cough #they just make me anxious which... ig is also a form of discomfort #chronic illness and chronic pain problems though lol not having a normal baseline for discomfort and pain #ndr #not dog related #health stuff #not that anyone probably cares lol but im excited about getting things that have neen affecting me for years FINALLY figured out #im not crazy im just disabled!!!! #*been

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

scene of all time

#cant believe i wrote a fic where holodoctor helps yaz save her literally like 10 months ago #also started a fic the other day where yaz tries out how adaptive the hologram in 1903 really is by kissing her #have not finished that one yet but i do feel very validated rn #anyway how do you think an ai doctor based on All Doctors would differ from any individual doctor #i mean we can sorta see right but i mean like. #i guess my question is more like how much of those 2000 years does any individual regeneration have access to/is based on #bc like 13 is way more reacting to like s10 than s4 or smth you know what i mean #but in this ai s10 and s4 would weigh equal maybe? #unless you make it so that the further back it is the less it counts but idk if you'd WANT to do that #bc like it reacts to tegan and ace as 5 and 7 so should way more be based on that than like any more recent stuff #so it like. uses certain memories based on certain triggers #im not smart enough for this which is why i just spend my time thinking about yaz kissing the hologram #i think it'd feel like warm and buzzy like a tv what do you think #i think it'd be fun

[eldenringle]

Ah lads, the Depression is hitting again...

#sometimes i wonder if i should try out mood stabilizers #i dont really have mania i dont think unless going full bonkers hyperfixation mode counts #but the lows are LOW and SUDDEN #ugh #its probably just the Life Circumstances and Isolation but goddamn do i wish i could cure the brain with drugs #its not even that i want a happy pill or whatever #i just want a “stop my brain from saying kys any time im not 100% fully occupied with something else” pill

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

hate how im now at a point where im legit like kicking my legs and grinning like an idiot over fictional characters SEND HELP

#take One Guess who im talking about. YES ITS KOI BOI #hes so prettyyyyy and cute and lovely and i love looking at him i wanna hear him speak and laugh and sing just AAAAAAAAAAAA #(turns to my own brain) BITCH WE ARE MEANT TO BE AROACE WHY ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH TWO FICTIONAL CRIMINALS WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING????? #my brain: (that fuckin anime girl gif from evangelion (i think??)) #like fuuuuuck man is it self shipping if u use a proxy? like. hes an oc but he's a stand in for me. he is me and i am him but we also arent #he is his own person and i am my own our lives are very very different but i use him to express love for Mad Dog and Koi Boy #cause they could actually love him if i were in their world i wouldnt stand a chance but my boy has one so he loves them for me #its far easier to imagine him kissing them than it is for me to imagine myself kissing them but that might be because im wired weird #idk it *feels* like it counts yknow. my dumbass out here gettin jealous when i see a Certain Ship cause like i disagree with it on #a Fundamental Level. and on TOP of that half the time the art is so CUTE and im like 'motherfucker that should be ME' or i guess my lad but #STILL am i making sense?? doesnt help that i worry im like. misreading what content i have but also fuck you i can do what i want and also #i get him more than yall kgyugkhjhk (jk jk. Unless) basically when i call them my boyfriends i fuckin mean it #look its Real Missing Nishiki Hours i love him i wanna kiss his perfect face someone shoulda shown him love i could save him and he could #make me worse <3 I Want Him #and do not get me wrong i may be focused on him but Majima is still my wifey too!!! hes mine you cant have her <3 #i just have koi boy brainrot i very much desire them Both (YES THAT MIGHT BE WHY I SHIP THEM TOO LOOK I ALSO THINK THEYD WORK WELL TOGETHER #OR AT LEAST HAVE A FUN DYNAMIC TO EXPLORE I SHOULD DATE THEM AND THEY SHOULD DATE EACH OTHER WE ALL HAVE 2 HANDS) #might delete this in the mornin who knows but im feelin silly i wanna talk about them i wanna talk about my boy but idk if ppl would really #GET IT yknow i can think of maybe Two People and that INCLUDES bestie but just aaaa point is i love my koi boy so much hes so lovely <3 <3

[rubberbandballqueen]

i just think that as a chemistry major i shouldn't be forced to take biology classes that expect me to memorize the everything to pass. i need some kind of "biology for chemistry majors" where they emphasize the techniques a living thing has at its disposal to remain at homeostasis and then look at how all these parts come together to form a complex living organism undergoing constant holistic processes to remain at equilibrium. i don't need to know what a golgi apparatus is called i just need to know how it serves its function in the complex process of transforming A into B

#had to google golgi apparatus just now to know what it does (process lipids n protiens apparently) i haven't been in a bio class since 2016 #my classmates in o chem would usually conplain to me abt the bio classes forcing them to memorize a bunch of #species that fall under certain taxonomic classifications bc their specificities Would show up on the exam #n i'm just like. that is a horror show. why do i need to be able to id 36 types of mollusks. #i'm probably Also like this bc i haven't taken a bio class since 2016 unless you count high school physiology then 2018 #the worm speaks #my thoughts on academia are pretty much always 'this sucks please let me test into the very specific credentials i want' #bc academia tends to assume that the things i wanna research are the things i wanna teach but that is actually untrue #mostly bc my fave parts of chemistry are the very foundational things n what i like abt teaching it is that you have to balance #accuracy with generality so that new students don't get totally lost in the details of it all or spend too much time focused on a niche #my interest in discussing w/experts mostly extends out to 'okay tell me the new findings. ooo cool i'll incorporate that' #'good luck with your problem tho' no interest in helping out with specifics. only interested in being able to communicate knowledge #the stuff i'd have more interest in discussing and researching lie more in the arts. i do love discussing a good symbolism #probably bc i can also accept that there's never really one exact answer! like what if i do a stem research and then im just Wrong. #art and the human condition on the other hand!! let's go let us gather the Contexts and then Discuss!!!

[piningprecussionist]

(Not an rp ask)

What is your opinion on chau x kim? I'm not a shipper of it myself but I heard it was a proship since knives is 17 but also I saw she was 18 in the comic so I'm not sure where to stand on it honestly. But I'd like to hear your opinion about it !! Sorry if this is a bit of a random ask (ーー;

You're completely fine!! Do not even worry about it.

So, yeah- When Scott first meets Knives, and I'm not entirely sure how much time passes between then and when they start dating, it was *literally* her seventeenth birthday, as I am reminding myself reading back over these panels presently. And then at the start of book six, the first time we see (real, non-dream,) Knives, she has apparently been eighteen for a week!

Now, I'm going to preface with a little something before I go further into this: I am totally fine answering this ask and others like it I think! but, I will note, I do get like a (not fun) physical sensation in my chest- partly anxiety (lol) but also something else I think- thinking about them like 95% of the time- it's gotta be like. Handled The Right Way, if that makes sense. Let's get into it.

So, first off, I'm just gonna re: some of the stuff relative to this I've posted here before- both nonrp and rp, since I use RP to develop my read on Kim and shed some light on how I see things I guess!

These clips come from this ask (and reblog) here!

This rp ask here, which is simply too difficult for me to get in a good screenshot I feel, so I recommend just checking it and the tags for it out- I will share my Bonus Commentary reply though:

This ask as well! Tags less pressing, but still provide a little insight.

And this is probably a dumb inclusion if I really want to make a pseudonym to post fics under, but. I have posted my (very early) thoughts on the SPTO sparks scene to AO3 before, so- (and before going into this- I did remember that Julie and Gideon have that sparks scene after the fact!)

And here's the Barely Anything Lines hinting at the ship that I had in that fic that I used to justify that blurb, while we're here:

I think I've gone over my feelings a little bit in the discord as well, and there might even be more rp stuff relative to it, but I'm not going to go back and get any of that honestly- at least, not right now, or unless requested, since I don't really feel like it's necessary, if it does exist. This gives a pretty good glimpse in I'd say- especially that second to last one there.

So. Yeah.

Used to ship it; have expanded my horizons since then. I don't really want to knock it because like... for some people this is a legitimate life experience for them- one that might have even turned out well, miraculously. And there also a lot of minors in this fandom evidently, so like, any other baby gays out there just wanting to Project for a minute? I feel that. Sincerely I do. It's not the wisest choice but better to read fanfiction about it than go out and actually make out with a 23 year old, Gods forbid. (Genuinely felt sick thinking about that; fucking gross. Any minors out there: Please Make Good Choices. Look out for yourselves. Begging you. There are too many freaks in this world- I promise you whoever you're thinking of probably isn't the magical exception.)

But there are definitely things to consider about them that are very interesting to me, still, so like. I'm in this weird state of conflict; I don't know if it's just me being like "it happened, you can't escape it" or having been desensitized/some sort of Brainwashed by how many times I had to use Knives in the game to quick heal- maybe something else but I just don't feel like flaying myself open like that unprompted for just anyone- but like. Oh man.

Sorry, gathering/writing this that feeling like went away but came circling back for this last bit, it seems. Which makes sense I guess. I feel like I'm setting myself up for a Pyre right now eugh shfsgkjfhjg

I dunno. I'm not gonna lie and pretend like I know it to be some big formative ship for me in my early teen years, but it was kind of important in finally coming around to realizing how queer I was, I think. My memories of the time are fuzzy, but it would have been one of the things- there were likely larger ones, my current obsession could be recoloring my past here so I'm trying to acknowledge that.

But there is like. A dynamic that is posited by them that is also one I'm a really big sucker for. More so now than I was then, so I find myself grinding my teeth about that a fair bit at times.

I definitely still really like it as something unrequited no matter what I think; I like the idea of Knives having a really big crush on Kim, genuinely. I think it's cute and funny as hell for how uncomfortable it would make Kim, who's just trying so hard not to be a fucking creep while this ray of sunshine hangs off her- something she absolutely does not deserve (in her eyes.)

I'm obviously more partial to Kim resisting any advances made at her, but I can understand so, so badly why someone might be attracted to the idea of Knives managing to thaw some of Kim's frigidity with that. Ugh.

If they work for me, I think they'd have to work for me after Knives is gone at college for a bit. Kim would need to know Knives for longer than she knew her as a minor- and they'd have to be FRIENDS in that time, quite strictly. Kim would need to not feel (intensely, because frankly, she would unavoidably feel this way at least a little no matter what,) like she was a fucking groomer going into it, basically. I don't know what I think past that.

You know, I'll put my feelings like this: with the exception of a fic I saw recommended to someone that intrigued me, I have managed to resist reading any/many fics featuring them, despite it being a large majority of the wlw Kim fics that exist, and also kinda just Kim fics generally. It's kind of Insane, especially considering how much Kimona SCREAM at you from the pages of the comic itself- but I digress....

I've been working on this for like over an hour now I think so I really should cut myself off. I am like,, too hungry and mildly stoned to be rambling off about this maybe. If you want more concise/specific thoughts, I recommend prompting! I can try and channel the responses easier with a bit more direction, maybe?

...

actually another thing real quick- I like. Do not know that I could ever feel comfortable, truly, consuming content for them, not knowing if the OP has good intentions. I just Do Not trust people, largely, so that's just like. A little thing. Idk. "Death to the author" or whatever but I am still allowed to feel personally uncomfortable ya know! I don't want them taking my silent observation as like,, passive acceptance in the event that they were. Idk if that makes sense, I need to go eat already, I'm hitting post before i drag this out to TWO hours

#w oof. that was a doozy. mostly just on account of how long ive been working at it #but yeah. they fuck me up in some sort of way idk man. i cannot stress enough how much i want to bite people that are freaks about knives + #+ btw. like Going For The Throat I Need You To Bleed Out And Die want to bite people. so even considering it casually i find myself feeling #+like i am a massive hypocrite with the word scrawled in blood across my back or something. but im just a starving gay sdfjkhjsd #and i love Kim So Much. Denying myself Kim content is Actual Hell. and I have persisted. #(i mean. i also probably read some of this stuff back when i was a teenager. so. idk how much im really denying myself. but it's the + #+ thought that counts right? right?? hh... i likely dont remember any of them anyway so. it should totally count.) #ooc #txt #glitterminionking12 #am i really gonna put these in the tags.... hhhh yeah i guess i am #if any of the people that know me read this and can see i am shooting myself in the foot here please slap me in the discord i'll understand #i might just be having a Moment #sp comic #spvtw #spto #kim pine #knives chau #possibly the only post- unless i get asked about it more- that is gonna get the ship tag for them i guess? what even is their ship name... #ship stuff #no seriously what is their ship name im sitting here blanking i dont know how to tag this for people that dont wanna see it. or do i guess #knikim #sounds kinda like knick-em in my mind so im doing that for now #since starting to type any of the ones i thought of doesnt make a suggested tag pop up or anything #if there is one someone please tell me maybe and ill tag it #long post #headcanons #i guess? #spvtwtg #forgot that one

[cosmic-cd]

thinking about leon again tonight

#cosmo rambles #i need to get back to playing around with the Hazel and Leon get Eeby Deebied to Hisui thing #because i think still the dynamic of leon being very athletic and strategic while hazel is more on the artsy side and is like #more ideal in a support role is really fun #leon willing to go out there and wrestle a garchomp while gushing about how fantastic it is at physical attacking #while hazel sits by and sketches it for the pokedex and makes little notes about what they found in the environment #leon building himself a new team around types he's never tried before and picking the weaker starter to hazel's to give himself a challenge #hazel somehow letting leon goad her into actually taking a rival role against her despite never really having rivals before #unless you count blue making her so so so so mad but that's unrelated. she'll fight him without a pokemon #leon's understanding of battle mechanics and what each pokemon needs to thrive and what it's capable of beyond just its typing delights me #while hazel tends to be like me- less strategic and more about getting those type advantages in LOL #also having two trainers taking on nobles and filling the dex with their own roles to make things smoother is fun #but also because im imagining leon and hazel sitting together as hazel draws and talking as they peacefully watch pokemon from afar #or running for their lives together or riding on wyrdeer's back together #on top of that just. the two of them going to paldea together for a temporary teaching gig and getting swept into things #keeping an eye worriedly on students and Oh God No What Do You Mean the World is Ending. Again #theyll go on a vacation to kalos after this. and because XY has already happened theres no stress there #they just get to get into some mega evolution training. the most stress is red blue and green show up like hiiii #red and leon get into the most heated rivalry imaginable and hazel is being pulled away from her pokepuffs #god this is getting so long. im just thinking so hard im sorry IF YOU READ THIS FAR THANK YOU IM SORRY

[aa0akaace]

Every passing day I get so close to just snapping and making a fursona and going full furry

#for context this is because i keep getting recommended fursuit making videos and i know how to sew so it looks really fun to make #also i probably should have seen this coming because i used to read nothing but warrior cats books #and i still watch every new warriors map and amv that comes out and still feel nostalgia from lullaby for a warrior #and i used to only be able to draw animals but now its kinda the opposite because now i cannot draw animals without making them look like #shapes and stuff if that makes sense like you know that very simplified shaped art style #exept for dragons #i can draw dragons really well and im obsessed with reading wings of fire #i might #i might just be a furry already but like #without a fursona or anything #unless my persona counts but they are literally just a person with a bird beak nose and wings so like #half furry? #furry #warriors #warrior cats #wings of fire #wof

[astralcurses]

girl help if i could stop actively seeking out content that triggers me thatd be great

#i keep going to this One blog #bc i have zero impulse control #and i always end up freaking out really badly #i should just block it and be over with but i have Problems #and this is what. third? fourth? maybe fifth time #like. idk what im looking for #closure? some confirmation of something? #why do i keep doing it to myself #my curiosity is one of my fatal flaws istg #yuck #yuckyuckyuck #ive got to stop doing it the outcome never changes unless you count that sometimes it gets Worse #never better #heehoo i need therapy #i feel like puking and i did it to myself #ugh #vent #aster.txt

[glasscannonviktor]

btw my thoughts on s3 are: overall, disappointing :/ the problem is that, for me, this show being a little disappointing is REALLY disappointing - i have a lot of issues with the season but I don’t really enjoy going over them bc it just bums me out lmao, so on here im mostly focusing on the stuff i DID like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#rambles #tua s3 spoilers #I mean. not really lol unless you count ‘disappointing’ as a spoiler #I do however think it wasn’t unsalvageably bad. so im holding out for an s4 #but it’s less of a ‘oh im so excited for s4!!!’ #and more of a ‘god pls let there be a fourth season thats good enough to make up for All That Hogwash’ #the actors tho really killed it like they were doing their BEST with the subpar scripts given #I thank them for their service #the visual effects teams set teams lighting teams and cinematography teams also killed it #there were some very nice visuals this season :)

[dyketubbo]

opened up family echo for fun so i could put in my hcs for dsmp families then realized. i already have one?? oh my god this is from september of last year. captain puffy is still listed as dreams parent. connor is dreams kid. techno is also phils kid here but i know i was just putting that so he was on there

#i dont really think ctechno counts as cphils kid i think phil did know techno when the latter was a kid but i think they were more #mentor and apprentice that were sort of like father and son but wouldnt really say that if asked #bc i cant really see ctechno as being a seasoned immortal i think it fits more that hes still just in his 20s #but mentor and apprentice makes more sense for phil not considering him his kid but rather an old friend #and then with c!clingyduo im keeping the found in a box backstory with ctommy being a village kid #though i think ctommy did get taken under cwilburs wing as a teenager and was allowed to stay over so he had somewhere to be- #-while going through servers since i think something could have happened to his village unless the set on fire thing was exclusive to eryn #and then around smpearth time wilbur moved out and let clingyduo follow out and do what they wanted #does this timeline perfectly line up? probably not. but dont worry about it #anyways thats a lot of explanation #basically. i completely wiped this existing family tree from my memory #and i dont remember why i made it #but whatever lol i can make a new one #mask mews #dsmp

[coffeeaddictandinsomniac]

because i am weird, i put down everything i read into a spreadsheet. i don't know whether to be amazed or worried that i have read 5.5 million words this year and it's only april.

#caiffee spills #this includes fanfics and novels and the such #might be a little off since there are some that i do forget to put in or don't put in because i only read a really small portion of them #and like i can't always get a proper word count for the novels and the like #i have little sections for whether its a fanfiction or not too lol #fanfics are like 70% of it #i put genres in that section too #the next highest one is paranormal with 4 lol #i also have the amount of time it took for me to read them #right now there's an outlier since a fic i was reading was updating pretty regularly and i would read it as it came out #so i didn't put the end date until it stopped updating regularly #but besides that one the longest it took for me to read a fic is 9 days lol #anything that takes less than a day i put in as 0.25 unless i spent a good majority of the day reading it #then i put 0.5 #i do not understand how the days amount to 131.5 since we're only on day 114 #im not good at math i just put things in lol

[be-good-to-bugs]

i need to go to bed but i dont wannnaaaaa

#the bin #i work at 7am and its 1:23 am i have GOT to go to bad but ugh. if i go to bed then that means ill have to go to work as sokn as im conscious #so the longer i stay up the more time i have. but km gonna be so tired at work. hhhhh. #i dont know why but ive felt so horrible today. super anxious. miserable and really sad #im trying to just deal with it. soon enough things are gonna change. its only 34 days till my planned moving date. i will only bave like 20 #more shifts at this job. maybe less depending on what i get given. including tomorrows shift. and tomorrows shift is only 5 hours long #and the day after its only 4 hours and then i have 2 more days off. itll be ok. but i still feel so anxious and depressed and awful #i just wanna stay home and be high all the time. i feel so lonely always. literally the only thing that helps me not feel completely crushed #and paralyzed by how lonely i am is getting high. i know its not healthy to rely on getting high to feel better about stuff but idk what #else to do so who cares. when i dont do anything about it i i stead end up relapsing or worse so i think its an ok option #i hope i can meet nice people this year. year after year it doesnt happen but so much has changed! #it makes sense i havent met people since i moved out. and everything is so different from wwhen i last lived with them #all my siblings are in school. they have people over at the hair a fair bit afaik. my dad wont be there to me make feel awful. my sister #also wont be there to me me feel awful. i can figure something out. itll be ok. it has to be. #i just want to squeeze someone. i just want like. a hug. a good cuddle. and i need to talk to someone. its been so long since u had an actul #fun time hanging out with another person. i need to watch a movie with someone and joke around and. ugh. #how did my life reach this point? what happened that resulted in me spending ages 10-19 all alone. im not even 19 yet but i will be soon #and theres not a chance ill meet someone before then esp bc im moving. when i was little i didnt have mych friends but i had some #i had such high hopes for the future. i also thought the future would be terrible but i imagined id still have friends and peopwl to talk to #all ive wanted sincei was 10 is just to have people to talk to and hangout with. but i dont have a single friend. i can hardky name anyone #besides my family and coworkers. and like aa couple of my sisters friends. there isnt even like people i know who i dont really consider #friends but we talk sometimes. if i dont go to work. call my mom. or tex a sibling. i dont see or talk to anyone period #i guess unless i go to the store. that doenst really count tho. #i want to have a friends group. i want to have A friends. just like. a person. to interact with. what happened that made mw spend the past #8 years just not interacting with anyone? whats wrong with me. #its fine tho. becausebit will change. i acan heal from this and i can meet people. even if half my conscious life has been spent all alone #it will get better. it has to.