#tw picking

[halfsizehellboy]

oh man okay. more thinking

hot shit do i feel enlightened bc audhd House makes so much sense to me!!! he surrounds himself with chaos and novelty and stimulation but still adheres to things that don't change-- his apartment, when he lives in it, it always set up the same way. it's mentioned he's had the same guitar for many years, as well as numerous medical texts. He uses his same red mug all the time at the hospital (he has a designated hospital mug. it lives at the hospital and he only uses it at the hospital). he is very adamant about his office space-- it only changes drastically for him in season 8. just before he leaves. he and Wilson have a fun schedule-- bowling nights, poker nights, etc-- and he does spontaneous stuff all the time, but he orchestrates it. he enacts enrichment time for his fellows and Wilson. he canonically spaces out during/stops processing conversations all the time because he's thinking. he will forget to do basic things while on cases, and there's that one episode where he stays up all night because he's cooking something. he is the king of "shit i forgot to eat. i forgot to shower and pee. i forgot--"

while im thinking of eating!! he has that bad hunger recognition. he will forgo eating for days for cases, fixations, pain levels. he usually eats off of wilson's plate anyways, and i think wilson mainly eats because he's made it part of routine, and that if he forgets to eat house definitely forgets to eat, and that usually ends badly. i dont think house has any specific avoidances but he does usually go for pizza, or anything wilson's made. he likes fries.

the adhd bit makes him more prone to addiction (it's a real thing) and he does show those behaviors (vicodin, alcohol). he has to have either the puzzles or the substances, taking him off both fucked with him a lot (mayfield and afterwards). in prison he got managed doses of vicodin, and he was getting antsy and desperate for the challenge of a good case towards the end of that arc. he all but jumps on that heat allergy guy, risking his chances of parole multiple times to try and get close. side note, did y'all see his equation scribblings on the wall by his bunk? hes so silly

ive also been thinking like. we see very large-scale self destructive behaviors from nearly everyone in the show but we don't see a lot of self-regulation outside of house's stimming so that means i get to make up my own and project onto wilson.

wilson spends a lot of time masking at work so we don't see him fully let loose and i think that he is a fan of full body movement. he's jumping up and down. he's pacing the apartment and swingin his arms. he sways and rocks in place. at the hospital and places that aren't safe he keeps the stim energy to his hands/fingers, or taps his foot/bounces his leg-- things easy enough for neurotypicals to pass off as nervous energy. he loves to click pens but he only does it when he's alone or with house because he knows that other people find it annoying (house doesn't care, he starts clicking/tapping too and it's like they're drumming together). he and house learned morse code and annoy the ducklings and cuddy with it all the time.

bad times wilson scratches a lot (this is me projecting btw). at his scalp, at his arms, anywhere he can get to; and usually he's self conscious enough to do it where he can hide it under his clothes (house is unaffected and can tell anyways)(usually because he's there trying to help wilson stop scratching)(but if he's not he can still tell and wilson doesn't wanna know how). he also presses/rubs his face a lot (in general and not just bad times wilson), and bad times wilson gets abrasions on his eyelids/cheeks from his sweatshirt when he has a meltdown. i've seen another person talk about this, but i think he absolutely tears his cuticles up. he's managed to stop biting/tearing his nails down to nothing but between vigorous scrubbing for the OR and not liking lotion (sensory bad. i need it for my arms and the backs of my hands sometimes and i always wipe it off of my palms and fingers) his hands are so dry. house makes fun of him but he does carry around a nail file because he's trying to stop picking at his fingers regularly, and limit it to a bad times emergency regulatory behavior.

house fights meltdowns to the death. he hates having them, he hates having to be vulnerable like that (and that's a canonical trauma response). he has held one off through sheer will for an entire week before wilson called out sick for him and made him take a day off. they ended up taking a long weekend to recover. on the occasion they're both melting down at the same time, it's a multiple days affair. wilson will recognize what's happening and try to make sure everything in the apartment is low effort and accessible from the floor because house's meltdowns are more often than not pain response and that means that house stays on the floor. and when wilson is melting /neg he doesn't want to leave house. on a sillier(?) note they have a tally/competition for shortest meltdown (wilson), longest meltdown (house), fastest to meltdown (house), longest amount of time spent holding off a meltdown (house), most efficient meltdown (wilson), and most meltdowns located in the hospital (wilson).

man i'm gonna have to make a fic for this, it's getting wild just on posts

#audhd house #house md #autistic wilson #autism #adhd #tw scratching #tw picking #tw harmful self regulatory behaviors/stimming #sorry if i forget the tws for the other posts i m. tryin real hard :(

[sisterstims]

peeling glass (source)

#stim #sensory #stim gif #pink #tw picking #tw peeling #hands #♟

[wishtale-blogs]

:)

Picking at myself be I cannnn

Why can’t I stop???

It hurts and I hate blood so why do I do this to myself???

#wish vents #tw vent #tw mentions of blood #tw picking

[allgather]

feeling my big feelings and wanna get them out. tldr; I am fine & okay, just feeling a lot.

things have felt very difficult for me lately. I am okay, I am safe and loved and cared for deeply, but I am having a lot of emotions about my work and my lack of energy and my mental health and my physical health that make me feel so very tired. fundamentally, I know people are there for me, but I find it so challenging to be going through a rough period because repeatedly going to people for support feels so scary and vulnerable to me. I don’t want to be a person who needs support, and if I do, it can only be once every however many weeks. I am someone who prides myself on being present and there for others- I work in the mental health field and I am a caretaker by nature. it’s hard for me to feel ok accepting help but I want it and I think I need it. but the guilt of continuously receiving/seeking help from the same people makes me ill sometimes, man.

my migraines are getting worse and every time I talk to a doctor about it they tell me I should just get my stress and anxiety under control first, which is such bullshit because losing like one day a week to pain so intense I can only sleep it off is a significant source of stress in my life. I am dealing with a particularly bad period of my ocd and a recent stress breakout is making me pick at my skin near-constantly. I feel really creatively and socially drained even though I want more than anything to be present, to write like I love to do, to spend time messaging my friend. I’m absent and I’m trying not to be but I’m too tired to be anything else.

I don’t know where this is going. I think I just wanted to say it to someone. I’m struggling a little, but I’m doing okay, I really really am. I am sorry I’m not writing and I’m selective with plotting/chatting. I want to be here more than anything, I want to be making wonderful things with my friends, but shit is harder than I’d like it to be. I’m sorry. I am okay. I’m just sorta going through it.

#ooc #tw negative #tw picking

[rouge-wall-enthusiast]

These body focuses behaviors sure do repeat.

#bfrb #dermatillomania #derm #skin picking disorder #body focused repetitive behavior #personal #tw picking #tw blood #pretty please avert your eyes if you don’t relate #do I wish I could not have these spots? #yes #would I lose my fucking mind if I didn’t have them? #also yes #I have a new one now but I don’t think it’ll really last cause it’s so shallow and not in such an accessible place #welp #the ones on my head are never fucking going away #I hope I don’t give myself bald spots #it’s not satisfying for me to pull out my hair #the head spots are challenge mode cause you gotta remove the scabs without the hair #but at least people can’t see them

[scythemichaelfaraday]

I've had this AU idea bouncing around in my head that after Squee is institutionalized someone makes an anonymous call to his lola in the Philippines and she moves to the states and takes him in. He still has a lot of issues to deal with, but his home life is stable at least.

I imagine this Squee is about 14/15 and is attending a health science academy in order to become a health professional because that's what will get him the life he wants faster. Secretly, he wants to become an artist/writer. He also works part time in his lola's little grocery store/restaurant.

Johnny appears suddenly and fucks it all up. I haven't come up with a concrete idea of how they meet again, but it has to do with Johnny's powers acting up.

Shenanigans ensue...

#jthm #jthm fanart #johnny c #johnny the homicidal maniac #squee #todd casil #jthm squee #nny #jthm au #tw picking #we love filipino rep!!!

[teacup-captor]

"what happened to your face what happened" nothint I just have a zit and I need to pick at it but I'm gonna fucking bleed all over and feel silly for bleeding

#tw blood mention #tw picking #ask to tag

[svnny-day]

tfw you somehow manage to tear off a healed scab :,)

#tw picking #haha oops (ow)

[lovely-v]

Buffy season 6 is insane. It’s like what if someone you loved died a meaningful and accepting death but you couldn’t live without them so you brought them back. And against all odds, they didn’t come back wrong, but they didn’t WANT to come back at all, and now they have to learn to live in this world again while resenting their friends and family for taking the death they willingly chose away from them. And existence is hell compared to death because in life they never get a break and never get to rest because they’re constantly needed by everyone. And they can’t chose to die a second time because they know what it would do to their loved ones who still never got over the fact that they died the first time. And also there’s a musical episode.

#veesaysthings #buffy watch #btvs #death tw #this is just the kind of character arc that gets me #not to be all ‘guy who’s only seen lord of the rings’ but HOW IS SHE GOING TO PICK UP THE THREADS OF AN OLD LIFE #screaming and crying

[boredth]

But he's still... John Wick

#I love picking blurry AF scenes to ref #(I will never learn my lesson) #john wick #keanu reeves #blood tw #my art

[finngualart]

drawing eight legs on a horse is so silly and annoying and i was thinking about how they could be more like... spooky astrally projected legs that only appear when said horse is walking between worlds

#horse #skull #tw bones #very cursed how horses have those canine teeth #sleipnir #sketches #pencil #sometimes i feel like not ever picking up a pencil ever again #and sometimes i feel like i should be drawing every waking moment of my life and thats where we are now

[schizopositivity]

i see reminders to take your meds all the time and thats great but heres your reminder to get your meds refilled! to call your pharmacy! to pick up your refills while the pharmacy is still open! you cant take whats not there, its super important that you stay on top of getting your refills

#this post is for me lol i have to tell myself this rn #i was putting off picking up my refills #so now ive been out of my antideppresents and appetite increasers for days and im struggling #tw meds #tw pills #pills #meds #medication #pharmacy #neurodivergent #mental illness #nd #mental health awareness #schizophrenia #schizophrenic #psychosis #actuallyschizophrenic #pseriouslypsychotic

[blueskittlesart]

Now that you're gone

#*guy who just spent a full month selling 60 pages worth of comics voice* i should write another comic #this is part 1 of 2 btw. i have another one scripted from aryll's pov LOL #anyway. the concept for this has been in my head for like. years. finally decided to actually write it tho lol #the thought of his family after the initial calamity strike makes me crazy. they lost him. but he was already gone. #he was gone the moment he picked up that sword. could they have stopped it? should they have? #would things have ended any differently if they'd tried? or would it only have been worse for him? #ANYWAY. hi everyone new black and white zelda comic from the black and white zelda comic guy #skribbles #botw #loz #legend of zelda #breath of the wild #totk #tears of the kingdom #OH SHIT. TRIGGER WARNINGS #tw gore #tw suicide #tw suicidal ideation #<sorry 4 forgetting at first LMAO

[allgather]

iruka & ocd & skin picking.

it starts when he catches a glimpse of it in the mirror- a cut, barely a scab, on his chin- and something pings in his brain. a sudden urge he tamps down just as soon as he registers it. his fingers will still twitch as he runs them over the rough, raised skin, but he keeps himself from scratching at it. restraint is a skill years in the making. breathe through the urge, just satisfy the curiosity.

picking starts absentmindedly as fingers return again and again to feel that out-of-place texture on his chin. the pads of his fingers aren’t enough; his nails scratch the itch in his brain so much better. he doesn’t mean to draw blood, but he doesn’t stop when he does. the urge tells him clearly what it needs to be satisfied: get it out, get it off, now, now, now. and all that’s underneath is blood.

he frowns at the sight the next time he passes the mirror. he prods at the cut, fresh all over again, no closer to healing. bound to scab again, too. his nails need washing, tinted rusty brown, so he scrubs at finger tips until he feels satisfied with the result. his face is another issue. satisfaction evades him here, so he occupies his hands with other tasks. until, inevitably, he digs into raised skin and picks, relentlessly. to appease the constant itch in his brain. to remove the impetus of his discomfort. to provide enough relief to catch his breath.

he needs it gone. he picks. he bleeds. he fails to think of anything else.

#(iruka) #tw skin picking #tw picking #tw blood #tw compulsion

[businessboybrick]

Without spoiling anything, PLEASE be advised that the first three episodes have A LOT of suicide shit in them. Like not just ideation, full on behavior and attempts shown on screen. Huge warning if you have any kind of trigger for suicide

#ofmd #our flag means death #tw sui attempt #im glad out of all the posts I’m gonna make about this season this is the one that. got picked up #peeps need to know #tw suicide

[tempe-brennans]

i have great mental health (rips all the skin off my bottom lip)

#tw picking #(that's what i've always called it/seen it called but if there's something else you want me to tag pls let me know <3) #rebeccaspeaks